Caller Sarah (1:26)

Ish.

Brenda (1:26)

We have the rehearsal and then rehearsal dinner around 7:30. So. Yeah. And it's not for me. I feel like it's not cold feet. I just don't know what to do because now everything. It's about to happen. You know, people are flying in. People have already come in from. From California, from New York. It's just. Yeah. I mean, it's. It's not a small little ceremony. It's. It's the. We're having a. We're having a, you know, just pretty good sized wedding. We've spent thousands of dollars. You know, everyone in my family's involved. It's just. I'm really overwhelmed because I. I know it's not just cold feet, and. And I just. I started Having a feeling, and I just didn't know how to get out of it.

Host 1 (2:23)

When did the feeling of not wanting to do this start?

Brenda (2:27)

When? I guess when he asked me, I was already like, oh, but this is a good time. This is a great guy. Why not? You know, it's time to settle down. But, you know, And I thought it was just me and wanting my independence, but it's not. It's not even that. It's just. I really don't think he's the right guy for me. Just little things, you know, with the traveling, I guess. I don't want to get too specific, but now.

Host 3 (2:52)

How long were y' all engaged?

Brenda (2:55)

Haven't been a year yet.

Host 2 (2:57)

So do you even know if you love him?

Brenda (2:59)

Oh, I do. I do. But just now, for the rest of.

Host 4 (3:04)

My life, I love him. Not in love with him.

Brenda (3:08)

I love him. And maybe a part of me is in love with him. To date him for a while, like. No, no, no, I don't. No. I'm honest with myself. No, no.

Host 3 (3:19)

Actually, I think she's rocking the corner of the ring.

Host 2 (3:22)

Get on a bus to Albuquerque right now. So, as it stands now, though, the pressure to have everybody in town and here is way too great. So you don't even think that even if you wanted to, you could bail at this point?

Brenda (3:37)

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't. I mean, I can see why brides run away now. I just. I feel like running away, but I. A part of me is like, you know what? Just go through with it. Just go through with it and then figure it out later.

Host 2 (3:55)

Socially, I'm curious, you guys. I mean, not that it should have any bearing on your decision at all, but is there more of a stigma attached on the bride that bails on the very last minute when the whole family is there, invitations are out, everybody flies into town, and you bail right before the wedding. Is there more of a stigma attached with that than there is getting a divorce after two months?

Host 1 (4:18)

God, both of them are pretty scandalous.

Host 3 (4:20)

Yeah, I think I would. I mean, as much drama as might take place and much hurt as takes place, I always think it would be better to do it before the ceremony.

Host 1 (4:29)

Definitely.

Host 3 (4:29)

I think I would have more of a judgment call of two months after than I would if somebody said, you know what? I don't think we should go through with this. Because to me, more thought would have been put into place beforehand than right after.

Brenda (4:42)

Well, that's why I'm hoping I see this as a thing. I don't want, you know, things wasted, you know, people's time, people's money.

Host 3 (4:50)

But this is your life. This is your life to me, in.

Brenda (4:53)

Your marriage, really have knowledge, you know, then I just go through with it, and then later go, oh, my gosh. I've been. I tried to work it out. I don't want to make it seem like I premeditated new. And everyone's like, wait a minute. You already have this feeling, you know, I want it to be like, wow, I tried, and it didn't work out. That's. That's. I feel like it's the least. I don't know. I mean, I don't know what to do.

Host 2 (5:23)

Hold on a sec, Brenda.

Host 4 (5:24)

Hold on.

Host 3 (5:24)

She's rocking again.

Host 2 (5:25)

Yeah. Wow.

Host 1 (5:26)

Yeah.

Brenda (5:30)

Yes.

Host 2 (5:30)

I think she's just nervous. Yeah. Hey, Karen, you're on Q100.

Caller Sarah (5:34)

Good morning, everybody. Good morning, Brenda.

Host 2 (5:38)

Brenda, you still. There you go.

Caller Karen (5:41)

So I had that feeling before my wedding, and that was 10 years ago. And I'm now in the process of getting a very contentious divorce with three small children.

Host 2 (5:50)

But what's the difference? Like, how do you know the difference between Coles and. That's just not the right guy. And I should have never done this.

Caller Karen (5:57)

I think the difference is if it's immediately before the ceremony, if it's the overwhelming pressure of all the people in town, if it's. It's all the rigmarole goes with it, if it's the ceremony and the dinner and. Oh, my gosh, I think that's just cold feet. That's. That's butterflies. Mine was in the months leading up to the marriage. It was little question marks on my mind. Not the man for me, but I was where she was. And I said, well, I committed to doing this after I got married. I knew it was wrong, but again, I had committed to doing it. And you don't get married to get divorced. And I stuck with it for a long time. So maybe the difference is. Are you. Are you getting nervous about it now, or were you nervous about it six months ago?

Brenda (6:39)

I had, like you said, that I think, the most perfect way to describe it. Little question marks in my head. That's how it's felt for a while.

Host 2 (6:49)

Than in her opinion.

Host 3 (6:51)

Yeah. And she's got. She's got three small children. She has to explain a divorce to.

Host 2 (6:56)

Hey, Sarah, you're on Q100.

Caller Sarah (6:58)

Hey, good morning.

Host 3 (6:59)

Good morning.

Brenda (7:00)

Hey, hon.

Caller Sarah (7:01)

I understand you're. You're probably just overwrought, but I do want to tell you that before my wedding, I had a bunch of family fly in, too. And every single person in my family. I know that you said you're close to the. And every single person came upstairs and told me before my wedding, if I didn't want to get married, then I didn't have to. It didn't matter how much money we had spent. They just didn't want me to make the wrong decision and have to deal with that for the rest of my life. So I think that your family is definitely going to understand. If you don't want to do this, don't do it.

Host 1 (7:37)

Did you decide not to get married?

Caller Sarah (7:39)

No, no, no.

Brenda (7:39)

I did.

Caller Sarah (7:40)

I did get married. I was very much in love with my husband, so that wasn't even an issue for me. But, you know, it's just the matter of having that support around you and your family unit being there for you. No matter what decision you make. It doesn't matter if you're an hour away from walking down the aisle. If you don't want to do it, don't do it.

Host 2 (7:59)

Yeah. I mean, for your friends and your family, if you bail last minute, is it a pain in the ass? Oh, yeah. Did they waste some money? Oh, yeah. But that stuff's temporary.

Host 4 (8:08)

Are people gonna talk about you?

Host 2 (8:09)

Oh, yeah, but that stuff's temporary. You're talking about the rest of your life here.

Host 3 (8:13)

And I still have a party.

Host 1 (8:15)

I mean, you could still have a reception. That would be, you know, make it a family reunion or something.

Host 3 (8:19)

And another thought I had is, you don't want to. I mean, he obviously loves you and wanted to marry you, and you don't want to return the favor by saying, I want you to now be labeled a divorced man. Like, it's one thing to be divorced in a relationship that you really were a part of and really wanted to be a part of and really tried to make it work, and it didn't work out. So then you understand. But if it's something where, like, I had a friend in high school that I still. Every time this comes up, I think of him. Because they did get divorced two months after they got married, and they were in their twenties. And then we all said, you know, now he's a divorced guy from a woman, and he wasn't even a wedding that he had a lot of time to invest in. So I just think that's unfair to him. I mean, he'll be hurt now, but I think it'll affect him far more if you go ahead and get married and then you're planning your divorce in the back of your mind, right?

Host 2 (9:06)

If you got that contingency plan and you've got that on your mind already, it's probably not a great decision.

Host 3 (9:11)

Yeah.

Host 1 (9:11)

Just curious. If you do call off the wedding, who are you going to tell first?

Brenda (9:18)

I mean. I mean, I've thought about this too, and I played it out in my head and the last caller was so sweet. And she's right, because I do have a close family. But I mean, I. And I. And I like his family too. They're really nice. I just.

Host 4 (9:33)

So who you gonna tell first?

Brenda (9:35)

I would have told my. I mean, I. I would tell my mom first.

Host 4 (9:39)

Okie dokie.

Host 2 (9:40)

Mom first?

Host 3 (9:41)

Yeah.

Brenda (9:42)

Then. And then I would tell him. You know, I guess I should tell him first, but I. I'd be kind of scared.

Host 3 (9:52)

Yeah, I think. Yeah, I'm. I think mom is the most realistic answer. Because you're afraid to tell him, even though you should tell him first. But I think I'd probably.

Host 2 (10:00)

But most are calling up saying, look, if you are having these thoughts and you've been having them for months, then bail now. Mm.

Brenda (10:07)

Yeah, I know. I. But honestly, like, I feel like I, you know, we can just kind of go through. I care about him a lot. We could have everyone's what everyone wants, you know?

Host 1 (10:18)

Are you supposed to go on a honeymoon?

Brenda (10:19)

Yeah. No, we're supposed to leave a week later. Actually, the following weekend.

Host 1 (10:23)

Okay.

Host 2 (10:23)

Okay. Well, let's check back with you on Monday. Okay.

Host 3 (10:26)

She's talking.

Host 2 (10:27)

I'll put her on hold.

Host 4 (10:28)

Where are you guys going on your honeymoon?

Host 2 (10:30)

How much you spend?

Host 1 (10:31)

How's she asking for logistics?

Host 4 (10:33)

Tracy can handle that. Between 10:00am and 9:00pm Sunday night.

Host 1 (10:38)

Well, I'm sorry, I'm a girl. I plan ahead. I think of those things. If we're gonna talk to her on Monday, I need to know if she's gonna be on a freaking house honeymoon or not.

Host 4 (10:44)

Lord have mercy.

Host 1 (10:45)

Get it?

Host 2 (10:45)

The bird show.