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Shut the hell up. Here's what we're talking about. Today it was a beaver moon. And if you see shit around my mouth, it's just my ointment, the beaver moon. And I'm not gonna do AI overview. We're actually gonna go to animamundiherbals.com it's a blog. Any woo woo girl with a blog, I kind of trust. And this Is an apothecary. Yeah. On November 5th, which was last week, the dialectic of desire between Taurus and Scorpio ignites our atmosphere with the Taurus full Moon, which I don't even claim to understand, how all the shiftings of the moon and positioning of the moon, how that affects or what it is. Because when I think of Taurus season or something in a Taurus moon, then it's like May. Anyways. When Mars is in your anus, I don't know what the planets are doing. They're sucking, looking at each other. I don't fucking know. We're gonna read this. This lunation, I like that word. Lunation could bring all sorts of temptations and possibilities of adventure our way. With a strong bias towards doing something unexpected. Mars opposite Uranus could push us over the edge into riskier territory than usual, which may be just what we need to break with stale patterns of thought and behavior. On the other hand, a serious consideration of where our actions may lead us is also warranted as Mercury prepares to station retrograde on November 9th. Okay, that was yesterday. Signifying a second look at our actions or the unearthing of previously unknown information. Okay, so basically what, me and my friend, I had a girls weekend this past weekend with some of my college besties. And it was so restorative and so amazing. And I'm always coming on to this fucking sure microphone and telling y' all to book the girls trip. Book the girls trip. I'm serious. Like, get them together. And don't just do like, let's go out, have some quality time. So this past weekend, me and the girls were in Maine. Maine is a beautiful state. We had a damn blast. All the leaves were so beautiful. It was. I literally. There was one moment we were all driving in the car to go get lobster. Do I like lobster? No. Did I buy a bunch of shit with lobsters on it? Yeah, I did. Because it's. It's for the memories. We were driving in the car to go get lobster and the leaves are all beautiful and it's like blowing in the wind. We were right by this lake and we're all in the car together, jammed packed because there's six of us and my friend Steph, we call her Shrek. Shrek is driving and we were listening to Dochi and I was just like, what else could you need? It's gonna make me cry again. I love my prince. How lucky am I? Okay, we were on a girls trip and all of us, I would say pretty much all of us we're on a spectrum of like super woo woo to all right, what is this? All right, I'll dabble. Whoa. You know what I mean? Like there's. That's the spectrum. I'm somewhere in the middle. My friend Emily led us through this like Oracle card pulling. And Oracle's kind of new to me. Drew and Dace talk about Oracle cards and I've never. I don't know why I always gravitate to towards Tarot. Maybe that's just because I. Tarot feels more familiar. Like it's the same cards in every deck. Or at least I think with Oracle, I know they can be kind of different depending on the deck. And you know, whatever you need is whatever you pull, whatever. We all did an Oracle card pulling and therefore kind of a reading. But you go into the Oracle card with like a certain question in mind. And if you don't have a question, then it's what do I need to know? And dude, y', all, each one of us went in so open minded and so like locked in, like we were serious to what the possibilities could be. When I tell you each one of us got such a specific reading of exactly what we needed to hear. I don't like, look, dude, I know it's a spectrum of how woo woo you can get shit like that really pushes you towards the edge of we are so powerful. And I think also just all of us women being together, being open with each other. And as we would pull, we would talk about it, you know, like my friend Emily led it. And then we would sit across from her and then she would be like, what's coming up for you? And we would talk about it and that brings you closer, you know. And all the girls in the room would be like, you know, it's just so good. It's so cute. And all of us cried, of course. And then at the end of the night, my friend Alyssa led us into kind of explaining what the beaver moon is. And basically she said there's two paths. One is letting go. So we were journaling, we were writing our shit down. And the Oracle card is kind of to help you like a thought starter or to kind of answer a question if you hit a roadblock in journaling or whatever. And she said that 1/2, 1 option is release, letting go. Write down all the things that you plan on letting go that no longer serve you, that are maybe weighing you down, things that are out of your control, that you try to bring into your, you know, sphere of control. Write it down and burn it, release it. And we all did this under the moon. There was a big, beautiful moon in Maine. We were right by the water and listening to the ocean and just like doing this. And then the other option was to operate from an abundance mindset. And that's. And this is something, I mean, I'm really like, going deep with y' all here. That was kind of what I gravitated towards because I genuinely think that is how you should navigate life. I operate from a place of abundance. I will always be okay. My friends will always be okay. We will be taken care of. My friends, family, our health, everything will work out. Versus from a scarcity mindset where it's like you always feel maybe in competition with other people or you're jealous or you're worried that you'll be left out or there's not enough for you, or, you know, it's just like this mindset, like, genuinely operating from. I know things will work out. They always do. And they'll work out exactly how they're supposed to. That's. I, I journaled about that and I wrote down honestly, like, manifestations. And we did this whole thing, like, next to the water. I like, spoke it in my water and then I drank my moon water. It was awesome. It was freaking awesome. So I thought, well, okay, so that was kind of our restorative weekend. So amazing. So Woo Woo. Many tears, many laughs. And I peed in my pants from laughing so hard. I wanted my own deck of oracle cards. And so we went to this Woo Woo store somewhere and I think we were in Georgetown. Not Georgetown, Bath. Maybe Bath, Maine. All those little tiny towns, I don't know, they all kind of blended together. We were supposed to go to Portland, but that was an hour away, so never mind. I went to this Woo Woo shop and I got Oracle cards. Now can you guess the theme of the oracle cards I got? If you guess, Dragon. You guessed correct. I got dragon Oracle cards, duh. And I thought it would be a fun exercise to pull my own. And this dragon book, this dragon Oracle cards guidebook, tells you how to do it. And there's a three card spread you can do. I mean, there's a bunch of different spreads. Seven cards feels kind of intimidating. You can do just one. I think I'm gonna do. I think I'm gonna do three. I'm laughing, but this shit's serious. Okay, so let me read the intro to this book just so you guys get where I'm coming from. Dragons can protect and care for us, be our friends and Companions and help in a myriad of other ways. They can physically clear lower energies around us and travel with us at night. If we go through the astral realms, this means they can burn up frightening emotional memories so that we don't have to experience them again. Where is the dragon? For eons, psychic artists have drawn or painted dragons with remarkable consistency. What we see in dragon pictures is exactly what they look like because they are of the Angelic kingdom with open, generous hearts. They have wings, for etheric wings are extensions of the heart center. So I wonder if we're operating from this as a sort of truth. Why are dragons seen as hoarding treasure? I wonder where that stereotype. Who the fuck is stereotyping dragons into greedy monsters? I refuse. I refuse. You can see different kinds of dragons in these cards. And you may be surprised and delighted by the variety of colors they have and energies they display. Oh, my God. Do we have a personal dragon? All of us have a personal dragon who stays with us throughout our incarnations. Guys. Everyone has a dragon. Just like our guardian angel. It stays in the background until we acknowledge it. Everybody got a dragon and an angel and a minion. Everyone has their own personal guidance. Minion. Minion guide. Like a spirit guide or a guardian angel. I have a guardian minion. Our dragon is usually the same element as our current astrological sign. So if I'm a Taurus, that means I have an earth dragon. Does that mean he's brown? Like poop? Does that mean he's a poop dragon? He's like, in the mud and like dung and shit. I don't want an earth dragon. You know what? I'm not going to talk shit on my dragon. I like my earth dragon. Dragons grow as we do, so they change element with us. And this is part of their spiritual growth and learning. If you're an earth sign, you will probably have an earth dragon. Damn it. However, if you need a fire dragon to fulfill your life mission, one will be with you. These rules seem kind of arbitrary. These rules seem like. And then if you need a dragon, you can have one. Like, honestly, I'm kind of getting my life because this is. I needed to hear this. I needed to hear that. I have a personal guardian minion dragon. My dragon's yellow and blue and is wearing overalls. Can my dragon be like Zootopia? What does this say? If you need to be more psychic and intuitive in your life, a water dragon will come to you. Dude. Okay, I'm going to manifest a water dragon because I think I need that. If you need to be grounded or to make your ideas come to fruition, your dragon will have Earth qualities, period. And for all of you bitches who say I'm Hufflepuff, keep lying. Because I don't think you can be Taurus and Hufflepuff. Like Taurus has to be Ravenclaw. I have to be at least Raven Puff, right? Like, what the fuck? I cannot be Hufflepuff if I'm a Taurus. I'm too logical. I'm too like reason oriented and I can be super emotional. However, I am a Taurus. Whatever. If you need to communicate clearly or inspirationally, an air dragon will be by your side. And your personal dragon may have more than one element. Okay, enough of this. Enough of this shit. We're going to pull one. How do you use the cards? These cards will attune you to the different dragons. They will also offer you guidance about your daily life, your soul mission, your ascension path, and how you can serve the planet. If you have a specific question, mentally ask it. If you don't have a question, ask for general guidance. Okay, I'm going to ask. Let me, Let me prep my space right here and I'll show you guys what I pull. Okay, I'm not going to leave you guys out. Shuffle the cards, then spread them out. Pick a card with your non dominant hand. Okay. I also. In this place, this little store, I found fairy. Fairy Oracle cards. I feel like that's a little too. I feel like Fairy Oracle cards, that's for dicking around, right? Like, I'm not really serious about this. I'm just kind of having fun. Like you bring them to the. To the function, to the party. The dragon Oracle cards, that's for like serious life business. That's for like. Wait, I'm actually going the through it. Like I actually need help. How did the tarot girls on Tick Tock shuffle these? They always look so like they'll do one of these. I guess that was easier than I thought it was gonna be. But I'm serious. The fairy cards will be like, oh, you know, maybe I'm with friends. We're a little high. The dragon ones. Please don't. Hey, hey, hey. Please don't touch the dragon cards. Ah, put those down. Those are mommy's. Don't touch mommy's Dragon oracle cards. Okay, I'm gonna spread these out and I'm gonna do the thing where you heat up your hands. Y' all know about this? You heat up your hands to. To get your energy into your hands and Then you select a card. So I'm gonna do that. And I wonder what moon is after Taurus. Are there any. If I'm losing any of you guys, you need to lock in. Okay? If I'm losing any of you to the woo woo, I'm gonna pull this card and you're gonna be amazed. Actually, hold on, let me set my intention universe. Tell me what I need to know. It's right here. I think it's this one. What the are? Earth dragon. I literally pulled Earth dragon after I just talked shit. After I said I don't want a fucking earth dragon. The earth dragon is exactly what I needed. Are you out of your mind? Clears your path and the land around you. And it's sick. Can you zoom in on that? The earth dragon's fucking cool. Clears your path and the land around you. Stay grounded. Be ready to serve. Stuck. Energy is clearing. You can move forward in life. Holy shit. Okay, let's read about the Earth dragon. Should I do a three card spread? No, let me start here. Guys, this is nuts. Did I not just say like. Okay, like. Can we actually zoom out for a second? That's crazy. Of all the cards, how many cards are in this fucking deck? A billion? Out of 1 billion cards, I pulled the earth dragon. No, it's gotta be like 50, 44 cards. And I pulled fucking earth and you saw me shuffle them. Okay, sorry, I'm gagged. Earth dragon is on page 18. Shit. I didn't pull with my non dominant hand. Whatever. It was meant to be fourth dimensional. Earth dragons are brown, the color of the soil. Did I not say that as well? I swear to God I didn't read this before. They love the planet and the land itself. It was these sturdy dragons who helped to build the original dragon lines that we now call ley lines. So when did. When did the ley lines colonize the dragon? Okay, maybe I need. Maybe I skipped that chapter. Part of their service work is to travel along them to clear them when asked to do so. When we send an instruction to the earth dragons to work with the ley lines, they can power away under the surface to clear any blockages. This impacts hugely on people and situations in the vicinity. Okay, grammar isn't the. It's okay. They can also help to ground us in our mission, in this life. Ooh, I like this. I like this. Here's the guidance. It is time to clear unwanted energies that are preventing your life from moving forward. Some of these may be in the earth under your home or office or where you travel. Call on the Earth dragons and ask them to remove all that is not in accordance with divine light. Now, see, that's. That gets kind of tricky because what if one of the blockages is someone that you really love and care about? That's when it gets tough. Then sense the frequency rising within the land and on your path. This card also suggests you may be called on to do planetary service work. As the Earth dragons will take the opportunity to cleanse any leylines you focus on. Take a moment to direct them to clear the planetary grid and visualize the grid glowing and shimmering. What the fuck? When you walk, think of the Earth dragons and connect with them through the earth. Ask them to ground you. And your vision for this card signifies that they are now boosting your spiritual journey and you are ready to fly. Notice the progress you make. That's t. I like that. I like, notice the progress you make because that. Honestly, my friend Camille kept saying that over the weekend. She was like, it's so evident that, like, you've done so much work on specifically, like, de Centering men and, like, being on that shit. Like, I. I genuinely believe I will be okay. I will be okay either way. Like, I really do believe that, and it took me a long time to get there and a lot of, like, weird changes and also opportunities and moments that have brought me and my friends closer. Cause I always say this, like, I don't want to sound like a broken Girlboss Pinterest TJ Maxx record, but, like, at the end of the day, no one has you like your girls. And I mean that. A man will always disappoint. A man will shelter you from people that love you in a negative way, will take up all of your emotional energy and give you very little back, if anything at all. Your girls revitalize you. They restore you. They challenge you. They make you better. They call you out when you're on some bullshit. They make you. They point out your great qualities, and they help you when you're not doing well. I mean, there's nothing truly like. It's so sad to think about, you know, that fucking thing of, like, is it embarrassing to have a boyfriend now? Yeah, it kind of is. It kind of is. Why is having a boyfriend Republican? That fucking tweet? It's true. And I don't. I do know when that shift happened, but the standard has just become so. And I don't mean this as, like, it is impossible, but as the current state of affairs with men stands, it is impossible for a lot of these young men to live up to a very plausible standard, a great man is just the average woman. So, yeah, that's actually period. Earth dragon. Earth dragon is. It's grounding me in what actually is important. And what's important is my friendships and how I feel about myself. At the end of the day, this is what's coming up for me. This past weekend was very grounding for me because these girls have known me since before the Internet shit, you know what I mean? Like, they've seen me through a lot of seasons of life and me for them as well. So it is very grounding to go back to girl, we know who you are, you know, not that I'm anything that I'm not or I'm acting a certain way, but it just is different than how it was. And it was also, I mean, we were in college seven, eight years ago. Coming up on a decade that's really, really slay. I'm excited to be 40. Not so much for the, like, my back's gonna hurt, but, like, to be 40 with my girls. Oh, my God. Okay, let's pull two more. 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Especially when you go from like, tell me what I need to see, tell me, show me what I need to hear or show me when. When in you. Can I say something? Why is Benson Boone hot? When did he get hot? And I know, I know, I know. Whatever, but look at him. Okay, okay. This feels. This feels shuffled to me. Okay, I'm gonna spread these out once more and this time I'm gonna pick with my non dominant hand. Have y' all ever seen a psychic? Do you. Do you like that kind of. What are yalls opinions on psychics? Because I've seen a psychic. I told y' all about it and that was right. Okay. That really nailed it on the head. And that scares me. And I say as in like, that's my girl. Okay, here we go. Okay. She's period. Dusky pink dragon from Andromeda. Andromeda. What the hell? Dusky pink dragon. I got the femme dragon. And she's holding a cricket. Prepares all your chakras to embody higher love. Accept and radiate higher love. Touch others with its flame. Now let's pick one more. This one. I think the top. This top one over here. Silver dragon. What the hell? Silver dragon. Illuminates your potential with higher light. Access untapped resources. Look into your soul. See higher possibilities. This feels like kind of a throwaway dragon card. Okay, here's my spread. Here's my spread. Let's read about my dragons. Earth dragon was gag. Dusky pink dragon from Andromeda. What the hell is Andromeda? 7th dimensional dragons. It's not funny. What the hell? Receiving this card indicates that you are ready for higher love. The dusky pink dragons from Andromeda are suggesting it is time for you to carry this luminous light in all your spiritual energy centers. Touch your stellar gateway. Causal crown, third eye, throat, heart, solar plexus, navel sacral base and earth star chakras. In turn, breathing in dusky pink and affirming. I accept and radiate higher love. As you do so have a sense of these dragons breathing pink into all your chakras, you become a flame of ineffable pink love. Be aware, you now have the power to touch everyone you meet with the flame of spiritual love. Know that when you work with the dusky pink dragons from Andromeda, you can make a huge difference to the ascension of the planet. What the hell? They carry the vibration of transcendent love. If we are ready for their light, they circle round us. And when they pour this special energy into our chakras, our aura is illuminated by a glorious pink light. These dragons also work with crickets, who come from the same constellation. That's really sweet. Their song carries the codes of higher love from Andromeda. And their mission is to bathe the natural world in this vibration. Okay. I interpret this as, I've done the work. I've done the work and I'm ready to. I no longer am in a place of, like, I'm giving this person so much of me and, like, I'm empty. Like, truly, you know, that's from a scarcity mindset. I'm going full blown, fucking woo woo. Y' all need to strap in. I operate from. I gave this person love. And even if it didn't work out, they probably needed that love. Like, they needed to feel. They needed to bask in the warmth of my light because I am warm and I am light, and if they needed it, it's no love lost to me. Okay? I've changed my thinking on that because I used to be like, hey, I did all this shit for him. And he felt fucking ungrateful and he's, whatever, girl, I cut you off. We don't talk anymore. I wish you the best. On your way, go terrorize someone else. Okay? If I gave you. If I was able to crack through even just a little bit and, like, make you see that you're acting crazy and that I'm a genuine person and you're a psycho. I hope for a second that, like, at least there was a crack that formed, you know, in this weird facade of, like, male manipulator. Just drop the act. Like, you don't have to be like this. Just be fucking normal. Anyway, I released that and I have so much more love to give where that comes from. That's what comes up for the dusky pink dragon from Andromeda. Thank you. With her cricket Silver dragon. Guys. This is awesome, guys. Just freaking awesome. Silver dragon. This is like the longest TikTok tarot reading ever. I can start pulling cards for you guys on TikTok. I wish, I wish I Could go live. TikTok. If someone from TikTok's watching. Can you please unban me from going live? I have things to say to my audience. I have community to build. I have things to say. Jesus. All right, what is it? Silver dragon, page 56. I honestly, I need to give the fairy cards a spin. Illuminates your potential with higher light. Fifth dimensional shimmering silver dragons radiate divine feminine light and gentle qualities. They exude harmlessness, love, peace, tranquility, balance, gentleness and calmness. If we are ready, they surround our aura in a soft, pure silver light that enables us to retain these divine feminine qualities. They also reflect our true self and highest potential back to us. Which is another thing. I've kind of been like, what is next for me? You know what I mean? Like, there are so many things I want to do, but I find it hard. It's like the fucking fig tree or it's the fig tree from the bell jar. That whole metaphor of, like, there's so many opportunities and choices that I get gridlock. Like, I. I freeze up and then I don't pick anything. So, yeah. This enables us to see the essence of our soul and discover aspects of ourselves we did not know existed. We are reminded of our divine magnificence and may catch a glimpse of the mighty soul or even Monad. I am presence to which we belong. I'm scared to Google that. I'm scared to Google Monad. I might just let Monad rest. Okay, here's the guidance to my silver dragon. Your fifth dimensional soul blueprint contains the keys and codes of your gifts, talents, wisdom, and powers. Much of this is locked away and unused. Say that receiving this card suggests that it is time for some of this potential to be ignited and brought forward into your life. You are ready to reveal yourself and be who you truly can be. Sit quietly and see or sense the shimmering silver dragon who has come to you. I'm seeing it. I'm seeing it. I'm seeing it. I kind of w. And can I say something fucked up before I go back into this fourth Wing? I know. Whatever. However you guys feel about that. Yeah. However, that first time I read 4th Wing and tar showed up, I literally remember finishing that book being like, it is so fucking unfair that I can't have a dragon. It is so fucking, like, literally so unfair that Taryn is just there for her and, like, she's kind of a brat and she's kind of insufferable. I'm awesome. Why don't I get Dragon? Why Don't I get fucking cool? Dragon and Taryn was kind of sexy, by the way. Taran was sexy. Okay? This kind of, like, immortal, infinite wisdom, but still kind of. It was giving Nick Wilde and. And Judy Hopps a little bit. Am I talking. Guys, don't. Don't be against me in this. Someone has to see what I mean. Like, there was a weird sexual whatever. Anyway, that's who I'm imagining right now, okay? Sexy, sexy. Tarn Silver dragon. Okay. And you know those things where it's like, Nick Wilde is a real person and they draw them as a real person. I like those. And I. And I like those TikToks, and sometimes I favorite them. Y' all don't know what I'm doing on God's TikTok app. Okay? It's a lot of. Again, I'm 16. I'm 16. I never grew up. Sit quietly and see or sense the shimmering silver dragon who has come to you. Allow it to reflect back to you the hidden aspects of your soul and your higher possibilities. This may or may not be a conscious process, but it will inspire you to express your essence and transform your life. Be ready to develop any gifts or qualities that the dragon draws to your attention. You may surprise yourself. Okay. This deck's awesome. Honestly, this is kind of. How much of this is take it or leave it. I will say this spread right here is kind of everything I needed to like. It's very confirming. It's very affirming. It's inspiring. Okay. I got my earth dragon, my. My love dragon, and my silver work dragon. This is. It covers pretty much everything. This is awesome. Thank you, dragon oracle. Thank you, dragon spirit. You're freaking awesome. Okay. I have some things to Google, naturally. Number one, who is monad? What is monad? Monad philosophy as originally conceived by the Pythagoreans. Pythagoreans. The monad is therefore supreme being, divinity, or the totality of all things. Whoa. The circled dot was used by the Pythagoreans and later Greeks to represent the first metaphysical being, the monad or the absolute. The term monad. Am I saying that super American, is it monad, from ancient Greek manus, unity and monos alone is used in some cosmic philosophy and cosmogony to refer to a most basic or original substance as originally conceived by the Pythagoreans. The monad is therefore supreme being, divinity in the totality of all things. According to some philosophers, there are infinite monads, which are the basic elements, forces, elementary particles, or Simplest units that make up the universe. The Euclidean symbolism of the centered sphere also concerns the secular debate on the existence of a center of the universe. The idea of the monad is also reflected in the demiurge, or the belief of one supreme being that brought about the creation of the universe. I've never heard of any of these terms, even though the concepts are kind of are very basically understood. You know, the basic theories of, like, there was one thing that created the universe. No, it was a cosmic random anomaly. It was. This is science running its course. Like, who fucking knows? I think this whole, like, cosmic philosophy is an interesting way of putting it because I'm used to seeing it through the lens of religion. And can I just pontificate really quick? Is the lens. Is the religious lens? Should we be grateful, like the people who were raised religious? Should we be grateful that we at least were given a system to see the world through? Now, however damaging or prejudiced that system is, it was a system nonetheless. And you can spend the rest of your life unlearning your religion or. I had a friend in college who. Who was not raised religious. And for the rest of his life, I remember him telling me, like, I feel so spiritually empty. Like, I have nothing to go off of. He took so many philosophy classes and like, you know, the classic white guy. Like, I studied Buddhism, I studied Hinduism, I studied this, I studied this. Catholicism intrigued me. Like, all these things and nothing stuck because it felt like he was just sampling, like, taste testing cultures. And that was also another interesting thing he said is this doesn't feel like religion as much as it feels like culture. And then I started to reflect on how little culture I have. Because, I mean, you know, we're from Texas. Like, there is a culture there, but that's a complicated gray area of what is American culture. There are unique things to America that only could have happened from the beautiful huge melting pot that America is versus without immigrants. Like, what is America? And I would argue that what makes American culture American is the fact that it's from everywhere. We don't have centuries old traditions like Celtic traditions or Germanic or Arabic or whatever it is that go back for thousands of years. We don't have that. So I feel like America may do, but you miss out on. Anyway, back to what I was saying. Seeing the world through no religion almost made him feel more lost than growing up with a religion and leaving it. Because you definitely feel lost then, but you at least have some wobbly legs to stand on. I don't know. A very interesting Question. And a lot of these concepts, I feel like are better had person to person. These conversations are better had person to person, but still fun to pontificate on. We have about 10 minutes left. I want a book club. Really quick. I finished Perfume by. Who wrote that perfume book? Patrick Suskind. This was published in 1985. This book is crazy. This book is crazy. It was a quick read. My friend told me to read it, and I was actually gifted this by a professor at one of the schools that I did a college show at her. And I had a great. She and I had a great conversation backstage, just about books, whatever. And she came with gifts for me. How fucking sweet. How sweet is that? And it was her personal copy. It was used. It was written in. And she wrote it to me. To Brittany. Hope you enjoyed. What the fuck? People are so kind. I finally read it. Bitch. Gag. Gag. What the hell? This is one of the. This book does not fit into any genre that I personally have ever read or am acquainted with. And by the way, I am going to go to the bookstore after this. So I just got really excited. I get to go to the bookstore. I'm going to go to the bookstore. I'm going to get. I'm going to get a bookmark. I'm gonna get a new book. Cause I like to match the bookmarks that I'm reading. I like to the book that I'm reading, I like to match the bookmark to it. So when I was reading or when I'm going to read Edgar Allan Poe, the House, the Fall of the House of Usher, I got this Edgar Allan Poe bookmark. Very excited about that. I have a Sherlock Holmes bookmark that I use when I read Sherlock Holmes. I have this dark Academia one I just got that has, like, Memento Mori on it. Very, very cute. And by that, I mean an actual memento mori of like, the skull and the. You know, whatever. And then, oh, when I was reading Red Rising, I had this, like, 3D space bookmark. I love that shit. It's the little things in life. Do more whimsical things for yourself like that. I love that bullshit. This book, I have never read anything like it. It's a thriller. It's like a murder story. It literally is called Perfume, the Story of a Murderer. But it's not what you think, because I was like, oh, it's fucking, you know, true crime or, like historical crime fiction. It's none of those things. I. And as an olfactory sort of, you know, I have an interest in fragrance and all this. This was such a crazy. It was a crazy book. I would. I would really recommend it. I gave it four stars on Goodreads. Kept my attention inside the mind of someone who is so extraordinarily gifted that the world doesn't know what to do with him and in turn makes him into a monster. Not to go back to Frankenstein, but something similar, you know, of. Like someone who could have been so pure of heart and such a force of good in the world had the world not corrupted him first. Right? Like an interesting chicken and the egg question. Okay, what am I reading right now? Wuthering Heights. Wuthering Heights. Wuthering Heights. Wow. This is a book. And I got this from this copy from a secondhand bookstore. So it's kind of beat to hell. But, y', all, this. It smells like old bookstores. And this was published. This edition was published in 2003, 22 years ago. This is 22 years old. And I mean, it's just been beat to hell, but how cool is that? That it's secondhand? And this was Originally published in 1847. 1847. And this is set. The story takes place around 1778. What the fuck? And it's accessible. I am 94 pages into this. I think it's like 300. This copy I have is like 307 pages, but it's. It's tiny. Very, very, very. Not what I was expecting. Okay, doesn't Bella read Wuthering Heights and Twilight? Like, I know that they tried to make. Or Stephenie Meyer tried to make some comparisons maybe between Wuthering Heights and the Twilight story. I get it, but this is so not what I was expecting. This is a Gothic. Like, I don't know if it would be considered horror. It's definitely a Gothic romance, but it's fucking weird. I don't. I don't know. I'm. I'm really getting my. It took me a second, I will be honest, took me a second to get back into it, because coming off of perfume, you know, like, when you read any classic, it's like, whoa, whoa, let me situate myself within this world. Because the writing is definitely 1840s. And at times this one has a little description disclaimer in the back, which is actually really, really nice. Of notes to the text. It says Wuthering Heights was first published in London in 1847. It appeared as the first two volumes of a three volume set, the third volume of which was Agnes Gray by Emily Bronte's younger sister Anne, subsidized by Their authors. These volumes appeared as the work of Ellis and Acton Bell. To sell it more, right, so you had to publish under a man's name or no one would give it a shot. Also, people fucking hated Wuthering Heights when it came out. And now look. And now look. Because she was a woman. I genuinely. Don't even get me started. A second commercial edition of Wuthering Heights alone appeared in 1850 with Emily Bronte's name on the title page. It was edited by Charlotte Bronte, who brought Joseph's speech closer to standard English. Joseph is a servant. He's. He's one of the servants in this book. And he speaks in a very, very northern English dialect. Like. And she writes it phonetically, which is crazy. Like, writing it down as it sounds. And even I, like, I fancy myself to be a bit more acquainted with the variety of English, the myriad of English dialects better than the average American, but that I am nowhere near, like, being. I've never been immersed in it. You know what I mean? This is all purely from. I'm a fan of people and things from, you know, like, Sam Fields is from North Shields. Like, Sam Fender is from North Shields. That accent is very particular. Like, the Geordie accent is very particular. The Mancunian accent's very particular. Liverpudlian, very different from Essex, from, you know, like, how that differs from, like, how would you describe how K1 talks? Or even, like, Leah's boyfriend, Miguel. His accent is very specific to. You know what I'm saying? So anyway, she wrote one of these characters phonetically, how someone from the north would talk. And it's very confusing. And so when I found. I was like, what are you. There's translations. It was awesome. The present text reprints the 1847 edition with minor emendations. Like most editors since 1911, its editor assumes that it is far closer to Emily Bronte's intentions than the 1850 edition, though we know that she was not satisfied with it. The following notes include translations of dialect and notation of a few emendations of the 1847 text that may have substantive, substantive, substantive ramifications. So you go through. And I found myself referencing that a lot. I highlighted something that I wanted to share. And, yes, I highlight my books. Okay, so there's an admission. If you haven't read this, I'm not gonna spoil it, obviously, but it is a love story. There is a line where she says, this is the famous one that everybody's like, oh, Wuthering Heights. And I was like, oh, I'm on that page, it would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now, so he shall never know how I love him. And that not because he's handsome Nelly, but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same. Fuck you. Fuck you. Here's another one. You know how in. In one of the last episodes, I actually read a passage from Perfume where he's talking about sitting in a church and he's high and he's having, like an egomaniac episode. He think he thinks himself bigger and better than God. And he's sitting in this church taking in like, the olfactory senses of his environment, which is like the incense and the myrrh and whatever. And he's noting like, this is cheap and it's a blend. It's not even real. It's synthetic. It's fake. It's like it smells like in here. And like this. This stupid stench of humans everywhere. Butt sweat and pit sweat and all this. He's. He's sitting here thinking, how much better am I than all of these people? And that kind of, to me, I guess, verges on like an egomaniac can. The only reason he's having that sort of, like, revelation. Can I talk? The only reason he's having that revelation is because he is a genius, albeit a very misled genius, but he is very smart. And he's sitting here having this egomaniac, like, monologue. And I found that really intriguing. Well, here's something else. This is something a part of Wuthering Heights that kind of had a similar effect on me where I was like, how interesting is that? And it's also this kind of tongue in cheek. Like, I highlighted this because this is someone talking about it's a very religious society that they're living in. And someone's like, you're gonna burn in hell. Or something similar, like, you're gonna rot in hell. And the guy who's receiving the insult's like, okay, I don't give a fuck. That's basically the energy of this passage I'm about to read. He says, have mercy on your own soul. I said, endeavoring to snatch the glass from his hand cause he's drinking. Then the other guy says, not I, on the contrary, I shall have great pleasure in sending it to perdition to punish its maker. Talking about his own soul. Have mercy on your own soul. Not I. On the contrary, I shall have great pleasure in sending it to perdition to punish its maker. Here's to its hearty damnation and he slams the drink back. Like, talking about your soul. Like, it. Your. Your soul's pronouns, it itself. He was like, fuck my soul, bitch. I don't give a fuck. Give me the brandy. Give me the brandy. We live in hell. My dumbass immortal soul. Not my problem. I laughed anyway. Wuthering Heights, way darker than I thought. Way, way, way darker. Which I like, because I'm really into. I've been. You know, honestly, it all kind of started with Picture of Dorian Gray. I don't know how far back I read that, but damn, that shit kind of changed my life. And then I went to Ireland, saw all of the Oscar Wilde shit. Damn, they didn't understand you, King. They didn't understand you. And you were kind of, you know, sexting with teenagers, which is a little crazy, but, you know, they didn't get you. Hey, you were kind of a pervert. They did. Well, maybe they did get you. Maybe they kind of pinned you, right? Who knows? Okay, Wuthering Heights. I'm about a third of the way through. I'll keep you all updated. I'm sure by next time I talk to you, I'll be done with it. And I think that'll do it for me. Please be on the lookout for the Royal Court coming out this week. Broski shop for merch. And keep in mind, something exciting, exciting coming in the next three weeks. We've got a Patreon. If you want these episodes ad free. Go to the Patreon. Just do it. Y' all complained at me. There it is. There it is. We have an official Broski Nation playlist if you want to go listen to that on Spotify. And with that, here are my songs of the week. All of Lux by Rosalia. Don't eat. Don't. I will get to it. You got to give me a second, let me digest it, and then I will get to it. We will do a full Rosalia breakdown because, oh, my God. I posted on my Instagram story two days ago when it came out, and I was like this genuinely. There are not enough words to convey how deeply in tune with herself she is. And it really comes across in this album like she has spent so much time with her own soul, and this is, to me, like, there's nothing better than when you hear a piece of music and you're like, this is a piece of them. This is a piece of her that she is so kind enough to share with us the lyrics. I need to dive into the lyrics a little bit more because, holy fuck, I'm Definitely gonna get a luxe tattoo. I just need to figure out what it is. I need to figure out which line is the most impactful. I'll get back to you guys on that. Some of my favorites off the album, though, are. I keep going back to Porcelana. Porcelana is fantastic. Mio Cristo piange diamante. That song makes me cry. But it's also a banger de Madruga. That's a classic Rosalia song. Like, she's done that live before. Like, I know the fucking choreography she does to it. Like, that's a classic sauvignon blanc. Very cute. Very. Like, I love being a girl. I was crying on the plane. La rumba del perdon. Wow, wow, wow. Magnolias, that made me cry. And why did she end both Motomami and Lux with two songs about flowers? Okay, much to discuss. Sakura on the other album. Magnolias on this one, Sexual Violencia. Yantas Fantastic. And La Perla. La Perla's Tea. I need to. I need to dive into it more. And Berhan. That's. That's. Honestly, to me, that was the correct single, which is rare. Honestly, when I listen to someone's album and I'm like, you picked that as the single. Why? And I. I guess I get it, but usually I'm talking about with this album. Absolutely. That was the correct single. Like, it fully encapsulates everything, and it's a good taste test. I just. Wow. Another one that I have been listening to a lot lately is what's that song by Ray. Well, I'm still on my McGee, that song, but five star hotels by Ray and. And Mahalia. I love that song. That's been on and then just K1 in general. Okay, I think that's it for me this week, you guys. Thanks for reading my dragon oracle with me. I'm gonna go pull from my fairy deck. When is. When is too much? Like, when do you pull? I mean, I guess you can go into kind of like spiritual psychosis and be like, I need to pull every fucking I need to pull multiple times a day. I'm not gonna do that. I'm only gonna pull when I feel like, what do I need to know? Okay, thanks, guys. I will talk to you next week. Bye.
