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Jessica Mendoza
Everyone wants to do a good job at work, to get promoted, to get a raise. But can you try too hard?
Laura Mayer
A try hard in popular culture, I think, is someone who is just really out there doing stuff on behalf of themselves in order to get picked for something. A pygmy.
Jessica Mendoza
Like a pygmy.
Laura Mayer
Yeah, exactly.
Jessica Mendoza
Laura Mayer is the author of a new memoir called Try Hard, a cautionary tale of clocking in and spinning out.
Laura Mayer
I think that being a try hard is, unfortunately, something that goes beyond just work. It's less about the advancement, and it's more about being addicted to the process of showing up. It's really not being able to let anything rest. Like, it's like perfectionism, but it's perfectionism in the extreme, maybe. And it's way exhausting.
Jessica Mendoza
Exhausting. And kind of cringe. Like, why can't these people just chill out?
Laura Mayer
And the fact is, trying to do anything without it looking effortless is embarrassing because showing that effort is kind of going against all of the popular understandings of, at least in America, of how we are supposed to succeed, minus, like, the rise and grind aspect, which is a whole separate side of things.
Jessica Mendoza
But also, like, it's not necessarily a bad thing.
Laura Mayer
I don't think so. I'm proud to be a try hard. I'm trying to raise my kid to be a try hard. I made a sign that says, the most important thing to do is try.
Jessica Mendoza
Forget Yoda. Don't listen to Yoda.
Laura Mayer
Wait, is that a Yoda quote?
Jessica Mendoza
Well, no. He says, do or do not. There is no try.
Laura Mayer
Oh, my goodness. He's wrong. He's wrong. Yeah. I'm gonna start. I need to get George Lucas in on this. The most important thing is to try. Let's rebrand.
Jessica Mendoza
It's time for a rebrand.
Laura Mayer
Yeah, exactly.
Jessica Mendoza
Today, Laura and I talk about loving work so much that it became an addiction. One that catapulted her into executive roles at major companies, but also led to panic attacks, crying in meetings, and the sense that being a try hard comes with a. From the Journal. This is Work Mode, a special series airing on Sundays, where we take a look at how work is changing. I'm Jessica Mendoza. Let's get to work.
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Jessica Mendoza
For a podcasting nerd like me. Laura Mayer's resume is it. She's launched over a hundred podcasts, including chart topping ones that I listen to like Revisionist History and the Dream. She's held executive jobs at big companies like ABC News and startups like Panoply Media. But way before Laura became a podcast big shot in New York City, she was a kid growing up in a small town in Illinois. And it was in those days, as a child, that she held what she considered her first job, managing her mother as she struggled with alcoholism.
Laura Mayer
My mom was and to a certain extent continues to be like the central figure in my life. And so for me as a kid, so much of my life was focused on tracking my mom, what she was drinking, taking the temperature of the room, emotionally and otherwise depending on what that consumption was. And what I would do is I started making these charts that were slightly based on like the Safir Simpson scale, which has to do with hurricane intensity of especially like during periods of time when I wasn't in school, like breaks, weekends, I would decide at the end of the day. Okay, so my mom seemed to have be at like a 1, meaning maybe she hadn't been drinking that much or hadn't drank at all. Was a zero all the way up to like a five, which would have been destructive, very destructive. But that chart was like really a way for me to make something that was totally not concrete or controllable feel like it was in my hands. But then also at the end of the day documenting, like I needed to leave a paper trail. I needed to make sure that my books were in order. So that was that particular job.
Jessica Mendoza
I mean, you describe your relationship to work as an addiction in the book. Can you talk about that? Why? Especially as someone who has experienced the effects of addiction.
Laura Mayer
I mean, I'm obsessed with work. I'm obsessed with my own work. Before I had my kid and after I left my parents house when I was 18, the first thing I think about when I get up in the morning is work. The last thing I would think about when I go to sleep is work and my work and other people's work and what work I might do in the future and what work I did in the past. It is like a slot machine, you know, because I know what the circuit of success can look like and how I will feel, if only briefly after something gets done. And that's an addiction cycle, right? But it's also an Addiction cycle that's really, really, really valorized in our society. So if left to my own devices, if I didn't have a kid, if I didn't have a family, if I didn't have any of that, I do think that I would, on paper, have clawed my way to a certain level of success that I would deem as a kid. Oh, you made it. You made it. But the thing about addiction is you're never satisfying that central lack.
Jessica Mendoza
Yeah.
Laura Mayer
So I would never feel like I've done enough. It's really hard for me to sit in the present and not think about what's to come, which is also a hallmark of addiction.
Jessica Mendoza
It almost sounds like you feel like you need to work harder than other people.
Laura Mayer
Yeah.
Jessica Mendoza
Why?
Laura Mayer
It's like in math class when they would say, you have to show your work. I love that. I love that. Because. And everyone was like, why? I got to the answer. I'd be like, no, no, no. They need to see how I got there.
Jessica Mendoza
I think you might be the only person I know who loves that part.
Laura Mayer
Oh, I love showing my work, because at least if I messed up, I'd be able to know where fair. I think that in showing your work, you're externalizing effort. And in that way, no one can take away how much you tried from you, even if you didn't accomplish what you set out to do.
Jessica Mendoza
After a few years working in journalism after college, Laura started working in the business of journalism, and she moved up fast, launching new shows and managing people in studio operations, all while still in her 20s. She says that her number one asset was her work ethic. Did you see yourself or do you see yourself as an ambitious person?
Laura Mayer
Yes.
Jessica Mendoza
I want to hear more about that, because ambition can be kind of a tricky word, especially for women.
Laura Mayer
Oh, absolutely. Because it's threatening. Right. For me, at that time, ambition was. I wanted to be able to prove myself as a serious business person, a legitimate business person. And I think that there is that kind of intensity for women around ambition that can feel icky for the woman themselves. Having to deal with people, like, feeling strange about it or feeling threatened or just being like, just chill out. Why are you showing your effort in that kind of way?
Jessica Mendoza
Did you know at the time, like, what you were reaching for? One of the questions that I get asked is, where do you see yourself in five years back then, what would you have said? Did you know that you were reaching for senior producer, manager, executive, yada, yada?
Laura Mayer
I fell into management, but I fell into it happily. I think that I Wanted to be in a position where I was managing people, but I was doing creative stuff and operations at the same time. And I think that was like really the only time in my career where it was really clear to me like I want, this is what I would like to work towards.
Jessica Mendoza
Though Laura fell into management happily, she says that those management roles demanded a lot of her. She began to feel that her gender played into how she was treated. And she often found herself in a position she calls the corporate mommy.
Laura Mayer
So a corporate mommy is basically it's a manager position occupied generally by a woman that is sits between in middle management, but sits between managing a bunch of people underneath you and then managing up at all times. And a corporate mommy position is generally one that exists because there is a structural problem in the organization. Like upper management doesn't really want to deal with. Lower management doesn't communicate well. And so they put someone in that position in order to do all of that. And so you essentially become this dam of corporate problems to stop it from coming to your producers. And then you become this dam on their end of like these are the problems I have. Please help, please help. That you can't actually do anything about. And so that is I think a role especially in certain sectors of the media, in my case, that are really growing. Like you don't have time to think about the actual organizational design. And so instead you just put someone there to kind of like deal with all the problems.
Jessica Mendoza
And someone like you, who wants to try and wants to do, might be more susceptible to becoming a corporate mommy than others.
Laura Mayer
Corporate mommyhood. I have been the mother to so many adults at work, I've raised my hand to get into those positions. I have accidentally fallen into those positions over and over and over again. Because ultimately you want like a workhorse in that position. But the issue is, is if you do want to eventually be in a decision making place, you'll never get there. If you're a corporate mommy, there's no amount of work that you can do to show yourself as being capable of being in upper management. Because you are put into the position of corporate mommy because you're seen as holding a singular function which is dealing with all the nonsense. And therefore they can promote you. Because then some, a bunch of other people would have to deal with the nonsense.
Jessica Mendoza
It becomes kind of an immediate dead end.
Laura Mayer
Yes, yeah, but on paper looks great. And so if you are someone who's ambitious, who has, you know, career goals, wants to end up somewhere, et cetera, et cetera, it's like oh great. I'm in this role that like looks really good on paper, like LinkedIn Loves Me, et cetera, et cetera. But you also don't learn a lot in those positions. I mean, sure, management is like constantly learning, but essentially what you're learning is you're learning the various ways that people kind of interact poorly with each other and then trying to fix it, which aren't skills that you can carry on with you to your other jobs.
Jessica Mendoza
Yeah. And it does sound like this is something that startups in particular are susceptible to because those org charts aren't nearly as clear. There's not nearly as much bureaucracy involved or as much respect necessarily for bureaucracy.
Laura Mayer
Yeah. Or there's a lot of bureaucracy being created in real time.
Jessica Mendoza
Right.
Laura Mayer
Oh, I love that. I love that. I love an org chart. I love an org chart for a five year old company that's just done a series B.
Jessica Mendoza
After the break, Laura talks about founding a startup and how she finally reached her breaking point.
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Jessica Mendoza
In 2018, Laura Mayer reached what seemed like the pinnacle of her career. It was a time when tons of money was going into podcasts and she was given the mother of all opportunities to co found a podcast company. To Laura, it felt like this was the moment that her try hardness was finally paying off. The world was finally seeing how much of herself she was giving to work. But that opportunity turned out to be just another job that took advantage of her tendency to push herself beyond the limit. You co founded a company at one point with a man you call in the book, Roger ends up being a Very tumultuous working relationship. But at the very beginning of your relationship with him and when you first started meeting with him, he came to you for your expertise.
Laura Mayer
Yep.
Jessica Mendoza
And you wrote something that really struck me. You said, here was a person who said I was fully proven. It struck me because fully proven is something that I often struggle to feel about myself. Like, I don't know necessarily that I would put myself in the bucket of try hard, but I try, and I feel like there's always something to prove. Why did it feel so affirming to you to hear that? Maybe not in so many words, but to feel that way at that point in your life and from that person?
Laura Mayer
You know, it's interesting. I don't know if I felt that, but I was definitely. It was the first time anyone ever told me that.
Jessica Mendoza
Okay.
Laura Mayer
And I think that that particular person definitely was able to clock that that was what I was trying to hear. And so it was really, really appealing in that particular way to have someone hand to me this idea of, I asked for a seat at the table, and he said, you're not gonna have a seat at the table. I need you to build the table. And I was like, yes, finally. And, I mean, honestly, like, I think that that those sort of initial conversations and the initial proving of that to be true, which ultimately fell apart, it really kept me tethered. You know, I was sold on the opportunity. As soon as someone said that. As soon as that person said that,
Jessica Mendoza
looking back, does it feel like you had imposter syndrome? And somebody basically said, you're not. You're not an imposter?
Laura Mayer
Because I saw that person, my old business partner, as someone who had made it, made it, made it, made it, made it. And so to have someone come to you in that position and be like, you don't need to prove yourself to me. I know that you know how to do this was just, like, everything I'd been hoping to hear for my whole life, you know?
Jessica Mendoza
And this didn't come at no cost to you. You know, this continuous need to push and to try and to show that you are proven. And sometimes you just seem to take it to the point that you would have panic attacks on the subway. Like it was taking a toll on your physical and mental condition, and you still continued to power through. And is that just because doing the work was so important to you?
Laura Mayer
I think at the time, I felt like if I didn't do the work, then I didn't exist, because that was so central to, like, everything I'd done in my life. And so if I had stopped or let go of the opportunity, and I used the phrase let go deliberately because I did feel like I was really hanging on, then if I let go of it, if I stopped it, if I walked away, because to me, the only way that I could. There was no solving this situation. The only solve would have been to walk away. Then I would have. I felt like I would have been giving up everything. I'd worked forward to that point in my life because I was not a quitter.
Jessica Mendoza
Not being a quitter, it's the other side of the coin of being a try hard. Which makes it all the more ironic, or maybe poetic, that Laura's breaking point actually comes some years later when she decides to quit one of the biggest jobs she's ever held. By then, she's had her daughter. She's becoming aware of the space that work takes up in her life, and she's wondering if maybe she needs to direct her try hard tendencies elsewhere. You go on to become the executive producer at ABC News, leading their podcasting team, and then a few years later, you quit the job, which, in the course of reading the memoir, it seemed like it was the first time that you actively set a boundary between your work and the rest of your life.
Laura Mayer
Yep.
Jessica Mendoza
Why do you think it took so long for you to do that?
Laura Mayer
It's the most unnatural thing for me to do. You know, it's the thing that I've most had to learn. I think that I grew up kind of not having any boundaries that were respected as a kid and that somehow transmogrified into me not setting any boundaries for myself in work, between my work and my personal life. I think that it took realizing that I need to be like. Well, in order to continue and be as a person, but then also to be there for my daughter. The book is dedicated to my mom and to my daughter, and I think that her coming into the picture and me accepting that I'm not just a job is ultimately what allowed me to set that boundary.
Jessica Mendoza
I actually love that you have mother listed in your work experience on LinkedIn. On LinkedIn LinkedIn.com more of us should do that. I'm not yet a parent myself. About to be. Oh, really?
Laura Mayer
Congratulations.
Jessica Mendoza
Thank you. I'm curious, you know, you've. How old is your daughter now? She's.
Laura Mayer
She's five.
Jessica Mendoza
Okay. How do you think at this point she sees you and your relationship with work?
Laura Mayer
She makes fun. She roasts me about work. She does impressions of me doing zoom calls. She has A little paper computer that my husband made. And she goes, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I wear glasses generally when I'm on my computer and she puts them on, she will heckle me when I say I have to do something and I'm not doing it. She goes, mommy, you gotta go to work. I am concerned that especially during the period of time when I was writing the book and working at abc, that she saw me as someone who only works. And she said that back to me. She was like, why did you choose to be at the office all the time, the Mickey Mouse office? Cause ABC is owned by Disney. And I said, well, to make money and work is important to me. And I told her, I regret that. And then I had to explain what the word regret meant. And then I said it was something. If you do something but you wish you didn't do it. And she said, so you could have not done it. And I was like, damn, you really got me good.
Jessica Mendoza
You're putting me on the spotlight here.
Laura Mayer
You're putting the spot there, kid. I can't lie to you. But I do think that there has been a change in recent years, that she will grow to understand that I'm not just mommy working. And she insists she never wants to get a job. She's gonna work at the bank. Cause that's where the money is, right?
Jessica Mendoza
Just be near the money. Why not?
Laura Mayer
Yeah, just near the atm. She's gonna steal money from people when they're at the atm. That's the plan.
Jessica Mendoza
That's the plan. You did say you want your daughter to be a try hard. What version of try hard do you want her to become?
Laura Mayer
The goal with having my kid for my husband and me is for. Her name's Joanna. Is for Joanna to be the most Joanna. She can be always. And I want her to be able to be someone who advocates for herself, whoever that self may be and become. And the type of tryhard I want her to be is relentlessly herself, whatever that might be. And I think that we are currently succeeding in that particular avenue as of five years.
Jessica Mendoza
It sounds like having a daughter, having a family, maybe pushed you to think about work in a. In a somewhat different way. How would you say you approach work now?
Laura Mayer
It's still complicated. I still have these try hard tendencies. I definitely have a less of a firm. I, you know, when we were talking about like past jobs I've had where it's like, you know, a lot of things are going wrong and I'm like holding onto it for dear life because I don't know who I will be would be without the job. I don't feel like that anymore. My identity isn't so tied to the specific thing that I'm doing for work to make money every single day.
Jessica Mendoza
Laura, what is the number one piece of advice you would give to other try hards?
Laura Mayer
The number one piece of advice I would give to other try hards is do not think that you're only as good as your last email or your last project or your last success and don't hold on to the failures. You can have that energy of wanting to do more, but then you can also, I say as a hypocrite, hypocrite. Such a hypocrite, sit and realize sometimes that you've done enough.
Jessica Mendoza
Laura, thank you so much. This was great.
Laura Mayer
Thank you Chat. Thanks for having me.
Jessica Mendoza
Work Mode is a series from the Journal, a co production of Spotify and the Wall Street Journal. This episode was produced by Enrique Perez de la Rosa and edited by Kathryn Brewer. I'm Jessica Mendoza. Our engineers are Griffin Tanner, Nathan Singapak and Peter Leonard. Our theme music is by so Wiley, remixed by Nathan Singapak. Fact Checking by Kate Gallagher have an amazing week and let us know what you thought of these Sunday episodes. Hello. Look what T.J. maxx dragged in.
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Podcast Summary: The Journal. — "Confessions of a Recovering Work Addict"
Date: August 2, 2026
Host: Jessica Mendoza, with guest Laura Mayer, author of "Try Hard"
This episode centers on the cost and culture of overwork through the lens of Laura Mayer, a veteran podcast executive and author. Host Jessica Mendoza and Mayer explore how Mayer’s relentless drive for achievement—sometimes described as being a "try hard"—resulted in personal breakthroughs, professional success, but also mental health struggles and difficult reckonings with work addiction. The conversation touches on ambition, gender in the workplace, burnout, and redefining success and boundaries.
This episode offers a nuanced look at the costs and culture of being a relentless achiever. Laura Mayer’s journey—from childhood caretaker to podcast executive to recovering work addict—serves as both a cautionary tale and an inspiration for those grappling with overwork. Her candor in discussing burnout, gender biases, and the struggle to separate identity from profession is both relatable and thought-provoking.
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