Why You Feel Lost in Life: Dr. Gabor Maté on Trauma & How to Heal

Summary

Summary of "Why You Feel Lost in Life: Dr. Gabor Maté on Trauma & How to Heal"

Introduction

In this compelling episode of The Mel Robbins Podcast, host Mel Robbins engages in an in-depth conversation with Dr. Gabor Maté, a world-renowned physician and bestselling author specializing in childhood development, trauma, stress, ADHD, and addiction. Released on March 24, 2025, the episode delves into the profound impacts of childhood trauma on adult life, offering listeners a comprehensive roadmap to understanding and healing from their past experiences. Through personal anecdotes, scientific insights, and compassionate dialogue, Dr. Maté provides invaluable tools for those seeking to transform their lives.

Dr. Gabor Maté's Journey and Influences

Dr. Maté begins by sharing his harrowing childhood experiences during the Holocaust in Budapest, Hungary. Born in January 1944 to Jewish parents, he spent his early months under Nazi occupation, leading to the loss of his grandparents and narrowly escaping deportation himself. At just 11 months old, to save his life, his mother entrusted him to a Christian stranger, an event meticulously recorded in her journal—a journal he only discovered years later with his mother's assistance ([06:16]).

This traumatic separation left an indelible mark on Dr. Maté, influencing both his personal life and professional pursuits. His struggles with depression and strained relationships in his early adulthood drove him to seek answers, ultimately leading him to explore the depths of childhood trauma and its lasting effects on mental and physical health ([09:03]).

Understanding Trauma: Beyond Adverse Events

A central theme of the conversation is the definition of trauma. Dr. Maté clarifies that trauma is not merely the adverse events one experiences but the psychological wounds that result from these events. He articulates:

“Trauma is a wound. It's a psychological wound. The trauma is not the event that's the traumatic episode, but the trauma is the concussion that I developed.” ([15:20])

This distinction emphasizes that trauma is an internal response to external experiences, shaping an individual's perception of themselves and the world around them.

The Decisive Role of Childhood in Shaping Adulthood

Dr. Maté elucidates how childhood experiences are pivotal in determining one's adult personality, behavior, and health:

• Physiological Impacts: Stress during pregnancy, for instance, can release hormones like cortisol and adrenaline, which pass through the placenta and affect the child's brain development. Studies, such as those conducted post-9/11, show that infants whose mothers experienced PTSD had abnormal stress hormone levels a year later ([10:37]).

• Psychological Impacts: Early feelings of abandonment or lack of unconditional acceptance can lead to chronic feelings of unworthiness, driving behaviors like workaholism, people-pleasing, and addiction as compensatory mechanisms ([10:17], [15:20]).

Unconditional Acceptance: The Cornerstone of Healthy Development

A pivotal concept discussed is "unconditional acceptance" in parenting. Dr. Maté emphasizes that children need to feel accepted for who they are without conditions or expectations. When this acceptance is absent:

“If a child gets emotional and they get criticized, then there's nothing wrong with their emotions... they think there's something wrong with them.” ([19:10])

This lack of unconditional acceptance leads children to suppress their authentic selves, fostering shame, self-rejection, and a perpetual need to prove their worth.

Transgenerational Trauma: Breaking the Cycle

Dr. Maté highlights that trauma can be transmitted across generations, not through deliberate actions but as unconscious adaptations. For instance, unresolved trauma in parents can inadvertently shape their parenting styles, impacting their children's development:

“Parents feel so guilty already. Parents with kids who have challenges, believe me, I've been one of them.” ([15:14])

Understanding these patterns is crucial for breaking the cycle of trauma and fostering healthier future generations.

Personal Reflections: Mel Robbins' Journey

Mel Robbins shares her personal experiences with trauma, including:

• Postpartum Depression: After a traumatic birth involving emergency surgery and severe postpartum depression, Mel struggled to bond with her newborn daughter, leading to feelings of guilt and inadequacy ([39:32], [40:47]).

• Childhood Trauma: An incident in the fourth grade where an older child assaulted her left her with lasting emotional scars, contributing to hypervigilance, anxiety, and ADHD ([60:25]).

These admissions illustrate the pervasive impact of trauma and underscore the necessity of recognizing and addressing these wounds to foster healing and personal growth.

Identifying and Addressing Trauma in Daily Life

Dr. Maté outlines practical steps for recognizing and addressing trauma:

1. Recognition of Suffering: Acknowledge the presence of suffering without denial or avoidance.

2. Compassionate Curiosity: Approach one's traumas with genuine curiosity and self-compassion rather than self-blame.

3. Seeking Help: Reach out for support through therapy, community, or supportive relationships, emphasizing that asking for help is a natural human need ([70:25], [68:47]).

He reinforces the empowering message:

“It's not your fault, there's nothing wrong with you.” ([48:47])

The Importance of Play and Joyfulness

Dr. Maté stresses the essential role of play, joyfulness, and creativity in human development:

“Play is essential for brain development. It's much more important for brain development than academic learning.” ([70:50])

He laments the societal shift away from play, noting how adults often neglect these fundamental needs, leading to regrets of not having played more, as highlighted in the book The Top Five Regrets of the Dying ([70:50]).

Recognizing Unresolved Trauma Through Adult Behaviors

Dr. Maté identifies several adult behaviors indicative of unresolved childhood trauma:

• Success as Compensation: Overachieving can be a response to childhood trauma, where success is pursued to prove one's worth ([76:11]).

• Physical Affection Issues: Difficulty with physical expressions of love, such as hugging, stems from early experiences of not being physically embraced ([73:32]).

• Emotional Shutdowns: In response to disruptions in relationships, individuals may shut down emotionally, mirroring childhood responses to abandonment ([77:24]).

Conclusion: Empowerment Through Understanding and Healing

The episode culminates with Dr. Maté and Mel Robbins emphasizing that healing from trauma is possible and within reach. By recognizing suffering, cultivating compassionate curiosity, and seeking help, individuals can reconnect with their true selves and create the lives they desire. The overarching message is one of empowerment and hope:

“It's not your fault, there's nothing wrong with you... the healing needs to begin with some compassionate curiosity towards the self.” ([48:47], [64:47])

Key Takeaways

• Trauma Defined: Trauma is the internal psychological response to adverse events, not the events themselves.

• Childhood's Pivotal Role: Early experiences deeply influence adult behavior, health, and relationships.

• Unconditional Acceptance: Essential for healthy emotional and psychological development in children.

• Transgenerational Impact: Trauma can be passed down through generations, necessitating conscious efforts to break the cycle.

• Healing Pathways: Recognition, compassionate curiosity, and seeking support are fundamental steps toward healing.

Notable Quotes

• Dr. Gabor Maté: “Nobody's damaged goods.” ([05:44])

• Dr. Gabor Maté: “Trauma is a wound. It's a psychological wound.” ([15:20])

• Dr. Gabor Maté: “It's not your fault, there's nothing wrong with you.” ([48:47])

• Dr. Gabor Maté: “Play is essential for brain development. It's much more important for brain development than academic learning.” ([70:50])

Final Thoughts

This episode serves as a poignant reminder of the enduring impacts of childhood trauma and the transformative power of understanding and healing. Dr. Gabor Maté's insights, coupled with Mel Robbins' personal reflections, offer a beacon of hope for listeners striving to overcome their past and cultivate a more fulfilling life.

Transcript

[Mel Robbins]

Hey, it's your friend Mel.

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[Mel Robbins]

I am so glad that you chose to listen to this episode, because today I've got somebody in our Boston studios whose work has fundamentally changed my life. This person has helped me understand exactly how my childhood shaped who I became as an adult. And today he's gonna do the exact same thing for you. Because what's happened to you in your past, first of all, it's not your fault, but it is your responsibility to yourself to do the work that you need to do in order to heal, to grow, to become healthier and happier. And today, you're gonna learn exactly how to do it. You're also gonna learn that no matter what it is that you may have survived in your childhood, it does not define who who you are or who you can become. You're gonna get a roadmap to better understanding yourself and also how you can connect with your true self. The extraordinary Dr. Gabor Mate is here. He's written five books on the topic of childhood development, trauma, stress, ADHD, addiction, all of which are New York Times bestsellers. And it has taken me two years to get him to our studios here in Boston because he is in that much demand globally. Dr. Mate is going to help you understand exactly how your childhood shaped you. You're also going to Learn more than 10 surprising ways that trauma is created in childhood, even if you didn't realize it, and how it is probably still impacting you to this day. Right now.

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Hey, it's your friend Mel. I am so thrilled that you're here with me. It is Always an honor to be able to spend time together with you.

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[Mel Robbins]

I love that and I are gonna get to spend time learning from the extraordinary Dr. Gabor Mate. Dr. Mate is a world renowned physician and bestselling author whose work dives deep into childhood development and the impact of trauma on how it shapes your mental and physical health. Over your lifetime, Dr. Mate has completely transformed how the world sees, talks about and understands trauma. And he has absolutely had that impact on me and it's been life changing. I promise you this episode is gonna shift the way you see everything. How you show up for yourself, how you connect with the people you love, and why you experience life the way that you do. It's gonna help you understand why coping has become your default and how you can move toward true healing. I am so excited for both you and me. So please, please, please help me welcome the extraordinary Dr. Gabor mate to the Mel Robbins Podcast. I am so excited to welcome you, Dr. Gabor mate, to the Mel Robbins Podcast.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Thank you for having me.

[Mel Robbins]

Before we dive in, Gabor, I would love to have you speak directly to the person who's listening to us and just share with them what they might expect to experience if they really take to heart what you're about to teach us and share with us today.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, a lot of people are facing challenges. A lot of people are very hard on themselves. A lot of people think there's something wrong with them. My fundamental understanding and what I've learned is that underneath there's nothing wrong with anybody, that everything you're dealing with came along for a reason. There were adaptations or there were responses to difficult situations. And the more you can understand where your issues came from and even when your negative self view and the shame and the self loathing and the self criticism and the perfectionism that you experience, that there are actually responses to some kind of life experience and that fundamentally there was and there is nothing wrong with you and those things can be looked at and you can understand them and you can transform that and really become yourself, who you are, that's available to you. It's available to everybody. So nobody's damaged goods.

[Mel Robbins]

I love that. No one is damaged goods.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

We are going to unpack this in this conversation at length, but I think it might be helpful for someone who is not familiar with your work, if we could go back and can you share, if we go all the way back to your childhood, just what was happening in your life and in particular, how finding your mother's journal really impacted you and sent you in a certain direction in terms of your life's work?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, so I was born 80 years ago this year in Budapest, Hungary, January 1944, to Jewish parents whose Eliza already impacted by the Second World War. My father was in forced labor with the Hungarian army. A Jewish man had to go into forced labor when I was born, so he wasn't there when I was born. In March, the German army occupied Hungary. And then the genocide, the Holocaust that had obliterated the Jewish population of Eastern Europe, but not yet that of Hungary, began in our country. And within three months between March and June, they murdered half a million Jews, including my grandparents. And we came very close to being deported ourselves, my mother and I. So I spent the first year of my life under Nazi occupation with the mother who was terrorized and grief struck. Didn't know if my father was dead or alive for most of that year. And then when I was 11 months of age, to save my life, mother gave me to a complete stranger Christian woman in the street. And she conveyed me to some relatives living in relative safety and hiding. I didn't see her for five or six weeks. And all this is recorded in the journal that she kept. I didn't discover the journal. I always had her journal. But for many years when I tried to read it, I'd get dizzy. It's almost like sending me knew that this is too painful for me to handle. So it wasn't until some years ago when my mother was still alive, when I asked her to actually read the journal to me so I could really read what happened. And she wrote in the journal that I'm writing this because if my son grows up, I want him to know what happened. So that's in a nutshell. But those events left a deep imprint in my nervous system, in my body and in my psyche. And those traumatic events created a lot of psychological wounds in me that took me some years to even recognize, let alone to heal. And it wasn't until I was into late adulthood or middle age that I really began to deal with it and to recognize the subsequent impacts that then I passed on to my kids without meaning to, but just for the lack of awareness. So that's it. In A nutshell.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, that's a big nutshell.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

Wow. So how did those experiences in your life really start to shape your work? How did you start doing what you do today?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, before it shaped my work, it shaped me and how I functioned in the world or how I dysfunctioned in the world in so many ways. So it's when I began to experience challenges in my life. I was a successful doctor in my early 40s, respected, but depressed and unhappy. I was married to the love of my life, and we had a very strained, conflictual marriage. And my kids had issues, and some ways they were afraid of me because I was very unpredictable. So all those issues then made me start looking for some answers. So the work began by having to look at myself and trying to understand the sources of my behaviors. And that coincided with me noticing things as a physician in my medical practice. And that's how I began to look at childhood development, the impacts of early years, the concept of trauma and what that represented, and its impacts on adult or childhood mental health, physical illness, and so on. So both my personal experience and my professional work kind of led me in this direction of exploration.

[Mel Robbins]

And what have you learned about how childhood experiences shape who we become as adults?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

They're largely decisive. This begins even before birth. So already the emotional states of the mother while carrying the baby will affect the child's brain development.

[Mel Robbins]

I just want to make sure that the person that's with us in this conversation really gets this, because I didn't first learn that your emotional state and your physical state when you're carrying the child impacts the nervous system and development of the human being inside you. And it makes sense. But can you explain more about that? Because this is an idea that was brand new to me just a couple of years ago.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Sure. And what we have to nail down first is we're not blaming mothers here. They do their best. We're talking about the stress is acting on a pregnant woman. That's no fault of our own. But speaking of stress, when people are stressed, they release stress hormones, adrenaline and cortisol. When the mother is stressed in pregnancy, those stress hormones go through the placenta of the umbilical cord to the baby. That affects the child's nervous system and its development. Cortisol has a huge impact on the development of important brain circuits. You can look at the heart rate of infants in the womb as it changes, as the mother is more or less stressed. So these are just physiological facts. So there was a study done after 9 11, after the tragedy of 9 11, women who were pregnant and who suffered post traumatic stress disorder in the third trimester of pregnancy as a result of 9, 11, their infants had abnormal stress hormone levels a year later. Now, abnormal stress hormone levels have an impact on brain development and on the physiology and physiological health as well. So you can expect those kids, unless something is done to correct it, to face more challenges later on. And we know that mothers who are stressed during pregnancy, depressed during pregnancy, their children are more likely to have adhd, attention deficit disorder, or other mental health challenges. So it's just. Now, what's interesting here is indigenous people have always known this. I was talking to a native group in British Columbia, where I live, and this guy comes up to me and says, you know, doc, in our community, when a woman was pregnant, there was a rule that if you're stressed or upset, you were not permitted to go near them. We didn't want your stress and upset to affect the baby. So this modern science has only confirmed indigenous wisdom, but it's a huge issue in this country, in this culture, because people are so stressed for so many reasons.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, it's interesting to listen to you explain all this, because for me personally, your work has impacted both me and recognizing the way that childhood experiences and me when I was inside my mother developing into a baby. And then I think about your work in the context of me as a stressed out mother and the state that I was in when I was carrying any one of our three children and how that absolutely impacted their development. There's this kind of conflict that I feel between, oh, gosh, I hurt my kids and I didn't mean to, and also this understanding that I think this is part of the human experience on some level.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, first of all, when my mother was carrying me, I don't think she even wanted to be pregnant. I mean, what Jewish woman really wanted to be pregnant in the middle of the second world war when her husband is in forced labor already in utero? Kids can feel if they're not wanted. I've seen this show up in many, many, many, many ways. Now, the thing that I would take up with you is, on the one hand, there's the awareness that this is what happened. But the way you formulated that you hurt your kids, no pain flowed through you to your children, but you didn't hurt them. It's not that you did something deliberately or consciously to hurt them. It's just that the way it worked is that trauma is transmitted transgenerationally, but that's not to blame anybody. And it's really important to Remove blame because parents feel so guilty already. Parents with kids who have challenges, believe me, I've been one of them. There's a tremendous sense of guilt, which is entirely unwarranted and undeserved, and it doesn't even help. So let's just agree that the trauma does come through us, but we don't do it as such.

[Mel Robbins]

That is incredibly helpful way to think about it. When you said that it's pain moving through you.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

That made my shoulders drop. How do you define trauma, particularly for somebody who isn't aware whether or not they've experienced it?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

The way I define it is very straightforward. Trauma comes from a Greek word for wound or wounding. So trauma is a wound. It's a psychological wound. In this case, could be a physical wound. But here we're talking about psychological wounds. The important distinction to make is that trauma is not what happened to you. It's what happened inside of you as a result of what happened to you. So in my case, my trauma wasn't that my mother gave me to a stranger. The trauma was the wound, which is that I perceive myself as not wanted. I perceive myself as abandoned. Who gets abandoned? Somebody who doesn't deserve to be loved. So then I develop this sense of not being good enough, not being lovable enough. Now, that means I spend much of my life trying to prove that I'm good, that I'm lovable, that I am important, which then drives all kinds of behaviors, which then create more problems. But the trauma is not the event that's the traumatic episode, but the trauma is the wound that happens inside you. So if I get a blow on the head, that's not the trauma. The trauma is the concussion that I developed.

[Mel Robbins]

Now, in that case, it's physical. And I want to kind of hover here, because for a long time, I just assumed trauma was something that happened to people who were at war or were in a country that was occupied by a fascist government or country coming in like your parents were and that you were, or somebody that was the victim of a violent crime. I never understood that. Experiences that may seem insignificant on the surface, somebody's mood, somebody criticizing you, feeling left out, that these are things that can also leave a mark. Just like a blow to a head can actually leave a concussion. And I would love for you to explain to us what actually is a psychological wound. Because one of the things that I see happening a lot is people either shame themselves for being stuck or. Or they say I'm just too emotional or I should just get over it and there is something deeper that you mean when you say it's a psychological wound.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So well, that self talk, that negative self talk that you just articulated is itself a psychological wound. It's a sign of psychological wound. It's a sign of self rejection. Which is one of the deepest impacts of trauma is that people traumatized, they develop a shame based view of themselves. So they began to think that there's nothing wrong with them. That itself is a wound. Now when you talked about seemingly insignificant things, we have to make a distinction here. There are what we call the big T traumatic events. Those have been well studied. Physical abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse of children, neglect, a parent being addicted, a parent dying, a parent being jailed, violence in the family, a rancor's divorce, a parent being mentally ill, to which we need to add social factors such as poverty or racism. These are big T traumatic events that can wound kids and we can talk about the ways and when that shit happens. But you can also wound kids not by doing bad things to them that you shouldn't, but by not doing the good things that they need. In other words, children have certain needs. A human child is born with certain evolution determined needs. Those children whose needs are not met that way, for example, for unconditional loving acceptance. And I'm not talking about the parents love, I'm talking about the capacity of the parent to unconditionally accept the child and to see the child.

[Mel Robbins]

What do you mean when you say unconditional acceptance? Because I think most of us it's revelatory to hear no, no, no, no. There's a biological hardwired need that you have as a child to feel unconditional acceptance and safety from the adults around you and, and in your environment. And if you do not feel that way, it creates a response inside your body. There is a reaction to that. But most of us, I think we even just skip over that fact, Gabor, that there's a fundamental need that a child has to feel accepted. And so what does that mean? If you could unpack it for us?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Sure. Children get to experience and see themselves the way they are seen by the adults. So if a child gets emotional and they get criticized, then there's nothing wrong with their emotions. If a child is very sensitive and they're told don't be so sensitive, they think there's something wrong with them. If a child, a young toddler, is behaving a certain way and the parent thinks that the way to correct this is to punish the child and the child is just being a two year old. Then the child begins to believe that there's something wrong with them and they have to compensate for that by meeting the parents expectations. So now the acceptance is no longer unconditional. I'll accept you if you look this way, talk this way, behave this way, and then all your life you'll be worried about how the people see you. That's a sign of a childhood wound. Because fundamentally we need to be connected to ourselves. And when parents don't see us, we don't see ourselves. That's just a fact. And if you look at human evolution, we didn't evolve under the conditions that kids are raised now. We evolved under conditions for millions of years. Until 15,000 years ago. Living in small communities where there were many adults, takes a village to raise a child. The kids were always with the parents. There was no separation. Kids were carried everywhere. They were not put down to let them cry it out. They were just unconditionally accepted and not punished, actually not hit. It's a totally different paradigm of parenting. That's how we evolved. Which means that the human child expects to be treated that way. When those needs are not met, kids are hurt. Children have another need, which is we're wired to have certain emotions. You know, along with other mammals, we're wired to have anger. Anger is essential for survival. Fear. We're wired to have fear. We're wired to have curiosity seeking, we're wired to have separation distress. So that if the adult's not around, we should be upset, we should panic, so we cry. So the parents come and get us. Wired for play. And children have this need that when those emotions arise, parents should understand those emotions and not necessarily do what the kid wants them to do, but to understand the child's feelings. And when children are denied that kind of understanding, they think there's something wrong with their emotions. Then they start telling themselves, I'm too emotional, I'm not good enough, I'm too sensitive, I am not lovable. Or when children don't get the attention that they need, guess what? They develop. They need to be attractive so they can attract attention. Now look at the damage done in this culture by people thinking that they need to meet certain standards of physical looks and the trouble that people go to, it's all because they were not accepted just for who they were. And now they're trying to attract attention.

[Mel Robbins]

Is there a human being on the planet that doesn't have trauma from their childhood? Cause I'm sitting here listening and it's an interesting conversation because you listen to it both from your experience. And I love that you said we're not gonna blame mothers. And pain is moving through people. This is why trauma passes through your family and through cultures generationally. And learning about this helps you understand the responses to your childhood that helped you survive. And it also helps you feel empowered to take responsibility.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's right.

[Mel Robbins]

To change those now subconscious responses that you have.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah. So going back to your question about is there anybody on the planet? Yeah. But in this culture, that would be the exception because there's so many features of this culture that don't meet human needs that make human life difficult. Look, the United States is the richest country in history. 70% of adults are at least on one medication. 40% of adults are at least on two medications. More and more kids are getting medicated for all kinds of conditions, from ADHD to self cutting to aggression to so called oppositionality to anxiety. We can look at this two ways. Either human beings are just innately troubled or there's something wrong with the environment in which we're raising our kids and in which we're trying to striving to doing our best. But we're facing conditions that are inimical to healthy human development. So in this sense, when we talk about trauma, we're talking about the conditions under which parents have to function. These days. If I was functioning in a laboratory trying to grow microorganisms, the word is called culturing. We're trying to culture organisms, laboratory culture. If in that laboratory culture a lot of those microorganisms began to develop pathologies or die off, you'd have to say this is a toxic culture. Well, it's the same thing with human beings. So rather than looking at the source of people's problems strictly within themselves, we have to actually look at the conditions for any creature in the world, whether it's a plant or animal. You have to look at the conditions under which people are living and raising kids and trying to function. So that's what I'm doing here.

[Mel Robbins]

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And you and I are spending time today with the amazing Dr. Gabor mate. And we're digging into the topic of how your childhood has shaped who you've become as an adult. So, Dr. Mate, when you think of childhood trauma, how do you identify it?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, again, I mentioned those 10 conditions, the big T, the big T ones adding to it poverty and racism. Those things actually affect the physiology of the body. So people who are traumatized that way, they have a much higher risk. For example, people who've had several of those big experiences that I talked about, they have a higher risk for autoimmune disease, higher risk for cancer, much higher risk for addiction, much higher risk for mental health problems and so on.

[Mel Robbins]

This show has listeners in 194 countries.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Sure.

[Mel Robbins]

And this might be the very first time as you're listening that you're actually starting to go, wait a minute. Everything that he's saying is what I experienced, or at least pieces of it. I've never considered that this could be trauma. And we've talked about it as a psychological wound. But I think it'd be really helpful if you also explained how does this create either programming or conditioning in your body that starts to define who you become as an adult and create behaviors that you never intended.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So that happens on both the physiological and the psychological level.

[Mel Robbins]

Okay.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

On the physiological level, trauma incites inflammation in the body. So people who are severely traumatized in childhood, you can measure the level of inflammatory particles in their bloodstream. They'll be abnormally high, which makes them more at risk for cancer, more at risk for autoimmune disease, more at risk for depression, mental health problems, and so on. That's just a physiological fact. Trauma can affect the way genes are turned on and off. So genes don't function independently. There are very few conditions that are purely genetically determined. There are some. One runs in my family. Muscular dystrophy. If you inherit the gene, you'll have the disease. But that's very rare. Relatively. But genes are turned on off by the animal environment. So the wrong genes can be turned on and the right genes can be turned off by trauma. Then trauma can dysregulate the body stress mechanism. So people are secreting more cortisol and adrenaline. These are the stress hormones, which in the short term are life saving. Because if I was threatened or you were, we would generate cortisol adrenaline from an adrenal gland, and we would be stronger and faster and better able to counter the threat, either to escape or to fight back. But in the long term, those same stress hormones thin the bones, create more clotting in the blood, narrow the blood vessels, elevate the blood pressure. You get. Hypertension, suppress the immune system, put fat on your belly, creating higher risk for heart disease, makes you depressed, ulcerate your intestines. These are the stress hormones. So there's all that on the physiological side. And I could say more about it. But if you, for example, I mentioned racism. So if you look at the chromosomal aging of black people in this country, they age faster than Caucasians. And black kids already have higher blood pressure measurements than their Caucasian counterparts. It's got nothing to do with genetics. It's got to do with the stress of racism. A black woman in this country, the more episodes of racism they experience, the higher the risk for asthma. Children whose parents are stressed are at higher risk for asthma. This has been known for decades. I could go on a great length about that. So these are some of the physiological impacts. Then there are the emotional impacts. So like in my case, being given to a stranger gives me the sense of not being wanted, not being important. Then I develop behaviors where I try and prove my importance. So I become a workaholic doctor. So I drive myself too hard and I don't pay so much attention to my family because I'm out there trying to prove my importance in the world. Now that has impact on my kids, that has an impact on my marriage. So there's these behavior, emotional impacts which result in certain behaviors. Then we can talk about addictions. Addictions is a huge consequence of childhood trauma of all kinds. And there's all kinds of science behind that. So one more thing, if I may say. When people get the message that their emotions aren't acceptable to the adults, children will push down their feelings in order to be accepted. And they'll try to be nice and cooperative and they'll try to fit in with other people's expectations, which then means they'll be stressed all the time, which then potentially is all kinds of illness.

[Mel Robbins]

You know, I am sitting here thinking about ways in which I can try to distill down what you're saying. Because the information has been so life changing for me in my own life to really accept, acknowledge and seek to understand how childhood experiences created a traumatic response inside of me. And I wanna focus on the, I guess you would call it the smaller T stuff, which is that you have fundamental needs as a child and when they are not provided to you, that it creates trauma inside of you. And is it fair to say that another way to think about trauma is that it's something happening outside of you that creates this almost like alarm or bracing in your body. It's like it kind of flips you into that fight or flight. Cause I have this experience of not like going back through my childhood and not like seeing anything that's massive related to my parents, but just having this sense of constantly being on edge, constantly feeling like it's my job to make everybody happy. Don't say the wrong thing. This hyper vigilance and I never knew where it came from.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, well, the child is very sensitive to the parents emotional states. And even if, for example, you can. One of the ways you can tell if a marriage is troubled is you can ask the parents or you can measure the child's stress hormone levels. So the stresses of the parents are directly affecting the child's physiology and the child's psychology. So you may not have articulated and clearly see what was going on. But especially if you're a sensitive person genetically, and that is genetic sensitivity, you'll feel exactly what's going on and you'll think it's all about you. And then you also develop the belief that it's your job to fix it. And then when you can't fix it, you develop this tremendous sense of guilt and shame because you failed at your job of making your parents happy, which never should have been the child's job in the first place.

[Mel Robbins]

What is a child supposed to do.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

About what.

[Mel Robbins]

Just as you're growing up. It's interesting because I think so many people, at least in my life and my lived experience is that that's my job, to protect myself, to make everybody happy too.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

But you see, that's how you survived. Because what you needed most of all is a relationship with your parents. And one of the needs of children that I haven't mentioned is what we can call rest. Because in a rest state we can develop and grow and unfold. Now rest means the child doesn't have to work to make the relationship work with the parent. The relationship is just there. There's nothing the child can do to break the relationship. Now in a situation where that's not the case, then the child necessarily has to work to make the relationship work. Because without that relationship they know they can't survive. So that adaptation, the hyper vigilance on your part, remember I said in the beginning that nobody's damaged goods. So that hyper vigilance on your part and that belief that it's your job to make the situation peaceful, that's an adaptation on your part.

[Mel Robbins]

So that's a form of trauma, that's.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

An outcome of trauma. The problem is that that becomes then wired into your personality. But children don't have any choice in the matter. They have to adapt to this situation. Those adaptations, they become wired into their personalities and that's who they think they are. That's not who they are. Those are their adaptations, their trauma showing up in Their behavior and in their emotional functioning.

[Mel Robbins]

One of the ways that I've seen people really deny the existence of trauma inside a family is between siblings. Where two siblings will grow up in the same household and be like, well, that never happened. Or mom wasn't like that. Or you're just being too sensitive in your work. What have you discovered about how siblings can grow up in the same house?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

No siblings grow up in the same house. No siblings have the same parents. No siblings have the same family. No siblings have the same childhood. Why not? There are a whole lot of reasons. Number one, there's the birth order. Parents don't relate to the first child the way they relate to the second child. Then there's gender differences parents don't relate to. I'm not talking about whether parents love the kids or not. I'm talking about what actually happens. The child doesn't experience the parents love, the child experiences the way the parent shows up. So number one, number two, the parents relationship might be in a different phase. One child and another. The parents might be in a different economic situation. The parents lives might be different. Then each child will evoke a different response from the parent. Like with my three kids or your three kids? Yeah. You have three children? Yeah. You have two daughters and a son. I have two sons and a daughter. It's not that I loved or we loved any one of them more than the other, but we responded to them differently. And there's one more factor which is children are born with different temperaments, which is they experience the world differently. So even if I could be the same parent to all my kids, which I couldn't be, they still have three different parents because they would experience me differently.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, you know, I am sitting here listening again kind of from two places. One as a mother. Right. And one as a human being who was a daughter, who has recognized that there were lots of small things that happened and one big thing that created a tremendous, like a traumatic response inside me that created hypervigilance and anxiety and probably adhd. And I'm also thinking, and I'm going to share this because I think it'll be really helpful that I had a wildly traumatic birth. I was two weeks overdue. They had to induce me here in Boston. And my daughter Sawyer, who is sitting outside this studio and yeah, worked on the Let them theory book with me. She did not want to come out. So it was 36 hours. They had to use a forceps. Didn't work. They ended up doing a vacuum extraction. And then I tore and I Got rushed to emergency surgery and lost two and a half liters of blood.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Oh, gosh.

[Mel Robbins]

And they sent Sawyer home with Chris. They kept me in the hospital, and by the time I went home, my skin was as gray as a dolphin and I had severe postpartum depression.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

And the kind Gabor, where I could not be alone with her because I was in such a depressive and scary state. And I was on medications that made it completely unsafe for me to breastfeed her.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I understand.

[Mel Robbins]

And for the first 10 weeks of her life, I was a zombie on medication. And oh, my God, it just kills me to think about this. And she's recently gone into therapy and has started doing emdr. And one of her visions when they kind of trace responses to stressful things in the moment. And it goes all the way back to the first vision is a vision that she has where she's in her crib and she really wants me to come. And it's my husband and then it's my mother, and then it's my mother in law and then it's my friend Joni that would sit with me while Chris went to work and I never came.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah. So we went through the same thing with one of our children. And my wife had a severe postpartum depression. She couldn't even look at the kid. So let me say a couple of things here. One is that sometimes birth trauma happens, you know, but yours was severe. Now, birth was created by nature in a certain way. During the birth process, there's natural hormones that are released both in the mother and the infant. It's been called a love cocktail. It's a combination of internal opiates and oxytocin and other brain chemicals which create the bonding between the mother and the infant. Now, sometimes medical intervention is life saving and essential, but we've medicalized birth so much that we interfere with it so much now that we're creating a lot of birth trauma where it's not necessary. I'm not saying that was the case in your situation, but nevertheless, we're doing it a lot, you know, and that interferes with mother and child bonding, number one. Number two, the child does have this need to stay with the mother's body for many months because the human child is the least developed and the least mature and the most dependent of any mammal. And the maturation, like a horse can run on the first day of life. Human beings can't do that for a year and a half. The horse is a year and a half ahead of us in terms of Brain development. That's because we developed these big brains, these big heads. If we waited any more than nine months, we would never get born. Sometimes even now we barely get born because the head gets stuck, which is probably what happened in your case. Which means that the development that in other animals happens in the womb and human beings have to happen outside the womb, that's been called extero gestation. There's entero gestation in the womb and extero gestation outside the womb. Now that means the mother's body, the mother's skin, the mother's heartbeat, close to the baby for many, many, many months. So when that doesn't happen, and in the US 25% of women have to go back to work within two weeks of giving birth, which is a massive abandonment. Now they don't do it because they want to. They have to do it for economic reasons. It's a massive abandonment of children. So there's the birth trauma and its impacts, then there's the mother's depression and that has an impact on infants. So people, kids whose mothers were depressed postpartum have a higher risk of adhd. And we can talk about why that's the case.

[Mel Robbins]

Why is that the case? Because all three of my children have adhd.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, I can tell you what I the first book I ever wrote, Scattered Minds, was an ADHD after I was diagnosed. And we can talk about that, but let me just say, no, that's just the case and we can discuss it. They've done electroencephalograms on 6 month old infants whose mother was depressed and whose mother was not depressed. You could tell from the EEG of the infant whose mother is depressed and whose is not. Not because the depressed mother loves the child any less or is any iota less devoted than the non depressed mother, but because the depressed mother can't respond to the infant with the same smiling, playful, attuned interaction which the child needs for healthy brain development. It's a sacred thing and society needs to hold it sacred. Now how mothers used to develop or raise children is in the community where they gave birth, in the community where they were doulas, where no, mind you, they didn't have the advantages of modern medicine, which again, I'm not dismissing, I'm just talking about how we evolved. And there was such a thing as allomothering. Other mothers would come and support the mother when the mother needed to rest, other women would come and hold the baby. And mothers are left very much on their own in this society. And that depression in the mother then affects the child's brain development. Not only that, given that we develop our sense of ourselves based on how the adults look at us. When the mother or the parents can't look at the child or they can't hold the child again, the child begins to feel there's something wrong with them.

[Mel Robbins]

It feels like there's a million ways for this to actually happen. Well, there is, and I share the story because it's true. I was a completely different mother when I gave birth to our second child, Kendall, just 19 months later. And Chris and I were different. And so I can see how, without any ill intention, you are a very different parent.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Absolutely.

[Mel Robbins]

And the child is a very different child.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

And the child is born with a different temperament.

[Mel Robbins]

Correct.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So they experience you differently to start with.

[Mel Robbins]

So how do you, like, how does this sort of unresolved trauma from childhood that I would imagine a lot of us learn about this as an adult, and then we start to recognize that this is an explanation for a lot of the patterns of behavior that you don't really like, but you're not quite sure how to get control of them. How does unresolved trauma impact the way that you deal with stress as an adult?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So the body's stress regulation apparatus, which is physiological, it has to do with the connection between certain brain centers down to the adrenal gland, which is the stress gland. You might say, no child is born with stress regulation. Infants don't know how to regulate their stresses.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, neither do adults.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, as you say in your book, Most adults are 8 years old, if that, But I thought that was pretty generous. This might have been three or four years old. Well, stress radiation, like other functions, has to develop so that when something stressful happens, I know how to face it without being overwhelmed. And that depends on the development of these brain circuits and receptors for brain chemicals. Now, trauma interferes with the development of the body's stress regulation apparatus. So that become adults, and we don't know how to handle stress, and then we seek escape. So one of the ways that people escape from stress is addictive behaviors. For example, if you talk about or talk to addicts, if you look at my own addictive behaviors, even if I go sober for a while and then I relapse, what usually happened is that I got stressed and then I reached for that addictive outlet as a way of soothing my stress. So that's how it shows up. But physiologically, it shows up by a dysregulation of the body's stress regulation apparatus. So there's not just psychological. We're talking physiology. And you've done these studies in laboratory animals where the way the mother handles that infant rat pup in the first few days of life will have an impact on the adult rat's capacity to handle stress. And if you take the rats, by the way, whose mothers don't handle them as well, and you put them with mothers who do, their brains develop normally. So it's not a genetic effect. It's what's called an epigenetic effect. It's the environment acting on the genesis.

[Mel Robbins]

Which is why we come back to your original point. No human being is damaged goods. The good news is that if you can recognize that your response to stress and traumatic situations and overwhelming emotional situations is something that you can identify and change, that that's what the opportunity is here in terms of being able to heal and resolve trauma.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Absolutely. And especially if you begin by recognizing that it's not your fault, there's nothing wrong with you.

[Mel Robbins]

You know, when I think about my husband, who absolutely experienced trauma by having a dad that was a workaholic and never around and narcissistic personality style and lots of drinking and stress in the marriage. Right. And his response to stress is to just shut down. The man goes silent and stoic. And in our marriage, one of the things that have come up a lot, which you can direct line to his response to his own childhood, is he doesn't really know what his needs are because they weren't met.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's right.

[Mel Robbins]

And for him, it took a long time to call that trauma from his childhood because he's like, well, I had food. My parents were there. I know, went to school. It's not like they beat me.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I know.

[Mel Robbins]

And for me, I am the opposite. I'm a reactor. Like, I'm a human volcano. And when I get dysregulated or triggered or upset or overwhelmed, I'm like. And it's. Even though I know this and I've been working on it, and I am a completely different human being, I feel that way over the last three years. I still erupt.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, join the club.

[Mel Robbins]

And so how do you personally navigate your daily challenges and when you get overwhelmed by stress?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So let me say something about Chris first, if I may.

[Mel Robbins]

Yes, please.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

When he says that I wasn't beaten or we weren't starving, I had food, and therefore I wasn't traumatized, here's what I would say to him. So listen, Chris, let's take one of your kids and let's say you were an alcoholic. Which means that you came home in different moods all the time and the kids couldn't rely on who dad was gonna be for one minute to the next. And your mom was constantly stressed. If you were this way, do you think your kids wouldn't be hurt by that? So just plug your kid into the situation that you're in. You see how. And if you're. One of your kids came to you and said, dad, I don't like it that you're drinking and you're behaving this way or that way, and you're a workaholic and you're never around, would you say to your kid, well, there's food on the table. What are you complaining about?

[Mel Robbins]

No, but I did.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

No, that happened in our house like 15 years ago.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay?

[Mel Robbins]

And he felt bad and I was an asshole.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay?

[Mel Robbins]

Again, more trauma and more pain passing on to our kids.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, I'm just saying that when people look at their own childhoods, they kind of minimize.

[Podcast Announcer]

Why do we do that?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Because it was too painful to accept in the first place. So that people dissociate and they disconnect from their bodies and their feelings. Now, you said that he had a hard time feeling what he feels. That itself is a trauma impact. It's a protection. It's not a flaw, it's not a damage. It's an adaptation. If I was hurting you right now and you couldn't escape and you couldn't fight back and you couldn't ask for help, then dissociating and not experiencing your feelings would be your only protection. But then it gets wired into you, and then all your life you go through not knowing what you feel and not knowing what your needs are. So again, it's an adaptation. That's what I'm saying is that nobody's damaged goods. These are just adaptations. The abnormality is not an individual. It's in the circumstances to which the individual had to respond that way so that his response, or yours, or mine for that matter, were perfectly normal responses to abnormal circumstances. I say abnormal in the sense circumstances that did not meet human needs.

[Mel Robbins]

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[Mel Robbins]

Welcome back.

[Podcast Announcer]

It's your friend Mel Robbins, and today.

[Mel Robbins]

You and I are getting to spend time with the extraordinary Dr. Gabor Mate. So, Dr. Mate, one of the things that's coming to mind is thinking back to my own life and the moment where I first bumped into your work and I learned that the seemingly little things created a lasting Impact. And that even though I wasn't to blame for the emotional volatility or the emotional shutdown in my parents when I was growing up, that it impacted me. It was real. And it was my responsibility to heal and to decide whether or not I wanted to do the work to change the way that it impacted me. Cause it did have a massive impact on my behaviors. Constantly feeling on edge, people pleasing, anxiety, adhd, drinking too much, chasing success as a way to prove that I was worthy of something and to make other people happy.

[Podcast Announcer]

It was everywhere.

[Mel Robbins]

It honestly just defined how I ran on default. And I remember the moment, though, when I started to truly accept the fact that these were all indications of trauma. And that if I wanted my life to feel different, that I needed to lean into everything that you're saying. And I felt a lot of conflict about that moment because I felt guilty for identifying it that way. Because I know my parents were just doing the best. That they did.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

They did.

[Mel Robbins]

And that there was a lot that I didn't remember.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

And I'm wondering if you could just talk to the person who's listening, who is having that awakening for the first time where they're really accepting that some of the behaviors and the negative self talk and the anxiety that this is a result of experiences that you had as a child where you were not given the things that you needed.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Mel, there's a lot in what you said, okay. Fisher said you behave that way by default. There's a difference between default and fault. Okay, Default, you didn't know you were doing it. You didn't know any better. You're just following patterns that were programmed into you, but it's not your fault. Okay? There's a huge difference. Important distinction, number one. Number two, it's never the child's job to make the parents happy or to create peace in the family. And the child invariably fails, which instills a huge sense of guilt and inadequacy for not having fulfilled a task that never ought to be in yours, never should have been yours in the first place. It's a reversal of roles. Because whose job it is to hold, who emotionally to create peace. And so when a child is forced into that position again as an adaptation to maintain a relationship with the parents, she's given an impossible task that she's bound to fail at and bound to feel shame over it. Which means that any shame and guilt that you feel is completely undeserved. When we start to noticing these patterns, we can start asking ourselves questions. But it depends on how we ask them. So I could say, why am I behaving this way now? Is that a question?

[Mel Robbins]

No, it's an indictment.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

It's an indictment, Bhava. I said, I wonder why I'm behaving that way. So we need to begin to develop that compassionate curiosity towards the self where we start looking not to why did I. Not this indictment, as you say, but genuine curiosity. And from that perspective, everything, pretty much everything anybody thinks is wrong with them is actually because it's an adaptation or it begins as a failure of development because the conditions for development were not adequate. And so then we can understand now it's not a question of being victims. That's the last thing we want to do, is to foster victim mentality. They did this to me, and now I can't help it. No, that happened. And it's your responsibility and it's your capacity to change that now. So you have to drop the victim mode altogether. But that doesn't mean that we don't recognize what happened. So to say that stuff happened to you, and I get the sense that something big happened that you haven't articulated yet, but something big happened to you at some point, to recognize that is not to say that you're a victim is just to say that whatever happened had certain impacts and fostered certain adaptations on your part that made you behave and undermine your development in a certain way.

[Mel Robbins]

Oh, I'll share it with you. When I was in the fourth grade, I woke up in the middle of the night on a family vacation and an older kid was on top of me.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay. All right.

[Mel Robbins]

And that had massive implications on my life.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

When were we.

[Mel Robbins]

I was fourth grade, and I was sound asleep. So I was in a safe space, wake up to an older kid on top of me who was fondling me. And in the scheme of things, that can happen, it was. Here I go, dismissing it. You're looking at me, you're like, no, no, no, no.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Don't go there.

[Mel Robbins]

Okay. Okay. But it's almost like I'm shaming myself for having trouble.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

No. Can I unpack this for you a little bit?

[Mel Robbins]

Sure.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Are you open to it?

[Mel Robbins]

Oh, I'm so open to it. Yeah.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay. Here's the question I'm going to ask you.

[Mel Robbins]

Okay.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

How did you feel when this happened?

[Mel Robbins]

I felt very confused and scared.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Confused and scared. Good enough. Who did you speak to about it?

[Mel Robbins]

No one.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay. Now, if something like this happened to one of your daughters, was it grade four?

[Mel Robbins]

Yeah.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay. If one of these things happened to Sawyer or Kendall and grade Four. And if they didn't talk to you, how would you explain that I'd feel?

[Mel Robbins]

How would I explain it? I would explain it. And I'm about to go intellectual. I personally, as the mother, would feel heartbroken.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I understand how you'd feel, but really, I'm not asking how you feel, I'm asking how you'd explain it. Why wasn't my daughter talking to me about feeling scared and confused and violated? Why she.

[Mel Robbins]

Because she didn't feel confused, safe talking to me.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's the trauma. The trauma began before that happened. Because if you had been able to talk to your parents and they would have said, this is awful, you must feel terrible, come here, let me hold you and let's deal with the situation. So the trauma is not only in what happened, it's that you were so alone with what happened. And that aloneness was yours before this traumatic event ever occurred. As a matter of fact, abusers can tell with almost laser like accuracy who's defended and protected and who's not. Who can be victimized and who cannot. So that your primary traumatic event was not this event, not that this wasn't traumatic. Of course it was hugely traumatic. But it became hugely traumatic because you were alone. And that sense of lack of safety and lack of protection, furthermore, you may not even have wanted to bother your parents. Cause they're already stressed enough already. You were protecting them. That's the primary traumatic situation.

[Mel Robbins]

I've never looked at it like that.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

Do you see that when I. Oh, a thousand percent. And I can also see when I think about experiences that friends have shared with me where they did say something and then there was denial, there was dismissal or dismissal or we're not gonna tell anybody, or this stays within us, or even if they then go after the person and confront it, it blows up and somehow you're to blame. And so I can see how that's fair. And of course when you shove it down, you then think you've done something wrong. And that was the other thing that happened for me, is that I felt like I had done something wrong.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's one of the impacts of trauma is that shame based view of the self. People start blaming themselves that somehow you invited it or deserved it, or you didn't fight back hard enough or which if you didn't, was also self protection.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, I think that was one of the original moments that at least that I remember where I literally left my body and disassociated.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Which was a defense.

[Mel Robbins]

Yes.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So again, it's an adaptation. So that's what I would say about that incident.

[Mel Robbins]

It makes perfect sense.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, but again, the problem is in the environment, in the lack of being held and being seen. So there's nothing. And then in your initial impulse when you began that narrative about how it's not as bad as what.

[Mel Robbins]

Right, right, right.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Would you say that to your. Oh, my God, if your daughter comes to you and says, it's not so bad, think of all the kids that are being beaten. So that lack of self compassion is one of the ways that trauma shows up. And that's why I'm saying the healing needs to begin with some compassionate curiosity towards the self. Not why, but why. It's a totally different conversation.

[Mel Robbins]

And then I can also see and take responsibility and have a lot of compassion for how my volatility emotionally.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Absolutely.

[Mel Robbins]

Just passed that on to my daughters.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Absolutely.

[Mel Robbins]

And so there are things that happened to them that in the time they didn't feel comfortable coming to me.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

Because the exact same thing.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Exactly.

[Mel Robbins]

And you know, it, of course, just makes me. It makes me sad that I didn't know this sooner, but I feel very grateful for your work because I know it now and so do our children and so does my husband. And that knowledge gives you the ability to truly address the things that happened and the response that happened in your body and how that has created these default patterns and this inability to manage stress or emotion or conflict in a way that is healthy and that keeps you connected to yourself instead of constantly abandoning yourself and feeling disappointed in yourself and shaming yourself. And so while I can reflect on that with a lot of sadness and grief and regret, I feel more empowered, honestly. Well, that's the whole point about what's possible.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's the whole point is that we all want to be free, but as long as we're running on default mode and we're just reacting to stuff, there's no freedom in it. We're actually like puppets on a string. And if you remember Pinocchio, you know, when he becomes a real boy, he says how silly, how foolish I was when I was a puppet. Well, we're all puppets in that sense. As long as these traumatic impacts are running our lives, we're puppets on a string, and those strings are unconscious. So it's the whole thing about becoming really free. And that real freedom looks at depends on looking at how it was and getting in touch with our capacity to take responsibility now, you know, so what really the work is for all of us is how to become free so it can be in the present moment, connected to ourselves. The great trauma psychologist Peter Levine says, you're no longer living under the tyranny of the past. And it's totally available. It's totally possible.

[Mel Robbins]

It is totally possible.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

And it's possible for you, it's possible for your children, it's possible for anybody that you know and love. It's possible for your parents, if they accept the invitation to look at themselves.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

If they choose it. Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

Yes. What is the first step? Is it asking the question, like why? Like just being curious, with a level of compassion, like, why am I like this? Because if I reflect on your question, that's what happened for me. I started to say to myself, it's no longer tolerable for me to operate like this. I don't want to be this person. I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to feel disconnected from other people. I don't want to have this level of anger inside me.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So that's actually the first step, is to recognize one's suffering rather than taking it for granted, which incidentally is the Buddha's first teaching is that life is dukkha. Life brings suffering, you know, and then the second question is, okay, why? You know, so it does begin with recognizing the suffering rather than denying it and running away from it. And there's many ways to run away from our pain through certain behaviors and addictions. And the point is, stop running from your pain. Accept that it's there and be curious about it without blaming yourself for it. So those are the first steps. And then you ask for help. I mean, if help is available. We are born seeking help. You've never met a one day old infant who doesn't know ask for help. But let me ask you a question. How easy it has been going back for you to ask for help?

[Mel Robbins]

You mean if I think about when.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I was in fourth grade then, and even decades later, can you ask for help? Is that a challenge for you?

[Mel Robbins]

Well, I asked for a lot of help.

[Podcast Announcer]

Now.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

No, I don't mean now. I mean before your transformation.

[Mel Robbins]

Absolutely. Like when you just said that I had this epiphany that I've always felt like I gotta do it myself.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Exactly.

[Mel Robbins]

I've always felt like it's on me. I've always felt like, I'll just take this on, I'll just do this.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Which was an adaptation because there was no help available, but you were.

[Mel Robbins]

You know what's interesting.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Sorry, go ahead.

[Mel Robbins]

Is you just said there's no help available. And I felt this Knee jerk need.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah. To protect your parents. Yes, I understand.

[Mel Robbins]

Because I do know. Like, I mean, I know my mom well enough to know that she would have picked up a shovel and probably clocked the kid into next week. Like, I.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

That's not what you needed your mother to do. You needed your mother to say, oh, gee, that's awful. Come here, let's talk about it. You weren't born not knowing how to ask for help. You were born with a supreme capacity to ask for help. I mean, as we know, any infant knows how to ask for help. So something educates it out of us. Something compels us to suppress a capacity to seek help. So if the first step is recognizing our suffering and the second step is getting curious about it, then. And the third step is, I need some help here. It's beautiful, but it's only the simple truth.

[Mel Robbins]

It is so simple when you lay it out like that. And it's also so freeing.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

One of the things that you write about that I think is so important that I would love to have you explain is this idea that we are naturally wired and have a fundamental need for joyfulness, playfulness, creativity, and that we sacrifice that. Can you talk more about that?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

So there's a book written by a palliative care nurse in Australia, and I used to work in palliative care, and it's called the Top five Regrets of Dying People. And she's talking to people who die before their time, you know, from cancer. Usually one of the regrets is that they worked too hard. They didn't play enough. Now, playfulness is built into our brains. All mammals play. Bear cubs play. Lion cubs play. Puppies, kittens, they all play. We're wired for play. Why? Because play is essential for a number of things. One is essential for brain development. It's much more important for brain development than academic learning. I'm talking about scientifically, brain, physiologically. So play is important. Play is also important to form relationships. Cause in play you can kind of roughhouse a bit, but you're not actually being enemies, so you're making friends that way. So play is essential. Winnie the Pooh, which is one of my all time favorite books.

[Mel Robbins]

Why is it one of your all time favorite books?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, it's so playful, but at the very end, and I know you're married to Chris Robbins, which is Christopher Robin. Anyway, there's a passage at the end of the book Winnie the Pooh, where Christopher, the boy, by the way, him and his father had a terrible relationship, which is a whole other issue I'm talking about the real Christopher Robin. But the fictional Christopher Robin is now growing up, and he has to go to school, which means he won't be able to play with his animals anymore. And he's trying to explain this to these animals, including Winnie the bear. And the book ends with this statement that I'll paraphrase, where it says, they go off walking together, hand in hand. And the book ends with, but whatever they do and wherever they go in the Enchanted Forest, a little boy and his bear will always be playing together. And that passage, as an adult, would bring me to tears, because as a kid, as an infant, I wasn't played with. My mother was way too terrorized and depressed to play with me. And kids, peekaboo. Play starts so early. It's essential for mental health. It's essential for so these poor people who were looking back on their lives and saying, I wish I had played more. Play is just essential. And I have to say that one of the things that has kept our marriage going 55 years now is that we play so well together. And we're just playing all the time when we're not fighting, which, by the way, is long gone. Not long gone, but gone. So play is just essential.

[Mel Robbins]

And you weren't played with. So did you play with your kids?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

It's interesting. I have two brothers. They're both intuitively playful with young kids. They just know how to be with them, how to pretend, how to just get into their space. I watch them, and I don't know how the hell they do it, because I didn't know how to play with my kids. Not really. I kind of faked it. But I always kept waiting for them to develop minds that I could engage with verbally. Because on that verbal level, I'm very comfortable. On the play level, I wasn't. I was rather stiff. I wish I was a grandfather. I'm not yet. Because I learned how to play. I'd let that infant teach me how to play. But no, I didn't know how to play. I didn't know how to play. I really lacked that because it wasn't given to me when I was small. My brothers had it now. They grew up under very different circumstances. They didn't have the same parents, the way we talked about it. So they know how to play. I don't. With kids, I mean.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, a very surprising insight for me as I've been working to resolve issues from my past, is noticing that I'm a very warm person, but I'm not affectionate. And it's this epiphany of going in more for the hug, being more physical in terms of embracing my kids. And it's something that I definitely did not receive. And I come from a long line of farmers and hard workers and pull up your big girl panties and let's move on. And that's the way that my mom is, even though she's warm and amazing and loving, but not physically embracing. And so I really relate to that because it's something as an adult that I recognize that I truly want to change. And it takes effort. It takes effort for me to go, oh, I noticed. I'm just standing here, I gotta put my arm around.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Just gone to five.

[Mel Robbins]

That's true.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

And then hug somebody. I used to be hug phobic.

[Mel Robbins]

And I embraced you when you walked in.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, you did. But honest to God, when people in the room would start hugging each other, I'd stand there like this.

[Mel Robbins]

And is that a response?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

It's a response to early not being held. And it's also a kind of a protective shell. I don't want to make myself that vulnerable. I don't want to open up.

[Mel Robbins]

What might be some surprising adult behaviors that are an indication of unresolved trauma from your childhood?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, sometimes it's attributes and behaviors that the world respects you for. So great success can sometimes be an outcome of childhood trauma because you're working so hard to prove something to the world. Like, I talked about my own workaholism because I had to prove that I was important. Now that made me a very successful, respected physician from the outside, on the inside. Different story in my family, a different situation altogether. People who are very attractive and who put a lot of effort into being very attractive, the world admires them. But it's very often, like I said before, they're trying to attract the attention that should have been their birthright. And they don't feel good if they're not attractive. And you see this as people age, this desperation to keep looking young because they're not acceptable the way they are. So sometimes it shows up in success, in what the world considers success and other ways.

[Mel Robbins]

You talked about not being the kind of person that is open to hugging or my husband shuts down.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, my response to a sense of disruption in my relationship with my wife is to shut down. So I just, you know, go sullen and non communicative. I mean, I talk about that in the first chapter of the book. I arrive home from a speaking trip and she texts me that she hasn't left home. Yet to pick me up from the airplane and I go into a sullen withdrawal stage because I'm reliving my abandonment unconsciously, but I don't realize it. And when I saw my mother again after that five or six weeks separation, I didn't even look at her for several days, which is the typical response of the child. Because the child's brain says, you were so hurt when you're abandoned that you will not open yourself up again. So your husband is exhibiting the same thing. That has been a very dominant problem in my relationship in my marriage is my tendency to shut down in response to any sense of hurt, Even if the hurt has nothing to do with the present moment, but it's a re triggering of some old wound.

[Mel Robbins]

You're so amazing. What are your parting words?

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

You know what comes up for me is that beautiful movie with Robin Williams and Matt Damon.

[Mel Robbins]

Good Will Hunting. Good Will Hunting here in Boston.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, that's right. Where the psychologist Robin Williams grabs this very dysfunctional, dysregulated client paid by Matt Damon, and he says, it's not your fault. If we can only get that. That's the biggest takeaway. I would say. Just get it. It's not your fault, but there's reason for it. It can be worked through.

[Mel Robbins]

Well, thank you. Thank you. Thank you for being here, for sharing all of your wisdom and your research, and for not only validating our experience, but giving us three simple things we can do to reconnect with ourselves and truly take our power back. You're amazing.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

My pleasure. Thank you.

[Mel Robbins]

You're welcome. Oh, and I also wanna take a moment and thank you. Thank you for choosing to listen to this episode. Thank you for sharing this with people that you love. And thank you for taking everything that you've learned today very seriously and trying these steps that Dr. Mate have given to you. Because you deserve to reconnect with yourself. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to have a different experience life. And there is no doubt in my mind that everything that you learn today is going to help you and the people that you love do exactly that. And in case no one else tells you, I wanted to be sure to tell you that I love you. I believe in you, and I believe in your ability to create a better life and understanding how your childhood has impacted who you've become and taking responsibility for who you want to become next. Everything you learned today is going to help you do that. All righty. I'll be waiting for you in the very next episode. I can't believe you're here. I really can't.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Okay, get, get, get over it.

[Mel Robbins]

Got word that's like. Okay. Completely screwed up. My kids didn't mean to.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Kids whose mothers were depressed postpartum have a higher risk of adhd. And we can talk about why that's the case.

[Mel Robbins]

Why is that the case? Because all three of my children have adhd.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah.

[Mel Robbins]

I still erupt.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Well, join the club.

[Mel Robbins]

And I still need to go to the bathroom. Now that you've said it, my body's like, how? Do I have to pee? Absolutely. You're fantastic. I'm. I'm trying not to interrupt you.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Sometimes I just go on because these topics are so. I'm so passionate about the stuff you're doing.

[Mel Robbins]

Fantastic.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I used to be an English teacher.

[Mel Robbins]

You did? Oh, I would have probably failed your class. Oh, wow. Okay.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

I used to be hog phobic, and.

[Mel Robbins]

I embraced you when you walked in.

[Dr. Gabor Maté]

Yeah, you did.

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[Mel Robbins]

This is the legal language.

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[Mel Robbins]

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[Mel Robbins]

A substitute for the advice of a.

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[Mel Robbins]

Good. I'll see you in the next episode. Stitcher.

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