Natalya Neidhart (16:52)
The biggest thing I'm hearing from everyone is that they felt like they were, they could heal part of themselves after reading it. And so if my journey is, if my journey can be a handbook in somebody else's, you know, survival, if it can help somebody else get through the darkest times of their life because I'm sharing and being so open with my story, then it was all worth it. Like, my entire journey was worth it. You know, as I was writing the book, it was like I kept on every chapter chasing all these things that I thought were going to make me happy. Like, I just got to get this job. I've just got to, you know, I've just got to do this match. I've just got to learn this move. I've just got to win this champ. I've just got to get the job in wwe. I've just got to get to developmental. I've just got to get to the main roster. I've just got to win this title. I've just got to get this, you know, get this. Just this next thing that like you could hold in your hand. And I realized by the time I got to the end of it, I was like, that stuff wasn't the stuff that made me happy. Like, the stuff that makes you happy. Like, it's all, it's, it's about being able to recognize the stuff that makes you happy. Like, when I, when you get to the end of the book, I realized, like, in a family that's done everything, you know, with my grandfather, Stu Hart, starting our family legacy with Stu Hart, Bret Hart, Owen Hart, the British Bulldogs, my dad, my cousins. Like, in a family that's done everything and being the first woman in my family to do this, I'm not going to be the first woman to main event a WrestleMania or the first person in my family to Main event a WrestleMania, WrestleMania or win a title or even write a book, I'm not going to be the first to do that in my family, but I was the least likely to make it in my family as a woman. And I'm still standing. I'm still, I'm here. Like, I am not a victim. I'm not Just a survivor. But I'm somebody that's thriving in this. And all of the shit that we've gone through is worth it. It's so worth it because it's made me so strong that there's nothing that I really can't achieve in my life. But the biggest thing is, is that I want to be the first person in my family to not leave this business broken. And that's the thing is, it's been, like, a very cathartic journey to realize, like, winning is not winning a championship. It's not having a main event match at WrestleMania. Winning is being able to look at yourself in the mirror and not being broken emotionally, you know, and not being. Being broken physically. Like, just being free to do everything that you want to do, to live your life on your own terms. And I was, like I said, the least likely in my family to do that. So it's so cool to be able to carry on that legacy. And I also want people to look at themselves in the mirror and redefine the way that they're looking at success in their life. I used to think success was about a great storyline or a women's championship or buying a fancy car. I used to think that was success. Now I've realized that I want people to look at themselves and go, why not me? Why can't I write a book? Why can't I do a documentary? Why can't I make a movie? Why can't I do this? Why can't I open up a restaurant? Or why can't I chase my crazy dream? Even if you fall flat on your ass, you'll feel so great chasing your dream. And I think that was a big message. In the rocks movie the Smashing Machine, he took a chance on himself to do a movie that is the most vulnerable you'll ever, ever see him. But I liked it because I love the movie. And I think that I feel like he should be nominated for an Oscar because he went to such a dark, kind of deep place. But he's like, why not me? Why can't I do this? Why can't I do a. Do a movie that could win me an Oscar? It's not my traditional role, but fuck it, I'm gonna just take a chance on me.