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Foreign. Hello everyone, and welcome to Intrusive Thoughts. I'm your host, Adam Rippon. And no, this is not a special ASMR episode. It is another. I'm telling you, I'm just going to start this episode off in an honest way that when I'm recording this podcast. Oh my God, you guys, I'm gonna get in so much trouble if. If JP can hear me because actually, I'm going to start this off with a grievance. JP has been doing something so unforgivable and it's been that he's going to bed around 9 o' clock or 9:30pm you gotta be kidding me. That's when I start to get things. That's when I start to get in a groove. And that's when we're supposed to go to bed now, you know, because I'm trying to work this family like a unit, right? But that's just not. It's not doable for me to be going to bed at 9:30. I have things that need to get done. Like, for instance, I'm in the mood to chit and to chat. I'm in the mood to share intrusive thoughts. Welcome to Intrusive Thoughts and truth of thoughts. Intrusive thoughts. Thoughts. Welcome to it. And what's the time? I'll be checking it right now. 10:42pm I didn't. I mean, I'll be honest, like I said, starting this off in an honest way. It is a bit late to be sharing your thoughts, but it's just sort of like I'm in the mood too, but I have to be quiet. And I'm going to do my best to be quiet. And so I. I'm doing something that's like, I'm treating myself. I'm going to tell you exactly what it is. And it's like I have the headphones plugged into the microphone of which I am podcasting with at this moment in time. And the thing is, is I usually have like the feedback of my own voice pretty low so that there is no like, echo into the microphone, so on and so forth. But as a treat to myself, I have the volume jacked so fucking up that if I were to speak in a normal tone, I would blow out both of my eardrums, the one on my left and the one on my right, blow them out. I can feel my own voice tickling, tickling the inside of my brain. That's how loud I have it. And it feels good. It feels really good. And I enjoy it. I enjoy hearing Myself really loudly while I'm speaking. It's like a. It's a crazy sort of event that happens if. If anyone has ever experienced this, where it's like you've heard your own voice in your ear while you're talking, but not from your talker, right from your. From your mouth. I'm calling your mouth your talker. If you've ever had that experience, there's something really just, like, enjoyable about it. And so I'm just doing something for me. Something for me that is, like, enjoyable, because on the other side of this office door, I'm gonna have two probably unsettled dogs just like, hey, what are you doing in there? Hey, can we come in there? And a husband who's like, why are you up so late? It's not even so late, but it's like, I'm trying to get things done, and I don't want to do this podcast with, like, crust in my eye in the morning, right? Being like, good morning. I listened to last week's episode. There's a few, like, moments where it's like, hello. Like, where it feels like I'm going silent for a second. I want you to know it's just. It's like, not me going silent. It's me yawning, which I admitted to because obviously there's a video portion of this. And you know when you, like, are yawning and you try to, like, swallow it down down, you're like, easy, girl. Like, you swallow the yawn down and. Or you try to disguise it. Like, I was trying to disguise a few. Because it was just when I was recording that episode, it was just. It was too early. Even though it's, like, later now, and now that I've thought about yawning, I am sort of, like, fighting one off with, like, every fiber of my being. But I just, like. I like to do this at night, and I'm sorry, I am going to take a sip of it. Does if you're watching this look like I peed into a glass? And it's not. I will explain in one second. I am giving this sort of, like, an ASMR flare. You know what? Why not? This is sort of like a Christmas ASMR episode. Okay. I actually have, like, a very. Oh, my God, I can't believe I'm, like, about to say this, but I don't care. There was a really long time ago, like, a few years ago, there was this sort of, like, drama channel on YouTube. Whatever. Don't shoot the messenger. And on this drama channel, on YouTube, they were talking about, like, this one YouTuber who basically, like, faked everything. Okay, I, like, what does that mean? I don't really know. Like, I. I don't know, but I remember a few examples of. Of, like, it was like a deep dive documentary on her, and they were like, she faked everything. And she pretended that she was, like, at the Met Gala, and she, like, this is like, before you could, like, chat GPT an image, but she, like, professionally photoshopped herself onto the Met Gala carpet and, like, posted it on her Instagram and was, like, at the Met Gala carpet. I don't know. I don't know what. What it said exactly. I don't remember. And then another thing was that, like, she. She pretended that she had some sort of, like, Maybelline contract or whatever. Like, I don't know. Like, the details are, like, irrelevant, whatever. But she had, like, a million followers on, like, Instagram and a few hundred thousand, if not a million, on YouTube. And her name was Lily Jean. Okay, she is. I'm gonna say it probably insane, but this is. I need you to know that I had. And I haven't, like, gone back there in a minute, but I had an obsession with. With listening to these Lily Jean videos. And I say, like, listening because she ASMR video, and she has the absolute best ASMR voice I've ever heard. I, like, I would even bet that if I go into the YouTube app on my phone, I have Lily Jean ASMR video downloaded. I'm not kidding you. When I was about to, like, reach out. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm so sick. Oh, God, I'm so sick and so broken. But anyway, I was gonna reach out to her and be like, hey, I will pay for the microphone to be better if you record another ASMR video. Because it was like, truly, like, the microphone from her laptop or from her camera or something. It just, like, it wasn't good enough. And I was like, oh, my God, if she was to record this with, like, a good microph. Oh, baby. I. I think about it. I actually haven't thought about it in a while. Not until I've done my very own special ASMR episode. But, yeah, Lily Jean, asmr. Look it up. Look it up. Because maybe we could sort of like, as a collective group, be like, hey, you should bring these back. I don't even know if she's making videos anymore. I think she kind of, like, in a way, maybe got, like, bull of it or something. I Don't know, but she was, like, doing a lot of, like, you know, it was very 2015, 2016, like, making the YouTube videos about, like, this is how I do makeup. If I wanted to be Ariel, like, you know, like, I really wasn't planning on admitting this, but I used to love watching makeup tutorial videos. Never did makeup like that in my life. Never had any desire to, but there was just something so, like, calming and soothing and, you know, I'm not too proud to admit I was watching James Charles. I was watching Jeffree Star. I was watching NikkieTutorials every once in a while when I just, like, needed something different. When, like, my. My creators weren't making something. I was watching a few Tati Westbrooks. I was there when Goodbye Sister hit the Internet like a meteorite. And I was there when no More Lies hit the Internet. Like, the plane hitting the second tower. Like that. That was, like, such a crazy. I remember. This is so crazy to admit, as somebody who is legally seen by the government as an adult at the age of 36, to admit that I remember. I remember, like, being home alone, being like, okay, I'm ready to watch this because I want so sick. So sick. But I remember being like, I'm ready to watch this. And what was this? Well, it was no More Lies by James Charles with the receipts, the screenshots, the text messages, and it just, like, it was so thrilling because, listen, if you know a little bit about what I'm talking about, this will mean so much to you, because Jeffree Star was just. He was teasing, like, I have so much information that I'm about to share, and he just. He never did because he never had any information. Jeffree Star is a compulsive liar. And I know that because I know Jeffree star from MySpace. Okay? I know that Jeffree Star, and the Jeffree star we know now is the same monster that he was in 2005. And an entertaining monster, yes, but a monster all the same. Incredible. Incredible tv, incredible Internet. But, yeah, it was just. It was. I remember. So I remember being, like, at home, Lights are low. I'm sitting, and I. I. This. This spectacle that, like, goodbye, Sister now. Okay, here's the thing. If you don't know what I'm talking about, let me just, like, briefly explain it quickly. First of all, happy holidays, everyone. I love that my holiday episode is me, like, admitting to watching YouTube tutorial. This is what I meant. I'm like, I'm in the mood to chit and chat. Sorry, but, like, you can go to bed when you want to go to bed? I'm not ready to go to bed. I'm going to talk to my friends. Another drink. That was not a nice noise. I'm really sorry. The last time, it was, like, nice. Okay, so what I want to do is, like, I want to tell you, like, where we were in time, what was happening. What is Goodbye, sister? Okay, Basically, like, okay, we have to start at the beginning. What are makeup tutorials? Okay, well, if you don't know what they are, please log off. Log off. Delete your account. Remember when people would, like, threaten online, like, delete your account. Like, now nobody cares. Nobody will delete it. Or, like, Chained to the Melody, as Katy Perry once said before she went to space. Also crazy that she's with Justin Trudeau. Like, that. It makes so much sense. But at the same time, it's like, huh. Okay, Anyway, so what is a makeup tutorial? Basically, a makeup tutorial is when a person sits down and they go, let me show you how to do this look. And in the years of, let's say, 2015 to 2018, people would sit down and they would be like, I'm doing a makeup tutorial inspired by the movie Avatar 2. And they would sit down and they would just. Basically what that meant was that they were just gonna have, like, blue eyeshadow. It didn't mean anything more than that. Or they'd be like, I went to the grocery store today, and I'm gonna do a whole makeup look made of staining my face with fruits. And then they would do that. And, like, it was just kind of. It was like that. And then they'd review products, products that I never buy and had no interest in ever. Like, whatever. So I'm just, like, painting the picture of, like, what is a makeup tutorial? Okay. Okay. It's that. And then they show you, like, techniques. Basically, it's like how to look, like, good on camera. But these people, I'm telling you, like, if you ever saw them in person, they'd look like hookers. Street walkers. I don't know. It's like street walker is the term. Basically, they'd look. They would look like they were in drag. But that. That was so stylish to be in drag at the grocery store. Like, to be in drag going to Starbucks. But that's, like. That was stylish at the time. Okay. So people would make these videos, and there were, like, a few, like, very big names, names in the YouTube world. And some of the biggest ones were, like, James Charles Jeffree star and Tati Westbrook. Here's a little background. First of all, please shoot me dead for me explaining this right now. But it's important, okay? It's important. And I'm just going to say this. I have gotten a few calls from people. Phone calls, text messages. We do that on this show. You know, if you listen to the show, you know, you call the number 310-909-7717 or you text message and we will get to those. Because I'm spending, like, quite a lot of time on just like, kind of nothing. But basically I have been getting some phone calls and people have been saying, like, hey, like, they've been revealing ages. And I've realized that we have people who are like in their 20s, but we have a lot of people who are boomers. And I feel such a responsibility and honor and a sense of pride that we have a lot of boomer listeners. So, hey, boomers, listen the up. Okay? Turn up those hearing aids and listen. That's. I don't know. I don't know what else to tell you. Okay, we have. So. So I know that you're like, I don't know what's going on. I don't know. Like, I know. I know that. So, like, I'm just like, I want you to get. I. I want us both to be on the same page because I want you to know what's important to me and what's important to me. I want to be important to you. And for that, you need to know that in the year 2016, people were doing makeup looks inspired by the movie Avatar too. Okay. People were doing, hey, I'm gonna do my makeup inspired by the Minions. Like, they were doing that and that just like, you know, that's just like, not a thing now. Now it's like you go on tick tock and it's like, come with me while I'm gonna get ready to go to Japan. And it's like people screaming like, it's like, it's horrible. We live in hell now. Anyway, back to the tutorials. So you have these, like, main people. So we're just going to start with. We're just going to, like, basically talk about the three. I also want you to know that when I started this episode, I was not going to talk about this at all. I did not even think for a second that I'd talk about this. And now it's going to be the whole episode anyway. I kind of love it. This is why I need to record at night. That's when the good ideas come. Is this a good idea? I don't know. We'll find out. Can't wait for the complaints. Whatever. Listen. Okay, one more drink. I'm gonna try to do it like, nice again. That was good. Ooh. Okay. All right, so let's just start with, like, we're just gonna not. We're not starting. I don't know why I keep saying that. We're just gonna talk about three of the main characters who are, like, involved in Goodbye Sister. Okay, like, we're getting to the point. I'm doing like, ASMR noises because it's like, sort of. Why not? I'm kind of whispering anyway. Are you guys having fun? I'm having fun. I'm like, having a good time doing this. Okay, James Charles Jeffree star, Tati Westbrook. Okay? Now Tati Westbrook is like some 40 year old something or other. She's like, very pretty. She's a makeup tutorial girl. And like, I think she was doing daily or like two times a week a video, which, like, is insane. Okay? And she's like, this is how I'm gonna do blush. Or like, this is my thing. I'm gonna do blush with. With now moisturizer. Like, it's just like mindless, stupid videos. And I'm going, okay, let me watch. Like. Okay, it doesn't matter. Okay. She. I don't know, discovers I'm saying in quotes or like, basically like, find James Charles online. James Charles is basically like, he was doing, like, makeup tutorials and he, I think, like, was like a cover girl or like Maybelline or something. And he was like one of the first boys ever. Something, whatever. Okay, long story short, I now. Now I know I'm making zero sense. Okay. And I'm gonna turn the volume down just in case. Okay, so I'm. It's now becoming fuzzy. I really thought I had, like, a lot of details. Basically, here's the deal. Tati asks James Charles to do her makeup at her wedding. Okay? First of all, she's like 40 something. She's asking some teenager to fly out to her wedding. Whatever. They're all messed up, okay? We're all imperfect people. Nobody is more imperfect than people who are YouTubers. They're the most imperfect people and we love them for it. We do. We really do. As somebody who does now post videos on YouTube. I get it. I see you and I am one of you. Okay, back to the story. Oh, God. It's like the details are so fuzzy, but basically I think I could Be so wrong. I would love to do a deep dive, and that would be the last episode. People would really, like, never listen again. Okay. And now I am, like, way too. I'm, like, way too deep into this to, like, just be like, okay, you know what? We're not going to talk about it. I have to finish it. Because I have to educate our audience of all ages. Okay. Basically, James Charles and Tati Westbrook become very close. Now that third character, Jeffree Star, like I said, is a. Basically a terrorist. And. And I say that, like, diplomatically, like, not dramatically, like, is a person who creates and performs acts of terror. Okay. You know, I say that, like, I would say that under oath. What I mean by that is, like, just says crazy, insane things constantly throughout the course of their entire life. And I don't even remember, like, what. So, like, I'm you. We. I was introduced to this person on MySpace and they were a musician and they had music which was, like, terrible, but, like, it was very MySpace music. Jeffree Star was, like, very important on MySpace, and his music was like, very, like, I'm gonna eat, like, froot loops and I'm gonna then throw them up and do a photo shoot about it. And so, like, that. That's sort of just like the character of a Jeffree star. Jeffree Star, like, always had, like, bright neon pink hair and, like, was very androgynous. Like, is it a girl? Is it a boy? Is it. Do you. I, like, woke. Is so dead in this story. Whatever. So, like I was saying, is it a boy? Is it a girl? Whatever. I say merry Christmas. I don't say happy holidays. I'm just, like, taken back the night back. Okay, so yes, Jeffree Star is a nightmarish kind of ghoul. And what they. But they were, like, always so, like, like, iconic and, like, out there. Avant garde, all of this stuff. And always had makeup, makeup, makeup, makeup. Wearing tons of makeup. It's 2006, it's 2005, it's 2007. Oh, my God. This microphone is picking up somebody driving way too fast outside, and it's a little late for that, buddy. You're gonna wake up my family. Not me, though. I'm a night owl. Okay, so Jeffree Star basically pivots this into a makeup line. Jeffree Star Cosmetics. And. And it's wildly popular. And then from MySpace basically becomes like, a really big makeup YouTuber and then becomes incredibly wealthy and is so influential in the makeup world around this, like, 2015 to 2018 time. And the makeup brand explodes I think, like, Jeffree Star is like, the first makeup brand that I can really think of. Oh. Jeffree Star was also randomly, like, very close with Kat Von D, and they have a huge falling out. I don't really know the, like, the logistics of it. And Kat Von D falling into the. Why am I bringing up Kat Von D on this podcast? Me. I don't. And if you don't know who Kat Von D is, it's like you've avoided. You've avoided that chapter of, like, this country. And what I mean by that is, like, I think she's just literally a tattoo artist, and she just had a show on MTV or something like that of the sorts. Okay. Anyway, she was good friends with Jeffree Star. Huge falling out. What happened? Who? I don't know. It's out there because jeffree Star loves to do one thing, and it's to air out his dirty laundry and lie. Nobody lies like Jeffree Star. It's incredible. Okay, so Jeffree Star, very big, very influential. Tati, James Charles. They're close. James Charles starts to, like, really pick up, which obviously puts him into these, like, bigger circles and bigger, like, makeup circles. And Jeffree Star and, like, a big thing was like, we should collab. Like, collabing was just, like, really important to being a YouTuber at this time. And so they start to do, like, you know, James Charles is collabing on Tati Westbrook's page, and Jeffree Star is on James Charles, and James Charles is on Jeffree stars, and the three of them are doing something, and it's just like they become like, buddy, buddy with each other. Well, basically, from that point, of the three of them, James Charles really starts to become the most popular. Okay. And maybe you've heard the name James Charles because there's always, like, at some point or another, like, there's some person who's like, when I was 15, James Charles reached out to me, and it's just like, okay, like, enough is like, please, enough is enough. Like, they're all. They're all a nightmare. All. All of them. Okay. All three of them are a nightmare. So it. But that's like, you've probably like, why do I know that name? That. That would be why. Okay. Because there's always somebody who's, like, underage coming forward, like, whatever. Okay. Different. That's. We're not going into that because I'm telling. Trying to tell you about. Goodbye, sister. God, I've been doing this for 30 almost minutes. I'm sorry. Happy holidays, everyone. Okay. But it's just like, this is really important because it's just like this is in the lexicon of like, us as a country. This was like, this is when Internet celebrities crossed over for a moment. And it's like, this is when the lines of, like, being a celebrity went completely blurred. Okay? There was a huge divide between being like a real celebrity and an Internet celebrity. And Goodbye Sister changed everything. I'm hearing myself talk and I sound clinically ill. I sound insane. Please, somebody, somebody do a wellness check. One more sip, please. I really hope you guys are liking the ASMR editions. And you know what's really good? Nobody's knocked on the door yet, which means I haven't woken up anyone. Okay? So James Charles starts to like, really pick up in popularity. Okay, we're gonna fast forward a little bit. Tati Westbrook has a birthday party and she does not like the way James Charles is acting. All at this, all at the same time. Jeffree star is starting to like, lie to Tati Westbrook about like, James Charles is doing this and doing that. And it's just like he's really trying to turn Tati against James because obviously Jeffrey is like jealous at this point. Like, he doesn't like that somebody else is getting attention. Okay? And. She has a birthday party. James Charles is at the birthday party. Apparently he's like flirting with a waiter or like something, whatever. But instead of talking to James Charles directly, Tati Westbrook, a grown 40 something year old woman, goes to her makeup, her glam room and decides to record a video that she's going to post on YouTube. And she names this video Goodbye Sister. That burp was for my ASMR crowd. Okay? She named this video Goodbye Sister. And in this video she goes, james, like, I'm worried about you. And I feel like this is the only way to really give you like a wake up call. And like the only way you're really gonna hear me is if I like, do this publicly online, which is, first of all, you're grown woman fighting with a teenager. Okay? We, we don't ever talk about that in this time period. We think about it now. But in this time period, we don't ever go that. We don't ever question why is a 40 something year old woman fighting with a teenager. Okay? Like, we don't ever think about it. We go, wait, I need to hear something out. Okay? So then she goes on and she says the iconic lines of like, you were sitting at the dinner table talking about sucking dick and sucking dick. And okay, she, she Says that in a way where she's just disgusted. She's disgusted. But it's the most incredible line. But she goes on and basically she's like. And then another big thing is like, is she has her own supplements. Okay. I don't remember what they were called, but you know, it's like crushed up dirt and grass that you put into like pill pockets that like, that you'd give a dog. I don't know. It's just like, it's. But it's. But it's for your hair. Like it's something like that. It's like irrelevant. But you know, big farm is the problem that. Not supplements that. Like a 42 woman who's fighting with a teenager. Like, that's not the issue. Okay, My mouth is getting dry talking about this. Okay, so she puts out this video and then Jeffree Star. And in this video, something about this video, like, this is what I mean. Like, this crossed that everything in the universe changed. This is probably what like, caused Covid, right? Like, it's about that time. It's like everything was just like so bizarre and weird. Like, this is probably what, like, created the panzer. This is the beginning of the pandemic. It's the pandemic before the pandemic. And so then, like, I don't know why, but this video, like, takes off like wildfire, okay? It's insanity. And it's like, it's on the news. It's everywhere. Millions and millions and millions and millions of views. It's great. And so what does Jeffree Star do? Obviously goes. I completely agree with everything Tati said. And there's actually more. And you're a dangerous person. Like James Charles. You're. You're a menace to society. And I'm gonna make sure you're behind me bars like something like, insane. And like I said, Jeffree Star is a terrorist. Like seal team six. Figure it out. Like, he is. He is a menace. He is Dennis the menace. Truly not a good person. But like, but at least you know he's not lying about a mica product. You can always trust Jeffree Star. Like, that's always what people are doing, defending him in his videos. I'm still watching them when they come on because I am curious. He's doing a lot of tick tock lives. It's, you know, grifters be grifting. That's what I think. Okay, where was I? Well, yeah, I was like knee deep in a terrible storyteller. By the way, I'm an amazing storyteller. One More sip. Okay, that one was a little bubbly. Okay. I have to keep the volume. I'm doing a good job. I have to just, like, continue being hush, hush. Okay, Another deep breath. Oh, God. I really hope that you're following along. I'm having the time of my life right now. I'm not even kidding. Okay, so James Charles takes to the Internet, and he's like, I want to see you behind bars, because so many people are coming forward and they're telling me things and blah, blah, blah. Basically what comes of it is, like, a few days later, James Charles releases a video. We're all waiting. Like, James Charles is, like, being, like. He's silent, okay? And what ends up happening is he gets onto the Internet and he posts a video, no More Lies. And he basically debunks everything in Tati's video. He doesn't even really address Jeffree stars, because at this point, everyone knows Jeffree star is, like a. He's l. Lying. Like, he's. That's. He can make a great makeup, like, an eyeshadow palette, but he can also tell a really good lie, right? I am revealing so much about myself by, like, knowing so much about this. Okay? I don't give a. I don't give a. I want you to know, like, who I really am and who I really am as someone who's, like, truly damaged. Okay? If you heard that pause, it's, like, not because I'm. I was gonna yawn. It's because, like, I'm trying to, like, be respectful in that burp twice in this podcast. Okay. Almost did it again. I'm good. I'm good. I'm good. I'm good. So. So James Charles gets onto the Internet. He makes the video, no More Lies. Like, again, millions and millions and millions and millions of views. The days between Goodbye Sister and no More Lies were, like, the most intense days. It was like war time. You need. If you don't know that. If you didn't know that this was happening, you were living under a rock. Like I said, like, this crossed the zeitgeist from celebrity. Like, this was. Oh, my God, this. I hadn't felt this way about, like, celebrity culture since, like, Lindsay, Brittany, and Paris were all in that car together. Like, that's. That's the level of intensity. Like, this felt. So then basically, he debunks it. And, like, the video is, like, immaculate. It's incred. It's, like, shocking how somebody had so many screenshots of text messages and, like, everything. James Charles did an amazing Job with no more lies. Incredible. But then Jeffree Star makes a video a few days later, and he's like, it's just. I've just. I've decided that I need to take a break from this and I'm gonna take a step away. And I think it's best to settle some. Obviously, like, he was lying. I don't even remember about. I'm gonna tell you something that I'm gonna do one day and I'm gonna. I'm gonna sit and I'm going to watch Goodbye Sister, the Jeffree Star video, no more lies. And then Jeffree Star's like, tail between his legs video, like. And I'm gonna tell you that's going to take six hours. It's going to take at least six hours. But I will sit and I will watch. I'm even thinking about watching it after I record this. I'm never going to bed. Sorry. JP's going to bed at 9:30. I'll go to bed at 9:30am but, yeah. How did I get here? What was I even talking about? I have no clue. I know. I, Like, I asked people to, like, please call in and please, like, leave a text message. Like, I'm. I promise I'll read them. But, like, before, I don't even know if we'll get to them today. And I was really thinking that this episode might be, like, this one's gonna be for the fans. This one's for the listeners. Like, I really thought, like, this one might be it. It's like, not. This one's for me. This one is for literally me. Wait, do you guys remember when NikkieTutorials was like, I'm trans, And I was like, there's not, not literally a chance she's trans. That. That was, like, another shocking day on the Internet. The Makeup community on YouTube, like, truly fed me as if I were, like, starving. I was starving. And I don't even know if it exists anymore. This all started because I was doing. Was doing an ASMR episode. Currently doing it. Hello, everyone. Oh, that actually does sound good in my ear. I just, like, don't want you to forget to, like, look up that Lily Jean ASMR video. It's, like, so important to me. Like, at first you'll, like, listen to her and you'll be like, she's crazy. And, yeah, she completely is crazy. I love her, though. Like, I do love her. Like, I said, like, I was willing to reach out and be like, I will buy you a nice microphone. And this is before, like, I was making good money. I was willing to, like, not eat. Be like, here's $200. Like, please. Like, I'll pay for studio time. Like, I was dead serious. Like, I. I still want it. My God, I will, like, look at. Hold on. I'm actually gonna look it up right now. If she is like, Lily Jean, this is like, the most anyone's ever talked about her. By the way, me right now. Lily Jean, asmr. I'm nervous. Like, could you im. What? Hold on. Wait, does she have a podcast? Oh, my God, I'm sweating. Hold on. I don't know what this is. Wait, Lily Jean Truman, does she have, like, she's a mil. Like, no. Yes. She has a million followers. I don't. It's. It's definitely worth going and checking her out. She has one podcast. No, no, no. She was doing podcasts or something. I've already listened to this. Of course I have. But, yeah, you need to. I'm gonna message her. What the do I care? I'm gonna message her and be like, I have a podcast, and I am talking about you doing ASMR videos, and they were the best. You have the best asm. Like, you need to bring this back. What the hell? I'll do it. I'll do it as soon as we're done here. I have so many things that I, like, I'm so behind on and haven't done, and I love that, like, at the now, at the top of the list, I'm gonna reach out to somebody who hasn't posted a video online in five years, being like, hey, have you really thought about picking up that mic after she was bullied off the Internet due to, like, some, again, YouTube terrorist being, like, doing a deep dive on somebody lying on the Internet? Who hasn't? Come on. I've lied on the Internet before. One of my favorite lies I've ever done was like, I. When I was getting Invisalign, the pictures that I was posting, this is like 2015 or 16. I would, like, kind of face tune my teeth to just be like, the teeth that I knew that I'd have as soon as my Invisalign was over. Which is like, that's so, like, crazy to think about. But basically I was face tuning my teeth to look like the way that they are now. So I was lying then, but it's basically, it was like a truth that would be true later. I'm looking at my tongue. It is a bit blue, which is getting me to a point. Something that I wanted to Share with, like, I'm just, like, very chaotic right now. Maybe you've noticed from the way that I talked about makeup tutorial videos for an entire episode. But on my desk behind me, like, I think if you're watching the video, you can see exactly, like, where I am. I'm in my office, and usually I have, like, this place cleaned up so that it, like, looks nice. And usually I'm all, like, cleaned up. And by that, I mean, like, I'm wearing, like, a collared shirt or, like, I'm wearing, like, something that's, like, not a sweatshirt. I'm wearing, like, a University of Georgia Go Dogs sweatshirt right now. And on my desk, it's, like, filthy. I just want to do, like, a little breakdown. So I've had a glass here. Not sure if I like that. Do I like that sound? I don't know. But I have a class right here. Itala. Okay. Finished brand of class. Beautiful. That beautiful glassware. And in that, I've been like. Had a sparkling water that I made because we have, like, a. You know, you can make sparkling water, and I've been putting, like, flavor into it because I want to have, like, a flavored. Can you hear that? I'm like, God, it is, like, euphoric to be listening to the sounds in a microphone in my ears. Hold on. Sounds good. I can't wait to listen to this episode and be like, 91 1. Okay, what was I saying? Oh, yeah, my desk is filthy. How cute. So this is, like, what I want to say about that. My desk is covered in sort of like, oh, okay. Base. Okay, we're getting. We're getting there. We're getting there. I had somebody send a text message, and they said candies at Trader Joe's generally don't have dyes. My favorite are the strawberry sour belts. Okay, this is because on a former episode, I was talking about how, like, I'm really loving candy canes right now. Good night, everyone. What's the dumbest thing I've ever said ever? Out of everything I said in this episode, the dumbest fucking thing I've ever said is I'm really loving candy canes right now. So stupid. That's the stupidest thing. That's the stupidest fucking sentence I've said all day. I'm really loving candy canes right now. And I said it, like, I said it so seriously, too. Anyway, I am really loving candy canes right now. I think the last time I recorded, I was holding this exact candy cane that's, like, broken. My desk is Covered in sort of these, like, candy cane condoms. Like, you know what I'm talking about? I need to know what is, like, the etiquette of opening a candy cane. First of all, who does? I love the shape. The shape is, like, great. The candy is, like, fantastic. We, like, love that. Like I said, I'm really loving candy canes right now. Okay. But everything about it is good. But, like, how are we taking it off? Right? Like, how are we dealing with that candy cane condom, the ccc? Because there's a few ways where it's like, I think that you kind of, like, pull on the bottom, like, try to, like, open it up. Like. Like very slinky, sexy doing that. Or sometimes I will take the candy cane and I'll, like, crack it and I'll use its own, like, shards to, like, break through the plastic. But when you do that, you get candy cane dust everywhere. So I am sort of, like, living on a desk right now that it's candy cane dust everywhere. But I would love to know how you're opening a candy cane. And like I said, I'm really loving them right now. And I had a really delicious one before I started recording. And it was like blueberry or blue raspberry, and it's sort of, like, fading. Anyway, what else is on my desk? Oh, you're gonna love this. And I mean. And by that, I mean probably hate it. I have a signature select Whole Gergens sweet pickles. Because I would. I ate the whole jar as a snack today. Nothing like a 300 calorie. 300 calories is, like, not bad for a whole jar of these. They're delicious. Here's the fork to prove it. That's, like, not a good sound. I'll never do that again. I'm. I promise. Okay, so I had. The pickles are there. What else is here? I have Palmer's Skin Therapy Oil Cocoa butter formula. Yes. I just. It's. And then I have Jackson Figure skating boot chapstick. So, yeah, it's needless to say, a disaster up in here. What else? Oh, I have. Oh, I have a check that I just cashed. Why are we people sending checks? Please get like, with the fucking times. Can I tell you something really embarrassing? I only this year started using the, like, deposit a check, like, function on my phone. Because up until this past year, I would only cash checks, like, at the bank or, like, at the atm. There's just. And I know, like, the money just, like, always still gets deposited. I just, like, did not want to hold on to the physical check. Like, what. What is everybody doing with them? Like, I'm saving them, but I'm like, why do I need this paper in my house? And like, when is it okay to let it go? I just liked it better when it was the bank's responsibility to like, deal with the waste and not mine. So, yeah, that's like, sort of like what I'm thinking about that and what I have to say about that. What else is like, on this? Like, truly, it's filled with junk. Oh, my God. This is a. I have to clean this up first. I want you to know that I am a very clean person. I'm a very clean person. And while I say that, I'm going to hold up a wrapper that is from a Ferrero Rocher little gift that I got. I had that today too. It's the Holl. Happy holidays, everyone. Goodbye, sister. No more lies. It's. Yeah, I've just had like a two or three week period where just like, I have not gotten like a moment. And I'm not complaining, I'm just like saying, like, I haven't had like. And I'm sure people have, like, go through this all the time where there's just like, sometimes there's just like a periods of time where you have no time to do anything else except like things that you're working on or projects or like, whatever. And I have not had like one single moment to do literally anything else. I don't. I can't even get on my phone. I can't even see if there's other. Other makeup stars coming out as trans. Like, I. You don't know how scary this is for me. And I'm living and I'm working on a desk that's covered in candy cane dust. Oh, God. And I'm the only one in my family who's awake right now. I'm sure everyone is asleep except for me. Except for me. Except for me. And I actually, like, I said, I'm having like the time of my life. I think I'm just gonna share what like, I was gonna read, actually. Should we do. Let's read one text message. God, I am an annoying person right now. Okay. Anyway, here we go. Hi, Adam. And that's it? No. Okay. A couple years ago you made an Instagram story about those laser projected Christmas lights and you said, people, oh my God. Sorry. I thought I saw something out of the corner of my eye and I. This is maybe why I shouldn't record this. Late at night. I saw something out of the corner of my eye where it felt like my window was falling off the wall. Good night, everyone. Sorry. I guess not everything is going right. All right. Okay. Now that I know the window's staying on the wall, why did I react so crazy to that? Okay. Hey, Adam, a couple of years ago, you made an Instagram story about those laser projection Christmas lights, and you said people who have one of those need to, quote, unquote, unplug it because they are so ugly. My sisters and I always scream unplug it every time we drive past a house with a project. And we will never regret, not screw, and we will forever regret, not screen recording that story. Anyways, I was wondering if your thoughts have changed regarding these ugly Christmas lights or if you have opinions on Christmas decorations in general. Thanks and happy holidays. Okay, I went from thinking this was going to be a short episode to now I know it's going to be a long one because I want to dig a little bit deeper and we'll go. I think we're going to go a little bit deeper. I know online a lot of people are like, I don't have a Ralph. First of all, every. A lot of people online are intolerable, and they, like, always, like, I want to follow the tr. Like, I've never in my life have been wanting to, like, follow a trend. Could you imagine being so boring where you're like, what are the trends? This is really trending right now. When things are trending right now, I'm like, what's the opposite of that? I want to do that. Maybe that's like, just me, but I. Yeah. So there's. Anyway, there's a lot of needless to say, like, if something's is trendy, a lot of times I'll, like, want to be a part of it or, like, get it or do it or, like, whatever. But, like, when people are like, I'm seeking the trends, I'm like, please seek treatment instead. Okay, but where was I? Oh, yeah. Online, I see a lot of people being, like, a Ralph Lauren Christmas. And, like, it's really, like, curated, and it has, like, it takes years. And like, like, basically, like, people are trying to copy things that are chic and they aren't chic, so they don't look chic. You know what I'm saying? If. You know what I'm saying, you totally get it. And if you don't, like, think about it and figure it out. So I like to have like, a very, like, clean kind of Christmas. So there's a part of me that really loves, like, tacky Christmas decorations and things like that. I want to get into this, like, a lot deeper. So I'm just gonna, like, briefly just skim the surface. We're gonna do this, like, next week's episode because isn't. Well, let's like, like, look at a calendar. Let's do something together. Let's plan something together. Give me a sec. We're going to do this together. And let me just close my, like, little pop up window. About Lily Jean's podcast from 2021. I am gonna reach out to her. I really am. I don't need to go to the Google Drive. Oh, my God. I really want to punch myself in the head when. Why don't I just do it? No, I'm kidding. I get so mad when I do the wrong thing. Oh, God, oh, God, oh, God, oh, God. Hold on, hold on. Okay, calendar, let's see what is going on. We're figuring this out together. Nothing. Like, I'm so sorry, everybody. That I'm like, making. I'm spending five minutes talking about nothing. Should I talk more about the candy cane? I'm, like, apologizing for, like, not not being up and with it on the show, but when in reality, I spend 10 minutes talking about how, like, I'm really into candy canes right now. Any face oil? Oh, wait, let's see if that makes a noise. That feels good. Disgusting. What is going on? Google Calendar. What is taking so long? I clicked on that an hour ago. Oh, my God. Next week will be a Christmas release. You heard it here? No. So we will really talk a lot about Christmas. I'm gonna. We've been actually gotten a lot of good, like, holiday text messages and voicemails, but we're gonna go real heavy on them. But does that also mean. Okay, this is a great. Because, like, I'm figuring it out. Oh, my God, you guys. Oh, my God, you guys. Okay, this is so exciting because this week we come out on Thursday. Next week we will have a Christmas episode, and the following week we will have a New Year's Day episode. And I say all that with the caveat of if I remember. Okay. And I think I will. I think I will. It also depends on, like, if I get them recorded in time. So I'm really gonna have to, like, put the pedal to the metal and make sure that I do that. So I'm gonna make sure that I post on my Instagram. Now I'm, like, talking out loud. Okay. I'm having a mental break. I'm talking out loud. Because I need to post on my Instagram story and I need to tell everybody listening to the podcast right now. We need New Year's intrusive thoughts, and we need Christmas intrusive thoughts. If you guys want a good Christmas episode, I'm gonna need your help. Yeah. And I would say that we probably have enough to. To do it, but you just, you know, you need more because sometimes you're in the mood to answer a certain question and you're on the mood to answer another. Okay. But this is so exciting. Oh, God, how lucky, you guys. How lucky to have a Christmas episode. And it's just so. I'm so excited about that. Life is wonderful. I think I'm gonna win the lottery. Just. Wouldn't that be nice if I won the lottery for me? It would be nice for you. It would be nice, too, because it would be like, I'd have more time to podcast. Right? Didn't. Shouldn't I do that? Anyway, I was talking about. Okay, here's the thing. I'm not going to answer that question. Sorry. Not because, like, I'm against it, but because I want to answer it in the holiday episode. We're doing a full Christmas holiday breakdown episode. Not this week, next week. Not. Hermione, you. Okay. And so that's what we're gonna do because it's already been an hour. This is. Honestly, this is an episode for the records, for the record books. And I'm so excited. And anyway, like I said, we have an assignment to do. I'm going to be posting about this on my Instagram stories and. And I'm telling all of all of the listeners here and now that if you want a good holiday episode, if you want a good New Year's Day episode, first of all, the caveat being if I get it recorded in time, okay, you're gonna need to help me out because there are things that I can share, but, like, I. Sometimes I need to be prompted. Sometimes. Sort of like today, all I need is to eat a full jar of. Oh, that sounds cool. Full jar of pickles as a snack. Lol. And that's all I needed today. But, yeah, we're gonna do a full holiday episode. You need to call or text the podcast. The number is 310-909-9717. That number's in my Instagram bio or it's in my link tree. You'll be able to find it. Like I said, 310-909-7117. Numbers the same. We got real lucky by having such like an amazing number. And we also are kind of randomly coming up on one year of the podcast being out. But also because like there was a point in time where like I, there was like a break when we moved from me doing it on my own to like being with Podcast one. Shout out Podcast one. Love you. Happy holidays to everyone at Podcast one. Yeah, I'm sure they're like loving this. They're like, oh right, and a podcast about nothing. How exciting. They'll be fine. Most podcasts are about nothing. I am seeing clips about podcasts that I've never heard of and then I go there and they have like a half of them million followers and I'm like, these people are intolerable. Regardless, we love everyone. We love love, we love light. And you're going to call the podcast and we're going to have the best holiday episodes ever. Because when are taking it off? We aren't. I'm going to be living in this candy cane dust filled desk non stop, no sleep, recording episode after episode. And that's just, that's what it's gonna be. I need to make sure that I record them on time. I'm saying that as like to be held accountable and if I'm not, we'll deal with it in the new year. But that means that I need to get them recorded before everybody at Podcast one goes on a holiday break. So I might be working a bit cuckoo crazy. So I don't know, we'll figure it out. I'm gonna see what needs to get done and I'm just gonna get it done because I really now that I know that like those dates are the dates of the episodes. Finger licking good. Okay, I have to be quiet. Everybody's still sleeping. But anyway, call or text the podcast. 310-909-9717. I love you. My name is Adam Rippon and these have been my intrusive thoughts. Bye.