Adam Skolnick (7:27)

People in your family, you could get resistance.

Rich Roll (7:29)

Yeah. Then they'll, oh, you're the, oh, you're gonna do that. Blah, blah, blah. But it's like you have to really stand in your strength with that and let people react how they're going to react. And you only have to try to control that once.

Adam Skolnick (7:40)

Then every year you're the hotel guy.

Rich Roll (7:42)

That'S okay, let people be mad or whatever. It's really about like how you're comporting yourself, make sure you're exercising, make sure you're taking that moment in the morning for meditation, get good sleep, like have a breath, work, practice so that you can yourself calm. Because I think the superpower throughout this whole dynamic is neutrality, like extreme equanimity. That is the goal, that is the superpower. No matter what is happening around you, can you remain calm, neutral and equanimous and non reactive? The meditation, the sleep, the exercise, all of these things by you, that just extra little moment where you can pause before reacting so that you can respond more consciously. And what comes out of your mouth, how you behave to whatever's going on around you, really dictates the nature of the experience that you're going to have. And I think that's super important. Maybe don't drink, that would be good. Never seems to make anything better. You think, well, if I have a few drinks then I can calm down. But then your filter is off. You end up saying the thing you wish you didn't say. And that just sets a chain reaction off of all kinds of insanity. So it's really about your relationship with yourself. One technique that I find extremely helpful in these situations. Look, I have a lifetime of history, lifetime history of dealing with these sorts of situations. And even specifically recently with my mom succumbing to dementia and having to put her in a memory care unit, everything is extremely heightened right now. And I've just been very focused on how can I be as calm and nonreactive as possible no matter what is happening. And the technique that I deploy, I've talked about this on the podcast, I think, but it's probably been a long time, is just to pretend like everything that's happening is a TV show that you're watching. You can literally draw around your peripheral vision like, oh, what if this is just a screen and these are characters in a drama or some kind of weird sitcom? And you know when you're watching a television show and people are doing crazy things, you don't get agitated or stressed or anxious about it. It's sort of entertainment, right? So can you adopt that stance where you feel like, oh, this is just a. These are characters in a show that I'm watching and I have a choice, like I don't need to react to this or personalize everything because people are just behaving as they always have and they're going to do what they're going to do. And so it's really just up to you how you're going to interact with all of that. The second thing that I would suggest is when you're in that moment of agitation is to remind yourself, this is something Julie tells me all the time. That's very helpful to me. Everybody is right from their perspective. So based upon their lived experience, their information silo, their friend group, whatever it is, their worldview that you disagree with is informed by their personal set of experiences. And had you lived their life, you would probably see the world the way they do. And so understanding that everybody is right from their own perspective helps to depersonalize it as well and just allow them their experience, allow them their opinion. You don't have to correct it, you don't have to tell them why they're wrong. You don't have to prove a point. And you certainly don't have to win an argument. I mean, if there's anything to be gleaned from these experiences, if you have a history of them, is that that's pointless. There is no winning in this situation. But there is an opportunity to be compassionate. And I think when you struggle to be in that state of neutrality, just trying to find a way to be compassionate to these people that you love. And part of why it's so heightened is because you do care for these people. It's the love that is the flip side of the anger and the resentment. All of those things are informed by each other. And so adopting this sort of wall of pleasantry and just, you know, letting it all wash over you like a, like a waterfall and being non reactive and being neutral and being compassionate, I think is, is really the goal here. And these are all obviously things that are easier said than achieved. And that's why it's practiced. Yeah, but, and this is why, you know, this is one of the reasons why meditation is such a crucial tool. Mindfulness practices, breath work, all of these things that can ground you in the present moment and fundamentally lead you to live a more non reactive life. So disabusing yourself of the idea that you can control other people, allowing them to have their experience, understanding that they're right from their perspective, trying to find some kernel of compassion and focusing on that, being non reactive and just adopting this neutral stance, it's like being a lighthouse. Like we've talked about this, Adam, like just stand in your strength and emit your beam and be completely detached from whether or not anybody responds to that beam or needs it. And no matter what is going on around you, no matter how tumultuous the sea is, you remain unmoved in the.

Adam Skolnick (13:08)

Midst of it that's what I kind of, I try to do in my family now is I always talk about finding cruising altitude. To me it's like staying in cruising altitude. It doesn't mean be detached or to be, to kind of not connect. It's more like you want to keep yourself in that equanimous state like where you're going to be the non reactive person, you're going to be the one bringing positive energy. And I think that.

Adam Skolnick (13:35)

Is the key to kind of making sure you can control the controllables. It's the only thing you can control. What about the people though that like aren't worried about the conflict so much? They're worried more about. They're prone to people pleasing. They're prone to kind of going along with the flow to their own detriment. They know it's not good for them. They know it doesn't feel right, but they don't know how to pump the brakes. They don't know how to kind of assert themselves and create that space. They don't know how to achieve cruising altitude in a big group of people. What would your advice be to them?

Rich Roll (14:11)

Yeah, I mean, that's a tricky one. If you're habituated to accommodate everybody out of fear that you will be marginalized or judged for standing up for yourself, that can be a pernicious trap. It's something I'm very familiar with as well. I think when you telescope back from that, the first piece is understanding that all of the accommodation and the people pleasing comes packaged with this idea or this illusion that that makes you a good person. You know, it's like I just want everyone to be happy. And so if they want me to show up, I'm going to show up and I'm going to do all this stuff and I'm going to take the path of least resistance. On some level there's value to that, but fundamentally that is a betrayal of the self. Like you have allowed your own self to be sublimated out of this idea that if you are are just accommodating enough that everyone will be okay. And there is a narcissism to that on some level because fundamentally you're still attached to this idea that you can control other people's behavior and emotions if you're just pleasant enough, if you're just accommodating enough, then everything will be fine. And so again, you have to disabuse yourself of that degree of control over other people's behavior. And ultimately the best thing for you is to honor yourself by setting those boundaries that you need so that you can show up as your best self in those limited circumstances. And so it's actually a service that you're providing to everyone because if you allow yourself to be a pinball and just bounce around where everyone else wants you to go, you're going to be frazzled, you're going to be less grounded, and you are ultimately going to end up more reactive. So it can be difficult to say, hey, you know what, I'm not going to stay at the house this year. I'm going to stay down the street in the motel or whatever. That's a pattern interrupt. That may very well ruffle some feathers. I'm just using this as an example. But you then have to just allow them to be upset. I mean, you can say, listen, I really want to show up as my best self and I just need to do this. I'll be at all the things, don't worry. I can't wait to see all you guys. But I'm just going to be, I'm going to stay down the street this time. And there might be some reaction to that that you could predict or whatever, but standing your ground and just allowing them to have their reaction to that without buying into it, that can be hard. But I think you have to do that. And then you show up and then if you're your better self or whatever, that all gets forgotten and you've interrupted the pattern. And then next time it's easier to do those things. So yeah, it's hard to overcome the people pleasing instinct, the accommodation impulse. But understanding that that is on some level a self betrayal and it is a narcissistic impulse as much as it is a communitarian one. You know what I mean? I think understanding that makes it easier to take that leap. And you can start with something small. It doesn't have to be some big drastic thing. But I think it would also avoid making proclamations about it like, I'm doing this for me. No, just quietly create those little boundaries or make the Irish ex, you know, like just the Irish goodbye. Like you don't have to stay at the party till the very end. You can be like, I need to get back, okay, I'll see you guys tomorrow or whatever. Just do what you need to do for your own self care. And the byproduct of that is not only a better experience for you, but a better experience of you for the people that you care about. I love it.

Adam Skolnick (17:58)

Can I add two things? Clean up and get in the kitchen. Early to cook both ways. You can kind of be a part of the group and you don't have to get caught into any conversations.

Rich Roll (18:08)

Yeah, yeah. Well, that's a. I mean, that's the other big piece here, which is be service minded about it. Don't go into this like, here's what I'm gonna get out of this. And they're gonna finally see me for who I am. And I'm gonna make sure that they understand that, like, you know, I need to be respected. Like, forget about all that. Like, no, just go in. Like, how can I be of service? How can I contribute? Oh, I can do the dishes. Hey, do you need help here? Yeah. And you can use that as a way to extract yourself from the tricky conversations and situations.

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Adam Skolnick (23:08)

Rock Bottom I heard you on Mel Robbins podcast talking about hitting rock bottom and you said rock bottom is what you decide it to be. How do you explain that? I always thought of it as kind of the place you wound up and it was really truly the end. But I know that you and I have discussed it a bit. How would you explain kind of this gradient, rock bottom, the way you see it?

Rich Roll (23:29)

Yeah. I mean, rock bottom is a phrase from.

Rich Roll (23:34)

The world of recovery. And it basically means that moment when you're sick and tired of being sick and tired and you're finally ready to give up what you've been doing and try something different. And I think there is this idea that rock bottom is an objective event that is defined by external circumstances, like when you get fired or you become homeless or name your whatever that. It is this objective thing that happens when suddenly you wake up and you realize you have to change your life. And that's not really what rock bottom is. Rock bottom is a subjective experience that is defined by.

Rich Roll (24:16)

This.

Rich Roll (24:18)

Sudden surge of willingness to do things differently than you have before. And you and I have talked about willingness before. Willingness as this sort of force of the universe that descends when it wants to. It's not something you can just decide to have. But rock bottom is. The defining aspect of rock bottom is that announces the arrival of willingness that you didn't have prior. It's not a one size fits all thing. It's a decision, not a disaster. And it's this incredible lever or launchpad for transformation, because with that willingness, you then have this sudden swell of energy to make changes that previously you were unwilling to. So rock bottom is a moment of taking responsibility. It's a decision, and it's a lever for transformation. And if you think of it.

Rich Roll (25:18)

As an elevator, as a metaphor, like, if your life is going in the wrong direction, like your elevator is going down, it could be drinking. It could be anything, right? At any moment, you can step off the elevator. You don't have to go all the way to the ground. Wait until it falls all the way to the bottom and hits the bottom, right? You have that opportunity to step off, but rock bottom is really before it hits the bottom, you decide, okay, now's the time to step off. Because that elevator can always go lower. Like, just because you've hit rock bottom doesn't mean that there isn't a lower moment for you. And so you see, for example, it's.

Adam Skolnick (25:57)

Mythologized, though, as the absolute bottom, right?

Rich Roll (25:59)

Like, this is the absolute bottom and it never is. It could always be worse, right? And so what you see, for example, in AA are, you know, like low bot. They call them low bottom drunks. Like, these are people that are. I mean, dude, it got. It was so bad. And Dark, you know what I mean? Yeah, it's just like, it was just. Yeah, it was rough. You know what I mean? And you're like, wow, okay, well, they finally turned it around. Amazing. And then you have teenagers who at like 17, get sober where.

Rich Roll (26:29)

Their life just wasn't that calamitous. They just had their own rock bottom moment where they realized like, I can't live this way anymore. And.

Rich Roll (26:38)

Well in advance of their life going completely sideways, like make that decision and course correct. So yes, it is a subjective experience, but fundamentally, the way I define rock bottom is it's that moment when the pain of your circumstances exceeds the fear of finally doing something different again. Meaning that rock bottom is when you find willingness which gives you the power to do things you previously couldn't or wouldn't. And in my own personal experience, I had much lower moments than the day that I decided to check myself into a treatment center. The only difference being that that day was the day that I was suddenly willing to do what the day before I wasn't. It's defined by this decision that you make this decision empowered by willingness. But rock bottom, we also look at it as a negative, right? Oh my God, he hit rock bottom. Like, how terrible. But these things are gift. You hit your subjective rock bottom and you're graced with that level of willingness to do something. Otherwise you wouldn't. That is this incredible lever for change and transformation. And I think we all. You don't have to be some like gutter drunk to have a rock bottom. I think everybody in life has rock bottom moments. I don't think you can escape life without them. And if you're in such a moment, to recognize it as a divinely inspired experience custom created for your change and transformation, like it's almost something you should have reverence for because it has this potential energy to shift your life in magical ways. And when you can recognize this, like this terrible situation that I'm in. And I know that I've got to make this change. And now I feel like I really want to make the change.

Rich Roll (28:32)

Have an awareness of that, be present with that. Because I just know in my own experience, my various rock bottoms, when I look back on, they're such gifts because they course corrected my life and set me on different trajectories that I would have never explored had I not been in those painful experiences.

Adam Skolnick (28:50)

You almost have to depersonalize it in a way. But it's hard when the volume is so loud in your head and the pain is so heavy. So it's like, it would be helpful to have someone kind of reminding you of that. It's hard because in those true rock bottom moments, you're alone in your head. You're like, at least my experience is like, you feel alone in your head. And so how do you depersonalize it and turn down that volume and remember to have reverence for this thing that is so painful at that time? It's an interesting balance.

Rich Roll (29:21)

I mean, it's very difficult when you are in that much pain. You're paralyzed. The idea that, oh, this is the moment where you're going to change and you're going to be all motivated and inspired is delusional. You're completely hamstrung and paralyzed. Because if it truly is like your subjective rock bottom, you can't see your way out of it. So the lived experience of it is very disorienting. It's only in retrospect when you can actually see the merit of the whole thing, of the whole enterprise, because there is a hopelessness that kind of descends upon you that is the flip side of the willingness. I think all I can say about that is that just like hearing that, like, if you just hear this, it instills a little bit of hope that there can be a shift and you don't have to do anything immediately.

Rich Roll (30:16)

Another kind of like, annoying AA catchphrase is like, this too will pass. It's just like when you're in it, you're like, fuck off. Right? You don't understand my life. You don't understand how difficult it is. For me, that's not helpful. And I think in those moments, it's about trying to identify the smallest thing that you can do in that moment to leverage that slight degree of willingness to move your life in a little bit of a different direction. And it can be the tiniest thing, but you have to plant those seeds and sow them. And ultimately, over time, with a great degree of patience, that's really what moves the needle. I love it.

Adam Skolnick (30:59)

Rock bottom is really just like the part of the crag where you get the foothold and you can keep climbing versus the actual bottom of the rock wall. It can be the bottom of the rock wall, but maybe you arrest the slide earlier and you can start climbing again.

Rich Roll (31:14)

If you're in pain and you're wondering whether this is your rock bottom, you can make the decision that it is, because I think it's easy to say, well, it could be worse. Like my.

Rich Roll (31:26)

And his wife let. There's always somebody who is an example of why Whatever you're doing is not that bad. I could keep doing it. I didn't lose my job or I didn't. They haven't repossessed my car or whatever it is. So that can be an excuse to keep perpetuating the bad behavior. But if, you know, I think in our heart of hearts, we all know when we're off track and we make these excuses.

Rich Roll (31:52)

These rationalizations to give ourselves permission to keep doing the thing we know that we shouldn't be doing anymore. Right. And so that's where the decision part of rock bottom comes in. If you are in pain and you have that spidey sense that you're off track, you don't have to stay on the elevator and keep going down until you're at that lower level where your friend is or whatever, you can get off. And so while willingness can come in these lightning bolt bursts where you suddenly have this swell of energy that you didn't have before, I think to some degree or another, we always have a small amount of willingness. So it's about identifying the willingness that you have and how to put that into action to make a different choice in those moments. I like it.

Adam Skolnick (32:43)

We are our own worst enemies, aren't we?

Rich Roll (32:46)

100%. Yeah.

Adam Skolnick (32:48)

Good to know. Just remember that when you're.

Rich Roll (32:50)

This is the human condition, is it not?

Adam Skolnick (32:53)

We are. We are. Yes. This is it.

Rich Roll (32:55)

We have great degree of clarity when it comes to other people's behavior and what they should be doing differently. And when it comes to ourselves, we are just unbelievably myopic.

Adam Skolnick (33:05)

We see almost nothing. Yeah, it's interesting. Like, yeah, almost everyone's an unreliable witness. Almost everyone, yeah. Yeah, very much so. But, you know, so what happens, though, when we're in these moments, even if there's willingness, when we're dealing, we're in the storm. Is that often? We're ashamed. Right. We're ashamed of how we got there. We're ashamed of where we are.

Adam Skolnick (33:29)

The humiliation is such that when we even look in the mirror, I'm speaking personally, I remember looking in the mirror and not seeing something that was positive. I remember seeing someone who was gonna be bereft forever and a lot of that was shame. And I know how toxic it is. How do you recommend people kind of turn the dial down on the shame? How do you get to the point where willingness is louder than the shame?

Rich Roll (33:53)

Yeah, that's a great question. I mean, I think that is the common experience. Right? We're so embarrassed. We're so ashamed of our behavior. And it's just easier and better to keep it all quiet and to ourselves. Obviously, that keeps us stuck in the problem and divorced from the solution. These are all socially constructed ideas, though. Like, the shame and the embarrassment are a function of social constructs that threaten our standing within our group. Right. You know, within our community, within our village. Right. And if people really knew, like what I was like, like, I would get exiled. Right. So I can't tell anyone, and I'm gonna try to figure this out by myself quietly, or I just continue to hide from everybody. But all of these things are at cross purposes with the solution.

Rich Roll (34:52)

And I think the way forward here is to understand that shame can't survive the light. Like, shame thrives in darkness. Like, it wants you isolated and alone. It wants that secret locked up because once it's exposed, shame can't. It can't withstand sunlight. Right. And as scary as it can be to raise your hand and ask for help or find somebody to talk to, that really is the solution to disabuse you of the shame and the embarrassment that keeps you rooted in the problem. And so my suggestion is to find somebody that you trust that you can talk to that could be a therapist. It can be a grandfather or an uncle, it could be a stranger, it could 12 step meeting. There's many, many different modalities and avenues to explore with that. But I think you have got to find somebody that you can communicate with and that you can open up to honestly. And that's the first piece. Like, there is a catharsis when you finally say out loud this thing that you're afraid to say to another person, and you have that experience of, of thinking that that person is going to shun you or judge you. And then when they accept you or they respond to what you share with them with compassion, that is a first step towards emerging out of the shame spiral that keeps you stuck in the problem. And once you have a confidant, then you have an accountability partner, and you can begin the process of constructing a path out of that, out of that hole that you've dug for yourself.

Adam Skolnick (36:38)

I like that. That's good.

Rich Roll (36:40)

I have so many examples of this. We almost had our house foreclosed on. I've had cars repossessed. I've had my credit destroyed, you know, like financially. So many things to be embarrassed about and ashamed about as a grown ass man. And in the addiction recovery context, like countless examples of this. I mean, I remember relapsing in Hawaii after, I think I had like 13 years of sobriety at the time, it was after Ultraman 2011 didn't go well and I kind of made Ultra endurance my higher power. And I had a slip and I'm so, you know, wrought with to this day. Like, it's still mortifying to me, you know, and. And in the moment of that experience, the shame was like so overwhelming. But I had enough experience and sobriety to know that I had to do what my friend Scotty G. Says you do in these situations, which is if you're going to eat crow, eat it hot, meaning you got to deal with shit right away. And thanks to my family and Tyler who's here today, I was in an AA meeting the same day as the relapse that evening. And I had to pick up the phone and call my people in recovery and tell them exactly what had happened, which was a very ego deflating thing to do as somebody who considered himself somebody with a lot of experience in sobriety who could go to the rooms and always knew the right thing to say. And ultimately all of this made my program all the more stronger because I needed that ego deflation and I needed that reminder that, that there is no cruise control and I'd taken my foot off the gas on my program and I had to pay that price. And that was a life lesson that I needed to learn and ultimately one of great value. But I was only able to course correct because I was.

Rich Roll (38:44)

Willing to pick up the phone and deal with the shame emotions by like just exposing them to the light as quickly as I could. So I think that would be one example. I mean, that was all heightened by the fact that I already turned in my manuscript for Finding Ultra, which was this story, addiction and recovery. And I couldn't make any changes to it. And here I had, you know, and then here I relapsed. You know, it's just like, so. It was like I was so completely just laid out from that experience.

Adam Skolnick (39:17)

It's almost like something an enemy would do to you, right?

Rich Roll (39:21)

Yeah. Like, what is that called? Oppo. Oppo, yeah. Like opposition researchers.

Adam Skolnick (39:27)

Your opposition came strong.

Rich Roll (39:29)

Yeah.

Rich Roll (39:31)

These are not easy things to do, you know, I don't want to minimize the degree of difficulty that they present. And so that's why I'm always trying to boil things down to like, what is the smallest kind of thing that you are willing to do and figuring out how to build upon those tiny little actions.

Adam Skolnick (39:51)

You know, it's funny cause like you do, looking back on going through something horrible, you do remember those little snippets Those little moments where you do see clearly what's happening and you don't just keep tumbling forward, but then you often do. I mean, I remember, like, one time, one of my worst moments. It was like I was going through a divorce. I felt horrible, and I got pulled. My buddy was driving me home, and we pulled off the freeway. This is like. You think there's always someone worse off. We pull off the freeway, and there's a guy panhandling. Like, a guy's wasted. Who knows on what high or drunk, and he's like, panhandling. And he kind of looks at me, sees me, and he peers into me and he goes, it'll be okay, bro.

Rich Roll (40:40)

Yeah.

Adam Skolnick (40:41)

And that's what I knew. I wasn't carrying it well. I was not carrying this divorce well. But, like, that moment, it didn't shift anything for me, you know, but it could have been. It could have been one of those moments where you're like, wait a second. You know, it's not as bad as I think it is, but it didn't really do it. But it's just wanted to share one of my rock bottom. I guess it wasn't rock bottom. I still had to tumble a little bit.

Rich Roll (41:04)

But when I think of my kind of descents into darkness over the years, the rock bottom moments are not the darkest, most dire moments.

Rich Roll (41:16)

Speaking of divorce, I had a marriage that ended on the honeymoon, and then I had to come back and deal with the aftermath of that.

Rich Roll (41:26)

So deeply. And that was before I got sober. And I had to continue drinking for, I can't remember how long, like, six or eight months or whatever, because I was so emotionally debilitated by that, that there was no. Even though that was really, like, the nadir of my career in alcoholism, I had to continue to drink until I had gotten over the immediate aftermath of that before I could kind of contend with the problem that created it in the first place.

Adam Skolnick (41:53)

Hmm. Well, speaking of kind of getting better and kind of building back.

Adam Skolnick (42:00)

We'Re almost to the point where resolutions are being hatched. Maybe they're already being hatched. And so the question, this third question is kind of around how do you think about New Year's resolutions? What are some of the tools that you use kind of going into a new year and if you have any goals for 2026?

Rich Roll (42:20)

I have evolved my thinking on this. I mean, I'm certainly somebody who believes in setting goals and having a strategic approach for achieving them. I've moved my life forward in many ways by dint of this process. But the older I get, the less interested I am in setting specific goals and focusing my life on achieving them. And I'm more into kind of the being of it all in the allowing and and letting the universe kind of direct me. Not that I've transcended the need to set goals and work towards them, but I think I hold goals a little bit more loosely and I'm more focused on direction over goals. I think you can have goals work towards them, either you achieve them or you don't. But the more important piece in all of that is whether or not you are on a trajectory or on a direction. So whether or not you achieve that goal goal, you maintain that trajectory. Like you've set a course for your life and you're kind of.

Rich Roll (43:30)

Unaffected as to whether the goals along the way are satisfied or not, because you're unwavering in that kind of focus on the direction of your life. And I think part of that comes with age and experience. But I've built my life on the shoulder of setting goals and achieving them. And I think it's a worthy exercise at this time of year specifically to really reflect deeply on what you want for your life in the coming year and maybe in the coming decade. Because as I've said many times before, I think we're all better off thinking of our lives in decades over than years. I think we wildly overestimate what we can achieve in a year and underestimate what we can achieve in a decade. And that's part of why things like New Year's resolutions trip us up up because we have an impatient, unrealistic perspective on what we can achieve in a certain period of time. And we get frustrated when we don't see immediate progress and we allow the externalities of all of that to derail us from just maintaining, like I said before, like a certain direction, goals are important. You can't improve what you don't measure. And if you're going to set a goal, you should use that SMART acronym, meaning that they should be specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, and time bound. That's the way to really establish a goal and then work backwards from that time bound moment of achieving it to create all the steps that you're going to need to travel in order to get there. Those are all good things. But I think what most people don't do is reflect deeply enough on the goal that they're setting for themselves. I think we set goals reflexively. Oh, I want to lose a little weight. Oh, I want to run a marathon or oh, I want to make this amount of money or whatever it is, whether those are impulsed by the culture or our friend group, I don't know that we spend enough time doing the interior work to try to really.

Rich Roll (45:35)

Uncover the best goal for ourselves. And that's really a function of how invested you are in having an interior life. Right? So. So that comes with Asian experience also. And there's nothing wrong with setting a reflexive goal and achieving it, because anytime you achieve a goal, you're going to engender more self esteem for yourself and that's going to empower you to set more ambitious goals. And there's a self perpetuating aspect to all of this. But I think a lot of people set the wrong goals for themselves and then when they peter out, they feel bad about themselves without really understanding that maybe it wasn't the right goal for them to set for themselves in the first part. So think, spend some time thinking about the values that are most important to you and how this goal that you're contemplating relates to that value. Because the best goals are ones that are intrinsically motivated, obviously. And to the extent that your goal is being impulsed by something extrinsic, that's going to make it easier to derail when life doesn't exactly line up for you to do the things that you need to do to achieve, or if.

Adam Skolnick (46:44)

You achieve it and then afterwards you feel like, wait, I don't feel any different.

Rich Roll (46:49)

Exactly. If you think this goal, especially if it's a material goal, is going to heal that inner child or fill that void in your soul, you're going to quickly realize when you achieve it that it doesn't. And so, yeah, that can precipitate an existential crisis. Right?

Adam Skolnick (47:07)

Next thing you know, you wake up at rock bottom.

Rich Roll (47:08)

We don't want that. But setting goals are good. Resolutions are fine. I think it's something like 80 or 85% of people abandon them by mid February. And so why is that? Well, is it the wrong goal? Is it that they were overly ambitious? Is it that it really wasn't tied enough to their values to make it meaningful enough, such that when there's friction in life, you can't show up for it? I mean, there's so many things that play into this. So that's why again, like, I'm always, always coming back to direction, like what is the direction you want your life to go on and what are the things that you can be doing every single day that are moving your life on that trajectory? That to me is much more important. And it goes back to thinking about your life in decades rather than years. If I don't lose this much weight by this time, or I can't, blah, blah, blah. These things become less important when you're like, yeah, well, I didn't exactly do all the things that I thought that I could in the first six months. But I'm on this path and every day, everything in my life, life took at least a decade before it started to bear any kind of fruit. And it takes a certain resilience to play the long game. But if your values are aligned with whatever that trajectory is, then it just becomes who you are. And it's less about this burdensome thing that you're always having to move mountains to make time for.

Adam Skolnick (48:34)

Yeah, I like that. Because first of all, the year is an arbitrary concept anyway, right? It's kind of an abstraction. So then if the year doesn't really matter and the goal is actually you actually just wanna be better, you wanna get better, you wanna learn more, you wanna love your life more. That's basically what we're talking about. Cause goals are. You're just hurdling yourself against the modern world in a way. It's like this abstraction. You're just trying to. I wanna achieve this goal because I wanna see if I can do it. It's like an experiment.

Rich Roll (49:04)

And that's fine, that's good. There's value in that. But sometimes, if it's like, I'm gonna achieve this goal, you're putting blinders on. Because every time you. You decide to pursue a goal, you're saying yes to one thing and you're saying no to other things. Right? You have to say no to a lot of stuff to achieve a goal. Right? And so what can happen is that you're saying no to things that maybe you actually should say yes to. And I think when you have those blinders on, you're so focused that sometimes you can't see the forest for the trees. And the older that I get, it's sort of like what happens when you hold your goals a little bit more loosely so that you can pivot when needed. Because sometimes I know that in my life, I've started out on a goal, and then I'm like, oh, that's not really what this is about. I think what I need to be doing is going over here because I'm feeling this way, or the world is kind of showing up for me in this way that I didn't think that I really. I didn't really think that my life was going to go this way. But this seems to be where there's a lot of energy right now. Maybe I should pay attention to that.

Adam Skolnick (50:12)

Yeah.

Rich Roll (50:12)

And if you're so focused on your goal, you're gonna miss that. And a lot of these great things that I've experienced in my life are because I had the awareness to allow myself to hold onto the goal a little bit loose enough so that I could be aware of that and, like, you know, pivot or move, make these little micro adjustments in my life to move in different directions. And that's about being present in your life, like having the tool of awareness to read the energy of the room, read your internal energy, attention to what's working and what's not. Because if you're pursuing a goal and you're just hitting roadblock after roadblock after roadblock, it's like Matthew McConaughey and his green lights. Where are the green lights? When you're aware of where the green lights are and you're like, I'm going to go over here, because everything's flowing over here, even if it doesn't feel like that's where you should be going, maybe you just don't know yet that that's the better direction for your life. And so I think acclimating yourself around the green lights is anathema to holding on or clutching on to goals. Because you said you were gonna do it. You know what I mean? So it is this dichotomy. It's a weird kind of dualism, right? A yin yang kind of thing when it comes to goals.

Adam Skolnick (51:26)

Yeah. No, I like that, though. Like, this idea that maybe the goal is to be more present. Maybe that's your resolution. Maybe it's.

Rich Roll (51:32)

I mean, it is in a lot of ways. It's like, well, it gets into. You know, it's like, okay, if I'm gonna, like, if I need to make some changes, if I really wanna, like, up level my life.

Rich Roll (51:45)

What are we really doing here? You know what I mean? Like, oh, I can set a goal and achieve it, but honestly.

Rich Roll (51:51)

All the growth in my life that is waiting for me out there is a function of moving towards the things that I'm most avoiding. You know what I mean? Like, avoidance is really the signal.

Rich Roll (52:07)

That is telling you, like, where your energy should be directed. But the thing about avoidance is we avoid it. They're like, no, I'm not going over there. I'm going to go over here. We can set goals that everyone will celebrate that are just elaborate ruses to avoid the thing that we actually should be looking at. And so to your point about presence, if there is a goal, well, how can I be more present in my life? If I'm more present, then I'm more aware of the things that I'm avoiding. And if I'm present enough, enough, those things that I recoil from and avoid become less threatening and I have the capacity to move towards them in a way that otherwise I wouldn't, I think. And so yeah, it's almost an anti goal. Like if I'm just present, you're kind of letting go of everything, right? It's sort of like, what if there is no goal and I'm just present with my life and I'm riding the waves of energy and letting life, you know, kind of direct me.

Rich Roll (53:10)

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Rich Roll (54:31)

I want you to pause for a moment because I want to tell you about my friend rj. Now, you might know this guy as the founder and CEO of Rivian. He is certainly that, but he's really so much more. He's one of those rare people who actually walks the walk. I've watched him over many years and I know him to be this incredibly deeply committed person, committed to preserving wild spaces while also inspiring people to explore responsibly. And that's basically Rivian in a nutshell. Their mission, keep the world adventurous forever, comes from this understanding that adventure and a healthy planet, these are not separate things, they're the same thing. Here's what gets me. Every generation deserves wild places to roam, to climb high, higher, to run farther, to be changed by the journey. But obviously that's only possible if we're not destroying those places in the process of getting there. So, yeah, Rivian builds electric vehicles, but really they're building something bigger, momentum toward a future where exploration does not come at the expense of nature, but actually inspires us to protect it. It's like, why create the old ultimate adventure vehicle if we're not protecting the adventures themselves? And that's why I'm so proud to align forces in partnership with Rivian. This isn't just about transportation. It's about building a world worth exploring for our kids, for their kids, and for generations to come.

Adam Skolnick (56:02)

I remember, like, probably the best resolution I ever came up with for myself was I'd kind of gotten out of my rhythm with nature. And I think it was January 1st, and I was coming out of that same divorce part. I think it wasn't long after I had that confrontation on the side of the highway, but I think it was actually, it was before that. It was like several years before that. I was coming out of a different breakup and I was in this horrible space and I decided I just need to go in the ocean every day. And I hadn't been in the ocean in ages. This was before my love of the ocean swimming. So this was. And like end of 2004, beginning 2005, I hadn't been in the ocean much, and so certainly not in California. And so I would just walk from my apartment every morning and jump in. And that was the thing starting January 1st. And I wanted to do it every day for, I think it was 40 days to see if I could do it. And that what that ended up doing is sparking my entire journey as an ocean person. And it wasn't the goal. The goal was never to become a surfer or an open water swimmer or a free diver or anything. The goal was to be in touch with nature. That was like my resolution. And looking back, it's probably the most powerful thing I ever did. And. Yeah, interesting.

Rich Roll (57:12)

Yeah, I have my version of that. Like, all of the best things that I've done in my life are not the function of having set a goal to achieve it. My whole career in ultra endurance began similarly. Like, you know what? I just want to do things that make my body feel good. You know what? I know there's a lot to do, but I'm going to, no matter what, I'm going to go swim or I'm Going to go up on this trail in the morning and feel what that feels like. There was no goal. It was just a decision to do this thing that I felt compelled to do that made me feel good and that set in motion all these other things. And the podcast, it was just like, hey, wouldn't it be cool to. I was just curious, let's have a conversation, let's see what happens. And everything that came from. It wasn't like, I'm going to start a podcast and here's how we're going to launch it and in five years, this is what it's going to be. No, there's none of that.

Adam Skolnick (58:03)

There's somebody that they thought you could.

Rich Roll (58:05)

Say none of that. Yeah, there was no goal setting to any of this. I didn't set a goal to write Finding Ultra. It happened. It unfolded naturally out of an act of service. I've told the story before, but the best things in life are byproducts of being service minded and pursuing life with curiosity. And so I think it's important to contextualize these goals that we set and these resolutions within that framework. If there's anything, it's like, be curious about your life, give yourself permission to do the things that bring you joy, reserve judgment and just try new things. That's a very non acronym smart goal. But I think it's quite valorous to adopt that as a general disposition or an ambition for. For how to think about your energy.

Adam Skolnick (59:00)

So 2026, what are your goals?

Rich Roll (59:02)

So like I said, being present, actually there are these amorphous ambitions, like how can I be more present in my life? How can I be more service minded? How can I love more unconditionally? But I think the reason for all of those is the impulse behind all of that is how can I enjoy this life that I worked hard to construct? You know what I mean? Because I'm always caught up in what's the next thing, or I'm overwhelmed or there's too much to do or I lose the joy amidst all the responsibility of it. And it's like, these are the good times. It's not going to get any better than this. It's happening now. I need to find better ways to really enjoy and be happy in this incredible privileged situation that I found myself in. So that's the big one. But within the that I still have goals and projects, I'm working on projects I have things that I want to do and all of that at the same time. So I've been thinking about my life in these six month chunks. So May 8th I had my back surgery. And so from May to November, that six month period, I've just been completely laid out. I could barely work, I couldn't do anything in terms of exercise. All I could do was walk, walk.

Rich Roll (60:23)

And now from this past November until May, this next six month period, I have the green light to resume a modest exercise routine. So this six month period, I want to focus on returning to a base level of fitness, sort of getting back, not back to where I was, but just rebuilding my body and also completing this book that I've been working on. And that will bring me to May, which is the one year anniversary of the surgery. And then from May to November I have six months, the next six month period of time. And I thought, well, what's in November of next year? Oh, the New York City Marathon. Wouldn't it be cool to toe the line at that race? So from this upcoming May to November, I'm going to attempt to return to some relationship with running because I haven't been able to run in many years with the goal of just being able to participate in the New York City Marathon. So it's not like, oh, I'm going to go run the Moab 240. Like, I just want to experience the ability to run pain free and enjoy it and be a runner among runners, the many, many thousands at the New York City Marathon next year. So that's sort of like my big.

Adam Skolnick (61:36)

That'S a big investment.

Rich Roll (61:37)

It's a pretty practical, like it's not like that crazy. But given that my surgeon was sort of like, yeah, I don't think you're going to be running anymore. He was not exactly encouraging. When I asked him like, do you think I'll run again? He basically said, there's certain things in your life you've got to retire. And he kind of bluntly let that hang. And then so I've been sitting with that and I'm like, well, we'll see about that. Not that I need to go recapture some glory as an ultra endurance athlete, but I would like to be able to run again pain free and be able to just do it for the joy of it and for no other reason.

Adam Skolnick (62:16)

Well, I remember I just saw your recent story on the bike. I was already inspired. Like this idea that New York City Marathon's on your radar is very cool.

Rich Roll (62:26)

It could be a Tommy Riv situation where I'm just going to walk it. I don't know what's going to happen. I don't know what's going to happen.

Adam Skolnick (62:32)

But that'd be cool too.

Rich Roll (62:34)

I'm hopeful that I'll.

Rich Roll (62:37)

Be able to run it, but time will tell.

Adam Skolnick (62:40)

Exciting. Okay, so we're talking about this as two guys that have been through a lot and accomplished some things. But there's young guys out there, young women who are being fed a line about hustle. You gotta hustle everything. You gotta make some sacrifices to get where you want to get. You need to shoot for something great. You need to make your mark. And the only way to do that is to work hard and start to eliminate some distractions. And there's value to that advice. And they're getting it from all sides now. It's not just from the parents or from coaches. It's literally every time they turn on a screen, they're getting some version of it because it's kind of gamed by the algorithm. Acknowledging that that's a thing. How would you then advise folks to also incorporate some. What you're talking about with their goals?

Rich Roll (63:25)

Yeah, I mean, I'm of two minds on this. I mean, listen, you're the guy who wrote the Goggins books. There is value in hard work. I have worked very hard to achieve the things that I've achieved in my life. And I'm very good at compartmentalizing aspects of my life and, and enduring a fair degree of suffering to achieve the things that I want to achieve. And I don't think there's a real shortcut to that. And if you aspire to do something great in the world and make your stamp, sacrifice is involved. There isn't an easy path. You will have to say no to lots of things and you will have to be pretty regimented about how you live your life. That is just a fact. And there's no, there's no way around that. Honestly, I say that as somebody who. Look, when I was in high school, I Woke up at 4:30 every day to go to swim practice. I've been doing this for a very long time and playing this long game. And even within all of that, all of the fruits of my labor took decades to emerge. And so I think the message that I want to convey is that within this, you have to find a way to make it sustainable within the construct of the busy modern life. And it can't intrude too heavily or tread upon the other values in your life that are important, because if they do, it will end up moving you in a direction, away from what's really important in your life, or it will just be unsustainable and you'll end up abandoning it. So when you open up your phone, there's no shortage of like hustle point porn videos. And if you're a young person and you see that it either inspires you or it makes you feel guilty and bad about yourself. And I would imagine that most people have that experience of feeling bad about themselves because they can't possibly live up to the insane hustle porn culture that they're constantly being inundated with. And so that's the flip side of this. I think that that is doing damage to people, making them feel like if they're not so regimented down to the. First of all, all of this is illusion. These people are making these videos, are not living this way. With the exception of maybe David Goggins, it's like nobody else is actually doing this. And so first understand that you are consuming a fictitious world. So these are unreliable narrators. First of all, not everyone's wired for that kind of. Some people like David's wired for it or what? And you can, can benefit from.

Rich Roll (66:06)

Adopting some of those principles into your life, but they don't have to monopolize everything. And when they do monopolize everything, they end up blinding you to the other aspects of life that are important and that you need in order to live a fulfilling, self actualized life. So the important thing is finding the thing that's meaningful to you, that lights you up, that you have curiosity around and making a decision to invest your time and your energy around that and holding onto your timelines loosely or relinquishing them altogether. Again, it goes back to this idea of direction, like just be on a direction. You don't have to set these violent goals and punish yourself if you can't live up to them or create some kind of morning routine or daily regimen that is just superhuman and impossible to sustain for longer than 10 days without falling off the wagon. Right, so, so what can you devote yourself to that gets you excited when you wake up in the morning? Obviously if it animates you, it's easier to stay in it and stay connected to the direction that you're on. And not everybody has that. And I think that's another thing that does people a violence. Like, well, I don't have a passion or I don't have that thing that I'm excited to wake up in the morning and go after and change chase. If you don't, that's the thing that you feel guilty about. But the only way to find that is by engaging with your curiosity. And I think there's some tools that we could talk about that might be helpful to people who are like, well, I don't know what my goal should be, or I don't know what gives myself my life meaning, or I feel like I don't have purpose. It all goes back to investing in.

Rich Roll (67:54)

Your relationship with yourself, like, having a healthy dialogue with.

Rich Roll (68:01)

Your interior. Right. And we can talk for hours about meditation and mindfulness practices and the like. But even just physical exercise, anything that connects you to your body and gives you the time and the space for your unconscious mind to wander where you can reflect. But I think the of rest real, the sort of principled and most helpful tool that I have found for creating clarity amidst this type of confusion is the practice of morning pages. And this is something actually, Tim Ferriss tweeted about it the other day saying, if there's one thing you can do like morning pages, just like vomiting three pages every morning for a couple minutes can change your life. And I retweeted it and said, I concur. And a lot of people kind of reshared that. And I think it's really true. Like, I started this practice of morning pages back in 1999 when I read Julia Cameron's book the Artist's Way, which is a primer on recovering your innate creativity. And it's this practice of every morning sitting down and writing three pages, not with any agenda, but really just to cut through the cobwebs and just allow yourself to write what. Whatever the pen wants to write without editing yourself. And it becomes this unlock where you start to see patterns in your behavior. You start to allow your unconscious mind to spill out onto the page. And all of these are like data points that very subtly and over a long period of time, create a little bit more clarity about what's important to you, what you care about, and the decisions that you should be making. The things that you're avoiding. Right. We're talking about all the growth is on the other side of the things that we're avoiding. This practice has just been absolutely crucial and central in everything that I've been able to do in my life. And so if you are in that confused space, I don't know what my goal is. I don't know where to begin with all of this stuff. That's where you begin.

Adam Skolnick (70:04)

Yeah. The only thing I would say is it's something you've already said. Just to bring back and highlight, is that if you don't have a passion, you do have value. And if you read David's books, everything he's doing is values based. And that's the first thing you said, is make sure that your direction is empowered or guided by your values. And so if you don't have a passion, you don't know what you want to do. I was in that space. You think of your values first.

Rich Roll (70:30)

And the great thing about David's message is it's really one of personal responsibility and discipline. And these are just things that most people lack. They lack in huge amounts, I think. And we can all benefit from taking a little bit more responsibility for our lives and having a little bit more discipline, especially in this distracted world where it's just so easy to fall into this lullaby of scrolling and Netflix where everything around you is oriented around creating comfort.

Adam Skolnick (71:02)

Yeah, that's right. So we talked about a lot of different things.

Adam Skolnick (71:08)

Can we boil it down to a checklist for people who are interested in kind of getting there with their goals, their direction? What are kind of like four or five things that people can do?

Rich Roll (71:19)

So in terms of getting clarity on your goals and really being more certain about the validity of this being the thing that you're going to invest all this time and energy into, self care is really where it begins and ends. You have to be moving your body, you got to be exercising, you got to be sleeping well, you have to be nourishing your body, you have to be spending time in nature. You have to be with your community of friends who are also going to act as accountability partners. And you got to get that pen to paper and start with that Morning pages practice. Do not do it on the computer. You're not dictating this or any. You have to literally get a pen and journal and write it out loud longhand. So as boring and as mundane as all of those sort of things sound like, that's really what it's about. And I think being patient, this idea that you're going to get struck by lightning and have this epiphany or you're going to have some degree of certainty also is something that I think we allow to do ourselves a violence. It's like what Dr. Ellen Langer always said says, we ruminate on these decisions and what we need to do is develop a reflex to action. Instead of worrying about whether you're making the right decision, just make the decision right. You have to change is an action based affair. So if you want to make a change, you have to make these changes and you have to do them decisively. And we get into this mental Kind of masturbation around. Well, should I do this or shouldn't I do that or. Yeah, but if I do that, I don't have the right shoes, so I'm going to have to research that. And all of these are impediments to action that prevent us from just engaging with change in a tactile and fundamental way that is moving our lives forward incrementally every single day. So release the timelines, invest in your curiosity, get eight hours of sleep, try to eat healthy foods, enjoy your friendships, and get off the phone. This is like dumb shit, right? But we all struggle with these things. None of us is doing it perfect and giving yourself the grace to be imperfect within the construct of giving yourself space to make these changes.

Adam Skolnick (73:37)

I had a whole phone hygiene thing going, and it kind of went out the window with book promotion.

Adam Skolnick (73:46)

Now I'm.

Rich Roll (73:47)

Yeah. Let me provide the seamless transition from answering these three questions into getting to talk about your new novel. We're entering into the new year, and you have toiled diligently for a long time to give birth to this creative project, which is a testament to you having set a goal that you were going to write this novel and put it out into the world. So congratulations for that. It's no small achievement. I can't imagine writing a novel.

Adam Skolnick (74:17)

I'll tell you this. I had to run through a lot of red lights.

Rich Roll (74:20)

There's a lot of red lights. But you're right here, and I've given you a green light. You know what I mean? You had enough green lights to be here, right?

Adam Skolnick (74:28)

I'll tell you, there's some green lights.

Rich Roll (74:29)

Yeah, it's sort of like, when do you heed the red lights and when do you ignore them? You know what I mean? So this has been a journey of resilience on your part because there were a lot of roadblocks and plenty of people saying, don't do this or you shouldn't do this, or we're not interested in what you're doing. And you could read that like, well, they're right. Maybe I shouldn't be doing this. And something inside of you felt strongly enough about the this to believe in it and believe in yourself, to do an end run around these red lights, you know, drive right through them and get a bunch of tickets until you finally got a green light or too. So before we even get into the book, what has that process been of overcoming those obstacles and finding the resilience to push through and achieve this goal for yourself?

Adam Skolnick (75:19)

Oh, man. Well, thank you for the compliments. It was a lot harder than nonfiction that I can say. You know, that's what I can say. But I think there's a couple. Like the first red lights that I was dealing with were in my head. So they weren't really red lights. They were like the Doubt. Can you do it? So for a couple of years it was like, this sucks. This sucks. You suck, this sucks.

Adam Skolnick (75:46)

That was like many hours a day that I was living in that space. It's not a real nice space to live, but it is.

Rich Roll (75:52)

It's also not the great greatest headspace to be in when you're trying to be creative, right?

Adam Skolnick (75:57)

So what you learn is you have to. It's not like it's constant, but it comes up, right? And sometimes it's like in the first couple drafts, things aren't good. And so you do need to get like, it's knowing. I think a couple things. I had abandoned a novel before. I'd completed a manuscript before too. So I had had experience listening to the Doubt and getting off something that was a good project. So I. I knew that. And so it was easier to run those red lights because I knew they weren't really red lights. It was just myself trying to stop this, whatever this was, which was kind of the complete takeover of my body and soul of a story that I really felt like that was kind of coming through me. I could feel it. I could see it now from a distance that I thought it was me coming up with this idea. But in actuality, it's this idea coming through. You know, it's kind of like how Elizabeth Gilbert and Ann Patchett had that thing in Big Magic where Elizabeth Gilbert had an idea and didn't pursue it or pursued it lightly and then gave up. And then Ann Pat wrote a book about the same idea years later.

Adam Skolnick (77:03)

And so there's actually a story I just heard that's kind of similar to that. But to answer your question, I was getting a lot of no's right away. And that continued for years and years.

Rich Roll (77:15)

But.

Adam Skolnick (77:16)

But there were also some green lights. And the green lights were coming from early readers, from early readers of the manuscript, but they were also coming from the world at large. Like, there's a one legged crow in this book. When I thought I divined the one legged crow on the page. I'd never seen one before. But then we moved house. We were still in the middle of. I was still in the middle of writing the book. I wasn't even finished with it yet. We weren't even meant fully Manuscript form yet. And April saw a one legged crow on our block. And next thing you know, the one legged crows in our backyard every day for like a year. And so that was all happening while you were looking for a publisher for this book. And we were going through all those red, getting those red lights. But knowing that like this one legged crow, this ambassador from the crow community was in our backyard every day, it made it almost impossible to stop at those red lights because like, and maybe it's like delusion and maybe it's all quixotic and maybe it's just me flinging myself against the world as a goal oriented person trying to see if this experiment is worth anything. But I couldn't stop because I knew like to me it's like there had to be some reason that this was happening. And that's just one story with all of this. And so I was just driven to tell something that's different. And like if you look at everybody, every book out there, 99% of them are about human beings having a human experience in society or trying to. Society is keeping them down. Nation states, relationships. And there's a lot of that in here too. The search for identity. But the difference with this book is the search for identity doesn't stop at the human level. The search for identity goes to the nature level. And I think I feel like what's powerful about that is that there's so much unity in that. And so I was trying to tell a story that is first of all entertaining. It's a bit of an escape. It takes place in 2005. It's a real story about a tiger in the suburbs of la. It really happened, I really covered it. But it also is an opportunity to kind of see your place in the world a little bit differently. And so that's kind of what I was after and I feel like I achieved it. And so having written something that I knew was good and getting some green lights that was, that were kind of almost cosmic, I couldn't stop at the red lights.

Rich Roll (79:39)

Yeah. The idea of discerning the difference between what is truly a red light and what is like your internal self sabotaging mechanism or your excuse maker, you know what I mean? And that becomes tricky.

Adam Skolnick (79:55)

It is tricky. Yeah. I mean I had had experience though with that self sabotage or that doubt. I knew how to quiet doubt. I knew how to not listen to it.

Adam Skolnick (80:07)

And that's part of the job of the professional writer. And I think Steven Pressfield talks about this. That's part of the job is to Turn down the volume on the doubt and tune into the job of the day. And the job of the day is either putting words on the page or to try to get this character going over the pages to make sure this character arc is right. And if you don't know what you're doing for the job of the day, that leaves a lot of space for doubt. So part of the job is to zero in. And that just comes with experience. I mean, you know, I've been at this in some form for 20 years now, so it's like I had when I started writing. It would have been 15 years, but still, that's a lot of time. And I've had enough success in that period of time to know my way around it. At the same time, every time you start a book, it's totally new and so you never know completely. Can I do this one? You know, so it's also terrifying at the same time. But like, if you have this toolkit, you have a process. You trust, you like the process. Even the days that are hard, you'll still do it the next day. And I think that just comes with experience and the habits, you know? Yeah, yeah.

Rich Roll (81:14)

Well, here we are. As Seth Godin says, the job of the creator isn't just to create, it's to create and then ship.

Adam Skolnick (81:21)

Yes.

Rich Roll (81:22)

And so here we are on Monday. Tomorrow is the official pub day, right?

Adam Skolnick (81:27)

That's right.

Rich Roll (81:27)

Tuesday. It comes out December 2nd. American Tiger.

Adam Skolnick (81:31)

American Tiger.

Rich Roll (81:32)

Available everywhere. We showed the poster on the last roll on. It's a beautiful cover. And it's basically the story of this motherless nine year old girl who sees a tiger outside of her school bus. No one believes her. And then sort of then there's this journey that ensues from that. That is all the things that you mentioned about our connection with nature and what does it mean to be in the modern world. And this, this idea that we are separate from all of these energies and forces, right?

Adam Skolnick (82:02)

This idea that we are apart from rather than a part of nature, which is nature's always here. We think of it like, oh, we're abusing Mother Nature. No, Mother Nature is always underneath. And it's coming up through the cracks in the concrete and it's all around us. And so that's part of it. You tell the story of a tiger roaming around Simi. This, like I said, a true story that happened. And people think of it as Jaws, like, and that's what people like first want. They want the story of this tiger killing people.

Rich Roll (82:34)

It's gonna be a Murder, it's gonna be a true crime.

Adam Skolnick (82:37)

That's right. But this one.

Rich Roll (82:38)

And then you hit him with like this kind of, you know, Buddhist.

Adam Skolnick (82:42)

Well, it's more like, you know what it's like. It's like a different Spielberg movie, but.

Rich Roll (82:46)

It has Spielberg elements. You have the, you know, the child with the awe and wonder.

Adam Skolnick (82:50)

That's right.

Rich Roll (82:51)

And none of the adults believe.

Adam Skolnick (82:53)

Exactly right, exactly right. And her father, single dad, is the game warden who ends up being tasked with like figuring out is she telling the truth or not because she has a, you know, she tells stories.

Rich Roll (83:05)

But this is not Jurassic Park. This is where it's different from.

Adam Skolnick (83:08)

I was thinking more like E.T.

Rich Roll (83:09)

It'S E.T. yeah, it's ETT.

Adam Skolnick (83:11)

Yeah, yeah, that's what it is. It's really the story of Jay Turn and Belle Turn, the nine year old girl and Jay the father. And it's really kind of a father daughter story. As he's dealing, he's a stoic game warden who has an ethos, has value system that drives his life and drives her life at the same time because she wants to be like him. But then they have secrets. Jay is grieving something and can't bear to talk about it. And that impacts Belle's knowledge of her mother and who she was. And that's what kind of drives her lies in the first place, is trying to figure out who am I? And so it's her quest for identity and his quest to keep the lid on all the pain. And that becomes the driving force for it. But at the same time, it's also just a story of can you imagine having this precocious nine year old daughter? I mean, and nine is like this crazy age, right? You know, I mean, you've raised two daughters, are raising like your youngest is still in high school. I mean, what was their nine year old year like? Do you remember that?

Rich Roll (84:25)

Well, I mean, yeah, that's a great age. You know, that's the waning years of innocence, you know, where there's a sweetness, you know, and a closeness, you know, that I remember that quickly evaporates when, you know, with the onset of puberty.

Adam Skolnick (84:42)

Yes, yes.

Rich Roll (84:43)

I think dads and daughters is a very interesting, dynamic relationship. And yeah, I have experience with it. I have an 18 year old daughter and a 21 year old daughter, soon to be 22. And they are roller coaster rides. There's nothing like the bond that a dad has with the young daughter at that age. The sweetness. There's just something really special about that. And then it goes haywire for a handful of years and then it starts to come back around. And I think what makes it interesting is the dad doesn't quite understand the young female animal, you know, and they're sort of sniffing around each other and curious about each other, but they fundamentally don't understand each other, you know what I mean? It creates this fascination because both of them are yearning for closeness, but they have different languages and they have different kind of constitutional dispositions that sometimes are a mismatch for each other, which creates a fraught kind of confusing relationship in which each party is trying to figure out, like, how can I get closer to this person? But signals are easily misinterpreted, you know what I mean? So it's like, for example, just I have an 18 year old and I spent the day in the car with her yesterday and just trying to find ways of like, points of connection, like how to like communicate and have this open kind of channel, an intimate kind of level of communication is challenging, you know what I mean? And you just get these glimpses every once in a while where there's an opening and you're like, oh, this is the best, you know, and then they go away. And, you know, it goes through different stages of life also. It's a special kind of relationship, I think.

Adam Skolnick (86:32)

Yeah.

Rich Roll (86:33)

But here's the main question that I have for you, Adam, about this book. It's an important one. Okay. Turn it upside down.

Adam Skolnick (86:41)

Yes.

Rich Roll (86:41)

And as you will see on the back there, there is a blurb by me. And my question is, why is my blurb third and at the bottom?

Adam Skolnick (86:51)

I didn't have anything to do with this, Rich.

Rich Roll (86:53)

What do you mean? It's a self published book, right? Were you not involved in every decision?

Adam Skolnick (87:01)

April's. April oversees everything.

Rich Roll (87:03)

After all I've done for you, Adam, you marginalized me.

Adam Skolnick (87:08)

No, no. I've got Elizabeth Gilbert and you. This is like the perfect bookends. Yeah.

Rich Roll (87:13)

Well, congratulations on it. I'm excited. So you can get it on Amazon. Is it in. Are you going to have it in bookstores?

Adam Skolnick (87:19)

Oh, yeah, yeah.

Rich Roll (87:20)

You know, at the Painted Porch in Astrup, Texas.

Adam Skolnick (87:23)

Yeah, Diesel here in Brentwood. I mean, you can get it. You know, it's going to be at Heritage Goods and Supply as well in California. But any bookstore you want can get it. So all you have to do if you want your bookstore to carry it is just call them and order it from the bookstore they'll get it in. But if you want it in your favorite bookstore, the best way to. And if you Want to get it from them. The best way is to call and order it. But you can also order it, obviously. Amazon. There's an audible coming. We've been.

Rich Roll (87:48)

Which we recorded. You recorded here at Voicing Change.

Adam Skolnick (87:52)

That's right. Jason Cameolo, the recording engineer on that. And he and I have been working on it for a while now. And so I'm the narrator of it, and so that'll be fun. That comes out in January, most likely. And if you look in the acknowledgments, if you get the book, you'll notice that not just Rich Roll, but the Rich Roll podcast community is.

Adam Skolnick (88:16)

Thanked in it, and. Cause I can't. The only reason I'm able to do this at all is because of this connection. It's because of being a part of this community. And it'd be interesting to see how far we can launch beautiful, good stories, positive stories into the world. And so that's. That's what you've done for me already. And so I guess that's my only invitation, is for us to kind of be in this together, because the only way this thing surfaces to the top of the pile is if the people who know who I am and care about the work I've done are involved in that. And you've been involved in that. So I want to thank you and thank this community because it's really been amazing.

Rich Roll (88:51)

Thanks, man. Well, all right. So everybody get off your butt. Order this book. It's a great Christmas gift. You got your gift sorted. We're supporting Skolnik, and like you said, we're in it together. And speaking of the community support, we forgot to talk about these hats that we have here. So these baseball hats were created by a fan of the Show, Peter. Peter G.G. we can't. Like, I'm trying to read his last name on this beautiful card that he sent. I think it's given. But either way, Peter, thank you for these. As you can see, it's got. Got a scuba mask and the Rich Roll podcast logo right next to it. So this is the official roll on baseball hat. This is it. Which is pretty clever, and appreciate it. Thank you for. And this shirt that I'm wearing was a gift from John Price, a Jungian psychiatrist who I had on the show recently. And you can see it's got these hermit crabs on there, which is a symbol that he talks about a lot as, like, you know, the man has to basically shed his shit and grow a new one. When you grow, you need to expand your shell. So, anyway, thank you for that, John. Thanks, Peter, for the hats. All right, I think we did it. We're done for today. We'll see you in 2026. Congratulations on the book, Adam.

Adam Skolnick (90:10)

Thank you, man.

Rich Roll (90:11)

American Tiger. Pick it up on Amazon, call your bookstore, tell them to stock it. Audiobook coming in January and more good stuff. We have lots of exciting stuff planned for 2026.

Rich Roll (90:25)

Format wise, event wise, all kinds of interesting things that we're cooking up right now. So I'll tell you more about all of that in the new year. We're going to be doing more on Substack and just live events, all kinds of cool stuff. So I'll leave it there for now and have a wonderful holiday, everybody, and we'll see you in 2026. Thanks, Adam.

Adam Skolnick (90:45)

Thank you, man.

Rich Roll (90:46)

All right, Love you, buddy. Love you, too.

Adam Skolnick (90:47)

Happy holidays on the book. Yeah, thank you.

Rich Roll (90:50)

Peace Plants.

Rich Roll (90:56)

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