Anna Sitar: Protecting Your Peace

Summary

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Podcast Summary: The Squeeze

Episode: Anna Sitar: Protecting Your Peace
Date: April 1, 2026
Host: Taylor Lautner (Tay Lautner)
Featured Guest: Anna Sitar

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Overview

In this heartfelt and engaging episode of The Squeeze, Tay Lautner welcomes back content creator and storyteller Anna Sitar. Together, they dive deep into themes of mental health, burnout, self-worth, purpose, and finding authentic joy—especially as creative women entering their 29th year. The conversation is peppered with comparisons to Anna's previous answers on the show three years prior, ongoing struggles with burnout and relevance, and personal stories about creativity, rest, and celebrating life. Their candid dialogue normalizes the emotional rollercoaster of creator life and offers comforting, practical strategies for protecting your peace.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Reflections on Growth and Contentment

• Starting with Vulnerability: Anna and Tay immediately anchor the episode in honest feelings about time moving too fast, feeling stagnant, and questioning achievement as they approach their 29th birthdays.

  • Anna: “I feel like I'm, like, so stressed that I'm like, I don't know where the time went … This is the first year … I've actually had downtime.” [(03:19)]
  • Tay: “I feel like I've recently found over the past few months, like, such a contentment in life, love … everything just feels so great.” [(05:24)]

• Pressure & Industry Realities: Anna talks about constant self-comparison and the relentless pace of social media.

  • “Being a creator and watching the algorithm drama … I get so exhausted by it a little bit. I don't want to have to be doing something insane in order for it to like, reach new audience … creating for the joy of it.” [(01:21)]

2. Burnout & Navigating Uncertainty

• Creator Burnout: Anna describes the cyclical trap of digital creation—how “taking a day off” can spiral into guilt and renewed over-commitment.

  • “The act of feeding something that you really have no control over, that's where I feel like I kind of struggle… I've spent the last six years really giving into creating versus getting to live things firsthand.” [(11:31)]
  • “If I'm not creating, my narrative in my brain is not that rest is a good thing. It's that I'm not working hard enough.” [(10:38)]

• Navigating Career Parallels: Both Anna and Tay discuss having multiple dreams and interests and feeling scattered.

  • “Am I spreading myself thin or am I wasting my time by not focusing my energy on one thing?” [(17:07)]
  • Anna reflects on her own parallel pursuits: online creator and aspiring actor.

3. The Value of Creating for Joy

• Telling Stories Outside the Algorithm: Anna shares a story of attending a local documentary screening that reignited the value of creativity for its own sake.
  • “It made me realize how cool people are that you don't know exist … and also gave me such an awareness for, like, creating for the joy of it.” [(19:57)]

4. Dealing with Haters & Achiever Mindset

• Reframing Negative Attention: Anna’s insight from previous podcasts about haters wanting to be included turns into actionable wisdom.

  • “Whenever it's coming from someone, it's like they're just looking for a way to put their input somewhere because they don't feel heard in other places.” [(25:44)]

• Achiever Personality: Anna and Tay discuss the pressures of being “achievers”, rarely celebrating wins, and moving too quickly to the next goal.

  • “Last year I got … Forbes 30 under 30 … I don't really know that I did anything to celebrate that … My goals suddenly shifted to the next thing instead of basking in the enjoyment…” [(28:01)]

5. Embracing Rest & Simple Living

• Rest Rituals: Anna shares about unplugging and intentionally enjoying slower moments.

  • “I've been loving just like sitting on the beach and reading a book … it's way too bright outside that I can't even see my phone anyway … it kind of forces me to not pick it up.” [(35:28)]
  • Both hosts talk about how their routines change when their partners are away, often resulting in unexpected productivity and/or much-needed alone time.

• Movement and Mindfulness: Anna speaks on training for marathons (and an upcoming Ironman) without music to practice presence.

  • “I actually think it's—I prefer no music to listening to music [while running]. My brain is so present when I'm on a run … just checking yourself a little bit while you're running.” [(39:49)]
  • “The one thought I will say … [is] this is the only time you will ever experience this ever again, period. It will never be the same as what it is right now.” [(41:41)]

6. Ongoing Search for Purpose

• Still Figuring It Out: Entering her 29th year, Anna is candid about still not knowing her true purpose or calling.

  • “Maybe the purpose is just to exist and make a difference … but I think I'm still trying to understand what my calling is.” [(45:43)]

• Exciting Projects Ahead: Anna hints at new collaborations and a secret long-term project that will act as “a love letter to my 20s.”

7. Lemon7 Rapid-Fire: Revisiting & Updating Core Questions [(49:00–55:12)]

Anna’s Notable Rapid Fire Answers:

• Mental Health Song/Title:
  • “Aperture … I just gotta, like, let the light in a little bit.” [(50:04)]
  • Previously: “Pocket Full of Sunshine”
• Openness When Struggling:
  • “I'm very open … I think the reason I got five phone calls during this is because on the way here, I called all five members of my family…” [(50:41)]
• Top Three Social Accounts:
  • “Brew on the radio, Tay Lautner, Jade’s Wild Party (beauty creator), and Monet McMichael” [(51:29)]
• Favorite Self-care:
  • “Reading … I love reading, like, into my little fairy tale books. And I love a Kindle.” [(52:18)]
  • Previously: “Piping hot shower and yoga moment.”
• Most Positive Impact on Mental Health:
  • “Mr. Brew, on the radio.” [(55:03)]
  • Previously: Her mom
• If You Could Go Back in Time, What Would You Say?
  • “Three years ago, I had this moment where I felt like all my best days I had already lived and that really scared me … I would just want to go, like, hug her and tell her that’s not true. You speak into existence the life you want to create…” [(57:16)]

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On Joy & Career:
  • “Creating things that bring them joy, creating things that bring me joy—just enjoying what I already have. Gratefulness … is something that I'm finally starting to feel for it.” — Anna Sitar [(08:23)]
• On Comparison:
  • “If you’re constantly sitting in this feeling of, like, 'I feel guilty, I'm not doing good enough, I'm not enough', then that is the world you’re going to create for yourself.” — Anna Sitar [(57:29)]
• On Rest:
  • “It's like a little joy—romanticizing the little moments, really taking … whimsy. You need it.” — Tay Lautner [(30:22)]
• On Presence:
  • “This is the only time you will ever experience this ever again, period.” — Anna Sitar [(41:41)]

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Timestamps for Important Segments

• Reflections on the Past Three Years: (04:03–07:07)
• Burnout and Pressures of Social Media: (09:15–11:31)
• Dreams Beyond Content Creation: (17:07–21:22)
• Haters & Achiever Mindset: (25:18–29:30)
• Routines for Rest & Recharge: (35:17–39:38)
• Mindful Running & Embracing Presence: (39:28–41:54)
• Purpose & Future Projects: (45:34–48:33)
• Lemon7 Rapid-Fire Q&A: (49:00–55:12)
• Most Impactful Self-Admonition: (57:16–58:17)

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Tone & Style

The tone is warm, deeply personal, and validating. Anna and Tay create a supportive environment for open dialogue about struggles, dreams, and self-care, infusing hope and humor throughout. The conversation feels like sharing vulnerable truths with close friends, making this an ideal, comforting listen for anyone needing validation or inspiration on their own mental health and creative journey.

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Transcript

[Anna Sitar]

The following podcast is a Dear Media production. Someone give me a phone. Reached out and grabbed whoever's was right in front of me and took off running.

[Brew]

They were recording. So the footage is me being like, help me Guess it was fun.

[Anna Sitar]

I took the only one I don't

[Brew]

know the password to.

[Anna Sitar]

I can do anything I put my mind to. No, I don't know if you feel

[Brew]

this way, but like, I have.

[Anna Sitar]

Like. No, you do too. Okay, love.

[Brew]

Wait, that's our Pisces Aries March, girlies.

[Anna Sitar]

And you know what? If I fail, watch me get back up and do it 10 times better the next time around. Sometimes I feel like the Internet can be such a place of hot and cold. Being a creator and watching the algorithm drama does so well to me. I get so exhausted by it a little bit. I don't want to have to be doing something insane in order for it to like, reach new audience versus being comfortable in my skin, comfortable where I am loving the people who have already followed me, creating for the joy of it. It made me realize how cool people are that you don't know exist. There are people out there doing the coolest things you never see on the Internet. You speak into existence, the life that you want to create. Oh, I feel guilty and I'm not doing good enough and I'm not enough and no one thinks about this then like, that is the world that you're going to create for yourself. I even think I'm still working on that now on like speaking over myself and over, like the life that I'm living.

[Lemon7]

I know you have loud thoughts, if

[Anna Sitar]

only you could hear them.

[Brew]

You probably can if you get close enough to me.

[Anna Sitar]

Is that.

[Brew]

Yeah, no, they're loud.

[Lemon7]

I have some fun news to tell you.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay, I'm ready.

[Lemon7]

Okay.

[Podcast Host]

If your week is going anything like mine, let's just pause for a moment and take a deep breath in and out because I have been needing some breathing grounding techniques this week. But happy Wednesday. I'm so happy that you guys are here for another week. This episode I'm super excited about because Anna Sitar is back on the podcast. She was one of our first guests almost three, three years ago, which is like so crazy that I've even known her that long. She's become such a dear friend of mine. If you don't know who Anna is, she is a content creator, podcast host, and influencer best known for her extremely positive, storytelling driven content. And her brand really just stands out, I feel like, from a lot of other influencers because she's really rooted in intentional optimism, vulnerability, and making everyday life feel meaningful. Anna is such a light in my life, and I feel like every time I see her, I am so inspired to just live life and be creative and to take risks. She just has that energy about her that just draws you in and makes you want to be a better human. I can't wait for you guys to hear where she's at now. We compare in lemon7 her answers from 3 years ago to now. It's so special. And I also have a little surprise for her at the end of the episode.

[Anna Sitar]

Guys, why am I already excited for Christmas? That just, like, made me feel very

[Brew]

like you saying that. I was like, and is it almost October? Please say yes.

[Lemon7]

No, I know. I've been, like. I've been, like, stressing a little bit because it's, like, almost April. I feel like.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh.

[Lemon7]

Like, normally I feel like the year goes by quick, but I don't know exactly what happened this year. Like, I feel I'm. I feel like I'm behind, but I have nothing. I'm not behind.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, this is, like, the epitome of. I feel like, my mental health right now.

[Lemon7]

Okay, great.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

I love it.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, I feel like I'm, like, so stressed that I'm like, I don't know where the time went. Like, I finally. This is the first year, and I feel like Meg can attest this that I've, like, actually had downtime.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. And, like, that's it.

[Anna Sitar]

But it's made me feel so stagnant. Like, there was, like, the first week of it, I was like, oh, my God, rest. And now I'm like, I am so behind, and everyone else is prevailing, and I haven't done anything this year, and I'm falling apart, and I'm turning 29 and, like, what is my life? And, like, I've always, like, the last two years, I've, like, joked, I'm like, I'm in my incubator years. Like, my last years have been, like, my ideation years. And so I felt like this year was, like, my year. But then I look at April and I'm like, have I missed the whole year?

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Am I a failure?

[Lemon7]

I know. That's so real.

[Anna Sitar]

It's the worst.

[Lemon7]

I mean, what better way to welcome

[Anna Sitar]

you back to the.

[Brew]

Welcome back.

[Katie Duke]

It's.

[Lemon7]

We were just talking. It's been almost three years since you've been here.

[Anna Sitar]

That's so. That's, like, sad, but also crazy.

[Podcast Host]

I know.

[Anna Sitar]

And also, I feel honored to get to be back oh, that's like so you're welcome anytime. I feel like a serious regular, you know, like now I'm like, not a one timer.

[Brew]

I'm a two timer. Oh my gosh, that's wild. Look at you.

[Lemon7]

So we still start our episodes this time. Same.

[Anna Sitar]

We have a jar.

[Lemon7]

I love the jar got real. If you want to pull a piece

[Anna Sitar]

of paper anywhere from any of them.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, anywhere.

[Anna Sitar]

Do you have like a preference?

[Lemon7]

I saw.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like I like had a really strong intuition to this one.

[Lemon7]

Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

Let's see what she says.

[Brew]

Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, if you're.

[Brew]

Wow. Can I tell you something crazy?

[Anna Sitar]

My therapist asked me this yesterday. If your 16 year old self met you today, what would surprise them most? Oh, isn't that really great? She asked me like a reversal. She was like, I taught. I was talking about how much I'm like proud of a younger version of myself. And she's like, but do you think your younger version of yourself will be proud of you now? Like, do you think? And I'm kind of like in the moment. I was like, I don't know. I feel like she, she would think she could have always done it, but me sitting here now, I'm like, how the hell did she do it?

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

You know what would surprise them most, honestly? Probably just like my job.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Like what I do for work and maybe that like, I feel like I always liked being creative, but maybe like that I actually have the chance to like meet people every day around it. I think she'd be really excited about that.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

So.

[Lemon7]

Oh, I love that.

[Anna Sitar]

What about your 16 year old self?

[Lemon7]

Yeah, maybe the same. I feel like, I feel like I've recently found over the past like few months, like such a contentment in life. Love, which I think is like partial contentment. Partial me, like being stressed that I'm behind with stuff but like, just like where I'm at, like in life with my marriage, with my friends, like, it's just like everything just like feels so like great. Like it's just like I'm so like happy and fulfilled and like content with where I'm at. I love in life, which I think my younger self would be like happy with. Like.

[Podcast Host]

Yeah, there's just like so much peace

[Lemon7]

I feel in life.

[Anna Sitar]

It's hard to get there too. I feel like you never like know when that switch flips where you're like, okay, everything is actually like doing better and I'm feeling okay.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Podcast Host]

It's so true.

[Lemon7]

We were talking about going into our 29th years.

[Anna Sitar]

It's our 29th years birthday girls. Are you like Pisces then? You're not Aries, are you? Aries.

[Lemon7]

I'm a Pisces. Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

I'm an Aries.

[Lemon7]

Okay. Oh, when's the cut? When's the cutoff?

[Anna Sitar]

Do you. I think the 21st was so it just like switched. Yeah, I actually don't know because I don't really know that stuff.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, all I know is that I'm a Pisces.

[Anna Sitar]

All I know is that I'm a fire sign. That someone's like either shocks people or they're like, yeah, it makes sense. I get both.

[Lemon7]

I, I've actually never shocked someone.

[Anna Sitar]

You say Pisces, they go, yeah, yeah, yeah. I.

[Lemon7]

That's all, that's all I got. But how are you feeling going into the 29th year when this, this comes out next Wednesday?

[Brew]

Oh wait, it will have just my birthday.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, you'll be 29 when this comes.

[Anna Sitar]

It'll be April Fools. Should we try to fool everybody with something?

[Lemon7]

Oh,

[Brew]

that will come at the end of the episode. Stay tuned.

[Anna Sitar]

How will I be feeling? I feel funny enough. I like feel the same in terms of contentment. Like I feel like I'm, I'm looking forward to a lot of different things that are coming up in my life and just work related but for the first time I feel like I've started to find a balance this year with like work and my personal life. That's something I don't think I had whatsoever at the earlier stages of my twenties or especially when I first started growing online. Yeah, I feel like my brain was a hundred percent work, work, work all the time. That's the only way to stay relevant, the only way to stay in the know, in the mix. Being able to like be on the top of everyone's for you. And now in the last two years I would say I feel like as maybe in my world it feels like the social media space has slowed down. I feel like I've like reached my community. I can almost like just continue to enjoy what it is to create and not feel like I'm in this hamster wheel of having to grow and reach new audience and how am I reinventing myself over and over and over again? It's more of just like looking for little things every day that bring me joy.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, I actually feel that in your content. Like I feel like you're one of like the only people that like I don't feel like you're ever like reaching for something like with your content. Like I feel like, it's all like, just like all everything you're, like living out, but it's like, organically you.

[Anna Sitar]

Thanks. Yeah, I feel like, like, like I'm found to be like, comfort. Like I want to be like people's safe place. They can, like, come and feel like themselves or be inspired to do something new or encouraged to try something new, but not. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like the Internet can be such a place of hot and cold or like I truly like being a creator and watching the algorithm. I sometimes feel like drama does so well, and to me, I get so exhausted by it a little bit that it's like I don't want to have to be doing something like, insane in order for it to, like, reach new audience versus being comfortable in my skin, comfortable where I am loving the people who have already followed me. Creating things that bring them joy, creating things that bring me joy. Like just enjoying what I already have. I think, like, gratefulness, I think is something that I'm like, finally starting to, like, feel for it versus feeling this, like, sense where I have to be hustling all the time to be for sure at like the forefront or something.

[Lemon7]

How do you feel like your experience with burnout is because we kind of touched on it when you were here three years ago.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

About you.

[Brew]

I wonder what I said three years ago.

[Lemon7]

I know I should. I should have, like, I. Technically for the end of the episode. We have our same segment at the end.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, cute.

[Podcast Host]

I have your old answers.

[Lemon7]

We're gonna compare.

[Brew]

Okay. Wait. I'm so excited to hear.

[Anna Sitar]

Ok. That's so good to know transparently. Right now my burnout is kind of at an all time high.

[Lemon7]

Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like I'm like, in my. As much, I'm like, oh, my gosh, like not feeling like a minute. You have like. I feel like that comes in such waves. It's something that I remind myself of daily. But the act of actually, it's like when you can give really good advice, but you can't take your own. That's. That's who I am in a nutshell. That's me. And that's the advice I'm struggling to take. I think right now I just feel like. I don't know, I've like, tried to talk about it in therapy, honestly, and been like. I just feel like right now I don't a hundred percent know what I'm doing still. And I think three years ago I would have been like, oh, my God. No, I know exactly what I'm doing. I know my goal, I know my pipeline and I'm sticking in it. And right now I'm kind of having this almost decision paralysis where I just. There's so many options and I don't know how I've. I mean, like, the longevity of a lifestyle creator's career on average is nine months, which is kind of insane. Like, a lifestyle creator normally has like the expectancy of being like online and having like a really successful time of it for nine months. I'm at six years. And so, like, there comes a point where it's like, how many more stories can I tell? Like, what do I have to give, really? And I think that I've been struggling with that a little bit, that I have spent the last six years really giving, like into creating versus getting to live things firsthand. And I think I'm still a little bit stuck in feeding an algorithm and trying to still create content consistently. Because you take a day off, your videos will do bad, and then you feel like you're not doing a good enough job. And also, if I'm not creating my narrative in my brain is not that rest is a good thing. It's that I'm not working hard enough. And then it makes me more stressed about the day that I took off. So then I come back just trying to make even more to make up for the time that I lost. It's like a whole cycle that I feel like I'm putting myself through a little bit.

[Podcast Host]

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[Lemon7]

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[Podcast Host]

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[Lemon7]

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[Podcast Host]

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[Lemon7]

I relate to that actually like a lot with doing different things because that's kind of like I feel a lot of contentment in like life but career wise I kind of feel the same. Like there's like, there's so many different things that I like want to do and I know you're the same. Yeah, that I like like different things I want to try or like go into and like they don't even feel

[Anna Sitar]

like they're in the same wavelength either. So it also makes complicated where I'm like, am I spreading myself thin or am I wasting my time by not focusing my energy on one thing.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. No, and I don't know what. I don't really know what the answer.

[Anna Sitar]

What's a dream of yours? Like what's an extension dream of yours you have right now? Oh, if you can say.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, recently, randomly, I really have been wanting to get into the documentary film space.

[Anna Sitar]

Love.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

I was talking to Taylor about it because obviously I'm married to an actor,

[Anna Sitar]

so like he gets it a little bit.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, I'm like fully in. Well, actually my one dream is to be on the pit. I told Taylor that I have waiting because. No, you need to like actually so obsessed with the show.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like that's like me with Grey's Anatomy. Like if I've gone to audition once

[Brew]

for Grey's Anatomy and I'm still like, if somebody has a role, give it to me. I'll be the best dying girl you'll ever get.

[Lemon7]

No, I'm like, I'll be. I'll be the nurse that like says one thing that's just like it exits. Yeah, that's just like in the er, floating, like a cameo.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah, I feel like you could totally do that.

[Lemon7]

It's not, it's just.

[Podcast Host]

I know I can do it.

[Anna Sitar]

You could.

[Lemon7]

I could do it.

[Anna Sitar]

I love that.

[Lemon7]

And I know the. I know the lingo, so it'd be fine. That's definitely like a dream of mine, but one that I have no clue how to like get into or start is like the documentary space. Cuz I love. I think it's kind of like the podcast. Like I love like storytelling and like hearing people's stories and I love documentaries. So I've been talking with Taylor about like how to do that and he's like, I don't know, I'm not in that space. And I was like, okay, great help.

[Anna Sitar]

Well, that's what I think is kind of crazy is like I actually we were in San Clemente this past weekend because Bruce family comes when we're like on. They do like a snowboarding is what it's called. So you come from Michigan when it gets really cold there to like enjoy some warmer weather. And so they're in San Clemente right now for like a month to a month and a half and brew. And I went down to visit them and this is so random. This is what makes me think of this when like you're like, I don't know where to start. We went to this bar one night and when we walked in they were like, okay, it's a 10 entrance fee, which we're like, this is like a little beach bar. Like, why would it be $10 to come in? Like, oh, well, we're doing a screening tonight of like a surfing dock. We were like, oh, cool. Actually, you know what? Like, let's go then. Like, why not? This guy literally took over the bar, invited 40 of his friends, and screened his own doc that he made himself of his surfing journey. And, like, what it was, like, built, like, he built us like a fishing boat and then is also, like, a surfer. And so he did this doc of just, like, what boating and fishing and, like, being connected to the ocean means to him. Literally. Like, him and his two buddies got up. They were like, the three of us, the ones that made the film. It took us four months. Like, we just like, filmed and edited and colored and like, here's all the people who helped us. And then screened it at a bar with his friends. And I literally was watching it first off, he was surfing, like 20 foot waves casually. He built a boat from scratch. Like, it took them two months to build the boat. And he, like, built this, like, literally was like, pouring the resin and like,

[Brew]

building like, the actual chassis of the boat.

[Anna Sitar]

And one. It made me realize how cool people are that you don't know exist. Like, there are people out there doing the coolest things that, like, you never see on the Internet. Like, you don't even know that they're living their best life out there doing their thing. But also, like, gave me such an awareness for, like, creating for the joy of it. Like, he has no idea where that film is gonna end up. He just decided to make a 20 minute short with his buddies.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

And like, it's screening in a bar and he still created something. And that's so cool. I feel like that's so inspiring to, like, see that. It's like sometimes the first place to start is like, like, get together your friends and, like, do it.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Brew]

And I feel like that, like, when

[Anna Sitar]

I was saying, I was like, this is the craziest thing to be watching. And they did a beautiful job. They made jokes. They're like, none of us knew what we were doing. So if you think it's ugly, don't tell us. Like, they made a joke about it. It was beautiful. It was like, partially shot on Super 8. It was partially shot with, like, cinema camera. So.

[Podcast Host]

Wow.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like if you had, like, an idea for a doc, you literally could go do it. No, you're not.

[Brew]

Just like, how do I build a boat? Oh, gosh.

[Anna Sitar]

But so sweet. Yeah. I just feel like that's like, I. I always think the same thing where I'm like, oh my God. I don't know where to start. Like, I feel the same. Where a big dream is to be an actor. And I've been auditioning for three years and that definitely takes a toll. I feel like on the burnout a little bit where I'm like, okay, I'm still getting like, callbacks and I'm still getting moments of like, people want to see me, but then there's moments of like, you're too old or your voice is too mature or like, now you're too young. Like, I had an audition for like a 40 year old and I was like, okay, come on, 40. Maybe, maybe.

[Brew]

Like, I hope I look like this at 40,

[Anna Sitar]

but so like, you never know what you're getting. And that I feel like, can be tiring where it's like, you almost have to play into another system, like the. The casting system. But then my brain also goes like, then why aren't I writing my own thing?

[Lemon7]

Yeah. You know, that was so true. I feel like with acting too, with like, just how. With how much. I mean, so many of my friends are actors and with how much like, you're auditioning, like, it has to be like. Not that I feel like it needs to be like a side thing, but I think you can drink. I think. I think you have to have like

[Podcast Host]

two parallel dreams going on at the same time.

[Anna Sitar]

100.

[Lemon7]

Because if you're like, just so that the letdown of like having, you know, three years, that. That is like, everyone has that. Yeah, literally everyone has that.

[Anna Sitar]

Well, I think like two. This is a, like a huge side conversation in my brain. I don't know why I. Confidence. I'm like, I can do anything I put my mind to. Like, I've like, no, I don't know

[Brew]

if you feel the same way, but

[Anna Sitar]

like, I have, like, no, you do too. Okay.

[Lemon7]

Love.

[Brew]

Wait, girlies.

[Anna Sitar]

I have like the delusion. It's like, I will achieve whatever I put my mind. Like, I'm.

[Brew]

And you know what?

[Anna Sitar]

If I fail, watch me get back up and do it 10 times better the next time around. Yeah, but what's really interesting with this is I think I had that delusion going into acting with the assumption that, like, not that it would come quickly, but I think when I first started I was like, like, I'm. I have had so many roles that I'm like, this is my dream role and like, I'm getting it because it's meant for me. And Then when it doesn't, you're like, oh, that's like a little, like, sad and uncomfortable. And like, I'm not really crazy about that. I think other people experience this on so many different levels of social media. I like, saw as something where like, I. My social media is inspired by the life that I'm living. And so in my brain, when I even started acting, I was like, this is gonna be so cool to get to show behind the scenes of being on set and what it's like learning lines and meeting your co stars the first time. And when that dream takes a little bit longer, that means that, like, my social media took is like, has to be reinvented in different ways to where I'm almost like, trying to withstand the peacefulness of another dream. Like, they almost are weirdly connected to.

[Podcast Host]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

To where, like, it's like, if you wanted to be a creator and you were like, okay, I'm going to start making content and I'm going to quit my job in a year. But then you're not sustainable enough in content to be able to quit your job, then that means you have to stay at your job to, like, keep up the social media dream. And like, when that doesn't follow through, you're like, like, it makes the initial thing and not saying, like, I think maybe like, doing my life around an app is getting a little bit tiresome. Like, I'm definitely getting to a point where I'm like, cool, this is. I've been doing this for a long time and like, it definitely. It plays with your brain a little bit versus, like, the act of creating. I never get tired of.

[Podcast Host]

Yes.

[Anna Sitar]

But like, the act of feeding something that like, you really have no control over, that's getting a little, like, that's where I feel like I kind of struggle and I have those two dreams, like you said, like, going on at the same time where I would love to see one follow through. So that way it can almost alleviate maybe a little bit of the pressure that's on the social media one.

[Lemon7]

And I'm sure there's like a. Like you were saying, there's like this, like, not that it would make your content better, but it's like, content that you would be excited about to make because you haven't made that content before.

[Anna Sitar]

Totally. Like, it would, like, get me to think outside the box and think differently. I feel like I've had to, like, think about how to make content within the same ecosystem for a long time to where that's where even I get stressed out. That I'm like, am I boring? Am I stale?

[Podcast Host]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

I don't know. And then those thoughts are never fun and never easy.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, I don't think you are.

[Anna Sitar]

I think it's your thoughts. Thank you. I appreciate that.

[Lemon7]

I know. I know you have loud thoughts.

[Anna Sitar]

No. If only you could hear them.

[Brew]

You probably can. If you get close enough to me.

[Anna Sitar]

I'm like.

[Lemon7]

I'm like.

[Anna Sitar]

And she's like, anyway, is that.

[Brew]

Yeah, they're lying to her. Yeah.

[Lemon7]

Something we talked about when you had your podcast. I actually say this all the time.

[Anna Sitar]

I've.

[Lemon7]

I've actually said it, like, so much on this podcast, but also, like, doing interviews and things. You talked about how haters are. You view them as people just, like, wanting to be included.

[Brew]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

Can we talk about that? Because. Yeah, I actually can't tell you how much I use that and how much I, like, now view it as that. And I like my friends that are influencers. I love them. That advice. Like, when they are getting.

[Anna Sitar]

They just want to be included. Yeah.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

They're just like, I really genuinely believe that. It's like, whenever it's coming from someone, it's like they kind of just, like, looking for a way to, like, put their input somewhere because, like, they don't feel heard in other places. And also, this is kind of a crazy thing I thought about recently. I'm like, like, working on a project where I was just, like, un. Unloading this idea that when I was a kid, sometimes I thought that, like, the best way to get attention was to do it negatively. Like, sometimes, like, failing made everyone way more comforting than when you succeeded. Because we. When you succeeded, everyone's like, oh, yeah, I knew you had it in you. When you fail, everyone's like, oh, my God, it's gonna be okay and you're gonna try again. And suddenly you get, like, a different level of empathy then when you say succeed. Like, when you have, like, I don't know. So I feel like I grew up in a household where success was expectation. Like, straight A's were the minimum. Like, that was. That was what you're supposed to get. And so I kind of think that way, too. Whenever I see a mean comment is, I'm like, they think that this is the way to be, like, getting attention for it. If they're not getting other places than, like, yeah, either, like, bringing people to their level, but also, just, like, wanting to be included in the dialogue. And maybe they think that, like, thinking outside the box is the right way to do it. And even if that's like, from a negative way, because everyone else is being really positive. Yeah, I don't know.

[Lemon7]

We've talked about. Have you done the Enneagram?

[Anna Sitar]

Yes.

[Lemon7]

You're. I mean, you're definitely an achiever.

[Anna Sitar]

You're a 3W2 or 3W4. I get both sometimes when I take them on different days. You know, I don't know which one's it.

[Podcast Host]

Four is the creative, two's the helper.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay. I feel like the creative one comes, like, to my brain when I first think about it. But, yeah, maybe I'm a little.

[Brew]

I'm a help.

[Anna Sitar]

I would see that too.

[Lemon7]

Honestly, I definitely. Yeah, no, I definitely think you could swing either on both days. But have you learned? Because I think we talked about this three years ago. But having that achiever mindset. Some friends that are close to me have that same mindset. And they are literally just like replicas of you with. I think. I think it's partially, you know, maybe the environment of like, growing up with the expectation of that because everyone. And that was just like, what was expected. But also, I think it's, you know,

[Anna Sitar]

it's like, ingrained in you. Yeah, exactly. I think it's, like, part of our personality.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. How. How have you been able to, like, combat that with even. I mean, with work in general, but even, like, acting, for example, like, because you are such, like a. Yeah. How do you not take it personally?

[Anna Sitar]

I think, like, wait, I love this question. Because I do. I think about this all the time. I made this joke. We don't celebrate enough, like, in life. I feel that way about our achievements. I think I actually, as an achievement thing I've realized in the last year was that I don't celebrate when I achieve something at all. Like, there is not. Like. Like, last year I got. I had the honor of making the Forbes 30 under 30 list. I don't really know that I did anything to celebrate that. And that's a huge. I, like, have dreamed about that for years. And when it happened, I was like, slay. Moved on. And, like, my goals suddenly shifted the next thing versus, like, basking in the enjoyment of, like, the achievement that you just had. I think that's something that I've noticed in the last year that I'm, like, trying to be really cognitive of, if that's the right word, like, I. And that's why I think as an achiever, just seeing. Getting the audition, to me is already the first achievement. And, like, enjoying that, that's like, the first step. Getting the chance to Become another person and, like, enjoy understanding a new character. That's an achievement. When I feel really good about memorizing the lines, that's an achievement. Like taking the wins where you can get them. And I feel the same way. In, like, social media, I've tried to shift my brain from saying, I. It's not about my output, but the effort I put in that day, that's the achievement of the day. It's not that I made 45 videos. It's that I've. I've put in the effort to make something that I enjoyed. It's that I thought I was funny. It's that I, you know, had a new idea that I brought to life and not that I just let it sit and, like, fester and then never acted upon it.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

I think that seeing the little ones, which is why I joke, like, we don't celebrate birthdays enough. That's why I celebrate all month long. Because you only get 80 birthdays if you're lucky. Okay, maybe a few more if you're, like, super lucky. But, like, on average, I would say you get 80 birthdays that you remember. And so that's only 80 days. Like, that's not even, like, out of 365 in one year. Like, you're not even celebrating yourself for a full year of your entire life. You might as well celebrate the whole month. I'm just saying buy yourself what you want.

[Lemon7]

I'm like, can I retail this month?

[Brew]

You don't get, you know, like.

[Anna Sitar]

But also, you could say that your birthday month goes from the 16th, the next 16th.

[Brew]

So you could have till April 16th

[Lemon7]

be so over me. You would just be like, you're done.

[Anna Sitar]

But no, every time I made a decision this month, if it was like,

[Brew]

maybe not the most, like, financially safe

[Anna Sitar]

or whatever, I was just like, but it's my birthday. Oh, I want to get my nails done. Extra time. It's my birthday.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. You have to.

[Anna Sitar]

And you know what?

[Lemon7]

The little. It's. It's like a little joy romanticizing the little moments, like, really taking. I love that.

[Anna Sitar]

It's instilling whimsy.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, yeah. No, you. You need it. I love that. Just like, celebrating the little wins. Because you're right. Like, sometime. You know, some days are like. Like, I always look at it as, like, some days I'm, like, able to accomplish so much, and then other days it's like, okay, I did one load of laundry, and, like, and now it's

[Anna Sitar]

still sitting unfolded on my bed.

[Lemon7]

Yes.

[Brew]

And I'm gonna sleep Next to it tonight. Exactly.

[Anna Sitar]

Literally.

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[Lemon7]

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[Podcast Host]

Very curious to hear your answer here. How do you.

[Lemon7]

How do you incorporate rest and what does it look like?

[Anna Sitar]

Okay, I will say, I think, like, lately my rest has been. And I'm really loving this right now, especially, especially this month, I think because my boyfriend's parents are visiting and they're in a different part of the city, so it involves us driving down on the weekends to kind of go hang out with them is what I've been doing the last, like two or three Weeks I've been loving just like sitting on the beach and reading a book. Oh like that's like three hours of like. And to be honest, it's like way too bright outside that I can't even see my phone anyway. And then it kind of forces me to like not pick it up and I'm with everyone who I would need. You know, like if anybody needs me, they know where I am.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

But I'm not gonna like rest on the day to day. I like wish I could be someone and this thing that I'm hoping to do. I'm home alone this week while Brew is traveling. And so in the mornings when I wake up, I like like film the second I get out of bed, which I normally don't do. Like normally when he's home he has his like work routine. So he's home till 9am and then he goes to work for the day. Yeah. So I will save any working until he's gone because like I don't want to waste my time that I have with him for sure. But now that he's away, I actually feel like I work more because I'm like, I have no distractions.

[Podcast Host]

Yes.

[Anna Sitar]

Versus it's funny because he was like, oh, I hope you like are resting a lot while I'm gone and like kind of like laying low and you have no responsibility right now. Like we're, I'm relaxing.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like way less like I'm on my phone later at night, I'm like writing till late at night. I'm editing till late at night and then I wake up and the first thing I do is I'm like, okay, today's a good day to do a whole vlog.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Starting at 6am like it's so funny

[Lemon7]

cuz I, I, I feel the same way if Taylor recently he's been like golfing with friends or like he just got into playing like a video game with his friends which he like doesn't really do. And he like started in there like

[Brew]

wait, we're going to circle back to

[Anna Sitar]

video games after this and but tell me.

[Lemon7]

But it's nice because like I'm also like only child brain. So I like need alone time. But like he's out of the house for like four hours and I'm like, I'm like, oh, I can like do so much. But I'm like, he's not like we're not really like hanging out because we're

[Podcast Host]

but we're both home all day.

[Lemon7]

So like yeah, it's not like I could, couldn't do those things. But there's just something when like your partner's gone.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

It's like not like exciting but it's like, oh, I'm alone. I can like fill the space. I don't know what it is.

[Anna Sitar]

I don't know either. Like that's because I'm like suddenly I'm like, do I take myself out on dates this whole week? Like do I go?

[Lemon7]

Like literally just did on Monday I had some appointments down in the city and then I just like stayed and had lunch and Taylor was like, I'll see you at 7pm Yeah, I text him. I was like, it's so weird. Like I love being alone.

[Brew]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

And he was like, I don't know what's wrong with you, but I love it for you.

[Anna Sitar]

See, like the only thing is I am also someone though.

[Brew]

After I do something alone, I immediately call my boyfriend.

[Anna Sitar]

I'm like, like oh my God, you'll never guess what I did today.

[Brew]

And like I want to like yap like he's one of the girls after it.

[Anna Sitar]

But like during the moment itself I'm like this is kind of relaxing. Like this is nice.

[Lemon7]

It's so great. I literally just like raw dogged lunch and didn't like my phone. Like no headphones. I just like literally sat.

[Anna Sitar]

Sat and ate in silence.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, love, it was good. I just had a little breakfast burrito and a matcha and I sat. That's my dream outside. I. I didn't eat inside. There was two tables outside and I sat outside and just.

[Podcast Host]

It's a cute little morning.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like my morning has been walks like brew and I don't walk together right when we wake up. But right now I'm like waking up early and I go on a walk all like for an hour by myself.

[Lemon7]

Oh, that's good.

[Podcast Host]

What do you listen to?

[Anna Sitar]

Or okay, sometimes bo. I like switch between. Sometimes I'll just put headphones in but not play anything from them. I'm you know, like I'll put them in so it's like it looks like I'm listening to something but I'm not. I also feel like lately I've been like aware of being over stimulating myself. Like having I used to be someone who's like I had to have music on all the time. I like, I like when I'm doing my makeup will leave like my tick tock open and I'll like swipe in between. So like I'll listen to the same video like three or four Times like, while I'm, like, doing my blush or something, and I'll just, like, be swiping so I have something going all the time. And so I'm, like, kind of practicing not having anything, because random fun fact, I'm doing an Iron man this year, and you can't listen to music during your. Like, you can't put headphones in during the marathon. So, like, you have to run and bike for, like, 10 hours and you hear nothing. So I'm kind of slowly training my brain. Like, I just ran the LA marathon and New York marathon with no music.

[Podcast Host]

Wow.

[Anna Sitar]

To, like, you know.

[Podcast Host]

How was that?

[Anna Sitar]

That? Really nice. Really? Like, I could not recommend it more. I actually think it's. I prefer no music to listening to music.

[Podcast Host]

What's, like, what's the main thought you're thinking?

[Lemon7]

Is there a main thought? Like, how are you, like, motivating yourself? I don't run, so that's.

[Anna Sitar]

That's also so valid.

[Lemon7]

That's why I'm asking. I'm like, what. Like, what do you. I guess I sit inside.

[Anna Sitar]

I actually sometimes feel like when I'm working out, it's like the first time during the day that I have no thoughts. I love that, like, that movement is like, really? My brain is so present when I'm on a run. Like, truly, I'm thinking about, like, okay, how does my body feel? Like, I'm, like, checking. Like, how's my body feel? Okay, is this car gonna hit me when I'm crossing the road? Okay. Am I thirsty right now? No, I'm doing okay. Do I have to pee? No, I'm doing okay. Okay. No ankle, no shin pain, no knee pain, no hip pain. Okay. I'm a little tired. Okay. My heart rate's a little high. Like, you're so weirdly present because you're just, like, checking yourself a little bit while you're running. And, like, also, I think a big thing that I noticed during the marathons is I. I like my first. I've run four in the last year, and the first two, I listen to music and I think, like, I hit really weird, like, tunnel vision pockets where everyone talks about this thing called the wall during a marathon, or, like, where you bonk, which means you run out of energy, means you didn't take, like, your gels often enough, or like, you didn't stop for enough water, and your body pretty much, like, gives out out. But when you hit the wall, it's kind of like this mental thing where you're like, for a second like, oh, my God, can I do this? Like, am I capable of this? And I did not hit the wall on either of my last marathons. And I think it's literally because I, like, kept my eyes looking ahead of me and not looking at the ground in front of me. And that's such a silly thing to say, but, like, when I'm looking around, I'm reading signs, I'm giving high fives, I'm talking to the other runners. I'm like, oh, my God, the weather is so nice. Like, that's the first thing I go to. And I'm like, on a run and everything sucks. I'm like, like, okay, but I will also. This is actually the one thought I will say that I'm always thinking when I'm on a run and I start to hate it. I'm like, you, this is the only time you will ever experience this ever again, period. It will never be the same as what it is right now. And I kept thinking about, funny enough, during New York, I would just, like, there's a chance I never get a chance to run that marathon again. Because it's hard to get bibs to New York. And, like, for the first moment during the run when, like, something start hurting, I'm like, but I will only get to be here for four hours if I'm lucky. You know, Like, I will get four hours on this course, and then I'll never walk these streets the same way again.

[Podcast Host]

Wow.

[Anna Sitar]

So, like, that's. My brain is.

[Lemon7]

I love that. I was, like, literally so, like, locked in. I forgot we were, like, fully filming. I was, like, there.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, I was like, were you picturing being on the streets of LA during the marathon or the streets of New York?

[Lemon7]

I was, like, fully, like. I think it was more so. I was, like, imagining it was you and you were running, and I was, like, seeing you fun enough.

[Brew]

I was too.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, while I was telling that, I actually remember. Remember exactly when I had the moment. Sad enough, it's when I lost my camera. I was having that moment because I was. Oh, I lost my camera during the New York City Marathon, and I was slightly crap. Like, during. When I was like, brew, it's gone. Like, what do we get?

[Brew]

Do I.

[Anna Sitar]

Do I. Do I turn around, run back up the course? Like, a part of me considered that, but, like, the. The likeliness someone didn't already step on it was zero. You know what I mean? There's so many people. And so in that moment, I could either freak out and lose my phenomenal mental facing, or I accept that, like. Like, maybe this happened on purpose and I was meant to live in the moment. And. No, content wasn't meant to exist from this day. And what's crazy is I've never been more present during, like, I can see exactly the buildings of, like, that moment. When I had that realization, I was like, I got one more hour left in this run, and I'm not gonna, like, let it slip away. I'm gonna enjoy it. And then I went to the Bronx, and then I came back down, and then we entered Central park, and that was the biggest stupid hill I've ever seen in my life. And then I saw my family, and I yelled at them, asking for a cell phone.

[Brew]

And that is one thing that I do regret on that marathon.

[Anna Sitar]

The footage of it is. Is not hilarious.

[Brew]

It's so embarrassing because I had lot. Okay, hang on.

[Anna Sitar]

I am actually gonna yap out this for one second. I lost my camera, and as a content creator, my first brain is, oh, my God. I have no way to capture us crossing the finish line or getting our medals. And you kind of don't know what the end of a marathon looks like when it's over. You know, like, you don't know how long it is to see your family. You don't know who's gonna be there. So we're at Central Park. We are, like, one mile left, maybe, in the run, and I see my family on the side, and I've lost the camera. And my only thought is, I need to get someone's cell phone. Like, I need to. Someone needs to give me my. Someone has my phone, too. But mind you, because they're supposed to be filming on it for me during the day. I get there, I look at the lineup.

[Brew]

It's my dad's iPhone 12, my so and so's iPhone this.

[Anna Sitar]

And I literally, like, can someone give me a phone? And I was still, like, racing. I'm putting that in quotes because I'm not a fast runner, but in my brain, I was still trying to pr. So I'm like, yeah, I'm not thinking I can stop for 30 seconds to yap about this. I'm also thinking my legs are tired, and I want to. I want to get to the finish line and, like, survive this. I kid you not. I was like, someone give me a phone.

[Brew]

And then I just reached out and

[Anna Sitar]

grabbed whoever's was right in front of me and took it out of their

[Brew]

hands and took off running. And it's hilarious because it's. They were recording. Of course they were. Why weren't they? So the footage is me being like, help me. Grabs, it, runs, and, like, that's it. And I, of course, guess this one.

[Anna Sitar]

I took the only one.

[Brew]

I don't know the password to the

[Anna Sitar]

only phone I don't know because it

[Brew]

was Rachel's bruised little sister. And so then also, two of her cameras were broken. She was cracked into the camera. So only the 1x works, which is actually totally fine. But I was dying because then, like,

[Anna Sitar]

I'm looking at the phone, I'm like, this is. I picked the one phone I can't answer and, like, can't go in and, like, call my family after the marathon

[Brew]

because they don't have the password and neither does Brew.

[Anna Sitar]

And I was like, this is gonna be fine. And, you know, end up working. My sister ended up calling the number, and I recognized my sister's phone number, so I answered the call, and then that opened the phone and I got

[Brew]

the passport and we got a video

[Anna Sitar]

of us finishing, which is great. And, like, pictures at the finish line.

[Lemon7]

Oh, gosh.

[Brew]

I don't know if any of this

[Anna Sitar]

is really all that important, but it

[Brew]

just feels like a very core memory for that day. That I think is hilarious.

[Lemon7]

No, I definitely think it is. I mean, I also think that was maybe like, God, being like, you really don't need the phone.

[Anna Sitar]

No, it really could have been like. It was such, like a. Like a moment of just being, like, live presently.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Stop being so dramatic. Stop worrying about, like, did you get the video? Did you get the moment? And to be honest, that, like. Yeah, I think it was, like, a moment of just realizing that it wasn't. It wasn't that deep and it was, like, meant to be enjoyed in person. Yeah, that was cute.

[Lemon7]

Going into this 29th year, what is something that you are still trying to figure out that you don't have the answer to yet?

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, I still think I sit on this question of purpose a little bit. I just made a tick tock talking about that idea of, like, maybe the purpose is just to exist and, like, make a difference in the way that you can in your community or in, like, the way you're living or for the people around you. But I think I'm trying to, like, still understand also maybe, like, what my calling is, you know?

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, I really do think, like, some people feel like, for. Some people feel so called to, like, for example, motherhood. Like, some people are like, oh, my God, that's, like, what I'm supposed to be doing. Or, like, I have so many friends who Are teachers who are like, oh, yeah, my calling was, like, teaching or, like, being a doctor or, like, working in this way. Sometimes I feel like the things that bring me joy or the things that I feel like I'm good at or, like, connecting to are, like, in that same way, just, like, so general that I, like, don't actually know how to take all of that and put it into something that matters.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, that's good. I feel that. So I feel that a lot.

[Anna Sitar]

I think that feels like an unanswered question a bit.

[Lemon7]

Is there any.

[Podcast Host]

I know you can't share too many

[Lemon7]

things, but is there anything exciting coming up that you want to tease or.

[Anna Sitar]

I always wonder how, like, how I

[Brew]

properly talk about all things.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay. For sure, one thing is happening this year, which I'm really excited about. I have a collaboration that I've had in the past, but in a higher level, which is exciting. So that will be happening this year. And that's been in the works for probably already six months already, at least. And I'm really excited. Just, like, another way to be creative. And I feel like I get to be a creative director in a different way a little bit and design and play with color and play with feeling and kind of just get something to my community that's going to hopefully make them feel really beautiful and empowered and excited and refreshed. So that's coming up within this year. And then a year from now, we have, like, a big, big project that I'm working on that I have been working on for already. Probably the same amount of six months again, at least. But it's been kind of like in the. In the incubator period for, like, two years. And so I finally just started working on it.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

And I just. I feel like when I had. Talking about the idea of purpose, I had, like, this series for a while called Anna's Guide to Feeling Better After a Breakup that I think gave me a lot of lessons, even in my own life that I didn't realize I needed to learn. And I almost feel like a year from now I'm going to be entering into my 30s. And so I just wanted to, like, create something that was sort of like a love letter to my 20s. 20s and, like, a way to, like, not only, like, share the ways that what I've learned about life and what I've learned about myself, but, like, also give people the chance to rediscover and, like, fall in love with their life again, too.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

So sweet.

[Podcast Host]

Exciting. Well, I guess we'll have to have you back?

[Brew]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

I guess in a year from now.

[Brew]

We're gonna have to check back in once those.

[Lemon7]

Once we can talk about this.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah, we can sit down together and have another, like, birthday episode of, like, us both talking about our 30s. We'll do the weekend in between us. That way it's when you have just turned and you tell me everything you Learned about turning 30 before I do.

[Lemon7]

Okay, Wait, I'm actually gonna, like, put this in the calendar.

[Anna Sitar]

One, two, three, Break.

[Podcast Host]

Break.

[Lemon7]

I'm putting it in the calendar. Okay, Lemon. Seven. This is our last little segment.

[Anna Sitar]

This is the questions that we're gonna compare to what I've answered before. Oh, I'm so excited about this part. I've been like, how do I get comfortable?

[Lemon7]

Okay.

[Brew]

In the jeans.

[Lemon7]

I know. Everywhere. Yes. So when you were here last, it was 11 questions. Now it's seven. Because Gayle King said that that 11

[Podcast Host]

questions is too long.

[Lemon7]

It needs to be less than 10. And I said, yes, ma', am. Make it seven.

[Anna Sitar]

And you know what?

[Lemon7]

Literally that was.

[Anna Sitar]

And seven's a good number.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. Okay, so I'm going to read the question, you give me your answer, and then I'll tell you what I said before.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, gosh. Okay, okay, okay.

[Lemon7]

Okay. What movie or song title best describes your mental health today?

[Anna Sitar]

My mental health today. Do. Do you want to sing? Horrible. The first song that came to mind is the Visitor by Sienna Spyro.

[Lemon7]

Oh, I don't know.

[Brew]

Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

Sad ass song. Lol.

[Brew]

Terribly sad. That's like the first song I thought of. And it's like, about, like, your love being one sided. Why is that?

[Anna Sitar]

The person can wine. Okay, so I.

[Brew]

What did I say a year ago? No, it's gonna seem so happy. It is so happy. Okay, I'm ready.

[Anna Sitar]

That one.

[Lemon7]

But you can. You can pick. It doesn't need to be the first.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay.

[Lemon7]

If you don't feel it's applicable.

[Anna Sitar]

Honestly. Aperture.

[Podcast Host]

Oh, that's good.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, I feel like I just gotta, like, let the light in a little bit. Yeah, like that. That. That actually is a very accurate one.

[Podcast Host]

I like that.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay, deal.

[Lemon7]

Your answer is Pocket full of sunshine. Oh,

[Anna Sitar]

I don't know if I've listened to that song since the last time

[Brew]

we had this interview. Not being like, okay, period. Am I on a decline? Do we need to have a graph? Can I have a graph right here? This is my mental health right now. Over three years. Y. Exactly.

[Lemon7]

Okay. How open are you with people in your life when struggling?

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, I literally, I think the reason I got five phone Calls during this is because on the way here, I called all five members of my family and they were all calling me back because no one picked up. Like, who? Why does no one care? Yeah, but they probably just thought I was calling TF because I also do that daily. So. Yeah, I'm very open. I feel like.

[Podcast Host]

Yeah, you said toxically open.

[Brew]

Yeah, no, and that's exact.

[Anna Sitar]

And you know what? Some things never change.

[Lemon7]

Some things never change. Song choices, maybe. How we share things.

[Brew]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

Okay, this next one wasn't a question then. Okay, so we're gonna get a fresh answer, and then.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, love. And then when we come back a year from now, we're gonna check it.

[Lemon7]

Okay, if you could only follow three social media accounts, what would they be?

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, oh, oh, oh. Okay. This also might involve me pulling out my phone to check. Hang on.

[Lemon7]

Allow it.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay. Number one, Brew on the radio. Number two, Tay Lautner. And then number three. Okay, also. Wait, another.

[Brew]

I'm just gonna, like, start yapping about

[Anna Sitar]

people that I love. I love this creator. Her name's Jade's Wild Party. Okay. She does, like skincare and beauty, but it's just like, first off, she's beautiful, and then second off, I feel like her hair tutorials are luxurious. And so if you haven't seen her, that's a great person to look up. Who else do I love watching? I also love Monet McMichael.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

I just always love her. I think she might be on, like, a little social hiatus. And I was literally gonna text this morning, be like, girl, where are you at? Because I love watching her videos.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

So, okay, Tay, Jade, and Monet, period. Those are my three Sounding good and brew honorarily. Because, I mean, like, it doesn't really count because it's a boy, but whatever, it's fine.

[Lemon7]

What is your favorite form of self care?

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, as of right now, reading. Yeah, I love reading. Like, I'm like, into my little fairy tale books. And I love a Kindle. I do. I do have a Kindle.

[Lemon7]

I just got one.

[Anna Sitar]

One.

[Lemon7]

And I'm. I'm gonna make myself a book girly.

[Anna Sitar]

Yes.

[Lemon7]

My problem is I'm just like a self help reading book girly.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay?

[Lemon7]

Like, I don't. I've never read fiction for fun.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay.

[Lemon7]

I'm reading. I'm also with Matthew McConaughey's book and I'm.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, I've heard it's amazing. I've heard it's really good.

[Lemon7]

I'm obsessed with it. It's so good. And then after I Was like, okay, I'm gonna actually like do like a fictional book.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like I was the same. I was like a self help girly from like through college into like, like beginning of social media, like living in la, all that. And then someone told me I had to read Aatar. And actually, you know, before that. I know like hot take when Colleen Hoover was like what everyone was talking about for a minute. It ends with us was like the book that everyone was talking about before the movie had come out. Yeah, I did read that and that kind of like sparked my like interest in reading romance again. But then everyone's like, oh my God, but AAR is so good. And I was like, I'm not a fantasy person. I like have never read the truly. Last book I read was Twilight. Like so like I'm not.

[Lemon7]

That was. That was the last fictional book I read.

[Anna Sitar]

No, same I like, I did.

[Brew]

I read that.

[Anna Sitar]

I went and I ate and I'm satisfied.

[Lemon7]

I was thinking about rereading them though.

[Anna Sitar]

I feel like they were.

[Lemon7]

I haven't read them since I was

[Anna Sitar]

young, but they were like a pivotal moment that I remember of like eighth grade.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

When I beginning of high school, my

[Lemon7]

mom didn't let me read the fourth

[Anna Sitar]

book because they, because something was they like have sex or something.

[Lemon7]

Right. Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay.

[Lemon7]

Yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

No, I wasn't laundry. That one either.

[Lemon7]

Fornicate their love after their marriage.

[Anna Sitar]

Fornicate. Okay. Because that's criminal.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. But I remember my mom had let me. I was allowed to read the first three and I remember when she let me read the fourth one.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh. But I was like pivotal growth moment.

[Lemon7]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

No, I think I would, I would

[Lemon7]

want to read them again.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah, I like love. I kind of went down the rabbit hole then where I did Acotar, Throne of Glass and I'm on fourth wing and truly, I don't know if I have like more of an appreciation for fourth wing because I read the other two first or if they're like, the order matters. You have to read fourth wing.

[Podcast Host]

Okay.

[Anna Sitar]

Like, I'm kind of addicted to that one person. The first book was just so good. I also don't know how my baby.

[Lemon7]

No, they're good.

[Anna Sitar]

Thank you.

[Lemon7]

I feel like they could be any direction and they. They're cut. Very nice.

[Anna Sitar]

Thank you. Whoever does your hair, Bradley.

[Lemon7]

He does a really good job.

[Anna Sitar]

Love you, Bradley.

[Lemon7]

I've been admiring them. Your answer was normally a piping hot shower.

[Podcast Host]

Also a yoga moment.

[Anna Sitar]

Oh, I do love a yoga moment too. I haven't done yoga In a long time. I should probably bring that back. If my mental health was pocket of sunshine, I was doing yoga.

[Brew]

I gotta switch it up.

[Anna Sitar]

I will say also, Pilates, please.

[Lemon7]

Yeah. The blood's gotta flow. Yeah. Number six is who's had the most positive impact on your mental health.

[Anna Sitar]

Mr. Brew, on the radio. Yeah.

[Lemon7]

You said your mom.

[Anna Sitar]

My mom. Her too, yeah.

[Lemon7]

Last question.

[Podcast Host]

If you could go back to one moment in your life, what moment would that be, and what would you say to yourself?

[Anna Sitar]

I think there was, like, a. A part of me. Maybe like, three years ago. There's. Yes. Okay. Like, three years ago or so. I, like, remember I was in, like, a really difficult place where I was fighting that, like, feeling probably, like, honestly, within, like, six or eight months after the podcast kind of energy, like, last time I came on where I was just, like, fighting this feeling of relevancy and, like, just not knowing what I was doing. And I think, like, I, I. I had had this moment where I felt, like, all my best days I had already lived. And that, like, really scared me. Like, I had, like, I said, like, this really, like, sad, sad, truly sad moment with, like, I remember taking. Going out to dinner with my sister and saying that to her, where I was like, I just don't know, like, really what I have to look forward to. I feel like I've already lived my best days and, like, being on the Internet gave me so many, like, perks. Sorry. I feel like I'm an emotional. So many, like, perks and advantages and, like, things that I would have never expected that I would get to experience before. And then, like, suddenly it gets a little bit quiet and you're like, oh, it's like, that's it. Like, I've done it. And, like, I did the thing that I was never thought I'd be able to do. I followed the dreams I never thought I'd be able to follow. I, like, had all these, like, I met the. The incredible boyfriend. Like, everything was, like, almost too good. That I feel like I wasn't, like, fighting a battle anymore. That, like, the battle became, like, the one in my own head about, like, what I deserved or, like, feeling guilty about having success and not knowing what to do with it, or, like, like, yeah, just like, this feeling of, like, also, like, a feeling of guilt that, like, if everything were to end tomorrow, like, that I let it slip through my fingers and it was suddenly my fault. And I think that, like, I would want to go truly, just, like, hug her and, like, tell her that, like, that's not true. One that, like, there are so, like, you can create. Not only is there so much more life for you to live, but, like, you. You speak into existence the life that you want to create. Like, if you're constantly sitting in this feeling of, like, oh, I feel guilty and I'm not doing good enough and I'm not enough, and no one thinks about this, and I don't think about this, and I' important, then, like, that is the world that you're going to create for yourself. And, like, I even think I'm still working on that now on, like, speaking good over myself and over, like, the life that I'm living versus, like, allowing myself to fall into tangents of feeling comparative or jealous or stressed or what am I doing or am I making enough and all those things. I think I would just, like, want to go, like, hug her until everything's gonna be okay. Yeah.

[Lemon7]

I just love you. I adore you very much.

[Anna Sitar]

No, I adore you.

[Lemon7]

Your answer was that there was a

[Podcast Host]

huge fork in the road moment between your career and life.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah.

[Lemon7]

You were deciding to go back to school and you wanted to go hug her and tell her that. It might feel a little selfish in the moment, but choosing to come out to LA and get your masters was

[Podcast Host]

such a changing point.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah, that's exactly what I thought I would have said, because that's, like, I still remember that moment of, like. Like, yeah, just, like, choosing to. Whether or not I was gonna stay in engineering or become kind of like an artist, I guess, technically speaking.

[Lemon7]

But, yeah.

[Anna Sitar]

Yeah, I love it.

[Lemon7]

Well, I love you. And I have been waiting the past, like, hour and a half to tell you this. I have some fun news to tell you.

[Anna Sitar]

Okay. I'm ready.

[Podcast Host]

I'm pregnant.

[Anna Sitar]

And you're telling me this now on the podcast?

[Brew]

Does that.

[Anna Sitar]

Who else knows? Wait, stop.

[Lemon7]

We're announcing it this coming week, so it'll be out.

[Anna Sitar]

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