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Zibby here. If you are looking to add another bookish podcast to your listening queue, I have the perfect recommendation. First Draft the Dialogue on Writing Hosted by Mitzi Rapkin, First Draft goes deep with writers about the themes of their books, the creative process, and what it means to be alive in the world today. Each episode features the guest reading, a passage that influenced them, and a challenging excerpt from their own work. Plus, they all answer the same five closing questions including how do you handle rejection? With more than 500 in depth author interviews ranging in background and genre, First Draft is a celebration of creative writing and the individuals who are dedicated to bringing their carefully chosen words to print. Be sure to follow first the dialogue on Writing wherever you are. Listening now. Today's episode is sponsored by Nutrafol. Do you ever worry about your hair? I was convinced that my hair had gotten a little bit thinner once I reached a certain age, which had me in a complete panic. So I started taking Nutrafol and it helped. Nutrafol is the number one dermatologist recommended hair growth supplement and the number one hair growth supplement brand personally used by dermatologist. Nutrafol offers multiple formulas for men and women tailored to different life stages like postpartum or menopause and lifestyle factors. For all of you who abide by a plant based diet, I do not. Adding Nutrafol to your daily routine is easy. You just order online, no prescription needed. You get automated deliveries and free shipping to keep you on track. Plus, with a Nutrafol subscription you can save 20% and get added perks to support your hair health journey. You just take four supplements a day and you'll be on your way. Let your hair be one less thing to worry about. See visibly thicker, stronger, faster Growing hair in three to six months with Nutrafol. And for a limited time, Nutrafol is offering our listeners $10 off your first month subscription and free shipping when you visit nutrafol.com and enter promo code ZIBBY. That's nutrafol.com sp spelled n u t r a f o l.com promo code ZIBBY Go do it. Hi, this is Zibby Owens and You're listening to Totally Booked with Zibby, formerly Moms don't have Time to Read Books. In my daily show, I interview today's latest best selling, buzziest or underrated authors and story creators whose work I think is worth your time. As a bookstore owner, publisher, author and obviously podcaster, I get a comprehensive look at everything that's coming out and spend my time curating the best books so you don't have to stay in the know, get insider insights and connect with guests like I do every single day. For more information, go to zibbymedia.com and follow me on Instagram ibbeowens Deborah Goodrich Royce is back on the podcast to talk about Best Boy. She has been on several times. Her novel Ruby Falls won the Zibby Award for Best plot twist when I was doing those. Finding Mrs. Ford was hailed by Forbes and Good Morning America as a top read and actually I just saw that has been optioned and has a big deal star attached, but I'll let her reveal all that when she wants. She also owns the Ocean House in Watch Hill, Rhode island where I've done many events and stayed many times. I'm obsessed with it there. She runs her own event series and has some really exciting guests coming up this summer, which we talk about in the episode. She used to be a soap opera star on All My Children, so you can listen to this and then listen to Susan Lucci's episode, which I released. And she also owns the Avon Theater, Deer Mountain Inn, United Theater, Martin House Books and other revitalization projects. She is a class act. Welcome Deborah. Thanks so much for coming back on Totally Booked to talk about Best A Novel. Congratulations.
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Thank you. It is always a pleasure to talk with you.
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It's so funny, Deborah, because I've talked to you about some of the stuff that's happened in the book in person over the years and then to see it all like in final form here and knowing that that's what happened to your house and when that robbery and just all these little it's and bits of your life. Anyway, it was kind of neat to see it all collected here in the story.
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Well, it's a funny thing. I think all fiction writers draw from life and how much do we draw? I don't think it's ever autobiography, but we use. Yeah, of course that's what we have.
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Yeah. No, but it was great. It was like getting a hug in the middle of the book or something, you know, like being a familiar friend. Okay, let's back up. Tell listeners What Best Boy is about.
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So Best Boy is about a woman named Vivica Stevenson who is exerting kind of a white knuckle grip of control over a life she is created. She lives in a very nice suburb, Greenwich, Connecticut. She has a very nice husband and a very nice son and very nice friends. And she's holding onto it very tightly. And a couple of things happen early on. There's a home invasion and a robbery, and then a letter comes into her mailbox, a letter that's been dropped there from someone who claims to have known her in the past. She's a former actress. The term best boy is a real job on a movie set. He claims to have been the best boy in a film. She did. And she can't remember him. She has a flawed memory anyway for a couple of reasons. She had a big trauma when she was a teenager, and you start to toggle back and forth to see if this man who's writing the letter is telling the truth, and if he's not what it is he wants.
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So interesting. And I know from our prior conversations as well that. That you were an actress also, and that you got an email like this, didn't you, from someone who was on a cast or something.
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Yeah, the guy who said exactly that I was your best boy on Survival Game. Survival Game is a movie I did, not one of my better films. And I didn't remember the guy. And he had very specific touch points in our life. Our life. You know, like there was an hour to it about some Thanksgiving dinner we had together. And then he said, we ran into each other at the Cannes Film Festival where I was holding a baby. And he wondered for a moment if the child was mine, which was kind of, you know, shocking. I had been at the Cannes Film Festival that year. I did have a little baby. I was with my husband at the time, he did go on to say. But I knew that that wasn't possible. So that was, you know, a few big. But I got to thinking, how many times does that happen in your life where someone sees you and says, remember in college when you did this? And the most unsettling thing about it is they're remembering your actions or your words that you don't necessarily remember. And it got me thinking about memory and how flawed it is. It got me thinking about this film called Rashomon, which is a Japanese film from 1950, Akira Kurosawa. A rape occurs in a forest. There are three eyewitnesses come to the trial. They've seen three completely different things. So I think that's life. So that's really the un underpinning of the book, that examination of memory. But then there's another part that has to do with it, the thing that happened to her in high school. She is a victim of an assault that she doesn't remember. So the memory plays in there. And she carries a tremendous amount of guilt and responsibility over things that happened afterwards. I don't want to say too much about that. And you know, we are responsible for our actions, we are responsible for our words. And yet are there mitigating circumstances? So a lot of questions around that.
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Interesting. Well, I like how you structured it so we don't find out till later everything exactly that had happened in the beginning. And really all you know is she's essentially running from her past.
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Right.
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Because she starts with a new name and identity and some plastic surgery. I don't think I'm giving too much away. It was pretty early.
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No, that's known early on. Her face is damaged in this thing that happens to her and her vocal cords are damaged. And that's one of the ways she is able to reinvent herself as an actress. I think I often still get recognized for my voice. The voice is an interesting thing, whether it's cadence or tone. But if your voice changes, what about you is the same or different?
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Wow. So interesting. When someone goes through something this terrible, you have to wonder, how do they make sense of that? And in the book you have the migraines, the ocular migraines that she has start even before and perhaps during what ends up happening. Perhaps alcohol is an exacerbating factor. But when she goes into one of these migraine moments, she doesn't remember anything. Does this actually happen? Has this. Do you know? Tell me about that.
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Yeah, it's very brief. Those, like mental fogs are not long. I do suffer well more in my youth. One of the benefits of aging I can give a post menopause testimonial. I do not have migraines like I did for all those decades between being a teenager and being in my mid-50s. The ocular migraine is the weirdest thing because I would be looking at you and suddenly it's like a scrim appears in the middle of what I'm seeing. This weird hazed out scrim and then the lights. It'll be interesting to hear when other people read it if their experience is the same. I have not had those momentary blackouts, but people do sometimes from just the severity of the pain and whatever else is going on.
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I've had one ocular migraine, and it is bizarre. It is totally bizarre.
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Well, you think you're. You have a brain tumor the first time it happens. It's so weird.
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Yeah. I didn't know how. I was like, how do you escape what you see? Right. Because I was like, how do you get out of it? But it's like you can't get out of it because.
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And it lasts. For me, it always lasted about 15 minutes, like clockwork. And once I relaxed with that. That was very helpful.
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Yeah. Once I knew what it was, I went to urgent care, and I was like, oh, it's a migraine. Okay. I can handle that. I think once you know what anything is, you can relax a little bit, right?
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Yeah, I think so.
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Well, let's talk about her current life. Vivica, whose real name is not Vivica. In her current life, she is a mom. She's totally put together. She's dealing with the other moms about the volunteer work, and she's just doing all the right things. And yet carrying around the secret and also having her marriage seem to be totally great. And who knows what is really going on beneath the surface, which I feel like is another through line of the story. Talk a little bit about how appearances essentially can be deceiving, because I feel like that's one of the things that she has masked the pain and puts forward this very together picture. And yet you don't really ever know what's going on with people.
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Right? You don't. I mean, it starts with her as a girl. She has a somewhat unhappy family life. She goes to this museum in Detroit, the Detroit Historical Museum, that has this cool exhibit that still exists down in the basement. It's called the Streets of Old Detroit. And it's really amazing because it's very dark and there are yellow lamp lights and little storefronts and cobblestone streets. And for her as a girl, there's something about it where she feels kind of safe and removed from her own life. When I first moved to New York, I was so alone, so lonely. I was a young aspiring actress before I'd booked All My Children. And I would go True Confession to Macy's department store on 34th Street. And I would walk the floors, just walk the floors. I wasn't buying anything, but there's something about. About being in certain spaces. It's different now with cell phones and everything, but back in the day, prior to all that, there was a sensation that you could, for a time, just leave the real world. So that is what she seeks. She creates shadow boxes. That's another way of her kind of controlling an image of reality. She has this dollhouse when she's an adult, which is a continuation of the shadow boxes and these worlds that she's trying to create. So like I said, she's a little bit white, knuckling her sense of well being.
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I know you host such an amazing book series at the Ocean House every summer, but I think you should maybe consider having Marie Benedict because she just wrote a book called Daughters of Egypt and you have a whole piece about Egypt and Tutankhamun and all of that in here, which I think dovetails with her historical novel about it. Just saying.
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I'm interviewing her March 31st.
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Well, there you go.
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Okay, not at the Ocean House because the Ocean House is having a complete room renovation, which is very exciting, which is a periodic thing in five star hotels, but at the United Theater in conjunction with the same bookstore, Martin House Books. So I'm reading it now. I'm really psyched to interview her.
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Visit Wells Fargo.com autographjourney Terms apply. What are some of the things you want readers to take away, aside from having a very entertaining read? Because it really was, and there were a lot of twists and turns and things I didn't see coming and just I really wanted to get to the bottom of the story. Like I just had to know.
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I guess. I write about trauma in a way. In all my books, I've done a little pivot more to a different thing going on with a couple of things I'm working on. But that's not what we're talking about now. So how do we cope with trauma? What do we carry forward? There's generational trauma, for sure, in large populations, in small family groups, but there's also conferred trauma. You know, things that happen to us, things that happen to our loved ones, all those levels of trauma. What do we do with it? Because I think in life it's probably unavoidable. I mean, obviously there's a different degree of what people go through, but how do we cope? How do we go on? How do we make sense of it? Particularly if we feel that we played a part in an unraveling.
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Yeah, this notion of regret, friendship, loyalties, memory. There are a lot of big topics here. Wait, so you teased what you're working on now? What are you working on now?
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I'm writing a ghost story. My mom died two years ago and my mom was a real spark of life, as I sense your mother is. Zibby, I'm loving these little videos you're posting with your mom. It really touches me because your mom seems like she's got that spark and my mother had it and I miss that. And after she died, I got this idea of kind of this mother daughter ghost story. I don't want to say too much about it, but it's funny and it's really more of a cozy. I mean, there's tension and there's a mystery and there's danger. But the relationship I want between the mother and the daughter is more like Terms of endearment with Shirley MacLeod.
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Oh, my God.
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Love. And Deborah Winger. So that's the mother daughter relationship. The daughter is 55 years old, she's a writer. She's had writer's block. Turns out her mom used to hash out ideas with her. The mom dies, she's there to clean up her house, and the mother comes through to her, and of course she doesn't believe it. So it's a little bit like Terms of Endearment meets the ghost in Mrs. Muir.
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Very interesting.
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Love that.
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Love that pitch. And what would you say? What meets what for? Best boy?
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Oh, best boy is. I would put it more in thinking about, like, Hitchcock's Vertigo, if you've seen Vertigo lately. Jimmy Stewart, Kim Novak. But also notorious because the woman's more questionable and notorious. Maybe more notorious.
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Interesting. Love it. Do you ever miss acting these days? Do you ever miss it?
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I do not. I feel like I can say more what I want to say and what I need to say through writing. And I feel like I'm at an age and stage where it's really all about doing what I'm called to do. I mean, that's a luxury. We don't all have that luxury. But for me, it's very meaningful, too. Even like that little how I get ideas for books and what I start writing. That's a huge part of the joy in it.
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And you support other authors so much with your series, and, I mean, you're just like such an advocate and a fabulous interviewer, by the way, as well. Tell me about the joy that that brings you.
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It's. It was such, you know, there's always kind of an unintended, to say unintended consequence. Sounds like something bad. This is an unintended, happy consequence of being a writer. So being an actress when I was young, and I was only an actress when I was young, really in my early 20s to early 30s, it felt more like a zero sum game. There's a part. I'm going to get it or you're going to get it. We're not both going to get it. And I certainly made and retained actress friends, but it was a very different feeling and also an utter lack of control. I'm not saying we have total control as writers. I'm not implying that. However, being able to start the Ocean House Author series and continue it and it just keeps growing, has enabled me to build this relationship with other writers, as I see that you started doing before I did, and you've done it in a much larger scale. It's very fulfilling. And then a couple of years ago, I was talking with a couple of other writers, and we were longing for a retreat. Not a retreat where you have to workshop or teach or speak or do anything, just writing. But we didn't want to do it like, you know, McDowell or Yaddo, where people apply. We didn't want to have to judge other people's work. So we started the Deer Mountain Writers Retreat. And we're about to do our fifth cohort. And it's a solid week of writing and then lovely dinners and wine. And it's up in the mountains in the Catskills, and everybody comes out a little different from when they entered. They've accomplished something, whatever it is, and everybody shared their frustrations in the evening, because everybody has frustrations in this business. And it's a very out of the limelight, off the grid, meaningful week.
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I love that. So creative, really fun. And I think the community that authors bring each other is one of the saving graces of sort of a lonely pursuit. Right? You have to just be with your brain and your keyboard. And writers, of course, are, for the most part, so supportive of each other, like you said. So it's nice to have that touch base.
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They are. They are. And you're. You're at the pinnacle there. Ms. Zibby.
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Stop, stop, stop.
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Writer supporter.
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With all of the trauma that you write about, where does it come from? Do you have a traumatic memory or series of things? Did anything like this happen to you? Is that your real nose
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now?
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This is my real nose. I mean, who knows what else is real? But the nose is. So childhood is psychedelic. And I am quoting my friend Ileana when I say that. Don't you find childhood is totally psychedelic? The adult world is so weird. Things come out of nowhere. I think about, I had a much older father, much younger mother. My mother was my dad's third wife. I don't know why this never occurred to me. When I was about 12, I'm starting to scratch my cousin Vincent, we were playing in the backyard. He said, yeah, well, you have a brother you don't know about. I said, I do not. He said, yes, you do. Guess what? This brother was older than my mother. A child from my dad's first marriage. He and his wife were kind of scandalized by my parents. So in the grand old tradition, my Parents thought we just won't mention it. So that was crazy. Yeah. My mother's best friend was murdered when my mother was a child. That's where I talk about generational trauma, trauma and conferred trauma. I think when something like that happens, you are changed in what you consider as being possible. A normal 12 year old child has a range of possibilities. And suddenly your best friend is so violently murdered at home, you don't think the same way, you don't expect the same things to come in life. So I mean, I could name some things like that. I would say probably my mother's friend's murder was one of. Because I had this awareness of it. And when people would say, oh, the world is so much more dangerous than it ever was. And I think about World War II or on a personal level, my mother's friend, I mean, there were terrible things going on. Yeah.
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I think maybe just the fact that every time you open your phone now you have to watch another one makes it feel like there are more.
C
Well, that is exactly right. We are inundated with these news slash non news chatter cycles about everything. And some of it can be entertaining, whether you're googling what happened at the wedding dance at the Beckham wedding, which the Internet memes were rather hilarious about that. Not for them, I'm sure, but for Outsiders or Bad Bunny and who Liked and who didn't or the Epstein Quagmire. And it there's what you read in traditional news sources and then there's the Internet. And I feel very sorry for people much younger because I don't know how they make sense of it.
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I agree. I feel sorry for us. I'm like, how do I even. Often I'll like ask Kyle. I'm like my husband. I'm like, I don't understand, like, what news did you get today? Because like, I got different news so we have to trade. It's like hard to parse.
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It is very hard to parse. Yeah.
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But luckily we have books like yours to escape into and then it doesn't even matter.
C
Well, there's always truth in fiction. I think there's great human truth in fiction, but it's not really giving you the factual details of what's going on in the world around you.
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That's true. That's true.
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Yeah.
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But an escape, A much needed escape.
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Much.
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Thank you. Anything this summer people should know about for your amazing series, we have just
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arranged for Jenna Bush Hager to come personally with two of her authors. So she'll be there July 16, which should be a lot of fun. She reminds me of you and that, you know, she has a hand in many pies. And she's got now an imprint. So, yeah, I'm very excited about that. We've got Chris Bajalian. We've got Annabelle Monahan and Beatrice Williams and Luann Rice, and, oh, my gosh, Dawn Winslow. So it's all coming together. Maybe Mary Kay Andrews, I probably shouldn't say that, but. Because that's not finalized. But it's a really, really robust schedule.
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Amazing. Well, for anyone out there listening who has not been to the Ocean House, it is one of my favorite places. The Author series is so amazing. It's beautiful. I just adore it. And as you know. So everybody must make it.
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And we'll have new rooms now, so that'll be really snazzy.
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I loved how you posted, like, which of the. Which, you know, motif for the decorating. And I found myself sitting there for way too long debating, and I was like, oh, my God, stop. Go do something else.
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So you actually pick three. All three palettes. There's kind of an aubergine palette. There's a kind of blue leading, leading with blue palette, and the leading with blue and pink and blue and green palette. They're all. They're very compatible. So, I mean, that's the way you do it. You have these three schemes and you alternate them. And I mean, it's a long, long process to redo hotel rooms.
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I bet.
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I can't wait right now. Can't wait to see the final product. Congrats. I really, really enjoyed this book. Great. Well done. Really enjoyed it. Thank you so much for coming back.
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Thank you, my friend. Always a pleasure. See you soon.
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Date: March 9, 2026
Host: Zibby Owens
Guest: Deborah Goodrich Royce
In this episode, Zibby Owens welcomes celebrated author (and former actress) Deborah Goodrich Royce back to discuss her latest novel, Best Boy. The conversation explores how personal memories, trauma, and the unreliability of our recollections shape both fiction and real life. Royce shares the inspirations for her book, her process, and how her experiences as an actress and in her family life inform the stories she writes. The episode also touches on balancing appearances and hidden pain, the complexities of trauma, and the supportive community she has found among writers and readers.
Autobiographical Elements & Memory:
Royce confirms the book draws loosely on real events, notably a mysterious outreach from someone claiming past acquaintance and the way memory colors our experiences.
Plot Overview:
The story centers on Vivica Stevenson, a woman vigilantly controlling a seemingly perfect suburban life in Greenwich, CT. Her orderly world unravels after a home invasion and a strange letter from a man claiming to be "best boy" on a film she acted in, prompting explorations of memory, trauma, and identity.
Real-Life Parallels:
Royce discusses receiving a similar letter and reflects on the unsettling aspects of people recalling versions of shared experiences that the other person doesn’t remember.
Narrative Construction:
Zibby notes the slow reveal of Vivica’s past allows readers to experience her attempts to outrun trauma and concealment, including adopting a new identity and appearance.
Ocular Migraines & Memory Loss:
Royce draws on personal experiences with migraines as inspiration for her character’s dissociative episodes.
Surface vs. Reality:
The conversation touches on the dichotomy between external appearances and internal struggles, echoing the book’s themes of masking trauma and maintaining facades.
On Hosting Authors and Book Events:
Royce is deeply involved in literary community building, hosting author series at Ocean House and organizing retreats.
Acting vs. Writing:
She reflects on her transition from acting to writing and its joys.
On Trauma & Carrying the Past:
“There’s generational trauma, for sure… but there’s also conferred trauma. You know, things that happen to us, things that happen to our loved ones…how do we cope? How do we go on? How do we make sense of it?” —Deborah (18:03)
“This notion of regret, friendship, loyalties, memory…there are a lot of big topics here.” —Zibby (18:57)
On Her Next Book:
“I’m writing a ghost story. My mom died two years ago and…after she died, I got this idea of…a mother daughter ghost story…more like Terms of Endearment meets The Ghost and Mrs. Muir.” —Deborah (19:12)
On Childhood and Trauma:
“Childhood is psychedelic…The adult world is so weird…My mother’s best friend was murdered when my mother was a child…when something like that happens, you are changed in what you consider as being possible.” —Deborah (24:32)
On Modern Information Overload:
“We are inundated with these news slash non-news chatter cycles…some of it can be entertaining…and I feel very sorry for people much younger because I don’t know how they make sense of it.” —Deborah (26:32)
The exchange is warm, conversational, and thoughtful, with Zibby offering familiar encouragement and Deborah providing candid, introspective reflections on memory, trauma, and the writer’s life. The conversation is peppered with playful moments, thoughtful literary references, and a sense of camaraderie between two book lovers.
Themes to watch for when reading Best Boy:
For aspiring writers:
Take note of the value Deborah places on literary community and the creative process over competition, and her encouragement to face and process one’s own history.
This episode is rich in personal storytelling, insightful commentary on the writing life, and a nuanced exploration of memory and trauma, all delivered in a friendly, engaging manner. Perfect for lovers of suspenseful literary fiction and those interested in the intersection of art and real life.