Marisa Renee Lee, Long Covid, and Hope

Summary

Totally Booked with Zibby – Episode Summary

Guest: Marisa Renee Lee
Topic: Long Covid, Grief, Resilience, and Hope
Air Date: April 28, 2026

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Overview

In this heartfelt episode of “Totally Booked with Zibby,” host Zibby Owens welcomes Marisa Renee Lee, author of Waiting for Living With Uncertainty and an expert in grief and healing. The conversation centers on navigating personal tragedy, illness (specifically long Covid), hope, the writing process, and the power of support in dark times. Marisa’s candor and warmth shine as she shares profound lessons learned from layered losses, disability, parenting, and partnership.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Marisa’s Recent Challenges and Long Covid Journey

[04:54] – [06:00]

• Marisa details the hardships since her last book: her mother-in-law’s stage IV breast cancer, the murder of a young cousin, and her own long Covid struggle starting April 2024.
• She describes her ongoing battle with long Covid: “My life requires a couple handfuls of pills three times a day, lots of naps, nine hours of sleep every night, acupuncture, doctor's visits every couple of weeks.”
• Medical breakthrough: She credits a modified dose of Zepbound (GLP1) for her improved health, enabling her book tour.

Quote:

“These drugs, it’s...they're miracle [drugs]. I am so grateful I am telling everybody, because…for women in particular, when the healthcare system doesn't really know what to do with us, they don't really do anything to help us.”
— Marisa Renee Lee [06:15]

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2. Pivot in Writing: From Caregiver to Patient

[07:15] – [08:20]

• The book began as a guide for supporting others through hardship, but Marisa’s own illness changed everything.
• Her editor encouraged her to write directly about being sick: “Within a few days, I had 10,000 words. And it just grew from there.”

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3. Grief, Loss of Identity, and Navigating Disability

[08:20] – [10:29]

• Marisa reflects on grieving not only loved ones but also her former physical self.
• She candidly discusses the painful adjustment to disability and physical limitations, such as training her toddler to climb into his car seat because she could not lift him.
• “All of those things disappeared overnight. Like losing my breath, just walking...It was really shocking, honestly.”

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4. Seeking Diagnosis and the Power of Openness

[10:29] – [12:06]

• Describes her exhaustive search for answers, reluctance to accept a long Covid diagnosis, and eventual acceptance.
• Her openness led to finding better care, enabled by a supportive Instagram follower who connected her to a life-changing physician.

Quote:

“Maybe if I share my story, that'll help somebody else out there with long Covid. But it actually ended up helping me.”
— Marisa Renee Lee [11:21]

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5. Finding and Maintaining Hope

[12:28] – [14:09]

• Hope is rooted in her mother’s example—creating joy amid suffering.
• Her “relentless commitment to a better future” sustains her through prolonged uncertainty.

Quote:

“This is bad today, this is bad, and this is probably going to be bad for a while. But I'm not going to let go of my commitment to a better future. Whenever it gets here, whatever I have to do to get there, I'm gonna do it. Like, I’m relentless.”
— Marisa Renee Lee [13:35]

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6. Marriage, Infertility, and Shared Grief

[18:05] – [21:24]

• Marisa discusses how disparate experiences of grief (such as infertility) shaped her marriage.
• She emphasizes the importance of permitting both partners their individual coping mechanisms—she writes, he does not.
• They regularly check in with each other and seek therapy, openly discussing even difficult emotions like anger and resentment.
• She encourages honesty and permission to “feel whatever they feel” when suffering shared losses.

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7. Motherhood, Adaptation, and ‘Run and Hug’

[21:24] – [22:52]

• Details the emotional work involved in reframing her experience as a parent with illness so as not to internalize guilt.
• Shares her creative workaround—her son’s ‘run and hug’ game—which allows them moments of joy despite physical limitations.

Memorable Moment:

“The run and hug was real, and he still asks for it. He's four and a half now, and he'll say, ‘You sit there, and I'm gonna come as fast as I can.’”
— Marisa Renee Lee [21:42]

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8. How to Support Someone Through Grief or Illness

[22:52] – [25:55]

• Zibby is thanked for persistently inviting Marisa to events, which helped combat the loneliness of illness.
• Marisa’s three-part approach to supporting others:
  • Show up. (Even if you don’t have the right words)
  • Offer practical help. (Meals, errands, child care—but coordinate so it’s useful)
  • Create moments of joy. (Small gifts or surprises, spaced out over time, can have lasting impact)

Quote:

“The hard things about navigating, I think any form of grief or uncertainty, is the loneliness...having people continue to extend the invite in a no pressure, no expectations kind of a way, like, it really does help a lot.”
— Marisa Renee Lee [22:56]

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9. Next Book Projects and Messages for Children

[26:03] – [27:09]

• Marisa teases her upcoming children’s book, inspired by her son’s words after his first loss:

  “I'm gonna love you until forever.”

• Hopes to support children dealing with grief.

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• “I was too sick to look at a computer screen. But when I could write, like, I could really write, and somehow it got done.”
  — Marisa Renee Lee [07:38]
• “You have to let the other person do things how they're going to do them and be okay with it.”
  — Marisa Renee Lee [19:35]
• “There has been a lot of anger that I have to contend with. You know, like, this is not the life that I envisioned during those five years when I was dreaming about becoming a mom.”
  — Marisa Renee Lee [20:39]

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Timestamps for Important Segments

• [04:54] Marisa’s whirlwind of loss, her long Covid diagnosis and survival.
• [07:15] The shift in her book’s focus from caregiver to patient.
• [08:20] Grieving identity and learning to adapt to disability.
• [10:29] The difficulty and acceptance of a long Covid diagnosis.
• [12:44] Foundations of hope and lessons from her mother’s resilience.
• [18:05] Navigating marriage, infertility, and how couples grieve differently.
• [21:24] Parenting, creative adaptations for disability, and the ‘run and hug’ game.
• [22:52] Practical advice for supporting friends and loved ones with illness or grief.
• [26:03] Plans for a children’s book inspired by her son.

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Tone & Language

Marisa’s tone is warm, open, and unflinchingly honest. The conversation is grounded in hope, wit, and a realism that acknowledges pain without succumbing to it. Zibby engages as a supportive friend and curious reader, keeping the discussion relatable and gently humorous even when exploring heavy topics.

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Conclusion

This is an episode marked by vulnerability and actionable wisdom. Marisa Renee Lee invites listeners into her personal and professional journey through grief, illness, and hope—offering comfort, inspiration, and practical guidance to anyone navigating uncertainty, or supporting someone who is.

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For more from Zibby and Marisa, visit zibbymedia.com and keep an eye out for Marisa’s forthcoming children’s book, “I’m Gonna Love You Until Forever.”

Transcript

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[Marissa Renee Lee]

Thank you for having me. This is great.

[Zibby Owens]

Thank you for being here. I was just saying to you you have been through a time so since we last saw each other.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yes, yes.

[Zibby Owens]

Unfortunately a lot of it is in this book and why don't you share just a few of the things Marissa has. It's just oh my gosh, share away.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

It's been a time and I feel like before I share I need to make sure people know the book is hopeful and positive because it is a lot. So after my first book Grief is Love came out, my mother in law was diagnosed with stage four breast cancer which is the same thing that I lost my mom to and it was just a really long period of Illness and dying. And toward the end of her life, one of my young cousins went missing, and we later discovered she had been murdered by her husband. And a few months later, I got Covid and it turned into long Covid. And that was April of 2024. And I am still dealing with it now. I am thankfully, like, so much, getting stronger every single day. But, you know, my life requires a couple handfuls of pills three times a day, lots of naps, nine hours of sleep every night, acupuncture, doctor's visits every couple of weeks. And more recently, the thing that has really helped me the Most, actually, is GLP1. I am on a modified dose of Zepbound, and that's what's enabling me to be here today and to do a little bit of a book tour. So it's been a time.

[Zibby Owens]

I actually dedicated my book that's coming out in September, to Mounjaro.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

I mean, these drugs, it's their miracle.

[Zibby Owens]

As far as I know, they are miracles.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Like, I am. I am so grateful I am telling everybody, because, you know, I think for women in particular, when the healthcare system doesn't really know what to do with us, they don't really do anything to help us. And I know that there have been some studies related to a number of health conditions where these drugs have made a really big difference for people.

[Zibby Owens]

And I should have said as a response how sorry I am, but I know we've.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yeah, no, you've told me that many times.

[Zibby Owens]

It's just so much on your plate. The way you've also shared about your long Covid on social and in newsletters, whatever, has been really amazing. You've been so open, and I feel like we've gotten. I've certainly gotten to a front seat. Like, even whether or not Marisa would be allowed to tour for this book was sort of up in the air until the last second, and she finally got clearance, and here she is. And that's. I'm so glad you can go off and do all the things. In the midst of all that, did you really have to write another book?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

I know, I know. There is something wrong with me. Like, there is something seriously wrong with me. It's funny. I started writing the book, and initially this was gonna be a book about how do you show up for yourself when you're supporting someone else who's going through it. That was the premise. That's what I sold my publisher.

[Zibby Owens]

There was definitely about a page or two on that.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yeah, there was a few pages on

[Zibby Owens]

that, but I dog Eared those. How do you help your husband when he's not quite him?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

I was like, yeah, that was special. But then I became the person who was in it. And so I talked to my editor, Chrishan, who, you know, and she said, I want you to just take a couple of days and write about what it feels like to be sick. You know, like, what's coming up for you? What is this experience like? And within a few days, I had 10,000 words. And it just grew from there. And there were. You know, there were many days and weeks when I didn't write at all. Like, I was too sick to look at a computer screen. But when I could write, like, I could really write, and somehow it got done.

[Zibby Owens]

Well, part of the story is about how you process sort of the. The grief and loss of who you were before and having to come to terms with it. And you even have a whole section where you're like, I'm sorry to admit this, but, like, I don't want to have a disability. Like, I want to go back and just live and not have to think about, you know, how hard it is to, you know, pick up my son or whatever it was.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

I mean, it was devastating. And, you know, I'll be honest, I was kind of surprised. I grew up with a mom who was sick. She had Ms. And then breast cancer. And so she was sick for half of my life with her. And so I felt like because of that, you know, I knew what it was like to be sick or to have a disability, to not be able to, you know, move or use your body in the ways that you want to. And I was wrong. You know, it wasn't until, like you said, I couldn't pick up my kid. He was two and a half. I trained him sometimes using bribes, I'm not gonna lie. To climb. To climb into the car and climb himself, like, into the car seat, because I could fasten him in safely, but I couldn't pick him up and put him in there. And it was my job to take him to school every day when I was sick. I had to learn to, like, really, really think creatively about just getting around my house and doing these basic things. Like, if I took my son to school and it was a bad day, I would have to rest for three to four hours, sometimes more, in order to be able to stand up and take a shower. And, like, there were some days where, like, I just. I couldn't stand up and take a shower. Like, I would have to take a bath whether I wanted to or not because my legs were just too weak for me to be on my fe. And it was really eye opening, you know, when you are used to navigating the world as an able bodied person. And you know, in my case, I've always been tall. I've always been strong, I've always been fast. Like, you know, thankfully I have a brain that works really quickly. And all of those things disappeared overnight. Like losing my breath, just walking around the downstairs of our house was. It was really. It was really shocking, honestly.

[Zibby Owens]

And this is definitely the diagnosis. You've had like multiple opinions, right?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Oh, you know me. You know me, so. And one of my doctors is actually in the room and she. She knows. She knows I started out honestly looking for anything but Long Covid because who wants this new thing that, you know, nobody really understands that doesn't have a specific, like treatment protocol or timeline or series of steps to go from sick to. Well, like, that was the last thing I wanted. So I saw every specialist, I had every test run. I mean, I have done so many things to try and not have it be that, but unfortunately, that is what it is. And so once I came to a place of. Okay, this is what I have. I think we got some jazz music.

[Zibby Owens]

Yeah. What happened? Thank you.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Oh, I got serious about doing whatever I could to get well. You know, I found some really amazing doctors and asked for a lot of help. And part of my being open was thinking, you know, maybe if I share my story, that'll help somebody else out there with Long Covid. But it actually ended up helping me. There was a woman, she's two young kids. She first got long Covid in 2020, and she had been following my work on grief on Instagram because it was helping her process her illness. And when I shared, she reached back and she said, this is my doctor. She has changed my life. You know, I'm almost fully recovered. I think you should reach out to her. And so that's my doctor now. And that's how I got to this place.

[Zibby Owens]

Is that you? No.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Different doctors.

[Zibby Owens]

Yeah, different doctors. Okay. And I'm like, who is this hidden doctor? Have you connected with the author Gillian Deakin, by the way? Because she came to totally book live here last time and wrote a book on uncertainty and has Long Covid. Seriously, I have to put you in touch.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yes, please.

[Zibby Owens]

Again, I should have had you two on a panel.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Next time.

[Zibby Owens]

Next time. Next time. Well, it's hard to have a newer diagnosis that's misunderstood, and it's hard to be compromised in any way, and then to be grieving from loss and other things. Okay, so where is your hope coming from?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

My hope, honestly, part of it is something I absolutely inherited from my mom. Watching someone be sick for a really long time and still maintain a consistent commitment to living a good life. I remember when my mom was dying, she was no longer undergoing treatment for her cancer or her ms, and she was trying to plan a surprise birthday party for me and my dad. I was turning 25, he was turning 50. So she was like behind the scenes, continuing to create joy from the icu. And so with that model, it became easier. Not always easy, but easier for me to say, like, you know, this is bad today, this is bad, and this is probably going to be bad for a while, but I'm not going to let go of my commitment to. To a better future. Whenever it gets here, whatever I have to do to get there, I'm gonna do it. Like, I'm relentless. I do not care, but I'm gonna get there. And what I ended up learning in the research for Waiting for Dawn is that when you have that mental commitment, it actually does open you up to the actions that you need to get to wherever you're trying to go. And so I obviously didn't know that at the time. I was just stubborn. But that's stubborn. Commitment to hope. I mean, it really, it really did make a difference.

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[Zibby Owens]

How do you navigate your not that this is any of my business, your relationship with your husband, when the two of you are going through a lot of stuff, both of you individually and together. And then after five years of infertility, which you talk about in the book, adopting your son, like, you two have been through a lot.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yeah, we were actually just talking about that the other day. It's really hard. I think, you know, one of the things I learned as we navigated infertility together is when you're grieving something with someone else, you can sometimes make the mistake of assuming that you're going to grieve it in the same way, but you almost never do. And so for me, you know, the infertility situation, it was just very different than it was for him because it was also my body. You know, I was constantly sick. I was constantly on all of these drugs, you know, trying and going to the doctor's appointments. And he was the support person. And so when it didn't work out, I didn't even have room to grieve in the beginning because I was so physically sick from the process itself. And so that taught us that, like, you know, you have to let the other person do things, how they're going to do them and be okay with it. You know, I process a lot by writing. Like, I write every day. I don't feel human if I don't write. I don't know. The last time my husband sat down and put, like, pen to paper with his feelings, like, he's not going to do that. But we both go to therapy separately, and we talk about our therapy and, you know, how we're doing and what we're learning. We try to be really intentional about checking in on each other. And we also just try to be really honest about the fact that sometimes it just sucks. Like, the fall of 2024 was when I was my sickest, and it was just. It was really hard, you know. And I said to him recently, I don't think you ever gave yourself permission to grieve the loss of your, like, overly capable, competent, can do a million things at once white. Like, you're allowed to do that. And he admitted that he felt guilty for, you know, sometimes being angry and resentful that I am a different person right now. And I'm like, no. Like, you're allowed to have those feelings. Like, that's okay. I know it's. You're not taking them out on me. And so giving people permission to feel whatever they feel when you're grieving something together I think is really important.

[Zibby Owens]

I just don't understand how you can just, like, how do you just not be annoyed that you're, like, have all this stuff? Like, I feel.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Oh, girl, don't worry. I'll actually take it a step further. Rage. There has been a lot of anger that I've had to process. You know, it felt like we finally got to our happy ending, you know, like, we finally got to the baby. I finally got to my book. My business is going well. We, like, moved back. Back to the Hudson Valley where I grew up. Like, everything was supposed to be good, and then all of a sudden, everything just completely fell apart in ways that I wasn't even capable of imagining, honestly. So there has been a lot of anger that I have to contend with. You know, like, this is not the life that I envisioned during those five years when I was dreaming about becoming a mom. Like, that's for sure.

[Zibby Owens]

Did you actually trademark the run and hug? No. She had a joke in the book about how she has a run and hug where she's like, run and hug. And her kid, like, runs to her and hugs her so she doesn't have to pick it up. Would you put a little TM trademark?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yeah, no, that part is made up. But the run and hug. The run and hug was real, and he still asks for it. You know, he's four and a half now, and he'll say, you sit there, and I'm gonna come as fast as I can. And now the as fast as I can is a little bit terrify, but he loves it. So, yeah, there has been a lot of rage. There's also, I mean, you know, you're a mom, and as moms, like, we want everything to be perfect for our kids. Like, we want them to have, like, the best of everything all the time, right? And so to suddenly be in this position where, you know, I know what it feels like to have a sick parent because I lived that experience, and then to feel like. Not that I did that to my kid, because obviously, I didn't ask for long Covid. It was really hard, and I had to shift to thinking about what are all the things that I learned from having a sick mom and what are the things that I can give Bennett as a part of this experience instead of looking at it from a deficit framework. But it's taken a lot of work, a lot of therapy, a lot of writing, a lot of crying.

[Zibby Owens]

What were some of the most helpful things other people did for you?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

So I want to mention one of the things that you did, because I think that this is something that people don't think about as helpful and tend to not do it. You knew I was sick. You'd been following along. You know, we emailed back and forth a bit and you continued to invite me to things. Because one of the hard things about navigating, I think any form of grief or uncertainty is the loneliness. Like, I was stuck in my house most days for weeks and, you know, months at a time. Like, I still sometimes will go multiple days without leaving my house because I just am in a place where I need more rest. And you feel like the world has forgotten about you because you're just there by yourself. And so having people continue to extend the invite in a no pressure, you know, no expectations kind of a way, like, it really does help a lot. Like, you feel more connected. So thank you for that.

[Zibby Owens]

I'm glad you said yes. Here we are.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

I could finally say yes.

[Zibby Owens]

Anything else? Because I know that people have people they love who are suffering or who are going through things like this. And sometimes it feels like there's nothing to say and nothing to do. And is there anything that helped you aside from people continuing to invite you?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Yeah. So I always talk about support in sort of three contexts when it comes to grief or, you know, illness, uncertainty, et cetera. One is just showing up. You know, I remember the night of our last pregnancy loss. Some of my roommates from college just. They just showed up at our house. You know, they lived close enough by. They brought cookie dough and bourbon and we watched American Ninja Warrior, which is like a great distraction when you're super depressed. And nobody needed to say anything. Like they knew there was nothing they could say or do that would make it better. So we just ate cookie dough and I drank bourbon and we watched tv. The second thing is, like, thinking about practical things that you can take off of someone's plate. You know, taking their kid to soccer practice, walking the dog, cleaning the house, dropping off a meal. But if you're going to bring a meal, either make sure that they don't already have one or bring something that's freezer friendly, because food is one of the first things that people think of. And then the third one, and this also just goes back to my mom, is do something joyful. After that last pregnancy loss, I have 11 type A very intense roommates from college. And they each took a month. And someone was responsible for sending something joyful every month. So that for a year, like, we continued to get these different treats. And it was everything from a box of gourmet meats because we're carnivores in my house. And my husband likes to grill to a really cozy blanket that we still fight over. And so just thinking about things that will make someone smile, that's such a good idea.

[Zibby Owens]

Are you going to write another book? Like, can you take some time to just enjoy this and get out there?

[Marissa Renee Lee]

So funny. So yes. And I, in the midst of all of this loss, you know, my kid has been growing up around it, and we don't talk about every situation, but the one that was hardest for him. We lost my grandmother this summer. She was almost 102. So we were very, very, very lucky. And she and my son, I mean, they just were really close, you know, like, they laughed together, they would sing songs together. Like they just had an amazing time together. And so for him, that was really his first loss. And he said to me sometime in the last couple of months, you know, we were talking about my grandma. And then he said, you know what, mom? I'm gonna love you until forever. And I was like, book title. I was like, you get it? I was like, that is the grief is love for kids. We're gonna work on that together. And so I asked him if he wanted to help me work on a book for kids to help them when somebody they love dies. And he was like, sure. So we'll stay.

[Zibby Owens]

I love that. Marissa, thank you so much. Thank you for sharing your story and your experience and letting the rest of us in. So hopefully we can help you back.

[Marissa Renee Lee]

Thanks for having me for continuing to write and share.

[Zibby Owens]

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for listening to Totally Booked with Zibi formerly Moms don't have Time to read Books. If you loved the show, tell a friend, leave a review. Follow me on Instagram Iby Owens and spread the word. Thanks so much. Oh, and buy the books.

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