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waking up in real time
Hosted by Beka Elle · EN
"I am willing to let go of anything holding me back from being free."
(she said nervously…)
Come along with me on a wild ride that is getting to know God and coming home to truth.
There are no guarantees on this show. Your guess of where this is going is as good as mine.
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ep170: when fixing the body is never enough
6d ago00:24:35Tap to summarizeWhat if your binge eating, emotional eating, or bulimia wasn’t really about food or your body at all? In this episode, I explore eating disorders through the lens of insecure (especially disorganized) attachment. We look at how early wounds around love, safety, and reliability show up as control over food and the body — and why weight loss alone never seems to solve the deeper craving.I share why traditional diagnoses often fall short, how attachment styles shape our relationship with food, and why the real healing might not be about “fixing” ourselves… but about finally feeling what we’ve been running from.Sign up for Soul Huddles [here]
Transcribe →ep169: calories are kinda BS
2w ago00:19:48Tap to summarizeIn this episode, we break down why calorie counting is often misleading — and sometimes even harmful — for sustainable weight loss. Discover how your mindset, hormones, gut health, and nervous system affect how your body actually processes food. Learn why the “bomb calorimeter” model doesn’t work for humans and how shifting into safety and presence can transform your relationship with food.We discuss:The famous Milkshake Study and how your beliefs about food directly impact ghrelin (the hunger hormone)Why your body is not a bomb calorimeterHow different foods affect metabolism, digestion, and nutrient absorption (thermic effect of food)The hidden dangers of chronic calorie restriction and the famine responseHow calorie labels can be off by up to 20%How to move from willpower and restriction to trust and intuitive nourishmentThe real path to sustainable weight loss: nervous system safety, presence, and body awarenessWeight loss isn’t about perfect math — it’s about understanding your body as a complex, intelligent system. When you focus on feeling safe, nourished, and present, your body becomes much more willing to release excess weight naturally.Soul Huddles: www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles
Transcribe →ep168: taking the "ick" out of inner child work
3w ago00:32:48Tap to summarizeIn this episode, I explain why “inner child work” has become so overused and cringey for many people, and how to actually practice it in a way that creates real, lasting relief instead of just intellectual exercises.Drawing from my own healing from binge-purge bulimia and work with clients, I share how to move beyond therapy buzzwords and genuinely soothe your nervous system.Why most inner child work feels ineffective or cheesyHow childhood patterns drive adult addictive behaviorsA simple, practical way to reparent yourself in triggering momentsThe power of co-regulation and having regulation modeled for youWhy feeling safe in your body is the real antidote to addictive patternsTraditional “inner child work” often stays in the head and doesn’t create felt change.True healing happens when you learn to show up for yourself with genuine compassion and safety — especially when urges or emotions arise.Everyone is just a scared child trying to feel safe. Learning to soothe that part creates effortless behavior change.Soul Huddles: Free weekly Zoom community for real-time co-regulation and practice.Also mentioned: Josie Spinardi
Transcribe →ep167: elimination diets
4w ago00:34:32Tap to summarizeIn this episode, Beka shares why structured elimination diets can be transformative for both physical and mental health — especially for those struggling with binge-purge cycles, food addiction, body dysmorphia, and other eating disorders. She challenges the mainstream “intuitive eating only” approach used in many treatment programs and highlights stories of radical healing through whole-foods elimination protocols and carnivore eating.Beka emphasizes that the body wants to heal when given the right conditions, and that food directly impacts brain chemistry, mood, and even psychiatric symptoms. She stresses this is not medical advice and encourages listeners to trust their own experience.Why many people feel worse on intuitive eating (bloating, fatigue, anxiety, constant food noise)The mind-body connection: How nutrient deficiencies (like B12) can mimic serious psychiatric and neurological conditions, including symptoms misdiagnosed as MSTwo powerful elimination diet approaches:Vital Mind Reset (Dr. Kelly Brogan): A 30-day paleo-style whole foods protocol + 3 minutes of daily meditationCarnivore Diet: Meat, salt, and animal products only — especially helpful for severe food sensitivities, addiction, and autoimmune issuesHow elimination diets create safety in the nervous system and allow repressed trauma/emotions to surface and healThe “masculine energy initiation” of setting protective boundaries with foodInspiring recovery stories: Reversal of bipolar, PTSD, fibromyalgia, Graves’ disease, Alzheimer’s, brain cancer, stage 4 ovarian cancer, MS symptoms, severe anorexia, and bulimiaKey TakeawaysNot all foods are equal — some trigger inflammation, cravings, and psychological symptomsThe body can heal itself dramatically when processed foods, sugars, and common irritants are removedHealing eating disorders may require temporary structure, not constant access to “forbidden fruit”30 days can give you undeniable evidence of what your unique body needsWeight regulation often happens naturally once the body feels safe and nourishedYou are capable of showing up for yourself — this can rebuild self-trust and agencyResources MentionedDr. Kelly Brogan’s Vital Mind Reset (program + randomized controlled trial on depression) - outcomes: https://www.kellybroganmd.com/outcomes?fb590fe2_page=8PubMed study on the Vital Mind Reset protocol - https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7346300/Carnivore diet recovery stories (YouTube interviews linked in full show notes)Alzheimers: https://youtu.be/uOCXQn2xJHA?si=y14LcvaDuhy6ELTUBrain Cancer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnGVhVrXNVMOvarian Cancer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoEmCwTMDX8Another Ovarian Cancer spread to spine/kidneys: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5UOwyYBMfEMS: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxw832nmMyA&t=1304sStudies - Keto:Anorexia: https://journalofmetabolichealth.org/index.php/jmh/article/view/84/254Binge Eating: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6988301/Interviews with women who healed severe anorexia/bulimia through carnivoreAnorexia: https://youtu.be/C75SjgX7joI?si=Nor67Y2xRt5V0n_pAnorexia & Bulimia: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kU0WfQCF5bwMaggie the Rancher – 65 years carnivoreSoul Huddles – Free weekly community Zoom calls (Sundays) - www.bekeaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles1:1 Coaching & upcoming group membership with Beka www.bekaelle.com/contactI am not a doctor and this should not be treated as medical advice.
Transcribe →ep166: your binge eating isn't what you think
May 1100:16:32Tap to summarizeYour Binge Eating Disorder Isn’t What You Think: A Fresh Perspective on Food FreedomStruggling with binge eating, bulimia, or emotional eating? Former binge-purge bulimic shares why the traditional “eating disorder” label may be keeping you stuck — and how viewing binges as outdated brain survival programs can lead to rapid, lasting freedom. This episode challenges conventional psychology’s approach to eating disorders. Drawing from her own recovery from years of binge-purge bulimia and restrictive cycles, she explains why binge eating isn’t a sign you’re “broken,” but rather a healthy brain running outdated survival software in response to perceived threats. Learn how insight-based change can happen faster than you think and how to address the root cause instead of managing symptoms.Key Topics Covered:Why the terms “eating disorder” and “recovery” can be counterproductiveBinge eating as a survival response (“You’re not out of control — you’re under attack”)The brain as healthy hardware running painful/old softwareHow perceived threats (stress, restriction, emotions) trigger bingesWhy real change can happen quickly through embodied insight (not years of slow habit-building)Snake vs. rope analogy & the power of true insightComparison to psychedelic healing and subconscious learningMoving from self-blame to curiosity about the specific moment and pain behind the behaviorKey TakeawaysYour brain isn’t broken — it’s running outdated “code” that once served a purposeEvery binge has wisdom and a perfectly explainable reason rooted in survival instinctLabeling moments as “my eating disorder” keeps the pattern feeling permanentTrue freedom comes from addressing the root emotional threat in each fresh momentRapid transformation is possible when the brain sees a better, safer way to respondProgress is often underestimated because of the mind’s negativity biasResources & MentionsJosie Spinardi – www.josiespinardi.orgAmy Johnson – www.dramyjohnson.comFree weekly community: Soul Huddles (www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles)binge eating disorder, overcoming binge eating, bulimia recovery, food freedom, stop binge eatinghow to stop binge eating, binge eating help, eating disorder recovery, emotional eating recovery, Josie Spinardi, perceived threat binge eating, insight based change eating, brain survival response food, why do I binge eat#BingeEating #FoodFreedom #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #EmotionalEating #StopBingeEating #BodyImage #InsightHealing #MentalHealth #SelfCompassion
Transcribe →ep165: how to make decisions - a client question
May 300:24:11Tap to summarizeJoin Soul Huddles:www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles
Transcribe →ep164: healing the self to... lose it?
Apr 2600:31:25Tap to summarizeJoin Soul Huddles:www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles
Transcribe →ep163: what if thought meant nothing?
Apr 1900:29:13Tap to summarizeSoul Huddles Sign-up:www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddlesThe study I'm referencing:https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21760881/
Transcribe →ep162: inviting the shunned
Apr 1200:14:44Tap to summarizesoul huddles: www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles
Transcribe →ep161: loving fully, anyway [ft. amanda jones]
Apr 500:43:15Tap to summarizeIn this episode I'm joined by the illuminous Amanda Jones! We explore the fear that so many of us experience: "what if what I love doesn't love me back?"Find Amanda at:https://www.uncoveryspace.com/instagram: @amandajonesuncoveryJoin Soul Huddles!www.bekaelle.com/coaching#soul-huddles
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