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Okay.
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Not realizing that they were on him.
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Yeah. Like attaching to him.
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Yeah. And so just naturally, innately, I would be walking around the house in my. In my light body. In my call body. So the call body is the etheric twin to the physical body.
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Okay.
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So it can, if it's strong enough. That's how we astral project is in that light body. So I'd be walking around the house and they would always be in his study and like these big brown heads, kind of like grayish black with like these super creepy smiles. And I remember being like a little bit intimidated, but it's like even then I was just such a. Such a badass. Like I. I would just be moving them out, doing all these cool things that just natural to my right, using the light in the higher aspects to move them out of the house. But then there were the instances where I was sexually assaulted by beings and abducted and experimented on. And I would. There were a few times that I would come to and it would be happening and then out of protection, it was just like shut down. And in these experiences there's certain things called implants and they're made of dead light. And during these experiences where I was abducted, they placed them in my hips and in my womb. And I actually even had this instance where I was about 10 or 11. And I remember where I was. I was in my childhood bedroom. I was in my bunk bed. I sat up, I looked down at my stomach and I was like, I'm pregnant. I'm 10. A 10 year old doesn't know what being pregnant. I knew and I didn't know how to verbalize it because of my age, but I knew and I was extremely panicky. And I went to my mom outside, she was unloading groceries out of her car. And I told her, I said I had a baby in my tummy. And I even had a full blown manic panic attack breakdown where I broke out in shingles. And if you know what shingles is, you get it at very older ages when first stress and my dad had to put like a steroid cream and it's right on my left lower back, which is where the silver cord is. The silver cord is what connects us to our oversoul and the ethers and the cosmos. And it had been severed and then they had replaced it with a different one that was a siphoning one that gave all these other entities control over my life force siphoning. And it went in even into something that is known as a sexual misery program. And a lot of indigos are on those lists. Sexual misery implants where they are used as slaves, really. And, and all of this happens in the astral realm. And not many people have a ton of knowledge about the astral realm and how it works.
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And. Not to interrupt you, but I. Okay, so. And it might be hard for me to ask certain questions too, because it's like, I don't really know the terminology, but. So a little while ago, I did a. A soul painting. And the woman that did the soul painting, she kind of. The way that she does it is, I guess, I think I gave her my name, my birthday, um, that might have been it. Oh, and then she has a call with me. And, you know, basically over the course of like a month or two, she kind of lets what comes to her naturally and she makes a painting based on your soul. And it's a bunch of different layers and textures and all this stuff. And then after it's done, she has a call with you and gives you an understanding of what each lay meant, you know, that came to her. And when I talked to her, she was kind of telling me, and she's super spiritual how. And I've at this time as well, I was reading a few different spiritual books. So it was kind of aligning and making sense to me. But once again, I'm not super found in it. So I, like, I don't always know, but there was a time that she. There was a point that she said, yeah, like, you have been on this earth multiple times and chills and basically, not that this is your, like, your last time, but you're coming close because you're getting more. You're reaching an understanding younger and younger, you know, and earlier in life.
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Yes.
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And so basically the reason I bring that up is because based on what you were saying of, like, how you kind of had that start happening to you at a younger age, and you remember, you know, before coming into this life, like, you knew what you were signing up for. I guess my question to you is, is that kind of a similar thing where, like, you are aware, See, and I don't like to, like, I don't know exactly of the terms of, like, reincarnation, all that. I know those are very, like, simple terms that have kind of been put of what these things are, what people are familiar with, but I guess it does that kind of make sense? Like, I don't really know how to ask it, but I guess what I'm saying is, like, with each life that you get placed into and when you're coming back into this real world, I feel like there's some people that they'll live until they're 80, 90, and they'll never ever have a Spiritual understanding. Whereas some people, they'll come into this life form and they'll have an understanding at a very young age, like you did, or like maybe when they're more like in their 20s or 30s, they'll start to kind of delve into it and be more in tune and in touch with their higher selves and the powers that we actually do hold.
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Right.
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You know, so I guess, like, is that, that, do you think that that's kind of what that would have been for you? Like where, when it started happening at such a young age for you?
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Well, I wasn't. So the, the, the planet Earth.
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She.
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Has an ascended form too. And Gaia, which is the seventh dimensional form of her that exists in the seventh dimension, she's the one who asked me to come here because, because this planet, as we are ascending in consciousness, so is the planet. And so this planet has been stuck, stuck in reincarnation cycles where people don't have access to their higher aspects because of the dark forces who have been manipulating the planet. They've been monopolizing the planet and they have been siphoning people's. That's what they feed on because they don't have souls. These entities don't have souls. They feed on, they lose people. They take their loose and they feed on their fear and their ignorance and their illusion and all of the, all of those things. So I have ascended this planet many times. I, and I didn't just come here, you know, I ascended, I ascended it. And so I was asked to come here to help with the ascension cycles, to help with the aspects of consciousness. And I, you know, I'm not the only one. There's a whole collective of indigos that are, are known as the future lineages of Christ. And it's not anything having to do with Jesus Christ is a sound like harmonic emanation from the higher densities. It's not a person. Christ is a kind of light and it is a sword because it, it, it destroys all illusion, all toxicity, anything that's deadlight, false light. So yes, people are, There's a lot of people who are, have no connection to their, to their soul. So they're walking around like NPCs, people, just robots, zombies.
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Isn't it crazy? That's always been something, at least more recently that's been so interesting to me is how some people are so in tune, even just like with themselves. And then some people, it's like they don't, they're not even close to having any sort of understanding. Like they're just so absorbed with all.
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Of this synthetic world. Yes.
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Literally. He took the words out of my mouth. Thank you.
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The synthetic world. And another thing is this is a whole experiment. The human experience, it's like a game. And once I broke through, like the 12th up to the 15th is when I really, like my gifts really came online. And I, and it, this is like a, like a computer simulation. It's, it's, it's wild and it's all reflected in, in your mind and what you choose to believe. And so many people, especially the ones who are so tied to the synthetic world, they're so deeply programmed with that false light that they, they can't perceive higher light at all. And that's why I'm here and why a lot of others are here to put these high levels into the grid so that everybody can get there. Because once one person does it.
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So the goal technically would be that all, all, I guess all beings, okay, kind of achieve that to like they can achieve that and be at that destination.
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Yes. And I, I believe it could, it can even be NPCs, can even be evolved. You know, it's all DNA. It's all DNA. And each dimensional layer is connected to a different cosmic race and lineage that existed here long ago. And so all those, all those rays of light hold information. And once you get through like the fifth, and then you go into the sixth and you go into the seventh, there are codes that kind of unleash in your blood and in your DNA and they hold ketones. Key, key codes. You could be given incredible high level information and not absorb a word of it. It will be word salad to you because you don't have the key codes to interpret it and download it. And then three weeks later you could have had this massive breakthrough in terms of the mind and the emotional body and the light body, you'll be given that same information and it'll download because you opened those dimensional layers in your light body.
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Now do you think for you, since these things have kind of just come to you, I guess more naturally because I feel like for other people, like for example, someone like me, I feel like for me to get a better understanding and gain a higher. Once again, don't know the terms, but like, you know, get more in tune with my higher self. I find that meditation is like the only thing that really helps me or the thing that kind of makes me kind of like what you said before. Tap into and understand things that don't really have words to describe. But for, I feel like that's because I'm so underdeveloped with spirituality. You know what I mean? Like it's, I feel like I'm still so new with it. But someone like you that I feel like. Because obviously I guess my, my question is, are you more, does it come more naturally to you because you've done it so many different times in different lifetimes or is it because you're at a completely different place? Like you know how they.
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I think it's both simultaneously.
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Because, because like the star seeds, which I only have know about because of Tick Tock and I have only seen it a couple times. Would those be considered like not. I know, I guess. Like are they a different type? Like they're not. I, what would the terms be? Because I know like it's not human but like.
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Right. No, there's different races.
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Cuz we're. I would be considered what, like a soul? Well, you have a soul, okay.
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But you have a spirit too.
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Okay.
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Which is the light body.
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The soul and spirit are different and.
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You have a mental body, emotional body.
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So a starseed, do they have all that as well or is that like its own category?
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Yes.
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Okay.
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The idea of starseeds and indigos, cosmic rainbow children, light warriors, shadow walkers, whatever you want to call them, they have. Their higher strands of DNA are already activated.
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Okay.
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So that opens higher light channels in the light body that connect to that to, to the higher mind, the God mind. And so their gifts like Claire. Cognizance, the gift of knowing, clairvoyance, the gift of seeing. Claire audience. The gift of hearing, clairsentience, Claire. Empathy, which are feeling they're so like a lot of people have a tough time understanding me because I know things. Well, how do you know that? I just know because my gifts and it didn't always come naturally though, okay. And that's why these, these collectives of cosmic star beings have chosen again, it's choice. Their contracts hold high level trauma to go through because that's what it takes to expand your gifts here. So like the whole being sexually assaulted by entities, having implants that would flare up my whole life, it put me into this whole. I, I, I'm married into a very dark family that was very catholic and it was very dark. And there's even some questionable stuff there in terms of the, the black market and poisoning and stuff that I've worked through. But I also made a choice to let go of everything. I let go of everything I knew in terms of my mind. I let go of all my, all my Friends, my career, my music career, my. My family, my job, everything I had, I threw it away. I sold it. And I moved up into the mountains and was in meditation all day, every day for five months. And then I continued my sacred solitude for it was a total of 14 months that I was going through initiations every day to where my light body would be kind of like burnt down to the ground and then rebuilt every day. And I did this so that I could get to these high dimensional levels. It was not easy, okay? And for most of the time I wanted to leave the planet. It was. It took all of my being to really ground into my center every day and understand and remember why I'm doing this. This is much bigger than me. And it was awful. It was terrible. I would not wish anyone on that, kind of. Because I was also being tortured. I had all these implants that would flare up because the other forces, they know, they're not dumb, like, but they would flare up. And so it was like. We know, we've all heard of mk. MK Ultra.
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What is that?
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It's. It's like biological weapon, psychological warfare. They use these. The implants that are in there. Deadlight is known as miasma. It's dead light. It's light that is dead. It's false light. So these currents of this deadlight are put into, like, the 1D and 2D of the planet, and they're surging through all. All the buildings. Like, everywhere you go, it's just being flooded into people. So that would flare up in me, and it was like torture. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I spent a lot of my time sleeping and in the astral so that I could find the strength to get up and do it again. So it was like this whole journey, and I did it on my own. I didn't have anyone. That's not true. I had my team and a couple of friends. Like, this woman, Belle, came out of nowhere. She had a whole book about me. Never met her in my life. All this stuff about me starting when I was seven years old. And it was her that saved my life. I had, like, I had a gun in my mouth. I was like, I'm. I'm out. This doesn't make sense to me because I didn't have full remembrance until, like, my remembrance started coming online a year and a half ago, like, fully so. But there was that. That strong, strong but quiet voice, my soul, that said, you know who you are. Keep going. You know who you are. Keep going. You are an incarnate of the cosmic mother in physical form, very potent. That's who I am. And that exists inside everyone. And it's not easy, but it's all part of it. It's all for the plot. Like, once you get to a point where you're. You're balanced and you really do know who you are.
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You. You.
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That victim mentality just. Just kind of dissolves. And then you're standing in strength and knowing that you're emitting these light. And every. Everywhere you go, it's shifting. The room is shifting, shifting, shifting, and for the betterment of everybody.
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And then the astral realm. So when you say that you were how old when you said that you spent most of your time there? Was it at 7 when things were happening to you? Or 10? Like, to block. Basically block out what was happening to you from when.
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From when I was seven and on.
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Okay, so can you explain that realm a little bit?
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Yeah. So the astral realm is what we know is time is where the. Because we all have a causal body. And with the causal body, it's made up of seven rings. And these rings are like the space, right. The body, the space that holds light, which is time. Time is just light. So in the astral realm, it's like it is the mind and it is time itself. And so anything is really possible there. Like, I would. I would have experiences where I was picking things up with my mind, shattering glass, flying, like, I could do whatever I wanted until I was taken by those entities. So that. That's the 4D. That's 4D. That's the mind of the planet. So it's basically the dream world.
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And when you say you were taken by them, was that in this realm or in that astral realm?
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Both.
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Okay.
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But it was mainly astral. They. They take your entire consciousness.
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Okay. And like, basically they're trying to manipulate it.
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Yeah. And then, like, I had. Like, I was pregnant. I had. And they had. There was an actual baby, and they took it. And so they. They. And I have met other people who I was there with. It was like this instant remembrance. Like, oh. And then they. They get visions. I get visions. And we're all putting it together. And one of them, she's my best friend. And it's interesting because I saw a medium recently and she was like, you lost a child? And I was like, yeah, when I was 10. And I. I've never told anyone that. Really. And so for her to see it instantly, it also was a huge confirmation for me.
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Yeah.
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Because I know how. I know how this sounds, but that's just the thing is, like, there's this whole aspect of this world that people don't think is real, you know, that is seen as insane. And it's so real.
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So when people. And what's interesting to me is, you know, like. Like I was saying to you before we got started, I feel like there's different levels to it for sure.
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So many.
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But it's interesting because, you know when you're scrolling through Tick Tocker, like, I've read a couple books and it makes. It's like just like you're. You're not even. Your toe is in the door. You know what I mean? Because, like, you're reading about manifestation and like, meditation. You're like, wow, I'm in more control than I think. But, like, I feel like that's still, like, based on everything you're saying now, that's still all materialistic and superficial. Like, you know what? People are trying to manifest their perfect life, but it's the perfect life in this world. It's not. It's nothing within themselves. You know what I mean? Like, I feel like. So it's. It's interesting to me because hearing you, I don't think. I don't know if people even understand that. That, like, I feel like that their manifestation, it's. I think it's very real, but it's still not. You're still not reaching that level of, like, consciousness, like, within yourself. It's still within. Like, it's like manipulating your reality.
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Yeah.
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But it's still a false reality. Like, that's only going to last until this body's done right. So it's just interesting to me, like. Like I was telling you, when I meditate, my favorite thing about meditation is like, almost figuring out things about myself or having these realizations about myself that I don't even understand. You can't really describe, but it's almost like this feeling of. Of comfort and knowing. But it's not. And I do believe we have the control to make our time here on Earth and in these bodies, like, the best that we can. But I don't know, it's almost like it's interesting. Like, I feel like the more. The older I get and the more into meditation and understanding I get, the less I want to be around other people.
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Yeah.
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And it's not even. And I'm not a mean person. Like, I mean, I do this show and I love to help people and hear their stories, but when it comes to people, like, in everyday life, it's, like, weird because I Feel bad saying, like, I don't like people, but at the same time I feel like, how can I be around people when we're, our understandings are just not even, not even close.
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No. Yeah, I, you know, I keep my circle small.
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Yeah.
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I allow myself around one person.
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Right.
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And like, even me coming here is like a big deal.
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Yeah.
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And that is not something that anybody should feel bad about because there's still so many people that project their problems outward. They take things personally. They expect other people to take care of them. They expect other people to take care of their trauma and deal with their shadow work. And that's just not it. We are all responsible for ourselves and our outward world is going to mirror our inner world. And so when people treat their energy as sacred and who actually understand that, they take responsibility for their own reality. That's a beautiful thing. The fact that you respect yourself enough to take care of your energy field, to treat it as royal. Because it is the, the idea that we have to be these, these, these martyrs that save other people. The best thing that you can do for anyone is love yourself.
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Yeah.
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It's a paradox with the idea that the best thing you can do for the planet is love yourself. And I, I, I respect that in the same way.
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It's just so interesting, like, how even with the, like the astrology stuff, it. And I, I think that, that it's all in different categories once again. But it's just so intriguing to me, the levels of unders. Like how. Yeah, it's so much deeper. Like I said when I was watching your tick tocks, I'm like, I can't even, I can't even act like I understand what she's saying because I have no idea. Like, this is so much deeper and more found spiritually than I can even like, fathom. Because I feel like we're so used to. Once again, if you fall into a kind of a social media spiral of spirituality, I feel like it's very limited. Like, it kind of goes as far as astrology, zodiac, different moon, like, you know, like this moon and that moon. And here's what you should do at this time and manifestation. But it's nothing deeper than that. You're honestly like the first person that I've seen that kind of goes way, way deeper. But I don't understand any of it because, because there's nothing else. Like, I'm like, wait, I want to understand, but I can because it's like, like you said, you, if you're not there yet, it's Almost like you can't take in the information because it doesn't make sense to you. It's almost like a foreign language. Honestly, it is. But it's so intriguing to me because it. It's like I don't understand it. But the stuff you're saying, it's like a way deeper form of kind of like the stuff I've started tapping into or kind of reading about or hearing about. Like when I did the soul painting, it kind of reminds me of these things, but it's just. I feel like when. When I hear things that I understand, it's just like. It's almost like when. When somebody translates something for you. You know what I mean? Like, you can understand it because it's translated, but like, when you say it, it's like no one's gonna. No one gets it because it's not. They don't have that knowledge yet. Yeah. Or that understanding. And I think that's why it's easier to call you crazy, because it's like gibberish to them. They don't.
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Because people don't have the. Well, not all people. A lot of people do.
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Right.
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But the, you know, the. The NPCs in the world who.
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Right.
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Don't have the. The bandwidth. They don't have the mental, emotional and light bandwidth to understand it. So to them, it's nonsense. By the way, the woman who did the soul painting, was her name Forest Fairy?
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No. Vicky Paul.
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Okay.
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And I think she's. I don't know where she lived. It's. I think it's out of the country, I'm pretty sure.
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Really? Really?
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I'll send you her stuff, though. She was. She was awesome. It was so interesting. And like, a lot of it.
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I got one done too.
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Really? I'll just show you mine. A lot of it, like, aligned with. Like I said, it was weird because when I decided to get it done, I was reading Becoming Supernatural by Joe Dispenza. Love that.
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Right.
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And then I also read Only Love is. And that's kind of like how you about, like, love in different lifetimes and how if you feel that strong connection to someone, it's like those. Those ties. Because it's like, you know, and I was, you know, all that stuff, like, when you read it, I feel like, especially if you have something like that going on, it is that confirmation in a way. But around that time that I was reading those, she. I did this whole painting, I think, right after. During. And I was like, honestly, some of the stuff made sense only because I was reading those books and I kind of had that knowledge. Yeah. So I kind of feel like unless you're deep diving and, and kind of educating yourself on it the best you can, it's. If you're not doing that, it's going to be harder. There's a. A disconnect, you know, between the two.
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Yeah.
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But I want to, like, I really want to learn more. You're making me want to learn them.
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Well, that's one of the reasons I'm. I was on Tik Tok. I really didn't want to be my human was like. But again, with the spiritual community. I don't resonate with the spiritual community because I really. That, that, that's confusing to me because everything is spiritual.
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Yeah.
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Light. It's not spiritual. It's just life.
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Right.
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We're all, you know of that. So that's why I'm on there. Because, yes, there's sun signs, ascendant signs, there's astrology, there's. There's human design and, and it's all beautiful and should be used without attachment, with awareness and mindfulness as a tool. I use that absolutely. But not like, not real, like religiously. I use it when it pops into my reality.
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Yeah.
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I tell my higher aspects, show me what I need, and I take what resonates and I leave what doesn't. But it's like a lot of people will revolve their whole life around these ideas. Just like religion, you know, everything is supposed to be used as a tool. You are the universe. This right here.
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Right.
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And nothing actually has an. Any inherent meaning. We, We. We assign meaning to things. It's like someone giving you a yellow sphere and saying, this is a blue sphere. Okay. Okay. It's actually yellow, but you told me it's blue, so I'm going to believe that it's blue.
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Yeah.
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That's how this world is existing.
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Right.
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So it's. But it is so evolving. It's so evolving and it's beautiful to. To. To watch it evolve. It really is.
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So you were saying how it wasn't until a year ago or so that you kind of had full remembrance.
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So, okay, I went. So I, I got my divorce and I went into the mountains. But before that, I had gotten back together with him because I had a. A meltdown. I had a complete mental breakdown, thankfully. So. Because I cannot gain the true higher mind if I don't lose my human mind a few times. So there was this whole thing where I was. Just gave all my power away. I was on medication I had been diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar and with severe panic disorder. You know, my. My family's all worried about me. They think I'm into drugs. My dad's mentioning mushrooms that I did. And my former partner was telling me, you know, that he wouldn't be with. He wouldn't be with me if I didn't stop doing the work I was doing and if I wasn't on meds and I was going to check in myself. And then I had this day. We were. We were living at my. My dead grandma's house, sleeping on a mattress on the floor. And I was spending most of my days in meditation, like maybe six to eight hours a day because it was the only way I could stand to be here. And again, that was my choice to stay. But there was a day where the cosmic mother came to me and she said, you need to go. You need to leave. You need to leave. And so I just. In an instant, I took. I took all that back. I said, leave me alone. Do not tell me what you think about me. I don't care. No, I'm not going to stop doing the work I'm doing. No, I'm not going to be on medication. No, I am not going to check myself and I'm leaving and I'm moving into the mountains by myself. I don't want to, like, with compassion, but firmness. No one in my family visited me. But that's okay. I love them. And I get it. It is hard to understand me. But once I did that, once I really let go of those ties, those attachments that are attached to this synthetic world that I had been living, right? It wasn't actually true to my. My highest soul. Once I let all those go, it was like I. I freed so many channels. I call them channels of income because we are the currency. And it's like I could see all these free channels and I. I saw them all come back to me. Soul retrieval through so many lifetimes and so many dimensional layers. And then my gift started to open up. And then I was bursting through all these, like, dark curses. I could see them, these chains, these dark curses, like people trying to destiny swap with me. Just like all these things. And then all this stuff started showing up in my reality. This, this, this, this. And then I started having remembrances. And we don't just remember with our conscious mind. We remember through all our senses, through feeling, through knowing, through. Through the gifts. The Claire. The Claire's. And so after that, when I spent those 14 months in solitude is when it really ramped up. And then I healed my silver cord and then I started just remembering all sorts of things beyond to like, galactic or other planets I used to live on and where I'm actually from and what, what I, what I'm capable of. Like, I have gifts that are really rare, which is why I live like a princess up, up in a castle, because I value them. So, yeah, I. I guess you could say about two years ago is when I started to really remember. And it's not something that, oh, maybe this, maybe this. It's like, oh, no, it's something I know now. It's not even a belief. It's something I know.
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B
Can you remember? So can you remember, like, other lifetimes that you've had here? And do you know how many there were?
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A
Well, ones that were really prominent, that hold that held massive weight, because right there, there could be an infinite amount of those. But I want the number 11 has been big in terms of that.
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B
Okay.
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Massively in Egypt, in Africa, and a lot of memories of the Templars and the Cathars, the Rose lineage, the Magdalenes. I am of that lineage. So, yeah, I remember. I remember a lot.
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B
And it all kind of just really came to you when you were in solitude, like, doing your meditations.
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A
Yeah, when I just completely let go, let go of the world and let go of everything I thought I knew and trusted my higher aspects to show me. And understanding that it's a very. To remember is a very multifaceted thing. It goes beyond human words. To remember is you're actually like, putting members of yourself back in remembering yourself. Like, it's like, it goes so far beyond even the senses, if that makes sense.
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B
Yeah, no, it does. And you know, because I know that there's documentaries and stuff about people being abducted by different entities and having things like, placed on them. I. I remember I saw one that I was like, I think this woman said that she. I don't know what, they did something with her belly button. I don't remember. But. And I guess the way that we think of those or as people think of them is going to be like, just very simply, like aliens, you know, Like, I think that's how people just, like, think of it. They're like, oh, they were abducted by aliens and this is this. And this happened. And once again, people have to believe in aliens to even, like, consider that being true. So I guess when you talk about entities, are you. Are they all different? Like, is aliens like a type? Is that like, you know what I mean? Like, Is it?
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A
So the idea of aliens is. It's. We are aliens too.
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B
Right.
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A
You know, there are different types. There are different types, yes. And even when it comes to the dark forces, the, the extraterrestrials, if you. The cosmic beings that don't hold empathy, they don't have souls.
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B
Yeah.
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A
They don't understand the feminine principle, the feminine aspect of consciousness, which is what the crystalline codes are, the Christ codes. That's. That's the, the feminine principle of consciousness. You have the masculine, you have feminine. They don't hold any of that. So they feed on fear, they feed on their predators, you know.
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B
And when you said that you were sexually assaulted by them, was that also in the astral realm or was that in this realm?
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A
Both. When I was clearing those things, it was happening to me in the physical and it was weird. So like, what.
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B
Could, could you see any? Like, could you see them? Like, what did they look like per se?
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A
The one, remember, the one remembrance I have where I came to, it looked like Moloch. Do you know who Moloch is? Moloch is a demon. And it's just like this big black thing with these big black horns. Really nasty looking. Yeah, that's what it looked like.
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B
And that's when you were young or were you older at this point?
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A
I want to say that remembrance when I came to was when I was in my teens. I was in my. I want to say like 15 or 16. This was, this was ongoing and it. Even. There were other things that happened to me that I. That I do not. That I do not remember. But I've been shown the energetic structure of it. And they. My higher aspects tell me that there's a reason that you are not remembering these things.
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B
And then I guess too, like, like I was saying before, you know, obviously generally speaking there's good, there's evil, and I mean, I obviously, I fully believe in demons and ghosts and bad spirits and all that stuff. What is, how do you decipher between like an evil spirit and a ghost per se versus like an entity that's from like a different realm? Or would that be kind of like.
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A
No, ghosts are. So our spirit is our light body. So ghosts are just deadlight. Okay, that need that, like I work something that I do. One of the many things I do is I. I help those spirits pass through and merge with their higher soul.
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B
Okay.
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A
So like mediums, for example, they. They open certain energetic portals for these souls or these spirits to pass through so that. That deadlight is alchemized into higher Light. And then they. They can merge with their soul. So that ghost, right, that spirit is just a dead light body that needs to be resurrected through. Got a higher heart channel.
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B
Okay. So they don't technically hold as much power as like these other entities. Okay.
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A
Yeah. These other entities are. Are full fledged beings.
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B
Okay.
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A
And when you. You encounter things like demons, a lot of the perceived demons that aren't these, you know, other very aware entities. Like for instance, there can be a trauma demon where it's created through, let's say somebody was sexually assaulted through the channel of perversion and lust. Right. That perverted aspect of sexual energy. The original energy is mutated and so it is created. That demon is created through that experience. It's not something that like, it's created there.
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B
Okay.
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A
And then if we don't work through that, it can gain power and take, you know, but it really is just energy that needs to be transformed back to its original form.
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B
Okay. And then with your parents, do you have a relationship with them now?
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A
I do.
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B
Okay. Did it take a little bit of time to kind of like reform that, like in its own way?
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A
Yes.
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B
Okay.
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A
My dad is very, very religious. Still. Still. And he's. I mean, I. I'm very thankful for the family that I have because they're amazing. And I remember one time he said to me, I'm way too far into my relationship with God to change now, but I see what you're doing and I respect you. And that was big for me.
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B
Yeah, he's all.
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A
He was always you be you. You know, my mom struggled and still does because she has these, you know, she looks through the lens of fear.
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B
Right.
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A
I don't do that ever. So. But she, you know, she struggled with what I was doing. She. I remember one time, like, came at me and she was angry and she was like, you're a dark. You're dark, you're lost. I don't like who you've become. And life is all how we choose to see it and react. And so I said, that doesn't hurt me, but I love you. This is you. Your issues that you're experiencing, not mine.
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B
Mm.
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A
Right. The programming.
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B
Right.
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A
So I do have a relationship with them now, though.
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B
Okay, good. So you were saying to how when you let go of everything, like music and things like that. So what do you do now? Like, what is your main. Is your main goal to like, educate on all of this stuff or, like, what is it that you do for the most part, or what? I'm like, curious. Like, what can you Do.
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A
There are so many things I. In this world. The best way to describe it is grid work. I work within the. The energetic and magnetic and electrical grids within the planet on a planetary level because I've, I've integrated my full oversoul. So that's all the aspects of self. So that gives me cosmic sovereignty in terms of where my, my consciousness can travel to. I travel to the ends of the cosmos and back with different energy forms. So, like going to different planets and bringing back that energy here. And I use them in the grids to repair the grids, because the grids of this planet have been manipulated and destroyed the same way that people have. And so there are different stargates around the planets. One of them is actually in Maryland.
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B
Really?
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A
Stargate1.
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B
And what is a stargate? It's just like one of the grids.
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A
It's like a portal, basically.
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B
Okay.
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A
It's a gateway to the cosmos. And there are many across the planet and they have access to, to these other, to these other planetary systems and to the cosmic stargates. They connect. So that's where this higher light comes through. And so a lot of them have been blocked. A lot of them had been destroyed. So I work in with other, other grid workers as well to repair, Repair the grids and create new ones to make what I, what I've achieved here possible for everybody.
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B
Okay, and then are you, when you're doing this, are you doing it through meditation or you're. You can just do it?
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A
It used to be okay, and it evolved to the point where I don't have to be in consciously chosen meditation, like laying down. It's like I've turned into the meditation. It's like everything I do.
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B
And then as you've kind of been exploring all of this and doing it, have you found other people that you can connect with that kind of have similar. Yeah, yeah.
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A
And we do it together.
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B
And do these people discover you, like, on Tick Tock or just in, like.
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A
Okay, thank the great one for Tick.
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B
Tock, I was gonna say, though, like, because I, I think that. And I always say this with social media in general, it can be so terrible, you know, but at the same time, I feel like it does have a way of educating and connecting people. Even if it's just like one person that you find and you're like, you know.
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A
Yes. When I first started on there, I didn't know anything. I knew some, but, like, I was so confused about, like, what am I doing here?
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B
Right? Like, yeah.
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A
And so through the experience of being on there. Right. Like, the NPCs, the haters, the bots. But then it's like the family and the connection, and it's just been a huge tool. It's been a huge tool for ascension. That's what it's been, is it was awful in some aspects, but I'm so, so thankful for it because I. I wouldn't have been able to do any of this if it wasn't for that app.
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B
Yeah.
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A
And it's funny, like, in this modern world, we're, like, ascending through an app.
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B
Yeah. But it's almost like you have to, like, adjust and, you know, reform into what this world is doing in order to kind of connect and get through.
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A
Yeah.
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B
Because if not, like, how else do you do it? You know? Like, you need to kind of get through in some way. And right now, the biggest way is social media. That's what everybody's scrolling and. And listening to and absorbing right there.
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A
Food that they're consuming in so many ways, which is another thing that, like, kept me on there. I know where I come from and that my intentions are so true. And so if I can. If I can impact even just one person to know themselves.
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B
Yeah.
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A
On a deeper level, great. That's why I'm on there.
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B
Right. So when you make the. All your different tech talks, I know you have. You have so many. I was scrolling through when. What kind of, like, what comes to you, like, when you decide, like, all right, I'm gonna sit down and, like, make. Because I know each one kind of, like, you hit many different things. So when you're. What is your goal, like, for. And I know that we kind of talked about that, obviously, to get everybody to this, you know, different level of understanding within themselves, but I guess, like, sitting here with me today, like, because I'm all open to learning, and I want to learn, like, I kind of want to know, like, what you would want me to know. Like, what you would want to teach me as, like, someone that doesn't know much and is just, like, a viewer to you, you know, That's a good question.
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A
What would I want you to know? That you're the main character. And everything that has ever happened to you, anything that's ever hurt you or. Or made you dim or made you feel less than what you are, is actually just there to show you what a gem you are. And if we could let go and. And accept understanding that we really are cosmic royalty here. We are because we're rare here. If we can erase it and transmute it to the point where it never existed. It would open up all these doors to like an overflow of all the things that we want. That's what I would tell people is because people get, because of what they've been through, they, they guard and they shut down and they, they close down to life. But if we could go into those things that we're afraid of, it's like, it's magic.
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B
Yeah. And would you say that like the way that people could do that is through meditation for the most part. Like, is that what you would kind of recommend for a beginner and just like see what comes to them or is like, like, how do you really, you know what I mean? Like, other than watching someone like you, like, if they're not there yet to understand, like what's like a good way, how do you like kind of start your journey on that?
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A
I would say it would start with. First is a conversation, like an out loud verbal conversation with the mother, father, with the great one and with you. Because it's really just us in our highest form. This is all just a big show. It's just a big game. And it has to have the really shitty shit to have the really amazing heights. So I always tell people, have a conversation out loud. Hey, I'm here. I see you. I feel you. I know I am you. I'm ready to see my life in its fullest form. I'm ready to experience that. And I'm ready to let go of the things, mind, body and soul that need to be let go of in order to open those channels for those other things to come in. Like, I was super ballsy with mine. I just left everything.
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B
Right?
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A
So I, I always tell people, what can you let go of? Well, who can you forgive? What can you accept? What versions of yourself can you, can you stop holding on to? What stories can you let go of? Yeah, everything is a story. It's an archetype. So we create meaning. That's what I would say. Yeah, like, you don't like your job, leave it, quit your job, speak up to your family. Let go of that friend and stop giving all yourself to this.
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B
I think the hard thing is for people, at least for me too, something that I've realized is like this battle of what's within and then what's here when we open our eyes.
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A
Like, you know, nothing is as it seems.
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B
No. And then like, like I said, when I get into meditation, that's like, I feel like that's one version of me. And it's so peaceful and it's so, like, singular. Like, you're just you there, and it's great. And you can kind of, in that 20, 30 minutes, let go of everything else and just ground yourself. But then when you're back, it's not that you necessarily forget it, but then you're back in the chaos of, like, the world. So it's like, how do you balance both? And like. And are you allowed to balance both?
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A
Absolutely.
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B
Like, are you allowed to have. For example, if you're somebody that. See, like, that's the confusing thing to me too, is like. And this is kind of, I guess speaking for myself, like, I, of course, like, as a human, you know, here on this earth, it's like, you want the nice things, you want to live a good life. You know, you don't want. Nobody wants to struggle here. But then at the same time, I feel like if you're actually found in that deep, deep spiritual sense, would you care about those things? Because at the end of the day, they really are just like, materialistic or like you. You know, based on books I've read too, you're not supposed to claim anything as yours. Like, this house is not mine. These animals, even though I love them to death, like, they're not mine.
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A
Absolutely.
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B
So it's like that constant. And I feel that all the time of that battle of this reality.
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A
I love what you're saying.
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B
Yeah. But I feel like that's kind of a bit a huge battle for me. It's very like. I feel like. I feel like from what I. From only what I know. It's like, okay, like I'm getting closer to, like, reaching my higher self. But it's probably still not in this lifetime since I still do care about, like, the superficial and like, having like, that a life here.
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A
Okay, first thing, it's so much more, actually, because for us to even be connecting you. You say that I'm advanced, that, you know, you and I are in the same room together. That must mean you're pretty advanced. We're looking at each other eye to eye. We're mirrors of one another. Look at this is a beautiful place that you've created for yourself. When. When the undertone, the intention behind the nice things and. And the luxury is greed, that's different. But when you are lavish, like in your spirit and your soul, and you are royal, you are opulent, you are radiant because we come from the highest crystic light. That's true royalty. So that will reflect. When I was, you know, I didn't grow up wanting nice things. Now nice things find me.
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B
Right.
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A
Because I am lavish in my spirit, in my soul. You are lavish in your spirit, in your soul. And that's why these things find you. Look at what you're doing. This is great. This is amazing. You should be very proud. And there should be no guilt or shame associated with. With living like this. Because everyone should live like this.
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B
Yeah.
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A
You know what I mean?
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B
And I think that's kind of what makes it difficult for me, is I feel like. And I'm. I'm so grateful, you know? And I feel like more times than not, I find myself confused and most of, like, how can it be that people. And. And obviously times are very different, but how can it be that people have to work their asses off and make like. I mean, people don't get paid well, like, even if they are working their asses off, they're. They can't survive on what, you know, these jobs are paying.
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A
The world has been structured in a way that is. And it's. It was very thought out. It was very thought out. It's. The way this world has been structured is so backwards. And the people have been taken advantage of and they've been manipulated and they've been turned into slaves.
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B
Yeah.
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A
And one of the things. One of my main intentions behind what I. What I've been doing is the quantum financial system. I've been investing into the quantum financial system for years, which is me investing into myself because it's the understanding that your energy is your currency. So part of what I did was I didn't have an income and I gave up everything I had to attain the feeling and the embodiment of my wildest lavish dreams without actually achieving it. Yet I achieved it through feeling and.
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B
Embodiment first, which technically would be like the manifestation term, right?
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A
Yes.
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B
Okay. And like tasting it, smelling it, being it before, it's actually right happening here.
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A
And that's not something that happens overnight. That's not something where you sit in your bed before bed and you're like.
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B
And it happens tomorrow. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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A
It's through great initiation and great sacrifice and with the understanding that the word sacrifice in etymology actually means to become whole. So it's letting go of all things. And obviously not everyone is going to do it as radically as I chose to. But I set my life up so that I could, because again, one person who does it to an extreme place does it for everyone. And my what I was creating. Manifestation, if you will. But what I was creating within myself was a manifestation so big that it would take years to embody that frequency. But it was the idea that there will be this amazing quantum inheritance, a divine inheritance that all beings will receive that makes everything disappear. Their struggle, their suffering, their poverty, their lack. That I would be with a partner that we could call so much in. And. And this is just in my world. And give.
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B
Yeah.
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A
Give, give, give, give, give, give, give. Like Mr. And Mrs. Claus.
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B
Yeah. And that's the thing too, like, that I have found with myself. It's like, I feel like I am such a. I try to be such a giving person, like, where I can be obviously within my means. But, like, I. It just. It's like I said, it's kind of hard, I think, when you don't have that much knowledge. And it's kind of like. Like what you said, you kind of. How you started out, you didn't. It's almost like if you don't have a teacher, you're kind of like learning on your own. And it's like everybody's going to translate things differently. Like, I think for me, the first. I would say the first understanding or beginning of understanding is when I read the Joe Dispenza book. That, like, really opened up a door for me with. That was honestly the first time I felt meditation. Like, truly, like, learned to feel it and could feel the energy. And now it's like I can feel it every time, like, way easier. And then it was funny, like, then I found my therapist who's, like, way more like, very spiritual therapist. Love her.
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A
Amazing.
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B
Like, and obviously it's like. And it's interesting because, I mean, you make everything work, but, like, it's not. And it's not a normal therapist, so it's not covered by insurance. It's not something where it's like. And I've done therapists like that, you know, and very transactional and not. It's just not there. And with her, it's like she's. It's so aligned, you know, so it's like I had that. And then I've read these books that have, like, kind of given me more clarity. And I. I just feel like. And it all has happened so recently, you know, and it's just so. It's just so interesting, like, the things that come up in life and how. How much you change and evolve. But even now, it's like, I was just talking to her the other day. This is a funny, like, side note, but we were just talking about some of the things that just keep bothering me and re. Bothering me. And I can't shake them. And she somehow got brought up of like my, my old self. Like me in high school old self. She was like, if she was standing here, what would you say to her? And I like literally couldn't get words out. Like, it was just like I said, I don't want to talk to her. Like, ew, it's gross to me, you know, And I didn't even know that. And she was like, she was like, I feel uncomfortable. She was like, I feel like you guys are on the screen, cool yard, about to like you're about to rip her hair out. And I was like, it's so weird. Like I didn't even know I had that much anger and feeling. But it's like we, we evolve so much and it can happen so quickly.
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A
Yeah.
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B
And it's like. And I know even from the person I am sitting here today, how I'm going to evolve even from this person. You know, it's like it's a never ending thing. But you know, all of this has happened so fast and I just, there's not many people that I feel like I can talk. It all feels like it's within myself, you know, it's like this, this game, as you would say, or this thing within that I'm kind of discovering and evolving within myself. But I mean, I have a couple close friends I can talk to about it. But do they really get it? Are they on the same path or journey? Not really. So it's like, it's kind of interesting. Like other than my therapist and like maybe one other friend of mine, it's kind of like when I do my meditations and things like that, it's kind of like my own world. And I think that is why recently I've been wanting to stick to myself more because it's like people don't really get it, you know, and that's why too. It's like, it's interesting when I, this morning when I was going back through your tick tocks again, which honestly swear to you I don't do. Like, I don't really have that calling to be like, oh, let me understand what this is gonna be, you know, like, because I, I always have like a, a quick title of like what or a, you know, a sentence of what each episode is and I go into it blindly so that I can kind of take it all in, in that moment. And I was looking at your TikTok today and I'm like scrolling through and like there was only like one that I was like, okay, I kind of know what she means by that. And the rest. I was like, I'm so unfamiliar. And I was, like, as unfamiliar as it was, I was so, like. Like. Like, that's what is pulling me in. It's like, I just. You know what I mean? It's almost that. And it's weird because part of me was like, typically, this isn't something that I'd, like, see and be like, I have to reach out and, like. Because it's. It's something like I just said that only I have really done that work within myself. It doesn't always reflect in my show, but I thought it was interesting that I've wanted to bring this type of conversation on the show.
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A
I thought the same thing.
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B
You know, it's just so. Because there really isn't many people that will understand or even have an interest, which is fine. But I think it's something that people don't realize. Even if you just take. And this goes. This is like. I feel like the most simple thing you can do for yourself. Like, if you. If people can just sit with themselves in solitude, like, genuinely by themselves, and, like I say, meditate, but, like, just be with themselves and, like, breathe and ground themselves and let go of everything.
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A
Yes. Yeah.
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I mean, I. And like I said, I love my animals, but I lock myself in my closet because they're really. I don't want any distraction. I don't want any sound. I feel like if people could do that, they discover so much more about themselves, about their lives, but nobody can. Nobody wants to.
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A
Everybody.
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B
It's almost like they like the chaos. They like the. I don't know.
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A
Do you see how wise you are?
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B
I don't know. No, I'm, like, very. I don't really give myself a lot of credit for some reason, about. I don't know.
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A
Please do, because you're amazing.
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B
Thank you.
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A
That right there. If. Let's go back to that question. What would I. Be alone with yourself. Do Nothing.
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B
Yeah.
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A
Sit in silence. Sit in silence for a couple of weeks.
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B
You learn so much.
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A
A few. Six weeks. Six weeks is all it'll take. Like, nothing. Like you just said, it will. It just revolutionary because then your entire being reprograms itself in complete stillness so it doesn't have the information of anything else but itself. It filters. It filters. It filters and then it resets. It resets to its, like, original settings. And then when you go back out into the world, you're perceiving everything differently.
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B
Everything. Yeah.
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A
You reprogram yourself completely, and that's the.
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B
Thing too is like, I think we're shown so many things constantly, especially when we're scrolling, that I think it's almost, you know, this reality's way of convincing you of what you like or what you should be doing or anything else. And it's interesting. I've had a couple times and it's not every time, you know, I think that's important for people to know too. You're not always going to have a good meditation or a good alone time. And I've had some where I don't feel anything and I don't, you know. But there's been these other times that I'll get these weird. I don't even know if you could consider the messages where I'll randomly just see a date or like, hear a date, or like I'll randomly see something and I'm like, I don't care what anybody says. Like, my mind didn't just roll that out of nowhere, you know, and it's like, it doesn't make sense to me. And maybe one day it will, maybe it won't. I don't know if it's like a. A past vision, what, what it is even. This is so random and so unimportant in my opinion. But I thought it was so intriguing to me in the sense of what I was just saying, of like, we're. We see all these things and we think we like certain things we don't like. I. I'm a single girl. I don't know if I'll ever get married or do anything of the sort. But, you know, I remember I was in meditation one time and I was sitting there and I got this vision of just like this huge, grand, like. And I've never even traveled anywhere like this, but just like this huge building and all this architecture and, oh, this, like all these, like this, these stairs and all this stuff. And I remember when I came out of meditation, I thought to myself, like, if I ever do get married, you know, and it was just like a random thought like this.
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A
You were seeing a cathedral.
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B
Yeah, like. But it was like. It was, but it was. I don't know if it was a cathedral. It was just this. It was a huge build. Like almost like something you'd see in like Rome or like Italy and like with huge staircase. I mean, grand, like beautiful, you know, but it was interesting because in this world, I've always thought when I get married, I like, you know, I love farmland and grass and I'd want to get married with or like be around like nature.
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A
Right.
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B
And I do love nature, but this was just like. It was something that I didn't know I saw beauty in. And after I came out of it, it was so interesting. And then I was, like, doing research, you know, on my phone of, like on Pinterest and looking things up to kind of try to find what I saw. And I found a couple pictures, and I was like. And not even that it really would have to do necessarily with a wedding or a man or anything like that. It just was like. That's just where my head went with it. And it was so random. And once again, I don't know the meaning.
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A
Okay. It's amazing because in quantum architecture and crystal architecture, which is the higher light. They're cathedrals. That's what they look like. And they're built within the heart space, within the soul.
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B
Okay.
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A
And that's what the light body is built of. And. And. And you can even see it in. In other, like, sacred texts. They talk about.
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B
Yeah.
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A
The. The many mansions that. The cathedrals. That's.
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B
Okay.
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A
What. That's what they look like.
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B
Yeah. And. And it's interesting. So I almost feel like. Because I'm still on this, like, this, like, back and forth. I feel like the way that it gets through to my mind is like the only way that maybe I'd understand it with, like, through, like, a marriage or love, per se. Because that's, like, the easiest way we've.
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A
Assigned meaning to that.
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B
Yeah. And I think. But it's weird because when I came out of it, it wasn't like, I need to get married here. You know what I mean? But that's just kind of how it was shown to me. But I know that it didn't necessarily mean it wasn't a. I knew it didn't.
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A
It has to do with intermarriage.
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B
Yeah. Like, I almost feel like it was more like that union of self. Yes.
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A
Yes.
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B
Rather than like a man figure. Yeah. I didn't. It didn't. It was just. It was just crazy to me that I found I never would have, like. You know, because, like, like I said, why would. In meditation. Why would you randomly think of. Of that? It's just so random and just like, the dates I've. It's just weird.
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A
Wow.
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B
Yeah. But I've had things like. And it's. Like I said, it's not every time, but I've had things like that happen. And I. I've had moments where I've doubted myself or questioned things. And then within these meditations, it's Like, I. It's in those moments that I feel the most strong and confident, you know, because you're. I'm, like, sitting there, and I'm like, I don't need to be worried about this, this, and this. I don't need to worry about missing out on this. Like, I am whole and I have enough with myself. But it's hard, very hard in this realm to genuinely discover and believe that. I think it's way easier to believe that and feel that and become that when you're actually just with your. Within yourself and in that meditation.
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A
I honestly am so stoked that you just said that about the. And they are called cathedrals.
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B
I have to show you what I like. Something that I bookmarked on Pinterest that, like, was the closest thing to what I saw.
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A
So I spend a lot of my time there in these cathedrals. That's where I spend most of my time when I'm.
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B
They're gorgeous, but it's just so weird. Like, I never would have.
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A
You're. You're with your higher aspects when you're there, which is like, why feel that way?
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B
Yeah, like that. Which. Like this. Yes.
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A
Yes.
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B
That's what I saw. And it was just so weird because in my head, I'm like, I would have never. In this realm that's never been something that's, like, I felt called me or I thought, you know. But it's another thing is, like, the one place I really have always wanted to go and I've never traveled, like, anywhere. Like this is, like, Italy and, you know, and it's not. I don't know. It's just so interesting. Isn't that so?
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A
It is. It is. Because I know what that. What that means. I know what that is. Like, it's. It's the home of the soul. So you. You were experiencing your higher aspects and where they are and what they're doing.
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B
Okay. So that's in your soul.
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A
And your soul. Yeah.
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B
Okay, good.
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A
And the more time that you spend there, I'll like, again, when it comes to people developing a structure to. To meditation and, like, spending time in solitude, using visualization is so important because.
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B
Yeah.
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A
Visualizing and allowing your imagination to show you and create with you and trusting it and not judging what it looks like and what it creates. Right. Like, you were with your higher aspects when you were there. The more time that you can spend there, the more you. Your light body will open up.
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B
And I need. That's like. That kind of goes back to what I was saying about that battle of here and there, because it's so easy to not show up for yourself. And I mean, that's what you're like. When I'm in meditation, I know that's the best thing I can do for myself that day in every way, shape and form. Like, if. If I start out my day that way, I know it's going to be better if I end my day that way, I know it's going to be better if I do it midday. You know, that's like, when I can feel the most. I mean, there's been times I wear my aura ring. There's been times that, like, I was fully awake, but my ring, it came up that I was napping because I was able to get that. And I thought that was. I was so proud of myself. I was like, that means I slowed down.
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A
Yeah.
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B
That much.
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A
Zero point state.
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B
Yeah. That my ring thought I was napping. I was like, stunned.
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A
Amazing.
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B
Stunned. That was. It only has happened once.
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A
I keep seeing, like, what? Light or like, little, like, orbs. There's been like a blue one, like a, like, rainbow one.
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B
Really?
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A
Yeah. There's just so much.
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B
Is that good?
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A
Yeah, I feel like there's so much opening up right now.
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B
It's okay. Good.
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A
It's. I don't usually see this many. You're really. Yeah. Yeah.
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B
Wow.
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A
Yeah. You're so beautiful. Thank you. Thank you. I love it.
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B
No, it's interesting too, because even, like, when you say things like, even when you're like, oh, you should be proud of what you're doing, like, I know what, like, it means something coming from you, because I know, like, I feel it. Like, I. And I believe it, but you know, in Southern, people are like, oh, like, what you do is amazing. It's like, hard to. I don't always. I kind of don't. Like, I don't, like, is that transactional?
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A
Is it?
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B
I just don't love to take it in because I don't. I'm. I just don't think that's who I am in the sense of like, oh, thank you. I know. You know what I mean? Like, so I just. I'm like, oh, like, I do it for you guys, you know, like, it's just. But I don't always. And I know that's. Every now and then I should be proud of it.
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A
And.
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B
And, you know, but I don't always like to take it in. But when you said it, I, like, I knew that you meant it.
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A
Good.
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B
But, yeah, I don't know. It's just. I think when it comes to spending that time alone, it's like. It's so easy to just push it to the side. I'll do it tomorrow. But I need. I know I need to get better at, like, at least doing it daily.
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A
Yeah.
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B
Because I know that so much, so many good things would come.
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A
It's so true. When I first started, you know, meditating, I would do it for five, five minutes, and then it, you know, progressed and right to 30, and then an hour and then three hours. It's like. And then it eventually just. You become the meditation, you become the dance, and it again. You're right. If more people would just take time to flow and then cultivate peace amongst, like. Most people don't want to spend time alone with themselves.
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B
They can't.
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A
It's too chaotic. There's too many things that come up, but they're supposed to. To be felt and observed.
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B
Well, what's crazy is when I first started, in that time of solitude, chaos would come up. Or I have all these thoughts about I have to do this, this, and this. And now it's like my escape. Like, that stuff doesn't really come up now. It's almost like I let whatever come in flowing. Yeah. But, like, there was a point when I started that it's almost like we're so used to our brain going and going that it's like, oh, well, I have to do this and I do this. But now it's like, maybe that'll happen for the first few minutes, but that's very. I feel like I've gotten a lot better. Just like now's not the time. You don't have to worry about that. You don't have to think about that. But.
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A
And all of those thought forms and those emotions are just deadlight. There's layers of deadlight that come up. And the fact that you've gotten to the point where it's. I'm telling you, I can't believe I'm.
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B
In the cathedral thing. That's crazy.
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A
I know.
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B
It's even crazier that I even, like, brought that up, because I know, you know. Okay, to my two questions, one, you were saying how you met with a medium.
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A
Yes.
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B
So my question is, do you think that you could tap into that stuff as well, or is that, like, a different level of, like, medium work and things like that?
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A
You mean tapping? Tapping into stuff as in, like, how.
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B
You got, like, how she was able to, like, have that sense of knowing and, like, give you that confirmation.
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A
I think I have a different placeholder.
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B
Okay.
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A
You know, I, I do have some mediumship abilities, but my, My. I have a different role, if that makes sense. Like, that's not.
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B
Okay.
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A
That's her radical, radical gift. Like, we all have our own templates and blueprints that we exist on. And so like her. Her beautiful intensity and knowing in that really helped me.
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B
Okay.
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A
She helped me so greatly in terms of bringing my full power to the surface. Having that wisdom and that love and that power of my highest aspects really come. Because I was struggling with.
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B
Yes. Okay, that makes sense.
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A
Because I had worked in a group of women and it just was.
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B
Yeah.
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A
Bizarre. And she, she was able to see that they were kind of feeding on my energy.
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B
Yeah.
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A
So I. She was like, but there's no blame game here. If you're not going to use it, you're leaving it open for other people to feed on. I'm like, okay. Because I don't do the whole blame thing.
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B
Okay.
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A
You know, that's victim mentality.
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B
Yeah.
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A
Take responsibility for yourself. Stop blaming things outside of yourself. I'm big on that because again, we chose this and it's how, how radically awesome can you be? Like, how abundant in terms of perspective can you be? But to answer your question that. I think I answered it like that.
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B
Yeah.
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A
You know, different roles.
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B
That makes sense. That makes a lot of sense.
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A
Yeah.
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B
And then my other question is, so I'm somebody that I'm big on love. Okay. Love, love, love. But I also think that it's very, very rare and difficult to actually find true, deep love and connection within a person, a partner.
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A
Oh, man. This is a whole thing.
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B
I. I hate it. So I wanted to know your opinion and perspective on it because. And this kind of honestly ties into the little things I was telling you, whether I was like saying I don't know if I want to have kids or even like the marriage thing. That's how it came through to me. A meditation. But. And it's not that I'm have negativity towards it because I love love. I think love can be amazing if it's a real deep connection. I just think some people don't even find that once in a lifetime, but sometimes more so recently, it seems like life. Let me think out over this. Not life would be easier, but life makes more sense to me mentally alone. Like, I don't foresee. I don't know, I found it. Like, I've had that feeling and I. And I don't know. I'm not going to sit here and say I wouldn't find it again. But it's just. I don't. Where I am right now. And the understanding I have right now, I don't. I. There's a lot of people. And I even was guilty of this for a long time. Searching, searching, search. I just want a person. I want a person. I want.
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A
Yeah, I get it.
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B
Yeah. Like, you want that security. You want that feeling. But, like, if once you've felt a deep connection with another human being or another soul, you can't. That's not replaceable. Like, and all of the. Like, they just become like a placeholder. And if there's no deep connection, why are they even there? You know, just get. Get out of my space. So I guess now, like I said, right now it kind of feels like, realistically, it just makes more sense for me to be by myself. And maybe that's just like my time right now.
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A
Exactly.
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B
You know, But I wanted your perspective on love and in that stuff because. And I. Like I said, then I read the book Only Love is Real, and that really answered and confirmed some things for me.
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A
But, okay, I've always known. I've always known. Since 2016, I had a massive awakening. That was also the year that my implants flared up, because it was like a pivotal time for me. So I've always known that a sacred partnership was in the books for me. Not just any ordinary partnership, but a very sacred partnership, one of divine counterparts. There's a lot of different names that go around about it. A lot of people love to talk about twin flames, all this stuff. I've never. I've always been on the journey. I've never talked about it because I'm not going to talk about things that I don't know about. And I. That one has stumped me. It's always stumped me. I see myself and I know my value and I know what I deserve in a partner. You know, the kind of partner I deserve. But like you said, you feel like it's best for you to be alone. That was something I had to throw myself into, was being alone, because I really didn't want to be. And I got into a really messy situation with my former partner and decided to leave it and spend time becoming sovereign in my own being. When it comes to love, I don't want someone that completes me. I don't want. I don't need anybody. I want that. Yes, there's a reason I feel it so strongly. It's not because I'm needing anything outside of myself. It's because when we feel things strongly, like, oh, I feel that it's because it's already. It's already happened, it's already written. That's why we're feeling it so strongly, because it already is. If it wasn't, we wouldn't feel it. So when people are like, they desire something so strongly, it's because that's in the books for you. Maybe not now, but eventually. And I knew in my soul that it was imperative for me to become a full, sovereign whole being first before I came into any sort of union again. I don't want anyone that I. You don't complete me. I don't need you.
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B
Right.
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A
I choose you. And we accentuate one another and we complement one another. We are two whole sovereign beings that choose to create something together that is true to me, that's true love. And I remember being in the place where I thought it was never going to happen. And I thought it'd be better to just be alone because I don't meet many people who I resonate with and who are going to meet me at my level. And I don't say that in any way that's anything besides what it is. And you know it and you feel it. And I just recently came into a really beautiful union with someone. And he is completely sovereign. And he's. He allows me to be. He supports me in my fullness. He doesn't want me to be anything other than what I am. He doesn't get attached. There's a difference between attachment and connection. And it's beautiful because I had no idea it was going to be him. And he has supported me in many ways for the last year. Like when I had nowhere to live, when I had nobody, he just gave, gave, gave, gave, gave. And I was so apprehensive. I was like, nope, we're never going to be together. You and me are never going to be. Because he was so. I could feel his love for me and he was like, I have no expectations. I have unconditional love for you. That means no, no condition. Whether I'm your friend, whatever. I'm here, I see you, I support you. Like, whatever you need. Like, literally has taken care of me in ways. I'm like, how did you know that? You show up with exactly what I needed, always. Like, I. I had an instance recently where I was bit by a tick. I had an implant in my right hip and I got bit by a tick on my right hip, and it turned into Lyme's disease and encephalitis, and it was really bad. And I was able to heal it myself without any medical attention. He was always showing up on my doorstep because I lived in his guest house with, like, exactly what I needed. And it was so beautiful the way that it came in because we had our union. Like, we came in together, like, physically, mind, body and soul on my former wedding day with my, like, on the same day. And it was like all of this illusion disappeared and we saw each other and I was, like, so surprised. I was so surprised. And it's. It's new and it's everything that I ever dreamt of.
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B
Yeah.
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A
And I remember I told my higher aspects many times, I'm going to be alone. I will not be with anyone unless this, this, this, this, this, this, this, this. I named it all off, right? And this man has done every single one.
- [90:11]
B
Wow.
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A
And I was so. It was such a surprise to me. And it keeps slowly unveiling to, like, the heart of all. The heart of all is shining through beyond human. Like the heart of. Of the. The great I am keeps shining through it more and more every day. And I'm just so grateful because I started to get skewed. There were times that I. I would skew the idea of what love is on this planet. And then it just surprised me in the most beautiful way. And I was humbled by it. Like, wow.
- [91:00]
B
Yeah.
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A
And it's like I belong to myself and I still can have this beautiful connection that is in and of itself a whole thing.
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B
Right.
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A
I feel I was involved in a lot of relationships and connections that were trying to mimic this great thing and kind of hold on to me, possessive, you know? And each one of those helped me burst through to a. To a more beautiful aspect of myself. Another aspect, another aspect, Another aspect. And then I finally got to the point where I was just so sovereign and so whole and so complete in myself that it was like, huh, showed up.
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B
Yeah.
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A
So that's how I feel. I feel we must choose ourselves and become whole first. And it'll. It'll surprise you, right? It'll really surprise you.
- [92:05]
B
And so, like, I guess, like, how I was talking about feeling, like, a really deep connection. Like, I've been in a good amount of relationships, you know, too many, and it's fine, you know.
- [92:18]
A
Yes, it is. It's all part of it. Yeah.
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B
And they, you know, I. I'm the type of person when I, you know, when I allow you into my bubble in any way, shape or form, I always have, like, a little more care for you than, like, just like a stranger on the street. Even if it didn't end well just because you. You. You spend time with that person. There is only one individual that. And I don't even want to describe it as, like, I'm not going to sit here and say, oh, like, he's the love of my life, you know? But the connection that I have with this person, it just won't diminish. And I. Or break. Doesn't matter. How long goes between not speaking, it will not. I talk to my therapist all the time. She's like, how are you doing in this? I'm like, look, I'm. I'm fine, you know, Like, I haven't talked to this person in over a year. My life goes on. I'm fine. But that feeling has not. It's like chipping away at a rock. Like, it's just not going away. It's not. I can't shake it. And it is the most confusing thing to me, and I can't. It's just something I feel like. I feel like I've gained a pretty good understanding of things in my life and whys and, oh, I think this way because of that. And I. This is one I just can't figure out. And when I read the book Only Love is Real, you know, it. It confirmed for me of, like, okay, maybe this person was somebody and like, in a different lifetime ago, maybe, and we could have been anything. We could have been mom and dad. We could have been brother and brother. You don't. You don't know. And I believe. I think the easiest thing for me to believe is that that is why I can't seem to, like, break that connection in the. In this lifetime. But that being said, I think that has been something that has skewed love for me in a way, because in my head, it's made me feel like if I can't find that kind of drawn connection to a person's soul, like, that's what it is. It's not. It's not something where you're like, this is the right kind of love. This is healthy love. It's not that kind of. It's not like relationship. It's not. You know what I mean? It's not like I'm not describing that. It's more so I. That connection and that. That it literally feels like there's. I mean, and I've done so many cord cutting meditations. That is not cutting through. And if it's cutting in that meditation, it grows right back. Like, it's just not. And I can't. That's like the One thing that it just. And it's very frustrating, I think, because, you know, like. Like I said, you can know that you're fine. Like you. I don't need anyone. I say that all the time. And I don't. And I know. I don't know.
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A
I understand.
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B
But it's so frustrating, you know, to, like, go, like, to have those feelings and to not be able to do anything, I guess, about it, or not to be able to have that connection in this lifetime. My therapist always says, just not. Not in this lifetime, or, like, not right now, you know?
- [95:25]
A
And it's definitely in this lifetime.
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B
Okay.
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A
I was in the exact same position, the messy situation that I was in, and I kept breaking away at it every day because it had this hold on me.
- [95:40]
B
That's what it's like. A hold.
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A
Yeah. And I realized that entire connection was a major, major attachment that was only a mirror of how I felt about myself. I realized that it was never about him. It was about me. And I didn't realize that until I fully got to the other. And it. Oh, man. That had a hold on me.
- [96:11]
B
That. I mean, that's what it. That's what it feels like. And like, my. My last therapy session, we kind of got more of an understanding. And I, I. There are many times that I think to myself, it really isn't. If you really look at the.
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The.
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The grand scheme of things, it isn't that person. You know, It's. It's. It's more like I am attached to something there.
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Right.
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And I think that's kind of why the old version of me got brought up, because it's like I hold on to that, and I. I don't know why it's a mistake. Well, this person knew me at this time of my life, and that holds a special place or like, you know, they were the first person to really understand me. But it is like that reflection, I think, more so of what I'm holding on to so dearly versus.
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Right.
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This person is healthy in my life. Because it's not. They're not. Like, it's not, you know, what they're gonna be. No. And it's not something. It's more. It's not even like you're craving that person. It's like you're craving that connection that you feeling felt. Right.
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Exactly. And these things are, again, are our contracts that we agree to.
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Yeah. It's like, okay, but like, that hold, it's like it doesn't matter. Oh, my God. It's like I. And it's crazy. It's just like, it. It doesn't. And I'll have days where I'm like, all right, I'm not thinking about it as much today, but it's like, then I'll have a day where it's just right there again. Like, you know, and it's just. But it's very frustrating because I do think that. And it could be anything. It could be a person, a thing, a place, you know, that has that kind of hold. But it's like a very depleting feeling. Like it. Because you don't have control over it or the power over it yet.
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Yeah. And to get to that feeling without anyone. That feeling. Right.
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And that's the thing, I think for so long, why I dated so much is because I was trying to replace.
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Or to feel that feeling again.
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Right. And now I'm genuinely at a place where I enjoy my solitude in my alone time. And I. And I was just saying too, to my therapist, I can genuinely say this is the first time I've been alone and enjoyed it. Genuinely enjoyed it. And I know that this is the best place for me to be. But now it's like, then I have that internal. Not struggle, but like, that thought of, like, do I think I'm ever gonna find that? No. But I've also. I'm accepting of it. Like, I don't really care because, like, I rather spend time by myself than spend time with an individual that just has absolutely nothing.
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Yeah. And no one should.
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No.
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Ever.
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Yeah.
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And it's always going to be, you know, the. It's like. It's like the layers of it where you're wanting it, you're looking for it, then you don't care. Then you've let go, Then you don't. You know, you stop thinking about it less and less. And it's because you're calling back so much of yourself.
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Right.
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Every time you do that.
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Right. Because you're giving away energy when you do that. And it drives me nuts. I'm like, why am I putting so much energy.
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It was always you.
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Yeah. I'm putting so much energy into this thought and into. And it's not worth it.
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Exactly.
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But I feel like people do that all day long. And it doesn't even have to be, like, a connection. It could be stress, it could be anything.
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They allow these thought forms that aren't even actually real.
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Right.
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It's dictate what they call in your head.
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Yeah.
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And if you can zoom out and be the observer, like the awareness behind the thoughts the consciousness behind all of it. And be like, okay, I love you. Goodbye. I love you. Goodbye. I love you. Goodbye. I love you. Goodbye. I'm gonna pick these ones. Like, you can cultivate a. A wardrobe of, like, these lavish thoughts. Right. That are, like, the highest for you.
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Yeah.
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Takes work a lot. That's what these connections are. That's all they are.
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Yeah.
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And it's super comforting to understand that and have that perspective of these things instead of going down those, like, mutated thought forms of. Of oneself.
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Right.
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And zooming out and choosing which ones you allow yourself to. To believe.
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Right.
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Choosing which ones go into your closet.
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And I think too, like, you bringing up awareness and stuff, the more aware you are, I think the easier it becomes to kind of snap yourself out of those moments. Because there's times where, like, if you allow yourself to sit in those thoughts, it's like a spiral.
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Yeah.
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But if you can, like, be aware and kind of.
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It's the observer mentality.
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Yeah.
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I am not my thoughts.
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Right.
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Not my emotions. I am the consciousness behind the consciousness, behind the consciousness. I like. I am the creator. So to have that is that. That will change anyone's life. But I'm this. No, you're not. You're the conscience behind it.
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Right.
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You get to choose, change it. Rewrite it in this moment. Visualize it and let it go. Move forward. It's like, so much quicker.
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I know.
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And it can just like the whole ask the. The understanding of, like, shifting timelines and quantum leaping and all of that has everything to do with thought and emotion. If you can master the emotional body and the mental body as the observer, you will jump, leap every day. It's all magnetism. It's all electrical. It's all thought. It's all emotion.
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Amazing. Like, it's crazy. It's crazy because. And I only have a little bit of understanding of it.
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I do have more than you think.
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I don't. I need to. I need to have more. Like, I need.
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I need more.
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This is right now.
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And it's very beautiful.
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It's like, you know, it's.
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You want.
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Like, I want more. But I really do believe that it's like you can only read and listen to so much. Like, I do think a lot of it comes when you're within yourself.
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Y.
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Like it. It will just come in those times.
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And it'll come right when it's supposed to.
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Yeah.
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Whether you're aware of it or not.
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And then I think, like, everything we see around it, like, for example, like, someone might be Sitting in meditation and thought and solitude and these things might come to them and then they might see one of your tick tocks and it's more of like a confirmation and like, okay, this person gets it.
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Let me join that community like you. Hello, you're there. I don't know, it's amazing. Yes.
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Okay, I'm glad you. As long as you think that you're the professional.
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Yes. So are you.
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No. Yeah, I. I don't think my. I don't think something's not caught. My brain's not caught up to like.
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It will.
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Okay?
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It will.
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It needs to.
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Yeah.
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Yeah. I mean, like I said, like, I love to have these types of conversations with someone like you because I just, I do believe it's such a different angle and understanding and perspective. And it's interesting because I feel like we have these professionals in the world, you know, your therapist, your doctors is that. And the other. You're superficial professional.
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Right.
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And you know, it's like half the world likes to get that. Those opinions and then like I've always just been more drawn to like. But where's the deeper meaning? Like I've always been sub. And that's like kind of. I just had like this is just something I thought of as well. Like I've always been somebody that's so drawn to. Like I've always said I love, love. Like love is what makes the world go around. But I think it's deeper than that. It's more so I think when I say that, I mean like the deeper connections of things. Like deeper meanings. Like life is so. Would be so sad if it was all just surface level. Like I. Everything is so much more special if it has a. A reason and a deeper meaning and an understanding.
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Yeah.
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You know, like. And I just feel like that's why I think it's like for me it's so much more intriguing to hear your reasonings and your mindsets of things because I just think that it comes from a way more in tune place than just by the book.
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Right. It comes from the all. Yes, the great all within. All of us is the same. Well, not the same because we're not all the same. But this beautiful essence of the eternal. I am the great One, right? Where the. The flame we all come from. The light emanations that we're all made of. We're all made of light. And so you see so much about gurus, therapists, psychologists, ascended masters, whatever. And this is the era of everyone. Everyone is the guru. People are so often looking at Things outside of themselves that, you know, they. They that are uplifting to them and encouraging. But I just want people to understand that the, the reason you are drawn to that is because that's you too. Everybody is the guru. So many of the ancient texts that have been written, I've never read some of them and I've channeled them myself in, in my own book. It's. We are conduits of information that is constantly being recycled. It doesn't belong to us, but anyone can access it if they believe it, if they understand that they're worthy. Anyone and everyone is. That guru is that Christed being, which just means anointed, which means enlightened, which means, you know, it's holding all that light. That's what I want to say is anyone and everyone is capable of and worthy of that. We're not just on a floating rock by. By instance, you know, there's so many different races of life forms and we have all of them here. And this is like a big show. I can see the cosmic beings just watching because this is the greatest time that this planet has ever seen. This has never been done. The ascension of a planet into higher dimension with everybody watching. And it's. If everybody could understand that they are worthy. They are that greatness that they're seeing outside of themselves, and that's the reason they're seeing it. We all play our own role. Everybody holds a different blueprint, a different codex that's unique to them. And no one can be you the way you can. That's what's so special, is that this is a tapestry, a unique tapestry of love and wisdom and truth and power. And the greatest weapon against anything that would suppress any being is their knowing of themselves and their love of themselves and them seeing themselves the way that the Great One does. That's what I would say.
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I love that. So my last question for you, for me or anyone, for anyone listening that wants to have a better understanding of themselves, of, you know, they're more just more wisdom within all of this. Would your suggestion be meditation and solitude to kind of gain that understanding?
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My suggestion would be do what you love. Chase your highest passion every single day, even if it doesn't make sense. The littlest things. Let go of other people's perceptions of you. Let go of the people who are dedicated to misunderstanding you.
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Let them be true to you.
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Just do what you love every single day. Like that saying. Chase your highest passion with zero expectation of what it's going to look like.
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Yeah.
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Zero expected outcome. Just do what you love, what lights you up, even if you're broke for a while, you're not really. Yeah, I'm wealthy. I have a wealthy spirit and a wealthy soul. And that is that love, that ever expanding love. That's what I would say. Whatever taking care of you looks like. Whatever choosing you looks like every day. Self care. And in the boldest sense, be bold with loving yourself. Because how can we help anyone if we're not overflowing? I want to be overflowing. I am not going to help anyone if I am not overflowing because I'm. We save ourselves.
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Yeah.
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And really, it's just remembering what we really are.
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And I feel like that's. Anytime that you do something for yourself, you're showing up for yourself, and therefore.
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You'Re showing up for everyone.
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Yeah. I don't think a lot of people realize that.
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It's. It's kind of a very broad thing to say, but then when you really have those higher aspects integrated into your being, you understand it on such a deep level. Like, that used to mean nothing to me. I'm like, what does that mean? And now I'm like, it's like a full circle thing. Yeah. Yeah.
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B
No, it makes sense. Yeah. But it was. Honestly, it was such an honor having you here.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for sharing. You know, just. I feel like it was just like a tidbit of your wisdom and understanding. But no, I think it was great. And I loved having this conversation with you, honestly. And it answered some things for me.
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Yes.
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Which was so amazing. And I'm so glad that some of these things got brought up because, like, like you said in the beginning, it's. It's great, I think, when you don't plan and then it just kind of naturally flows and whatever happens. But I love this, every second of it. So thank you and thank you for traveling out here.
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Thank you. It means a lot to me, giving me the opportunity. This has been awesome.
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Of course. And then obviously I would like, if you want me to, I'll link all of your stuff, please, so that people can, you know, get more information, listen, follow whatever.