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Ted Bundy Tried to Kill Me

What It Was Like

Sat Feb 28 2026

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Podcast Summary: What It Was Like – “Ted Bundy Tried to Kill Me”

Host: Julian Morgans
Guest: Connie Geldridge
Release Date: February 28, 2026

Overview

In this gripping and deeply personal episode of What It Was Like, host Julian Morgans interviews Connie Geldridge, who at age 14 survived a chilling encounter with Ted Bundy in Washington state. Decades before Bundy’s infamous murder spree and capture, Connie experienced firsthand the early signs of his sadism and desire for control.

This conversation not only explores Connie’s terrifying experience with Bundy, but also delves into the lifelong trauma it caused, the failure of adults to listen or act, and Connie’s perspective on serial killers and the culture that has grown around them. The interview is raw, honest, and sheds new light on Bundy’s formative years and the wounds victims carry.

Key Discussion Points & Insights

Connie’s Background and Family Life

Connie’s Difficult Childhood
- Raised in a chaotic, hostile home environment in a cramped house with six family members ([06:20]):
  
  “My childhood was pretty ugly as far as parents go...There was six of us living in 800 square feet, two bedrooms and one bathroom.”
  — Connie, [06:20]
- Parents were often neglectful or hostile; her mother showed more interest in outdoors activities than mothering.

The Day at the Lake: Connie Meets Ted Bundy

The Encounter Begins
- 1967, Connie is 14, forced to go to the lake with family ([07:26]).
- After a heated argument with her mother over her swimsuit, Connie wanders alone and sits under a tree, upset.
Introduction to “Ted”
- Connie hears rustling and sees a “lifeguard” emerge—Ted Bundy, a young man with a yellow bootlace-tied whistle ([10:00]).
  
  “He said, hi, I'm the lifeguard...I said, when did they hire lifeguards? And he goes, we're new...He said, hi, I'm Ted...My last name's Bundy.”
  — Connie, [10:00–10:40]
- She laughs at his name, repeatedly calling him “Theodore Bundy”—a detail she’d never forget.
Shifts in His Behavior
- Bundy initially pretends to be charming, but quickly becomes intrusive and threatening ([11:56]):
  
  “He starts to become a little darker and darker... He was like asking me millions of questions...He never stopped smiling, smirking or grinning the whole time.”
  — Connie, [12:02]
Escalating Sadism & Violence
- Ted insists Connie go swimming, physically forces her, scratches her arm, blocks her from escaping.
- In the water, he races her to the dock, kicks her as she tries to climb up, and eventually attempts to drown her by pulling her underwater by the hair ([15:00–19:00]).
  
  “He punched me back under the water, and there I stayed...I could see him laughing, and his face went gnarly...his eyes were like two big black marbles. The ugliest things I ever seen...I am looking at a demon here.”
  — Connie, [19:00]
Connie’s Escape
- Remembers a survival trick from summer camp: plays dead underwater, then manages a desperate escape by swimming under the dock, finally screaming for help as Bundy flees ([20:30–21:45]).

Aftermath & Family Response

Mother’s Dismissive and Cruel Reaction
- Connie, bruised and terrified, tells her mother, who believes neither her story nor her injuries ([25:22]):
  
  “She actually called me a liar even though I had scratches...even my hands were black and blue. She wouldn't help. Nobody listens.”
  — Connie, [25:22]
- Rather than helping, Connie’s mother grounds her for “ruining the fun.”
Silent Suffering & Isolation
- With no support, Connie bottles up the trauma, avoids swimming, and never reports the crime to police ([26:43]).
  
  “You just kind of pack it away and internalize it...I never went swimming again. To this day, I don't swim.”
  — Connie, [26:43]

Processing the Trauma & Realizing the Truth

Understanding Decades Later
- For years, Connie’s memory of the event doesn’t connect with Bundy’s notoriety. Only after reading about Bundy’s crimes in Anne Rule’s book does she understand the magnitude of what happened to her ([29:21]).
  
  “I just gasped. I was like, oh, my God. He was the one that tried to kill me in 1967. The problem was there is nothing...that says he hurt anybody prior to 1974.”
  — Connie, [29:21]
Validation from Anne Rule
- Corresponds with crime writer Anne Rule, who believes her account and confirms Bundy’s violence predates the official murders ([31:00]):
  
  “She said, I absolutely agree that you were a victim of Ted Bundy...He had killed a little girl back in 1961 in this area.”
  — Connie, [31:00–31:30]
Recurring Nightmares & Healing
- Haunted by underwater dreams until discussing her trauma in depth cured them ([32:45]):
  
  “After I talked to Ann Rule, the dreams went away. Never had another one ever since.”
  — Connie, [32:45]

Reflections on Bundy, Trauma, and True Crime Culture

Bundy’s Early Darkness
- Connie insists Bundy was always sadistic, “not anybody to worship” ([33:35]):
  
  “He just wanted to see me die under that water. He was just laughing—it makes my blood run cold.”
  — Connie, [33:35]
Disgust with Serial Killer Glorification
- Deeply disturbed by Bundy’s posthumous fame and fandom ([34:15]):
  
  “It disgusts me. He's got fan clubs out there...He was not your friend. He was not anybody to worship.”
  — Connie, [34:15]
- Expresses survivor’s guilt and frustration—wonders if reporting him could have saved later victims ([35:30]).
On Processing Trauma and Breaking the Silence
- Finds talking publicly therapeutic, even as she continues to struggle with trust ([36:58]):
  
  “It's part of my therapy...Every time I talk about [it], it gets a little bit easier to deal with.”
  — Connie, [36:58]
- Describes growing up in an abusive, terror-filled home, further compounding her trauma ([36:58]).

Broad Reflections: Evil, Society, and Hope

Seeing “Demons” in People
- Connie believes evil exists and is visible:
  
  “There are demons in this world, and they are out there and they are ready to hurt you.”
  — Connie, [37:58]
On the Media’s Attempts to “Understand” Bundy
- Skeptical that Bundy can be understood or explained by endless documentaries ([38:40]):
  
  “When his eyes...looked like two big black marbles instead of eyes... He was like, in my face. A lot of people ask me, why didn't I scream? I couldn't.”
  — Connie, [39:05]
Lingering Trust Issues
- Her life experience left her very protective as a mother, highly distrustful, and sometimes almost a hermit ([44:13], [48:38]):
  
  “Not to trust strangers. Sometimes don't even trust your own family. Anybody that you meet could have the ability to take your life at any minute without remorse.”
  — Connie, [48:38]
On Serial Killers in the Pacific Northwest
- Julian and Connie discuss the region’s odd “spookiness” and prevalence of serial killers, with Connie blaming the terrain, climate, and local culture ([45:02–46:27]).
Finding Hope
- Despite everything, Connie believes “there are more good people than bad people,” but emphasizes the need for communication and empathy ([46:56]).
  
  “We need to talk more.”
  — Connie, [47:58]

Memorable Quotes & Moments

On Bundy’s Transformation:

“He started to go from authoritarian type person... He started acting like a 14 year old... grabbing me, raking me... and then in the water, he was stomping on my fingers... I am looking at a demon here. This is not even human.”
— Connie, [15:00–19:00]
On Family Betrayal:

“I don't know who hurt me more that day, Ted Bundy or my mother.”
— Connie, [40:03]
On Glorifying Killers:

“Everything is Bundy, Bundy, Bundy... He's become more popular to this day than he ever was back in the 70s. That makes a hero out of him.”
— Connie, [34:15]
On Trauma’s Echoes:

“You just kind of pack it away and internalize it...I never went swimming again.”
— Connie, [26:43]

Notable Timestamps

06:20: Connie describes childhood and family dysfunction.
10:00–13:00: The first moments meeting Ted Bundy at the lake.
15:00–20:00: Bundy’s behavior turns violent—physical and psychological torment in the water.
19:00: Connie’s near-drowning, vivid description of Bundy’s “demon” face.
25:22: Mother’s cruel disbelief, Connie’s isolation begins.
29:21: Discovery of Bundy’s true identity and timeline confusion.
32:45: Recurring dreams and the healing effect of speaking about the trauma.
34:15: Discussion of Bundy “fan culture” and Connie’s perspective on true crime glorification.
35:30: Survivor’s guilt and “what ifs.”
36:58: Therapy through storytelling, and further details on abusive family home.
39:05: Connie’s inability to scream and the depth of Bundy’s evil.
44:13: How the event shaped her approach to motherhood.
46:56–47:58: Reflections on hope and the value of communication.
48:38: Personal lessons—on trust and the ever-present shadow of trauma.

Final Reflection

This episode provides an unfiltered, first-person account of an encounter with one of America’s most notorious serial killers—years before his crimes became known to the world. Connie’s harrowing story, coupled with her reflections on trauma, victim-blaming, and the perils of true crime fascination, holds lessons about empathy, vigilant awareness, and the need for society to listen to those who have survived darkness.

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Connie Geldridge (2:41)

And I could see him laughing, and his face went gnarly. I like ropey. And his eyes were like two big black marbles. They were the ugliest things I ever seen. And I thought, I am looking at a demon here. This is not even human.

Julian Morgans (3:03)

Hey, I'm Julian Morgans, and you're listening to what It Was like, the show that asks people who have lived through big dramatic events what it was like. Hey, everyone. Welcome back. Today's episode is one that I've wanted to do for a long time. We're gonna finally tackle Ted Bundy, and I'm gonna speak with a woman named Connie Geldridge, who, at the age of 14 years old, met a young man at a lake in Washington state. And he introduced himself as Theodore Bundy. And what followed wasn't murder. It wasn't sexual assault. On the surface, it wasn't even especially violent. But it was terrifying, and it was very revealing because Connie Goldrich describes an encounter that sounds a little bit like a schoolyard intimidation, like a very dangerous, sadistic game that some teenage boys play where the goal is really just to humiliate or to frighten. And I think most of us have experienced something like that in high school or maybe. Maybe younger. And I think for most of us, those moments fizzle out. You know, you take a few punches, you pick yourself up, and then you get away. You avoid the kid. You move on. But for Connie, it felt like she was like a bird getting played with by a cat. And it became clear to her that this young man wasn't just playing around. He was kind of testing something. He was pushing boundaries. He was very hungry for control and maybe. Maybe even something else that he wasn't yet aware of, because this was before he became a serial killer. This story takes place in 1967, and at that point, no one knew the name Ted Bundy. According to the courts, his first known serial murders wouldn't begin until the 1970s. And he was outwardly a very, you know, handsome sort of upstanding young man. But because of that timeline, Connie has faced years of criticism. Some people claim that her story just simply can't be true, that Bundy hadn't yet been kind of radicalized. But after spending an hour and a half talking to Connie and listening to her story and seeing her eyes, I've got to completely disagree. I believe Connie 100%. I found Connie to be a very thoughtful, specific narrator, and she's very clearly deeply affected by what happened. And if her account is true, and like I say, I'm absolutely sure it is. Then I think it offers a rare glimpse into Ted Bundy before the headlines, before the body count, and really even before the FBI fully understood what serial homicide even was. But I also think this is a story about trauma, about what happens when something really frightening occurs in adolescence and then just kind of echoes through the decades. So I think this is a really interesting one. I think this is an important one. And here is Connie Gelderidge to tell it. Hey, Connie, welcome to the show.

Connie Geldridge (7:26)

Well, that was in 1967. I was 14 years old. And my mom said, we're going to the lake. I said I didn't want to because it was late August. Everybody's getting ready for school. There's no people at the lakes. I mean, even though it's warm out, it was just school time. And I was like, well, forgot to go. I gotta go. So. So I had a hand me down beautiful two piece swimsuit from my cousin. And I thought, I'm going to wear that today, you know, But I was like 14 and I had the bra, all that. I. I was like, wanted to be my Barbie. And I put it on and wrapped a towel around myself and off to the lake. And we get there and I dropped the towel. My mom just started screeching these horrible words at me. What are you. You're trying to pick up boys? You're some kind of. I don't know what I can say on here, but words I had never heard before. And I was pretty stunned, and I started to cry. She's like, just get away from me type attitude. And so I just started walking around the lake. I kept going and going and going and going. And then I see a tree, and it's growing out of the middle of the beach. And I thought, you know, I'm just going to go sit under that tree and maybe cry it out. I don't know. So I sat down and there was a floating dock out out there in the water, and there was nobody at that lake. It was just us. So after a little bit, I hear rustling in the woods behind me. And I thought it was a deer or whatever, but you better turn around. It could be a bear, you know. So I turned around and I looked, and there was a man coming out of the woods. I thought, well, that's very odd. And he had a pair of shorts on, no shirt, some kind of sandals. And he had a yellow whistle like, plastic whistle around his neck, tied with a boot lace. I. I remember that vividly. And so he goes down, looks up and down the. You know, the lake. And I'm like, what is this guy doing? And then he comes towards me and he said, hi, I'm the. I'm the lifeguard. Like, there's no lifeguards here. This is a parks department. And I said, when did they hire lifeguards? And he goes, we're new. They just hired us. Too many drownings. There's. Nobody ever comes to this lake. There's no drownings. And he's like, what's your name? And I said, connie. And he said, hi, I'm Ted. And I said, ted. I said, you know, what's Ted short for? I don't know any Teds. And he said, my name's. It's Theodore. And I thought to myself, I said, theodore. And I laughed like, I'm 14 years old. So I giggled. You have to remember, I'm only one year older than Kimberly Leach, the last girl he killed. So I was he Theodore. And he goes, you think that's funny? My last name's Bundy. And I went, ted Bundy. You made that up, you know. And I just couldn't stop laughing. And every time he would, like, poke fun at me or whatever, I would say, stop it. Theodore Bundy. That's how I remembered his name, because I kept saying it and I kept laughing at it, and I kept telling him he made it up.

Connie Geldridge (12:02)

Not at first. At first he just, well, there was like red flags going up because there are no lifeguards at that lake and he's wearing that stupid plastic whistle and he's like wandering around like, yeah, I'm getting a weird vibe yet I'm, I'm not afraid of method point at all. So after a while he, I'm laughing at his name, but he starts to become a little darker and darker. But he kind of sits down or kneels down in front of me and he's like right in my face, exceeding my boundary. And he was like asking me millions of questions. I, you know, how old are you? What do you do? Do you go to school? What school? You know, what do your parents do for a living? What do you do for fun? Do you have a boyfriend? I mean, just on and on, you know, I, he was. And he never stopped smiling, smirking or grinning the whole time. He's like a person you meet at a party. Jerry. I don't know if you've ever met somebody that just wouldn't leave you alone and just got in your personal space. And he, he was the weirdo that stuck out in the crowd. That's the vibe I got from him. And then it eventually got worse. So I'm starting to get the creepy vibes. I said, I'm gonna head back to my room. My mother is, who was way, way on the other side of the lake. And he said, nah. He goes, why don't you go swimming? And I said, I don't want to go swimming. And he's like, oh, I'm the lifeguard. You know, I, I've got to do my, you know, earn my money today type attitude. And it just went back and forth. And I said, I just want to go back to my mom. And that's me. Started to get a little creepier. He started to go from authoritarian type person. Then he started acting like a 14 year old so he's the lifeguard now. He's like, my equal, I guess. Then he's like, now get up, get up, get up. Let's go swimming. Let's go swim. So he grabbed me by the arm, and he raked his fingernails down my arm, you know, like, took skin off. And I said, please go away from me. Just leave me alone. Let me go back to my mother. And this goes on for a while. So finally I get up, and we're both out on the beach in the sand, and he's toying with me at this point, and he's, like, holding his arms out so I can't get by him. He's tripping me, he's kicking me, he's grabbing me, he's raking me. He's everything. So finally I agreed to go in the water, and I said I would swim out to that floating dock if he left me alone after that, and I could go back to my mom. And he said, yeah, you can go back to your mother, but you have to go swimming first. So I got in the water ankle deep. I really did not want to go swimming. He starts splashing me, just drowning me. And then I'm completely soaked. So I finally just started to head out to the dock. And so I'm swimming, swimming, swimming, swimming, and he passes me swimming. He went right past me, like we were in a race. And he gets to the ladder, and he turns around and sits on the rung of the ladder. And I tried to hold on to the ladder, and he would. He was kicking me in the face and just, you know, just kicking, kicking, kicking at me. He wouldn't let me up. But there. That dock was huge. It was really high. I mean, I had to reach way up with my fingertips to get to the top. It was a. More of a fishing lake, not a swimmer's lake. So I realized he's not going to let me up. I can't. I'm thinking I don't have enough energy to. To get back. I've been fighting this guy for about two hours at this point. So I went to the right side of the dock looking for something to grab onto. And I put my fingers on the very top of the dock. And he had gotten up, and he was stomping on my fingers with his. The heel of his foot. And I thought, what's going on? I. You know, this guy's. Something's wrong. And I went to the back of the dock. There was nothing there either. So when I looked up, I seen him, and he is looking Down. He's on his stomach now. I said, help. You know, what are you doing? I thought you were a lifeguard. And he goes, I am a lifeguard here. And he reached down, and so I reached my arm up, and he. Instead, he bypasses my arm and grabs me by my hair. And I'm going, oh, my God, I am in serious trouble here. And he started screaming at me. He said, I'm a good lifeguard. See, I saved your life today. And I'm like, what? And he plunged me under the water. And I'm under the water for almost a minute. I. I was losing. I had nothing. And he pulled me back out, and I can't scream. My mother's way too far away. He's totally in my face. I kept trying to say, help me, but he was rambling on again about how he had saved my life as the lifeguard. And he punched me back under the water, and there I stayed. And it was just. Time was just tick, tick, and I'm. And it wasn't all that deep under the water. I was only a few inches, but he had, like, pulled my head back. And I could see him laughing. And his face went gnarly. I like ropey. And his eyes were like two big black marbles. They were the ugliest things I ever seen. And I could see his teeth, because he was hanging down, were all gnarly. And I thought, I am looking at a demon here. This is not even human, and I'm dying. I know it. But I think to myself, I had went to summer camp earlier, and they say, when in doubt, played dead. And I thought, maybe if he thinks that he drowned me, he'll just let go and leave. So what I did was I. I threw my. I had my. I was trying to peel his fingers out of my hair, but I just let go all of a sudden and went limp and just like. And I just, like, opened my eyes and looked up at him and my legs, and he didn't let go. He was just laughing and laughing and laughing. And my. My legs floated up and I. I had just about given up. And I thought I might be able to get out of this if I just can go down. So I suddenly grabbed under the dock and shoved with everything I had down. He wasn't stopping the laughing. When I pushed myself down from that dock, he ripped a big wad of my hair out. I mean, I had to pull out of his grasp, but by that time, I had no oxygen left at all. And I kept thinking, you could do this. You can do this. You just got to get up underneath of the dock where there's an air pocket. You can do it. But I keep sinking. I'm sinking and sinking. I don't know how deep the lake is up there. I know it's way over my head. And I'm down about probably 8ft and all of a sudden my feet hit the bottom of the lake. I don't have anything oxygen left to get back. What I did was I flipped my left foot. One foot, not even both. I didn't have the energy. And I. My, my chest gets tight when I talk about this. And I flipped my foot so I would propel me upward. That's all I could hope for, that I could make it to the surface. And I kind of angled myself towards the dock. If I could just get there, I could get air. If I could just get there. Just hang in con. I had nothing. Things like my lungs were on fire. Tunnel vision started to set in. Fear. And I got under the dock and after I got some air, I screamed my head off. And I hear him running across the dock. And then there was a crack where the ladder was because that was facing the beach. And I seen him swim really fast to the beach. He picked up whatever he brought with him, ran back into the woods and left. But I knew it because kept calling him Theodore Bundy. My mom wouldn't take me to the police. She actually called me a liar even though I had scratches. I was black and blue all over. Even my hands were black and blue. My fingers. She wouldn't help. Nobody listens. Here I am, 58 years later talking about this because it lives inside you.

Connie Geldridge (29:21)

I would hear it, like, probably heard it during his trial, but it was going in one ear and out the other. Like I said, you know, paralyzed husband, two kids, two jobs. But when I read it in Anne Rule's book, you know, somehow reading it in black and white, and I kept going, where have I heard that Theodore Bundy? I'm from Washington State, and this is where it happened. And I. I just gasped. I was like, oh, my God. He was the one that tried to kill me in 1967. The problem with that was there is nothing, almost zero out there that says he hurt anybody prior to 1974. And I knew what happened to me happened when I was 14. And that made it 1967. It was in August. It was still hot, and I couldn't match it. I couldn't match the dates. And so I would go, I know it's him. And I go, no, it probably isn't, because this happened earlier than 74. And then I'd forget about it for a year or two. And then I'd go back to, I know it's him. I absolutely know it's him. Nope, can't match the dates. And that's what held me back, I think probably from talking a lot earlier than I did. So I wrote to Ann Rule, the one that wrote the Stranger Beside Me, and she contacted me right away, and she was like, tell me more. You know, So I told her what I'm telling you, and she asked me where at lake. And I told her, and she asked me a lot of questions about what did he look like, color his hair? She kept asking me about his molecular. And I didn't remember it. I. I don't remember seeing them All. I don't know why, but other than that, everything was spot on. So she said, I absolutely agree that you were a victim of Ted Bundy and that he had killed a little girl back in 1961 in this area. Well, in Tacoma. So I started to question what happened between 1961 and 1974, because you never ever hear about what he did in the 60s and early 70s. Prior to 1974. It was just like he woke up out of bed one day and he started killing people in 1974. And I was pretty stunned by that. So I started to do a little research on him. I don't know a lot about him. I still don't know a lot about him. I know he was the one. I. I could pick him out of a lineup. And that was another thing. When they would say Ted Bundy on tv, it kind of went in one ear and out the other because I kept calling him Theodore Bundy. Theodore Theater. Theater. I just kept shoving it to the far back in my brain. I mean, I had a lot of. I had to work, I had a paralyzed husband. I had kids. I couldn't think about Bundy, but I think Bundy thought about me when I kept having those underwater dreams. And so I wanted to cure myself. I've got to get rid of these dreams. And after I talked to Ann Rule, the dreams went away. Never had another one ever since. And that was mid-90s, late-90s. What happened now after that was every time I'm watching tv, I'm watching a video, I'm reading a book, I'm reading an article. Ted Bunny's in it. He has become more popular to this day than he ever was back in 74 or in the 70s. So that was really bothering me. And that's what made me do the first podcast I did, because I want people to know this guy was a stone cold killer. He was not your friend. He was not anybody to worship.

Connie Geldridge (34:15)

I. It disgusts me. It really Disgusts me. He's got fan clubs out there. I found out he had fan clubs out there. But I, I'm angry. I just. Everything is Bundy, Bundy, Bundy. He's like the catch word for everything, you know, any. Any kind of evil in the world. We say Ted Bundy and it's just gotten more and more more popular and it just makes a hero out of him. And I kind of wish they didn't kill him. I would have wished that they would have, I don't know, tortured him until they got more of the women back that he killed. There's a lot of women missing out here in Washington, Oregon, Idaho, all out here. But other than that, I'm glad he's gone. But it doesn't. Even though he's gone, you never forget that it was a. One of the most traumatic days of your life. And yet, you know, you don't forget ever, what that man tried to do to you that day. And then you have distrust for people, and then you go back, you have survivor's guilt. What if I would have went to the police? What if my mom would have been like a real mom, took me to the police station, let me put down the word. Theodore Bundy tried to drown me. It would have been on file somewhere. When they started looking for him in the 70s, they were trying. His name was coming up in their database, but they were dismissing it. Oh, he's a good guy's attorneys. This, that if they would have checked out here with the police, the police could have said, yeah, he tried to drown this girl on this date. But I know that all those girls died and they kept on dying all the way to Florida. Could I have helped that? Maybe, maybe not. But it does kind of give you this. How did I survive? Why me? Why me? Why not those beautiful girls out at Lake Sammamish? Or that little girl, Kimberly Leach, out in Florida? Why me and what do I have to drag this burden around, you know? But every time I talk about gets a little bit easier to deal with. So the first podcast helped me a lot. The second one a lot more, and maybe this one will help me even more.