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A Month of Emergencies and Miracles- The Full Story | Sadie & Christian Huff
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Sooner than later, things are still fresh.
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Things are fresh.
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Noggin.
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Because, like, as much hardship as we've kind of walked through the past month and a half, we've also seen so many miracles. And everyone keeps saying, like, have you written all this down? And I'm like, I've tried to, but I have three kids and life is so crazy. And every time I start journaling, you know, I get interrupted. And so I was like, let's just like, do a podcast and try to remember all of the things and testify truly to what the Lord has done. Because we could not be more grateful for what God has done in our life over the last month. Because, like I said, we walked through some really hard things. And I shared this clip on some social media of me holding Kit in the hospital. And I was singing, you know, I was tossed in the water, but I never went under. You were always on time. And that song has been like, so accurate to what we've gone through because I feel like, we really were, like, tossed in the water. We really did, like, go through the fire. Like, we've gone through some really scary, hard things, but we didn't get. We didn't go under. Like, God always provided exactly what we needed at the right time. And. And we want to testify to that and just kind of tell Kit's story over the past month. And we'll start with the first choking accident, because so many of you guys reached out and were so kind on social media after Kit choked. And there was a lot of questions asked, too. A lot of fears raised for moms, and also not even. I won't say fears necessarily, and a fully bad way, because I think for a lot of people.
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Awareness.
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Yeah, awareness. Like, it made people jump into action and, like, learn cpr, which I was, like, grateful for that. That, you know, it raised awareness and it's gonna help people. But there was a lot more to the story that we knew we would eventually want to share because there was also a lot of opinions on social media of, like, you know, you need to have a life back. Back, and you needed. You can do this or that, and the other. And I was just thinking, oh, man, people just really don'. Understand what that moment looked like. And how could you? I've never shared it, but we want to today. So we are going to back it up to about a month and a half ago and share the story. And also, emotions have been all over the place. Like, sometimes I tell this, you know, to friends, and I'll cry the whole time, or I'll be a little shaky. And then sometimes I'll tell it and I'll be fine and, like, can get through it. And so trauma has, like, a weird way of coming in waves. And I've learned that over the past month to just, like, ride the wave and lean into it and let the Lord meet me in it. And so I don't know if I'll cry the whole time or maybe I'll just be able to talk about it because again, we're kind of, thankfully, at this point, on the other side of so much of the. Of the trauma of it. And Kit is doing so good. But back in April. It was April 6th. We had just gotten down to the beach. We're going on a beach vacation with our family. And Kit, up until this point, has been like, such a healthy baby. She has been, like, way healthier, actually, than our other two at this stage.
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Our first two had many hospital visits. Many.
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Well, you have to clarify why. Honey has had, like, four tube surgeries.
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Haven had UTIs, UTI problems that he
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had to be in the hospital.
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So she was on a daily medicine for that. So we. We were in the clear with Kit because she had never had anything. But we were. We were definitely wrong.
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Yeah. So we were thinking, like, Kit is our easiest baby. She's been so great. Now, the only thing we did know she had is. I remember, like, right whenever she was born, getting home from the hospital, and she was, like, the noisiest breather. She. We would call her like our little pig because she just would have, like, the loudest snoring as a little baby.
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Well, the funniest thing was I have a deviated septum. So I'm a loud breather. I snore. And then people would think, or our family thought that got that trait from me. And I was like, my deviated septum is not a genetic trait. So she did not have her heavy breathing passed down.
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People would say, she breathes like her daddy Christian was like, I broke my nose. Like, she didn't.
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I shattered my nose in middle school playing baseball. It's not a genetic trait to pass down to my children.
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So that was something, obviously, that I was, like, a little concerned by. And so our first trip to the pediatrician, I, like, tell him she breathes really loud. And he said, oh, yeah, she does. I can hear that. And he said, bet she has. And he wrote it down. Like, I, like, remember this so clearly.
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Like, we. We pronounce it differently every time.
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Well, now I know because of being in the hospital for two weeks. I. I didn't say it right for, like, the first six months of her life. But he writes down larynga Malaysia. And he was like, this, what she has. In other words, floppy throat. She has a little turbulence breathing. So he put it in more in, like, easier ways to understand. He said, learning of Malaysia is very common in babies. It's like their little airway, their voice box is supposed to be a little hole, but it's actually going to be sh. Like this because it's like this skin is kind of, like, bent, and that's what makes it kind of flop. And that's. It makes her sound loud when she breathes. And he says it's really, most of the time, nothing to worry about as long as she's eating fine. Her oxygen levels are good, which we use an owlette. And so she never had dips in oxygen. She ate great. She was always great at nursing, easy to switch to the bottle. So really, I wasn't worried about It. He said he's only had one kid in his whole practice has ever had to have surgery. He. 90% of kids grow out of it by the age of one. Nothing really to worry about. So I really didn't worry about it. Months, you know, went by, and she still had the heavy breathing. And sometimes I would be like, oh, is it getting worse? Is it getting better? But again, it was more of kind of like, that's just the way she sounds, but it doesn't affect her life. So anyways, going to the beach at this point, like, we really were not concerned about Kit. She had been eating solids at this point for a couple weeks, eating a lot of solids. And she, like, loves food. She's our best eater ever. Like, our other kids at this age would not have wanted food like that. But she would eat anything that was on my plate. I'd give her tiny, tiny little bites. And she just loved it. Got so excited about food. So really wasn't worried about that either. So, anyways, we get to the beach, and it's our first night there, and we're cooking dinner, and the rest of the family was about to get there, and I was starting to make some, like, guacamole, because Kit loves guacamole. And I had put some puffs on her high chair, and, like, tiny, tiny, tiny bits of shredded chicken, because she loves chicken. And Christian was watching her in the high chair eat all that. And then, like, our whole family got there. So they're all coming upstairs, and we're, like, hugging everybody. And I, like, look over at Kit, and she just looks so cute in that little high chair. And I was like, everybody, look at Kit Kat. Look how big she looks over there. And so everybody looked. And normally Kit is, like, the happiest, smiliest baby. And she just wasn't, like, smiling at anyone. And so my mom was like, what is that face about? Like, why are you not smiling? So my mom, like, went over and, like, picked her up, and she was like, what is that? What is that little face? And Kit looked kind of, like, concerned, almost like she didn't know, like, what was happening. And then all of a sudden, like, she just. It was like she went to cry, but she couldn't. And my mom was like, she's choking. And then, I'm telling you, within, like, seconds, she completely went purple. And. And that. That's why, like, in this choking moment, like, I say choking with, like, air quotes, because it didn't seem like a traditional choking situation. Like, it wasn't like, let's go get a life bag. Like, we need to get this out. Like, she didn't grunt. She wasn' a cop. She wasn't like, literally, she made a weird face. And then she was completely purple. And my mom, like, handed her to me, and she immediately just went completely limp. Completely purple. And I really just went straight into cpr. And I remember saying, like, out loud, I was like, mom, what do I do? What do I do? And then I just started doing it. I started doing chest compressions. I started, you know, breathing in her mouth and, like, doing this whole cpr, which I'm like, not CPR certified or anything, but I'm a mom who's watched all the videos because I like to be prepared. And every time I had a baby, I would go home and, like, refresh all the videos, and thankfully, my body just kind of sprung into action. And. And. And I really want to say I felt like, guided in a way that is really supernatural because I was telling Christian, like, I. I know, like, I was very calm in the moment and I was doing exactly what I needed to do, but my mind was, like, going crazy. Like, my mind was, like, so terrified. But, like, I kept just saying, like, God, you're good. Like, God, you're gonna give her life. Like, God, you get a. You're going. Like, this is going to work. And I remember, Christian, you say, this has to work. And I looked at you, like, it's going to work. Like, I just had, like, an assurance, like, she was going to be okay. Although in my mind, I didn't have that assurance, if that makes sense. Like, my mind was knowing the severity of the situation, but, like, I just was like, no, like, she's going to be okay. And, like, kept breathing into her. And then it wasn't working.
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Yes, we were, because I was doing, like. I was doing the mouth to mouth, too. And it was like the weirdest thing. Yeah. Because she was like. She was just limp, you know, so it was like doing the cpr. It was just the weirdest.
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It was the worst.
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It was just experience the most. Yeah. Frightening thing.
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Horribly traumatic. And so we ended up. It wasn't working, and. And so I, like, ran outside with her onto the porch and I did it again and was just declaring life and did it one more time, and she started to cough and it was just like, thank you, God. Thank you, God. And I just.
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Yeah. As this was happening, your mom called 911.
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Well, mom had already immediately called 911. And so by the time I got outside on the porch, with her, I mean I started to hear like the sound of the ambulance one minute later. I mean they showed up within four minutes.
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It was insane.
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And with the choking. So that's why it was confusing, because it was puffs. So I think the answer we kind of got from them was, you know, maybe it just ended up dissolving, and it just kind of went through, which is why nothing really ever came back. Up. Which is not the most, you know, assured answer, which does make you have more questions of if that was the cause, if there's. Is there some other underlying issue. Yeah, it was puffs, which are dissolvable. So we think that's probably.
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Yeah. Well, she was saying, well, now. Now we know, but we have to get to that. Yeah, but I'm saying at that night, that's like, we were trying to, like, okay, that makes sense. And the lady was like, so. I mean, they were so nice, but they were like, don't overthink it. Like, she was eating. She choked. It was horrible. But, like, this is like, hopefully, like, it's not going to. Yes, kids can choke again, but, like, hopefully you're never going to experience that again. Like, there's nothing underlying, like, don't overthink it kind of thing. I was like, okay, so go back to the house that week and, like, just tried to, like, start moving forward. She. I mean, every night at dinner, I would just cry, and we'd just have waves of anxiety and emotions and trauma. But I look at her, I'm like, she's healthy. She's great. She was. I mean, was she not like, the happiest little thing? My mom. My dad said he thinks she met Jesus because she came back heavenly. I mean, which is a crazy thing to think about. But, like, she really was, like, so peaceful. And whenever I would start having that waves of anxiety, remember she was, like, grabbing my face with both her hands, which was, like, so sweet. And she had never done that before, and she would just, like, laugh. So God was really comforting me through her and her health. And I was just like, okay, she's okay. And it was really sweet because the porch that I went out and did cpr, and I really didn't think I was going to be able to go out there the rest of the week or sit in that chair or sit on that swing or anything. And I kept feeling like the Lord just wanted to meet me there. And so I'd go out there and, like, sit with Kit and just, like, thank God for her life and that he met us there, that he gave her life in that moment. And, you know, we ended up kind of leaving and just feeling like, God, thank you, you know, she's okay. Well, when we came back home, it was kind of like, okay, we're getting back to reality. We're trying to get back to reality. But I was struggling a lot with it. But, you know, I was like, it's okay. I just kept talking to myself and one of the things I had to work through is I was like, I did CPR light, and that. That's what, like, brought her back. And so I need to, like, be with her 24 7. And I had to really surrender that and release that and be like, no. Like, God, you gave her life. Like, you put breath in her lungs. You numbered her days. Like, she's yours first. And, like, just continue to kind of, like, give up that wrestle of wanting to, like, completely hover and just, like, can't let her out of my sight or go back to work or do anything. So I kind of had started to work through it. Well, fast forward, I guess, like, two weeks later, and like, two and a half weeks we were about to. We were supposed to have been leaving for London because I was speaking at this big conference there that we had been really looking forward to. And we were like, okay, before we leave for London and we're gone for a whole month, let's, like, invite all of our friends over, have dinner for everybody, hang out. And so we invited them over on Sunday night. And it was actually, like, so interesting because I didn't think about this beforehand, but we were making tacos, and we were making, like, guacamole and everything. And it was, like, so similar to that night that she choked. Like, we hadn't done that since, I guess, like, made tacos and walk and you know how, like, trauma just rolls in randomly. And so all of a sudden, I started just kind of feeling really anxious. And Kit was in her high chair again, which we had, like, worked back up to her sitting in the high chair because she had kind of a little resistance to food for a little bit, too. We had gone to her pediatrician. We had actually, like, we were about to start speech therapy, swallow therapy, all the stuff. So. And separation anxiety was kind of having with food for me. Like, it was, like, a whole thing. So we were already, like, going to work on all that. And so she was in her high chair and we had a smoothie melts. And I hadn't like, given her anything really like that since everything we'd given her some Remember, like, when she was sitting on her lap, but not, like, in a high chair, which, like, all my kids ate smoothie melts and puffs. You know, I hadn't ever had a problem with that. But I put smoothie melts out there, and I was, like, making dinner, and then all of a sudden I was
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like, you were making guacamole like you were doing.
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I know. So I get super Anxious? No, I didn't make guacamole. I was making tacos because I didn't want to make guac because I knew that was going to be, like, triggering. So my friend was. And I look over at her with the smoothie melts, and I go, yeah, I'm sorry. I'm having so, like, this web anxiety. I was like, I just. And I hadn't, like, told them the full story, and I said, this is actually just so similar to what happened because she was eating puffs, and it was puffs that kind of did it. And they were like, really? I was like, yeah. And I said, I'm just gonna. I'm just gonna throw all these away. Sorry, this just stresses me out. So, like, threw all the melts away. And I said, I'm just gonna watch her for a minute. And she had completely swallowed the melt, like, it was fine. Then I was giving her some avocado to, like, make sure it was, like, washed down. Which, by the way, the first night, she never ended up eating the guac. So if you're thinking, is she allergic to avocado or is that that. It's not that. That just happened to be what we were making. She never even had it the first night. But this night, she loved avocado so much. She ate that, like, every day. Like, I'll let her, like, eat this to swallow it. Well, she did that. She was great. She was fine. All of a sudden, I turn around as to keep cooking. My friend is continuing to feed her avocado, and she just, like, screams. And I mean, as soon as I looked at her, I knew it was about to happen again. So I like, pick her up, up all over again. Turns purple, goes limp. And I was just like, oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh. Well, praise the Lord. My friend who was over there is a NICU nurse. And so I was just like, grace, like, screaming for Grace. And she just, like, runs in, and she immediately starts to back blows. Immediately, like, we go right into it. Christian calls 91 1. And at this point, I'm just on my face, like, praying, just like, lord, you're good. God, you're good. You're going to give her life. You're going to do it again. You're going to do it again. And thankfully, she came, too. And, you know all the things. But at that point, it was just, like, so terrifying because then we knew, like, okay, this is something different. Like, she's not just choking. Like, something is wrong. And Christian and I just sat in that room for like hours.
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Our kids room, the rest of our friends were there for like the next two hours.
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They stay in and like play with Honey and Haven.
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We were just in the other room for a couple hours because it was just confusing. It was like we don't, like there were no answers. It's like you're, you're, you're traumatized, you're freaked out. It's like discombobulated. You don't know like where your emotions are. We're about to leave the country for two weeks. It was like it was all these.
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Yeah, it was just so many, all
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these competing things that it was just at the end of the day it was just confusion. It was like we don't know what.
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I'm so scared it's going to happen again.
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That was on a Sunday.
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So the next day, the next day
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we go to our pediatrician.
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Yeah.
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Or neurological because, you know, the whole going purple and the fainting is like, obviously extremely scary. And so anyways, he sends us, you know, down to do some tests and everything. At this point, we're just praying and we're praying for an open door into this doctor and we're trying to figure out, are we going to tell this event that I can't make it? I mean, it was a global leadership conference. There's like 7,000 leaders from around the world. I'm supposed to be their main speaker, like, which obviously at this point, like, your child is the only thing that matters. But also they've had me booked for over a year and I'm gonna have to tell them, like, I can't come. They're gonna have to find a replacement. And we don't even have answers. Like, we don't even know. You know, I'm questioning myself. Is, did she joke? Does she not joke? What is this, like, you know, is this spiritual warfare?
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Is this actually something wrong that we need to fix?
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Are we. What is happening?
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You know, is this fear? Is this legitimate?
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And so anyways, we go through the local test that we could do. And everything looked fine from the local test, but we really needed to get into that doctor in Baton Rouge, and it's so hard to get into a specialist in that timely of a manner. And so we're just praying. And that day, I remember going out in the grass and literally laying on my face, which I never do to pray. I felt like in the Bible when it says, like, and they tore their clothes and, like, lay it before the Lord. Like, I just felt so. Just like, God, I need you to reveal to us, like, what to do, because this is my baby. And we just need answers and just, like, speak, you know, and open the door that only you can open. And we have all our prayer group praying for us and everything. And anyways, I get up from praying on the grass, and I go grab my phone. I had a voice memo from the friend who owns the beach house who we were staying at. And this is so crazy, because at this point, the first choking incident was three weeks ago. Okay? And so when she texted me this three weeks ago, we never talked about Kit choking. Like, the. The people who own the house. I never said to them, like, get choked. And this. This whole thing happened mainly because I didn't want them to, like, you know, think of something so scary happened in their house, because really, the Lord did meet us there, and she was okay. And so I just didn't know how to bring that up. So I did. So we didn't even talk about it. So this is the first time she's reached out about it, and this is three weeks later, and it's this voice memo, and underneath it, there's a text that says, sorry, I felt like I need to just explain this. And I was like, what could this be? And because I had texted her the day before, like, thanking her for everything, I'd finally said, like, something about the choking. And I was like, your house is such a house of peace, all this stuff. So then this is her response, and I was like, what could this be? And she said. She said, my neighbors. Our neighbors at the beach house called us, and they were weeping, and they wanted us to know that they haven't known what to do with this, and they didn't know if they should tell us or what they should do with this. But their ring camera picked up the whole moment that I was out on the porch with Kit doing cpr. And they said they have wept over the video because it has impacted their faith so much, because of the faith I had over my daughter in that moment. And they said they've just watched it. And they wept together and they prayed like, lord, what do we do with this? Why do we have this video? And they said, we. We think Sadie should see this. And they said, I. I think she'll be encouraged by her faith in the moment and the things she was saying. And so they sent it. Ended up sending it the next day. But in that moment, it was so crazy because we didn't have any answers. We didn't have anything. But it kind of was like that rainbow moment again where I felt like the Lord just was saying, like, I see you. I've seen you. I've been with you this whole time. And I would have, like, never in a million years thought that that was good to be on camera. Actually, that day, whenever, after everything happened the next day, I went outside on the porch to look and make sure there were no cameras, because I was going to have to tell the house owners, like, hey, this thing happened. There was no camera. So that's why I didn't say anything. But the across the street, neighbors camera picked up this whole moment when we were in audio outside, and the audio was, like, crystal clear, which was, like, the craziest thing. And it recorded 20 minutes, recorded everything from the cops get there. Like, the whole thing. I can't even believe it. But what was so helpful was that it did record all the audio. And I was like, oh, my gosh. Like, this is so helpful to show the doctor, because, like, up till that point, I couldn't explain to the doctor how bad it really was. Like, how terrifying, how unique it was, because people were like, every time we go into it, it would be like, oh, so did her lips turn blue? I was like, no, her body turned blue. It was like, oh, so did she choke? Yes. But was she coughing? No. Was she grunting? No. Like, I can't explain it. And so anyways, okay, so that happens. Then we get a call that we actually got into this doctor in Baton Rouge, and we can go see her, like, Wednesday, and this is Monday. I'm like, oh, my gosh. Praise the Lord. And. And so we go down Wednesday or Tuesday night. And then this is such a God thing because the people. So I have a prayer group. There's like, 10 women in it. Okay, only, like, 10 women. And they live all over the country. And I send them, hey, we got into this hospital in Baton Rouge. I'm so thankful. Like, this is an answer to prayer, all this stuff. And one of the 10 people in our prayer group, she goes, actually, my Husband works at the hospital. We just moved. We live 10 minutes away from the hospital if y' all want to stay with us now. The also significant thing about this girl is that I don't really. I hadn't really known her well. And the reason she's in my prayer group is because whenever I got pregnant with Kip, most of y' all know it was a surprise. And I was like, oh, my gosh. You know, it's due the month of conference. And I was thinking, holy cow, this is gonna be crazy. And she is one of Lauren Daigle's best friends and my friend Steph's best friend. And she texted them and was like, hey, I had this dream about Sadie. It was so crazy. And she, like, tells this whole dream, and it was a dream that, like, I was pregnant, and I was supposed to be, like, leading a conference, and this is before anybody knew I was pregnant. Like, we knew, but no one else knew and that. So they sent it to me, and it was so accurate and on point that I was like, wow, this girl, like, the Lord put me on her heart. And she kept praying for her family
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for a couple months. Add her to the group.
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And I was like, I'm adding you to the group because you hear from the Lord. So, like, that's just so crazy. So we end up staying at her house about.
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At this point, it was just you and your mom and Kit.
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I was, yeah, you were staying with the girls. And we get down there, and I was just like, God, thank you for us even staying at her house, because you told her about Kit's life before anybody knew about Kit's life. So I just was, like, reminded of his faithfulness and that, like, God has. Has her days, and God has had her, you know, in mind before the foundation of the world began. And here we are at this house who really prophesied over her life. So the whole thing was just, like, comforting to me. So we go into the doctor the next day, and at this point, like, we don't know we're going to be admitted. We don't know anything. Like, we're just, like, praying. We don't even know what we're praying. We're just like, lord gives answers, and the specialist walks in, who was amazing. And I actually was able to show her the video. And before any test, just from seeing the video, she goes, we're admitting you. Which was, like, such a blessing because then we were able to cancel all of our London stuff and, like, know from that point on, like, okay, we need to like fully, like that's all off. Like we're just everything. We just have to find the answer so we get admitted before we even are fully admitted. She already goes ahead and does the, the scope to look at the larynga Malaysia. And within the first second she goes, okay, I would definitely classify this as severe learning in Malaysia. And we already start talking about surgery and it was like, whoa. And but she was saying before we kind of go down the whole route of surgery, we're gonna do swallow study, we're gonna do a heart ekg, we're going to go down the neuro path. Like we're gonna figure everything out because that is not normal. Like what happened obviously in the video and so, so many, you know, fears, but also like, okay, now we know, like they're living. Malaysia was severe. We didn't know that before and all stuff. And so we're, we're just like thankful to be like in good hands and like someone who's like listening to us and taking it really seriously. So a while back we planted an apple tree in our yard and it's been really special watching our kids learn that not everything happens overnight. Some things take time to grow. But a great lesson for the kids doesn't have to be a big ordeal for mom and dad. So the fact that fast growing trees made the whole thing so easy, from picking it out to planning it was a total win for us. Fast grown trees is America's largest and most trusted online nursery with thousands of trees and plants and over 2 million happy customers. They have thousands of options from fruit trees, privacy trees and all the things. And I love that they actually help you find what works for your space, your climate and your lifestyle. They literally will not let you order something to your location if they don't think it will thrive. Everything we ordered showed up healthy, ready to grow. I just ordered online, it arrived at my door and we are ready to roll. Plus, if you need help at any point, fast growing trees plant experts are there for you seven days a week. Everything from fast growing trees has been so great. I recently got a beautiful braided Benjamina ficus tree. So, so pretty. And a cute pancake plant for my office. And I mean, come on, who doesn't want a pancake plant? That's cute. Fast growing trees makes freshening up your living space or planting a legit fruit tree easy and really affordable too. Right now they have great on spring planting essentials, up to half off on select plants and listeners to our show get 20% off their first purchase. When you use the code whoa. At checkout, that's an additional 20% off. Better plants and better growing. @fastgrowingtrees.com using the code WHOA at checkout, that's fast growing trees.com with the code WHOA. Now is the perfect time to plant. Let's grow together. Use woe to save today. Offer is valid for a limited time. Terms and conditions may apply. So we go to the hospital within, like hours. We had already done every test. Like, they were not playing around. It was awesome how on it they were heart came back great, which was just so huge. And then we went to the swallow study and when we did the swallow study, we were able to see that kit was having like, it was the milk and everything was like penetrating the airway. But not only that, but she was having, like, minor aspirations whenever that was happening, which not good. And they actually, actually said with her severe learning in Malaysia and the swallow study, they said most babies who have this combo and look the way she looks normally are failure to thrive. Like, are in the hospital every single month since they're born with pneumonia. They were like, she is such a rare case and unique case because she is a severe case, but she doesn't present as a severely sick baby.
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And like, the symptoms that you should.
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Yeah, they were like, like, typically because every nurse that came in and Dr. Was like, she looks too well to be in the hospital. And I was like, I know, like, she seems fine, but like two moments she was not fine. And it really was just like such a miracle, honestly, that we hadn't had issues before. So I'm so grateful for that. But that was also why it was like, so confusing because we were like, we would have never known, you know, like, she was fine. So that was just like very eye opening, like, okay, Lord, like, thank you, you God for that. You've been with us this whole time, you know, and that she's been fine and that you led us here and we're getting the right help. And thankfully with those two things, it was kind of the answer to our problem. We didn't need to keep going down the neurop path or anything like that. And what was really interesting, seeing that, I was like, oh, you can see now why it happened. Because the way that the milk was going into her airway, then it would come out, then go down the right pipe. They were like, if a puff went down there, there, it wouldn't have been able to swoop out and go down the right path. It would have gotten lodged. And because of her Severe laryngeal Malaysia. Her, like, her entire airway was covered by this floppy skin, and it wasn't able to open properly. And so anything like a puff would have, like, just completely covered her airway well.
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B
And they were thinking, too, that the second time it happened was more of, like, a reflex. Like. Like a. Like a trauma trigger.
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A
Yeah. And so it. It was like, good, because, like, that made sense. I was like, okay, that makes sense. So then we're about to go into surgery.
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B
So that was a Wednesday. She was going to do surgery on Thursday. And then they were like, let's just test her for any viruses, just. Just. Just to make sure. And then she came back positive for rhinovirus. So they were not able to do the surgery the day that they were hoping to do it. So that pushed it back to. That pushed it forward to the next week.
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Week. And then we were like, all right, well, y' all got to get down here, cuz. I missed y' all too much.
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B
Yeah. So that was on Thursday. Me and the girls drove down Friday. You and your mom got an awesome Airbnb. It was super epic. Since we were going to be there for what, What. What looked to be a week. London was canceled, which was super sad. But this was of. Of utmost importance. So me and the girls get there Friday. Everything's going great. We wake up Saturday, and honey has
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bites all over her. We're like, what the heck is that? So she has bites all over her, and then we start searching the bed, and we see some little bugs, and we're like, are you kidding me? Are these bed bugs? They didn't look like bed bugs. We're like, what is this? We reach out to the host and find out that there was a family that stayed there right before us who had a dog with fleas, and they just sprayed for fleas before we got there. But that, you know, the person told them there was a chance, you know, they didn't get it all and that it could have laid eggs. Well, they did not tell us that. When we got to this Airbnb, we also had a roof leak, so there was, like, mold. And we all, like, felt really sick because of it.
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B
It had been downpouring the whole time we were there.
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A
And just to top it all off, that day, when I went to get ice from the ice maker, there was a frog in the ice maker. Okay. So we felt like the plague had hit us. We were like, what is happening? Oh, my God. Gosh. But at this point, we were like, I don't like. Which I know this sounds crazy, but, like, we couldn't even think about moving because I was just like, we were so tired and everything was going so crazy. And we're in Louisiana and we didn't want to go stay at a hotel because everywhere we went, everyone was recognizing us, which normally is a blessing. And I love talking to people, but at this point, everyone's like, what are you doing here? And I didn't want to tell them what happened to Kit. And I was like, I just don't want to go stay in a hotel. And we're gonna see people every day.
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Washed all the sheets.
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We, like, washed everything. We were like, nobody go in that room. We're like. We just had to just, like, make the most of it. So we just like, stayed out of the house all day pretty much. And then we just, like, go sleep there. And thankfully there was no more bites, but it was. It was pretty bad. Okay? It was pretty bad. And so when we go in to have the surgeon the next time, it was the following Tuesday and the night before, Kit had, like, the worst, like,
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creepy sounding call off, which is something she's never had.
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She's never had croup. We've had croup with our other kids. She's never had croup. I'm like, are you kidding me? Not only am I scared for her, but I'm also like, what is happening? So at this point, I'm so discouraged, but Paul's in the discouragement because that morning, that Tuesday.
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Monday morning.
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Monday morning, our friend Jen, who was the prayer warrior girl, she was like, just trying to think of ways to bless us, which is so sweet. The hospitality, I mean, it was so servant hearted, I think Romans 12, 13, that I keep talking about, it was like, be eager to be hospitable to others. And I mean, that was her. Like, it was so amazing. I just have to shout out just her and her, like, the way she showed us the love of the Lord. And she reached out because someone at her church that she knew owned an Iron Tribe gym. And she was like, Christian. I called him and was like, tell him the situation. And if you want to go work out there, like, that would be great. Just if you need to, like, clear your head. So Christian, you call the guy?
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I called the guy. He did not answer or return my phone call.
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A
What?
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B
You didn't let me finish what I was saying. I called him. He didn't return my phone call. So I called Jen back and then she put us in a group text and then he responded to that. And then he said, we have like a 5am class. That one's fully booked. You can come to the 5:45 workout class if you would want to. And I'm not much of a group workout out fitness person, nor classes, nor 5:45 in the morning. I hate working out early. It's not my cup of tea. So I show up to the gym at like 5:30, 5:40 rolls around. I'm sitting in the corner. You know, everyone's in this little local in. In this little room, waiting to go into the gym before the 5 o' clock class finishes. I'm in the corner. I have my hat on. Had my beard at that time, pretty incognito. And this girl walks up and she asks if I was married to Sadie. And I was like, yes. And then she says, you know, I'm from Marouge, which is right next to where we live. She said that she had met you one time. And yeah, that was really about it. And so we did the workout and I. Did she text you before or did
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I text me after, mention you were like, hey, I met one that you met a long time ago. And I was like. Like, I was like. I couldn't think of it because, honestly, it was so crazy. I literally met this girl one time eight years ago at a dove hunt, which I don't even dove hunt. I went to dove hunting one time in my life. I went dove hunting one time. I was invited. I was like, okay. And anyways, met her. We kind of, like, we totally hit it off. We had a great conversation that day. But it's eight years ago, so I didn't know, like, her and her family lived in Baton Rouge. I didn't know. I don't know, like, what she does. I don't know anything. And. And we don't, like, keep in touch. And so she texts me, though, because we exchanged numbers that day. And she was like, hey, I actually just met Christian at the gym. Like, are y' all down in Baton Rouge? Would love to see you. And I'm like, oh, yeah. Like, that's so crazy. I said, we actually are here, but for unfortunate reasons, like kids having to have surgery tomorrow. So I mentioned that. And she comes back, like, asking what surgery it was, but I didn't respond yet because at this point point, and I'm normally not this bad of a responder, but I had like a hundred text messages because everyone was, like, checking in on us, our friends and family that knew, and I just hadn't responded because there was, like, so much happening. And also, people had texted me from the first choking that I hadn't gotten back to because it just been, like, so much. I was just trying to get through it. Also, I didn't even have social media downloaded at this time at all. My team was totally covering for me on that end. And so. So it wasn't like I was just clocked out. I was just, like, totally mom mode, and so. And just reading the Bible and, like, try to just, like, get through it. And so anyways, she texted me back, and I hadn't responded. And now this is the Tuesday when we're going in with the creep cough. And I look at my phone, and she text me this prayer about going to the surgery. She's like, when my son has surgery when he was a baby, this prayer really helped me. And I read the prayer out loud and, like, said I was beautiful. And it actually helped me so much. It was like a liturgy. And after I read the prayer, the doctor comes in, and she's like, ask. Like, they're ready for surgery. Like, kids, like, totally. She's in the, like, prep room, like, to go. And I'm like, hey, she had this cough last night, and it was kind of creepy, and I just wanted to let y' all know. And then the doctor was like, oh, I don't. I'm. I'm not feeling good about that. If you think it was, like, croupy. I was like, well, it really was. And. And I know a croup cough. Like, my first. Like, my firstborn had RSB when she was a baby. My second has had croup, and it was croup. And I haven't heard her cough like that.
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B
She had this cough that she's never had in her life, and she had it Tuesday morning, the morning of her surgery. So her first response was like, I think we should maybe push the surgery back to maybe next Monday. And at this point, I was like. I was. I was like, are you kidding me?
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Lose mine.
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B
I was about to lose my mind. And then she was like, well, maybe we could do Friday or maybe Thursday or. I don't. I don't know if she suggested Thursday first. She maybe said, okay, well, maybe we could do Friday.
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A
But I was like, I don't care as long as kid's healthy. Like, I'll stay in this hospital however long we need. Kit has to be healthy. Like, we. We want to make sure. And I don't think she should go in with that cough either. And so at that point, we're like, okay. And she's like, and I'm admitting you again to the hospital because we need to do breathing treatments. And I'm like, okay. Well, I'm also like, this is insane. So I read this prayer, and then I decided to sit here and text her back and, like, tell her the situation. This one girl that I met dove hunting eight years ago, who also, I haven't even texted my friend, who I
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B
met at a 5:45am Which I've never
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A
in our whole marriage seen him go to a 5:45 workout. And so anyways, I text her back, and then she sends me this text. She's like, you're kidding. Okay, let me pause here, too, and say, this whole Airbnb situation. One of the things I had just said out of my mouth, I was like, I know we're saying, but we're getting out of that Airbnb. Like, I. I really thought that the roof fleet might have contributed to, like, the croup cough, because it could have been mold. I don't even know. But I was just. We got to get out of the house. And so since we were going to be staying for, like, a whole nother week. Week, Even though me and Kit were going to be in the hospital, I wanted them to get out. And so they were about to figure out the house situation. And I read her text, and she goes, this is unbelievable. She said, my son, the. The son who she was texting me, we prayed this before surgery. She said, at nine months old, which. Kit's nine months old. He was classified with severe laryngo. Malaysia. He had the same surgery at the same hospital. And she's like, I have walked this road. I know this road. And then she said, and I actually am a speech therapist, and I specialize in swallowing. And I help kids who have gone through choking incidents. So I not only have walked this road with my own son, this is what I help people through. And then, without even knowing about our Airbnb situation, she goes, do y' all need a place to stay while you're down here? Because my parents have an extra house that no one's in, and it's 10 minutes from the hospital, literally right around the corner from where we were saying. And she was like, y' all can stay there. Like, it's so peaceful. It's like our family thing. And I'm like, what in the world? And again, it was like the rainbow moment. It was like God saying, I see you. I have you. I mean, talk about, like, Jehovah Jireh, like, he is a provider, y'. All. And that's why I said, I was tossed in the water, but I never went under and I went through the fire, but you were right there beside me. You were always on time. Like it was. I can't even testify more to that. I mean, it was so unbelievable. And so just when we wanted to be, like, so discouraged again, it was like the Lord saying, I'm in this. I'm with you. Because the one girl I met eight years ago, who I know from Baton Rouge, I didn't even know she lived in Baton Rouge, has gone through the same thing. Also has, like, the experience to help get through it. Also has a house for us. Are you kidding me? It's unbelievable. So then I'm just like, telling her, you have no idea how much you saying that just, like, changed everything for me in this moment. It just felt like God just said, like, I see you. I love you. I'm with you. I have Kit, I have your family. And so she ended up coming to the hospital bringing, like, the most kind gift basket.
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A
Not asked. Recommended.
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B
Recommended politely. That did not sit well with me. I was very frustrated and she recommended maybe Friday. And I was just. I was on the air. Sadie wanted to be admitted. I was on the air of, like, I don't want to be in the hospital the next couple days. We'll go buy our own nebulizer. We'll go to the house. Which was not the, the, you know, best thing to say in this moment. The doctors leave. I'm super mad, super frustrated. Sadie's mad at me. I'm not comforting her the way I should be. And she hits me with the just go on a walk. You know, just used to.
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A
I was actually trying to be encouraging because I've gotten that advice on this podcast. Someone had just recently said, whenever they're in a fight, like, it helps if you go on a walk or take a shower. So I was actually trying to be sweet about it and let you have your moment. And I was like, hey, I think you should go on a walk. That's all I said. I was like, I think you should go on a walk.
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B
It was not that tone. But it was.
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A
You don't think it was. It actually.
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B
It was not that tone. You told me, go on a walk.
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A
I was like, go on a walk.
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B
You said, please get out.
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A
Because you kept insisting on just saying. I was like, please leave.
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B
I'm just saying. You made it clear you did not want me in the room with you.
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A
Yeah.
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B
So I felt like I failed. We have this big fight moment. I come back in, I'm apologetic, sick. I'm trying to be apologetic. And then we were just. We were gonna be admitted. We're gonna be here for a couple days. You asked me to go get coffee. And then we kind of have another little. Little squirmish, you know, Some more words were thrown. And then I failed.
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A
More words were thrown.
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B
I failed.
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A
The words were, I think you should go. And then you said, no, yeah, I
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B
think you should go. And then I said, just text me what you want, bro.
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A
Yeah, that was rude.
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B
Which was very rude. And.
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A
And.
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B
But I was just struggling. And I'm not excusing that, but I apologized many times. I was out of line for saying that. I walked out. I walked out. And my first word, my first thought was like, it was an ex. It was an ex. An expletive. Was that like a. My first thought was like, poop. But the other, you know, version of poop. I was like, why did I just say that? That was truly what I. That what I thought. So came back from coffee. I felt like I was in a good headspace at this point, you know? And then meanwhile, Sadie's texting her mom, like, please come switch with Christian.
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A
One thing we've realized is going through things in our marriage is like, you can have different responses to things, and it can sometimes be hard whenever you have two different perspectives of like, I felt like protected by the Lord that our surgery was moved. And Christian felt angry about that. You know, I felt like, like, oh, okay, good. Like kids going to be in a better place. And then he doesn't know cuz he wasn't there at that time. Like, Aaron's texting me and she's like, all the stuff and it's such a miracle. So I'm in the head space of like, oh, my gosh. Like, this is so good. Like, we're okay. Yes. We have to be in the hospital for a few more Days. But I'm like testifying, I'm like preaching. He's just like mad at that point, Aaron, the friend comes up to the hospital and like I said, I haven't seen her and a lot of years. And it was just like such a blessing for her to show up. She had like the most kind gift basket. I mean, over the top. Just again, back to like the love of the Lord and hospitality I love in First John. It says like, no one's ever seen God, but we see God through the way that we love one another or God's love is perfected in us. And so I just felt like we really were met with that kind of love from the church and those Jen and Aaron actually went to the same church, but they didn't know how we connected. Like it was so crazy. And anyway, she ended up sitting there with us. She brought all these papers for me to read, like speech, you know, path papers about learning in Malaysia and swallowing and choking and ways to strengthen the airway and ways to strengthen her core and like all this different stuff. And then not to mention, like was able to share with me just mom to mom and her son going through it at nine months old and his symptoms, which are so similar to kids and then how he recovered and what they walked through. And while she's up there, actually the specialist, the doctor that was doing surgery for Kit came in the room, which if you've been in the hospital, you know, like those moments with the doctor are pretty brief and fast. And it was a blessing that she was in there because she was able to ask all these questions that I wouldn't have thought about and then share a little bit about what she does. And so the doctor was like, oh well, she can be, you know, your speech pathologist after this. Like she can help you with the whole swallowing stuff. Because we were going to have to go to that therapy anyways and find a therapist. But she like, now we have our therapist, which is just like so crazy because she used to practice for like eight years and then now she's a stay at home mom with her boys. But she was like, I'll just help y'. All. Like, I'll just, I'll just walk through it as a mom and a friend in any way that I can help. It's just like the, the biggest blessing ever. And then she like assessed Kit, like let her do a whole. She like did a little swallow study with her and then did some just moves to kind of help her a little bit and just full assessment and it was just the biggest blessing. Like, I just felt like, thank you, Jesus. And then we ended up getting to push surgery up because Kit was doing really good with her breathing treatments, so we were able to do it. And when we did the surgery, it was wild, because getting to see the pictures of, like, the before and after were so crazy. It was severe. I mean, her. Her airway was, like, so covered. Even, like, pictures that had loads up beforehand didn't even do it justice to what kids really was. And so just like, wow, thank you, Lord, that we're in this place. Thank you, Lord, that you provided. And while we were there, we got to meet other families who were going through just, like, really, really, really hard things. But hearing how God was meeting them was so crazy. And got to pray with people, and it was just. It was wild. But we. We left the hospital the next day, got discharged, and actually even got to go to Aaron and her husband Taylor's house, hang out with their family. And she was able to assess Kit again. And even just from the days before surgery to the day after surgery, kids, dramatic improvement in how she was eating and taking the bottle and her demeanor. And now she wasn't noisy breathing. Her breathing was immediately silent, and which was kind of weird for me to get used to. I feel like I had gotten so used to her noisy breathing. I'm like, is she okay? I'm like, well, that's the way we all breathe, you know, like, that's how she's supposed to sound. But she was just doing really great. And so we, like, could not be more thankful when we look back at that, and we're like, wow, God, like, you really did provide in the absol. The craziest ways, in ways that, like, you can't make up. And you really were always on time. And all these worship signs came to my mind. Like, I said the Lord, and he heard and he answered, like, there's so many different things and so many different scriptures that I felt like we were just, like, watching play out. And it just reminded us, like, okay, the God we're reading about, the Bible is the God that we serve. And it has changed the way that I pray. It has changed the way that I worship. I mean, even before we went through the second round, in between the first choking, the second choking, remember we spoke at that church in Dallas, and I was just bawling right before I was supposed to speak. I had to get someone's makeup bag to fix my makeup because we were singing, like, dead things come alive in the name of Jesus. And like, I don't know, just like it hits different when you're worshiping from a place of like, you've seen it and I've said this before and I'll say it again, like, you know, you don't ever really want to have to experience a miracle, because when you experience a miracle, that means you had to go through a moment of desperation and complete dependency. In those moments you're out of control and it's terrifying. But then when you experience the miracle, you're like, God, I cannot deny the evidence that you're here, that you're faithful and not just in providing breath in kids lungs, which was the miraculous thing we're so grateful for, but then providing everything along the way. From the house to stay at with the friend that he gave the word to from the workout class. You running into this one person that literally had the same story and was speech pathologist and had a home for us to go say in and be at peace the rest of the week and to assess kit and the, and the specialist who was there. And then down to our anesthesiologist who literally, that was the craziest thing. He looked at Christian. He was like, my sister in law is the girl from jiu jitsu who beat you up in last week's episode of Doug Dynasty. Like, what, what are the odds of that?
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B
And thank you moment.
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I mean, what. And then both of them were like, we have three daughters, we're take care. I mean it was just, just like I just felt so held. And so I look back and I'm like, man, God, you were with us. But it, it was pretty wild. And so we. It's always hard to like step back into reality after you go through something like that. And I just felt like, like posting on social media to me can feel so disingenuous. Yeah. When you're like, y', all, I don't even know. Like, I'm just like smiling here, but like, whoa, like this is been insane. And not that like you have to share your whole life with the world. We don't have to, but I do feel like God has allowed us to. And I feel like I kind of do that in a different way. I'm not like on my stories every day talking about it because to me, like, personally and mentally that's not good for me. Like, I have to like be where I'm at, where my feet are planted. And then I like, like to come on a podcast and be like, okay, here's where we've been. Here's what happened. Here's, like, the reality of it. And so it's never that I want to, like, paint a picture that it's not. It's just I can't, like, present in social media and be present in my life at the same time without that having a toll. And so I'm so grateful that I wasn't on social media and was able to just, like, really be where my feet were and not because I think what happens is, like, we take on the worries of the world while we have, like, so many of our own worries. And I just felt like I cannot think about anything else right now except for this and, God, you're going to, like, meet me where I'm at and then one day, like, I'll be able to share and go back. And so I'm thankful, grateful, like a month and a half later and we're sharing. So I'm really grateful. And Kit's doing great.
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B
Here we are.
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A
Here we are sharing the story and you're doing great. And we're both doing great. Truly, like, in our marriage is what Freddie said to me last night. She said in the past, like, I've seen y' all walk through these things and it's been, like, so hard and shakes your faith. And she said the fact that y' all both come out, like, testifying to the goodness of God and not doubting the goodness of God is a huge change in our life.
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B
That is true. Big change.
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A
Big change.
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B
Big change.
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A
Major key, major key alert.