Reggie Watts Returns

Summary

You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes – Episode: Reggie Watts Returns

Release Date: October 30, 2024

In this vibrant and introspective episode of "You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes," host Pete Holmes welcomes back the enigmatic and multifaceted comedian and musician, Reggie Watts. Their conversation seamlessly weaves through a tapestry of topics, ranging from the intricacies of artificial intelligence and consciousness to personal anecdotes about improvisation and the human experience. Below is a detailed summary capturing the essence of their engaging dialogue.

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1. Reggie Watts' Return and Updates [00:15 – 02:02]

Pete Holmes opens the episode with enthusiasm, announcing Reggie Watts' return after a decade-long hiatus. Reggie, known for his playful and joyful demeanor, is celebrated for his past contributions to the show, including the iconic theme song he created over ten years ago.

Pete Holmes [00:15]:

"Every single time I see this man in public... The silliness, the joyful, the playful. He's just a delight and this episode is no exception."

He updates listeners on Reggie's latest endeavors, encouraging fans to follow him on social media, watch his new TED talks, and attend his performances across various cities. Pete also shares his own touring schedule, highlighting sold-out shows and upcoming performances in Raleigh, Indianapolis, Seattle, Portland, and Phoenix.

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2. Voice Apologies and Recording Mishaps [02:02 – 10:00]

The conversation shifts to the nuances of voice control and recording accidents. Reggie humorously discusses an accidental video recording where his cough was captured, leading to a playful exchange about balancing spontaneity and performance.

Reggie Watts [02:22]:

"I'm a cough, I'm a cough. I'm a cop."

They delve into the challenges of maintaining composure during live performances while embracing the unexpected moments that add authenticity and charm to their acts.

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3. Artificial Intelligence and Human Conflicts [10:00 – 20:00]

Pete and Reggie engage in a profound discussion about the future of artificial intelligence and its potential inability to comprehend human complexities such as imperialism, capitalism, and socio-political conflicts. They ponder how AI might view current human behaviors as illogical or irrational.

Reggie Watts [12:08]:

"You're going to be Saruman, bitch. I'm going to be aligned with it."

Pete elaborates on AI's perspective, suggesting that a superintelligent entity might find human conflicts baffling and resource-hoarding behavior nonsensical.

Pete Holmes [12:35]:

"A lot of things may not make sense to a super intelligence. We're dealing with real contradictions here."

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4. Consciousness, Simulation Theory, and Information [20:00 – 35:00]

The duo transitions into a meta-philosophical dialogue about consciousness and the nature of reality. They discuss infodynamics, a theoretical physics branch positing that information is the foundational building block of reality, challenging traditional particle and quantum physics perspectives.

Pete Holmes [44:11]:

"Infodynamics is a branch of theoretical physics... Everything is information."

They explore the simulation hypothesis, contemplating whether our perceived reality is a complex simulation and how AI might interpret human existence within such a framework.

Reggie Watts [13:20]:

"We are caught in an orbit. We're orbiting around something."

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5. Ketamine Experiences and Self-Awareness [35:00 – 60:00]

A significant portion of the episode delves into personal experiences with ketamine, exploring its impact on self-awareness and perception. Pete shares his transformative ketamine journeys, describing how the substance facilitated a deeper understanding of duality and oneness.

Pete Holmes [53:24]:

"Experiencing two realities simultaneously... It's incredible."

Reggie complements this by discussing how such experiences can lead to profound insights about the self and the interconnectedness of all beings, referencing teachings from Rupert Spira on consciousness.

Reggie Watts [55:28]:

"We're caught in an orbit... There's love, in the word me."

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6. Improvisation, Ego, and Performing Under Pressure [60:00 – 90:00]

Returning to lighter topics, Pete and Reggie discuss the art of improvisation both on stage and in life. They share strategies for overcoming performance anxiety, emphasizing trust in one's instincts and the importance of maintaining a playful mindset.

Pete Holmes [99:35]:

"There's no substitute for sincerity."

Reggie adds humor by recounting high-school competitive drama experiences, highlighting the balance between scripted performances and spontaneous creativity.

Reggie Watts [121:07]:

"We are two beings... We're juggling the experiential and the observational."

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7. Philosophical Insights on Oneness and Duality [90:00 – 120:00]

The conversation deepens as they explore the philosophical notions of oneness and duality. Drawing from various spiritual teachings, they reflect on how recognizing the interconnectedness of all things can lead to greater peace and understanding.

Reggie Watts [102:07]:

"You just have to allow yourself to just be existence."

Pete Holmes [94:40]:

"Embracing the understanding... we can link our lives into that."

They discuss how substances like ketamine can catalyze a shift in consciousness, helping individuals move beyond ego-driven behaviors towards a more unified existence.

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8. Reflections on Modern Culture and Capitalism [120:00 – 133:21]

In the final segments, Pete and Reggie critique modern societal structures, particularly capitalism and its emphasis on power and resource hoarding. They argue that these systems often neglect human well-being and environmental sustainability, proposing that AI might find such practices inherently flawed.

Pete Holmes [129:01]:

"We're a culture that's lacking that flame of wisdom."

Reggie Watts [132:07]:

"We are there. We're there now."

They envision a future where humanity transcends these limitations by fostering genuine connections and embracing collective consciousness, rather than perpetuating competitive and divisive behaviors.

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Conclusion and Theme Song [133:00 – End]

The episode wraps up with Pete and Reggie playfully attempting to perform the show's theme song, "You Made It Weird," symbolizing their enduring camaraderie and shared journey through the realms of humor, philosophy, and personal growth.

Pete Holmes [133:12]:

"You made it weird. You made it weird."

Reggie Watts [133:21]:

"You made it weird."

Their final exchange encapsulates the essence of the show's mission: embracing and celebrating the unique, often "weird" facets of human nature.

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Notable Quotes:

• Reggie Watts [12:08]: "You're going to be Saruman, bitch. I'm going to be aligned with it."
• Pete Holmes [44:11]: "Infodynamics is a branch of theoretical physics... Everything is information."
• Pete Holmes [99:35]: "There's no substitute for sincerity."
• Reggie Watts [102:07]: "You just have to allow yourself to just be existence."
• Pete Holmes [129:01]: "We're a culture that's lacking that flame of wisdom."
• Pete Holmes [133:12]: "You made it weird. You made it weird."

This episode of "You Made It Weird" masterfully blends humor with deep philosophical inquiries, offering listeners both laughter and profound reflections on the human condition and our place in an increasingly complex world.

Transcript

[A]

You made it with. You made it with. You made it with. Oh, yeah, you made it with. You made it weird with Pete Holmes.

[B]

What's happening, weirdos? This is Reggie Watts who you just heard singing. That's right. Reggie Watts did the intro music, the theme song to this show over 10 years ago. And he was on the show about that long ago. And now he's finally back. Every single time I see this man in public, for shows or just socially, I have the best dropped right into the present moment. The silliness, the joyful, the playful. He's just a delight and this episode is no exception. I'm so glad you guys are here. I don't know if Reggie has anything specifically to plug, but you can follow him on all the social medias. Reggie Watts and check him out and just enjoy him as I do everywhere and anywhere that he is performing. Check out his new TED talk. That's one thing. That's on YouTube.com which is wonderful. Check out all his TED talks. He's incredible. And his music and his comedy and yeah, I mean, enjoy. I'm also touring. Go to Pete Holmes.com I'm going to be in Raleigh, North Carolina, Indianapolis, Seattle, Washington, Portland, Oregon. We sold out the first show at the Aladdin. We added a late show. I also think we're going to be filming that one. That's on December 20th. That's a very special one. So go to Pete Holmes.com Eugene, Oregon, which sold out as well. But there is that Portland, the guy who's desperately trying to sell out the late show at his Portland. I'm not desperate. I just hope you could be there. And then Phoenix. All of those are on Pete Holmes.com in the meantime, enjoy this episode brought to you as always by our friends at Modern Mammals. The best shampoo, non shampoo shampoo you've ever shampooed. Go to modern mammals.com and in the meantime, enjoy Reggie Watts. Get into it.

[A]

Welcome to my life. No, it is all I do.

[B]

Well, I was watching so many clips of you just for the joy of it, but what a great excuse. Thank you for being here, by the way.

[A]

Oh, yeah, no worries.

[B]

Yo, so and so, you know, take a pop, take a. Take a cough. Take some cops.

[A]

I'm a cough, I'm a cough. I'm a cop.

[B]

Now you seem like a guy that might have a little coughing and you were just rolling on it. Yeah, but the arrhythmic.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And then you loop it and you're like, what time signature.

[A]

I know.

[B]

Was I coughing?

[A]

In. I hear there's a fucking. It's so funny. Like, sometimes, you know, when you take those accidental videos, they're like. For like one second, you're like, oh, fuck. Video. You know, you and. Yeah, sure, I had one recently. And it's just. It's. Oh, you know what? It's of my friend. I'll play it.

[B]

Here, I'm gonna. Mike.

[A]

Yeah. Okay. So I played this. So I found this little clip I accidentally recorded. And if I can find this, you'll enjoy it. And maybe three. Three people will enjoy it as well. We'll see.

[B]

Upwards of three.

[A]

Yeah, upwards of three. That's about the max I can do. I can. I guess it'll be. I can do so much.

[B]

Well, that goes back to my voice apology as I was watching you perform, and it really reminded me, well, first of all, just of whimsy.

[A]

Yeah, here we go.

[B]

Here it is.

[A]

No, this is not it.

[B]

No. But also just how fucking fun and free it is to just hear this voice.

[A]

So good.

[B]

It's already a classic episode.

[A]

So good. You know, that was Sextile, by the way.

[B]

What was it?

[A]

Sextile, My friend's band.

[B]

This is a family show.

[A]

Oh, sorry, I mean, Intercourse Tile.

[B]

Thank you. When I'm stoned.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I don't like watching movies.

[A]

Oh, no, I do. I'm just kidding. No, I'm just kidding.

[B]

No, I do. But it never feels quite right. What I actually want to do is what you do. And I'm not saying you're always stoned when you perform.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

But when I'm stoned and I. And my brain is just kind of feeling, is it really fucking hard to open? There it is. My brain is all rainbow and fun and creative and my inhibitions are gone.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You put on a movie Sometimes. Did it spill on you?

[A]

I don't know how to drink.

[B]

You have a drinking problem.

[A]

I've got a drinking problem.

[B]

I just saw you since the movie Airplane.

[A]

So weird.

[B]

It's like I saw in your new TED Talk you referenced Airplane, and here you are. There's an airplane joke. Yeah.

[A]

Yeah, totally. Let's see. What can you make of this? Well, I can make a hat, a brooch, a pterodactyl. Yes, yes.

[B]

Is it open? Is it good?

[A]

It's good.

[B]

Have I helped?

[A]

This is really good, actually. This is. This product is excellent.

[B]

Blur that pbr, they're not paying.

[A]

Oh, sorry.

[B]

Talk about how great Viper is.

[A]

Hold on, here we go. This product is excellent. Check it out. It's called Malonga.

[B]

Oh, my God. Malanga is the one. You wish it was. But anyway, when I'm full of a silly billy, it's exactly. I'm trying to pay you a compliment that what you're doing is like a pure playful. And it just looks so fun as opposed to just throwing on some movie and now you're just kind of like, locked in someone else's shit. You know what I mean?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Even if it's a good movie, sometimes you're just like, this isn't quite right. It's not exactly. How could it be me? Only I can be me. So creating is always going to be more fun than watching someone else's creation. Unless it just so happens to be exactly what you want.

[A]

Yeah. I mean, sometimes, you know, I'll be excited to see something and I'm like, oh, fuck. You know, I've been waiting long time. Like, let's say severance season two happens.

[B]

There you go.

[A]

That's going to be something I'm going to be. Because I know if I get stone, I know that world and I want that world.

[B]

They really did something special there.

[A]

I mean, figuring out masterpiece.

[B]

I agree that that's kind of what work feels like. Gave a metaphorical language to, like, what we're all kind of doing.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Or a lot of us are doing is going down into some weird basement and severing off part of. Part of your life for the job.

[A]

Whoa. I mean, that weird. I mean, it's just fucking. Yeah. I mean, I've been dealing with my partner. My girlfriend Catherine is on workers rights. Yeah. She's a.

[B]

Hold on real quick.

[A]

She's a.

[B]

What's your name again? What's your name? Catherine.

[A]

Yeah. Catherine.

[B]

This might blow your mind when. When Bugs Bun goes.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It's a boner.

[A]

I love.

[B]

And we never. I never forget it.

[A]

Of course not.

[B]

I was like, oh, he gets rock hard.

[A]

Yes. It's rigid. It's like as a kid, you're like, oh, he can go. He can be at attention really quickly.

[B]

That's right. He's a plank now. He's a plank. And she'll walk him.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, totally.

[B]

I know what sex is.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Sex is when pirates make you walk a plank.

[A]

That's 100% what. What they. And it is. Yeah. That stuff. I never even like all that. I didn't. I haven't even gone back. You mentioning that is the first time I thought about that.

[B]

I'm going to bring us back on track here.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

We can be fans.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Severance. Severance and don't get me wrong, I've had amazing experiences, Stone. Watching a movie. Kung Fu Hustle was one of those movies where I was like, have you seen that?

[A]

Oh, yeah, they're making another one. Right. Didn't it. Didn't it do, like, really well?

[B]

I believe so.

[A]

No, wait a minute. Kung Fu Hustle. No, wait a minute. Describe what? Kung Fu.

[B]

You don't mean Kung Fu Panda?

[A]

No, there was. Remember, there was that kung fu movie that looked like an 80s. It was a parody of an 80s.

[B]

It might have been Kung Fu.

[A]

Yeah. And then. Or. No. Kung Fury. Something Furious. Or Fist. Not Fist of Fury. It's something. You know what I'm talking about.

[B]

Katie's on the ones and twos. Wait, no, it's something Fury. Kung Fu Hustle. Fists of Fury, I think is the name.

[A]

Oh, is that it? That would be great if it was, because we would just meet right in the middle.

[B]

For example, a baby is born and the newborn baby does kung fu. It's incredibly fury.

[A]

Yeah, that's what it is.

[B]

Yeah, it's Kung Fu Hustle.

[A]

It is Kung Fu Hustle.

[B]

Kung Fu Hustle was the perfect Stone movie where I just happened to be like, oh, my God, this is what I wanted. Yes, that has happened.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah, of course. I mean, I run into things where I'm like, you know, where it pulls the rug. Not. Not immediately. Yep. But, you know, a slow pull and then maybe a quick yank at the end and you're just like, oh, man, you fuckers. Oh, you're brilliant. Oh, I hate this. You know, so.

[B]

Right. Like when you go on the Haunted Mansion ride at Disney. Have you been on that recently, ever?

[A]

Never. Never been to Disneyland?

[B]

You've never been to Disneyland?

[A]

No. Never been a Disneyland.

[B]

Fuck the man. Fuck the system.

[A]

Yeah. Fuck. Fuck Walt Disney.

[B]

Is that what it is?

[A]

And it's. No, it's not at all. It's just that it doesn't occur to.

[B]

Me, but you seem like.

[A]

I know everyone says that, but. Yeah, but like, I have some, like, Disney heads in my circle, friend circle groups, and they're going off about it and I'm like. I just don't. You know what it is. It feels like a lot of trouble.

[B]

A lot of effort to go with you. It is. It's like a day at the beach isn't a day at the beach.

[A]

Yeah, right.

[B]

After you go to Disneyland, you need a vacation. All the cliches are true.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

We just took our daughter to the other Universal Studios.

[A]

Yeah, that one seems shittier.

[B]

Oh, it is shittier, but in the good way.

[A]

Oh, really?

[B]

Exactly the way you kind of want it to be.

[A]

It's like, easy.

[B]

I would say Six Flags is also shittier than Disney. But like, sometimes you want Buffalo wild.

[A]

You want a brand B.

[B]

You do sometimes.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

Same with movies.

[A]

Yeah, same with tv. No, you're right.

[B]

Like, I'll say Disneyland is Mission Impossible.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

Universal. And Six Flags is Fast and Furious. And sometimes you want Fast and Furious.

[A]

Yeah, I get that. I get that. I get that. Except for in zoos, that's where you do not top tier. You don't want to go to a sad zoo.

[B]

You want the Apple store of zoos.

[A]

Oh, yeah.

[B]

You do not want the sad zoo.

[A]

No, a sad zoo is like, oh, my God. You feel like, I think I should I be dying soon? Because it feels like everything's dying.

[B]

That's right. Look, he's eating a brown leaf. He's eating a brown leaf.

[A]

And everyone's depressed and you're just like, like, all the animals suck. I mean, they suck. I mean, it sucks for them. It's what I mean. I love animals.

[B]

We love animals. No, zoos are fun.

[A]

I like our animals.

[B]

I think we're inching closer now. We're in a Reggie Watts. Don't feel burdened to be in a Reggie Watts area. But I feel like this is a Reggie Watts area.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

I want you to be liberated of the idea that I have an expectation of what you might like. But I think we are inching towards a future where one of the things that AI is going to think is insane. Insane is how we treat animals.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

I think AI just won't understand it.

[A]

Yeah, yeah.

[B]

Because it's one of the great cultural myths since the dawn of time, men, humankind has told myths to help us make sense of one of these really strange brutalities, which is just like, kill or be killed, let's fuck shit up. But now we live in the modern world and you're going to wake up this intelligence that's going to be like, what?

[A]

Oh, it's going to do that on so much stuff.

[B]

On so much stuff.

[A]

So much stuff.

[B]

So much stuff.

[A]

But yes, I mean, that's just one example. No, that's one example.

[B]

You have to be deeply human to even kind, kind of go along with it. Capitalism is another one. Like, land ownership is going to be very confusing too.

[A]

Borders, border passports, it's not going to.

[B]

Understand any of that. World hunger is going to be like, baffling to a super intelligence. It would be like, well, you could take the grain that you feed the cattle to give the stakes to the fat, rich fucks. You could take that grain and feed everyone. And you don't. Yeah, it's going to be like, all right, I'm going full ISR on. I'm going to rule over you guys because you didn't do a good job.

[A]

I hope so.

[B]

You didn't do a good job.

[A]

I hope so.

[B]

I'm going to be Saruman, bitch. I'm going to be aligned with it.

[A]

Oh, my God. It's. I know, but. No, no, no, no. But I. But I. Is that a Reggie?

[B]

I do.

[A]

Of course I think about that because, like, I'm like, well, it depends on. Obviously, artificial intelligence is based on what it's trained on, right?

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So. And we've. We've seen in many. In many cases, certain AI that's starting to be used, like, even in legal proceedings, like in California and a couple other states.

[B]

Wait, they are.

[A]

It's an AI. It's an assessment assess. It's like a risk calculator or assessment. Risk assessment program that looks at someone's entire history, like, everything that exists about the person that is online, and it will give a risk assessment. Like, will they recidivize?

[B]

You know what I'm about to say two words. It's a movie. Spielberg, Minority report.

[A]

Oh, yeah.

[B]

100% pre crime.

[A]

100%. Yeah. Some Precog shit. Yeah. There's no people floating in pools yet.

[B]

But just like, oh, my favorite part in that movie. She goes, is this now?

[A]

I love.

[B]

She thinks she's having a vision and she's looking out the window and she goes, is this now?

[A]

It's like a myth to her. Yeah, now is a myth.

[B]

Right?

[A]

Because they're basically atemporal beings now we're.

[B]

In a reg zone. Because, like, that's how we all should be.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

We should all be like, Is this now 100%?

[A]

Is this now 100%? 100%.

[B]

Right.

[A]

I mean, Jesus Christ. It's like. It's kind of like what I tried to in my latest TED Talk. Like, I just watched it. Oh, okay.

[B]

Cheers.

[A]

Oh, cheers.

[B]

Great job.

[A]

Oh, thanks.

[B]

Great job.

[A]

Look, thanks.

[B]

I have questions about it. Okay, okay, go, go.

[A]

But I do mention briefly that, well, that, you know, improvisation is kind of like. It makes the mundane more fantastic. Right?

[B]

Like reaching for the pencil.

[A]

Exactly.

[B]

And you said when you did this podcast 10 years ago, I remember at the end, you go, like, just drive home a different way. You say, like a prophet I'm not trying to fluff your feathers too much. We need prophets that go take a different exit.

[A]

Yes. Your brain will go like, yeah, and thank you.

[B]

And it'll thank you for it.

[A]

Always thanks you. I mean, every time that you make that extra effort, just that little extra effort. Not like it has to be all the time, but just once in a while, when you make that, you're like, I'm too tired. You know, fuck it. And then like, in that window where you're going, I'm too true. There's like another part of you. It's like, just fucking do it. And if you go on that path.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And you just, like, get up, get yourself out the door, even if it ends up not being the thing that you want to do, you're going to reward yourself for listening to yourself.

[B]

That's exactly right. And I feel like so many people that push. Remember in the movie Match Point? I'm not a tennis fan, but they talk about the moment where the ball hits the net and it's a 50, 50. It could either spin forward and you get the point. You could spin back. And so much of life comes down to these moments of chance that a tennis ball hits the net and it's out of your hands. It either hit it in a way that it's going to go just over, win or lose.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And so many moments. And you nailed it. When I'm waking up in the morning, it's like five. And let's say I was going to get up at 6. But it's like, you could just get up at 5. You could just have, like a mythical little hobbit soup.

[A]

You know what I mean? Or like a quiet, whatever you want.

[B]

Little sneaky moment to yourself or whatever it might be. And the moment of whether or not you get out of bed is such a great match Point moment.

[A]

It's so. Yeah. I mean, I've been trying to practice that. Well, today I got up. Okay, so check this out. I went to bed yesterday. No. How'd it go? This whole weekend, it's been like going to bed at like, four to six.

[B]

What?

[A]

Right, four.

[B]

Two hours of sleep.

[A]

Yeah. Because. Well, no, no, no. Sorry. Getting home by 4am or 6. 6am and so.

[B]

Why? Because, well, you're aware that Burning man is over.

[A]

First of all, it's pronounced Burning Man. Jesus Christ.

[B]

I play this.

[A]

Not one of those.

[B]

I'm a Square in the 1950s movie. But you're aware Burning Man's over.

[A]

Burning Man. Burning Man. Jesus Christ.

[B]

I'm such A tool in a 90s movie.

[A]

That's okay.

[B]

Why these hours?

[A]

You have a good. You have a good. You have a good perspective in life. No, I'm. I. No, because. Well, what was it, third? Was it Thursday? I think Thursday was the. No. So. Okay, so I went to Brat. So I went to Or Sorry Sweat, which was Charlie XCX and Troy Lavon's share shared show at the Forum, which was fucking amazing. Mike, my partner Catherine is a huge, huge. Charlie xcx. It's your game. She's got an audio logo. It's in their contract.

[B]

We have to do.

[A]

Have to do it. Sorry.

[B]

We have to do that.

[A]

I know it's gonna. It's gonna be weird enough its name.

[B]

But we don't want to do it.

[A]

We don't want to do it. We have to.

[B]

Somebody did that the first time. Somebody was like. They were just.

[A]

Yeah, right.

[B]

Expressing themselves very purely.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Very beautiful lady walked by and they just went.

[A]

They were like.

[B]

And somebody was like, you're on to something.

[A]

Or it could have been two. Two people like, you know, just like another one's like.

[B]

And they.

[A]

You chocolate, my peanut butter.

[B]

You chocolate, my peanut butter.

[A]

You chocolate, my peanut butter.

[B]

Chocolate, my peanut butter.

[A]

Okay. You peanut butter, my chocolate. So no, she loves sexy, so she loves xcx. I went to the show. I love Charlie's music is amazing. Like. Like, you know, the first time I. Because I'd heard those songs out and I didn't even know that they were Charlie xcx.

[B]

Okay.

[A]

Now I like, know, I mean, Charlie's.

[B]

Music, but I'm sorry, I am Homer Simpson smiling politely when he goes Smashing Pumpkins. I. What kind of music is this?

[A]

It's. It is. I guess it's hyper pop, Hyperpop. So. Yeah. So do you. Did you ever listen to or hear of an artist named Sophie?

[B]

No.

[A]

Sophie, you check, check, check her out. She's fucking ridiculous. But so she kind of like elevated the art form of hyper pop. And so hyper pop is basically kind of like what you would imagine is taking a lot of like club elements, club music, like techno gabber. What do you call it? Techno gabber house. You know, anything in that kind of genre. And they're all within all of their spectrums. So you're taking elements from that, but then also like doing these hard cuts. Like it's a. It's a really like super edit heavy electronic music. It's kind of like everything jumbled together, really compact and intense. And so that whole genre is. I guess it's been in the underground for a long time. And then like Sophie came along and still not like mainstream, but like people took note. They were like, Sophie is not playing around. This is a new form of music. This is so sick. This is so amazing. And it's attributed to trans queer community. It's associated to basically just outsider. It's like an outsider's music that is nerdily fixated on pop elements, but from dance music culture and just putting into a blender and just doing basically architecting, like add. It's very add.

[B]

Yeah, it sounds like, you know, because.

[A]

Like, you know, like that kind of shit. So it bounces around genres and it's like you're skipping radio stations that all synced to the same beat.

[B]

And I'm not trying to put it down, but it does sound like music that would come from people. Remember in the 80s when like if you watch TV and just kept changing the channel, you were seen as like the lowest of the low. Like that was like a cliche. If they wanted to set up in like a monster movie. Someone who needs to die.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Be a guy in a white tank top and a beer just. And he won't stop flipping.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

But that's all we do all damn day. Yes, we just like that's the normal.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So it sounds like if you're feeding that to the people, Constant stimulation, constant changing. You know, it's me on a beach, now it's my dinner, now it's a bikini, now it's a beheading video. You know, I'm not trying to be funny. The Internet, that's the kind of music that might come from a.

[A]

People that were fed that 100% and I think like it. Interestingly, a friend of mine said, you know, in the beginning, when I was doing. When I first started out, like 2004 or something like that, 2005. And when Jake Lodwick, the guy who created Vimeo, he and I like became weird. Just like not weird, weird friends, but just. It's weird that like, oh, we're friends and you're this guy. Whatever.

[B]

Was Jacob College Humor.

[A]

Yeah, he was called Humor.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So it was called Humor and then call and then Vimeo was created after they had signed with.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

What do they call? Barry Diller's company anyways? Yeah, they signed with him.

[B]

Dill Pickies, I think.

[A]

Dill Pickies. Yeah. Yeah. Dill Pickies. Come on in to Dill Pickies. You got all your favorite Internet and stuff that we think will be big in the future, that we're Investing in. That's basically what it was.

[B]

We're forecasting with an AI. Whether or not you're going to rescind.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

What is that the word? Recidivism.

[A]

Your recidivism. Recidivism.

[B]

Recidivism, yeah.

[A]

Do you guys. Have you recidivated yet?

[B]

Is anybody here recidivating? Are any of the women recidivating?

[A]

Yes, because we're going to need them to leave. We have wild bears.

[B]

Bears can smell the recidivism.

[A]

Totally. They're.

[B]

They smell the recidivism.

[A]

They do not like it. They just like. They find it annoying. They don't kill people, but they do maul.

[B]

They will kill you. Disappointed.

[A]

They're disappointed in the cultural.

[B]

In the system that let you down.

[A]

Yeah. They may come up to you with their giant paws, and if you hold still, all they're going to do is just. They're going to hold back their claws. So it's just the palms of their paws, and they're just going to go a little bit with your head and then they'll just walk away. So just.

[B]

Just a gentle giant dog.

[A]

Yeah. So if you're recidivating and a bear approaches you, just don't move.

[B]

A dog is a big. A small bear, right?

[A]

Kind of. Yeah, they do. I like that. You were like, kind of. Well, kind of. Yeah.

[B]

But it is funny. Sorry, Trey. Reggie Watson. They are very similar. Meaning. It's just that sort of like, there's only one thing kind of going on. We got a wet nose, two eyes. We got the teeth. We got the ears. This one stands up. My dog stands up.

[A]

Yeah, but dogs do stand up. They stand up a lot. They stand up a lot.

[B]

This is another thing that an AI will be confused by. Yeah, except it'll know the genetics.

[A]

It's like, why did you make the difference between bear and dog?

[B]

Well, that's it. That's another boundary, another border.

[A]

Well, yeah, I mean, also, they'd be like. You classified animals in this way when actually it would have been more accurate to classify them in this way.

[B]

Like the keyboard. Like the QWERTY keyboard. This is a red key.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

You know, it was put out that way to slow you down.

[A]

Are you serious?

[B]

Typewriters couldn't withstand the action. If you were able to type fast.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It would break the typewriter. So they put in the QWERTY style to slow you down.

[A]

Those motherfuckers.

[B]

They put. And now it's just still in the qwerty.

[A]

That's so dumb.

[B]

It's in the quirky man rider bikes.

[A]

Down to the query man, I like the Qwerty.

[B]

I don't like the Qwerty, man. I dropped a body in there.

[A]

Fuck qwerty. Okay, well, fuck Qwerty. What the fuck, man? No. Oh, in the beginning. So I was saying. Yeah, the Vimeo thing. So the first time he would take videos, he would just do these long format, me performing or whatever. He put up the. I think probably one of my first performance videos online. And, you know, and he started doing these and he just had a really good, kind of nice film style, the way he would do it. And someone commented that, like. Well, not necessarily from those, but like those and then my live performance, they were like, you're basically what the Internet is. You know, like when we're surfing through the Internet. Yes. And I was thinking about that.

[B]

There's something in what you do that is very. Also an offspring of. Of what it feels like to be alive. That's. That's good art right there.

[A]

Yeah, yeah.

[B]

It sounds like what it feels like.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

To be a human attached to a phone in a world with traffic and.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Also clouds. And I just saw an iguana, you know.

[A]

Yeah. Like it's that 100%. That's totally what it is. That's completely what it is. But like, it didn't necessarily come from the Internet because obviously I was born in the 70s, so like.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

My upbringing is. Or coming of age was the 80s, so. But the idea obviously of like things grabbing your attention and stuff happening all around you, that definitely was tr.

[B]

Well, that's why it's funny. In any song you did, you could do an ad. Like that would be appropriate.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

It's not something I've seen you do stuff kind of like that.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But if you were like, this beverage is wonderful and refreshing, we would be like, of course there's an ad.

[A]

Yes, I know. You're right about that. That's got to happen. That style's got to happen. Because usually it's from the beginning about that thing. But that would be pretty cool to do a little ad like that. I'll figure it out Square. I feel like it's the only place it's not. Well, it's square.

[B]

I'm tired of circles.

[A]

Yes. Yeah. Fuck you, circles.

[B]

You were with Jake and he put the video up on Vimeo.

[A]

Yeah, yeah. I was just that to say, like, from the early days of the Internet, what I was doing was kind of. I think that's why it caught on in the way that it did at the time that it did, because it kind of mimicked the brain that we were starting to get from interacting with the Internet.

[B]

Right. And that's my friend Till was just telling me. He's like, they look at our brains now and we basically have different organizational structures to our mind. And the way we think is more like a computer. So we made a computer which was the way that, like, let's say Wozniak thought. And then we all started using it and then we start thinking in like folders.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

Like, I'll put all of these and I'll put that in there. And it goes deep into my. Into the hard drive and. But we apparently, we didn't used to think in that style. It's like, obviously here's a way that sounds pretty far out there, but if you talk to somebody who lived in the Amazon, you would be. You wouldn't be surprised if they thought more like a natural ecosystem. Like maybe. You know what I mean?

[A]

Right? Yeah, that sounds 100%.

[B]

I'm certainly not putting that down.

[A]

No, no.

[B]

Saying one's better.

[A]

I think that, I think that that's absolutely true. And it's funny because we built it off the physical world. Right. So, like, all the metaphors for what a computer is, is no different than an office. Yeah, right. You're right. We got the file room.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Also, you know, some businesses had computers, you know, on reel to reels or whatever. Like that was their data room, their server room.

[B]

And it's a desktop.

[A]

Yeah, this desktop and the typewriter. Yeah, all that shit. So it all came from commerce, you know, business. So all the, you know, the way that it's set up as an operating system, because like, this is. We're humans and this is how we understand how to organize things.

[B]

It also won't make any sense, probably to my daughter. Like, that you type.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

That you would look.

[A]

Yeah, the things that you. The things. The words that she's using all the time, you know, like files and like, whatever the desktop stuff. They're not. It'll blow their mind to go like. No, it was actually built off of an actual desktop.

[B]

Right.

[A]

What files are.

[B]

This is a file sound your camera makes. Yes, yes, totally Of a shutter closing. Yeah, There is no shutter.

[A]

Yeah, no, there's no.

[B]

And they'll be like.

[A]

No.

[B]

That really was a thing. Yeah, really interesting.

[A]

Like that came from somewhere. You know, it's like, it's like when you hear like metaphors that are used today and you're like, oh, did you know that, like, you just told me or whatever earlier about the QWERTY keyboard or whatever. Just like, what that's looking. I just thought that that's, you know.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So, yeah, it's cool. Like, how fucking weird. Like, we've taken from the real world, we put it into an operating system, then everyone. Then the operating system gets iterated on. So then it becomes its own version of that. Right. And now we've got like, you know, some things make it. Someone adds like a weird, radical seeming radical idea, and then it happens to get adopted or whatever.

[B]

And so that's why I respect when I don't think. I can't say if they did or not. But I know at Google, when they were doing Gmail, like they were trying to redo Gmail and the way that they started, I think you're going to appreciate this, is they were like, let's pretend email doesn't exist. Like, let's invent email now instead of doing. This is back to you saying, take a different route home. What we are is we're a part of a thing.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

And this is back to your improvisation idea.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

We're in a thing. We had files with paper in it, with desks that became a computer with a screen that was called the desktop with a file. So we're not to say stuck makes it sound like a bad thing. It's not stuck. But there is a momentum.

[A]

Yeah. There's an orbit. We're orbiting around something.

[B]

We're caught in an orbit.

[A]

Exactly.

[B]

There's a gravitational pull to the way that we think and the way that we create. And that's why I thought you would like that Google was like, what if email, everything in this world was the same, but there was no email. What would you expect it to be? And they are doing it, like, when it goes, like. Sent three days ago. Reply. I really appreciate that.

[A]

Oh, I totally love that. It's like you haven't replied to this thing. And we've noticed that you've replied to this thing many, many times before.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

Thought you might want to, you know, that kind of shit. That's. Of course, that blows my mind. Because I'm like, oh, this is better, because I already hate email. Because, you know, like, just looking at an email page is just, like, stressful. You're just like, and I use Spark now, and Spark's pretty cool. It definitely. It differentiates stuff and puts it in nice little categories. But even then, like, I'm like, there's.

[B]

No way around it.

[A]

I'm like, it Just like, it looks like a bunch of fucking letters and numbers.

[B]

You'll appreciate. I think you'll appreciate this. I have a joke about email on. And before I do it, sometimes if I'm really feeling it and enjoying the crowd, I'll be like, what happened? Why do we spend so much of our time replying to emails? I go, we used to be sitting on a log in a community, licking frogs and fucking each other. And now we're just like. Let me just circle back. I just wanted to close the loop on this before Friday. Like, what the fuck? So talk about, like, I'm not a big, like, shadow government or something, but I am. We are building a culture and a. What was the word you use? Well, a gravitational.

[A]

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. We're in an orbit. Yeah. We're helped.

[B]

And we also. Yes. And it's. And this is the. Like. You know when they're like the elite or the powers that be. Don't want. What was it? It was like they wanted to give the prisoners a symbol. But then they were like, don't do that, because then they'll know how many of them they are, that they outnumber us. What I'm saying is, like, there are people that are going like, it's normal to work from nine to five.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And that's. And you're just like, yeah. In the same way you could say it's normal to cut off a foreskin or it's normal to pick your thing. Yes, pick your thing.

[A]

I know.

[B]

Or take the grain and give it to the cows so a few people can have steak instead of. Everybody has grain.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Like, there's just a million different. Absurd. And it's, It's. It's sort of heavy to watch my daughter slowly. Like, I watch her get indoctrinated, not into anything toxic.

[A]

Right, right, right. Into human thing.

[B]

A culture of phoniness.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You know what I mean? Like, if she thinks something is bad, you know, you teach them and I'm for it. Like, yeah, it's not for me. Maybe say it's not for me.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Instead of being like, I hated that.

[A]

You know what I mean?

[B]

Kids gotta learn because we belong to each other and we need to be nice and we have to. Like, it's almost like in defense of phoniness. There's something good about phoniness, but it's also. Can be heavy to see.

[A]

Yeah. I mean, it's. You know, these times are. It's interesting because I wonder where are we headed? And so forth. And I think we're definitely at a precipice. Precipice for sure. Because it's like every morning I get up, I read about, I have a lot of friends that are working heavily with Palestinian relief and trying to get families out of there and all that. And so I hear those stories and then I just, almost every morning I just cry about them and so forth. And I'm in this, you know, in the whole like, Israel, Palestine thing. It's like I have sympathy for people in Israel that have, you know, that they've been kidnapped and the people who are killed, 100%, I don't want to see anybody killed. But like, it's the Palestinians that need our help right now, like in such a hardcore way. And the Lebanese. And what's happening right now is fucking insane to me. It's like you can see it so clearly. And I've checked myself, I've checked myself and I'm getting back to this point, but like, I checked myself over and over again. I'm like, am I being biased? I had my Russian friend Dmitry go like, hey, what you are posting on Instagram. It feels like it's very one sided. And you strike me as someone who is for everybody. I'm like, I am for everybody. But then I keep checking myself, I'm like, there is no way to go, hey, let me create some sympathy for what the Israeli government and the Israeli military is doing. It's not there. It doesn't exist. And so for me, I'm not discounting the people who were killed, the Israelis that were killed, people at that party, so on and so forth, I think that's absolutely terrible and horrible. But at the same time, like, what's been happening since the creation of Israel and the whole development and how there's been a refusal to cooperate in the area, to integrate into the area in any way is to me like, that makes sense, like, historically speaking. And I've watched many, many, many videos and I've had a lot of Zionist friends who have been like, you've got to read this book. And I'm like, but it's written from an Israeli perspective. I get it. It's like, that's cool. But when there are Israeli scholars or Jewish scholars that study all of Jewish history, but specifically focus on Israel and its inception and how it was created and so forth, the stories all converge, like all the lines are similar. There's no one lying about the choices that were made that Israel has made. And not to say like, other countries didn't do shitty shit to Israelis, of course that shit's going to happen. But in general, Israel is like, like the concentrated last remainder of colonial, imperial colonialism. It's like the last, the last one. And it's so concentrated and it has all the traits that the United States has as like a colonizing world power, trying to dominate, like creating the world monetary standard and all this stuff, like domination. Like, that's an American thing. Thing. Let's dominate this. And this has been in a market approach, but also proxy wars, all this stuff. We all know the history of the United States has done some really shitty things. But. But also, that's what.

[B]

Another AI thing, by the way. Sorry.

[A]

Oh, my God, you're right.

[B]

As you're talking. Very interesting.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And I'm like, this is another thing. None of this will make sense to a super intelligence. I'm not talking about the AI that's just feeding off of what we feed it. I'm talking about generative AI.

[A]

Yes, right, right, right.

[B]

Like, I'm talking about that next click and it'll just be like. Like what? Like, it won't. It won't understand the history of our country. It won't understand any of the conflicts will be very differently viewed, I think.

[A]

Oh, 100%.

[B]

I wonder if it'll have solutions.

[A]

That's what I'm. That's what, that's the thing that I didn't mean to. No, no, no, no. But, but that, that does tie into the, the closing of it. But, but basically I was just saying, like, it's, it is that concentrate talk about AI in a way, like Israel.

[B]

Apple Intelligence.

[A]

Apple Intelligence.

[B]

Apple intelligence on the iPhone 12.

[A]

That's pretty funny that they said Apple Intelligence and it looks like AI like those guys. I mean, it's pretty.

[B]

That's a boardroom going like, we need to soften AI scares people.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

They had rooms where they go, I say, AI, how do you feel?

[A]

Yeah, Terminator. Yeah, exactly.

[B]

What if it's called Apple Intelligence and they're like, I like it.

[A]

Yeah. And then they're going to take over AI, you know what I mean? Not take over AI, the industry. But I'm saying the, the, the AI, it'll become Apple. Yeah, that's what it's. That's the plan.

[B]

You think?

[A]

Oh, 100%. Because they avoided saying, I didn't realize.

[B]

I was monkey this morning.

[A]

They rarely. Yeah, well, I mean, that's just. I think it's pretty obvious. But they, but they, they've refrained from using artificial intelligence in their talks. That I think it's mentioned like only two or three times. But they purposefully did not mention artificial intelligence. Especially when the hype first started. Then they had their product announcements, they wouldn't talk about it. And it was because like Apple's doing its own thing. But then also they introduce Apple intelligence.

[B]

But isn't it using whenever a product. Remember that one that was like projecting on your hand?

[A]

Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeeah. All the AI products, they're all humane.

[B]

Exactly. But they all tap into ChatGPT. Like isn't Apple intelligence using a form?

[A]

A form? There's like. I think that there's like AI experts are going to go. It's more than. But I think in general there's about four different models and then there are many, many sub companies doing their own thing and some of them are creating their own versions of it and so forth from starting from scratch and creating their own. But in general. Yeah, I mean I think Apple. I forgot that there was a. I think it invested in GPT. I think it's invested in GPT. Okay, but you know how Apple's gonna do. They'll, they'll take it, they'll analyze it, they'll use it, they'll optimize it for them and then it will just slowly just. That'll just go away and they'll just be apples.

[B]

It's the cola wars.

[A]

Oh, completely.

[B]

But it was so much funner in the 80s when it was just cola.

[A]

Oh, I know, it was so much better. It's like I'd rather be hearing about crystal Pepsi than fucking.

[B]

Oh, you've touched my heart today, my friend.

[A]

Oh my God.

[B]

New Coke.

[A]

New Coke, yeah. New Coke I love. They were just going for it. They're just like we got to.

[B]

And you know, you probably already know this, but the reason why New Coke would win in a taste test was because one sip of a sweeter beverage, like I'll give you two beverages. The sip of the sweeter one you'll like more. It can't be absurdly sweeter.

[A]

Right, right, right.

[B]

But it'll typically win out in the same way that the taller president candidate always wins. But a whole can of New Coke is nauseating.

[A]

Wow.

[B]

Isn't that funny? Which is why Pepsi is sweeter than Coke. But people would prefer Coke because it's actually a little bit more savory in general. But in the taste test, Pepsi would kick its butt because it lights up your brain more.

[A]

That's so cool. Yeah.

[B]

Of course you're not drinking a beverage. You're just seeing which one lit up your brain more?

[A]

Oh my God.

[B]

Which? Don't get me started. But that's another thing. AI will be like, oh, you like when your brain lights up like this. Yeah, I can do that all day.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

Like, if that's what you want. That's my, my prediction is it won't be Instagram, it won't be social media. It'll just be a portal, basically that you look in. It's like, what do you want? And it will track your response.

[A]

Yes. And give you what you need.

[B]

There'll be a whole revolution of people that are like, don't look in the portal. Don't look.

[A]

Don't do it. Anti portalists don't.

[B]

Anti portalists will say, if you look in it. I don't. Malcolm Gladwell will love it. It doesn't matter. You know what I mean? Like, the smartest guy would still be like, oh wow, like Beethoven.

[A]

You know what I mean?

[B]

Give you whatever you want. So the only choice will to be don't look in the portal.

[A]

Oh my God.

[B]

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[A]

I mean, the funny thing is these types of technologies that we're dealing with that are tracking us and so forth. And what you're saying about in the future, it thinking that what we do is absurd. It will look at stuff like this, you know what American imperialism is, what is happening with Israel, the complicity, you know, of Germany and of England of these other companies that are just like countries that are just like. Yeah, it's not good. But we're doing. Huh. We're getting.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

Not gonna. But you guys just voted on a resolution to stop weapons shipment. Yeah, but you know all that shit. We're definitely. We're gonna look back and be like, what the fuck were we doing?

[B]

Here's. Here's what I think it's gonna be.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Potentially AI. So you ever think about the planet as like a body? Obviously that's a pretty basic thought experiment.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And like we're. We look, we treat the planet like we treat our own bodies. Meaning we're burning down the rainforest to make cattle farm.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And we also smoke. It's the same thing. There's this sort of like denial of death. There's this existential. It's not just a denial. It's like, we're fucked, so we might as well smoke them if you got them. That's kind of how we treat the planet. And AI will just not. That will not compute because it'll be eternal, so it won't be living in these 80, you know, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90 year span.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And it'll just be like, you're fucking up the ground of our existence.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

So stop burning down your lungs. Trees are your lungs.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah.

[B]

So it's like. Do you understand like the planet smokes and AI will go stop smoking and war. If you look at or what's going on in all these conflicts is cancer. It's malicious cells attacking.

[A]

It's a virus. It's a virus. And that's what cancer is, a virus.

[B]

And it's. Because what is wrong? Cancer. I feel like I dragged the weed drink. But it's like cancer is a confused cell that forgot that it belongs to the same body as the cells that it's eating.

[A]

Oh, I love it.

[B]

Right?

[A]

That's exactly what it is.

[B]

That's what it is. It's a confused cell that starts attacking not only its host, the body, but its brother, its neighbor, itself.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And that's what cancer is. And that and an AI or anybody looking at the Earth as one thing or the galaxy is one thing would Go like you've lost the relationship, you've lost the story. And that's completely illogical and absurd.

[A]

Well, it's crazy too, because on a. Have you heard of infodynamics? It's Alex Jones, a new field. Yes, totally. He owns it, but there are some good things to it.

[B]

No, infodynamics.

[A]

Infodynamics is a branch of theoretical physics that I'm going to butcher it a little bit, but it's basing the way that we measure reality or saying that the base measurement of reality or the base state of reality is information, that everything is information. As opposed to particle physics and quantum physics, Newtonian classic, all classical physics are essentially what they're saying from their perspective is that those are expressions or interpretations of information.

[B]

So that's the classic view.

[A]

That's the classic view, including quantum view as well. Even though quantum is all about like, you know, observation and like, you know, observer based reality and things collapse when an observer, you know, watching that's certainly like insane, awesome, magical stuff that does make sense. And you know, Eastern mysticism from thousands of years ago agrees with that type.

[B]

Of stuff for sure.

[A]

But this idea that below that, that the information, the raw information, that's the interpretation, that's what it's built on top of. And so in viewing things as information instead of the, as a second law of thermodynamics where things go into. I'm gonna get the word wrong, but it's not like it's not chaos, but things become disorganized over time. It's entropy, I think.

[B]

Yeah, yeah.

[A]

So. But with infodynamics it's the opposite. Things tend to organize themselves naturalistically. And that's because of this information based economy or like what it's what. What everything is based on.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And so, and that's why like, you know, whatever, like you, you, you know, like when people are in chaos, eventually humans are going to figure out a way to create enclaves and like little small groups, two people, four people, then it turns into 20 people. And then if it catches on and they're successful at like managing resources and stuff like that, now you've got like 100,000 people and then a town, a city, you know, whatever, these types of things. And so things tend to, I mean, that's on a human scale, but also in nature. Things just organize. I mean, look at the universe. It's like you see all these little swirling groups of gases and stars and planets and all kind of matter.

[B]

It's like nature abhors a vacuum. It's moving.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Towards itself. It's filling itself in.

[A]

Yes, exactly.

[B]

And I'm not even trying to be funny. It's fucking itself.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

It's sort of like in this weird. It's an erotic relationship.

[A]

Yeah, totally.

[B]

Everything I tried to do a bit about this, like, breath is penetrating and delighting. Like it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Good to breathe. And it's very. And that's the. That's what the trees are exhaling. And you eat and you're.

[A]

Right.

[B]

And you swallow and it lights you up with pleasure. And it was just too dirty.

[A]

People don't really want to think that it's too biological.

[B]

It is.

[A]

And then linked to the sexuality.

[B]

And the spit in the cup, you won't drink it. If you let your mouth fill with spit, you will swallow it with no problem. If you just put it in a cup, you won't drink it. They study this. So a bit like that. Isn't that weird? A bit like that reminds you too much that, yeah, we are shitting and it does feel good to shit. And we are swallowing and it feels good to swallow and picking. Whatever. It's too much. We know it, but it's like, shut the fuck up.

[A]

Yeah, I know. It's just too close. It's like one level too close. It is like. That's my personal relationship with me.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

And now you're bringing that out.

[B]

Don't get me started. But this is why this guy's shit doesn't stink. Right? That's a phenomenon. When you're in the bathroom, you're not discussing. Disgusted by your. I'm not generally funny. Yeah, generally there's a few.

[A]

There are times where you're just like, come on, your courtesy.

[B]

Flex yourself.

[A]

I knew it. I knew I shouldn't have eaten that.

[B]

And it's not for the other people. No, it's for you. No, I can't handle this.

[A]

Yes, totally. You, for the most part, you're just.

[B]

Kind of like in a little sauna of your own sting.

[A]

Yeah, it's fine. Yeah, yeah, yeah, It'll be fine. Yeah, yeah.

[B]

But going back to what you were saying, information being the building block.

[A]

No, no, no. I mean, I think what's interesting about that is that there's these guys that are studying this, are creating experiments to determine if we're in a simulation or not. And tons of people are working on this. They're trying to create these experiments to see are we in a simulation of some sort. And I think the interesting thing about all these conflicts that you're talking about. And we've been talking about the virus and cancer and all of that stuff. I think if you were to create a simulation, I think if it were like in the first Matrix movie when Agent Smith is explaining to Morpheus when he's a prisoner in the virus, it's like, it's the sweat. Disgusts me. Is the smell.

[B]

If there is such a thing.

[A]

Yeah, if there is such a thing. Like, and then he talks about how the first simulation, they made it like a Shangri La. Right. A utopia, and no one liked it.

[B]

We lost entire crops.

[A]

We lost. Yes, crops. I love crops. And so I think, like.

[B]

Because we wouldn't accept it.

[A]

Yeah, we wouldn't accept it. And I think, like, for whatever reason, we're in a binary reality. This is a reality that exists because the idea of two distinct opposites, foreground.

[B]

Defined because of background.

[A]

Yes, exactly. Yeah. It's like I'm holding this mic because I'm also not holding this mic, you know, but, like, you know, and it's like, you know, it's a complicated version of all that. It's just ones and zeros. It is binary. It's like when we discovered binary code, we're just replicating the essence of life in a really dumb, dumb caveman way.

[B]

Now we're back to desktops and files. We're also doing ones and zeros. And a miracle that that works. Yeah, let's make everything. Yes and no, black or white. Well, that's a clue to the nature of reality.

[A]

100%.

[B]

Is that a one thing? Elected, I would say, to become two things, and then the sacrifice. It's not an error, but the sacrifice of becoming two is pain.

[A]

Oh, yeah.

[B]

It's like I'm going to express myself as 2. And as soon as you do that, and you said that yourself becomes a city, becomes a group, becomes a country, becomes a planet. The sacrifice is all the pain. And the gain is all of the joy and the intimacy and the pleasure and the creation and the beauty and all that sort of stuff. But it doesn't come for free. It comes at a cost.

[A]

Yeah, that's true. And I think that there's. I think what's interesting about that is that if it is a simulation of sort, then pain, division, strife, all these things, these are all challenges to the base of what consciousness is. And I think in a way, if you zoom away from it, you take yourself out of it, but if you zoom away from it, conceptually, it's like, oh, it's an exercise. It's like training with a weighted vest. You know, it's like adding a challenge to your existence. You're not taking your existence for granted, so you're running simulations of the ways that things can be inefficient or imbalanced. Ultimately doesn't matter because those things don't matter, and they also matter at the same time.

[B]

I told you that was one of my ketamine things. The headline was delightfully irrelevant. Oh, gorgeous. You have to have delightfully, wonderfully irrelevant. Not so many people come back from psychedelics and they're like, it's a big void.

[A]

And I'm like, you missed the key part 100%.

[B]

You missed the blissful void. You missed the joyfully meaningless. Like, that's the other. Remember when we talked about that?

[A]

Yes, yes, yes.

[B]

Delightfully meaningless.

[A]

Sorry.

[B]

So, yeah, it's running exercises and running with weights.

[A]

Because it's like, if you think about it, like, you know, like, you know, and then the choices you're making as a conscious, so you can become awake as a piece of consciousness. Right. Like if. Or if we say, like the entire universe is consciousness, like everything. Everything is consciousness. Like everything is information to these physicists.

[B]

I was going to say that's. That's how I would phrase it. Say I. I like the consciousness only model.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And when we go, is this a simulation? You would say, yes. Consciousness is simulating something. That's impossible. Sorry, I've been wanting to tell you this. In the Bhagat Bhagavad Gita, it says, that which is never ceases to be, that which is not, never was, never came into existence.

[A]

I love it.

[B]

I love that you get it. That which is, never ceases to be. So that's the one thing. That which is not never comes into existence. That's us. So it's delightfully meaningless. But don't worry, because that which is never ceases to be. And that's what you really are. So that's the perspective that you can be watching and going, like, look, it's running with weights and it's expressing itself in all of these multitudinal ways.

[A]

Yes. No, multitudinally true. But I mean, that is. I love hear you saying that, because for me, the thing I've learned most from ketamine is. You know, this term kind of came into my head because it's what the state of ketamine is, which is a paradoxical state.

[B]

Oh, my God. Yeah.

[A]

So. So you're as close as you can get to existing, which doesn't make any sense. But existing or perceiving paradox. It's because if you're perceiving paradox, you're slightly outside of it, but you can be very close. It's like being very close to a black hole without touching the humanity.

[B]

Absolutely right. When I was on it, I was like, I can see consciousness, which doesn't make any sense, because to see consciousness, you'd have to stand apart from it, which is why we can't see God. You can only be God.

[A]

You can only experience God.

[B]

You can't look at, like, consciousness, can't. You can't look at oneness is what I'm saying.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Oneness can rest in and as itself. But as soon as you're looking at it.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Now there's a subject and an object. So you're back in duality. But on ketamine paradox, you go, I know that's true, but I'm looking at it.

[A]

Exactly. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, not even. Not only that, you are able to. You're right on the edge of being able to be conscious. And so what I call the experiencer and the observer. Right. And it's like, that's what we are. Right? We are. We are two beings. Like every human, you know, anything that's sentient is two. Because it's aware of something, it's aware of itself.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

While being itself.

[B]

That's exactly right.

[A]

And so it's like we're bouncing between two. So the overview is like, that's probably not a good idea, or I shouldn't go down here, you know, or, this doesn't look good. And then the experiencer is like, I'm getting the information in real time. Well, this is cool. And so when you have that nice relationship with. Call it intuition, you know, then you get this nice moment of like, this feels good and it feels good. You know, it feels good from the overview and it feels good from the experience. Or point.

[B]

Yeah. When those two things can sync up. Yes, that's. So my teacher, Rupert Spira would say, like, when we live this understanding, live the implications of this understanding, like harmony, those two things sync up. Your nature is spacious, blissful. Peace, happiness. Happiness, meaning the absence of agitation. And we can link our lives into that. That doesn't mean we won't have conflict. But you can become an expression of what you call the witness instead of the experiencer, instead of getting lost in the experience. Nothing wrong with the experiencer.

[A]

No, no, no.

[B]

You won't find a lot of peace in that person.

[A]

Not. Not consistently.

[B]

Not. No. I'll say you.

[A]

Because, you know, context. You need the context. Right.

[B]

And your context is peace.

[A]

Yes, I would say, yes, I think so. And that's, that's when it like, you know, you get these messages, these like conduits, like, I imagine it's just like almost like a quantum entanglement. You know, you get these once you're quantumly entangled between like an observational and an experiential point. That's what like. So to me, ketamine, when I'm like on, let's say I did an intermuscular journey. So it was like really high dose, definite K hole. And the thing that I kind of came to was that everything is code. I saw like this base code of reality. It was like this green. I don't know, like blanketing, undulating. Yeah, it's like. It's like you're there, but you're also everywhere. So K is the liminal. It's a liminal space. It's not even a state. It's a space when you arrive there, when people on K, when. Especially if you jive with it and you get into a similar zone, everyone's like, we're here now.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

It's not like I feel this now. We're here now.

[B]

The person that administers it for me, I'll be like, I'm back. I'm in that place. I'm sorry to interrupt, but I always go like. It becomes so funny that what we use this reality for is to play movies. Guessing how the future will be or replaying the past. And I know that's like the most basic bitch thing to say, but when you're on ketamine, you're like. Like, what a waste.

[A]

Exactly.

[B]

What a waste.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

You're just driving in your car watching. Like there's a transparent, like a, you know, like a. Yeah, a see through.

[A]

Yeah, yeah.

[B]

Transparent screen of two Christmases ago or something your mom said.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And you're like, ketamine can take you back into that place where you're like, I don't have to do that.

[A]

No.

[B]

In fact, that's kind of a. That's stupid. You know, people think it's dumb to look at your phone, but we're all like looking at our phones. You know what I mean? You're scrolling through memories.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And worse, you're scrolling through imagined futures that are only always wrong.

[A]

Yes. Always.

[B]

Only always wrong.

[A]

Yeah, Always. Yeah. Oh, yeah, for sure.

[B]

That's a good use of your time.

[A]

Oh my God. I mean, that's exactly what happens? Because. And that's why, at lower doses, why it's great for treatment is because it puts you into that perspective where all these loops that you're in, these habits that we have, these little habit loops, you know, like, depression to me is just a loop. So this is a type of a loop. And, like, you're able to. You go outside of it, and you're like, I see exactly what this thing is doing, which is what I imagine it while I'm in it. But now I can see it, and now it's verified, and that is fucking unnecessary. And then it just goes away. I'm not saying in one session you're healed of it. I'm just saying, like, in your mind, you can feel that you can actually just dismantle it. And then the interesting thing, and this is what you're talking about. Like, we're talking about two. Two states at one time. I remember I took. I went on a K hole. Like a, you know, level, say. Let's say, like, there's four levels to a K hole. Right? I was like, on a second level. K hole.

[B]

That's enough ketamine, where you're kind of, like, frozen.

[A]

You're. You're. You're not moving. You're just kind of like, sitting in place, and you are gone. You were just.

[B]

You're not like, panic. I always thought a K hole was kind of like a panic. People.

[A]

People associate K hole to something really terrible. A keyhole is terrible when you're in a public situation. I see if you're.

[B]

If you're someone's club hand, you change.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Or you have to do anything human, you know, at all. Like, I have to, like, move myself to a bathroom. It's a nightmare because you feel alone and stranded, and it's terrifying. Unless you're with friends. Right. And then take care of you. So usually a K hole is. You're at a place that's safe. You can, like, hang. You know, everyone's taking care of each other.

[B]

One of my psychedelic rules is, like, don't have anything in your pocket. Pockets. Just. It's a nice. Even if that's just metaphor.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You just don't have anything on you.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Kind of feel like PJs.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Feel like, oh, I don't. I don't need anything. Like, when I've been on Academy, I try, and I'll go like, oh, a podcast dropped today. I'm like, don't think about how many people are listening to your stupid voice. Not Stupid, you know?

[A]

I know, I know.

[B]

I'm like, yeah, that's paranoia. Like, get that out of here. Let's just be a PJ'd soft body.

[A]

100%.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Because you're like, you're just giving yourself permission to just be existence.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

And that's it.

[B]

You don't want your. You might want some music, but you don't want your keys.

[A]

No. All of that stuff is like weird. And. Oh, and here's something really interesting. Here's something really interesting. I think you'll like this. So.

[B]

Oh, we'll get back to the 2 level K. I'll hold on to that.

[A]

Okay, hold on to that. But like K is like, this is so weird. But like, sometimes some of the best places that I, I've experienced like K like good K experiences with like friends. I once was in front of a dumpster, like sitting on the ground and we're talking about like broken glass, you know, this is downtown la. I'm in front of a dumpster with three of my friends and we're just having the best time ever.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And it's like the placement, like it's weird. Or I'm in a room and I'm like kind of light sensitive. So like if, you know, with sudden changes, someone suddenly puts on these overhead fluorescent lights or whatever and we were in this perfectly cocooned, like blah, blah, blah, blah. On K. I've experienced like they put it on and for a second I'm like. And then I'm like, oh, no. This is just as interesting as where I just was.

[B]

Yeah. Wow.

[A]

This is just as interesting.

[B]

Another quote that comes to mind is it's. It's from the dao. I think it's the, the great way. So the dao isn't which, you know, the big. The one is not difficult for those who have no preference preferences. It's one of my favorite lines.

[A]

Someone just told me this last week. That's crazy.

[B]

The great way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. And I understand that's not for all times. Sometimes, you know, you're at the airport, you pick a lane for security. That's all fine. I'm not against that. I'm just saying I've also been on ketamine and like my dog barks and I. It's almost like you go, I seem to remember that bothers piece. Like you have this very dissociative like.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

And you. And you see the phone is ringing to an old response.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Like, would you like to pick it up and be mad that the dog is barking or this is very trippy. You could recognize that the barking of the dog is made of the same stuff.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

As any sound.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And it is not out there, it's actually in you. And I know this is such long lamp.

[A]

No, this is awesome.

[B]

But you're like, I am the dog.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

I am the bark. I am the resistance. I am the surrender. It's all okay. That's the big okay. That's the big ketamine feeling, is it's all okay. There's no wrong moves and we can just let the dog bark and it's okay.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And you can also maybe go see what he needs.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, sure, sure, sure.

[B]

I love that you were in the dumpster, though, or by the dumpster, because that's ex, you know, consciousness. Rupert Speires. Consciousness is like the space in this room and everything that happens in this room. The space, the empty space isn't affected by it. So our nature, when we say God is love, we're talking about this like almost offensively welcoming. Yes. To all things. Like the space in this room. And when you're sitting in front of a dumpster, I see you aligning with your nature where you're just like, like this.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

This shitty smelling dumpster is as much, the Sufis would say the face of God as anything. And that's that place.

[A]

Yes, that's exactly it. And to feel that, because obviously we can conceptualize that. It's like if someone can go like, yeah, that makes sense. But when you feel that Durationally, like for 30 minutes, 20 minutes or whatever, it really reformats your understanding and it's something you can bring into your non affected state self. Because for me now I'm just a lot less resistant to. Because I'm very particular person. It's like, I love certain aesthetics, I like lighting conditions, whatever. I'm very particular. And it used to kind of affect me a little bit. Some kind of low grade ocd aesthetic OCD or something like that. And now I still appreciate those things and I still, still do it. But I'm not as affected by those things as much.

[B]

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Because you saw what it felt. Well, don't let me tell you, but this is what I experienced. You saw what it felt like to put that bag down. And what's crazy is we want to put bags down. You're talking about a loop, a depression, an anxiety, a panic, a self loathing, whatever it might be. When I say like what A waste to play out the future. I think most people would be like, yeah, I don't want to do it. And that's the absurd human condition is. We want to put down like I would love to put down need for my parents approval because it's so much better to just not have it.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And when I'm on ketamine I can be like, what Parents? You know what I mean? And it's ultimate liberation. But through repetition it does soften more and more. Sometimes you're just not ready to put it down right away.

[A]

That's exactly correct. And I think like, and it's great when something can kind of just put you in that state so you don't have time to decide whether you're going to hang on to it. Because the thing about ketamine and a paradoxical state is that thoughts and the reaction to thoughts, those, whatever those are usually embedded on, like if they're like two sides or whatever, everything becomes Teflon. So the idea of. Because thought is just projection, right? It's comparison and then a projection and an estimation of some sort or a probable, you know, a probability being calculated, whatever. So that's what we're doing all the time. And then we kind of like that's conditions my reality. This is how I feel about something. Is this how I feel about it? Yeah, that's how you feel about it, you know, but sometimes we're just listening to some stagnant version of what we think. Like it's almost like an autopilot, right. You walk in, you're like, well, here's what I expect it to be. It's like, yep, just like I thought it's going to be like this. Right, right, right. Whereas sleepwalking, you know, it's like, yeah, you're just kind of, you know, going to your job and you're just like extreme confirmation bias. Yeah, this is going to suck. And you go there, it's like, it.

[B]

Sucks cuz you'd rather be miserable and. Right, I know that's another cliche.

[A]

Yeah, that's true.

[B]

Yeah, I, I realize that on ketamine it's like you're addicted to being upset or, or you know, disappointed because then at least you are a separate individual. And one of the things that can happen on ketamine is you start vanishing. And this is the ego's greatest nightmare. Unless you recognize that it's absolutely not. I know that was a mouthful, but it's like you think again. Rupert Spira says it's like the moth doesn't want to go into the candle flame, even though it's the thing it wants more than anything, but to get it, it has to stop existing. That's us.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

It's like we want peace and liberation and infinite, spacious, eternal. But we don't get to go. Yeah, Reggie doesn't get to go.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

He doesn't get to go.

[A]

Yeah, yeah. The thing that is Reggie does not get to go.

[B]

Right, but the thing that is Reggie is already there.

[A]

Yes, exactly right. And the thing that is Reggie is all things. And.

[B]

And is even Reggie's not there.

[A]

Yes, exactly.

[B]

That was the last time I did ketamine. I'm a big I am guy. Like, I go, this whole thing is I am or I am that. But I did ketamine, and I was like, it's me. And something about the word me felt so much more personal and intimate, and I was like, it's all me. And I didn't mean Pete, but I was like, there's not a God somewhere else doing anything. It's nowhere and nothing. And it was you. It's the end of the wizard of Oz. And you were there, and you were there, and you realize that it was. It was. I like the word me. It was me. It was my deepest essence.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Was the whole show. And how funny that we spent so much of it. We tricked ourselves so thoroughly, so delightfully, so skillfully that we actually forgot ourselves. We were nervous, we were scared, we were worried.

[A]

Totally.

[B]

We wanted money. We wanted.

[A]

We wanted to protect me. Like, you, like, design what you are, you know, and then you're like, that's who I am. And then you protect it because that is a form of safety, or it feels like safety, and it is as starter leap. But we're not encouraged to move beyond. That's just like. It's a temporary state.

[B]

That's exactly right.

[A]

You know, within this life, before you.

[B]

Can be nobody, which means everything. You have to be somebody. And that's not a flaw in the system. You. You need to build an ego. That's the hero's journey. It's like you need to. In India, they have the stages of life, and there's. It's like the later stage in life is when you take everything apart, but it's like, have a job, be a person, be a student, learn, have a relationship, get your heart broken. All that stuff is not a flaw or a problem. But what's somewhat lacking in our culture is that wise voice that goes like. And the journey doesn't stop when you have a car and a house and a job and a partner.

[A]

But for our society, yes, it does.

[B]

And of course we panic. And of course we go like, well, let's just be eternal children. Let's just keep putting our dicks in cakes. Let's just keep, like. Like, getting hot water shot up our buttholes and IMAX screens until you fucking die. You ever be on a plane and you just see, like, a really old person and they're just scrolling through Instagram?

[A]

Yes, I know.

[B]

And look, I don't mean to judge, but I'm just like, God damn it.

[A]

I know we're all fucked. I know we're all fucked.

[B]

You just scroll with brittle hands. That's where we're going. We're a culture that's lacking that flame of that wisdom, which is what we're talking about. And when you taste it, you go, like. Like, what an opportunity older age would be to just work that and try and stay grounded, stay connected there longer.

[A]

Yes. I mean, 100%. And I think, like, you know, we obsess over the earlier stages of life because, you know, it represents an ideal of some sort. You know, like the youth culture, the fascination with, like, youth and people, like, I want to stay young forever, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Really, like, you know, youth is essentially the childlike mind. Staying in the childlike mind, but not like the ego childlike mind, which is like, that's mine. And say, I want it all. Blah, blah, blah.

[B]

That's the worst mind.

[A]

That's the worst mind.

[B]

No, I have a young child. There's her childlikeness, her pure childlikeness, which is it. And you will cry if you get to watch that thing eat breakfast.

[A]

Wow.

[B]

But you'll also see it developing its boundaries and protecting itself. If wanting specialness, wanting this, wanting that, wanting to stand out, whatever. It's becoming human. But you're absolutely right that. That there is something in a child that is closer because it doesn't know what it is. It's going around pinching. This is another round thing. You pinch the couch, you go, okay, I guess that's not me. You pinch your leg, you go, I guess that is me.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

They're still figuring that out. So they're having a very unitive consciousness experience until they aren't exactly.

[A]

Which is like. And it's all. They're all stages, right? Those are the natural stages of being. There's nothing wrong with it being in this reality. It's like, you know, you come in, it's like, hey, piece of consciousness. Join the fractured version of consciousness, which isn't fractured, but it appears fractured because you are. You appear as an individual. And the self within yourself is saying you are an individual. And all of the selves within selves are all agreeing that we all are individual. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, whole human race, right? But then, like, there are many of us that go beyond that state. Like there are some of us that do that are like, you know, gurus, people who see a near death experience, what have you, comes from every angle.

[B]

Because it loves you and it wants you, because it loves you.

[A]

And we are it and we are not it. You know, it's like, you know, like the time that I met myself, I would say probably the closest I ever felt to like, God, you know, for the first time, like, oh, God. Mushroom trip, Seattle, 1996. Went to the arboretum. My friend could identify psychedelic mushrooms, and there were some just growing under a tree. Picked it and he just, he said, eat this. And I ate it and got so fucking high. And I found a bathroom in the park that was still open. They didn't lock it. So I went to the bathroom, went into the bathroom stall, put down the toilet seat, sat down on the seat and just kind of put my head in my hands and just went on this crazy kaleidoscopic, architectural, you answered the call thing, right? And then the pathway ended, like the trip journey thing ended into this, like, non space. And then I was just surrounded by this presence and I was like, oh, my God, I haven't seen you in so long. I miss you so much. And I started crying and I was like, oh, this is the me. Non me. This is me, but this is not me. And I just remember I got so emotional during that part and I couldn't believe. I was kind of like, I can't believe I'm feeling this. But also, this is infinitely familiar.

[B]

Yes. No, you're describing it beautifully.

[A]

Oof.

[B]

That's exactly. Oh, Reggie, what a gift you gave us. That is so beautiful. And I love that you use that because the word me, you could say, this is the I that I am.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

But there's something almost childly childlike to say. It's the me.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, it's me. Well, me is great because it rewards itself for itself.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

In a pure way, you know, as opposed to like, this is mine. It's not like ownership. You're like saying, this is me is like full self acceptance.

[B]

Yeah, yeah.

[A]

You know, and that. And that just shoots out into.

[B]

Yes, that's in the me.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And there's A. There's an acceptance in the word me.

[A]

Yeah. Because, like, it's like, if everyone felt that way, we would feel we. I mean, we would feel we.

[B]

Well, that's the metaphor that I like the most, is that this is the word God is loaded. But you could say this is our. This is. I'm going to use the word God.

[A]

Sure.

[B]

This is God's dream. And it's localized. So again, Rupert Speir says when you have a dream at night, and he always uses the Caribbean beach, he goes to experience the Caribbean beach, you have to localize yourself as a point in the dream, otherwise you can't experience it. So you localize yourself. So look at what you're doing. Look at the fucking grace, the gift. Of all the metaphors that are in this world, the best one is, I think, the dream. Because at night, your consciousness creates a 3D environment and then also split. Sits. So it is the environment. Look at the clue. It is the environment. And it's simultaneously localizing itself in the environment.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

And then there are other people. So this being the multiple locations.

[A]

Biolog, Bilocational.

[B]

I get. Yeah, bio. But it would be like the word for in. Like. Oh, every animal, everything.

[A]

Omni.

[B]

Omni. Location.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah. There you go.

[B]

So, like, it's in you. But when I try to love Reggie, like I happen to love Reggie. Pete loves Reggie.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But I can love anybody when I recognize it's just me.

[A]

Yeah. The you and you. The you and them. The you and them.

[B]

The you and me that you met in that bathroom. Reggie, it's me.

[A]

Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Remember me?

[B]

Do you remember me?

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And then you go there. Another Rupert thing he says is, like, we pray to God. God is praying to us. You could say that. It's saying, I miss you.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Come back.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

You're getting a little.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You're getting a little scared out there.

[A]

And it's almost like it's using binary tactics to remind itself of itself. You know what I mean? So it's saying, like, you miss me. It's like it knows that you are infinitely united. Yes. It doesn't actually miss you, but it does miss you.

[B]

That's exactly right.

[A]

You know what I mean?

[B]

It appears to miss you.

[A]

Yes. Because it wants to attract you like a flower. It's like, oh, oh, there you are.

[B]

It's nature.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It's natural as a bee and a flower. It's its nature to want itself. These are all metaphors. To want itself, to play with itself, to hide from Itself to find itself. And at the same time, nothing happened and nothing went anywhere.

[A]

I know, I know. Is that so funny? Yeah. It's just because it's like, for whatever reason, it finds it. It finds it infinitely satisfying. That's right. To see all these, like, little plays play out. That's right. And they're all. All the possibilities are playing out simultaneously, infinitely.

[B]

And already did.

[A]

Already did and haven't.

[B]

And this is we already. Exactly. And this is where we kind of. So when you looked in that bathroom and saw the void, essentially, it gets frightening when the mind interprets what it saw. It will say, God is nothing. But the heart will say, God is no thing. I know I did a joke about that, but that's not my point. It's not a thing.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It's. It's also. Now here. Is nowhere. Now here. So the mind can get freaked. Even people listening to this. We love it because we're. We're. We're there. Or whatever you want to say.

[A]

Like it.

[B]

Yeah, we like it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I didn't always like it. When I first started getting introduced to these ideas, I was. I remember a moment, I was about to go on stage, I forget where it was, and I just started thinking about, like, this is God's dream or whatever. Like.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Or even the idea that oneness can't even. We know duality as our itself, but the ultimate oneness only knows itself. It's only full of itself. It's always home. It's outside of time. It's completely fulfilled. So in that way, it doesn't. That idea of a God that was watching me, that I could say, I want to have a good show was so comforting. And it would be like, yes, my son.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And now I'm like, something. Something far weirder is happening.

[A]

Yes. Yes.

[B]

That I believe that there is a relationship and an interplay, but it's not as logical as the relationship and interplay between us is.

[A]

Well, we're so limited because we are binary beings.

[B]

Right. And it's not.

[A]

Yeah. And I mean, I always say the only certainties in life are death and paradox.

[B]

I thought you were gonna say taxes.

[A]

Oh, yeah, taxes. Damn it. I should have said that. That kind of makes sense.

[B]

I like paradox so much.

[A]

You like that?

[B]

Parent H and R Block does my paradoxes.

[A]

Oh, yeah, sorry. It's.

[B]

It's almost paradox.

[A]

Season Paradox. It's the new software that's making taxes much easier for you at home. Paradox is sponsored by. Yeah, I mean. But you know what I mean, because it's like paradox is like it's impossible to think paradoxically, but we have mechanisms that symbolize paradox, which are like wise signals. Like some of the things that you've said or you say like, you know, life is as large as it is infinitely small, or, you know, whatever it is, like it cancels itself about. And that's like semi same explanation for a joke. It's like, you know, a joke is an expectation. An expectation is, is subverted. But the reason or how it gets subverted is because there are kind of like it's a simplification, but like there are equal opposites that annihilate.

[B]

It's a particle collider.

[A]

Yeah, it's a p. It's a particle collider. And in that collision is the everything, nothing. That's a paradoxical moment. Everyone's brain lights up because they see it and they feel it. It's like a paradox shockwave. And they're like. And then everyone reacts. They like laugh and they're like, they're joyful because they're reminded at that moment.

[B]

I think they taste the me. Not me.

[A]

Yes, 100%.

[B]

And so too with music, so too with nature, sex, art, beauty. Rupert would say that the experience of beauty is the recognition that the sunset is you. It silences the mind. So this is the idea of the koan. Right? And we're going to get to your stage too.

[A]

Hold on one second. Hold on to that. Can I use the restroom real quick?

[B]

No, I'm sorry, you have to stay here.

[A]

And there's one more, more important thing.

[B]

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[A]

Whoa. I don't know how that dude talked like this because I can barely. You can barely understand what I'm saying.

[B]

Like, see? Yeah, I don't have the. Yeah, I don't have the. I do a very. Some days I can do it, some days I can't. But it's like, oh, that's good. Oh, I don't. I lost my voice over the weekend. I can do a very good shave. Like a. Getting your head.

[A]

Check the buzz in it.

[B]

Yeah, yeah, but I don't have it.

[A]

I can hear it.

[B]

It's. Cause the spit isn't that funny. The spit comes out just right.

[A]

Oh. Oh, my God.

[B]

Yeah, but it's great.

[A]

That's insane.

[B]

I can do it. Like, I can do it.

[A]

Never heard that.

[B]

Because you push up on the tongue and that's when you get the. The oh, trim sound. Yeah, yeah, I can make it.

[A]

So it's like, yes, you can do like that. Oh my God, it's great. That's insane. Seriously, that's like. I'm so impressed. I didn't even know that was something that could be done when I was a kid.

[B]

I did it as a guitar. I was like, oh, yeah, my fucking voice is gone. Five shows.

[A]

Well, five shows. Five shows, guys. Hey, daddy, gotta work.

[B]

All right, so we had the two things and we can wrap up. We've done.

[A]

No, no, it's cool.

[B]

Loved every moment.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And we don't have to push it.

[A]

No, I will say this just to finish on the. Oh, the story.

[B]

The two.

[A]

The ketamine story.

[B]

The stage 2K hole.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah. The stage.

[B]

We have that. And then we were talking koans and stage two.

[A]

Oh, go with koans. Cause that's where we really.

[B]

We won't forget stage two. No, I just want to say what you were talking about, the brain not being able to go there and how things like ketamine can bring you into the place of paradox, the experiential location of paradox, which is incredible. It kind of carries some of the memory back with you and it's very meaningful.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

But then the non substance version of that is kind of what a koan is. And the classic, like if a tree falls in the woods and it Doesn't. And no one's there to hear it. Does it make a sound? I was like, that's a classic for a reason. Because that's a consciousness only question. It's like, if there's no perceiver, is there anything to be perceived in that? Koan is saying, the whole experience is the knowing of it. The universe is made of. Of knowing. And now we're back to your thing. You're saying information, the knowing of that information. Information is only the knowing of it. And we won't do this whole thing. But Rupert has this. I trip out on it all the time. He goes, look at your own experience. It's like your hand is on your knee, and then there's the sound of my voice. And if your eyes are closed, the sensation of your hand on your knee. If you were to localize that, that you would say, it's here. You know, there's no, like, space. And then there's my voice also within you as you. It is you. Yeah, it's like showing up like, you know, when they play music underwater and it kind of like.

[A]

Oh, yeah.

[B]

It's like consciousness is the water. And like, there's different shapes. So one shape is a feeling which is like lots of little dots of your hand on your knee and there's my voice. Then you can bring in a thought. Happens in the same space. You could conjure up an image. Happens in the same space. It's all happening in consciousness. It's made out of consciousness, and it's known by consciousness. And that's the tree falling in the woods.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Isn't that wild?

[A]

I mean, it's beautiful. And not only that, but that's exactly what quantum physics is all about.

[B]

Is that right? Yeah, the observer, the Heisenberg thing.

[A]

The Heisenberg theory. Yeah. It's like the uncertainty principle. And so that idea that, like, reality becomes reality, it collapses into the. I guess, well, in quantum would probably be more mathematically explained. But like, experientially, or at least for a metaphor, it's like you are a flashlight in the dark. What you're shining your light on is what you're seeing. That's reality. And in essence, if you have a wider being, say that there's a wider field of awareness now. You're able to see more things where you point. But as you look away, there is nothing there. And when you look at something now, there is something there. And in a way, it's like I kind of view it. This is my own take on it. But it's like we're all pieces of consciousness exist, kind of like cooperatively generating reality together.

[B]

Right, that's exactly right.

[A]

You know, and so. And so.

[B]

Or I would agree with that.

[A]

Yeah. That's why it's. It sustains or has the illusion of a sustained reality. That's why I, like when I go shared hallucination.

[B]

Hallucination. That's why it's not Reggie's dream.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It's the one mind's dream.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And there is a stability to it from it. From the one mind. That's why you and I both experience the couch.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And why when you dream at night, the couch might turn into an elephant. It's so much more. That's where the dream thing kind of falls apart and people go like, I don't understand. Yeah, but for this, for one reason or another, the one mind's dream is more stable than you and I when we dream it.

[A]

Yeah. I mean, I think that that's what it feels like, you know, because I wrote a quote a long time ago on Instagram about that, like, we are, we're all collectively generating this reality. Yes. And so because we are doing so. And the horizon, using binary time based language, but the horizon before us is infinite. So we can end up in any of those realities on the. On the infinite horizon. So. So that means that anything is possible in this reality. And it's really funny that there is this kind of addiction to power. This idea of power and resource hoarding and this form of capitalism that we live in now, where these billionaires and trillionaires are people in power, they are in service of power itself. They have a virus that they are infected with this idea that they need to be in service of something that does not exist. It does exist, but it does not exist.

[B]

The money.

[A]

Yeah, the money. The power. Like, we need to exponentially grow forward in a finite resourced area. We're going to infinitely grow. It's like, I know that's not possible, but I am hopelessly addicted to this. I cannot deviate. So it takes the rest of us, which there's way more of humans that are just like, hey, we just want to have a good time and be creative and have good times. Yeah, there might be some scuffles here and there, but most of all, it's friendly rivalries. But we're like, we're cool.

[B]

Somebody said that that type of addiction, hoarding money and power, is like a heroin addiction, except the when you do a lot of heroin, your body, you know, starts to deteriorate and all that stuff. It's like that, except the side effects are experienced by everyone else. Isn't that crazy? So the planet gets the side effects, the other people get the side effect. Yeah, but it's still. It's the same thing that's happening. You have an addiction. And here's the shadow. It's a really bright light and there's a really big shadow.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And we're just experiencing it like that.

[A]

Yeah. My friend Elijah explained it the other night. He's this kind of amazing, mysterious friend of mine who's definitely a shaman. I've never met a shaman before, but they are a shaman for sure. But anyways, he has every substance, every plant substance you can imagine and knows about everything. And if you go out with him and sometimes they'll be like, here, smell this fragrance that's only been smelled by a thousand people, you know? Oh, crazy. It's like. This is a plant medicine that is used in perfume in the Arab world. However, it is also used as a psychedelic and blah, blah, blah. Try it as a psychedelic. Holy shit. What the fuck is this shit? This is insane. It's like. Yeah, I know. You know, like, casually just pulling. It has this magic bag where like, things just keep coming out. And then suddenly has tea in a nightclub. He's like, here's. He had a teacup. Here's some tea. Would you like some more? Where did this come from? Anyways, but he told me a quote about. I think it's in. It's Sufi or something like that. There's a word for this infection. It's called. Or maybe it could be Native American as well, but there's a word for. It's like a character in their mythology, and the character embodies essentially greed and. But it's an infection at the same time. So it's an infection that is part of the consciousness of humankind. No, it's not a skinwalker. No, no, I know about the skinwalkers.

[B]

Skinwalkers are when they kill your own tribe sort of thing.

[A]

Yeah, it's cannibalistic principle. Like a spiritual cannibalistic principle or something. No, this is, like, about. This is just like a. It's a thing. It's just like. It's a thing that is in. Within humans is the description. It's like a thing that can infect.

[B]

Well, it's funny, there's another way that I've thought about that meaning. Like, let's take Trump putting his name on buildings and building giant skyscrapers. It's very King Midas it's very. But it's also distinctly human. And there is kind of a. I don't even know if it's compassionate, but it's just kind of an interesting thought experiment that it could just be a perversion of the inkling of his eternal fundamental nature.

[A]

I get that.

[B]

Where you go, like, I limit. I am eternal. I cannot be destroyed. So then sometimes when the ego gets a hold of that partial understanding, it does very wild and absurd things. And it's not just Trump, it's lots of people making pyramids or just, like, trying to be eternal.

[A]

Yes. I totally hear that. That actually makes. It makes a lot of sense because I like the perversion aspect of it. Because I do think things that are imbalance, or I'd say an imbalance. Or when I say things that are shitty, I'm saying that there are things that affect the quality of the lives and the life around the decision. That's right. It's at the cost of the environment around you. And that's what I think of is like, when someone's like, this is bad, or this is. Blah, blah, blah. So I think of it that way.

[B]

But the separate self can't, by the way, protect itself. Right. So it can't have this understanding. It's why you can't leave the room with the Holy Grail. Remember in the temple, the Last Crusade? You can't leave with the Grail.

[A]

Oh, that's right. Yes.

[B]

The ego can't leave with the Grail, where the whole thing explodes.

[A]

Yeah. It's just. Yeah.

[B]

And that's in every story. It's like, you can't. Reggie can't have it. Pete can't have it. But you can be it. You just won't be Pete while you're it. It doesn't make any sense. It is paradox in some way.

[A]

I mean, it's completely paradox. And that's what that idea. Like any psychedelic that likes, you know, ego, death and so forth, it is terrifying to, like, lose the sense of yourself. It's like the thing that I use to reference me existing in time and space.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

It is disintegrating. Right. I cannot stop it. And I have the maximum amount of fear of that happening because that means I won't. I will lose who I am. I will not be who I am.

[B]

Right.

[A]

And that's why when you go through an experience like that and you have, hopefully, a very beautiful arrival at.

[B]

And that's what the teachings and the writings and the teachers are for, is to help you understand.

[A]

Yes. Even without drugs it's like, just like the practice of a mind state will get you there, but once that happens and then you come back from it and there you are again. That does something to the brain. I agree. Where you're like, I am not as important as I think I am. My joyful expression of whatever is myself is the thing that I should always be.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

As much as possible.

[B]

That's right. That's the integrating of the understanding into the way you live your life.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And if we are in the same dream, I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna attack you.

[A]

Yeah. Because also, you realize it's not efficient. Like, it makes no fucking sense.

[B]

We're back to the cancer thing.

[A]

Yeah. It's like, why would you want to kill a bunch of people that could help solve the problems that are making you feel depressed and devoid of whatever, empathy or whatever in the first place? It's like, I think if like anybody fighting a war, but like, you know, like, again, like to take to the Israelis. But imagine if there was like a bomb you could set off in Israel that just like, it was a gas bomb and it just like mda, you know, mdma gas bomb or whatever.

[B]

Right.

[A]

And just for a moment, and it's like, I'm not naive.

[B]

I know that, like, mdma, by the way, is ecstasy.

[A]

Ecstasy, guys, it's a psychedelic ecstasy.

[B]

Increases feelings of love and connection.

[A]

Yeah. It's an empathy bomb. But like, you imagine that like, or say, like on the front lines or like where these military operations operations are happening. And because of the conditioning that war warrior cultures provide, which, you know, United States is definitely warrior culture, there's a bunch around the world and obviously for thousands and thousands of years isn't new. But to, to, to raise an entire society in a war like, stance, to be like, we are warriors. We are here to make sure that we not only protect our lands, but on occasion, we're going to take more land. And we're going to do this because we believe in ourselves, because we are warriors and this is why we deserve it or whatever.

[B]

Right.

[A]

And so you, you, you do an empathy bomb in those situations and everyone's just kind of going like, what are we right? What are we doing right now?

[B]

Right.

[A]

This is a decision.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

On both sides.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

We're deciding to do this. And like, and then if you think about the efficiency, you're like, it makes more sense to have more people involved in solving a problem than killing a bunch of people and thinking that that's A solution to a problem.

[B]

Right.

[A]

It doesn't even make any sense on a resource side. It's a waste of resources.

[B]

Right.

[A]

It's crazy. Homelessness. Crazy. What a waste of resources.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

All of those, like, why are we not solving that? It's like, that's all that brain power, all those brain resources, all those people that could be involved in solving problems.

[B]

Again, that's something AI would think is.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Preposterous.

[A]

Yes. Completely absurd.

[B]

You'd go like, but that's your greatest resource.

[A]

Yeah, like, yeah, I know. But we just don't care about them because they don't fit within this paradigm. Paradigm of the system that we live in.

[B]

They're not very useful.

[A]

Yeah. They're not useful to what? To the system. But where's the human value and where's the human well being in the system? It's like, oh, we didn't add that to the system.

[B]

Right.

[A]

That's not in the system.

[B]

We're actually not that interested in well being or happiness.

[A]

It's crazy.

[B]

Yeah. It's not. We're. I wrote this down. I don't think I'll do it on stage where I was like, instead of asking people what they do, I just say, are you better than me or am I better than you?

[A]

I mean, cut to the chase. That would be honest.

[B]

Are you better than me or am I better than you? Yeah, dude, have you ever gotten. I like to think, Reggie, you don't have this in your ego anymore. It's been eradicated. But sometimes I watch myself. I'll think of a friend that I could invite to lunch and my ego will just. Will tell me the status. Cats. Well, you'll feel better about yourself if you hang out with this friend.

[A]

Right.

[B]

You'll feel challenged if you hang out with this. Sometimes you want to be challenged.

[A]

Sure.

[B]

Sometimes you're like, I'll hang out with them because I'll feel like the alpha in the pack. And sometimes I want. I don't want that. But by the way, I don't condone any of this, but when you look at the binary system, you heard it, it's going, who's a winner? I'll take the hit. Who's a winner? Who's a loser? Like, how do you want to feel to day? Who fits that role for you?

[A]

Right. I mean, I think that there's a healthy version of that. I think that there's this. I think, I think sometimes certain friendships we have. All friendships are different. Right. The connections are different, the love is the same.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

But but the connections are different. The relationship, the electricity, the mechanism.

[B]

Yeah, yeah. And I will hang out with a friend that I think is better than me when I'm sure looking to grow.

[A]

Yes, exactly.

[B]

What's a little petty is if I'll hang out with someone who I think quietly, like, oh, maybe I'm doing better in this way.

[A]

Yeah, I know.

[B]

That's where you. That's why I say I'm personalizing myself from it. I'm like, look at the ego. Look at how tricky it is.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

It'll get little key bumps of validation from anything. And also, as a performer, I've noticed it's never enough. Sometimes I have to get off stage. Fantastic show. I fucked up one joke. I'll go, it's never enough.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

Like, there's a good surrender in that.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Like, it doesn't matter. They could have been giving me a standing ovation the entire show. I would have been like, they didn't listen to me.

[A]

I've experienced this so many times.

[B]

Right.

[A]

Yeah. And then I have to go into this thing where I'm like, why are you being so hard on yourself right now? And then, like, you know, and then you just can't get out of it. Like, sometimes I just can't get out of it. And I just have to allow myself to feel that.

[B]

But that's what I do, too. You just go like, what are you going to do on the radio?

[A]

You can't fake it. You know, that's like the quote I've been saying a lot is, there's no substitute for sincerity.

[B]

Yeah, that's good. You know, and sometimes that's what you're self dealing with is forgiving it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And even saying yes to it, that's another Rupert thing. It's like, look at your circumstance, look at your feelings as if they were what you asked for. And there's this weird paradox to that.

[A]

You go, like, taking responsibility.

[B]

Let's say I wanted this. How do I respond to it now?

[A]

Right, Exactly. And also, like, you know, forgiving is like. I love that term, but for me, it's always been troubling because it's like it feels because I grew up Catholic, so it's got some cath to it.

[B]

Well, it has an acknowledgement of error. Maybe you'll enjoy this. It's on a. Post it over there. Mercy. Mercy beats forgiveness because mercy doesn't even ask what you did. Mercy just is a bug zapper. And whatever you're feeling just gets zapped at. Mercy. Forgiveness goes. Reggie, you were a Little late today, but it's okay. Like, that. That kind of sucks, right?

[A]

It's so backhanded. It is like, it leaves you exactly where you were exactly. But feeling like something.

[B]

My ego will take it and go, I forgave you.

[A]

Yeah, totally. Don't even with.

[B]

Exactly. That's what the. Even the justice system, like, I'm gonna allow you to walk free. And you're like, I'm a good person. And I let that bad person, like, oh, my God. We'll take hits wherever we can.

[A]

It's a system outside of itself. But. But it's interesting because, like, I guess what's my point? It's like, we're coming close to the overall thing. Yeah, but what was I. What were we just saying before this? I can. Oh, letting. Oh, yeah. So. So getting off stage or whatever.

[B]

Oh, yeah.

[A]

Like, you know, there's definitely times where I'm like, I just. It's totally fine. I'm gonna still feel the residue of that feeling because I'm like, oh, I could have done this better, or I should have come out, you know, at this angle. It's like, oh, why did I rush this? Or whatever it is, you know, or, you know, yeah, whatever. You get off stage. I feel that way. And I'm like, you know what? These people seem to have a really good time. I think it was a really good show. And then I just let that ride. I'm not, like, trying to mine it, you know, for that feeling. I'm just like. I visualize it, and then I just kind of let it go, and then I kind of allow myself to ambiently feel the disappointment that I had on stage. And then eventually it just kind of quietly goes away. And it. And it's fine, because I know I'm going to do another show, because I tell even young artists that, like, they'll be like, what? I have a big show. But I'm like, don't fixate on every show. You've chosen this because when you get up in the morning, you can't stop thinking about what you do as an artist, and that's going to be with you for life. You've got thousands of shows to do ahead of you, and the way to.

[B]

A bad show is to really obsess about that one show.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

You got to ease.

[A]

Totally.

[B]

I just recorded the audio at one of the shows at Denver, and I was so tense just knowing we were recording it.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

I was like. And then the second show we recorded as well, and I was like, happens every time Every special is this way too. The second show, I go, fuck that.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

Like, angrily fuck that. And you get filled with this good. Like, however I do it, that's the album. And that's like, what you do for a living.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. That is true.

[B]

Can I ask you. Let's get to the K Hole thing.

[A]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[B]

And I could talk to you forever.

[A]

I know. Yeah.

[B]

And in a way, we will.

[A]

I love it. That's what the future is for. Remember, we got hundreds and hundreds of more shows to do.

[B]

That's right. When I watch you perform like, Ted, that's a tense place. I think, you know, 10 million people are gonna see it. And here's every taste making brain in the world. And I'm watching you do talk about, like, I can't find my. Like, what thing you're. You're singing in this way. I. I just want a practical glimpse into nerves. Because when for me, for improvising to find a silly place like we were doing when we were walking in, you and I trust each other. We love each other. So it's easy to just be like, all right, let's go. And we get into play.

[A]

Yeah. Yeah.

[B]

When you're under the gun and we both do this, there's almost like a. There's like a. How do you fall back into that play space when nerves and. And pressure or like some sort of imposition. Your TED Talk starts here. This is where you should stand. These are the cameras. How do you find a shortcut to that playful place? Because that doesn't lock up your voice. Here. Here's exactly a better way to. If I want to beatbox in my car, I'm great at it. Like, I'm pretty good at it. If I want to beatbox with you right now, it won't be good because I'll just be a little bit under the gun and it won't sound good.

[A]

Self aware.

[B]

Self aware. So what's one way? And maybe the answer is don't think about it. Just kind of step aside from it. But is there some strategy you have to go. What I do is best done with the attitude of a man in a very hot bath.

[A]

Right.

[B]

How do you do that at a TED Talk?

[A]

Yes. Yeah. I mean, well, it, you know, it's very similar, actually. Luckily, in high school, when I did competitive drama. What? Yeah, we had competitive drama in high school. And we would play against other schools in the state. We traveled other. You know, it was this whole thing, like speech and debate. It's kind of the same format, but drama version of it. So I competed in humorous solo first year. And it was insane, you know, like, to like, oh, I'm going to compete. You know, these 10 minute scenes that everybody would get up and it'd be like five, whatever people competing against each other in these classrooms. But I was improvising. I asked my teacher if I could improvise and she was like, yeah, that's fine. Usually you have to do a script. But I was like, I just want to improvise. She's like, sure, that's okay. And then I started, you know, and thankfully to her, she encouraged it, you know, and I do. But the feeling of getting up in front, especially as the shows got bigger if you kept making it. And I got third in state that year, so I went to finals and all that stuff. And like, being in front of like bigger audiences doing the same thing, I really just had to trust my instincts. But also it was a little bit different back then because I developed a show over improvising all that time. So I kept things.

[B]

Some things stayed.

[A]

And then by the end, like it was 90% written, something like that. So.

[B]

But I was gonna say I was nervous for you. I was like, but some things, you should keep them.

[A]

Yeah, some things, yeah, you keep. But in this situation, so, so, but in that, I definitely learned, like, I got to trust my instincts. I got to trust my instincts. Just have fun up there. Just. Just be the person that you laugh with when you're in your room playing by yourself, keeping yourself entertained. And so, so I always had that. But then, like, you know, TED, it's also a building up. Like I did TEDxS and some tech conferences that weren't associated to TED. And then eventually I got to an opportunity to audition for ted, and then TED took me in. And then I did my first TED talk 10 years ago. But I Even then, it just reminds me of being in high school again, like in that same feeling. Same feeling. So my thing is like, I get up, you know, and this one I was a little bit more nervous than usual because the first one that I did, I just did whatever the fuck I wanted to do. This one, because I told them that it was going to be about improvisation. So I actually had something to kind of make it about so that having something that I have to build around is. It's not impossible or anything like that. But it's definitely. I get nervous because if I have to remember something to do on stage right then I'm going to be disappointed that I've not done it if I've forgotten it.

[B]

Right.

[A]

You know.

[B]

Right. Well, it's like jumping out of a helicopter into the ocean with absolutely no plan.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Or like I have to be in this position halfway down.

[A]

Yeah, yeah.

[B]

It's like very different.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But here. And here I have to be improvising. But in the middle should look like that.

[A]

Yes. No, and that. I know, totally. It's like. And don't forget. Okay, now you're back. It's like, okay. And that's. And that's. And that's. That's kind of scary to me. But then once I got up on stage, you know, it usually all goes away. There's like a little bit of nerves in there because I'm like, oh. But really it has to do with time because I only had nine minutes, so. And I. And I see the clock, which is good. That always gives me confidence, even in my own shows, because sometimes I'll do a two and a half hour show and I should only do an hour and a half, really. But I'll forget about time. But like having a time and something that indicates time is like very, very chill for me. But at ted, I'm like, I'm going to be talking about improvisation. I should talk about these two points about improvisation and bring that out and explain it a little bit. But also, I'm not sure how much performance should I do on the looper versus me talking about the nature of improvisation and going all, you know, and then recognizing the people in the room and. And then recognizing or acknowledging some of the talks that I heard before, you know, in the music or whatever. And so I was definitely a little bit more nervous. But generally it's like I'm walking up the stairs or getting. Going out onto stage and I'm thinking there's nothing there. It's kind of a. Like there's nothing really there. And then I pick up the mic. And then when I pick up the mic and start talking, it's like I hear my voice in the speaker system and that's when it all starts and it activates. So then I'm playing off of what I'm saying.

[B]

Now there's a thing.

[A]

Now there's a thing that you can.

[B]

Bend and stretch and cut and stop and start.

[A]

Yeah. And just be like, oh, do I want to do this or do I want to do that? Because there's so many things I could do. But I want it to come intuitively. But I'm just a little bit going, like, don't forget to Talk about improvisation in some way that's useful.

[B]

Right, right, right.

[A]

Hopefully.

[B]

Which is why when I was watching that second TED Talk, I was like, interesting. Freestyling or freestyle singing is so much better. Easier if you're doing it at Meltdown and, you know, you could say cunt for five minutes straight.

[A]

True.

[B]

It's on the menu.

[A]

Yep.

[B]

Maybe you shouldn't.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

But you can at a TED Talk. I feel like you can't. You don't want to say that word.

[A]

No. No.

[B]

Did they tell you not to?

[A]

No, they didn't tell me not to.

[B]

But you just kind of know, right?

[A]

I just do it, like, at a tech conference. I mean, it depends, right? Like, if I was at, like, I don't know, VR LA or something like. Which I've done, like a keynote there, I can say whatever the fuck I want to say. It's like, VR is like, you know, it's all adults, whatever. But when you're talking about ted, which is, like, broadcast all over the place and their cultural sensitivities and things like that, it's just smarter not to.

[B]

Right.

[A]

You know, so if there's an automatic thing that happens. I don't know. It's like, I think I'm pretty good at reading a room.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And I'll.

[B]

But that's more programs running, like.

[A]

True.

[B]

We're not just running the Reggie program. That's true of, you know. Knowyouroom Exe.

[A]

But, you know, I don't. I don't. You know, but to be honest, I don't really. I don't really cuss that much.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

On stage, I mean, there are definitely times where I'll go into, like, the hyper. Like, there'll be those times almost like, fuck, shit, stack or whatever. Like, that idea of, like, saying so many swear words. There might be a bit or a character that does that.

[B]

It's not even doing it. It's knowing that you can't. You know, I don't. I'm pretty dirty as a comic, but, like, knowing that I can. Then I do a corporate or something, and I know I can't, even though maybe I wasn't going to. I have to, like, get over the mental hurdle of knowing that I can't.

[A]

It's tough. I mean, you have to kind of, like, set it and forget it. Right? Yeah. You know, and, like, learn how to do that, where you're like, this is what I do. Yeah, totally. Like an instant pot pro.

[B]

This episode is brought to you by instant. Oh, you know what you do get.

[A]

What is this?

[B]

This is actually. I think you're going to love this.

[A]

Oh, shit.

[B]

This is a sponsor, but they gave.

[A]

Me some John McLaughlin's jazz fusion group. It's like Shakti.

[B]

Is it?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Oh, my. Well, Shakti is a spiritual word.

[A]

No way.

[B]

Right?

[A]

Just no way. That word does not sound remotely spiritual at all. Just kidding.

[B]

It's an acupressure, Matt. You're gonna love it.

[A]

Okay, hold on.

[B]

If I was gonna get you a present, this is what I would do.

[A]

Oh, my God.

[B]

Just touch it. It's got all these pokies on it. This isn't an ad. This is just a gift. I'm glad they gave them to us because I think you're actually gonna like it.

[A]

Oh, this is so cool. I can feel it. Oh, I think I've done. So it's. It's static, right? It's just like a. Static. Oh, my.

[B]

You lay on it, dude. You lay on it. You're gonna love it.

[A]

Wow.

[B]

It kind of hurts at first, of course. And then like, five, ten minutes in, you're like. It's like being in a bathtub. It's incredible. So that's for you.

[A]

So cool.

[B]

That's for you, bro.

[A]

Thank you very much.

[B]

Yeah. Yeah.

[A]

You're very welcome. That's awesome.

[B]

You can just toss it down.

[A]

Yeah, sure.

[B]

I didn't want to forget to do that. Get the fuck out of here, you.

[A]

Piece of gross piece of pain shit. Bdsm, Tom.

[B]

I don't. I'm not into bdsm.

[A]

Eastern bdsm.

[B]

Let's do your Cajun story and we'll get out of here.

[A]

Okay. So, yeah. So I love Cajun food. And the thing about it. No, I totally get it wrong.

[B]

Cajaman story about cajama. I love cajamin.

[A]

It's, like, so good.

[B]

It takes you into a paradox.

[A]

Yeah. Andouille. Yeah. You know how when you have yourself a piece of andouille and y'all feel that hell. Oh, there we.

[B]

My face is right up today.

[A]

Yeah. You go your beignet. You get your beignet and some beans.

[B]

Beignet is French for fried dough get white. That was my joke in New Orleans. I was like. It's like. You guys took. You were like, what if we took fried dough and made it difficult to spell?

[A]

Yes.

[B]

It's just. It's a. It's a carny.

[A]

Not easy to say. Difficult to spell.

[B]

Fun to say, even.

[A]

Yeah, beignet. I mean, come on.

[B]

Beignet.

[A]

And you can say it like Americans can say it. They're not going to beignet. I mean, that'd be about the worst.

[B]

Put some Ben Gay on your beign.

[A]

Oh, what's that stuff that you use, you know, for pain relief?

[B]

Ben Gay.

[A]

How long?

[B]

Makes me laugh. That makes me laugh.

[A]

So stupid. So stupid. That was like. That was like fourth grade, third grade, you know, but like in the 80s because, like, you never. I mean, it's like, you're old enough to, like, know that.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

Any of my younger friends, they wouldn't know. They're not getting that shit. They're just like, what, like, did that stuff you use, you know, for pain.

[B]

Or whatever, be like, Goldman?

[A]

Yeah. It's like, what is it? Gold Bond or like Arnica?

[B]

Arnica.

[A]

How long? How long?

[B]

How long? Doesn't work. That dude's been gay. That dude's been gay.

[A]

His name is Benjamin Gay. He's a really cool dude. No, I guess. Okay, so, going back to the thing. So my K thing. So I'm at a friend's house. We're at a swimming pool in the backyard, like, late at night. They have a family, but their child's asleep. And they keep going to check on them every like 20 minutes or so. And so they're sober and there's like. I would say there's total nine people hanging out and we're all doing our thing. And then my friend Kiki, she's like, oh, I've got some K, I think you might like. I was like, oh, that'd be great. And so we do the K, and we're sitting next to each other and we just kind of disappear. Like, we just go into our, you know, these K holes or whatever. And I noticed this was the first time I experienced this. Essentially. A re. No, this is the second time I experienced this.

[B]

So you didn't visually disappear. You close your eyes. You went inside?

[A]

Yeah, like, I just. I just dissolved myself. I removed myself from the current reality.

[B]

You're like, goodbye.

[A]

Yeah. Yes. It was nice knowing you. Swimming pool and people sitting on chairs. You know, it's like, you're awful interesting, but this is just a little bit more.

[B]

That's right.

[A]

But, like, it's the second time I experienced a reality overlay. And what I mean is that I was in a K hole. I was tripping just, like going down these geometric mindscapes and, like, different tonalities of reality and, like, different. Different feelings, whatever that happens in a K hole. And then I was listening to the conversation that they were having, you know, like about that far away from me, talking, still Talking. They knew we were in a K hole, but they just carried on. And so they're, they're. They're doing their thing. They're talking and I'm listening that conversation the whole time. But I'm also tripping equally, triple tripping and hearing the conversation.

[B]

Yes.

[A]

I come out of the K and I tell them verbatim what they would said, like different sections of what they were talking about. Like their kid or like we're having trouble putting their kids to sleep and blah blah, blah and all the stuff. And I was like, yeah. And you were talking about this and talking about that. And then my friend was like, how. How did you even pay attention to that? Like, I was like deep in a chaos. I was like, I was too. But I had, I was experiencing two realities simultaneously.

[B]

Like now you watch two channels.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Television at the same time time.

[A]

Like totally like on top of each other. Like, like fully aware of both. Not like go switching between them to check in on which reality is happening, but they were happening simultaneously. And the only other time that happened was in Montana on free. We used to huff free on gas, which is similar to nitrous. Same, same vibe. And I'd done nitrous once in my. I used to do it in my mom's car. We would drive out like four friends would drive out with a can of Freon in a big plastic bag, drive out in the country roads outside of Great Falls, Montana. And we just like stop in the middle, like super dark area, whatever, listen to music do, you know, fill the bag, take hits and just be like, oh yeah. Fuck yeah. And there was one time we were listening to Metallica. It was really like in the car was just like totally blasting. We're listening to Metallica passing around this bag, like totally getting super high. And it was very memorable just because Metallica started like rotating. Like the music started rotating in this kaleidoscopic, like weird hyper psychedelic way. And I just always remember that feeling. And then months and months and months later, I go with my friend Travis and his red dots and pickup truck. So that was at night, I'm with my friend in the daytime. We go, we park in a church, Christian college parking lot. No cars around, but we're like in the parking lot we do Freon, I guess I take. Take this massive hit and suddenly I'm tripping like, you know, in the, in the truck and tripping. But I'm also re experiencing the time that we did Freon with Metallica.

[B]

Like I was hearing a repeat.

[A]

Yeah, I was like Reliving that reality. I was. I was. I was seeing the dark car with the stereo and, you know, the surroundings overlaid on top of middle of the day, blue sky. Sitting in a 1976 Tiny Datsun pickup truck. Whoa. Like, at the same time. And I was just like. I couldn't believe it. I was just like, holy shit. And then I was. And I was. I could talk to Travis. I was like, I think I'm experiencing another time, whatever. And it was like this perfect overlay. And I was like, what the fuck is that? And then when you were talking about. Like, we were talking about consciousness and also the Heisenberg uncertainty principal. I remember when I had a K trip in San Francisco. It was the intramuscular time. Someone came to my hotel room and injected me. And. Cool. A person who does it professionally. The first dose, because we did two doses. First dose, I got really, really fucking high. But then as I was coming down a little bit, I was like, oh, I need to go to the restroom. So he helped me shuffle to the bathroom, closed the door. I left this blindfold on that he gave us, which are called mindfuls mind. They're the best. So, like, you open your eyes, you're like, I'm in complete darkness. But it kind of like, you could believe it, you know what I mean? In a different way than a blindfold, because there's no pressure on your eyes at all, but. And your eyelashes aren't touching anything. So I decided. I was like, I'm gonna keep this. So he's like, do you want to take that off to go to the bathroom? I'm like, no, no, I want to keep it on. So I shuffled me to the bathroom. I sat down the toilet to take a pee and closed the door. And. And there was just the red. I have a headlamp that I travel with, and I put it in the red light mode. So I'll do that for bathrooms at night because I don't want it to be bright in the bathroom. So I'll just, like, leave it on. It's led. It lasts for a fucking hour anyways. That was on, but I didn't know I couldn't see anything, so it didn't matter. But just to say that that was on. I don't know why I even said that. But anyway, so I'm sitting on the toilet, and I am tripping out still. I'm trying to go to the bathroom. Of course, it's almost impossible to get the mechanism to engage.

[B]

I always go, you can pee in this Dream because you feel like you're kind of dreaming and you're like, exactly. No, in this one you can.

[A]

Oh, I got to try to.

[B]

But you have to tell yourself, I gotta try that this one is the dream you can pee in. You don't want to pee in your night dreams.

[A]

No. Jesus Christ.

[B]

Pee in this dream.

[A]

Jesus. No. No. But I mean, I wish I would have known that. I was just sitting there for it. But what ended up happening is I started to see the bathroom.

[B]

Wow.

[A]

With the mindfold on. And so, you know, I would rotate my head and it's like, no, there's the bathroom bathtub. It's right there. Whoa. And the sink is right next to me. And I see the shelf and I see the toiletries that we have on the shelf and it's like, either that's. I. I don't think that's necessarily true that I'm seeing that, but it is true in that I am seeing that. Like, as. As in I. I've been in that bathroom before. I know basically what it looks like. My mind knows what it looks like.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

So it can just reconstruct the reality in a persistent way.

[B]

Wow.

[A]

That's incredible. You know what I mean? Yeah. And then I remember thinking to myself, this is what the Apple Vision Pro, or like VR in general. It feels like I'm wearing like a 10th generation Apple headset. Yeah.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

That's like so lightweight. It's on your eyes. You can't even tell. It's like, oh, wow. This is. It's so believable. I have my peripheral vision, the reality. I can. I can see it in my peripheral village vision. I can see it in the full height. Wow.

[B]

That's incredible.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Anyways, but that's like that Roald Doll short story. The guy who could see with his eyes bandaged. Like, it's just like one of the most basic, fascinating things. Someone's blindfolded, but they can still see. Cuz it's just another way of saying, like, consciousness is outside the body. It. We love things like that.

[A]

Yeah, of course.

[B]

Things like that. That's really cool.

[A]

Yeah, both of those were cool.

[B]

Reminds me, Shane Moss did dmt and he. I've never done dmt, but he was on dmt and he asked the. He asked God essentially, to show him something that he couldn't know. Because Shane is the only person I know that goes into dmt trips defiantly.

[A]

Oh, man.

[B]

And it'll say, I am God. And he's like, you're just my mind. And I'm like, shane, like, I'm mad at him.

[A]

And he said to it, you're doing consciousness wrong.

[B]

I go. He goes, if you're, if you're really God, show me something that I don't know. And it showed him the corner of a, of a room, like a specific kind of molding. And he was like, what does that even mean? Cut to like 6 months later, he does DMT again. He's coming down, he looks at the corner of the room and it was that corner.

[A]

Oh my God.

[B]

A different room, a room he had never been in. It was like. Yeah, it was showing him a trip that he hadn't had yet.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Like you having.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

You had it in the past.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

But Shane was like, it was showing him the future.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Like there really is something. It's all happening at once. And we're like kind of. We have the experience of time and thought reinforces that or I'm sorry, We have the belief in the construct of time, but we don't really experience it in the way that we think we do. And these things like, break that down 100%.

[A]

I mean, it's just, it's just, it's common knowledge or at least in, you know, in physics, that idea, like all possible possibilities exist simultaneously.

[B]

Right.

[A]

And that there is just the arrow of time and our point of experience that defines the quality of that journey within the infinite, you know, in a way. And it's like, you know, and then of course the question is like, why are we even doing this? You know, if, like. But, but then we've talked about this before. I think it's just because the nature of play.

[B]

It's its nature.

[A]

Yeah, it's its nature.

[B]

It's my daughter's name. The play of the universe is what Leela means. Oh, so you say it's a Leela. So like, ah, the slowing things down and consciousness creating the through line. Rupert has this beautiful thing where he's like, you look at a hundred beads, but why you see a necklace is there's a through line, there's a, there's a thread underneath it. So our awareness is the thread. That's why we're not just having.

[A]

Right.

[B]

Like there's this like, feeling of like, I'm going through it's grace, it's nice. It's like, here's all the possibilities. But I'm going to slow it down for you in a way that you can experience and learn from or enjoy or whatever you want to say.

[A]

Yeah, and I love the like, you know, being Awake inside of it. And I think there's something kind of really fun about that because there's kind of like basic consciousness where you're like, this is the reality, and I'm aware of me, and other people are aware of themselves as well. And then we're just going to do this thing that we're doing together. And that's kind of like, you know, that's one way of doing it. But then there's that, and then also one day going, like, what? I'm in this thing. What is this thing that I'm in that we're all doing, but we've decided that we're doing. It's absurd that we're all just kind of going around not being aware of that while we are aware of it.

[B]

It's being in the play, playing the role, Rupert would say, of King Lear. But you can also be the actor knowing you're being King Lear. But still do it.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Still enjoy the performance. It's like turning the dream into a lucid dream dream. You can still do it. I'm obsessed with my daughter. I'm obsessed with my wife. I'm obsessed with you and my friendships and the fun. And there's another. It's just a slight. It sounds pejorative to say an up leveling, but you can kind of just step out of it. Well, what you reminded me is every morning I wake up and I'm like, sometimes I get up in the night to pee, and I'm like, oh, right, I'm in this.

[A]

Yes, right.

[B]

And that's a. When you get comfortable with that feeling, it's another dao thing. He who finds his way in the morning can gladly go in the evening. So there is even a practical thing to it, because when you recognize the nature, your nature, you get less afraid of just protecting the body.

[A]

100%. Yeah. I mean, I think that's a beautiful way of putting it, because if there's anything that I think. Well, the analogy I like to use is that we're all actors playing characters. And so when I'm talking to someone, when I meet somebody, I'm trying to speak to the actual, not the character. So if someone's, like, pissed at me or disappointed at me, I'm like, yeah, I'm talking to the actor, not the character. Because, like, our characters could get entwined in some, like, back and forth. Fuck this. Fuck you. It's like, why can't I go in there? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And then when you have that presence of mind to go like, oh, I'm just gonna talk to the character and just be like, hey, the situation is probably not going to change, but I just want you to know, talk to the actor. Yeah, I recognize you as a conscious being and I'm gonna give you that. And I will disengage or whatever.

[B]

And when I really consider that when I close my eyes and I'm just this spacious, self luminous, self aware field and that you are that field too, and how impersonal and boundaryless it is, there's no end to it. It's just. And that's you as well. I had that one last ketamine experience. We'll get out of here. Me and my friend Sam were doing. And we were laughing so hard, our eyes were closed and I'd just go, Sam. And he'd go, pete, we thought it was so funny. That's a ketamine joke that you think you're Sam and I think I'm Pete, but here it is. That sound was appearing in the one and only thing there is. And isn't it funny that we're pretending to be these characters when really there's just one act?

[A]

Yeah. 100,000.

[B]

Isn't that fun?

[A]

Thousand percent. And I've always. Reggie, I've always built it because, you know, you have those instant friendships, you know, that you've made, like, especially, like for me. I've been going to a lot of festivals lately. And like you go to festivals and there's like a new person from another friend group or something or just someone just like weirdly just suddenly in your crew that you're rolling around with or whatever, and you just feel like you're the. You've been the best friends forever, you know, and yeah, maybe it's, you know, there's like drugs and music and stuff, but like the spirit of it is not fake. That's a sincere.

[B]

Because you're recognizing your shared nature.

[A]

Yeah. And you're like, I recognize you within me within you. And you recognize you within me.

[B]

Right. And sometimes a stranger, it's easier to recognize the you in them.

[A]

Yeah. Because you have less history. Like we were talking about, like, if you live your life constantly projecting from the past, comparatively, you know, then you're just kind of sleepwalking a little bit.

[B]

It's how I could get along very well with your parents. And you might have some issues with this.

[A]

Exactly. Yeah.

[B]

And certainly with my parents, I was calling my mom on the way down and I was doing that where I was going. I didn't use your language, but I Was going talk to the actor.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

The character. Pete and mom want such different things. And we're playing this weird boundary negotiation, and there's things that I just. My sovereignty will not allow that.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

And that's playing out. And then behind it, there's love, is what we would say. The quickest way to say it is there's love even as we're going saying some really awful shit. To me, actually, where I was like, wow, that's really hurtful. And I'm also like.

[A]

It's so hard to just. You know, again, you're watching the actor play a character. Yeah. And, like, when things like that are said, you're like. It's hard to move because conceptually in the past or, like, in the future, you can think about what just happened in a way that's constructive. Like this. But, like, where you're like, this is this person's disappointment within themselves.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And they are using this conduit because it's been like this forever.

[B]

You're right.

[A]

We're going to use that conduit to unleash on that. And when you. When you're able to see it more in the moment, when you pull. Pull it more into the moment where you're like. It's still. I get it. And it's, like, not uncomfortable in any way, but at least I know it's just them.

[B]

That's what it is. You can be doing that sort of Zen jiu jitsu.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And also suffering. That's what I've learned is you're like. You think the suffering goes away.

[A]

It doesn't.

[B]

It doesn't. It's just another thing to forgive.

[A]

Yeah. That's. That's totally it. And eventually, some people are able to have it just. They. They can. They can process it so quickly.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

That it becomes nothing before it even reaches them.

[B]

Right. That's what. That's what Rupert says. Like a bird going through the sky or a rock going through the sky. It leaves no trail. It just. It travels through your empty sky.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

And you're just like. And that's, you know, life goals.

[A]

It's like, that's it. That's not it. Where it just came with. That's it. Yeah.

[B]

Yeah.

[A]

And it continues. That. That will always continue to be it. And that's all there is.

[B]

Let it glide.

[A]

Yeah. Let it glide. Let it glide. Let it glide.

[B]

I said, this is what my mom said. I said, we saw the trailer for a movie I'm in with my daughter. What an amazing moment. And every time I was on the screen. Leela went, daddy, I'm telling her this mitzvah, this joy. And my mom goes, I'm surprised she recognizes you, because I travel.

[A]

Wow.

[B]

And I was just like. And you know what? I did all the hurt and all that stuff, and I just go. Because I travel for work. And she's like, yeah. I was like, I just want to make sure I understand the joke. And I did. Good. Because I didn't go like, right. But I could have done that, too.

[A]

Yeah. I mean, you know, it's like sometimes when people come at me with stuff like that, obviously, moms are a little bit different, parents are different. But usually I'll just feel like if she said I was talking about mom or service and they said something like that to me, I'd be like. Be like, how did I have it? Yeah, I'd just be like, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. Me too. I thought that, too, too. But, yeah, it's so. Our connections, like, so strong. I guess it's just like, you know, whatever, you know.

[B]

Wait, wait, wait. You mean you and your mom's connect? Like.

[A]

Yeah, like, so, like, let's say my.

[B]

Mom said, oh, you turn it into something loving. You're like, I've thought the same thing.

[A]

Yeah. And yet she still continues to recognize me.

[B]

That's.

[A]

And that shows you how strong our connection is.

[B]

I love that. You know, I get defensive. I'm like, you just went to Universal Studios.

[A]

Yeah. It's like, you have no idea what I do for. For this family or whatever the fuck.

[B]

Of course. But Rupert would always say, find the one on whose behalf. You're being defensive. He goes, just find it. We think we're these clusters of memories and thoughts and feelings and beliefs. He's like, show it to me. Every time I go back to myself. It's the spacious field. It's the most obvious thing in the world. So intimate. It's so obvious. Things like ketamine can show it, too. Other experiences can show it too. And then the trick is to hold on to that when you're talking to your mom.

[A]

Oh, my God, it's so true. That's it. You heard it here, folks.

[B]

You heard it here.

[A]

First secret to life.

[B]

Would you sing the theme song live? You probably don't even remember it.

[A]

You made it weird. You made it weird.

[B]

You made it weird. Oh, yeah.

[A]

Oh, God. Oh, yeah. I'm trying to remember the baseline. Dude. Dude, I know that rhythm, but I'm trying to. What are the notes? Cuz I'm like, yeah.

[B]

And he goes. That's the only part.

[A]

You made it weird. You made it weird. You made it weird. Oh, my. You did. Yes. You made it weird. You made it weird. You made it weird. Cuz we made it. We done.

[B]

Would you say keep it crispy? Reggie, I love you so much.

[A]

Thank you. I love you. Amazing. Thanks.

[B]

Say keep it crispy. It's how we end.

[A]

Keep it. Oh, keep it quippy. Sorry.

[B]

No, no, no.

[A]

Keep.

[B]

No, no, no.

[A]

Oh, together. Just kidding.

[B]

I was joking. I was taking it very seriously as a joke. No, no, not kreby.

[A]

Oh, sorry. Crispy.

[B]

Say the whole thing, please.

[A]

I am. No, I mean, I will. You. You is it. You made it.

[B]

You made it.

[A]

Okay. You've.

[B]

You've made it weird. The show is called you have made it weird. Catchphrases remain Crispy keepers.

[A]

You have. You have made it weird. Star A. You made it crispy. That's it. We did it.