The Worst Thing Happened

Summary

Add to Cart With Kulap Vilaysack & SuChin Pak

Episode: "The Worst Thing Happened"

Date: April 3, 2026

Episode Overview

This episode centers around a harrowing and darkly comic personal experience from SuChin, recounted with the signature honesty and banter that defines Add to Cart. Against the backdrop of Mercury in retrograde and a series of personal household calamities, SuChin undergoes the absolute worst version of a common fear: discovering a spider in her ear during a family vacation. The story unfolds as an exploration of anxiety, resilience, and the search for meaning—even (or especially) when life delivers shocks that nobody could anticipate.

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Major Discussion Points & Story Breakdown

1. Mercury in Retrograde & General Chaos

• The episode opens with Kulap and SuChin bemoaning a tough run of luck, blaming it on Mercury in retrograde (01:01 – 03:08).
• Both hosts describe personal and family crises: household floods, sick children, injuries, and home remediation, setting the scene for the "spooky cart" story.
• Quote:

  "In the grand scheme of tragedies, none of these are tragedies, I am well aware. But these are wild times. And so we're just...we're just trying to get by."
  — SuChin Pak (02:34)

2. The Staycation Setup: A Deal Too Good to Be True

• SuChin and her husband Mike take their kids to a resort/retirement community on a heavily discounted deal that comes with a long sales pitch (11:04 – 12:08).
• The family is unimpressed, but they press on for the sake of "getting away."
• Quote:

  "You think we're dummies? ...It's not their fault. This is their business."
  — SuChin Pak (11:46)

3. The Incident: From “Water in the Ear” to Surreal Fear

• While SuChin frog-swims in the hotel pool, she feels something thud into her ear and assumes it’s water, despite having kept her head above water (13:31 – 15:24).
• She describes her efforts to clear her ear—jumping, tugging, hot towels, all while her family teases her for somehow getting water in her ear without submerging.
• A strange, fluttering, sloshing sensation persists and increases throughout the day (15:24 – 18:28).

4. The Escalation: From Mild Annoyance to Existential Dread

• The sensation transforms into scratching and fluttering that comes and goes, making SuChin deeply anxious (25:32 – 27:19).
• With mounting dread (and some darkly hilarious self-awareness), SuChin’s worst fear surfaces: a living creature in her ear. She oscillates between denial (“maybe it’s just water”) and primal fear.
• Quote:

  "To look the beast in the face is to acknowledge you have let the beast in. We're both trying to pretend..."
  — SuChin Pak (21:45)

5. The Big Reveal: Family “Diagnosis” & Urgent Care Trip

• Her son, Kai, reluctantly inspects SuChin’s ear with a phone flashlight and claims to see “a leg.”
  (31:24 – 32:16)
• The family drives in tense silence to urgent care; SuChin’s anxiety and shame blend with the family’s mix of concern and disbelief.
• Quote:

  "Kai, do you see anything?... He says, 'Yeah. I see a leg.' Title of ep."
  — SuChin Pak (32:16)

6. The ER Ordeal: Nurse & Doctor Face the “Beast”

• At urgent care, SuChin describes her symptoms but omits the possibility of a bug to avoid seeming paranoid (35:22).
• The nurse examines her ear, recoils in shock, then admits, “Yes, there’s something in there” (36:55 – 38:12).
  • [38:12] Key Moment: SuChin directly asks, “Is there something in my ear?” The nurse confirms.
• When the doctor administers lidocaine, the creature—now revealed to be a spider—leaps out. Both nurse and doctor are visibly shaken.
• Quote:

  "He said, 'It's a spider.'"
  — SuChin Pak (42:42)

7. Aftermath: Processing Trauma With Humor & Insight

• The team in urgent care is as disturbed as SuChin, with the nurse confessing this was one of the only times in her ten-year career she nearly fainted (45:28).
• The doctor reassures her (as much as possible) that there’s nothing left, offers another lidocaine flush, and recommends she try to relax.
• Mike, ever-supportive, declares,

  "The worst thing that can ever happen to you has happened. I think the only thing we can do is celebrate."
  — SuChin’s husband Mike (47:12)

• The family goes to a Houston’s restaurant for a celebratory meal.

8. Coping Mechanisms: Psychics, Ear Covers, and Reflections on “The Message”

• The story doesn’t end with the urgent care. SuChin books a session with her husband’s trusted psychic, seeking meaning in her traumatic experience.
• The psychic tells her:

  "The spider was a messenger... The message from the universe was: relax."
  — Psychic, paraphrased by SuChin (50:42)

• Kulap:

  "I would beg of the universe, the infinite spirit, to just clear a path for another way for Suchin to understand that lesson."
  — Kulap (51:07)

• To protect herself in the future, SuChin “adds to cart” a pair of bandless fleece ear covers, demonstrating them to Kulap on the mic (52:56 – 54:08).
• They imagine designs, themed merchandise, and even a Shark Tank pitch—turning trauma into entrepreneurial spirit.
• Quote:

  "From the ashes of that spider's death comes something new."
  — Kulap (56:58)

9. Lessons Learned: The Power of the “Original Face”

• SuChin reflects on embracing her “original face”—her truest, most primal self who acts when survival is at stake.
• She urges listeners not to ignore their instinctual truths—even if it means disrupting their routines or familial harmony.
• Quote:

  "Let not an arachnid nestle itself into the inner tube of your ear, scratching for seven hours. Don't let that happen to you. And just hear the message which is your original voice is the truest voice."
  — SuChin Pak (59:41)

• Kulap weaves in symbolism, referencing the goddess Kali and the spider as an unwelcome but effective messenger.

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• [03:08] Kulap: "I'm just trying to figure out which bathroom at this point is off limits..."
• [32:16] Kai: "Yeah, I see a leg." (Title of episode)
• [36:55] Nurse’s reaction to seeing the spider: physically recoils.
• [42:42] Doctor: "'It's a spider.'"
• [45:28] Nurse: "I've been doing this for, you know, 10 years, and this is the second time I've almost fainted."
• [50:42] Psychic (via SuChin): "The spider was a messenger... the message was: relax."
• [56:58] Kulap: "From the ashes of that spider's death comes something new."
• [59:41] SuChin: "Let not an arachnid nestle itself into the inner tube of your ear, scratching for seven hours..."
• [62:37] Kulap: "...if there's fluttering or any sort of screechy, scritchy scratching or just like when you feel that there's life inside of you, go to the doctor. Just as a rule."

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Timestamps for Key Segments

• Mercury in retrograde chaos: 01:01 – 03:08
• Vacation / The setup: 11:04 – 13:03
• The “water” incident begins: 13:31 – 15:24
• Symptoms escalate: 15:24 – 18:28
• Confronting fear / Family intervention: 25:32 – 32:16
• Kai discovers “a leg”: 32:16
• Urgent care ordeal: 36:55 – 43:12
• The spider jumps out: 42:42
• Celebratory dinner & psychic aftermath: 47:12 – 54:08
• Ear cover demonstration / new business idea: 52:56 – 56:38
• Reflection on the “original face” and lessons: 58:55 – 60:21

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Tone & Style

Hilariously morbid, self-deprecating, and honest—SuChin and Kulap’s interplay moves from comic relief to moments of genuine existential reflection, always remaining warm and relatable. The episode balances gross-out humor and anxiety with a sense of personal growth and community—classic Auntie Council wisdom.

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Takeaways for Listeners

• The episode is a testament to the unpredictability of life—and of carts, literal and metaphorical.
• Collective and personal misfortune can be faced with humor, openness, and, when necessary, a trip to urgent care.
• Embrace your “original face”—instincts are there for a reason.
• Sometimes, the universe delivers its message via a spider. The lesson: relax.
• And yes, always check the link in the show notes—for new ways to protect your ears against eight-legged omens.

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Items Added & Removed from Cart

Removed:

• Spiders (especially in ears)

Added:

• Sat Noir bandless fleece ear covers (52:56)
• Psychic counseling (48:06)
• Trust in your “original face” (58:56)

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Final Thoughts

Add to Cart once again transcends its shopping-podcast premise, offering listeners a blend of horror, hilarity, and heartfelt advice about self-belief, learning to listen to the universe (even when it whispers through the tiniest legs), and finding entrepreneurial opportunity in the most unexpected challenges.

Transcript

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[Suchin Pak]

Wait.

[Soojin Pak]

Welcome to another episode of Add to cart, the podcast about what we buy and what we buy into and what that says about who we are. Of course, I. I am your auntie Kuap Vilay Sak.

[Suchin Pak]

And I'm your other auntie, Soojin Pak, coming to you live. As we just enter the last vestiges while we record this of Mercury. And that's important.

[Soojin Pak]

Mercury in retrograde now suchin there's a tail. So you kinda. It's really one more week after. Sorry.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, the tail.

[Soojin Pak]

It's not. There's just gonna be. It's gonna.

[Suchin Pak]

The tail like a serpent.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes. There's gotta be a bit of a death rattle, if you will, to continue the analogy.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, death being the key word there. I have had.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, boy.

[Suchin Pak]

We have had.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

Collectively. Collectively, her and I, we've been texting each other through this and whether or not you believe in Mercury in retrograde or not, let me just. I'm gonna run through some of my highlights and please chime in.

[Soojin Pak]

I have a feeling these are gonna be lowlights, but go ahead.

[Suchin Pak]

Cause I was thinking about this and I was like, I have to stop talking about it. But I realized that we're sitting down one last time and this is. This is my exorcism. And this is it from here on out, tail or no tail, I shall not breathe a word of this woe that has befallen this family. And in the grand scheme of tragedies, none of these are tragedies, I am well aware.

[Soojin Pak]

But these are wild times. And so we're just. We're just trying to get by.

[Suchin Pak]

We're just.

[Soojin Pak]

I'm squeezing my eyes, guys.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm bear.

[Soojin Pak]

I can barely look forward. Okay, I'm just hanging.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm just trying to figure out which bathroom at this point is off limits because of issues sicknesses we've had floods we're now going into any day now our third remediation in the month.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, God. Oh, no.

[Suchin Pak]

And for those that understand remediation, really, really. That should stop you in your tracks. Whatever you're doing, that last nibble of cheese you're about to take, the top coat you're about to put on, that stopped you in your tracks. And so it's everything from the house. My son dislocated his knee. My daughter. Both our daughters now are home from school with raging fevers.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah. But don't worry. Top of the day, she's sick. She doesn't want us go to school. I turn around, top of her lungs. K pop, Semen.

[Suchin Pak]

House, karaoke.

[Soojin Pak]

Karaoke on her trampoline, which is both exercise and stage. This sickness is better than the last sickness you created.

[Suchin Pak]

This stage.

[Soojin Pak]

It is. But I gotta say, genetics are wild.

[Suchin Pak]

And when I went to the urgent care, you said, well, I'm on my way to urgent care. I mean, this has been. This has been the last few weeks. The story I'm about to unleash upon the Carter is. And cool up, boy. It took me a lot of self. What is the word? When you. You know. Discipline.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

To not live. Text you. As things were happening, I was curious.

[Soojin Pak]

You're like, I have to do it on mic. I'm like, okay, yeah, we have to

[Suchin Pak]

do this on mic. And so I bring this to you in the larger context of what a shit month I've been having. But, boy, nobody saw this coming. I invite all the Carters to gather around.

[Soojin Pak]

Gather on the fire. Do you hear it?

[Suchin Pak]

Yeah. If you're eating something, you may want to pause on it and just push it away. If you're on the toilet, you may want to wipe.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay. Or stay on it.

[Suchin Pak]

You can stay on it, but, you know, I'm looking out for your butt health. We don't want to have you sitting on there too long. And I certainly don't want to scare you on there. Some. Scare it back up, you know, we got to get it out.

[Soojin Pak]

Got it. Got it.

[Suchin Pak]

So shall I get into it? Shall we get into our. Our carts? Our scary, spooky carts?

[Soojin Pak]

Let's take a quick break already. Let's take a quick break. Give the listener time to do the things that you asked them to put down their sandwich to get off the toilet. Those were your two requests.

[Suchin Pak]

Cheese bite.

[Soojin Pak]

Put down your sticky cheese.

[Suchin Pak]

Cheese bite. Before I came on here.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah. Okay, so let's take a break, and then we'll be right back for Su Chin's spooky tail.

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[Soojin Pak]

We are back on add to cart Soochen. What do you love?

[Suchin Pak]

Well, I just. I love the.

[Soojin Pak]

The.

[Suchin Pak]

Just the lightness in your voice now because as I sit here, you will live in this world that we are in together. Yeah.

[Soojin Pak]

Like right now, I'm so innocent and I'm about to be dragged into hell.

[Suchin Pak]

It sounds like I'm a strong flavor.

[Soojin Pak]

Some might say a little funky.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm a funky, funky. Lao. Put it in the garage, keep it there and scoop it from the bin in the garage. Don't bring the bin inside. Flavor.

[Soojin Pak]

Breathe out your mouth.

[Suchin Pak]

A lot of people don't like this flavor.

[Soojin Pak]

I love it, though.

[Suchin Pak]

I love it and I understand because you're loud. Slop it up. You say fish sauce.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

What is that?

[Soojin Pak]

Ketchup? Yeah. Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

Let's rot that in the garage for another year and then I'll eat it. That's the culture I learned that you came from.

[Soojin Pak]

That's right.

[Suchin Pak]

Now I am transported to another side. And you guys have been. Some of you have been here from the beginning and you're like, oh, here she goes cutting her sparkled water. You know, eight hour bath routines. What else? You know Diapers. There's a lot of stuff that we've laid down for you. And some of you are still here. And others of you have left it so far behind. I read the reviews.

[Soojin Pak]

Is that true?

[Suchin Pak]

So we.

[Soojin Pak]

Time out. Wait.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, no, I. I read the reviews and they. So many of you have left.

[Soojin Pak]

They say they, they make a point to leave a review to say that they've left.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, man, they don't even need to say they've left. I think it's implied in the sheer from light irritation, like Dear John letters to disgust.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And we still March 4th.

[Soojin Pak]

What else can we do?

[Suchin Pak]

And yet all those places I've been, all those versions of myself, I leave all of those behind, starting today to emerge anew, okay?

[Soojin Pak]

Like a Fenus.

[Suchin Pak]

Because now I live on another planet, okay? I mean, some would say rise. I don't. I just say that I have moved into a different plane of existence. That's where I'm taking.

[Soojin Pak]

A higher existence.

[Suchin Pak]

Nirvana, just an alternate universe.

[Soojin Pak]

So more. And I look back, like not okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And I look to the side, to the east, to the, to the west, and I see my friends and I think, ha ha. Remember one.

[Soojin Pak]

Wow. Okay,

[Suchin Pak]

so let me spin this tail as you've been so patient. Yes. Well, we just wanted to make sure you had time to finish all the things you needed to do. Take the babe off your tit.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay. Okay. Be careful. Be careful for the children. Think of the children.

[Suchin Pak]

Because we don't want you to drop the baby as you hear my story.

[Soojin Pak]

Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm gonna keep that milk fresh. So I, for many reasons, Mike and I decided to go on a bit of a staycation with the kids. They had a random three day weekend and we said, let's. Let's get out of town.

[Soojin Pak]

Let's get in the Sprinter van.

[Suchin Pak]

Let's get in the Sprinter van. Not too far. And you found this deal at this hotel slash resort, slash retirement community.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, boy.

[Suchin Pak]

And we take the kids there, why?

[Soojin Pak]

No, keep telling the story. I'm sorry. Go. Keep going.

[Suchin Pak]

Well, yeah, I mean, you can imagine that it was virtually free. Okay, so except for just a quick 90 minute, which turned into a 180 minute sales pitch, but we had to attend that. But for our attendance, we were given the opportunity to stay in this resort retirement community.

[Soojin Pak]

Leisure world.

[Suchin Pak]

So we said, sign us up. Okay. You think we're dummies? I shall not say the name here, because I don't. It's not their fault.

[Soojin Pak]

This is their Business.

[Suchin Pak]

This is their business. It's not their powers.

[Soojin Pak]

You two are trying to game the system. Let's be clear.

[Suchin Pak]

Dummies. Two dummies too. You know, like, he's terrible at it. I'm terrible at it. And the both of us.

[Soojin Pak]

And you just have your children bring

[Suchin Pak]

out the worst in each other who are. That's our marriage. Yeah. Tweens. And they're like, we're going where? To do what? Okay, we have. But we have a pool at home. No, it's getting out. Getting into that fresh Orange county air. Just breathe it in.

[Soojin Pak]

This is leisure world.

[Suchin Pak]

So we go to this place, and I am swimming in the pool with my kids. Giant pool. And I'm swimming in the pool. And when I say swimming, what do I mean? I'm not putting my head underwater. I'm not performing.

[Soojin Pak]

You're not exerting. I'm not doing.

[Suchin Pak]

Yes, I'm doing my frog swim. I got my hat on my head. Got my SPF on. Got my sunnies.

[Soojin Pak]

Got your SPF shirt on.

[Suchin Pak]

Got my SPF shirt on. Got my SPF shorts from REI on. And I'm swimming, swimming. My head's out. Kids are having a blast.

[Soojin Pak]

You guys are at Belmont Shores.

[Suchin Pak]

I love your role in this story. Time is going to be just throwing out properties, hoping to land. We might be at already the cap. You will.

[Soojin Pak]

Spoiler alert.

[Suchin Pak]

So everything is fine. And suddenly, out of nowhere, as perhaps some of you who are more outdoorsy than I, and there are a few of you out there, when you're out in the wilderness like that, in one of the six pools, frog swimming with your head out, I encounter nature of some sort. Just a. What are you. In my ear?

[Soojin Pak]

What are you talking about?

[Suchin Pak]

Just like a. Like a. Like a thud in my ear. And I'm like, dang it, I got some water in my ear.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

Something splashed in my ear. I don't know, maybe. Maybe there was a drip of water. Maybe a child kicked it. I'm like, gosh darn it. And I know what water in the ear feels like. And this is what. What it felt like was I go. And I was like, get. Get it. And I thought, ugh, gotta get it out. Tugging on my ear, you know, doing this like. Like, you know, kind of like tapping on the other temple, you know, hopping on the foot that the water is in, trying to get the water out of my ear.

[Soojin Pak]

I'm panicking right now. I'm panicking.

[Suchin Pak]

It won't get out of my ear.

[Soojin Pak]

You're fucking with Your crystals right now. You know, where I'm coming from, what trauma I have, what's happening.

[Suchin Pak]

So I'm trying to get the water out of my ear. I'm like, dang, it's in there. Like, it won't come out. But whatever. I'm swimming. I'm just like, kind of keep tugging at it, doing all the things. And we end our swimming session. I get out, I'm hopping on one foot, doing all the things, and. And, you know, my kids are laughing because I got water in my ear. But how did I get. How to. Of course. How did mom get water in her ear? And her hair is dry? How does that happen? That's my mom.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

So again, my kids know. I mean, they were born of the strong flavor. They are not themselves strong in flavor and may never be. May never be. I don't know.

[Soojin Pak]

But it's, you know, from whence they came.

[Suchin Pak]

It's from whence they came. So they recognized.

[Soojin Pak]

They've come through it.

[Suchin Pak]

They've come through it, held their breath, hopefully didn't get any in their orifices, and they came out, and here they are laughing at me, trying to get this water out of my ear. They think it's so funny that of course, she's not even swimming underwater, and she gets water in there in her ear, and they're fine. So I'm jumping around laughing, and we go back to our room, we have some lunch, and this water is. It just won't come out. And at this point, the water is now making a lot of noise.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, fucking Christ, Suji.

[Suchin Pak]

Almost like.

[Soojin Pak]

Fuck.

[Suchin Pak]

Almost like the water is kind of sloshing around.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, my God.

[Suchin Pak]

But the sloshing is not a liquid. It's more of, like, a fluttering, and it kind of sounds like this. So, like, water. E. Right. Like, could that be water? Like, just kind of. Somehow I'm thinking it hit an air pocket, and it's like, in my. It's like hitting my eardrums, like, maybe pounding on it because there's, like a vac. You know what I mean? I'm going to med school.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

I mean, who knows what the ear canal can hold?

[Soojin Pak]

The body is deep and vast, mysterious.

[Suchin Pak]

And I keep tilting my head back and forth, and it's like. I'm like, gosh. So I get in the shower, you know, I look up all the different ways that you could get water out. I'm putting a hot, Like, a towel on it. I'm creating vacuum suction with my hand, trying to, you know, trying to get the water from whence it's lodged.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

And then a different noise enters the room.

[Soojin Pak]

God, I hope it's a tiny English voice.

[Suchin Pak]

Excuse me. Hello?

[Soojin Pak]

Hello.

[Suchin Pak]

Is there a peach? I'm supposed to be inside of a peach. I'm kind of like, I'm not stressed, but it's annoying. I'm trying to deal with the kids. We're at this place that I'm not too thrilled about trying. Somewhere in Seoul beach, probably trying to think about our life choices. Both Mike and I are looking at each other and it's still early enough. Where neither one of us wants to, like, break the delicate seal.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

Of our delusions.

[Soojin Pak]

Thin ice here.

[Suchin Pak]

Thin ice. And we're like, neither one of us wants to say we fucked up. And neither one of us wants to say we've been had and bamboozled scammer. Because now, mind you, we still have to have the 180 minute sales meeting.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, wow.

[Suchin Pak]

To justify basically getting a free weekend at this resort.

[Soojin Pak]

You idiots. You idiots. No, please continue.

[Suchin Pak]

This is fucking before.

[Soojin Pak]

I cannot believe. Okay, so you're stuck. Like, whatever's in your ear, you're stuck. Please continue. That's true. Continue.

[Suchin Pak]

I see the grand allegory. Yeah. I mean, a lot of things I've learned. I mean, I'm a poet on the other side of it. To taste the sweet juice of joy, you must have the bitter taste of darkness. You know, I've now tasted the darkness, and I see you guys in your light and in your joy. And I rejoice for you, but I cannot participate.

[Soojin Pak]

You're past that.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm like, you know, I mean, let me just take a quick little nap. Close my eyes. I do the thing. I, you know, I put my, you know, headphones in. I put on my meditation app and I close my eyes and then I hear this.

[Soojin Pak]

Fuck you, Suchin.

[Suchin Pak]

And I'm laying perfectly still because before this, I'm jumping around. You know what I mean? I am doing everything I can to just like, get the water out. But now I've laid coffins still.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

And I'm like, the fuck is that? Because I'm not moving. So, like, in my delusion that I've set up the story of a deep ear canal and maybe there's like massive amounts of wax that somehow the water got behind. And, you know, when wax moves in your ear, it's so loud. I mean, anything is loud in your ear. But I am so far in my delusion, I'm like, maybe it's not as Dry as I thought.

[Soojin Pak]

Right? Well, enter the water.

[Suchin Pak]

You know, maybe over time. Maybe over time, menopause made it wet.

[Soojin Pak]

Look, the. The Grand Canyon was eroded by the river.

[Suchin Pak]

And then. And I sort of, like, kind of stop, and I'm like, the fuck? And again. And I, like, jump out of bed, and I go to Mike, and the kids are, you know, having fun, and they're playing games, and I'm like, I don't know. Like, Mike, the sound in my ear is really weird. And again, I'm dancing. Because to look the beast in the face is to acknowledge you have let the beast in. And we're both trying to pretend you're

[Soojin Pak]

twisting in the wind of the unknown. Once you name it, then it's real.

[Suchin Pak]

And up until this point, I'm like, yeah, I got water in my ear. I have a deep ear canal. Maybe my wax is moist.

[Soojin Pak]

And is that something that, you know that of yourself, is that Suchinpak is a deep ear canal? Has that been told to you? Is that from experience?

[Suchin Pak]

Let me tell you, I have such a petite ear canal. And I don't mean to brag, okay. That, like, I can't even find. Like, I can't even find a earplug that'll stay in my ear for more

[Soojin Pak]

than turn into a brag. I'm not sure how we landed here.

[Suchin Pak]

Tiniest, tiniest, most ladylike, demure ear canal and the driest wax. Yeah.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

I mean, I've been told some. Some of the driest.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And yet to look the beast in the eye is what I'm not willing to do in the light of day.

[Soojin Pak]

The light of day in Newport Beach.

[Suchin Pak]

She's getting there, folks. She just landed the plane. Let's see if she's at the right gate. I love how we have two mysteries going on at the same time. And for anyone that says, we are not storytellers. Oh, yourself.

[Soojin Pak]

Is that in the reviews, too?

[Suchin Pak]

Okay. No, I haven't read it. Honey. I read a review, like, a year ago, and I haven't gone back. I'm just. Because you were afraid of.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay, I'm never going. Go ahead, too.

[Suchin Pak]

Yeah, don't go. It's unnecessary because the Carter is that we don't need those. Those weren't Carters to begin with. They were looking for another podcast about shopping. Obviously, this has nothing to do with shopping. Okay? So I. In the light of day, I say to him, not exactly what I'm hearing, but I do go as far as to say, it's a fluttering in my ear. Now, I think this is the point, I tell you, so that you understand and you don't dismiss Mike as an abusive husband. Because any normal, I think, partner, when their partner says, I hear a fluttering in my ear, immediately would look in the ear, maybe would. Would suggest, why don't we go have it checked out? You know? But I have had, and I think this is a very common fear since as early as I can remember, the deep fear, and Mike has known this about me of something burrowing in my ear, laying eggs, and that I am a host.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, God. The context. Okay, so he's used to, like, dampening your anxiety, assuaging your fears on the

[Suchin Pak]

good end, and on the other end is rolling his eyes because you have this fear.

[Soojin Pak]

Maybe I've cried wolf in the past.

[Suchin Pak]

Yes. So many times. And I've voiced this fear. I've gone to other urgent cares and doctors and voiced this fear at different times because I thought that this was happening. And so I say that to him, and he's like, first of all, something went in your ear. Doesn't want to be in your ear. It would have flown out hours ago. I mean, you've been out of the pool for two, three hours now, but

[Soojin Pak]

you have, you know, tiny crevices through the water and lubrication. It was sucked in, but that doesn't mean it can back out. There's a labyrinth in there. A labyrinth.

[Suchin Pak]

And this scratching noise, to fuck with me, it will. It's only like twice an hour, so like, 20 minutes will go by, and it'll be nothing. And then Suddenly for like, 30 seconds, and I'm like, it's the sound. So I live with this mostly quietly because I don't want to freak my kids out. I don't want to freak my husband out, but I really don't want to freak myself out because it's your nightmare. And so I.

[Soojin Pak]

You are in a waking nightmare.

[Suchin Pak]

We. We go through the motions of a happy, normal family on vacation. The walks, the root beer float time, build a buddy, all of that. Wow, arcade.

[Soojin Pak]

These are ours.

[Suchin Pak]

And we decide to go for a sunset beach walk.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay, what could go wrong?

[Suchin Pak]

And I'm on the walk, and the scratching in my ear is now coming every, like, 10 minutes. Stop. Stop.

[Soojin Pak]

Because it can smell. It can smell the ocean, and it wants out. The negative ions are energizing whatever. Whatever is in there.

[Suchin Pak]

And let me tell you how many Q tips I've gone through.

[Soojin Pak]

For real. So you're like, trying to. You're just. Oh, boy. So you're Just trying to.

[Suchin Pak]

Of course.

[Soojin Pak]

And in your mind, you're trying to kill.

[Suchin Pak]

Kill what? Water in my ear.

[Soojin Pak]

So this. You are still believing that it's water

[Suchin Pak]

at this point, What I'd like to say is the conscious self is believing it's water.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay. Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And so, as the sun is setting naturally, my anxiety is now on high alert.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

And my deep sense, you guys know that person, that inner knowing that lives in your amygdala that is not concerned with your degrees, your bank account, your gender or your hair length. It is that deep animal psychic, all knowing that lives in all of us that we chain to a basement when the sun is out and there's root beer floats on the table. As the sun sets, the beast true

[Soojin Pak]

form, the original face.

[Suchin Pak]

The original face unchains her talons.

[Soojin Pak]

And by the way, she voluntarily chains herself. That's what's so scary, is that at any moment she could break those bonds.

[Suchin Pak]

She's both the jailer and the jailed. And so we get back to the van, and by we, I mean Kai, because my. My daughter and my husband are out off frolicking, looking at tide pools, and I say to Kai, I need for you to look up in my ear and we need to go back to the van. And he says, okay.

[Soojin Pak]

Kai, who you'll remember is the one who empties out the van toilet. Kai, who gets the front hugs, of course, will help his mother now.

[Suchin Pak]

Kai, my first Kai, firstborn blood of my blood. Kai, my dragon egg.

[Soojin Pak]

Suchin, Khaleesi. Khaleesi, Suchin.

[Suchin Pak]

There can be only one.

[Soojin Pak]

Much like the Highlander, there can only

[Suchin Pak]

be one Kai who has my moon face. I gave one person on this planet my moonface. The original moon faced Kai in the

[Soojin Pak]

original

[Suchin Pak]

Also Kai surfer, Also Kai, teenage boy, also Kai of one word, also Kai of grunts and I don't know.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes, that is his full name, by the way. This is just like Game of Thrones. All of that was his full name.

[Suchin Pak]

So we get to the van and I'm sort of contemplating, I'm fussing, you know, I'm getting in the van, knocking the sand off. What I'm doing is just kind of trying to keep the panic from rising. But the original face has now emerged and she says, sit down, you got something in your ear and let's have this child look at it. So I. Original face doesn't care about age. She doesn't care about innocence. Nobody's innocent to her. Everybody's a victim and perpetrator.

[Soojin Pak]

Wow. So Kai, does he have any instruments, any lighting?

[Suchin Pak]

What. What have you given yourself? I give him my phone. I give him my phone with the flashlight. And by this time, my husband and my daughter come into the van. He's looking in my ear, and he's quiet. And I'm like, do you see anything? And he's like kind of pulling. He's like, hold on, let me look. Because it's dark now. Now, fully said, it's nighttime. And he's looking, and he's looking. And my husband is at the driver's seat, and he's like, kai, do you see anything? And he says, yeah, I see a leg. Title of Up.

[Soojin Pak]

I see a leg. I see dead people. I see a leg. Yeah, okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And Mike goes, are you sure it's not a hair?

[Soojin Pak]

Fair. Fair question. Who is it? It's fair.

[Suchin Pak]

You're shoving so much stuff in there.

[Soojin Pak]

Who knows what you're compacting in with your Q tips.

[Suchin Pak]

I have hair in my ear.

[Soojin Pak]

It was on the Q. Then he shoved it in.

[Suchin Pak]

No, I don't. That's not how Asian women age.

[Soojin Pak]

No, I'm saying there was a loose hair on your Q tip that then when you shoved it in there, you were shoving. Or it was on your head and you were plunging with your Q tip backwards. Broke off the hair.

[Suchin Pak]

You're right. You're right. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I forget that I'm talking to someone on the other side. You have to bring me back because I don't remember that time.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay? So Mike said that.

[Suchin Pak]

He said that. And I said, now the original face is driving the car. And she says, mike, get me to an emergency room right now.

[Soojin Pak]

This is your fear, of course.

[Suchin Pak]

And his original face comes out and does not utter a word and goes to the first emergency room slash urgent care that is in the area that is open. And we are rushing there. And during that time, sprinter van had to sprint. Silence.

[Soojin Pak]

What could anyone say?

[Suchin Pak]

No one.

[Soojin Pak]

There's no small talk that's going to happen saying anything.

[Suchin Pak]

The kids are back there. I don't know if they're looking at each other, like elbowing each other, like, oh, my God. You know, I'm face forward, feet flat on the ground, original face on, strapped in. He takes me to an urgent care. I go into the urgent care, and he's in the van with the kids. And I check in and she's like, what's your problem? I was like. I tell her the story and I say, I don't know. There could be something in my ear, okay? No problem. A nurse sees me right away, sweet, sweet young thing. And I tell her my story. And I say, I did that swimming pool could be water. Which is strange because I never got. I never put my head underwater. And she's kind of like, huh, huh. You know, like I've seen this a million times. This is a hospital by the ocean. And I say to her, in all fairness, it's a fluttering in my ear. Now, we don't tell her about the scratching. And I don't tell her that my 13 year old son said he saw a leg. Because I don't want this woman to think I'm crazy.

[Soojin Pak]

That's so weird. I would have been so upfront about it. Okay, look, here's the deal. I think I have something. I think I have a bug in my ear. My son's head has, you know, like that's. I start there at the end. It doesn't even matter about the first part. Why is it such a lazy river? Let's go. What happened 30 minutes ago? All right, go ahead, Sujin.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, ha ha. Ye, who have not looked in the face of death. Oh, ye. You're going to run into the burning fire, the inevitable flames. Inevitable flames that are licking at your feet. Oh, sure. When I faced the firing squad, I did a little shimmy. I maybe said, hey guys, hey guys. Hey guys. Hey guys, wait up, wait up. Hold on before you pull the trigger. Yes, I'm guilty of the crime, but aren't we all but sinners in the eyes of God? I am killing time.

[Soojin Pak]

You don't want this to be true.

[Suchin Pak]

I'm killing time to save my life.

[Soojin Pak]

Whereas I would want it out. Why are we extending?

[Suchin Pak]

It's come. I'm there, I'm there.

[Soojin Pak]

Sorry. Continue with the story.

[Suchin Pak]

So she's like, like barely lets me finish the last thing. She puts the earscope in my ear. Oh my God. And she goes like this.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, you. Oh no. She.

[Suchin Pak]

She jumps back.

[Soojin Pak]

She up and back, back. She went vertical, up and back, hits

[Suchin Pak]

the wall, hits the wall. And she goes. And she goes, oh my God.

[Soojin Pak]

I'll be right back. No, Kasujan.

[Suchin Pak]

I am sitting in the chair without even moving my lower half, my string bean arms, which are four times the length of human arms. I grab her by her moist young wrist, I yank her back and I say, is there something in my ear?

[Soojin Pak]

Let's take a quick break. And after the break, we'll come back. We're leaving with a cliffhanger. We'll be right back. And we're back on add to cart, just for those keeping score. Suchin has manhandled the nurse and is asking her a very direct question. Go ahead, Sue.

[Suchin Pak]

The question I asked this woman, is there something in my ear? All the color has left her body. Her eyes round as marbles. And she's like, yes.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, boy.

[Suchin Pak]

And then I ask the only possible question you can ask. I say, is it worm like? Because my greatest fear, as you remember, is larvae, host eggs, maggots, worms, squiggly things. And she says, no. And then I say, can you get this out right now? And she's like, yes, yes. That's where I'm going. I'm going to go get a doctor. And I say, you need to bring the doctor in here immediately. Do not make me wait one minute. You will bring the doctor here? Is there a doctor outside? She's like, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I promise. I promise I'll bring him right in. So she leaves. I start to hysterically sob.

[Soojin Pak]

Sue, I'm sorry.

[Suchin Pak]

No tears. Just hyperventilating, sobbing. Like I couldn't even muster the tears. I had gone beyond the tears into the river of dry tears. And I'm like. And doctor comes in. The nurse is still pale. He's got a syringe. And I say, has she told you what's in my ear? And he's like, yes. And I was like, can you get it out right now? And he's like, yes. And I was like, okay, how are we gonna do this? He says, I have a syringe of lidocaine, and what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna put the lidocaine in your ear so you do not move or have any discomfort as I remove it from your ear. And I was like, okay. So I'm. Now I'm like, not upset. Like, I'm just, like, in survival quiet mode. I just, like, let this happen as quickly and painlessly as possible. I lay on my side the whole time. May I remind the audience that it's just scratching inside my ear. And he takes the syringe and he starts to shoot the lidocaine in my ear. And then he screams and jumps back.

[Soojin Pak]

Knows. Who knows? No, no, that's what you're describing. This is a man who is in an emergency urgent care. So picture Dr. Rabinovich, played by Noah Wy, in the pit for. They've seen everything. They've seen everything. This guy went vertical and flung back as well.

[Suchin Pak]

He jumps and he goes. Jumps out of his chair. The nurse is now behind him, like she has left her body. Oh, she's left her body. She's just a human carcass.

[Soojin Pak]

She's astral projecting on top.

[Suchin Pak]

She is astral projecting in the Bahamas. She's not here. She cannot believe what is happening. And he jumps back. And so I jump naturally. And he grabs me and he says, no, don't move, don't move. Please don't move. Stop, stop. And I'm screaming, what is it? What is it? Where is it? What's happening? What's happening? He's like, stop, stop, stop, please, please, please don't move, don't move, don't move. I'm gonna get it. And I'm like, oh, my God. Oh, my God. And I'm kind, you know, you know, half frozen, but half, like, trying to run out of the room. And he has a tight grip on my arm and he takes his tissue or some sort of paper, and he kind of grabs at my other side.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

And he gets it. And he's like, I've got it because

[Soojin Pak]

it had already jumped out of your ear.

[Suchin Pak]

It jumped out of my ear towards him as soon as the lidocaine hit it. Like, it must have freaked out. And I said, what is it? And he said, it's a spider.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry. I'm back, I'm back. Oh, God, it's worse than I thought. Okay, go ahead.

[Suchin Pak]

And I was like, are you sure you have it? He opens his hand, he looks at it, and he goes, yes. And he's like, do you want to see it? And I said, no, no, I don't. I don't want to see it. So he throws it away. And then we all sit there for like a good two minutes, like, in silence, like, speechless. And I'm like, what? What happened?

[Soojin Pak]

But I don't understand. You were in a pool. Why? This is a water spider. I don't understand. Like, he.

[Suchin Pak]

He asked me all the questions. He's like, you were in a pool. I was wearing a hat. So he's like, could it have have somehow fallen on your head at some point? Okay, and the pool. And then was it jumped in your.

[Soojin Pak]

Because you were scared of the water or something?

[Suchin Pak]

He's like, it's. I've never, you know, I haven't encountered this before. I was like, listen, my greatest fear is that this thing has laid eggs.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes.

[Suchin Pak]

My greatest fear is that there's another spider. My greatest fear is that it's bit me and I have all of these thoughts swirling in my head. And so he was like, okay. I mean, he's not a. An arachnopologist. That's not the word, but you know what I mean? What the fuck does this guy know? He got the shit end of the graveyard shift at the local urgent care. I'm kind of looking at him like, this has got to be some kind of clown show that I've walked into. Both medical professionals are gonna scream, you know, and jump back while a woman is wrestling with a spider in her ear. And we're talking through this, and she said, you know, she's like, I'm so sorry. I've been doing this for, you know, 10 years, and this is the second time I've almost fainted. She's like, I have a deathly fear of spiders. And when I looked in your ear, I wasn't expecting something to look back.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, my God.

[Suchin Pak]

And I certainly wasn't expecting it to be a spider. And then I wasn't expecting the spider to jump out when the doctor started to put the lidocaine in your ear. Now I. We're going through all this, and we're kind of like. We've been through war. Like, somehow we're bonded through this experience, and we start to kind of, like, workshop. How do I feel better about what has happened? She's, you know, looking in my ear, making sure. She's like, it doesn't look like there's anything in there. I can see pretty far in there. And he offers, why don't I put another syringe of lidocaine in your ear and you sit with it for five minutes. It's a neurotoxin, and it'll kill just about anything living in your ear.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes, yes, yes.

[Suchin Pak]

And so I. Short of any other medical answers, I say yes. So I sit there with that, and he puts a lidocaine in and blah, blah, blah. And then, you know, takes it out. She checks. I have her check my ear again. I sit there for a little while because I just want to make sure there's no noises, no scratching. There isn't, I don't know, some fucking Siamese twin second spider in there that has been quiet.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, gosh.

[Suchin Pak]

Because sister spiders louder and, you know, whatnot. And. And then I get out and Mike says, the worst thing that can ever happen to you has happened. I think the only thing we can do is celebrate. And I'm.

[Soojin Pak]

Celebrate on the coast. Let's get back to our room at Vivante on the coast. Or was it clear water? Newport Beach. Let's go back to where the spider's nest was. A Clearwater, Newport Beach. No.

[Suchin Pak]

And so we promptly go to a Houston where only the finest meal can be served to those who have survived.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, my God.

[Suchin Pak]

It's a survivor's dinner. And I have a fantastic pork chop. And then I begin the recovery process. And so here is. Here is my add to cart. You all know what my remove from cart is.

[Soojin Pak]

A spider in your ear. Correct.

[Suchin Pak]

My add to cart is the next day you make an appointment with the psychic. What.

[Soojin Pak]

Time? God damn it. No.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, sorry. You're on that side.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah, I know, I know. I'm sorry. Okay. Yeah, I just.

[Suchin Pak]

And you know. You know why I call the psychic.

[Soojin Pak]

Can you see into the future if there are babies in my head?

[Suchin Pak]

Listen, all psychics, you know, they're clairvoyant in different ways. This is Mike's lady, who he has been working with years, for years, and adores her, trusts her with some of the most important decisions of his life. He suggested I speak with her. I have my first reading with her where I explain this to her, and she gives me whatever clairvoyance she has around this happening.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay, and what does she say?

[Suchin Pak]

Well, I'm bummed that you're asking, because you, who are so experienced in the world of dark magic, dark life, just please don't.

[Soojin Pak]

Don't. You know it's all magic. You know, like, it's not just dark.

[Suchin Pak]

Please.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes.

[Suchin Pak]

Yes.

[Soojin Pak]

Have I been cultivating a relationship with a pair of ravens since the summer and. Yes. Are they here every day? Yes. But that doesn't mean it's dark magic. If anything, I believe that I. They're the guardians. They're the guardians of my space. Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

Ye, who is of the wolf pack. Ye, who is of the crystal light. Yeah.

[Soojin Pak]

The dream.

[Suchin Pak]

By the way, when I tell you what she said, you're gonna be like, duh. Of course. And she said to me that the spider was a messenger, and what was the message? And that I needed to listen to the universe's message, which had been sending me signals, this signal and this message, maybe my whole life, for many, many lifetimes, over. And I wasn't getting it, so she had to get a little closer.

[Soojin Pak]

God, I feel like that's bullshit. And that's stuff that I. I mean. And I'm still gonna ask for her number. Fuck. I'm just. There's a war inside of me right now.

[Suchin Pak]

And she said. And I said, okay, what's the message? And the message from the universe was, relax.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, boy.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, boy.

[Soojin Pak]

I just don't think you're gonna Relax. After having a spider in your ear, I would beg the universe to find another way. And that's okay, you know, much like us, like you, try one way, it doesn't work. You know, And I'm gonna tell you, universe, I don't think this landed. So I would beg of the universe, the infinite spirit, to just clear a path for another way for suchin to understand that lesson.

[Suchin Pak]

So when we're done here, you go to your little witch altar, as I'm looking at it right now, and you light. Light whatever sticks you've got.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, this is. This is crazy.

[Suchin Pak]

For yourself, for your child, your dragon egg. That this shall never. That. That you will not walk through life so deaf. And I use that in its fullest sense to the universe's message to you. I don't know what that message is to you, but my universe, my message to me is relax. Okay? So that is what I'm working on and what I'm adding to cart. And I leave you with this, because, after all, this is a shopping podcast.

[Soojin Pak]

I don't think it is anymore. I don't think it is.

[Suchin Pak]

Contrary to Mark 0808, he had a lot to say about how this was not a shopping podcast. I want you to click the one thing in my cart.

[Soojin Pak]

These are the. From the brand Sat Noir. It's two pairs. They're ear covers. These are bandless ear muffs. They're. I've never seen anything like them in my life. But sue. Oh, my gosh, she's showing them to me jauntily. I guess it's as if they're doing choreography for putting on the Ritz.

[Suchin Pak]

Yes, Nash, Shall I put them on for you?

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah. I want to see. I want to see. Let's give us. Yeah, let's get a test drive. She's putting it on one ear. She took off her headphones to do this.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, I can hear you. Do you see how genius these are? Look, I can sleep on it.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah.

[Suchin Pak]

Which I have because it's covered in the softest fleece. It's very flat. It goes right over your ear. It doesn't move. It's got a mechanism. Very simple. You know, like a little. Like a little child's barrette that. Like, clips.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay.

[Suchin Pak]

In your ear, in your hair. Well, this clips right over your ears.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay. Yeah. I mean, that looks cozy, I guess. But just based on your experience, can't imagine you're wearing this in the pool.

[Suchin Pak]

You can't.

[Soojin Pak]

He will be. Is that the plan?

[Suchin Pak]

An hour later? You can't. You can't imagine me walking my dog with these because where are there. There's trees everywhere.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh God. This.

[Suchin Pak]

There's trees everywhere. And then a spider will come down and it'll swing. You all saw Charlotte's web.

[Soojin Pak]

Wait.

[Suchin Pak]

It'll swing and it'll say scum filioceous. What did they say there? Feliciatus tatus. And it'll swing right into your ear.

[Soojin Pak]

Okay, but can you hear things?

[Suchin Pak]

Not me.

[Soojin Pak]

Are you able to hear things while you're walking the dog? A car screeching behind you. Can you hear things?

[Suchin Pak]

Such in unnecessary.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh my God. Wait, are you wearing them in the pool? Was that your plan?

[Suchin Pak]

I mean, I, I, I, I fear that you have not heard my story when you ask such a simple question.

[Soojin Pak]

Infinite spirit universe.

[Suchin Pak]

And I will be sharing. Yes, I will be sharing this link because there is. There are a few people listening. It's maybe it's the right time of night with your original face on. You want to click and I'm gonna make that real easy for you.

[Soojin Pak]

Like I.

[Suchin Pak]

It's going to be right in our show notes.

[Soojin Pak]

Totally understand why we land. Click it.

[Suchin Pak]

I'll get a few pennies. It's a full circle original face moment.

[Soojin Pak]

Sujan, I'm so sorry.

[Suchin Pak]

It'll be right in my Amazon storefront. From this day forward, nothing in my cart will ever surpass these ear covers. Now have I thought about and pitched to Annie, my dear friend, costume designer, stylist, she sews. I said think about if I were to give you the commission of making me different types of ear covers.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh sure.

[Suchin Pak]

Maybe some are made out of linen, some are dressy cotton seersucker for the summer.

[Soojin Pak]

Yes, it may be coquettish.

[Suchin Pak]

Yes, it may have a pearl dangling from it.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh wow, how fancy. Bedazzle the shit out of them.

[Suchin Pak]

Let's. Let's Simone Rocha it put some ruching on it go wild. And have I thought about opening an Etsy store?

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah, like crap. Create like jibbitz for this.

[Suchin Pak]

Because this is all that's out. There are these two fleece. It's fine.

[Soojin Pak]

Wow.

[Suchin Pak]

But these are utilitarians.

[Soojin Pak]

Look at this. A new business. From the ashes of that spider's death comes something new.

[Suchin Pak]

I am nothing but an entrepreneur, you know that. Two Auntie Preneurs all the time just launching businesses and LLCs. Right and left. Coolop. Let me know if you want first money in. I know you're a smart business lady and you see the market and you also you are a philanthropist and you want to Keep people from suffering. I do.

[Soojin Pak]

That is a concern of mine.

[Suchin Pak]

I offer you the first shares.

[Soojin Pak]

It's so hard to dissuade you because, you know, in the part of, you know what can you say no?

[Suchin Pak]

What are you.

[Soojin Pak]

This happened. You know, this happened. This happened. And this is the story you're gonna tell the sharks when you're on the TV show.

[Suchin Pak]

Oh, my God. This is exactly what Mike said.

[Soojin Pak]

Mike.

[Suchin Pak]

Then from that moment on, the kids have a fantastic Shark Tank routine. You know that first line? Hey, listen up, Sharks.

[Soojin Pak]

Wow.

[Suchin Pak]

Lend me your ears, Sharks.

[Soojin Pak]

Listen, if you're like me and you go to Newport beach to try to get everybody every. Your name is. Everybody knows this.

[Suchin Pak]

I've got one with dollar signs on it for you, Barbara. I've got one that has a soft cotton layer.

[Soojin Pak]

Damon, I made this FUBU for you. Oh. Such and pop.

[Suchin Pak]

And so the story time ends here, as does my old self. Because this is a lesson I've learned. And I'm going to add another thing to Cart because again, this is about shopping.

[Soojin Pak]

It's about shopping.

[Suchin Pak]

What I'm going to add to Cart is that original face. That woman. And it's always a woman. I don't care how you identify. Right, left, top or bottom. Well, it's chained to the basement. Is your truest voice. Well, it's.

[Soojin Pak]

It's Kali.

[Suchin Pak]

It's the voice.

[Soojin Pak]

The goddess of destruction.

[Suchin Pak]

That's right. And Kali doesn't give a fuck about. About embarrassing herself about. Oh, it's so late and the kids are hungry. Maybe I just go to urgent care in the morning while they're sleeping so I don't disturb the schedule of the family. These are all thoughts that went into my head.

[Soojin Pak]

Oh, oh,

[Suchin Pak]

I don't want to make more of a fuss. That's not Kali. At every turn of the road, let not an arachnid nestle itself into the inner tube of your ear, scratching for seven hours. Don't let that happen to you. And just hear the message which is your original voice is the truest voice. Whenever you see her come out, listen, listen, listen. Burn it all down to just hear the word. Relax.

[Soojin Pak]

She is mother. She weaves the truth. Much like the spider that lost its life in that urgent care and sacrifice itself so suchin could receive a message. Yes, you.

[Suchin Pak]

And now. Now, now, now. In my. In my sort of nighttime terrors, which the psychic has been re. Had really helped. That's why I wanted to call her. Cause I was replaying very intrusive images in my mind.

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah, I Don't believe in her.

[Suchin Pak]

She really helped me kind of course lessen the, as she calls it, the color of that film. She drained the color of that film. And I thought, well, I didn't see the spider. Did he kill the spider?

[Soojin Pak]

Yeah, he killed the spider.

[Suchin Pak]

Is it somewhere deeper? You know, I mean, all of these things from their reaction. And so now where do I move forward?

[Soojin Pak]

How do we move forward?

[Suchin Pak]

And I have, and I have an idea and I pitched it to my dear friend Robert, also dear number one fan of the pod. And I said to him, I said, robert, how's about this idea? I need to go back to the urgent care. I looked at the common gestation period of spiders, 14 to 21 days in two weeks. And I have them look at my ear. And then I go to an ent and I do this every month for a year. And he said, not only is that a great idea, I think you should go to different urgent cares and different ents so that everyone in the tri state area can look and we can make sure you're getting 10th, 11th and opinions that we're not going to the same doctors and the same urgent cares. And I said, robert, this is why you're one of my dearest. What a great scientific solve.

[Soojin Pak]

And oddly enough, even though if you heard it on its face, you wouldn't believe that, but I think that is how you will be able to relate. Well, this was a very special add to cart. Who knew other than Suchin, what would be in store for us this hour? I guess everybody, be mindful of your ears. And I guess if there's fluttering or any sort of screechy, scritchy scratching or just like when you feel that there's here, that there's life outside of your, life inside of you, go to the doctor. Just as a rule. Go to the doctor.

[Suchin Pak]

I think that's a pretty good general rule. Or go to eight. You know, as I will be doing over the next eight months and, and, and thank you for listening. But also, again, it was a shopping podcast. I still, I still will, will go to my grave. That add to cart is ultimately about shopping. And I encourage you to check out the link look on our Instagram.

[Soojin Pak]

It seems like we don't, we don't want to end it, but it's like what do we say at the top of every show? It's a show about what we buy and what we buy into and what it says about who we are. You have bought into ear covers. And what it says about you is that a spider went into your ear. I mean, if we're not fulfilling the promise of this podcast there, if we can't grasp onto that, I don't know. I just don't know.

[Suchin Pak]

Bye Bye. At To Cart is an Auntie's Unlimited Production Executive. Producers are Culat Vilaisak and Sujin Pak. Tony Williams is our engineer. The music is by Wasabi and produced by LA Made it and oh so familiar with additional music by APM Music. Be sure to check out all the items mentioned today on our Instagram at attacartpod. Follow Add To Cart wherever you get your podcasts.