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Jia Jiang
Wayfair Every style, Every home. If you love your work, you're not working. And that's true. You know that's true. Don't work love, you know, have. Have a life where every day you are excited to get up and. And do. You know, with a task, not with the result, but with the task and then your life would be much better.
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William Curb
Welcome to Hacking your adhd. I'm your host William Curb, and I have ADHD. On this podcast, I dig into the tools, tactics and best practices to help you work with your ADHD brain. Hey team.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
I've been on a bit of a
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William Curb
break this summer, but I wanted to help celebrate International ADHD Awareness Day by dropping a new episode. So we often think that to achieve big things, it requires feeling miserable during the whole process. We buy into the myth that if a task isn't agonizing, it isn't worth the time we put into it. Today my guest is Jia Jiang, an expert in rejection and resilience, a Duke MBA graduate and the founder of Wuju Learning. After stepping away from a stable corporate career at Dell and LinkedIn to launch a tech startup, Ja realized his deepest bottleneck wasn't a lack of talent, but a profound fear of rejection. Fueled with this Insight, he launched 100 days of rejection Therapy and filmed himself requesting absurd things from strangers daily. And this is actually where I first came across Ja 11 years ago. So it was quite the treat to get to talk with him and learn about his new book, Easy Discipline. Ja brings a unique lens to the table because he's battled his own severe, late understood ADHD and procrastination loops since Growing up in Beijing where ADHD just wasn't considered a thing. In this episode we talk about shifting away from transaction in this episode we talk about shifting away from transactional anxiety inducing task completion and moving toward what he calls the the artist mindset. We also break down how masking and over indexing on how other people perceive us turns into a form of self sabotage where we pre reject ourselves before we even give our true chase before we.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Where we pre.
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William Curb
Where we pre reject ourselves before we even give our true traits a chance. If you'd like to follow along on the show notes page, you can find that@hackingyouradhd.com 303. All right, keep on listening to find out how the Myth of Sisyphus is secretly a story about your unfinished to do list.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
So exciting to have you here. I have read your first book a decade ago, which is wild. Well before I started this podcast. And so I was really excited to see your name come up in my email. But let's hear a little bit about this new book that you've been writing.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah, this book, my first book was about rejection, right. How to overcome my fear of rejection. And the second book is a little bit, you know, and I would say the root is very similar, but the topic is very different. It's called the Easy Discipline. It talks about how to have discipline the easy way. You know, in our society we all think about, especially in the past 10 years, right. We talk about Navy SEALs or monks, talk about how you have to have war against yourself and do the hard things and, and, and tolerate pain. And I just feel like. And when I saw those, I'm like, well, those sounds inspiring. But man, I've been having wars against myself my whole life and I haven't, I've never won a war, so. And but every time I win is because I'm trying to go hard. It's because I'm trying to go easy is trying to find what I love, what I like. And so that's what this book is about. How do you go with your human nature rather against it and to achieve discipline?
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, I mean that makes so much sense to me because often we find ourselves trying to do things in the hardest way possible for no other reason than we think that's how you're supposed to do it. And it. And that, yeah, like we see all these things, Navy seals being like, here's how to have this like discipline where we're going at things the hardest way possible. And we're just, it doesn't matter. We're gonna willpower our way through. But. And that never worked for me.
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Jia Jiang
No, I mean, it can work maybe in the short term. Depends on how long it lasts, right? Some, some people you last for a day or an hour. For some people, you might last a few weeks. But the thing is, that's not what you want. What you want to have is a new life, right? How do you have lifelong achievement? How do you achieve your dreams? You don't achieve your dreams by a few days or a few weeks, then you lose the will power. You know, when your will power runs out and you fail. Look at all the new New Year's resolutions people write, and 91% of them fail. And that, and then when you do that over and over again, it just, you start trusting yourself. You, you stop trusting yourself. You're like, I'm a failure. I can never do this. So we have, we didn't have confidence. That's, that's it. You, you lose, you know, then you lose the, the most important thing in your life, which is you, your self belief. That's why I, I think the, I call this hard discipline. Right? It's blind. Do, do the hard thing, feel the hard thing. And that's not sustainable. And that's why not just you have ADHD or not a lot of people quit, you know, in the corporate cultures and people feel they cannot sustain themselves.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, well, because it's a lot easier to do things hard when you have the motivation, when you have that like willpower there. But if you build the system to always need you to go 100%, you're gonna have days where you're like, oh, well, I was sick today. And going 100% is so much harder. I just can't keep that up.
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Jia Jiang
Absolutely. When you have this 100%, this thing, you have to continue to exert your will for something. And we, we have make that your norm. The problem is that just is against physics, right? The physics is, you know, there's friction and there's gravity. If the gravity is pulling you down and you continue to put. So I, I'm in my book, I use this analogy of Sisyphus, right? A lot of people feel like they're like this Sisyphus, this Greek mythology where you have to continuous push up a rock and then over and over again, you know, before you hit the top, you roll the bottom. You have to do it again and again. And you can't, in real life, you can't sustain that, you know, and you know, after a couple pushes, you're like, Ah, man, this is not going to work out. You know, I'm, I'm, I'm a sucker. And then you, I, I, I can, I can push rocks. But the thing is, you can if you love pushing rocks. You know, if you love rock pushing, your identity and something that you really love, like truly love, not force yourself to love, actually you truly enjoy, then that becomes the rock pushing becomes the default state. And that's hard for you to stop. Right. I see. You see a lot of people do things that you, you, A lot of people watch sports, a lot of people play video games. The thing is to do this from out for the people from outside. You're like, man, what are you doing? Right? Those, those, it must be very disciplined to actually not, not continuous to do those things. But the people who are doing them, they're like, nah, I'm just, it's hard for me not to do it. And in fact, if I'm to stop, I'm gonna, I'm gonna go crazy. I have to keep going. I was thinking, what if you can turn, work something productive, something important to you into that state, into that default state that you love. Now the gravity and your physics is for you. You feel like you're going downhill, even though you're going uphill.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. It makes a lot of sense to me. Like, I have friends that just love to run and I'm always just like, that's not for me. But like, how do they do that? And they're just like, yeah, that's. I would feel so antsy if I didn't go running. Like, I, it is what I have to do every day.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. And we see them as Superman. Right. You must be the most disciplined person ever to run every day. How can I be like you? And the people who are inside are like, man, how can I not to? Right. So the trick is, how do you actually achieve that state where that action becomes something default and something you love?
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. So what are some of the things that you can kind of do to shift your perspective that way?
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. So I read this in my book and, you know, a lot and I think the most, the first and the most, and for, you know, the most important thing is enjoyment. Right. I call it easy. It's a system of E stands for enjoyment, A stands for artistry, S stands for a system, and U stands for yourself. So you want to start with enjoyment. Basically, you want to find out what is the thing that's naturally, that's easy for you. I mean, we all have something that's easy for us, we all do. But the thing is, we think those things are useless. People are in school and we're like, there's a right way to do things. There's a right way to accomplish something. And then we should be able to. And that's some. And we should be able to do that right way, even though we hate it, even though that's not for us, but because it's the right way, we got to do it. That's for work, you know, that's for school and you. And then, but the problem is you can't sustain that. You're like, oh, this whole thing, this whole profession, this whole thing is not for me. Or maybe the world is not for me. You know, I, I, and then so you just, you come to, you are, you are trying to give up. So the number one thing is find that thing. That's the feeling that's the most easy. So I'll give you an example. I, I will start with the rejection thing. About over 10 years ago, I, I started this, I've always had this goal of wanting to be an entrepreneur. So it took me about, you know, 16, 17 years of not doing it because I was afraid of rejection. So, and then finally When I hit 30, I was like, I gotta do this, otherwise I'll get old. And, you know, at the time, my wife is pregnant, and I was like, I would never be able to be entrepreneur if I can't do this as a single guy. I would never be able to do this as a guy, as a dad. So I quit my job and started doing this, you know, to build my company. And then I got rejected with the investment. And, and, and the number one thought came into my mind is, oh, man, this is not for me. I quit. You know, I hate this fundraising idea. I hate going to places where I, I pitch and get judged. You know, I just hate that feeling. And when I hate that feeling, I fail miserably because I keep looking for the right word to say, the, the right facial expressions to have to fight, the right idea to present. And I feel that I get tight and I film every time. So then I was like, how can I feel better about rejection? How, how can I feel better about this in people interaction stuff? So I started doing something. I started doing this thing called rejection therapy. I found this online where, you know, teach you to go, go wolf rejection instead of, you know, avoiding rejection. I thought that was fun. That's something that, that, that sounds like I want to do. So I just went out, I did this thing called 100 days of rejection therapy, where every day I'll go out and look for rejection on purpose. And the thing. And, and I started filming myself and I made a, I made a vlog. And on YouTube, I wasn't. I was the first person who actually did this. And it went viral, you know, and 10, 10 years later, a lot of people are copying that nowadays. They do this on TikTok, right? And. But the thing is, a lot of people are telling me, j, you're so brave. You're doing this thing that, that we're so afraid of. But you know what? Because I changed that mindset, instead of saying, doing something I hate, I said, how can I have the most fun in this interaction? So instead of focusing on this result of getting yes or no, I focused on cracking jokes. I focus on having this interaction as most enjoyable as possible. And I switched the goal to how can I be the best self? How can I just ask the most impossible stuff and see how funny it was? For me, see that my, you know, that mental shift completely changed how I approach the same thing. Looking for rejection. And I was having a great time. People are saying me, people telling me I was brave. I wasn't. I was just having a great time. So switching that, the, the, the, this mindset of something that I got to do this, do this hard thing. And even though I hate it to be like, what's the thing that can be. I can find that's the most funny, that's the most fun part of this interaction. Let me focus on having the maximum fun. Right. And then I, when I did that, the whole thing changed because I performed better. I was, I was no longer afraid. I was able to do this every day. So that's, that's the first thing I do is to, is to find that, that, that sliver of activity that's, that can for you to be your best self.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. And I can totally see too, shifting the goal from I'm going to ask someone for this, you know, crazy thing to I'm going to, I'm going to get rejected. That's the goal. And if it doesn't happen, well, I'm actually going to enjoy the results anyways. But it makes it so much easier to be like, oh, yeah, I'm just gonna go do this because if I do it, then I hit the goal, regardless of the outcome.
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Jia Jiang
Absolutely. Yeah. That, that's, that's, that's. You can totally do that. And, and the thing is, my goal wasn't even to get rejected. You know, at the beginning it was, but it got better later on with my vlog is because I stopped focusing on the result. I be like, you know, I'm shooting either a yes or no. That's the result I'm trying to get right. If I just keep my eye on the result, you know, they. They keep saying, you, you keep your eyes on the ball, that's fine, but if you hate the work, then you're not going to get there. So I'm like, instead of focusing on this, I focus on this, which is maximum fun. You know, how can I have. How can I crack myself up? That was my goal. How can I crack myself up in this rejection request? And that. That shift of. From that goal to this. This. This feeling, this heart, this. This having fun and being myself. If I having this goal, then I became so much. So much better. I just consistently show up and I couldn't stop.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, I mean, doing. Definitely focusing on the journey is so important because I've had so many times where, like, I've gotten that thing I wanted, and then I was like, well, I don't actually care. That was not. It was the getting there that was the most important part.
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Jia Jiang
Absolutely. Absolutely. And, you know, we're talking about hiking. We're talking about, you know, or. Or, I mean, if we think, okay, if the end goal of this hike is I gotta cross the finish line, then you have to go. You know, you already. You already. You already had the finish line. You know, when.
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When you.
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Jia Jiang
We'll look around and. Or if the goal is, have to see that scene, you know, and I just have to see it. And then when you get there, you're always very disappointed. The thing is, if you love that, if you're like, I'm gonna enjoy every moment, I'm gonna have the most fun. You know, I'm Build momentum into my journey. I'm. If my fun is through the walk itself, through the nature, throughout, maybe even the companionship with someone who's around, you know, who's with me. If you're focused on that step, the next step, then you can go as long as you want. You know, that's because that's the fun part. Yeah.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
And it doesn't really matter what the destination ends up being. It's whatever. Like, yeah, sure, it's great if it's, you know, a fun end, but if it's also like, oh, yeah, we just did a loop and we came back to where we started, but we enjoyed the entire time. Great.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah, absolutely. Absolutely.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
So I'm thinking about how people I Mean, I'm sure a lot of people are listening to this and they're like, man, the rejection sounds scary. It's doing all of it. Like, they're like, how can people, like, realistically try and get that shift in? Because they're. I know. It's so hard to even picture themselves putting themselves out there like that.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. So you try a couple things, right? So I have, in my book, I wrote all kinds of tools of how to enjoy, how do the. How to do the hard things and not feeling hard. I'll give you a couple. You know, I'll give a couple examples. One is called momentum loop. You want to build momentum with every action you take, right? So, you know, 100 days of rejection. What I did was every day I tried to learn. I focused on the learning, right? I tried to focus on the journey. When I get rejected, it doesn't matter. People say yes or no to me. That's actually doesn't matter at all. It matters what I learned from that moment, right? So, for example, one day I learned that, you know, one of my rejection requests was I went out and asked for a burger refill, you know, and then you, you, and you give me a. Instead of a drink. Instead of a drink refill, you give me a free burger. The thing is, I, I told. I. My goal is, all right, I'm not going to run after rejection. I'm going to be like, you know, when. When that person says no, my goal is to stay and try to present myself. How do I. Why I'm asking. Asking for a burger. The thing is, I learned so much from that interaction by not running. I learned that if I don't run, I don't have to feel bad. The first day I asked some, I asked, like, to borrow a hundred dollars from someone, and someone said no. I just ran away. I felt so bad. I felt so embarrassed. But the next day, as for burger refill, I didn't run. And because I didn't run, I gave myself so much interaction, like, so much time, so much opportunity to actually you. To persuade that person having a good time. I learned that, okay, now I learned something important even in one day. I let me just apply that learning to the next day. So the next day and I asked for something else. You know, I. I tried to ask for. Try to speak. You know, I went to Costco and said, hey, can I speak on your intercom? Right? And then the person says no. And then. But I started, I started negotiating. I started applying all these negotiation skills. You know, I start and Then, and then when I learned something else, I just start applying that again again, very quickly, I start building momentum on that, On. On. On that loop. I call this momentum loop. You know, a lot of times we. Every day we do things right. Whether it's your work, you feel like your work is very repetitive. You do the same thing over and over, and you feel bad, and you feel like, you know, kind of bored. But if you apply momentum and learning into whatever you're doing the next day, then you started feeling like you're getting. You're growing, even though people from outside thinking are doing the same thing. But inside you feel like, oh, you're going downhill, you're going down. Either feeling like you're like a rock or rolling downhill, you feel good, you know, and you're growing and bigger and bigger, you're catching momentum. So that's one thing you can do. I call this momentum loop. And another thing you can do is you can try to have this thing called artist mindset. And this is the mental shift. The artist mindset is try to turn every interaction you have, everything you do, into an opportunity to create art. Okay, so instead of trying to achieve a goal, having a transaction or finishing a task, you're like, no, that's not my goal. I'm here to perform art. What does art mean? Is I'm going to have, like, lean into every moment, the mo. The as deeply as possible. I'm going to, you know, I'm going to perform, I'm going to have fun. I'm going to. Going to even exaggerate in this moment, you know, and so, you know, for example, now nowadays when I write emails, you know, a lot of people in sales, they have to do code outreach, you know, and I don't do that anymore. But even that, you know, but I try to turn every email I write, I turn to try to turn every interaction I make, you know, with you. Here was email, right? I want to have this be like, how can I make this the most deep conversation I can have possible? You know, how can I, you know, just. Just enjoy this every moment? Because this moment, it's not gonna be replicable. Every email will be not replicable. So if I focus on the part of a creation in that moment, and then I had to have no fear. I have no, like, fear, have no regret. I'm having the most, most fun. I'm going to be the best self. So I call this the artist mindset.
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Jia Jiang
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, I mean this is. I'm really diving into my own thoughts here. I'm like I gotta get back into talking. But the. Because yeah there's. Especially with adhd, people have so much of this like fear of how other people are going to react and so they're like holding themselves in and masking and it makes it really hard for a lot of people to then experience the joy of the moment.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah, yeah, absolutely. Absolutely. That's the, that's the thing, you know the, the, the thing is the more you hold in yourself, right. The more you're like, you're so self conscious. How can I present myself the right way? How can I make you like me? Right. How can you, you know and find the words that you like? When you do that, you start losing yourself. You get really tense and people don't like you as much. People feel like you, they don't know what you're doing. You're tense. Right. Shift the goal. The goal is to be your best self. Express. That's okay. If the other person feel like, okay, maybe we don't make a connection. But what end up happening is people start finding you interesting. You know, people starting finding you like oh, that person is different. It's not like the round of a meal conversation happens. Everyone every day, this guy or this woman, you know, they're telling me something that's. I can feel this. That's. Haven't heard before. That's weird and which is weird in a good way. And you can make that connection and if they don't sometimes you click. It's okay. You just spend the time to be the best self and that's what matters the most.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. Well and especially because you're often what people are doing is they're just pre rejecting themselves.
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William Curb
Yeah.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Where they're like whoever. They're not going to like who I actually am. So I'm going to Reject that version and be this fake person, which also never works out. And I don't know, it just seems to me that really thinking about things in terms of like, getting over that fear of rejection is a huge step that is going to let people, you know, you know, ask for what they want and be the person they want to be.
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Jia Jiang
100, 100. Don't, don't you know that that's a superpower? You know that, that, that desire to be yourself and not worry about. And I don't even worry about like how the people perceive you, you know, and worry about how you perceive yourself. That's a superpower. And when you do that, you see that in. If you look around the people who, you know, who rule the world, really, the, the people who are, you know, who change industries, you know, whether you're in business and art, they don't worry about how they're perceived. They worry about like, you know, how they can drive that goal. They have, how they can, you know, perform the best. Right. They have this internal drive towards something and then over the long term, that internal drive is always in alignment with who, who they are deep down, who they want to be and who they are, and they go with that rather than how they're perceived. And the thing is when you go that the people who change are always doing something weird. They're always weird. You know, if you look at the people who, who are just, just, just, just imagine who you think the people who are successful. I mean, imagine the people who are, you know, world changing. They're all weird in, in, in, in a way. And if you, if they, if they care about how they're perceived, they, they never got started. You know, and the thing is, is that weirdness, that strangeness, if they go deep into that combined with their goal, combined with their accomplishment, that becomes the person who changed the world. Not the people who try to make everyone like.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. And it's a silly goal anyways. We already know. Like, not like I've like spent years pretending that I'm going to get people to like me and those people still don't like me. And it doesn't matter because why did I want them to like me in the first place?
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. I didn't even know you. And there's so many people. There's so many people. You know, you don't need like, you know, even 90% of the world to like you. You just need to, you, you just want to be the, be your best self and then jive with the person that, that, that Gets you. Right. If you can develop a tribe of people like you for 10% of world, that's enormous amount of tribe. Right. So you don't even use that many people, even find a small community of people that feels that. Think like you feel like you. That you feel you can connect with. Don't worry about the rest. They're not your customer. They're not your.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Your.
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Jia Jiang
Your people.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. And it's. I mean, I know it's easy for us to say that in this because people are like, oh, yeah, how am I going to find? But it is like, it takes time and it does. It's not as much of it as a switch of changing your mindset. It is also like you have to build up that skill of learning how to get your brain to automatically think in these ways.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. The best way to do it is just to do it right. You. You do it from the very, you know, you make a change from tomorrow thinking, how do I do the thing I love and go really deep on that? All right. Don't. Don't go surface level. Right. Do the things that you love and go deep and, and, you know, and then go there for a long time. Because, I mean, you should be able to do that for a long time because you love it.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. And it's. I don't know, it's the. When I think about back to the times where I've, like, had the best time in my life, it's always when I'm get to be myself and get to be around people that get me.
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Jia Jiang
And also, you perform the best. Right. Whatever task, whatever goal you have, that's where, you know, I mean, you know, going back to your life and think about what's the most highlight, what's the. Where you feel the best, you're the proudest. Right. You feel like, man, I'm really succeeding. I'm really achieving my goals. And that's where you're. You're. That's. Those moments are not the moments. You think about the goals too much. Those are moments. You are really. I'm just. You're just being yourself.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
So before we started, you were mentioning that this book was something that is. You didn't write the book about adhd, but you wrote it because of your adhd.
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Jia Jiang
Absolutely.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Could you tell me a little bit more about that?
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Jia Jiang
I've had ADHD my whole life, even growing up. I grew up in China, and we didn't have that term, you know, and that term of ADHD was for something like someone who should be in the Mental hospital. So we didn't have even the vocabulary for adhd, you know, this medical term. And it's something that I started learning, you know, after, after coming to America, going to high school and college. I had big goals. I had a huge, like enormous goals. I, I met Bill Gates when I was 14. You know, it's not a, he's not the most popular figure nowadays, right? But back then he was cool. You just have to trust me. So very cool back then that I met, you know, I saw him speaking China and I was like, I want to be that guy. So, came to America, had this enormous goal and I'm like, there's, I'm going to do the hardest thing to actually achieve that goal. So I took on computers. Like, I was like, Bill Gates started, you know, started. He, he did computer science in college, right? You know, he went to Harvard. I'm like, I'm, I'm going to, can't go to Harvard, but let me go, go to school early. So I, I, you know, I went to college at 7 early, you know, only as I turned 17, I was like, good, I feel like a genius. Like I'm going to take computer science, right? That's my major. I'm going to just. And I'm going to graduate in three years. I would be a boy genius before I turned 20. I'm start building my own Microsoft. That was my goal right then, then things just went awry because of my adhd. I feel like I couldn't focus in class and especially when I do a homework. And these are so this is a typical day for me right after school, I would go to a classroom, I would go in, I was like, I want to do homework. That's like, I gotta do this thing. You know, tomorrow is. So I sit down and I was like, oh man, this thing is tough. You know what? I'll do better if I feel a little bit better right now. How do I feel better? How about if I just get online and answer some emails and maybe I look at the news and so I'll just do it for five minutes. Okay. Then I get on and start. And at the time, there wasn't even a smartphone. Back then I was just like, you know, going to web browsers. Why not? And quickly, two hours are gone. I look at the clock, 6 o' clock became 8 o' clock and I was like, oh my gosh, you know, and I just wasted two hours. I feel terrible, so. But I gotta force myself to do work. So I closed all the tabs and Start doing work. And you know why the things, the work still feels bad, it still sucked. And, and, and now I just feel even worse because I wasted two hours. And you know what can make me feel a little bit better? Let me do a little bit more browsing. I can feel a little bit better so I can do the work and then I do it again. Two hours are, is over and quickly, five, six, seven hours are gone. It was in like three o' clock in the morning. And sometimes the morning janitor will walk in, started just cleaning the carpet. And then they'll look at me as like, what a loser that was. My, those are my nights of endless nights of really like Sisyphus pushing the rock over and over again of not getting anywhere, not doing any work. And then I, my I. It was the hardest time for me. I was deeply depressed, you know, and clinically depressed. And I have this high goal. People and people look at me, they're like, what you're, you're failing at school. Look at you, you're Asian. How can you be badass? Study. I'm like, I'm sorry, I'm not performing up to my ethnicity because I got adhd. So those are the toughest times. The thing is, and I, and that's why I have this like Sisyphus. I thought I was like, I can't do this. I'm gonna fail. If I do this for rest of my life with this type of day, every day, I'll fail quickly and I will hate myself. And I did hate myself. So I, and then when I later on, what I switched in mindset is like, I can't, I can't do this thing I hate anymore. And because I end up hating myself, I gotta do things I love. I gotta figure out a ways to use love and enjoyment and artistry to push myself forward. Instead of this goal, Instead of being goal oriented, let me doing being enjoyment of enjoyment focused. That's how I go far. And that's where the switch of my, that's really a turn of my, my life, you know, and, and, and my life since I have became this person who. I'm an author, you know, I wrote two books, I become a speaker. I become one of the most celebrated speakers, you know, like really, you know, in the world, you know, I do. Speaking for someone like me, this, this Asian immigrant who came to America without speaking a word of English. I found my true love. I found my true, you know, mission. I found my relationship with the world. It's just writing my ideas and speaking to the world. And so, and that's really my, my, that's really my story of dealing with adhd.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. I mean, and it. I, I also went into college, go with a computer science degree and learned that that was not for me. Yeah. Even though I'm, I still like, imagine, like, it'd be fun to do stuff with computer science again. But I'm like, but it's just, it does not click the way I, I wish it would, but it's not for us.
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Wayfair / Shopify / Orderly Meds Announcer
It's.
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Jia Jiang
It's just not for us.
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Wayfair / Shopify / Orderly Meds Announcer
Yeah.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
And that's fine because I have like, it's. I mean, this goes back to what we were talking about right at the beginning of like, hard versus easy kind of things where like, I'm like, yeah, that's really hard for me. And therefore I kind of like value it more in a weird way. Whereas, like, I'm really good at writing and they go, well, that's just something I'm good at. That's not, that's not valuable because I'm good at it. It comes easy. It comes too easy. And it's this like weird, like, oh, yeah. Value the hard stuff for some reason way more. Even though that doesn't really make sense.
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Jia Jiang
It doesn't. That, that, that what you're saying is really important. And the thing is, in, in life, we automatically equate hard result and hard achievement with hard feelings. Somehow you don't feel hard. Somehow you don't hate myself, your, yourself. Somehow you don't hate the work and tolerate for a long, a long time to achieve that goal. You think that's not right. Right. But the thing is, the real heart, like real achievement is based on how much you can sustain, how much you love, how much you can push us forward. You know, how much you start focusing on pushing the rock, you start making art and just expanding that pie. So if you can achieve that mindset, you know, whatever you're doing that the listeners doing right now, you know, think about your life, right? If you, everything you're feeling hard, don't do it. Switch to something you feel everything, you can't wait to do it. There's a saying, and I mean people, people say this, you know, if you're, you know, you're, if you love your work, you're not working. And that's true, you know, that's true. Don't work love, you know, have, have a life where every day you are excited to get up and, and do, you know, with a task, not with the result, but with a task and Then your life would be much better.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, I know. I see so many people being like, oh, yeah, don't do certain things to, you know, like mixing like, your work with the things you love the most because then you're going to end up hating that thing. But I'm like, usually when that happens, they're doing, you know, like, I see like, artists that like, are like, trying to becoming professional artists and they hate working with other people and doing all the commissions. And I'm like, yeah, but you're not doing the thing you love. You're doing something next to what you love, and that's probably going to make it even worse.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah. Yeah, there is. About 25 years ago, there's a book came out and I really enjoyed that. That book taught me a great concept. It's called the E. Myth Revisited. Right. This old book, it talks about these. You know, there are. There are a lot of people who are good at what they're doing. They think they want to start their own business so they can do that thing that they love to do. What end up happening is they start doing the things they hate. So, you know, just start running. If you don't like to run a business, right, you're like, I'm gonna be my own boss so I can do this task, whatever that is. I'll be a chef. Right. For example, I like cooking. I'm gonna do my. I'm gonna be my. I'm gonna be entre. I mean, I'm start my own restaurant. The thing is, we'll start a restaurant. You're not cooking. You're. You're spending most of your time to prepping and running the whole thing and hiring and, and maintaining customers. You're not cooking. If you like to cook, you should work at a restaurant or find the best restaurant you can work at and then be your best self to cook. Right? That should be your. Your goal. So find that thing you love and don't, don't think. Stop being too results oriented. Focus on what you love to do. The task.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah. And, yeah, I think focusing on the task you love to do rather than the concept of what you love to do is really important.
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Jia Jiang
That's what trip us up, you know, all the time, is because we just so want the result.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Yeah, because, I mean, I like one of the things for my writing, I'm like, I love just writing, but making a book is a different proposition. Like, that's like, oh, I have to. That's organizing and outlining and making this all. And maybe at some point That'll be something I do. But it's a different task than just straight writing.
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Jia Jiang
Yeah, absolutely. And that's why you want to. Sometimes you want to outsource the thing that you feel really, really hard to someone else. You know, you find a publisher, right, who will help you with all the tangential stuff with writing, or you find an editor that can be your companion, right, that, that'd be like, okay, that person can help you to organize those chapters so you can focus on storytelling. So if, you know, and that, that's the, you know, that's the thing that's. Just find that thing that you're, you love to do.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Well, we're kind of coming up on time here, so I was wondering if you had any final thoughts you wanted to leave the audience with.
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Jia Jiang
Okay, we're listening to this podcast because we, most of us have adhd. I'm assuming you're, you're listening to this, you have adhd, right? And for people like us, and there's always this feeling that we are falling short of our potential. You know, we're not realizing our potential. And a lot of us have this talent, you know, and in fact, sometimes people comment on us, right? Say, hey, you're very talented. But somehow ADHD people, a lot of times we feel we can't get it together. We just can't get it together. Somehow we're falling short. Just, you know, stop thinking about those things as your flaws. I mean, even they're not flaws. They're just who you are. And they become, they can become your treasures if you want to embrace them. Two, try to build systems that can make the things you hate, make the things that are, that are distracting you. Take them away, right? Find systems and either outsource or try to find ways to, to, to take them away. So folk, then you focus on who you are, what you love to do, if you can do that. And there are a lot of different ways, you know, I, I, you know, I mean, I wrote a book about this. Then what end up happening is those systems become your treasure. Your flaws become your treasure. When you become your best self, that feeling is, is, is, is, is the best ever because you can truly, you know, fulfill your potential. In fact, stop worrying about potential. You start creating, you start creating the world and you then stop worrying about your own potential. You start creating the world where you benefit other people. So don't, don't think that you're not good enough. Don't think that you are just destined to lose or trying to hit. Keep heading. You know, hitting your head against the wall, right? Use yourself, use whoever you are, whether you think those are flaws, use them. Build system around that and be, that's how you become your best self. So don't give up, you know, and, and, and, and, and you, you're, you're really, can you really have the ability to change the world? And that's what I want to say.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Awesome. That's fantastic advice. And if people wanted to find more out about you or your books, where should they go?
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Jia Jiang
Yeah, so Ian, I, I, I read a substack. It's called an Easy Ambition. And so my goal is to turn all my ambition into play, you know, into this pursuit of ambition to play. So go to my, you can search my substack and subscribe to my newsletter. And if you buy my book, my book comes out, you know, in, on International ADHD Day, so on July 13th. And so if you, if for the first, you know, among the 10,000 people who buy my book, I build a wall. It's called Easy Wall. You know, your name is will be on the wall forever. So you'll be my friend. So yeah, that's, that's where you can find me.
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
Awesome. Well, thank you for so much for coming on the show. I had great time in this conversation and I'm sure a lot of people will get a lot out of it.
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Jia Jiang
Thank you for having me. I had a great time too.
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William Curb
Thanks to Ja for coming on the show and thank you for sticking with us all the way to the end. Before you go though, let's do a quick rundown of Today's top tips. 1. Stop declaring war on your own brain by trying to grind through tasks using sheer willpower. Willpower is a finite biological resource that inevitably runs out, and relying on it and relying on it just triggers a cycle of broken resolutions and self blame. Instead, shift your strategy to working with your human nature by building environment based systems that remove structural friction from the start. 2. If your daily routine constantly feels like Sisyphus, endlessly pushing a heavy boulder up a mountain, you are fighting a psychological gravity. Instead of forcing yourself through tasks with external pressure, anchor the process in intrinsic enjoyment so that activity becomes your default state. When you flip the physics this way, the boulder starts rolling downhill, meaning that it actually takes more active energy to stop your momentum than to keep going. 3. Masking and over analyzing how others perceive you creates an intense cognitive tension that completely paralyzes the ADHD brain. Break out of this by adopting the artist mindset, reframing stressful interactions or projects not as rigid transactions where you need approval, but as unpredictable opportunities to express your authentic presence. Focusing on the full creative expression in the moment completely bypasses the perfectionism trap and lowers social anxiety. All right, that's it. Thanks for listening. I'd love to hear what you thought of this episode. Feel free to connect with me over@hackingyouradhd.com contact if you'd like links or to read this episode's transcript, you can go to the show notes page@hackingyouradhd.com
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Podcast Host / Interviewer
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William Curb
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