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620: My Year Traveling the World Through the Sacred Feminine with Sahara Rose
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This past year, I’ve traveled to over 10 countries across 4 continents from barefoot dancing in Bali to temple rituals in Egypt, from community in Costa Rica to conferences in Amsterdam. But it wasn’t because I was running from something. A...
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So a rose dieta, or any kind of dieta, is when you sit with a plant and you're in silence. And the first thing she said to me was, trust the process. A rose does not reveal everything instantly. You know, we're all trying to find the answers to things in life, like, who am I going to end up with? Am I going to have kids? What's the purpose of my life? What's my job going to be? Am I going to make money? Am I going to end up living in this place? Like, we all want these answers. We're so hungry for it. And the rose was like, imagine if I just unpedaled myself. All instantly, I would lose my beauty. The beauty of the rose is the unpeddling. Petal by petal, she reveals herself, and that is life. When we allow life to unpedal, when we don't rush, when we don't force, but when we allow each petal in its divine timing to open up and let that aspect of ourself and life be seen and then be released. And the thing about a rose is we don't know how many petals there are. There's like thousands in there. But that's what makes it so beautiful and graceful and elegant. Elegant. She's veiled until she's ready to reveal. And so through that rose dieta, it sent me into this very deep love for India. Just flows and I let go Just flows and I let go I'm the one I've been waiting for Trust flow soon to let go Trust flow soon to let go Trust flow soon to let go I'm the one I've been waiting for welcome back to the High Self podcast. My name is Sahar Rose, and on this podcast I love to talk about spirituality, the Sacred Feminine, but make it modern, grounded, fun and relatable so it can actually serve your needs. So I just came back from a year of travel. I'm going to tell you all about it, and so many of you asked for a travel recap. And I figured instead of telling you, like, I went here and I went there, I wanted to leave you with the essence of what this year brought me, and that is deeper on the path of the Sacred Feminine. So we're going to be talking about what is Sacred Feminine energy and these seven laws that I've come up with of the Sacred Feminine. Now, these are energies or really pillars that I see that really embody that Sacred Feminine energy that I feel is so needed in the collective right now. So we're going to be diving into how we can actually embody these laws into our lives. So I'll tell you a little bit about the past year and before we drop into this episode, be sure to hit subscribe wherever you're listening to this podcast. That is the best way to stay up to date on the latest episodes. We've got this in video format, so if you're just hearing my voice, be sure to also watch our fabulous outfits on video as well on Spotify, YouTube or the Apple Store. This is the best way to stay in the flow below with future conversations and also allows the podcast to reach more people. So hit subscribe so I can keep vibe with you on all future episodes. Now let's get into this one. So I was living in LA and I did something called a rose dieta. So a rose dieta, or any kind of dieta, is when you sit with a plant and you're in silence, so you're not talking to people, you're not working, you're not hanging out with people or going to the gym or anything like that. And you're really spending all of your time by yourself, working with one plant. Plant. And the plant that I was working with was the rose. Like the flower of a rose that, you know, you see at the grocery store in a beautiful flower field. And when you're working with one plant by itself, the energy of the plant begins to speak to you. So it's not plant medicine I'm really speaking about right now, but really using any plant like a rose or bamboo or, you know, there's so pretty much any, any plant you can do a dieta of. So I did one with the rose. And it was so crazy because as soon as I did the opening ceremony, I was guided by a shaman. And as soon as I did that opening ceremony, I could feel the energy of the rose coming in. And the first thing she said to me was, trust the process. A rose does not reveal everything instantly. You know, we're all trying to find the answers to things in life. Like, who am I going to end up with? Am I gonna have kids? What's the purpose of my life? What's my job gonna be? Am I gonna make money? Am I gonna end up living in this place? Like, we all want these answers. We're so hungry for it. And the rose was like, imagine if I just unpedaled myself. All instantly, I would lose my beauty. The beauty of the rose is the unpeddling. Petal by petal, she reveals herself. And that is life. When we allow life to unpeddle when we don't rush, when we don't force, but we. When we allow each petal in its divine timing to open up and let that aspect of ourself and life be seen and then be released. And the thing about a rose is we don't know how many petals there are. There's like thousands in there. But that's what makes it so beautiful and graceful and elephant elegant. She's veiled until she's ready to reveal. And so through that rose Dieta, it sent me into this very deep love for India. And When I was 19 years old, my first love was from India. And I ended up going there with him and eventually moving to India. And we broke up and I stayed in India. And so I really feel like your first love, like, creates this imprint in your heart of what love is. And so I was, like, listening to this Bollywood music and just, like, feeling that love so deeply. And it started to guide me of go back to India. And India has always been a huge muse, I would say, of mine. It has given me so much creativity and abundance and blessings. And I lived in India for two years from the time I was 22 to 24, and then have been traveling back and forth to India for a few years after that. But then, you know, the last time I had gone was 2018, when I shot my book, my cookbook, Eat Feel Fresh. And I hadn't gone since 2018 now. And so it was calling me to go back to India. And then I was invited to a wedding from one of my friends in college who I honestly had not really been keeping in touch with. And he invited me to this insane wedding in Udaipur, India, in Rajasthan. I was also watching this show called Hiramundi. Guys, if you want to just see, like, ostentatious, like, gorgeous, like, saris with colors and jewelry and the sets and the dance and the cinematography. It is like a feast for the feminine. Like, it is so beautiful. It's on Netflix, I believe. And it's the stories of these courtesans in India who actually, back back in the day, the courtesans were poets and dancers and scholars, and they would actually teach the kings about, like, manners and culture. But then with the British rule, their class went down and they became akin to, like, sex workers. And so the show is about that. It's really beautifully shot. So I was watching this show, like, listening to Bollywood music, feeling all this love, and then I'm invited to this wedding in India. It's incredible how life works. So I took that As a sign of, like, yes, I absolutely need, need to go. And that was during the rosedietta. And then it told me, it's time for you to spread your wings. You've done enough here. So I was traveling the world for a year, then I was in LA for a year, and I was like, it's time for you to spread your wings again. And I also wanted to connect more with my culture. I'm Persian. And so I wanted to also connect with that, like, Middle Eastern culture. And so I decided I'm gonna go to Dubai. My business partners on High Self Institute had just moved there. I was like, so I know people mindvalley was doing a whole thing. And so I was like, I'm gonna move to Dubai and just see what happens. I mean, let me at least just test it out. And so by the end of the 10th day of the Rose Dieta, I was moving to Dubai, invited to a wedding in India, and packing up my things in storage. This is what happens when you surrender to the path of the sacred feminine will take you places that you could have never imagined yourself. So I start packing up my stuff. I knew my chapter in that apartment was done, and it was this beautiful. I painted it like pink stucco. And it was like, literally my dream home that I made. And I could just feel it was time for those temple walls to close and for me to open up to another round of the unknown. My first round of the unknown was after my divorce when I spent a year traveling. That was, like, a lot of healing and processing, but now it was like, there's higher octaves awaiting you. So I go and I go to Dubai, and, you know, it's so beautiful. Like, the restaurants, the spas, like, they've done such an incredible job with what they have created. But after three months, I became super sick, and I had really bad respiratory issues. I was getting, like, asthma attacks, which I've never gotten in my. Like, I got the one. I was, like, very, very young. Like maybe eight years old. Never since then. And I was just having all of these reactions. And then I have some other friends that went as well for Mind Valley, and they all got sick too. Different respiratory things. And so for all of us, it was just this lack of connection to nature and just the dust and the pollution. And, you know, it's a desert, so it's a harsh climate to live in. And there's just a lot of buildings, and they burn oil, and I'm very, very sensitive to pollution. And truth be told, I just. I miss trees. I miss nature. Like, that is literally my ultimate temple is. Is Gaia's temple. It's. It's to be in pristine nature. And so after three months, I was just like, okay, like, I did this chapter, and what do I want now more than anything? Clean air, clean water, trees. Like, I want to be away from any building, any mall, any sign for anything, and just be with Earth. And so it was time to go to Bali. And Bali, for me has always been like a womb, like Bali to me. She takes you in like the mother, and she's like, baby, what do you need? She's like, do you need some nourishing food? You need some massages? Like, I got you, like. And she tends you back to health. And that's why people are called to Bali when they're in need of deep healing. They're in transition, and they are in an unknown. And Bali has been a sacred place for me for over 10 years that I've gone to time and time again. And so I go to Bali, and my bestie, Christine, comes with me. And it was like, we got a house together, and it was just the most fun chapter of, like, being in your 30s and living with your best friend. And it felt like our inner little girls must have wrote the story in a previous lifetime. We also felt like in a previous lifetime, we were probably, like, older, married, like, Guatemalan woman. And we connect on. On Guatemala because when I was a little kid, my first language was Spanish, because my babysitter who lived with us, she was. She was a Guatemalteca. She was Guatemalan, and Christine's Guatemalan. So we're like, we must have been these Guatemalan women who are like, we gave everything to our husbands. We gave everything to our children. We're gonna come back in this lifetime and just live it up for us. And it was like, just such a pristine chapter of life. Like, we got a house in the jungle of Ubud, and there are monkeys that would come every single day. I'm not talking one or two, like, 16 monkeys at a time. And they would just be, like, knocking on our windows. And it was like, literally living in a safari. And I mean, Ubud, if you guys know Ubud, like, the culture, the temples, the offerings in front of every single shop and. And home. The flowers, the rituals, the devot. Like, I just have the highest things to say about it. And there in Bali, I got to really start to drop in even deeper into that sacred feminine, I would say the code of the sacred feminine. I received From Dubai was around really being in your queen energy. You know, the abayas are so beautiful there. The jewelry, they're so elegant. They really practice the art of adornment. So to wear jewelry to allow yourself to look like this sacred site. And I really feel Middle Eastern women really embody that energy so well, as well as Indian women. Like, everything is just to the T and elevated me, because in la, I kind of just wore workout clothes all the time. I, you know, hair in a messy bun, especially. Like, I was just working all the time. Like, I was either, like, on this podcast or, like, like, alone in my apartment. And so being in Dubai was like, oh, I'm going to this event. I'm going to this gorgeous, opulent restaurant. Like, it got me more used to just dressing up on a daily basis and being in this queen frequency of, like, you know, you open up the car door, and it's like. It's very Cleopatra vibes. And that's a beautiful aspect of the sacred feminine. And then Bali was like the wild feminine, the mother, no makeup, like, being with the dirt, being with, you know, the waters. Especially in. In Bali, water is their spiritual pract. They create all of their temples in waterfalls, and they always have water purification as part of it. So, like, the waters are so alive and rich, and honestly, they're alive everywhere. But when you give extra attention to something, you. You bring it to life. That's. That's what, like, altars are. You know, I could just have a table with some ornaments on it. That's not an altar. An altar is what I've given life to, and that's what the feminine does. The feminine gives life to things. It's like, oh, this isn't a statue. This is a deity. Do you see the energetic difference there? To give life to things. So in Bali, it was so much about reverence, about just this devotion. And it just allowed me to just kind of, like, unwash, undo, come back to the roots. So then a dream I've always had was to study Indian classical dance. I love the mudras, the way that they move. It's just like I always have just, like, naturally danced like that. And so I wanted to actually form study it. And so there was this woman called Kalina Shakti, and she has a school called Shakti School of Dance. And I decided I've loved watching her dance for so long. I'm gonna go to Rajasthan, where she's teaching in this temple in Pushkar, and I'm gonna do this. And so I was in India. I forgot to mention to you while I went to Dubai, I went to India to that wedding. Oh my God. Can we take a second for that wedding? It was. I'm gonna put some pictures of the wedding while we're talking about it. The outfits, it was like. Do you know what's so crazy? I was watching that show Hiramundi. I was telling you the bride wore all outfits handmade by the person who designed all the costumes of Heat or Monday. So it was like they were Indian from Nigeria. And wow. Like just the richness of everything. And so Indian weddings are multiple nights. So the first night it was like Garden of Eden, like fairy, like Romeo and Juliet with an Indian touch, like very Ramlila, which is. Was an amazing movie. I also recommend you watch. It's the. It's the Romeo and Juliet set in India. So Ramlila watch that after. And so it was really giving that like romantic forest fairy vibes. And then they did like this all red party. It was just so beautiful. So that was in December. And then I decided in April to go back. Now this time I went back, like, as a devotee in this different sacred feminine energy. Because the sacred feminine, she's. She's all of it. And so in Pushkar, which is this. I. This is like my new favorite, like city slash town in India. It is like they call it the Vatican City of India because it is so sacred. Like, there's no beef or chicken or even eggs in the entire city. It's a completely vegetarian, but even. Not even eggs. So kind of of vegan. But I think there's Cheese city and there are thousands of temples, I kid you not. And there's this gorgeous lake in the middle. And so it reminded me of being by the Ganga, the. The sacred river, but much more peaceful, much less people. And it's the only Brahma temple in the entire world. So Brahma is the creator of the universe. So Brahma created, Vishnu preserved, and Shiva destroys. And so you know, all. All three are, you know, creation, sustenance, destruction. There's. There's cycles of life. So Brahma. And this is the only place of Rama. It's a beautiful seed of creation, seed of setting. What it is, this next chapter is about what it is that you are calling in into fruition. And so all around it there's temples and then even all around the outside. So I go and I'm doing this training and I'm just walking around, like going into the different shops and the jewelry. There was so just like a different kind of opulent Like Dubai opulence is like glam, flashy diamonds, like designer, which is not really my thing. I don't personally even believe in designers because it's all marketing. But that what I saw in India is like handmade, rustic, like bronze, like sacred. Like you look like a true sacred site. And it's not expensive. It's not about any kind of brand to show how much money you have. It's like genuine, like of the earth. And so I was just blown away. I was so inspired by the artisans there and the fabrics. If you're ever looking to start a fashion line, like that is a really good place because there's so much organic textiles and so many fashion brands also go there to shoot. I will show some of my photos I took there. And so I met this amazing gypsy man named Narendra and he was a photographer. And so we ended up going all around Pushkar doing the most epic shots. And then we're like, let's just keep exploring. We were just having so much fun. And then so him and I were just. We would go around, like, drive on his little moped and go up mountains. And he would take me to these, like off the beaten path temples that I'll show. I'll play this one video here right now. This temple door open and hundreds of babas. Those are like the, like a Hindu version of a devotee, like a monk. So hundreds of them came out of this meditation. I was right there and they were so happy to see me. They're like, hello, Hello. I'm like J. Matadi. They're like, Jay. I'm like, hariyam, Hariyam. Omna mashimaya, Om Namashivaya. We're just like. It was so beautiful and real, you know, like there's no tourists there whatsoever. And I felt very, very safe, by the way, in Pushkar. Very safe. And we would go to all these, like different temples. And it was just. I love temples because it's so important for us to go places that remind us of the majesty of the world. Like, we need that sense of wonder. And temples literally are created structurally to put you in a different vibration. So when you go to a Shiva temple, you're going to feel that strength of Shiva. When you go to a Lakshmi temple, you're going to feel. Feel her abundance. When you go to, you know, if we're going to talk about Egypt, when you go to an Isis temple, you can feel that alchemy and resurrection. When you go to the Sekhmet temple, you can feel that, you know, sacred Feminine rage transmuted into justice. So they all have their own frequency based on where they were built, like the longitude, latitude, how they were built, the. The material it was built with, the prayers, the intentions, and the fact that it's been there for thousands of of years for that intention, being seated into it. So I'm like the ultimate temple whore. Like, I could dedicate my life to just going to temples. I can't get enough, and it just reminds me how small my problems are. So I was just like, I went there for the dance and it. I mean, I loved the dance. It was very hard. I will say that I don't think it's my dharma. I feel like I need to stick more with my belly dancing. But I love the mudras. But I won't be performing this for you guys anytime soon. It was odyssey, classical dance. But it's, like, really hard. It's a discipline. I have so much more respect for people doing that. It's like, wow. But I kind of learned about myself. I. I like more free flow dancing. I would say it was a bit structured for me, but going to the temples there, it was like, you know, you go for one thing, and then that's the path of the sacred feminine. Have your desire, but let life show you. And so my desire was, oh, I want to dance. Like, like the here are mundi girls, you know. And then what path showed me was like, on your knees in prayer. And so I was just in temples for hours a day, you know, just listening, speaking, communing. And every temple has their own ritual. And it was so incredible. I would, you know, kind of watch how people were offering the milk to the Shiva lingam. So the Shiva lingam is like the phallic structure of Lord Shiva. It's a very sacred site, you know, representing the strength of the divine, masculine. You give it milk to honor it. And so I was working a lot with Shiva because at this point, I'm really calling in true sacred union. Like, I feel like I've had enough experiences of dating that I'm good. And it's been months now that I've been out of dating. And just this is a whole separate topic. But in my experience, just dating a bunch of people doesn't lead to true love. I really believe it's just inner preparation and, like, really listening to where God is taking you. And in that journey, which is really the journey about your own becoming, you align with the right person at the right time. So my focus is devotion, and I trust that that will lead me to the right relationship. And so I was working a lot with Sheba of, like, what is my relationship with the divine masculine? What are pains I've held on around feeling unmet disappointed in the masculine and really sitting with that and giving that to shiva and, like, reminding myself the beauty of the masculine, how much we inherently desire that masculine consciousness as the sacred feminine. You know, I feel sometimes we become so good at doing things on our own because we've had to. You know, we haven't had anyone to take care of things for us. You know, people are like, oh, just like, let the man do. It's like, who, where? And even for a lot of women in relationships, they can't fully trust that their partner will show up. And so I do feel there is this, like, collective feminine disappointment. And so I would sit with that. I would really sit with that. And rather than, like, bypass it, I would give it to shiva and, you know, commit to seeing the Shiva in all men and to be with a partner who is my Shiva, who is someone that I would see as, you know, not God, but, like, they. They're a God to me. And I really feel that that's important in partnership, to see each other as deities to one another. You are each other's consorts. You know, in Hinduism, every. Every deity has their opposing counterpart. You know, Lakshmi, the goddess of abundance, is with Vishnu, the sustainer of the universe. What a perfect pair. You know, Shiva, who is dancing, and in his wild abandon, he's destroying things, and he doesn't care about society. He doesn't care about, you know, what anyone is supposed to be doing. And he aligns with parvati, who also committed to becoming her highest self and going up into the mountain and saying, I'm going to sit in my own sadhana. And her commitment to her dharma is what led him to feel her vibration and say, who is that? Who is that whose vibration has reached mine and found her? And together they made love and created the mountains and the seas and the rivers. And I'm like, yes, like that. Is it, like to not go out there and to look, but to be so devoted to your own becoming that it sends out, like, a frequency to the right person for you in the right time. And I really believe if there's any, like, confusion of, like, are they into me? Are they not? Like, you know, that feeling that I know so many of us women have sat in for too long, it's like, just let it go. Just let it go. Because the sacred feminine is not here to convince anyone I really believe your masculine counterpart will feel your frequency and find you when the time is ready. And sometimes there needs to be an attunement to your frequency that just hasn't happened yet. And once you create that attunement, which you can't really mentally do of, like, what's the attunement I think I need. Life will show you based on what. What's happening now and the next thing that leads that and the next thing from that and the next thing from that, and he's on his own journey and. Or. Or she, if. If it's the same sex. And then you'll find each other in the right time. And so India for me was really around that. It was really around heart healing, which is one of the laws of the sacred feminine. I feel like this actually has turned into my lessons of travel. So I will do another full episode on the Seven Laws, because it will really take me a solid amount of time to go through them. But I'm weaving in the teachings of them in. In while I'm telling these stories, while they're fresh, as you guys requested. So every country has a different impact on us. And for whatever reason, in my life, India has been the place that I experienced, like, heartbreak and, like, turbulence and, like, I don't know if it's the Bollywood. It's like, it becomes very dramatic for me. So I had a little bit of a heartbreak in India, a little bit of a turbulence there. And once again, it showed me that titrate my love. You know, as the feminine, we have so much love to give. And the word titration means instead of giving all of our love right now, instead of being like, oh, my God, like, I met this person, and, like, we just want to feel in love, so we, like, go there. We're like, we can't help it. We're just so excited, you know, and to let it simmer for a little bit, to not, like, even to ourselves, of like, oh, my God, I'm in love. Because then that feeling can feel really addicting. And then we don't look at all the ways that it might not work, might not be an actual genuine fit. And then we actually set ourselves up for more heartbreak. But instead, when we can titrate our love, when we can be like, this is interesting, but is this right for me? Is this in alignment with my values? Is this person desiring a relationship? Are they desiring a similar kind of relationship to me? Like, could this actually work? Like, giving ourselves that masculine from ourselves is so important to Protect our hearts. And I feel oftentimes as women, we can get really caught up in our emotions, and I feel like sometimes we think, oh, well, that's what the feminine is like. The feminine is just pure motion. Like, you know, we're up, we're down, we're moody. And, yes, one of the laws of the feminine is around our cyclical nature. However, cyclical nature is very different from, oh, man, I just met this person. I really like them, and I hope it's gonna work out. And if it doesn't work out, I'm gonna be really sad, and so it better work out. And now I'm really nervous that it might not work out, and that. Which is just gonna make you an anxious mess. If the kind of wet he's making his tears, then he's not for you. Versus, like, what would the queen do? Would the queen be like, oh, my God, I just met this guy? Like, I hope it works, but if not, like, I'm gonna be, like, so sad. Like, no, no. Would the queen do? No, the queen would sit back in her throne, and she would be like, oh, interesting. Interesting contestant that has come in. You know, like, anything. That's another king. She was like, oh, hello. She's not in a rush. She's not trying to make anything happen. She doesn't see this as, this is my only opportunity for love. And if this doesn't work out, then that's it for me. Like, no, she's just like, oh, interesting. I'm curious, but if this doesn't work, I'll continue to be okay. And that's really the energy of the sacred feminine. Remember, the word sacred is part of it. You know, if we're just going pure female hormones, yeah, we can be really up and down. But I feel as we mature, we start to ask ourselves, like, what's really worth it? You know, because what comes up must come down. And when we get this. That girl energy within us gets super excited, and then you're, like, creating this vision in your mind, and then you're pedestaling that person and it doesn't work. Then you crash. Then you got the crisis, the. In the pillow, in the sad breakup songs, even though you never even dated and, you know, all of that. And so India really taught me to be complete with any levels of that cycle of, you know, not jumping the gun, not, oh, I really like this person. So maybe it could just work anyways and instead just really just sit with, like, the right person will fit in your life. And so, of course, India had to Bring all of that up. And I was like, okay, chapter complete. As I left, the war was breaking out with Pakistan. So it was like, kind of a scary time. And. Oh, my gosh, guys, typical me. So I was supposed to be in India for two weeks, and so I got my return flight for two weeks to go back to Bali. And then I was supposed to be in Egypt two weeks later because I was facilitating on Robert Grant's retreat, his expedition. Which is crazy, because the second podcast I did with Robert Grant, after that, he invited me to be faculty on this Egypt expedition, which was, like, a huge freaking honor. Like, I love his work, and to be able to teach the people going to Egypt with him, like, it was amazing. And so my plan was I'll go back to Bali, you know, chill for a sec, unpack my India stuff, pack my Egypt stuff and go to Egypt. But took me a really long time to get to India from Bali. Like, it was like two flights, and, like, the flights were delayed. It was just tough. And so I was like, I don't really want to go all the way back just for two weeks. Let me just stay longer in India. Let me just stay for another two weeks. Mind you, I'm there by myself. Like, that dance training was only for one week, so I was already there for a week alone. I did the dance training that ended, and then I. I had two more weeks just by myself in India. And I didn't know I didn't have friends. Like, I was just really there alone. And so that really brought me super, super deep because I was just in temples and, like, really just sitting with myself without any kind of distraction of, like, conversation or anything else. Like, I would just sit and eat dinner by myself. I would wake up by myself. I would everything by myself. And it was really like that temple life that I needed. It was really beautiful. And it actually, since then, has made me crave alone time more than ever. To really just. I feel like when you're alone, you just. You have your thought and you go deeper, deeper, deeper, deeper, deeper. That sometimes when there's people around, you just never fully get there. If you're listening to this podcast, I know you have felt the importance of diving deeper than the mind and into the body. Because let's be real. Even in spirituality, it can be overwhelming trying to figure everything out. And the truth is, is we're not here to master every single spiritual system, but we're here to feel and to live our best lives. And that happens through embodiment. So embodiment is the spiritual path of the feminine, it is not to leave the body, but rather to be so deeply immersed in her that you feel your sensuality, your radiance, your joy, your desires, your love. And you're also not afraid of feeling your anger or sadness that may be holding you back from becoming your full spectrum self. So embodiment was the missing key to my own spiritual practice. And after my divorce, when I was in so much pain, I created what I call the Triple E method, which stands for emote, embody and express. So I have created a free three day embodiment mini course that guides you through what embodiment is how to use the Triple E method. And you get to watch me coach someone live using this method. So I have created a program called the Certified Embodiment program at the Highest Self Institute, my school. And it has been so remarkable the shifts that we have seen happen behind the scenes. People overcoming lifelong patterns, feelings of scarcity, body image, heartbreak. And in one session completely shift and blossom into their most radiant, joyful, sensual and embodied selves. So this is why I have now wanted to make available for you to see the session in real life. So whether you want to dive deeper into your own embodiment journey and finally clear some of the things that you are holding onto so you can really radiate at your most goddess shiny self, or you even might feel ready to step into your path as a certified embodiment coach. This mini course is for you. So you can find the link in the show notes. And I'm so excited to invite you there. So I ended up being in India for a month and from there I went to Egypt. Mind you, I did not have Egypt stuff. And so I go to Egypt. The war is breaking out and it was like perfect timing. That's the path of the feminine. It's like I had the full like death and rebirth healing of the heart in India and now I'm in Egypt. And now stepping into Egypt, it was like a completely different vibration. So India, energetically, it's got, it's has a lot going on. There's so many people everywhere you go, especially in the cities like Bombay. Like, it's like, it's madness. If you think New York City is crazy, guys, it's like a hundred times more crazy. It is the most chaotic city I've been in my entire life. Bombay, not Pushkar, but Bombay. And that's what the locals call it. They still call it Bombay, not Mumbai. Apparently Bombay is a feeling. Mumbai is a city is what I've Learned. And so like there's honking everywhere and it's just like, you know, they're selling you things. And I love it. I, I freaking love it. But it's a lot on the nervous system. Oh my gosh. And I went down to where Shantaram was shot. If you guys have read the book Shantaram, such a good one. And it became a show on Apple tv. So I went to the slums. I got a tour of the slums, the Darvi slum, which is the world's largest slum. If you just Google it, that someone of the slum will give you the tour. So I did that. I mean, I did so many things. I went to the Hare Krishna temple. Like I, I made the most of my experience. And then I was ready to go, go to Egypt. And it's completely different vibration. It's like barren desert. So much like space between things, like a quietness to it. And Cairo, for me, it felt like a vacation after being in Bombay for those extra, extra two weeks, Weeks, I was like, it's so peaceful here, you know, in comparison. Even though Cairo is still a massive city. And the expedition began and you know, I didn't know what to expect. I was in Egypt 29 months prior to that. I, I went to Egypt four days after finding out about my ex husband cheating on me. And so it was like the place that I died. And I didn't realize it until then that it was 29 months. That's 29. How many days are in a lunar cycle? 29. How many degrees are in an astrological sign? 29. So 29 is a full cycle. And it was like a full cycle of 29 months of being there. And so I was just expecting I'm here in Egypt to teach. And it sent me into such a deep mystery school. Like, let me just say it was really my initiation into the path of the priestess. Egypt just has its own consciousness. When you are there, it is working with you. There is such a level of aliveness to the temples there, to the pyramids there. Like my heart just like I want to cry when I'm speaking about it. Like anything people have said about Egypt is true times 10. But the thing is, just like India, it's for certain people and at certain times. So if Egypt's not calling you, it might not be for you, or it might not be for you at this time, but you'll know when. And so just being in these temples and seeing these hieroglyphics, it was like they're speaking to me. And they're telling me what I need to know about my life and the snake and the darkness and looking at that shadow eye to eye and no longer being afraid of it, but rather dancing with the snake and becoming integrated with the snake. So you were no longer in this naive maiden consciousness of like, oh, there's no darkness. Like, I don't believe in darkness. I just trust. I'm just gonna fully trust. No, because we need to mature out of that into. Into true priestess consciousness. And that priestess consciousness knows, yes, there is darkness, there is deception, there is betrayal. But I'm not afraid to look at it. And so when we've gone through betrayal so often, we're so afraid that it's gonna. It's going to happen again. And so we create all this armor, but when we integrate that shadow, that darkness within ourselves, we're no longer afraid of anything. Because the truth is, no one can really lie to you. They're only lying to themselves. Truth always comes out. Thank Mot for that. So I was there in Egypt and in these temples and having these really embodied experiences of this energy. And there was one specific temple, an Isis temple I was in, in Karnak. And. And if you go to Karnak and you say, take me to the Isis temple, that's, like, closed to the public. There is one that's closed. You'll have to tip the guys and they'll bring you. It's. It's enclosed, so it's not one that's on the tour, but it's. It's really right there. And I went to that temple 29 months prior, and it was the most. My most powerful experience in Egypt besides the Valley of the Queens. And I went back and he told me the exact spot to sit in. And I'm going to fully share this story even more when I write my book. So let's just say there's a book coming that was born here, but in that spot. It was when I got my wings and the energy that I felt from Isis. And she told me, you have now gotten on this journey of resurrecting yourself. It wasn't about finding the partner, but really it was about reintegration of all 14 parts of yourself. Because the story of Isis and Osiris is her beloved Osiris was split into 14 parts of his body. And so she went on a journey around the world looking for them. And she found every single part of his body except for one that was missing, his phelis. So she created one and she used it to Impregnate herself. And that is the journey of alchemy, that even with the broken parts, you are still able to create life. And what Isis shared with me, the energy of her. And really her name is not Isis, that's a Greek interpretation. Her name is Assad. So I will refer to her as Asat. Moving forward. I also want to name. Hathor's name is not actually Hathor, it's Heter. All of these names have been like Greekized because of the wars that were happening there. But it is important to use their actual indigenous names. So it wasn't even called Egypt, it was called Kemet, which is land of the darkness, meaning the dark, the Black Nile. So there's so much herstory to it. And in that moment I felt my golden wings expand and she told me to sit up and I sat up and my, my spine calibrated and I received just this beautiful crown. And she said, and now it is time for you to walk as the priestess. And it showed me that this journey of the betrayal and the heartbreak and feeling alone and confused and anxious and fearful and so multi layered over the past three years was really my initiation into the path of the priestess. Because when we sign up on this path, which I know I did in this lifetime, maybe you have too. It's not like we're going to take classes at Hogwarts and it's just going to come that way. Yes, we can. You know, I have my own mystery school. We can go to mystery schools, we can learn these things. But life will give us the real initiations that we need. And heartbreak, I feel for the path of the feminine is, is one of the biggest initiations because nothing rocks your world like heartbreak does. There's one thing to go through challenges with your family who you didn't consciously choose. And it's another thing that the person that you chose, the person that you love, the person that you trusted to go through a heartbreak with them, it rocks your world in a way that nothing else does. But that's what the priestess chose. We chose to go through that because nothing connects us to our heart in the same way. And that is one of the laws of the sacred feminine. It is the devotion that we have. And devotion, when we think about it, we often think, oh, it's devotion to one person. No, it could be, but it's devotion as a whole. Devotion as a way of life. Like in India, I remember in the temples I would see men literally lie down, head down on the floor, like throwing themselves on the floor to the goddess. And I had never seen such devotion in my life. Like, to literally be sprawling the ground and just like, goddess, spirit, like, I am at your feet. And like, there was one temple, and you had to climb up a mountain to get there. And it was a hard hike. And so we climbed up. We climbed up, and there was, like, this family and their son that was there and doing the puja. And it was sunset. It was so beautiful. And the gypsy man who was taking me around, he was like, this family comes every single sunrise and every single sunset. So they climb up that mountain twice a day. They work, they have jobs. They're not rich. They don't have ample time. But they still show up with that level of devotion. And I just sat down and I started thinking, I'm like, have I ever been so devoted to anything in my life? Like, we have really lost the art of devotion in our world. And we've become devoted to consumerism. We've become devoted to social media. We've become devoted to trying to get attention. You know, what are we devoted to? It's how we're spending our time. And trust me, me, like, I've also gone through phases where I'm on my phone way too much, right? Wake up and I check, and. And when I really ask myself, though, why do I do that? It's like the desire for connection. It's coming from a pure place. And when the connection's not there, it's like your phone is, like, where your friends live. And so I want you to have compassion for yourself of why maybe we've all been devoted to the things that aren't really pure. And, you know, the energy of sattva is the energy of. Of that purity. And so what is something more sattvic we can be devoted to? Can we be devoted to our daily breath, work, practice? Can we be devoted to dancing? Can we be devoted to service? Can we be devoted to our dharma, our soul's purpose? Can we be devoted to love? Like love as an energy, not just, oh, this love between us. And if it's not this, then I don't have love. Love, like, capital L, universal love. And so devotion is such a sacred path of the feminine, because devotion is that energy of the heart. And to be connected to something that is beyond us. And that's really the path of the. The priestess. Coming back to Egypt, that priestess was devoted to not just creating temples, but being the temple. Like, she is the embodiment of the temple that people who are even in her energy field will have an Elevated consciousness simply from how she carries herself, how she shows up. It's. It's purely energetic. You know, certain friends, like when you leave, hanging out with them, sometimes you feel more expansive, you feel inspired, you feel in love, you feel joyful or you feel depleted, you feel anxious, you feel depressed. And just noticing we all give off energy. And yeah, sometimes we have our complaining moments and, you know, we want to just let it out, but can we then bring it up? You know, when you sit with a medicine, you go down at first. You know, you see the shadows. It can be very intense, but the medicine has a way of. Now you saw all that darkness, and let's bring it to light, and can we be that? Can we embody that energy? That's what alchemy is. You know, the priestesses were going into the darkness, going into the heartbreak, going into the pain, the betrayal, the abuse, like the hardest things of lives and alchemizing them, transforming them into something beautiful. And I really have been walking the path of the alchemist. I know many of you have as well. And Egypt, for me was really this anchoring. It was there in Egypt that all these codes and remembrances started coming through, like deep remembrances of my lifetimes as a priestess. And I'll do a whole other podcast on what happened in the Hatter, the Hathor temple, because that was just something beyond. And I started writing my next book, my fifth book, and I won't share the title, it's a working title. It just started coming through. It was actually through channeling. I just started recording myself speaking. It was just. And like, I would be at the temples in Egypt, like, not listening to the tour guide, just going off on my own, just like. Like sharing this. And I did a lot of spoken word poetry there as well. So if you scroll down on my Instagram from May, the month of May, you'll see that. And I'll. I'll reshare more of it here as I release this episode. So it was almost like I needed to go into another layer of the darkness in India of around the heart, to fully step into now this new octave. And that's always how it works. Works. Whenever you have a down, know that there is an up. You could say, whenever there's an up, there's a down. But. And then whenever there's an up, just like, it's on. Embrace yourself. It's. It's just going to refine. You know, when we look at the stages of alchemy, refinement is one of the stages. Like yes. You create something and then you refine it. Like, I could write a book, and then I edit the book and then. So that might feel like a down, but it's actually so you can have an even better, better book, have an even better relationship, have an even better career, etc. And so the feminine moves in spirals. That is the nature of the sacred feminine. It's not in, I was here and now I'm there. You know, so much of this modern manifestation space is hyper masculine. It's like, you want this. Create a vision board and, you know, write it all down and the universe will provide it for you. Like, command it from the universe. It's like, command from who? I command you to give me this. God is like, I gave you life. Cute. It's like, imagine if your child. I command you, mother, give me that toy. I want that toy. And I commend it. Like, what kind of word is that again? Everyone has their own thing. It's just, I don't believe in how most of the manifestation space is sharing. I feel it's a lot of just consumerism, repackaged and really entry level spirituality that I think can help people when they go from feeling very, like, out of control of life. You know, if you're out of control. But if you hate your job, you hate your friends, you hate your colleagues, you hate your partner, you don't even have a partner, whatever, life sucks. And then it's like, oh, you can manifest anything. It's like, oh, I can. It's possible. I can change things. I can choose things. Whoa. And so it brings you up an octave. And that's what I feel like a lot of that stuff is good for. But then eventually you realize, like, who's manifesting these things? Like, why am I manifesting these things? Like, am I even manifesting these things? Or am I just telling myself this to make myself feel better? I'll do a whole other podcast about that. I did a video about this about why I don't believe. Believe in, like, manifestation as we're taught it. And definitely was a controversial take. But imagine if you manifested everything you wanted in your life when you were 20 years old. Would you be happy right now? No. What you are calling in will evolve and will change. And there are things that you really want that you're not getting that one day you'll be very grateful that you're not getting because you don't know the full plan. Only God knows. Only your highest self and consciousness and spirit guides and ancestors and everyone watching over, you knows, and even it's not set in stone on top of that. So instead of manifest, let's godifest, let's allow, let's co create, let's dance with the universe. This is one of the laws of the sacred feminine as well, that we're not. Not pushing, we're not trying to force. Rather, we're dancing with life. Oh, I desire this. This would be lovely to have. But now life is showing me this. So in the salsa dance, you know, I step forward, they step back, and then we switch and, and we keep it moving and we're bouncing off each other's energy. And then, you know, God daddy puts his arm up and I'm like, okay, I guess it's time to spin. And then I'm spinning and I'm like, oh, more spins. Oh, okay, another spin, another spin, another spin. Oh, okay, okay. Whoa. I didn't know I could do that many spins. Wow. Now I'm seeing the room in a whole new way. Oh, my God. Now you just dipped me. Oh, my God, I feel so held. Like, that is how we get to be with the universe. Like, let it be a salsa dance, you know, Let it be something that's beautiful and seductive and you don't want to fucking control a salsa dance. Wouldn't be quite masculine to control the salsa dance. It's the man that leads and. And in life. What if we took that feminine approach and we let Sky Daddy take care of the rest? I was like, it would be so nice to do bachata now. And Sky Daddy's like, if any Aventura friends, you know what's up. So let Sky Daddy co create with you. Like, yes, have your desires, have your things, and then let's like, see. See how it turns out. Notice what's coming to you and then keep dancing with that. And I know what you guys are saying. Well, my human design. Okay. Someone in the 80s named Raw was awake for a week and, you know, he channeled the system. And I found it helpful to know I'm a projector. I resonate with being a projector. However, if I make made everything in my life limited based on what Raw said in his seven day whatever was happening spiritual bender, I would not be here right now. And I just feel like that's just another form of control that we have as spiritual people of like, oh, but my human design said is human design. The Bible also is even the Bible. The Bible, like, nothing's the Bible Bible, you know, like, only nature, and nature changes all the time and what works here won't work there, and what worked for you before won't work for you later. And that's another law of the Sacred Feminine, by the way. These laws are also very fluid laws. Please don't take them to heart. Like, it has to be this way. No, because one of the laws is everything is a paradox. Like, the advice that worked for you at one point will stop working for you one day until it starts working for you again. But then maybe a little smidge of it. Like, everyone's life is so unique that I can't even give advice for everyone's life because there might be a little aspect of what I said that works for you and then an aspect that doesn't. And it's like pick and choose. It's a buffet, you know? And some parts of it we choose and some parts of it we don't. And so ultimately, we're all just here sharing what's worked for us in the past and what will work for us in the future. We will only know in the present moment, which is another one of the Sacred Feminine laws of being in that present moment. Experience the trust. The trust of. I don't need to have it all figured out. I don't need to know, well, is this going to work with my human design? Is this going to work with my astrology? Is this going to work with my Gene Keys? This can work with this. I love all these systems. I know very, very deeply about all of these systems and learn and let go. And I feel like ultimately, even with manifestation, the healthiest approach we can have to it is I can desire something and I can let it go. If that's what you call manifestation, Cool. I totally agree with that. But it's this holding on. That's our very, like, masculine corporate school system way of seeing the world of like. But it said this or they said that, and so it needs to be this. And it's our inner child that. At school, like, the teacher would be like, no, no, it's pronounced consequence, not. Not consequence. For example, I used to say consequence because that's how my mom would say it, because my mom's first language is not English. And so I remember it was like, later in life I learned consequence. But it's like. And then I was like, so mortified. And it's like, who cares? At the end of the day, you got the word across. Tomato, tomato, drawer, drawer. Like, there's so many words like that. And it's like, think about life. Like, yes, maybe you did wrote something on A vision board, and it happened. Incredible. Beautiful. If it makes you feel good to write a vision board, do it. Sometimes I love to draw pictures of what I'm calling in because it feels good for me, because I get to, like, be in the energy of that thing. But, guys, I've drawn a lot of pictures that have not happened. You know, I don't know if it is the drawing of the pictures that are making those things happen, or they're already going to happen, and your soul knows they're going to happen, and that's why. Why you want it, or you drew a picture and you took action on that thing, and that's why it happened. Like, there are so many parallel energies that are going on. And so the sacred feminine is like, yes. And if it makes you feel good to pull tarot cards for every question of your life, do it. But if it's become a limitation that you can't make decisions, throw the tarot cards away. You know, if looking at angel numbers helps you stay on track, track. Beautiful. Keep looking at them. If you're looking around the room all day, like, trying to find an 11, 11 or 4 for four or something, and then you're trying to figure out what the numbers mean, and you're, like, confused, maybe let go of the numbers. You know, like, everything can be either expansive for us or can become our cage, depending on how we see it. And the sacred Feminine energy is a softness to it. It's like, yeah, like, I love numerology. I love pulling cards. I love all of these different fun spiritual games that we play. And I'm not going to only let that be the deciding factor of anything, including if I saw it on medicine, including if I saw it in a dream, including on if my favorite psychic told me, like, whatever, the thing is just to have a softness, because ultimately life will show us. And what I really learned. I used to love going to intuitives, and I had. I stopped going three years ago, and I still love them. I still have many friends that are intuitives, and myself. I. I am an intuitive. I. I could even work as an intuitive if I wanted. But what I learned is that if I just, like, waited, like, two more weeks, I would just know the answer to the thing. And it was my control of wanting to know right now. And some things, like the Rose taught me, are not meant to be known right now. They need to be unpeddled, petal by petal. And that creates the mudra, that creates the experience, that creates the beauty that allows us to not just have the thing. But to hold the thing. Because the manifestation energy, that masculine consciousness, it just wants to obtain. It just wants to check things off the list. Okay, got the partner. Now I need the money. Okay, got the money. Now I need the house. Got the house. House. Okay, now I need the car. Got the car. Okay, now I need the Instagram following. Got the Instagram following. Like, whatever the thing is, it's just trying to check things off the list. Yeah, I think you can manifest your way into things. But what about holding? What about preserving? You know, like, Burning man just happened. And this could be a whole other podcast. I've went to Burning man six years ago. I'll never go back. I don't believe it's what the world needs, the energy of a Burning Man. What we really need is the watering woman. We need what is regenerative. We need what is sustainable. We need what builds. There is enough burning of the world happening right now. The Amazon's burning, wars are burning, people are burning. There's so much collective fire energy. We don't need more of that. We need more of the water to wash away and then the earth to rebuild. And so that is the quality of the sacred feminine. She's like, I see it all. I'm not afraid of the fire. I will dance with the fire if need be. But I'm not here to add more fuel to the fire. When you guys are done fighting, let's actually build that to me, is where I desire to put my energy and things that are regenerative, the things that last. And something as simple as, like, with friendships. Like, I desire friendships that I am going to grow old with. Like, and I show up for my friendships in that way with partnership. Like, I mentioned, like, something that the love and the energy I'm pouring in is something that's building something greater than us with this podcast. Like, why did I choose a podcast out of all the things eight years ago? I knew if I'm sharing, I want something that it builds over time. And someone can go back. Like, you guys can go back to my episodes from 2017 and listen to it. And so I invite you to think of how can I have more of this regenerative building energy. And it's funny because we think sacred feminine is just, you know, being only in the softness. No, it's also strange length. It's also creation. Like, who creates life, the feminine. So the energy of creating anything, birthing your projects, birthing your books, birthing your ideas, birthing your business, that is all through sacred feminine energy. She's like, yeah, like, I have so much power, but I'm not going to just waste on a stupid fight or confrontation like a lot of the unconscious masculine does does. She's like, I have a lot of energy and I'm going to build a freaking new human with it. Mad respect, you know, and can we see how precious our energy is? Can we be more discerning with our energy? You know, I feel like that's really the elevation of stepping into that sacred feminine energy instead of just like, we waste our energy so much on, like, trying to get attention of people, trying to get approval of people, trying to get people to like us for what? Okay, you get it. You got it. Now what? What do you do? Like, anyone you had to manipulate your way to get their energy or attention or approval of it's not going to last. It's not regenerative and it's not authentic. And so instead, just be you. Coming back to energy of devotion, who are you devoted to? What are you devoted to? Be devoted to your highest self and becoming her every single day. And then the right people will see you. The people who understand themselves will understand you. The people who feel themselves will feel you. And so you don't need to explain or contort or try to get. It will all just come into this beautiful equilibrium where you have your soul friends that get you on a soul level, where you're with your partner that you don't have to. To diminish your light for. You don't have to step into mother or healer for. Where you're living in your sanctuary, creating your temple. And these are things we can start doing right now. Like, right now I'm moving back to LA after this year of travel. And so let me just finish the travel story. So Egypt, start writing the book. I get back to Bali and I got really sick. I had a really, really bad flu for a month. And even after that, I had really low energy. And it was telling me, like, certain weeks of it. I was so sick, I couldn't even, like, look at my phone. Like, for three nights. I had the highest fever. I don't even know what it was. And I was just sweating. And it was like the fire within myself that was purging away all of those old versions of me. So that's when fire can be very helpful. Fire is. Is part of alchemy. It's the first stage. So it's like burning away what is no longer serving. So I come back from Egypt that I literally had to go through another death and rebirth. So that's why I tell you, the cycles, they keep spiraling. And so for three nights, I just had the most insane fever. I did not sleep at all. My body was, like, burning from the inside out because it was literally burning away my old identity and that old avenue Avatar. And then the water, the sweating, you know, literally purging out the old DNA. And then the earth rebuilding, coming to life to this new version of me. The refinement, the fermentation of it, the transmutation of it, and then becoming truly the embodiment of the priestess, not just in Egypt, but like in my own home. And it also made me just focus. Like, when you have such little energy, once again, you are very, very discerning of where you put your energy. And it also made me really lock in. Like, Ubud can have a lot of different events and ecstatic dances and sound baths and things to go to. And I just, you know, for those next two months, was just in my jungle home and going very, very deep and writing my book. And so I wrote the first manuscript of that book, ended up writing 480 pages, which I'm still in the process of. Of refining and editing down. And it's a journey in itself. Writing a book really rewrites you. And then that last month in Bali, I actually moved down to Peranon, which is this area near Canggu, which I really like. Ubud is like plant medicine. Like, it's gonna bring up your shadows, it's gonna bring up, like, I love it. It's amazing. And it's a lot like, you're constantly going through these huge initiations because it's such a high vibrational, sacred sacred site. And so I went down to the ocean for that last month, which was really nice to just, like, ground reset, you know, have a bit of a routine, go to the gym, keep writing my book. And then the Bali chapter was complete. You know, I could feel. I didn't even know I was going to be living in Bali that year. Like, it was not my goal. It's just what happened when I just trusted life and I just allowed the divine to take me. And I thought I was moving to Dubai. And this. That sickness is what led to me being in. In Bali. And then I could feel what a beautiful gift in, like, any mother's home. It's like, thank you so much for tending to me, for nurturing me. And now it's time to take this out into the world. And so I was invited to speak at Mind Valley. I Went to Amsterdam from there, which was, like, completely different vibration. I did my first ever new keynote. So I. I went there thinking I'm gonna be teaching about discover your dharma, which is what my book is about, what I teach about on stages. And that's what I was signed up for. That's what was on the schedule two days before Spirit was like, no, it's time for you to teach something even deeper. And so I rewrote the entire talk. I made an entirely new slideshow deck, because, you know, you're on this massive stage, 700 people, and, you know, you have these huge slides behind you. And I did it about mapping your past lives. And I've taught about mapping your past lives in my mystery school in rose gold goddesses and also in the spiritual life coaching certification at my school highest self institute. So only in private containers. And for those of you who want to learn from me, I'll put the links below to my containers. And so that was the first time I taught about mapping your past lives publicly on stage at Mind Valley, which is very, like, masculine. Like, they're all about, like, AI and business. And so many of you guys, like, listeners who happen to be there, were there, and even new people, even the founder vis mom was there, and she loved it. And I guided the audience through a journey of. Through music, remembering their past lives. So I played ancient tribal music, Native American powwows, ancient Japanese music, Celtic, Indian, Middle Eastern, and we went on a journey and I spoke about past lives and my own experience of remembering my past lives and why and how it helps and what are the benefits and how it leads to our dharma and karmic relationships and clearing soul contracts. And like, we went there. And so that is a keynote that now I. I desire to share with more people. So if any of you guys have any events or any events you would love to see me at, please reach out on my website. I'll link my website below and the email for that. And so it was like another octave of, you know, I wore a sari on stage. Like, really allowing myself to be seen in that priestess energy and to not be like, I wasn't in the spiritual closet, but it was like another level of it. Like, you know, sometimes you gotta, like, fit the room you attune to the room. And I've spoken at Mind Valley before. And before, you know, I made it a little bit more, like, educational this time. I was like, no, we're going full spirit realm. And so I did the mapping your past lives workshop, and I DJed there twice and played my music, and I hosted the stage there twice. And it was just incredible and very expansive on a global stage. And then I came to Boston, where my family is. And, you know, for me, when you visit family, it's like the ground zero of how much inner work you've done. And so it was really interesting because I could feel things that used to maybe trigger me, didn't trigger me at all. And it was actually, like, the gentlest time I had with them, and I actually had so much fun with them. And I feel like as you get older, like, you're like, wow, my parents are going to be around forever, and they're not perfect, but, like, let me just savor these times. And so it was beautiful. Like, despite. Of course, there was definitely a hiccup, but we moved through that, and it just showed me, like, at the end of the day, like, yes, like, there are boundaries and things. And I. There was a moment I had to kind of remove myself from the conversation because I wasn't being heard. But instead of trying to prove and explain, I was just like, I feel like I've said what I really needed to say, and I've repeated it a couple times, and I'm just gonna go to bed right now, and maybe we could talk about it again tomorrow. And I just, like, removed myself. And it was so healing for my little girl, who would have stayed in it for hours to try to get my point across, and instead, just like. And it's okay. Like, sometimes the best thing that we can do for ourselves is just to remove ourselves from the situation with love and give ourselves that inner peace that's not going to come from someone approving us or getting us, just comes from us taking care of our own little girls. And then I went to New York, where I was featured on this magazine, Oralis magazine, on. On the COVID And so they had this gallant that they invited me to. So it was perfect because I was coming back to the US So I went to the gala, and then the day before, she said, come to Times Square. Like, and she invited everyone to come. So I figured, okay, maybe they got, like, a Rallis magazine, like, billboard in Times Square. I've heard people do this. So I was like, okay, that'll be fun to look at. You know, their Oralis billboard there. And so I went. And the founder of the magazine, she was super emotional, and. And I'm just like, oh, cool. And then she's like, look at the billboard. And she shows me the billboard, and it's the picture that I took in Pushkar, India, by that lake in my white, in like, organic cloth sari that ended up being the same one I wore on stage for Mindvalley. That sari was now on the billboard of Times Square. And it was. It said oralis magazine woman of the Year. I was like, what? What is this? Like, I was just like, I didn't even know what to think, honestly. It just was like, what? I still don't even know what to think. And later that night at the gala, she shared with me that she found me through my music. She did not find me through this podcast. She did not find me through my book. She not might find me through Instagram or any of my spiritual teachings. She found me through my music because she went through cancer last year, mother of four. And as she was healing herself, she found my music and it became part of her healing practice. And one of my songs, Shika ass for your ancestors. She's doing all this deep ancestral work. And so that became her song. And you know the song Love Story, she had been divorced before, and so that became healing. And it was just such a full circle moment because when I. I was going through my dark night of the soul, music was a thing that helped me more than anything. And so to see my music help someone in their dark night of the soul, it was like, oh, whoa. Like, the way music hits us, it's unlike anything else. And so it was through my music, which also my music was the thing that was like, doesn't fit in the box. Like, it's confusing for people. Like, it doesn't make sense. Like, I'm a spiritual author and podcast host and teacher. And like, now I'm making afrobeats music. And a lot of people told me, like, don't do it. And, you know, before I was like, maybe I should do it under an alias or something. And then eventually I was just like, no, I can't even think of another name. Like, there's no chat GPT back then. So I was just like, whatever, I'm just gonna put it under my name. And rather than it being the thing that was, like, off and confusing, it was actually the thing that. That brought new people in through the music, that then they found the podcast and the books and it's all interconnected because it's all the same message of embodying your highest self, of seeing yourself as a sacred site. And so I share this because you are allowed to be multi dimensional. You can be ratchet, you can be spiritual, you can be badass, you can be sattvic. You can be everything in between. And please don't let the patron hierarchy make you feel like you need to fit inside of a box or a mold to be understood. Because the truth is, someone who's one dimensional is not really being authentic. We are all wearing multiple hats every single day. We all listen to music, we all send our friends funny memes, we all fall in love, we all get angry. We all have all of these different sides to ourselves. So let those sides of you be seen. Because you never know, like, that those two pieces might be the two pieces that help someone else feel deeply seen and connected to you. And so it was my music that led to the Woman of the Year award. And I just feel like that, like, allow that to just be a little permission slip for you of the thing that feels outside the box. Weird, it doesn't fit in. It's going to confuse people. Do that thing. Because it actually might lead to the biggest opportunities in your life. Life. So after New York, I came to la. I got like an Airbnb for a month. I hadn't been back in a year. A year had passed and I was like, okay, like, let me catch your vibe. Like the fires had happened. What is it like? And it just felt so wonderful. First of all, just being with my dog again, and my dog Chai was with my mom. And just being with my dog again, it was like the purest love. Like his love is a temple, truly the temple of love. And seeing old friends, like friends I've had for eight years, people I have so much history with, and it just became super evident and clear, like it's time for me to move back. Like it's time for me to plant my roots here and to create my temple of my home and something simple, you know? Like, I feel like spending so much time in Bali and India and in Egypt really humbled me, you know, I. I was think previous version of me in la, you know, I had my pink apartment, my pink car, like I was doing it up. And I feel like now I'm like, I really don't need much. Like just a small, cute little place where I feel at peace and to write this book and to let it come to life and to listen to the book and ask her what she wants to say. And so this has been my journey this year on the path of the sacred feminine. And I hope this showed you with my own, own stories of how when you trust the unknown, you are taken places you could have never imagined. How life is a spiral you know, you start somewhere and you go on this journey and you end up back to where you were, but as an entirely new version of yourself that you are the temple, that you are the sacred site. And going to sacred sites gives you that awareness and that feeling, that expanded view that connects you to the mysteries and the unseen, that ultimately is all within, within yourself, the art of adornment to. To carry yourself like a beautiful goddess. You know, when we. When we carry that energy and that frequency, it changes how we act, how we show up, how we commune with the world, and so much more. I mean, this year has been so revelatory, so beautiful, and I feel has really anchored me even more deeply on the path of the sacred feminine and the bro. So I hope this, like, any questions you've had, so many of you guys watch my stories and are like, she's here and now she's there. And, like, was this planned? Like, what is going on? And so I hope this showed you the fabric of it all. And there were some surprise moments and some things I knew, and then they took me places I could have never imagined before. And there's some of the things that took place in Egypt that were just, like, supernatural and the ongoing teachings that this book is really channeling through on the path of the sacred feminine. So this is a really wonderful podcast to share with a friend of yours that you're both calling in a more feminine approach to spirituality that is embodied, that is intuitive, that is sensual, and share it and be like, what did you receive from that? Or, you know, maybe you guys go to Egypt together, you guys go to India, or, you know, you allow yourself to go on a journey of the unknown and see where it takes you. So share it with your friends, share it on your story, have conversations about it. Allow this to, like, the richness of this to come into your life. And if you're not following me on Instagram, my Instagram is I am Sahar Rose and I will share some more of these pictures there. I have highlights of all of the trips as well on my Instagram story, so you could check them all out there to like, like, have more of a visual of this all. Thank you so much for being here with me today. I'll see you next week. Namaste. Trust your intuition. Trust your inner wisdom. Trust your inner guidance. Close your eyes and listen. So trust your intuition, trust your inner wisdom. Trust your inner guidance. Close your eyes and listen.