On the fence about parenthood? Listen to this

Summary

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Life Kit: On the Fence About Parenthood? Listen to This

Podcast: Life Kit (NPR)
Host: Marielle Segarra
Guest: Merle Bombardieri, LCSW, psychotherapist & author, "The Baby Decision"
Reporter: Andy Tagle
Date: May 26, 2026
Episode Theme:
A practical and compassionate exploration of the decision to become a parent, featuring expert advice from Merle Bombardieri. This episode unpacks the complexities, fears, and myths around choosing parenthood or a child-free life, providing tangible tools to help listeners make this deeply personal decision.

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Main Theme and Purpose

The episode addresses the pivotal life choice: should I become a parent? Host Marielle Segarra and reporter Andy Tagle, along with guest Merle Bombardieri, help listeners navigate the emotional, social, and practical dimensions of deciding whether to have children. With a focus on intentionality, self-discovery, and open communication, the episode guides anyone feeling ambivalent—or actively "on the fence"—with empathy, realism, and actionable exercises.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Parenthood is a Choice, Not a Default

• [00:16] Marielle introduces the idea that parenthood is increasingly a conscious choice rather than an assumed path.
• Merle Bombardieri echoes that the question, “Should I have a baby?” is tied deeply to one's sense of identity, relationships, and life goals.

Quote:

“The baby decision is never just about baby or no baby. It is who am I? Who is my partner? Who are we as a couple? And what hasn't happened yet that we want to have happen before we die?”
— Merle Bombardieri [00:44]

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2. Regret is Inevitable—Active Choices Minimize It

• [05:10] Andy prompts Merle about the fear of regret.
• [05:23] Merle asserts that regret is part of any major life decision; the key is to ask, “Which decision will I regret least?”
• The energy of indecision is “exhausting.” Active, conscious decision-making fosters satisfaction and minimizes long-term resentment.

Quote:

“Don’t ask ‘Will I regret my decision?’ Ask ‘Which decision will I regret least?’”
— Merle Bombardieri [05:23]

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3. You Can Have 'Both Lives'—Sometimes

• [07:18] Merle suggests that some people can approximate “having it all” by waiting until age 38 to have children, allowing them to live a full child-free young adulthood.
• Caution is urged for those with potential fertility issues.

Quote:

“38 is great...You’re much more ready to be a parent.”
— Merle Bombardieri [07:46]

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4. Feeling Stuck is Normal

• [08:34] Most people aren’t 100% sure; being 60/40 or 80/20 on the question is common and can be the start of clarity—not a sign of dysfunction.

Quote:

“Eighty-twenty is about as solid as it gets for a lot of people.”
— Andy Tagle [08:34]

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5. Decision-Making Exercises

Merle shares three favorite exercises to help clarify values and feelings about parenthood (all helpful for singles or couples):

A. Chair Dialogue

• [09:26] Sit alone in two opposing chairs, voicing arguments for each side (parenthood vs. child-free), noticing which “voice” feels truer or stirs stronger emotions.

Quote:

"...Until I heard this voice, I didn't realize that maybe my truest self and my happiest self would be a child free person."
— Merle Bombardieri [10:39]

B. Knapsack Exercise

• [10:52] Imagine your life as a knapsack; have a baby “kick out” items—what falls out, and how do you feel about it?

Quote:

"For people who choose to be parents, it's really a great invitation to creative thinking. Well, what if we had a child? How would I play tennis? How would I write my novel?"
— Merle Bombardieri [11:35]

C. Swedish Family Hotel Exercise

• [12:00] Envision raising a child in a highly supportive, community-oriented setting. Does parenthood appeal under ideal circumstances?

Quote:

“If you are 100% child free, you would say, even with that, I would still not want to have a child. ... whereas other people will say, wow, if I could do this, I would definitely have a child, maybe two children.”
— Merle Bombardieri [12:54]

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6. The Role of Fear, Uncertainty, and Societal Concerns

• [15:38] The future is uncertain. Factors like climate change, global unrest, or the fear of childbirth can weigh heavily.
• Perspective is key: some use their child-free status to focus on activism; parents can raise children as change-makers.

Quote:

“I'm scared too. …But I don't know what our world is going to be like...”
— Merle Bombardieri [16:03]

“We would never encourage anyone who is terrified … to say yes to parenthood. And they deserve our respect.”
— Merle Bombardieri [17:44]

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7. Myth-Busting: The ‘Lonely Only Child’

• [19:14] Choosing to have a single child can be a valid compromise, especially for couples struggling to agree or with limited resources.
• Only children, on average, thrive socially and emotionally.

Quote:

“Only children are voted most popular in their class. They're very mentally healthy...a more undiluted relationship.”
— Merle Bombardieri [19:55]

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8. When Partners Differ

• [20:54] The child/child-free question is not always zero-sum. Partners can sometimes “meet in the middle” or find unexpected solutions by exploring the “why” behind each position.
• But: no one should be pressured into parenthood.

Quote:

"If someone is certain that they want to be child free, they should never have a child to please their partner."
— Merle Bombardieri [23:43]

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9. Changing Your Mind is Okay

• [25:18] Long-term relationships can evolve; people grow and may change their parenting desires. Respecting this is part of healthy relationships and self-growth.
• [25:48] For single listeners: seek support systems if considering solo parenthood. Community can enrich the parenting experience.

Quote:

"It's actually healthy to not know because it gives you the chance to figure out what you really want... A lot of interesting things can happen on the way to finding out that are really wonderful for your personal growth..."
— Merle Bombardieri [26:49]

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Memorable Moments & Quotes

• On Role Models & Regret:

  "Child free should be the default. We should assume that everyone is going to be child free unless they actively choose to have a child because they value that..."
  — Merle Bombardieri [02:35]

• On Curiosity and Personal Growth:

  "If you think about curiosity, like...going to a play and the curtain hasn't opened yet…and that anticipation and curiosity, what's going to happen?"
  — Merle Bombardieri [26:49]

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Timestamps for Key Segments

• "Who am I?" The real baby decision: [00:44]
• Active decisions vs. drifting/regret: [05:23]
• Is it possible to have both lives? "38 is great": [07:46]
• Feeling stuck is normal: [08:34]
• Decision-making exercises: [09:26]–[12:54]
• Fears about the future (climate, childbirth): [15:38]–[18:07]
• Onlies & myths Debunked: [19:55]
• Navigating partner differences: [20:54]–[24:32]
• Changing your mind/singles who parent: [25:18]–[26:49]
• Final words about the beauty of not knowing: [26:49]

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Takeaways Recap

[27:53] Andy Tagle summarizes:

1. No perfect choice, only the right one for you
2. Feeling ambivalent is normal (you might only get to 80% certainty)
3. Worries are natural; seek information and find guidance from role models
4. Compromise and communication can reveal a middle ground—don’t default to a breakup
5. You're allowed to change your mind and your path, including parenting solo or child freely

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Overall Tone & Approach

Warm, validating, and deeply practical. Both hosts and guest stress that there’s no "right" answer—only an actively chosen, thoughtful path that fits you. All exercises and advice are grounded in empathy and realism, not judgment.

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This episode is a must for anyone wrestling with the parenthood question—single, partnered, ambivalent, or simply curious.

Transcript

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[Marielle Segarra]

You're listening to Life Kit from npr. Hey, it's Marielle. You know, I feel lucky to live in a time in which becoming a parent is increasingly a choice, right? Not just the default setting for your life path or the next natural step. It's a big deal to bring another life into the world. And deciding if you want to do that is a question that's bound to raise a bunch more.

[Merle Bombardieri]

The baby decision is never just about baby or no baby. It is who am I? Who is my partner? Who are we as a couple? And what hasn't happened yet that we want to have happen before we die?

[Marielle Segarra]

Merle Bombardieri is a clinical social worker, psychotherapist, and author of a book called the Baby Decision. She's been coaching people through this choice about whether to have a child since she was 29.

[Merle Bombardieri]

So it's almost 50 years I've been doing this, and I love doing it.

[Marielle Segarra]

Merle started down this path after facing her own baby decision when her then boyfriend proposed to her. She told him no at first because she knew he absolutely wanted kids, and she was pretty sure she didn't.

[Merle Bombardieri]

And he just said, well, you know, you'll change your mind. You know, our love will continue. At some point, you'll just want to have a child. And I said to him, we can't be sure of that.

[Marielle Segarra]

So they talked about it over several months, what the future could look like with a child and without one, what they each wanted for themselves and where they might be able to compromise. And here's a pro tip.

[Merle Bombardieri]

A really, really important thing in my being able to make the decision is that I found role models.

[Marielle Segarra]

In her case, she talked to the mothers coming in and out of the university daycare center where she worked. Many of them were faculty or grad students.

[Merle Bombardieri]

They said life is really, really busy right now. It's really, really hard these first few years. But we love both. We love both lives. And, you know, we know that parenthood is going to get easier. So, yes, we are feminists and, you know, very adamant to continue our careers. And we're also mothers.

[Marielle Segarra]

Merle has two daughters now. That was her choice. Yours might be different. She says there's no right or wrong as long as you make a choice intentionally rather than letting time or fate decide for you, because she's found that's how regret and resentment can creep in.

[Merle Bombardieri]

I really believe that child free should be the default. We should assume that everyone is going to be child free unless they actively choose to have a child because they value that they want to add a child to their lives.

[Marielle Segarra]

On this episode of Life Kit, how to Decide Whether to Become a Parent Life Kit reporter Andy Tagle is going to talk to Merle about minimizing regret, about the myth of the lonely only child, and about how to deal when your partner wants something completely different from you.

[Andy Tagle]

Foreign.

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[Andy Tagle]

So much of the hand wringing about the baby decision, it seems, comes down to regret. Just plain and simple. Is it possible, Merle, not to have regrets? To be totally certain about being a parent or being child free?

[Merle Bombardieri]

I would say no. The word decide comes from a Latin root meaning to cut away from. So every decision involves law. So if you decide to have a child, you're Giving up all the control and the freedom and the excitement and the ability to have a really undiluted relationship with your partner if you're in a relationship and so on. If you decide to be child free, you're giving up experiencing a baby, maybe seeing what the genes and the appearance and the talents of you and your partner will be like. Who's going to be around your table when you're 60? So what I say is don't ask will I regret my decision, Ask which decision will I regret least? And what makes this decision work so hard is that because people are trying to make the decision and they want to make the right decision and they're terrified they won't. They have a very unrealistic picture of how they're going to spend the rest of their life. You know, regret might be, you know, a little twinge, a little awareness here and there, but once they start enjoying and living their life, they're not going to be thinking about regrets all the time. And when there are twinges, they can say, well, you know, that's normal, that's human, and, and we made a good choice and we're enjoying our lives. But when people think they have to make the perfect choice, they really paint themselves into a corner.

[Andy Tagle]

You're holding back without knowing it because of that daycare that you might need to be saving for. Because of xyz.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Exactly. And when people make decisions actively, they feel in control. They feel like they made a wise choice together. So when the problems come up, they put them in that context. Whereas people who have an accidental pregnancy or just drift into being child free never really have a finite decision. And that energy of not making the decision is actually exhausting. So the conscious decision allows people to know what they're doing, why they're doing it, and make the most of whichever life they choose.

[Andy Tagle]

Takeaway 1 either side of this decision is going to come with regrets, at least now and then. So there's no perfect choice. There's just the right choice for you. That said, I did ask Merle if there was any way to have both worlds. And to my surprise, she said yes. Actually, in a way, there is the answer. If it makes sense. Wait to have a baby until you're 38.

[Merle Bombardieri]

38 is great. I have to caution, because if you have reasons to expect fertility problems and you're 30, I would not suggest you wait until you're 38 or you're 39. But actually, a lot of the people that we work with start having a child at 38 or 39. You were 18 when you first became an adult. You've had 20 years to travel, get established in your career, get to know your partner, your desires, your commitments, what you care about, and so on. And you, you are much more ready to be a parent. You're able to have a smaller world that feels big inside because you love your child, for instance. So people who do have a child around 38 have a way in which they have both lives.

[Andy Tagle]

Now, if that magic number doesn't feel like the answer takeaway two is it's okay to feel stuck. Yes, there are some people out there who always knew they wanted to be a daddy or that they never, ever wanted to go through pregnancy. But Merle says many, many others are just right in the middle, or maybe leaning slightly in one direction, say, 60, 40. And if that's your split, she says that's a good start because that's the beginning of a decision. And in her experience, she's found that 80, 20 is about as solid as it gets for a lot of people. Just something to keep in mind as you move forward. Let's talk about a few ways to get a little closer to the decision that you will regret the least. I know there's a lot of, a lot of great exercises that you offer people. I wonder if you have a favorite one that you like to start with.

[Merle Bombardieri]

One that I like to start with is the chair dialogue. You don't do with your partner. You don't do it with an audience. You put two chairs facing each other, and you sit in one chair and say, of course I'm going to have a baby. I've longed for this, you know, all my life, and I want my parents to have grandchildren. And it's going to be fun. It's going to be great. And then go sit in the other chair and say, I'm terrified of pregnancy. I don't like children. And let those two voices argue it out. And I really emphasize you're not making a list of pros and cons. You're trying to listen to body language. You sit in one chair, you feel more alert, you feel more animated. One side is angry, one side is pleading. And so you get a lot of information. And people usually just know when the energy has changed. And what I love about this is so many people will just be so surprised. They'll say, I thought I really was 50, 50, and my child voice is so much stronger than I thought, or my child free voice is so much stronger because I thought having kids is what people do and because My partner and my parents wanted it. Of course I was going to have a child. And until I heard this voice, I didn't realize that maybe my truest self and my happiest self would be a child free person.

[Andy Tagle]

So this can get you clear on your own values about the two sides. And that's why you want to do it by yourself. And then you can bring those values to a conversation with a partner if you have one.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Yes, exactly.

[Andy Tagle]

Next one I had here is the knapsack exercise.

[Merle Bombardieri]

So imagine you have a very, very large knapsack on your back and you're going on a hike that you're really enjoying, and all of a sudden your baby is there and your baby kicks a hole in the knapsack and everything starts to fall out. Well, what's falling out? And you can think of that symbolically. It could be a tennis racket, it could be a typewriter. If you're a writer, it could be a lab beaker. If you're a biochemist, it can be imagining being able to wake up late on Sunday morning with your partner and not having to talk to anyone or do anything. So thinking about what's falling out, one question is, how do you feel about that? And it could be, that's horrible. I would never do that. I'm going to be child free.

[Andy Tagle]

But.

[Merle Bombardieri]

But for people who choose to be parents, it's really a great invitation to creative thinking. Well, what if we had a child? How would I play tennis? How would I write my novel? How can we have great couple time, et cetera. So very, very rich things come out of that.

[Andy Tagle]

That visual is just so striking. Just kicking it out and letting everything spill out. Okay, and then the final one. Swedish Family Hotel.

[Merle Bombardieri]

The idea of Swedish Family hotel is some parents in Europe have wonderful opportunities to raise their kids without it all alone. They might live in a community where their child can walk to school, where the daycare center is next door, where they have their separate family apartments, but there's a big common room where people share meals and there's a lot of parental leave. And so in this kind of setup, you're not driving kids 10 miles to get to daycare. So whatever direction we can go in for us all to raise kids together will make it a lot easier.

[Andy Tagle]

All right, this sounds wonderful. And sadly, it's pretty far away from the reality of how most parents live here in the US Is the idea of this exercise to, you know, be more aware of what it means to be a parent and like, think about what kind of support they'd actually need to raise a family.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Well, you know, you read about how it's set up and if you are 100% child free, you would say, even with that, I would still not want to have a child. And that exercise really helps me realize I don't want to be a parent. Whereas other people will say, wow, if I could do this, I would definitely have a child, maybe two children. And so it raises their awareness. Maybe they really have decided to be a parent, but they need to decide, is parenthood possible for me and for us with these circumstances?

[Andy Tagle]

So take a pause, take a little time, maybe whip out a few chairs and see what comes to the surface. You might surprise yourself. Then when we come back from the break, Meryl will talk about some of the common fears that hold people back from choosing to have kids or be child free.

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[Andy Tagle]

you're listening to Life Kit and it's time for takeaway three. For better or worse, the future holds no guarantees. Only you can decide how much fear, discomfort, or uncertainty you can handle with the information you have to work with. A big one for a lot of people, for example, is climate change or, you know, the general state of the world and the planet. Merle says even for her, this one is difficult.

[Merle Bombardieri]

I'm scared too. You know, I'm used to being the professional who can sort of help people deal with their emotions, I can give them the intellectual framework, etc. But I don't know what our world is going to be like, you know, in 20 years or 30 years or 200 years. It's very confusing.

[Andy Tagle]

And the thing is, with any worry, say the pain of childbirth or the fear of loneliness in old age, if you're leaning child free because you can't know for certain how things will shake out, it really all comes down to perspective, like with the environment. Meryl says she's had clients who say, I just can't bring a child into this world. But on the other side of the coin, she cited this perspective from a book called the Beginning Comes after the End. And the idea is just that there are so many different kinds of people around the world that are energized about wanting to make change right now that it's bound to happen.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Some people decide to be child free. Say, I'm going to use my time that I would be putting into children to really work on environmental change. Parents, you might think, oh, if they're going to decide to have a child, they're just going to put their head in the sand. But no, it's how do we raise our children so that they appreciate the planet and help solve the problem.

[Andy Tagle]

Another example, Merle says with the advent of TikTok, she's found our current generation is more terrified of childbirth than ever before. Now, if you look at maternal mortality rates or recent research on early prenatal care, maybe that's enough to ease your worry. Maybe finding some relaxation techniques and a birthing teen you really like could help even more. But maybe not. And there's nothing wrong with that.

[Merle Bombardieri]

We would never encourage anyone who is terrified of that to push themselves over the edge and say yes to parenthood. And they deserve our respect. You know, we shouldn't say, oh, you're cowards because you didn't go ahead. Everybody's needs and feelings are different and they have a right to say no to parenthood, even if in many ways they'd like to be a parent. They can make their own choice and we need to respect that.

[Andy Tagle]

And on the other side, you never know what your child will go through. You never know what your child will be like. You never know the disposition of your child, you never know the ailments your child will have or the hardships they'll go through. Thoughts on that?

[Merle Bombardieri]

Well, what I hear when I'm listening to our own clients is we want to be parents enough that even though we hope this doesn't happen, we still think it would be worth it. Not everybody decides that, but a lot of people do. One example I'll give is people who have grown up with a sibling who was very sick or had a disability where a lot of the family resources, the parents, attention, time, money, went into the other child for understandable reasons. They are more terrified of having a child that might be very difficult to raise than a child that might suffer. So for them to make the decision to have a child is much, much more difficult. And so for people who are ambivalent about that, sometimes the best thing to do is to decide not to have a child.

[Andy Tagle]

Takeaway 4. The baby decision might not be as black and white all or nothing as you think it is. So if you have a partner who seems to be on the opposite side of the spectrum, don't panic, challenge your assumptions, get creative, look for the middle ground. Yes, there is middle ground here. For example, maybe you would really love a family, but you're really worried about your finances. Have you considered having just one child? I mean the question is usually, so you gonna have kids? The plural is assumed, right? The first one's gotta have a buddy or else. But why do you feel that way? Exactly.

[Merle Bombardieri]

So there's the myth of the lonely only child. But actually only children are voted most popular in their class. They're very mentally healthy, they get along really well with other people and they often enjoy, as their parents do, a more undiluted relationship. Especially if people have either parent has an illness or if they have ADHD or another cognitive or neurodivergent disorder, they may manage to have one child and have it work that they're enjoying the child, the child's enjoying life, they're doing their work, they have the relationship. But if they add another child to the pile, it is just going to be impossible. And a lot of times people are pressured, oh, your child needs a sibling. Absolutely not true. So I believe that the one child family is an excellent solution for many couples and also single people who want the pleasure of a child but don't want to be overwhelmed by the obligation for many children.

[Andy Tagle]

Another big part of this is when two people want different things. Very often the assumption Is this is a zero sum game, right? Either, yes, we're doing this, no, we're not. And if we can't decide, we have to break up. Can we talk a little bit about what that process is, if that's true or not?

[Merle Bombardieri]

Well, some people do break up and that can be the answer. So if you think of the decision as being a scale from 0 to 10, an 11 point scale, and if you absolutely know that you would never have a child, you would be the zero. This is no criticism of child free. It's because you want zero children. And if 10 is, I was put on the earth to have a child and I will have to divorce my partner if they say no, Most people are somewhere in between. So a lot of times people actually can find a solution that will work for both of them. And again, we're looking at myths. So sometimes people have very unrealistic ideas about how lonely being child free would be or how hard parenting is going to be. And when they get more information, they're actually able to say, well, maybe this could work. And so what's really important is that the couple listen to each other. They describe what they are envisioning of the life, why they think their partner would enjoy it, and they really listen to their partner's desire. And when they do that and they get more information about good things about child free, good things about parenting that they didn't know, sometimes they're able to come to the center. So if one person wants to be child free and there are four, and the other person wants a child, but they're an eight, they have the capacity in listening to each other and figuring out what would be the best life for them as a couple to decide to be child free or to have a child.

[Andy Tagle]

Let's get more specific about that. So, for example, in that 4 and 8 scenario, maybe that 4 person who's child free says, I'm leaning towards child free because I want to travel some more. You know, I've never seen Spain, I've never seen Asia. And the person says, I've always seen myself as a mother. What could a compromise look like there?

[Merle Bombardieri]

Okay, well, one thing that can be discussed is, okay, name some countries you want to go to. Let's talk about how we could go to them and start a family in three years. Another compromise is, I want three kids, you want zero. If we really talk about this, could you imagine that one child might work? There are a lot of people who are ambivalent. They're aware of what they're giving up by even winning their choice. And they're aware of things that they would enjoy with their partner's choice. The one thing that I feel very strongly about is if someone is certain that they want to be child free, they should never have a child to please their partner. That just does not work out. Whether it's going to be divorced or an unhappy family, it is just too much of a struggle.

[Andy Tagle]

If you're a zero on that scale and you know it for sure, you should never agree to have a child to please your partner.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Exactly. A lot of times people will decide, I love my partner, I do not want to give my partner up. Even though I would prefer the other life. I see enough attractions to their life that I'm going to say yes. And one thing that's really important if you are going to agree to your partner's choice is you need to know that they have bent over backwards to figure out a way that it could work. Like saying more years of travel or I really need my once a year with my college roommates, going off for a week to backpack or whatever and asking what could I do to make this choice more attractive to you? And that can be very useful too.

[Andy Tagle]

I like that a lot. What about those couples that made an agreement when they first got together? You know, you said that you never wanted kids. You said that you always wanted to be a mother.

[Merle Bombardieri]

Let's say you've been married for 20 years. You know, you're 40 and it was 20 when you said of course I'll be a parent or of course I'll be child free. People change. People have a right to change the their minds. And one can feel very betrayed and one can understand the betrayal. But a part of life and a part of all the people you love, not just your partner, is understanding that they, like you, can have new needs, new desires, new things they want to try or experience. And that what made perfect sense to them at 20 is different now.

[Andy Tagle]

Last up, takeaway five. You are allowed to change your mind and if necessary, your path in life. That might look like seeking a new relationship with a partner who shares your desire for a child. Free lifestyle, or maybe becoming a parent without a partner. Any advice for someone who is single who's still on the fence about having kids? What kind of questions should someone who's looking to be a single parent by choice consider?

[Merle Bombardieri]

An important thing is having a support system. You don't want to do it all on your own. You know, who do you call in the middle of the night if you're trying to decide whether to go to the hospital. You know, who's going to be patting your tummy when you're eight months pregnant. And one thing that's really interesting about single mothers by choice is we have a stereotype that single mothers are miserable. But if you have a happy life as an individual and you actively choose to add a baby to your life again, you make an active decision, you're in control, and it can be quite wonderful. Another thing that's really interesting about single motherhood is that when you're a single mother or a single father, everybody knows you need help. They know you can't do it all, so they'll offer to drive you to the grocery store or stay with your child while you do something else. They know to reach out to you. So there's a lot of great things happening with single people becoming parents.

[Andy Tagle]

Hmm. Marle, it's been such a pleasure. Do you have any last advice, final thoughts for anyone out there who's sitting on the fence and in need of encouragement?

[Merle Bombardieri]

Well, I think one thing that's really important is that you're right to not know. A lot of times when people start working on this, they're saying, what's the matter with me or with my partner that we don't know? It's actually healthy to not know because it gives you the chance to figure out what you really want. And if you think about curiosity, like, you know, if you read a mystery and you found out who done it in the first chapter, you wouldn't want to read the rest of the book or think about going to a play and the curtain hasn't opened yet. And that anticipation and curiosity, what's going to happen? So a lot of interesting things can happen on the way to finding out that are really wonderful for your personal growth if you're in a relationship. Also for couple growth. And even if you're single, the conversations you have with partners or family members and close friends and so on can be really, really rich and wonderful.

[Andy Tagle]

Merle, thank you so much for your time.

[Merle Bombardieri]

You're very welcome. Such an honor to be here. I'm so glad we were able to have this conversation.

[Andy Tagle]

All right, let's recap. Takeaway 1. Either side of this decision is going to come with regrets. There's no perfect choice. There's just the right choice for you. But if you want the best of both worlds, remember, 38 is great. Takeaway 2. It's very normal to feel stuck about this decision. Meryl says a lot of people she works with will only ever get to about 80% certainty about their choice. Takeaway 3 Are you terrified of losing your identity? Worried about growing old without a full family dinner table? Worries are a natural part of the decision process. But remember, there are no guarantees, so seek out data. Find role models to help you make an informed decision. Takeaway 4 yes, you can compromise. If one person in a relationship is leaning toward parenthood and the other is leaning towards child free. Talk about it and keep talking about it to see where you might need an the middle instead of jumping right to breaking up. Takeaway 5. You're allowed to change your mind and your path when necessary. Raise a little one on your own. Be child free with a spouse. Make the choice that is right for you and only you.

[Marielle Segarra]

That was reporter Andy Taegle and that's our show. Hey, by the way, if you love Life Kit and you want it to be even easier easier to listen to with curated playlists on popular Life Kit topics like sleep and personal finances. Sign up for Life Kit Plus. You can find out more at plus.npr.org lifekit this episode of Life Kit was produced by Margaret Serino. Our digital editor is Malika Garib, and our visuals editor is CJ Reecalon. Meghan Cain is our senior supervising editor and Beth Donovan is our executive producer. Our production team also includes Claire Marie Schneider and Sylvie Douglas. Engineering support comes from Nisha Hyness. I'm Marielle Segarra. Thanks for listening.

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