
On this week's episode, we dive into Part 4: The Ravine. Hunt is dealing with the aftermath of his MEAN actions and Bryce is barely dealing with the insane amount of info that's being dumped into her brain. Please read up until Chapter 76 for next week! These Deep Dives are based on novels by Sarah J Maas. Intro music by Ryan Connor. Cover art by Jeff Nitzberg. Subscribe to SiriusXM Podcasts+ on Apple Podcasts to listen to ad-free new episodes.
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Natalie Jean
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Jackie Zabrowski
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Natalie Jean
It's good for.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I love doing my tongue work. Now I'm ready. Oh my God. You were recording. You shouldn't have heard that. Oh, no. I guess it's just because we're sexy bad angels.
Natalie Jean
Or am I? We don't know if I'm bad.
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, we don't know. We don't know. I. You know, we can't say this in this world, but I think a lot of these books have really put me off the idea of being angelic. I think it's bad. I think it's no good. Who wants to wants to be in heaven?
Natalie Jean
Sounds boring.
Jackie Zabrowski
I don't think so. I want to be in heaven.
Natalie Jean
Say they're going to heaven.
Jackie Zabrowski
I know I don't want to be in heaven with all of them. I just realized that my wig is making a consistent sound as it rustles up against my wings, which, you know, it's hard out here for an angel.
Natalie Jean
I can't hear it. So in your own head, that's what.
Jackie Zabrowski
It sounds like over here.
Natalie Jean
Wow. I guess I kind of hear that on mine too.
Jackie Zabrowski
A little bit. A little bit. I have on a silver bodycon dress right now.
Natalie Jean
This wig is.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you.
Natalie Jean
Are slaying this way.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you so much. And now I'm like, do I like dye my hair black and then put these like. Because this is like a lived in blonde. Like, I love this wig.
Natalie Jean
It does have really cute highlights, right?
Jackie Zabrowski
Like. Like you barely see them highlights, but it gives.
Natalie Jean
Do you want to live your life a virgin or do you want to defile your hair as somebody? You've never once dyed your hair, which still is amazing to me.
Jackie Zabrowski
I know. I'm scared of doing it. I feel like once you pop, the fun don't stop.
Natalie Jean
Well, I do think as soon as you start doing, you will be like all of the colors.
Jackie Zabrowski
Every color. Are you going to go back to the deep orange that you were talking about?
Natalie Jean
Me?
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes.
Natalie Jean
I don't know what I'm doing.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, God. Do any of us? I don't think so.
Natalie Jean
I'm not gonna go with this color and cut because I do not care for you.
Jackie Zabrowski
You know, I think that it brings out your wings. Like, I think it's good.
Natalie Jean
I look like a little 1920s boy stealing candy from a candy shop.
Jackie Zabrowski
You do look like you need a cartoo foolishly large lollipop. And for you to go, missed us.
Natalie Jean
I swears I didn't steal it until you see my rippling pets.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And then I go, of course. Those are the pecs of a criminal. That's what I think. I mean, anytime I.
Natalie Jean
Or an anti hero. We don't know.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, we don't know. We don't know yet. Oh my God. I had a dream that you were a sexy baby and I'm a monster on the hill. Yeah, that's for my swifties out there. For the song Anti Hero.
Natalie Jean
Was that a lyric or were you saying you actually had a dream about me?
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, I didn't have a dream that you were a sexy baby, but I do have you in my dreams fairly often.
Natalie Jean
I think that's normal. You can't. Apparently the Internet told me you can't make new faces up in your dreams. But that could just be like on a thing where somebody said on Reddit.
Jackie Zabrowski
And you see no faces that's the word on the street, is that you see no faces. And now I try to actively look at the faces, but I wish I had dream control. I need to start. What is it? You snap. Snap the bracelet, snap the bracelet. You flick the light. You flick the light. You got to do these things. This is how we start dream controlling.
Natalie Jean
What's it called? Astral project.
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, that I don't think has anything to do with the bracelet snappings and the. And the lights flipping.
Natalie Jean
I have no idea what you're speaking about.
Jackie Zabrowski
Whoa. So apparently there are ways there things you're supposed to add into your everyday life so that you can start becoming more aware if you are in a dream or if you're in reality. So it's the like. The idea is in real life, when you enter a room, flick on and off the lights, flick on and off the lights. And you see the lights go on. You see the lights go on, go off. But in your dream, if you go. So if you start adding that into your everyday life and then in your dream, you'll go in and flick on the lights, flick off the lights, flick on the lights, but they won't do anything. So then you'll know that you're in a dream, say with like, same with your braces. I'm sure there's more science behind this than what I'm saying about it, but this is what I loosely know about it.
Natalie Jean
What is it supposed to do?
Jackie Zabrowski
It's supposed to make you more aware. It's supposed to bring you like, to snap you in to like, see if you are in control of your body or if you're not scary, I mean, scary everybody.
Natalie Jean
That's the beginning of like every sci fi movie that's ever existed. I feel like you're not supposed to fully be able to control your brain in that way.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, but we should be controlling our brains because Lord help us. I'm just over here dreaming about you as a sexy baby, apparently. Well, very difficult for me.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, I. So, yeah, in my dreams I know it's people. If I can't, I don't. I guess maybe I'm not seeing their faces, but I know it's a person. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I know who that person is. So you just assuming your mind is just like putting somebody you already know on the character.
Jackie Zabrowski
So yeah, that. That's what it's supposed to be. But also, I get hunted a lot in my dreams, which turns out his anxiety, I do as well. See, and so I'm not really? Usually looking at the faces. Usually I'm just in, like, abject horror. So I get a lot. It's fun, though. It's fun this way.
Natalie Jean
Do you get a lot of. I. I get constantly trying to run up that hill, but can't.
Jackie Zabrowski
You're just like.
Natalie Jean
It's really like you can't move fast.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Like you're under. Like you're in mud glasses.
Natalie Jean
I get. I hate it. I hate the feeling so much. And it is so frustrating and upsetting.
Jackie Zabrowski
And that's like, the point of it or something. I don't know. I guess that I should. Should I be smoking less weed so I remember the dreams more, or is it for the best that I'm not remembering them?
Natalie Jean
I don't know. I don't know if there's a better way or not. I don't know if there's, like, a recommendation, but I remember my dreams too much a lot of the time.
Jackie Zabrowski
Maybe you should be smoking more weed, because this is the thing is, I used to be a drunk, and then you. I would never remember any of my dreams because I don't think I was dreaming at all because I was blacked out. And so I would just didn't know. So when people say, oh, you smoke weed, that means you don't remember your dreams. Like, I think it kind of helped me remember my dreams more. Okay, so it's not the weed, everybody. I don't have a problem.
Natalie Jean
You have a solution.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you. This is big. Upping each other. And I appreciate you. And I appreciate. You know what? I'm going to say it. I appreciate the wig. I am scared of you.
Natalie Jean
It's doing a lot of work today.
Jackie Zabrowski
You start calling you Fault Leroy. Oh, Fauntleroy. What do you have to say?
Natalie Jean
You can't. Can you tell who I am?
Jackie Zabrowski
No.
Natalie Jean
Oh, you don't know?
Jackie Zabrowski
No.
Natalie Jean
Oh, come on.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. No. I want to find out how many.
Natalie Jean
People have white wings in this.
Jackie Zabrowski
I just let me let it wash over me. Let me feel it in my bones. Natalie.
Natalie Jean
I feel as though actually this could be multiple characters in this book.
Jackie Zabrowski
Whoa. So now you're trying to juke me?
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Are you trying to. You're trying to wait, trivia my brain and then juke me? I guess I don't trust you at all. I trust you as much as I would trust any angel in my life. And that's not.
Natalie Jean
Not at all. You shouldn't. Anybody says that they are that you run away.
Jackie Zabrowski
So you ain't no angel. You a devil. And I know it.
Natalie Jean
No, you want a devil around. They're better.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And I say yes, I should. I should put a little extra in my drink. And by extra, I mean THC drops. I didn't these sober. This is a sober coffee. And my sober tropical fruit Waterloo. But I won't start talking about how obsessed I am with tropical fruit Waterloo. But I will open.
Natalie Jean
Seems like you are starting.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's just good.
Natalie Jean
We're in a ravine, baby.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, take us to the ravine.
Natalie Jean
Part four. We're in the ravine. The. The deepest of the holes.
Jackie Zabrowski
Quite a chasm for us to nestle into.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. Strangely, no. I guess chapter called the chasm. Or no part called the chasm. Yeah, right.
Jackie Zabrowski
But I guess I dare say the ravine. Pretty close to a chasm.
Natalie Jean
A ravine sounds pretty big.
Jackie Zabrowski
I think you're looking out over a cat has them. I don't know necessarily what that means, but if I were to assume geography, and I do it all the time, you would stand upon ravine and look out over a chasm.
Natalie Jean
Really interesting.
Jackie Zabrowski
I see.
Natalie Jean
I was thinking it was the hole.
Jackie Zabrowski
I may have made that up.
Natalie Jean
I don't know.
Jackie Zabrowski
I'm gonna. I'm gonna be again. I know everybody comes here for my science, for my doctor skills, because I say, oh, put a hole in the neck. That's how you make them breathe. That's what everybody says. Oh, they're choking. Put a hole in that neck.
Natalie Jean
Oh, God.
Jackie Zabrowski
I see. I. I had to go through this. I got really, really scared. A couple years ago, I wanted to get Jeff some like, really good medical supply, like, medical emergency kits, like, if he had to like, make a splint. And we couldn't get to, like, that stuff. He likes that stuff. So I had to do a bunch of research into, like, what kind of stuff you need to have. And I found this company that makes like, really great, like very in depth. And it also explains you, like, what if last minute somebody's choking and you have to shove a pen into their neck? So he knows how to do all that stuff. And so in my brain I'm just like, get the pen. Make them breathe. Get the pen.
Natalie Jean
You thinking about this a lot?
Jackie Zabrowski
Nobody's asking me for help in an emergency.
Natalie Jean
Well, everybody reach out. Let us know if you would ask Jackie for help in an emergency. And also let us know if a ravine is the hole or if a ravine is the place you stand upon to look into the hole.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's almost as if we've got these devices in front of us that we could look up the information.
Natalie Jean
I will not.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, I absolutely will not. You can't take away from me what a ravine is. And I'm looking out over into that chasm.
Natalie Jean
Okay, well, there we go.
Jackie Zabrowski
And I say there's a hole in this planet.
Natalie Jean
All I know.
Jackie Zabrowski
Earth. Mother Earth.
Natalie Jean
It's a reverse hill. Upside down.
Jackie Zabrowski
You're right. Titties on the Earth.
Natalie Jean
Everything in part four is not great.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, it's bad.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. Worse. Even more, because though maybe Bryce had to go through the agony of the murders already, she's now been told that her best friend committed the murders.
Jackie Zabrowski
You better not be hiding any murders over there that you have done and you haven't told me about, because I'm gonna be really upset with you, Natalie.
Natalie Jean
Not that I remember. Hopefully that's the end of the story.
Jackie Zabrowski
Whoa. Fugue State murder. The Natalie King story.
Natalie Jean
I'm covering Satanic ritual abuse on my other show.
Jackie Zabrowski
And so it's silly.
Natalie Jean
It's.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's wacky.
Natalie Jean
I'll call it wacky.
Jackie Zabrowski
You could bring the facts into here. I'm sure I can. I'll be like, wow.
Natalie Jean
During the Satanic. During the Satanic panic, people got falsely accused of satanic ritual abuse. And some of them, who were very devout people, were just finally like, I. Maybe I don't remember, but maybe I did do it. Maybe I did have a Satanic cult. I don't know.
Jackie Zabrowski
Just like Love is Blind when it's very similar. Because she thought after she saw him for the first time that he had already slid into her DMs and that he knew the entire time what she looked like when she was supposed to say love is blind. And then she's like, I know that I saw him. I saw a picture of him in front of a Christmas tree. Was him. He knows I love family and faith. He knows. So he looked at my Instagram, and then she gets her phone back, and he never did. And she's just like, I could have sworn it was you.
Natalie Jean
That's kind of mental in that portion.
Jackie Zabrowski
Though, with the Satanic panic. If you're being told you're being Satanical all over the place. Don't you kind of just want to give in at that point? I feel like then you go, then go do it.
Natalie Jean
They're bastardizing what Satanism is, and it's.
Jackie Zabrowski
They're.
Natalie Jean
They're saying they're doing bad stuff. Oh, like, stuff you don't want to do.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, I don't want to do that. But I like the principles of Satanism.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
All right. I guess everyone should learn a little bit more then.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, probably.
Jackie Zabrowski
Think about that.
Natalie Jean
So she's learned that Danika is allegedly the one who killed the entire wolf pack.
Jackie Zabrowski
No good.
Natalie Jean
And the person she thought she was falling in love with seems to have been lying to her and using her for his own selfish needs.
Jackie Zabrowski
You betrayed us.
Natalie Jean
I hate this part so much. I can't believe this fourth part. There's so much that happens. It's kind of crazy. It's like the small. The shortest part, I think. Or close to the shortest part. And it is jam packed.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's juicy.
Natalie Jean
It almost ends twice, kind of.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. And I do like how part of me will always wonder. It's like, was she rushed in the end and that she had to, like, get in all this stuff? Because I feel like it could have breathed a little bit, but, oh, hell no. We are on a just, like, sluice. Is that what it's called?
Natalie Jean
I think so.
Jackie Zabrowski
Toboggan sluice?
Natalie Jean
I think so.
Jackie Zabrowski
We're on it, and we're moving fast.
Natalie Jean
And I feel like maybe we don't need more pages of the book.
Jackie Zabrowski
You're right. You are right. I just, you know, there's just a lot in there. They're big books. They're big books.
Natalie Jean
They're big old books. We start off being with Hunt in part four. He is sitting in his holding cell and seems pretty resigned to his fate, which is going to be not good.
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, that's what happens when you play with fire.
Natalie Jean
I mean, he did not make good choices.
Jackie Zabrowski
No.
Natalie Jean
His prison cell is modern, and he's thinking about that because his captivity in Panjara was quite different. It was very much more medieval. Though he hasn't begun getting physically tortured yet, they are broadcasting the fate of his cohorts, which we talked about last week. It's nasty work. He also mentions that Justinian's wings have been cut off and left under his bleeding body.
Jackie Zabrowski
Cool. So they did both of it. It was a double punishment. Thanks so much. Yeah.
Natalie Jean
Angels, I think also, just logistically, if you're gonna be crucified.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I guess. How do you get it up there? Yeah, they're kind of in the way there. You're not gonna lay flat up against the cross, and, I mean, that's really what we're looking for. I want it flush.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, you got to get it right up in there. So. Although it's a horrific sight, he doesn't turn away from the images, instead watches his companions suffering, as I'm sure he believes it's what he deserves.
Jackie Zabrowski
Maybe it is.
Natalie Jean
I mean, I'm not saying he deserves to go through torture, but I'm mad at him. I'm very mad at him.
Jackie Zabrowski
I'm a Leo. All right? It's really hard for me to turn back my trust. Okay. And right now, I don't have it for you.
Natalie Jean
To me.
Jackie Zabrowski
No. I'm gesticulating towards Hunt in my computer.
Natalie Jean
It's fun to watch you as Sandriel being upset at Hunt because she wouldn't ever be.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, no.
Natalie Jean
You need to turn on your bitchometer.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I need to be bitchier. And I should be talking more like this.
Natalie Jean
Is that her voice?
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I guess. No. You know, it would be so little thing.
Natalie Jean
It would be seductive as well.
Jackie Zabrowski
It would be so seductive. And even with this. When I opened up this wig, Jeff was like, that looks a lot like your hair. I was like, no, no, no. This looks like an angel's version of my hair. I mean, I appreciate that it looks.
Natalie Jean
Very natural on you, but it's, you know, it's got highlights and stuff in it.
Jackie Zabrowski
So I just. I've been watching all these reality shows.
Natalie Jean
Well, you definitely look like a bit of a real house. Like, the best way possible. Yes.
Jackie Zabrowski
I appreciate that because they all have these extensions, and I've started, like, in the way that Jeff has started after physical 100. Jeff would explain to me what natty versus not natty is. I feel like I am now doing that, but with hair extensions. And I'm trying to seek out who has hair extensions, because I've never had them before, but I imagine that they're. How do you not think about them all the time?
Natalie Jean
They're very uncomfortable.
Jackie Zabrowski
Are they?
Natalie Jean
I feel like I think they are.
Jackie Zabrowski
Don't you, like, feel. I feel like I would, like, in the way that I feel fake nails on. Don't you feel them in your, like, attached to your head all the time?
Natalie Jean
I used to wear glue tracks all the time in dating.
Jackie Zabrowski
By yourself? Oh, yeah.
Natalie Jean
No, I didn't have money.
Jackie Zabrowski
Whoa.
Natalie Jean
It was not health.
Jackie Zabrowski
So you're just pouring glue on the top of your head?
Natalie Jean
Well, no, you glue the trick. You put glue on the track, and then you part your hair, you glue it on.
Jackie Zabrowski
Okay.
Natalie Jean
But I was doing not a good job. Like, I was ripping every time I pulled them out. Like, hair was just being ripped out of my scalp.
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, because it turns out if you don't do that, because I've been talking about. I was like, I wonder how crazy extensions, in case you never looked them up, they're a little expensive.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. If you want nice ones.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Oh my God. I was like, oh, well, didn't realize there was. I guess it's not gatekeeping though, because you can get cheap ones if you know how to put them in.
Natalie Jean
Also good extensions you can use multiple times. Like you can take them on and off and they can be reused.
Jackie Zabrowski
Maybe I can start living in an extension where I won't.
Natalie Jean
It's fine. Come on, you gotta have some fun with your hair.
Jackie Zabrowski
I'm just so. I'm scared of the hair. Scared. And you have. I'm just so nervous about. It's like what is done cannot be undone. As if your hair can't grow out. And it definitely can be undone.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, it will. It will grow.
Jackie Zabrowski
So talk myself into it by the end of one of these books, you know, who knows?
Natalie Jean
So he's watching all of this play out on. On the screen in front of him.
Jackie Zabrowski
And Nice that they have TVs in the torture rooms. Now. That's a modern torture room.
Natalie Jean
But it's just showing other torture.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, it is definitely like the public access of moida.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Which lots of people like. True crime. I believe that's what this network is built on the back of.
Natalie Jean
Try not to deal with it in real time, but.
Jackie Zabrowski
What are you talking about? We've got torture TVs everywhere in here. How are we supposed to get through the episode? I hate seeing them squaming. I ain't getting to the yapping.
Natalie Jean
I couldn't even get through Faces of Death or anything. I can't.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, no, I. Yeah, I'm making my japes. I don't even like to torture porn. And that's like overtly like not real, you know, I hate it.
Natalie Jean
I can't watch nearly any of it.
Jackie Zabrowski
I was even upset during the Baldwins when they showed the scene.
Natalie Jean
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Jackie Zabrowski
Charlie Heller is the CIA's most brilliant computer Analyst whose life is turned upside down when his wife is murdered in a terrorist attack. Wrought with grief, Charlie decides her killers must pay. Without any field experience, Charlie must trek the globe and use his biggest weapon, his intelligence, to enact his revenge. Because the most unexpected threat is an amateur. Starring Academy Award winner Rami Malek and Academy Award nominee Laurence Fishburne. The Amateur, rated PG13. Only in theaters in IMAX April 11th. I should say that I don't need this. We have to talk about footage.
Natalie Jean
But wait, they talk about rust.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, it's all about that. Oh, it is so disgusting.
Natalie Jean
That is.
Jackie Zabrowski
Literally all of the headlines are a new low for reality television. Go check out page seven if you want to hear us screaming about it. Wow. It's a new low for reality television. I don't need to bring Alec Baldwin into every single thing that I do. It's just. It's at the forefront of my mind right now.
Natalie Jean
That is bleak.
Jackie Zabrowski
Very bleak. Very, very upsetting. And honestly, sadly enough, I do kind of weirdly feel bad for him at the end of the first episode. And you know who I hate even more? Ilaria. But that's it. That's all I say about it.
Natalie Jean
Get it out. Got it out.
Jackie Zabrowski
I just got. I just needed to let it all out. Sorry.
Natalie Jean
So Isaiah ends up showing up in the middle of this first chapter that we're getting into. He appears in front of the cell wanting to speak with Hunt. And he's not mad. He's just disappointed.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's like, do we need this? When I'm in the middle of a torture, it's like, I know he's not getting tortured just yet, but it's like, I don't need disappointment.
Natalie Jean
He asks Hunt the questions we are all having, which is, why would you do this right now? What?
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah.
Natalie Jean
What good could have come from it in the end? But Hunt just brushes him off. He kind of just says, I didn't want to kill anymore for Micah. I wanted it to be over. Almost as if his desire for. In my opinion, maybe his desire for Bryce was like, I don't want to do this life anymore. I want to have this life. I want to start this life now. Except doing this would only cause it to be more difficult to get to that. So he's like, yeah, I up. I. I did okay.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, dude.
Natalie Jean
So he is now just like, yeah, I screwed up.
Jackie Zabrowski
I'm here now. You're not Micah.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Okay. You are Micah. Yeah, I guess the hair. I was like, I mean, blonde Angel. I guess you're. But I. I think that I'm so busy thinking about you as, like, Daisy from the Great Gatsby.
Natalie Jean
Well, you're wearing, like, 1920s woman's way.
Jackie Zabrowski
That. Okay. That it's given Paige boy. Okay.
Natalie Jean
I didn't want to buy a wig for my.
Jackie Zabrowski
I. I understand. I completely understand.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
I think in my brain he just looked more like. What's Draco Malfoy's father's name?
Natalie Jean
Lucian.
Jackie Zabrowski
Lucian. Yeah.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh. Off. I didn't realize it's the same name. You. You. Not you. Jk.
Natalie Jean
Oh. Oh. As. As another character.
Jackie Zabrowski
I know. SJM came after Harry Potter. Don't. Don't. I'm still saying it.
Natalie Jean
Me. Don't come at me. Isaiah does not accept this answer from Hunt. He demands to know why he couldn't have just finished his sentence out. When Hunt shouts that he'll never accept the bit in his mouth, Isaiah suggests that he thought he had something that he was fighting for. Now. As in Bryce, dude.
Jackie Zabrowski
Not cool and not fair.
Natalie Jean
Everyone. Of. Even though they haven't announced their feelings. Everyone can obviously tell and smell it and all that. He tells Hunt that Micah. He's lucky that Micah will not harm Bryce. Even though Micah probably considered it.
Jackie Zabrowski
Uh. Yeah.
Natalie Jean
Which seems to be another thing Hunt should have considered when he was reaching out to the Viper Queen in the first place.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's just all very like. He didn't. It's so interesting for someone that is so good at what he does that, like, leave the organization to somebody else. I feel like this is not your strong suit.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. And I feel like maybe it's also just getting, you know, his first hard on for a while is like, making his mind go all cuckoo.
Jackie Zabrowski
Cuckoo bananas, mate.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. He also informs Hunt that the reason that he himself, Hunt, is not being torture porn to death in the lobby is because Micah did see the text between Hunt and Justinian. That was Hunt telling him they need to back out. They don't. We shouldn't do this. This. With the wind out of Hunt's sails. He simply tells Isaiah to tell Bryce that he's sorry while thinking that Bryce's face will haunt him for the rest of his days.
Jackie Zabrowski
I love you. I'm sorry.
Natalie Jean
A little late for that.
Jackie Zabrowski
It is a little late for that. I'm upset with you, Hunt. Isaiah's fingers lifted toward the bars as if he'd reached for Hunt's hand, but then lowered back to his side.
Natalie Jean
I will. So this. Everybody's sad. We cut over to Bryce a few days later from this interaction. She's in the Griffin Library, we learn through Lehiba's watching the news at this moment that Justinian has died.
Jackie Zabrowski
We'll say that's really probably great for a crucifixion that you bled out so fast.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, yeah. You don't want it to, like, you know, linger on, I guess.
Jackie Zabrowski
How long does a crucifixion last? I mean, it has been days. I don't know.
Natalie Jean
Let me get Jesus on the phone here.
Jackie Zabrowski
Ding dong donk. What's his number? 420. I said, thanks, Jesus, for making the weeds.
Natalie Jean
That was John Travolta, 1998.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah.
Natalie Jean
Comedy right there.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
I contain multitudes. So start wearing like a Kermit Calvin Klein shirt where you can see his underpants. And he's. He's got his little arm, his little frog arms cross.
Natalie Jean
That's adorable. That's. That's timeless.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you.
Natalie Jean
So we learn, yes, Justinian has passed on. His corpse is being left on display for the time being. Bryce notes that the news has not revealed why these Triari soldiers have been killed. So they are being displayed and being publicly, you know, degraded, but that they're not revealing what has happened at all. And she notices that Hunt is not mentioned whatsoever on the news. Nothing about him. She doesn't know at this point if he's dead or alive. Lehaba keeps attempting to broach the subject, asking what happened, where and where Hunt is. But Bryce is not doing well, obviously.
Jackie Zabrowski
Why? It's like, get over it, right, guys?
Natalie Jean
She snaps at Lehiba, eventually slamming the book she's reading closed and stomping upstairs to answer the door. It's not a customer, as she had assumed.
Jackie Zabrowski
The Autumn King surveyed the gallery, the showroom stocked with priceless artifacts, the door that led up to Jesiba's office, and the window in it that overlooked the floor.
Natalie Jean
She has the irrational thought that the Autumn King can somehow spot the God Slayer rifle that is displayed in pieces behind the closed door of Jesus office.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's like he's the last thing she needs right now.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, it's. Nothing good's coming from.
Jackie Zabrowski
Nah, dude.
Natalie Jean
She awkwardly stands there as he silently observes the room. When he doesn't speak, she suggests that maybe he's there to steal something, which he ignores the joke. Though she hates him, she marvels at his beauty. Muscular, with long red hair. His color is where she gets her wine red tresses. His Fae aging gives him the appearance of being just a few years older than her. It's interesting to note his wardrobe. I always Imagine him wearing silk robes and fancy suits and stuff. But he's dressed in black jeans and a long sleeve T shirt. Like he's in a band.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. And this is also. This is another one of these characters that. In my head. Because he's ugly on the inside, he's ugly on the outside. But we. No, he's not. He's also just really hot.
Natalie Jean
Smoking hot.
Jackie Zabrowski
You know, he's so hot. And oh, you know, I wilt for a ginge. Gosh, but you're mean. You're mean. Ginge.
Natalie Jean
Oh, muscly. Finally he.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, muscly into that T shirt.
Natalie Jean
Finally he deigns to speak. He tells her that Run has informed him about everything that happened on the barge. It's Ruhn's job after all. I don't blame him for having to report to it. The Autumn King informs her that the Fae government has assured her safety. She doesn't seem to think it was necessary to do that. But her father quickly asserts that, you know, her torture was on the table, presumably as a punishment to Hunt.
Jackie Zabrowski
It is very interesting that, you know, the Fae government has assured her safety towards the Autumn King. Like I. The part of me is like, okay, so oh, now you give a shit. You haven't given a shit this whole fucking time. But. But you wanted to make sure. And it's like, oh, this is just another like little like control, little manipulation of like see, I'm good when you're not.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. And also, of course you could assume it's for selfish reasons. Of course I would also just take the safety.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh yeah.
Natalie Jean
I mean please go on and save me.
Jackie Zabrowski
Please ask about me.
Natalie Jean
So just his name being dropped out of his mouth is crushing to her. And she tells him she doesn't want to talk about it. Of course she doesn't. She hasn't been able to bring herself to tell even her mom about what's happened. Her feelings of humiliation at being used by Hunt to get back at to the rebellion are. The feelings are almost unbearable.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And she's already back at work. You can't really process all the hell of a lot if you got to be thrown right back into work after finding out all this.
Natalie Jean
And also, yeah, she. She kind of wants to go almost into a robotic mode just continuing on with her days.
Jackie Zabrowski
Which I get. I've been there before.
Natalie Jean
Oh yeah, but that's not the only reason he's there to tell her that she's protected. No, he wants to know if she's made any progress on finding the horn. She's somewhat surprised that he still cares at this point, informing him that the horn was just a red herring, that Danika was just skeeted out and stole it to piss off her mother. It has nothing to do with anything. He casually, maybe a little too casually, mentions that they. You know, maybe they should find it anyway, because, I don't know, it's like, it's fake stuff. So we're.
Jackie Zabrowski
Faye.
Natalie Jean
She find it. She's all like, whatever, fine. I don't know. He then takes a turn. I. I wasn't interested.
Jackie Zabrowski
No. He paused, and then his power buzzed, warping every audio feed before he said.
Natalie Jean
I loved your mother very much. You know.
Jackie Zabrowski
Okay, all right, bro. Fine.
Natalie Jean
Do you like. Bryce has just got to be like, today.
Jackie Zabrowski
We got to do this right now. All the other times we could have.
Natalie Jean
Done this, he's been in the text. He's been nothing but a straight villain this whole book. So it's kind of confusing to me, especially the first time I read it. Like, where did this come from? She's not impressed and points out that he left a scar on her face, so he must not have loved her very much. And so, like, immediately you're like, is he going to somehow prevail as an anti hero kind of guy? But he physically abused her mother, so how would that happen?
Jackie Zabrowski
Or is that how you show your love, you psychopath? You know, it's like, oh, I. I know that we've heard this from pieces of like, that before.
Natalie Jean
Oh, yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh. Oh, well, then I don't want you to love me.
Natalie Jean
No, thank you.
Jackie Zabrowski
If that's how you're showing up.
Natalie Jean
Hard pass. Thank you. So, yeah, so she. She points that out to him.
Jackie Zabrowski
She could have sworn he flinched.
Natalie Jean
Do not think I have not spent every moment since that regretting my actions, living in shame. I'm a little perplexed here.
Jackie Zabrowski
Y.
Natalie Jean
Like, is he going to make an unexpected character arc? I don't know.
Jackie Zabrowski
But.
Natalie Jean
Okay, this is a fan theory, and you actually brought this up first, which would make sense.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you. I am very smart, but only as an angel.
Natalie Jean
The fan theory is, are they mates? And that's why he has those strong feelings and still quitting shame and all.
Jackie Zabrowski
Of that of, like. Like losing what you found. Which is, like, an insane thing, because even though it does seem like, oh, mates happen every other day because of these books, we know that that's not the case.
Natalie Jean
No.
Jackie Zabrowski
And that it's actually, like, a huge thing for them to find each other. And I think that would make a lot of sense.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. It does make a lot of sense, you know, that he would feel this like, draw to Ember and still the. Even though he's a prick, he couldn't help but fall in love with her. And this, by the way, if you'll recall, it's not that far from Reason's parents origin story.
Jackie Zabrowski
Right, right, right. But also, Ember is such a hot name.
Natalie Jean
I love Ember.
Jackie Zabrowski
Such a. No, it's a great name. I just feel like I, I, if like I saw an Ember on an app, I'd immediately swipe and she's like, I'll just try to you just because of your name. And that's very few and far between.
Natalie Jean
It's a lot to live up to. You better be spicy.
Jackie Zabrowski
Spicy.
Natalie Jean
He then reveals another shocker. He had planned to make Ember the Queen of the Autumn Court. Bryce. She never knew this until this moment.
Jackie Zabrowski
But again, right now. Yeah, right.
Natalie Jean
She doesn't let her surprise show too much. She tells him that Ember would not have wanted it anyway, which is usually.
Jackie Zabrowski
The people that should be in power. But we don't want to go down that road.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, but the Autumn King insists that. Oh, she absolutely would have. She loved me that much. Witch. Okay, okay. So we have to see their story at some point. It will make me nuts if we don't because I'm just like, did Ember actually love him?
Jackie Zabrowski
Right. I want to see it. I want to read it.
Natalie Jean
Give it after the next Acotar book.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. Yeah, please, please. We're just waiting for that release date. It's got to be this year, right? It's.
Natalie Jean
I think it's supposed to be right.
Jackie Zabrowski
The end of this year. Everybody's waiting for the Acatar release D date. I'm sorry, I shouldn't be another one of the people that just, you know, is another monkey on her back. But everybody knows that if I woke up tomorrow as a monkey, I'd be very cute and I'd be very loud. Hey, SiriusXM podcast listeners, you can now unlock seven day early access exclusive bonus content and ad free listening to new episodes on some of your favorite podcasts. Subscribe to Sirius XM podcast plus on Apple Podcasts or by visiting siriusxm.com podcastplus today.
Natalie Jean
Bryce is not in the headspace to get sentimental with her dada.
Jackie Zabrowski
No. Especially again, middle of the workday. It's hard enough for me. I have therapy on a Monday.
Natalie Jean
I'm writing a script right now.
Jackie Zabrowski
Middle of something. It is sometimes so difficult to put down everything, have therapy and then pick it all back up and jump back in in the middle of a day. But doing this, it's like I am at that work also.
Natalie Jean
Max capacity of intense emotions right now. Yes, she's over this. She wants to know what he came for and insinuates that he needs to move it along. He looks at her and sharply tells her that she is like her mother, but that she's also like him.
Jackie Zabrowski
Okay.
Natalie Jean
More than she thinks that she is.
Jackie Zabrowski
Ah. It's like again, too, where it's like all this, like, elusive. It's like. Just say it. Say whatever you've got in there that you want me to know.
Natalie Jean
Well, I guess at least he's self aware enough in that moment to say. I'm not saying that as a compliment to you, right? With those words, he leaves. She stares at the closed door and then maybe somewhat compulsively, looks up Hunt on the computer. There's still nothing. No update, no news at all.
Jackie Zabrowski
As if he had never existed. As if she had dreamed him up.
Natalie Jean
Oh, God. We're back with Hunt. As the days pass slowly for him, he's aware of his friends fates again, having access to the camera footage of the lobby and some news filters down there. Justinian's body will be dumped into the Istros after seven days. Very biblical.
Jackie Zabrowski
All right. I just feel like it's like you should give the people in the torture chambers phones. It's like he's just sitting there all day. Like, let him, like, text price or something. Or, like, play snood.
Natalie Jean
That's not.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, it's gotta take. I mean, it's gotta make the hours feel like days.
Natalie Jean
I think that's part of the torture of it.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, I'd be so bad at no cell phone torture. Give it back. Just one more selfie. Come on.
Natalie Jean
I guess you shouldn't try to start a revolution.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I'm not gonna. It's really. It's not for me.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Go get them, everybody. Come on, everybody.
Natalie Jean
Victoria is already at the bottom of the ocean.
Jackie Zabrowski
Jesus.
Natalie Jean
Hunt is puking his guts out, thinking about her suffering.
Jackie Zabrowski
Good.
Natalie Jean
I guess he's not feeling bad enough about it because. Spoiler again. Nobody finds her.
Jackie Zabrowski
Nobody's getting her. But again, these stories are not over yet. Maybe it's a future.
Natalie Jean
You know, a lot of stuff has happened. Time has passed.
Jackie Zabrowski
Sometime has passed.
Natalie Jean
Could somebody potentially go look for Victoria?
Jackie Zabrowski
I mean, we ain't gonna do it because we bad angel.
Natalie Jean
No, we're not doing it.
Jackie Zabrowski
We ain't doing it.
Natalie Jean
Nearly wings. I Can't.
Jackie Zabrowski
We can't be getting our wings wet. Although, do you think that it's like. Like, you know, you're like a water bird, where it would just, like, just slide right off?
Natalie Jean
I think so. Or maybe you have to wear like a wing cap.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, that would be difficult to get on. I think that would be even harder than putting in the glue tracks.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, I think so. Oh. Nearly a week has passed and he's gotten no more visitors. His hours are spent, itching and in pain as his wings begin the growing back process. He tries not to think about Bryce, wondering where she is as he fights off waves of guilt and sorrow. His isolation ends when he sense a female that sends chills to his blood and body.
Jackie Zabrowski
The archangel of Northwestern Panjera smiled as she appeared before his cell. He'd never get used to it, how much she looked like Shahar.
Natalie Jean
This seems familiar.
Jackie Zabrowski
Sandriel said, I think that's the big.
Natalie Jean
Beautiful.
Jackie Zabrowski
Beautiful. I think the only difference is she probably makes those kind of like every time she intimates something.
Natalie Jean
Just trying to make her less sexy.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I mean, because she's so hot. But I feel like you have to distinguish her in some manner.
Natalie Jean
Well, he says in this passage that they look so strikingly similar, but the biggest difference is what's behind the eyes.
Jackie Zabrowski
I got daggers in these pupes.
Natalie Jean
Her eyes are dark and cold where shahars were full of light and life. It'd be really wild to have an evil twin. Someone who looks exactly like you, but like, drives like a custom cybertruck.
Jackie Zabrowski
God, it was he. But I always. I mean, I always wanted a twin. It was something. Oh, I did too.
Natalie Jean
I was so obsessed with that as a kid.
Jackie Zabrowski
Obsessed with it as a kid. And I don't know if it's because of Mary Kate and Ashley also. That was like, probably that was like put into our brains so desperately. But I always wanted. See, I wanted the Stefan. I always wanted more, that kind of other spectrum twin.
Natalie Jean
Oh, you wanted a twin that was like.
Jackie Zabrowski
Like me, but real sexy. Like really mysterious, really elusive. Just like. Oh. But then, of course, it would be difficult because I would have to wait for her to pass. Not that I want her to pass, but that would be called Jack A. And I, you know, I big ups to Jack A. I really respect Jack A.
Natalie Jean
Wait, you're saying you can't be that until she dies.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, I can't. I mean, I can't try and call. Start calling myself Jack A while the Jack A. A. Still lives.
Natalie Jean
Oh, okay. What if you call yourself Jack. A two.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Boogaloo.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes, I'm ready for it. No, that's only if. Oh, God. Would you. What would you do if all of a sudden, like, I had like, a mental break and I was only identifying as this fake version of myself? Because if you think about it, Steve Urkel was probably most likely going through some sort of. Of mental. Talking about a mental chasm that I think that he was dealing with. Couldn't have just been the science.
Natalie Jean
You mean the character Steve Urkel or the Jaleel White?
Jackie Zabrowski
Not Jaleel White. Only the character.
Natalie Jean
Okay.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Everything I've heard about Jaleel White, apparently he's delightful.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. Seems. He seems like solid guy. I don't know. So you're saying if you completely went into this other character, would it be the sexy, suave character? Would it be the evil twin character?
Jackie Zabrowski
No, it would be the sexy, suave character. I don't think I've gotten enough evil seeping in my pores.
Natalie Jean
You wouldn't want to, like, add me to your downline or anything?
Jackie Zabrowski
No, I just feel like that's so much work. Like, I feel like my other ego would be sexy but very lazy because I'm very hard working. So I feel like then the other side of that. So, like, if I just sat here and was like, natalie, Jack, hey, doesn't want to do the episode. I would also be referring.
Natalie Jean
Sounds sort of like Penny Marshall.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And you could be the Gary to my Penny.
Natalie Jean
I wish.
Jackie Zabrowski
Right? Oh.
Natalie Jean
I think there was just. I think Maybe in the 90s there just was an influx of twin based, like, YA novels and stuff. Did you ever read Sweet Valley Twins?
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, yeah.
Natalie Jean
I remember some mystery books that I. And like, ghost books I read that were about twins. Twins, like haunted twins.
Jackie Zabrowski
That was really put into us. I've never really thought about that before. Is that why we were so obsessed with it? God, I wanted one so badly. And they also run in my family, so I also was hoping someday I would biologically have twins as well, which apparently it's difficult to have twins. Yeah, I mean.
Natalie Jean
You mean the process of birthing, though.
Jackie Zabrowski
Like all of it, like, and the after aftermath where you have them, you.
Natalie Jean
Know, one of them becomes evil.
Jackie Zabrowski
They have to. Or sex.
Natalie Jean
And then they kill you to take over your. Your, you know, your money.
Jackie Zabrowski
You have to. It's the only way to succeed in this world.
Natalie Jean
It quickly becomes clear that she has come to his cell just to torment him.
Jackie Zabrowski
I'm evil.
Natalie Jean
As she taunts him, he only holds her gaze. She pulls out his phone from her pocket.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh. Oh, it's not gonna be good. It's a bitch move.
Natalie Jean
She does some sort of Bluetooth magic and his phone appears on the TV screen across from his cell, where he's been subjected to the security footage from the lobby, grinning like it's her birthday. Sandriel pulls up the text thread he'd shared with Bryce where who has changed her name once again, this time to Bryce, thinks Hunt is the best.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, just think about the red. That red on her couch. I just, I can't undo thinking about that stained white couch and how she has to see it every day because, you know, she hasn't spent the time to like sit and really get that out.
Natalie Jean
No, but even just in this moment with Hunt, she. All of her other titles for herself were sort of taunting him and this is just complimenting him. It's like sort of exposing how. Think about what you did.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oof. Think about it. Hunting. Hunt.
Natalie Jean
She had texted him, I know you're.
Jackie Zabrowski
Not going to see this. I don't even know why I'm writing to you.
Natalie Jean
Hunt's mind empties out just knowing that she even reached out to him at all.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh God. Not to bring this up, but I feel like it is a very similar of like I keep voicemails from people in the pat. Like I keep that kind of stuff from people that we don't have with us anymore. It's just like having that or just like having the ability to text someone's number. But you know, at some point it's the number is going to be given to somebody else and it's just, God, the like screaming into the universe of this. It hurts.
Natalie Jean
It does. But Sandriel's just getting started. She taunts him, pulling up his phone's photos, remarking how he looks so common in them. A slideshow begins on the tv. Hunt thinks about how he's never looked through these photos, but. But as time went by, more and more just kind of normal photos appear, interspersed with all of the crime scene photos that he had. Photos that might represent love or home, moments of humor, interest, happiness.
Jackie Zabrowski
Probably have a work phone and a personal phone. I would say if you got all those like moida scenes. He never did your fuck pics.
Natalie Jean
He didn't have any until like recent.
Jackie Zabrowski
Get a burner or something.
Natalie Jean
He remembers that the photos had begun as a way for them to tease one another. But also, no, it wasn't. They were just showing. They were like, oh yeah, I'm taking this picture of us because it's so stupid. They became more real to him over.
Jackie Zabrowski
Time, even playful, and then some by the river. Again, he had a vague memory of her asking a passing tourist to snap a few. One by one, the various shots unfolded. First, a photo with Bryce still talking and him grimacing. Then one with her smiling and Hunt looking at her. The third was of her still smiling and Hunt still looking at her like she was the only person on the planet in the galaxy. His heart thundered. In the next few, her face had turned toward him. Their eyes had met. Her smile had faltered, as if realizing how he was looking at her. In the next, she was smiling at the ground, his eyes still on her, a secret, soft smile, like she knew and didn't mind one bit. And then, in the last, she had leaned her head against his chest and wrapped her arms around his middle. He'd put his arm and wing around her, and they had both smiled.
Natalie Jean
Oh, it just rips my heart out.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's so sad, especially just sitting in the torture room, because I also am the kind of psychopath freak that will, like, randomly record Jeff, like, talking to me or something like that, making little videos. And you know that I did this. I do this when we go on vacations. I say death video. And I like to make videos to remind us of, like, the good times that we have, but also so that you have the videos so that you can play at the funeral. And then I'm like, everybody, this is gonna be really sad someday. But right now, we're all having fun. And everybody loves when I make the death videos.
Natalie Jean
Yes, yes, yes. To think about death on a vacation.
Jackie Zabrowski
You have to be. You have to make sure you've got the content.
Natalie Jean
So this is a really, I think, a beautiful way to describe their changing relationship through him watching these photos and just, like, how devastating this truly is.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, yeah. And for Sandriel to be the bitch doing this, looking at his private shit and his private feelings.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. He realizes with his entire being that he had wanted a life with Bryce. A simple kind of life.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, my God.
Natalie Jean
Sandriel.
Jackie Zabrowski
He was never gonna have it. No.
Natalie Jean
He. He. And Sandriel thinks. She seems to find this hilarious.
Jackie Zabrowski
Obs. I have a bad sense of humor. I'm a bit like a, you know, Jay Leno at the Flappers.
Natalie Jean
That's an actual comedy club that he goes to all the time around us. He. She finds it funny that he would ever want to just live happily ever after with no kind of blazing glory. Well, well. Sandriel informs him that's not the hand he was dealt, sadly.
Jackie Zabrowski
Nope.
Natalie Jean
He knows now that this is a form of torture. Because she has news for him. She owns him once again. All because.
Jackie Zabrowski
Good move, though.
Natalie Jean
All because he couldn't play by the rules. He could have had his stupid little life and he blew it.
Jackie Zabrowski
But don't even say that, because we all know that he never would have. He never could have. He had to kill thousands and thousands and thousands of people just to not be a slave anymore. You think that's gonna begat a simple kind of life?
Natalie Jean
I mean, she's. That's true. But I also do think that he did blow it.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, of course he did. Because, like, I know that he wanted to get so much done, but you're moving too fast, son. You should have thought about all these things.
Natalie Jean
The thing is that he was promised this shortened deal. He was almost at the end of it. That's the thing. If Micah hadn't offered him that deal, I could see him wanting to make that move. But because he was promised this other end, it's not the best idea.
Jackie Zabrowski
You're right.
Natalie Jean
We cut over to Bryce, and she's meeting Ruhn in a bar that night. She can't help but feel this empty space behind her, a void over her shoulder. She had grown so accustomed to his omnipresent presence. She's not exactly meeting Ruhn, more like crashing a hangout he's already having with Flynn, who is off seducing a female while she, Bryce, takes a seat next to Ruhn at the bar. She wanted to thank him in person for, you know, helping her after the whole course. Not because she's dying to see Ruhn, but because she is truly grateful and also knows it's the right thing to do. To go to him and just say, I appreciate that, but also proud of.
Jackie Zabrowski
Her, because she is not usually the person that reaches out. And, like, the fact that, like, I really think that this shows how much, even though obviously she's hurting because of her relationship with Hunt right now, but how much the, like, melting of her frozen state was starting to take hold. And I'm so. Like, this really shows how far she's come, even just from. I don't wanna say the beginning of the book, but, you know, from everything happening to the wolf pack from then on, I feel like this is the first time that she's like, oh, I need people. I need to. I need to, like, somebody connect.
Natalie Jean
Like, everybody is just fucking her over left and right. He tentatively asks her how she's doing, and as far as we know this is the first time that she opens up about Hunt. After everything, she tells him she feels like an idiot and that everyone warned her about him and she ignored him. It. They chat for a bit and then she goes to leave, but he stops her. He invites her over to his house to watch the upcoming sunball game. She tries to shrug it off, but he wants to know why she won't open back up to him. He gets her to admit that before Danika, he was her best friend and the pain of losing all of that is just too much for her.
Jackie Zabrowski
Her.
Natalie Jean
She then goes on to think about as she's still sitting in front of run what's she's just revealed to him and decides, well, everything else has gone to it. She agrees to go watch the game with her brother.
Jackie Zabrowski
Good for you.
Natalie Jean
He is obviously overjoyed and he smiles at her and tells her he'll save her.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh my God. He's reaching out his hand and she's taking it.
Natalie Jean
It's very sweet. At chapter 70, Bryce walks back into her apartment from the bar and is surprised to find Fury there sitting on the couch. She asks what she wants while stripping off her work clothes. Fury breaks some news to her. Hunt is being sent back to Pangera with Sanrio.
Jackie Zabrowski
I own him.
Natalie Jean
Bryce's heart heart stops for a moment. Her mind is tangled with emotions. She tries to tell herself that he deserves this, but knowing what level of torture is awaiting him probably is not really an easy thing to swallow or like, accept.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, because she still loves him. Just because this happens, it's like, yeah, all trust is broken. But I think some of the worst part about when your trust gets broken is that you wish it all. So. So sometimes it does. But when it doesn't completely shatter the love you have for a person on the inside, it's like, I'd almost rather it all be shattered at once, you know?
Natalie Jean
Totally.
Jackie Zabrowski
To make it easier. You'd rather hate the person than feel like, oh my God, he's about to go be tortured for like ever.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. And I mean, to be honest, even the people who I have the worst feelings about, I wouldn't want them to go be tortured in a dungeon forever. I just like feel like that would be a lot of to think think about, you know?
Jackie Zabrowski
Me neither.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
I would never want that. I think that there is something to the whole, like, but I can mend all of you and then do it all over again. That happens in all of these worlds, that I do think some people are destined for it. Whoa. Yeah. I'm a. Sorry. I guess Sandril is getting inside of my blood. I'm ready to torture. This is what happens, Natalie, when I start dying my hair. Natalie, maybe you shouldn't encourage it. Natalie, I'm ready to torture. No, no, no. I look cute with short hair too, though. So it's true. You do.
Natalie Jean
So she's having all of these feelings about Hunt, but she's trying to appear apathetic to Fury, who continues to talk to Bryce's. She makes herself busy in an attempt to avoid looking at Fury while they talk. She's like, you know, moving around the apartment kind of as Fury, revealing all of this stuff. Fury likely sees directly through her apathy and questions whether she and Hunt were together together, because she can scent him all over Bryce, after all. Bryce brushes this off as simply, oh, no, we were just living in the same quarters. There's nothing. Sherry's like, right, sure, sure, sure. Okay. Bryce scrounges around in the kitchen looking for a late night meal.
Jackie Zabrowski
A small, strong hand slammed the fridge door shut. Fury glared up at her.
Natalie Jean
Don't make one.
Jackie Zabrowski
In my mind. In my mind, they kiss.
Natalie Jean
Very super hot.
Jackie Zabrowski
And then Juniper shows up and it's like, oh, it's just like, oh, we're just having a night. You know, Sometimes it just happens, you.
Natalie Jean
Know, like all of those documentaries, say, about Girls Sleepover.
Jackie Zabrowski
I've seen a couple of the documentaries, and I'm like, oh, can I get a ticket? Take the ride.
Natalie Jean
They start to get into an argument in the kitchen. Bryce calls her out for ignoring her for two years. Fury denies that she was ignoring her.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, yeah. Oh, Beach.
Natalie Jean
I know. She says, I did avoid you because I felt responsible for getting you into trouble, Bryce. And she's talking about how she was doing drugs with them, which is fair. She did provide them drugs that night. She tells Bryce that she feels like when she gets close to people, they go. It's dangerous. They. Their lives get, you know, threatened.
Jackie Zabrowski
I say that to people all the time. It's just because they love me so much. I'm like, you don't want to get close? You might love me for keeps.
Natalie Jean
Great way to get out of a party.
Jackie Zabrowski
Just start saying that. All right? Yeah, I guess. Don't go. I. I guess I'd rather you not come if you're gonna act like this.
Natalie Jean
When Bryce angrily points out that she's not seeming to stay away from Juniper, Fury reveals a big old surprise. Fury hissed, juniper and I have something that is. Is none of your business.
Jackie Zabrowski
Bryce refrained from gaping Juniper had never hinted, never suggested.
Natalie Jean
I could no sooner stop talking to her than I could rip out my own heart. Okay.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, it sounds gaping. Oh, guess somebody's gaping.
Natalie Jean
Gaping?
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, well, depends, you know, it depends on what's going on. It depends on who's going. Oh, I don't know. They're gaping now. They're not gaping, but, I mean, Bryce is certainly gaping at this point. And she's gaping.
Natalie Jean
Your mouth.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Sometimes you got filled up.
Natalie Jean
Oh, it says gaping.
Jackie Zabrowski
Gaping. Yeah, this.
Natalie Jean
That's where.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's why I'm. I'm in the world of gaping. You lost me to gaping. But I did finish the reading, and I didn't make a gaping joke in the middle of it.
Natalie Jean
You did. Good job.
Jackie Zabrowski
So I have control over myself.
Natalie Jean
So we've learned that Juniper and Fury seem to be in a relationship.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank God.
Natalie Jean
This reveal seems to have elicited the most emotion we've ever seen from Fury. Fury is very cold and calculated from what we know of her. But she clearly has feelings for Juniper.
Jackie Zabrowski
But she also has to keep everything close to the chest. If you're like a big super secret. I mean, we don't really know.
Natalie Jean
We don't know what's happening.
Jackie Zabrowski
We don't know. We just know that, like, she's got to keep everything close to the chest. We're not supposed to know. It's not for us to know.
Natalie Jean
Pained, Fury explains that she didn't mean to fall in love with all of them, that Bryce and Danika were these two puppies that bounded into her life. And it's obvious she feels responsible for bringing hell into their world.
Jackie Zabrowski
Don't worry, it wasn't all you.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, but, you know, again, alluding to Fury being much, much older than that.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes.
Natalie Jean
Bryce tells her that that's. And she really needed Fury when all of this was going on. Fury tells her she's trying to work on herself and these hang ups. Bryce is unsympathetic and tells her, see you in two years, I guess. Fury gets a text at that moment and she moves to leave, asking if Bryce wants to get dinner in a week while she's here for the summit. Bryce seems over everything and is like, sure, whatever, obviously clearly expecting it to not happen. Fury warns her not to act out on the info that she's given her about Hunt, and Bryce plays it cool. Who? Oh, him. Yeah, I don't remember him anymore. Really? Why would I even go after.
Jackie Zabrowski
Man, it's got to be so difficult just being friends with Fury and having to act so blase all the time. I'm just so the opposite of blase that I don't think I could have a friend that was like that at all.
Natalie Jean
Who.
Jackie Zabrowski
As I'm just sitting there falling apart like I loved him. Which is how I would be dealing with this. But I'm very. I'm happy for Bryce that she is able to play cool.
Natalie Jean
She begins shouting at a man on the phone. Fury that is calling him a quote dick bag on the way out. Bryce watches from the window as Fury gets into a sports car and peels out. What a baddie.
Jackie Zabrowski
Sexy, sexy, sexy.
Natalie Jean
Silence fills the apartment. Bryce looks at the space where Hunt sat most nights. She can almost see him there, smiling with his sunball cap on backwards. She makes a decision. She doesn't want to lose yet another friend. Girl, you're already gonna go after him. Don't be you. Don't be playing.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Don't you lie to us. You think that we think that you're not gonna do this. We know what you're about to do. Even us angels.
Natalie Jean
Angels. She's still angry with him and maybe they wouldn't ever recover their relationship. But she couldn't let him meet the current fate that he the trajectory he's on.
Jackie Zabrowski
Syrinx whined, pacing in a circle, claws clicking on the wood floor.
Natalie Jean
I promised Fury not to do anything.
Jackie Zabrowski
Stupid, Bryce said, her eyes on Syrinx's branded out tattoo.
Natalie Jean
I didn't say I wouldn't do something smart.
Jackie Zabrowski
That is. That's a very Bryce Quidlan quote. Okay, okay. You crazy bitch.
Natalie Jean
Oh you bitch.
Jackie Zabrowski
I love you, you crazy bitch.
Natalie Jean
At chapter 71, it's the day following Sandriel's visit to Hunt and he is being taken out of his cell. He'd been puking his guts up again. Thanks to the news of his future, he'll be taken to Sandriel today and after the summit he'll head back to the dungeons of Panjetta just in case he thought of any sort of resistance. The slideshow of him and Bryce played throughout the whole night. Damn. A reminder of who would be hurt.
Jackie Zabrowski
If he abouts she aura framed this. She was like I'm only I'm not gonna upload any other ones. Oh hell no. You gotta look at the same five. Which is what I imagine imagine why I've never purchased one. That what I would do if I had one is I imagine I would upload like five pictures. Completely forget to ever do it ever again. And it's just gonna be the Same five pictures forever and ever.
Natalie Jean
I mean, we're not sponsored by them, so I'm not gonna give them a compliment.
Jackie Zabrowski
There you go.
Natalie Jean
No, I will. I do, I do. I like ours. It's nice.
Jackie Zabrowski
I just think that, I mean, if we could use it in a torture aspect scenario. Yeah, I feel like then we could really. Because they're writing them off. If we could use them for the torture screens that we keep in the network.
Natalie Jean
Do you think she gets to write those off in her taxes?
Jackie Zabrowski
What do you think? What do you think they keep buying all the TVs for? And they're like, we must. It's for the torture, not for the super bowl parties. Write it off. Tax season. Oh, are you crying because my joke was so good?
Natalie Jean
Yeah. It was sunset when the guards came to retrieve him. Him. They lead him to the elevator and he's greeted by the smiling face of Pollux Antonius Boo.
Jackie Zabrowski
Boo.
Natalie Jean
Also known as the Hammer. Pollux is one of the most cruel and sadistic of Sandriel's. Triari Hunt despises him. He notices that the elevator that they're taking down stops at the lobby and not towards the place platform, towards the skies where the angels would fly. Usually he realizes Sandriel wants him to walk through the lobby because she wants him to see the rotting corpse of his friend and fellow rebel.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's quite a flex. I'll give it to me. It's a pretty good flex. I do think, like he's been watching this this entire time that he's been in the torture room. But, you know, I guess to really like smell it, to be it, to feel it, you know, it's unfortunate for.
Natalie Jean
People who are just trying to go to their office job.
Jackie Zabrowski
I think that we talked about this last week because I'm just like how stinky it must be in there. And you know, it don't just stop at the lobby. Like, I'm sure it permeates the entire. But I guess. No, I guess that wouldn't happen because I'm trying to think. Lots of castles. And again, generic. I'm generic. Lots of castles have torture chambers underneath. And I guess you don't smell the reek of the torture chamber throughout the castle.
Natalie Jean
Oh yeah. I think it.
Jackie Zabrowski
Or do you.
Natalie Jean
Castle times. Everything smelled like shit all the time.
Jackie Zabrowski
Well, there was lots of mud and everything. But I guess like for like modern day torture, you know, I guess they don't keep it under the castle. Like, is it more like like a soundproof room where they can smell proof.
Natalie Jean
It now let's ask the United States government.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thanks. Government. Where do you keep your torture rooms? Government.
Natalie Jean
Think about it. We do. We're horrible.
Jackie Zabrowski
You know, they got like. It's not a joke.
Natalie Jean
No, it's not.
Jackie Zabrowski
But I'm laughing because I'm a bad angel today.
Natalie Jean
That's right. Angels are gathered in the lobby. For the moment that he's passing through, Hun sees Isaiah and Naomi, who subtly nod their goodbyes to him.
Jackie Zabrowski
I don't know why in this it would be so annoying to see all the angels, especially if all the angels were like in an acapella choir. And I just imagine like in their spare time they're all like, you know, like. And it's like they're all working on their different.
Natalie Jean
So you're seeing them as like a church choir.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And I feel like, like what else do they do besides just being mean?
Natalie Jean
You know, they just drink and, and stuff.
Jackie Zabrowski
Which sounds great, but I feel like you gotta have something that's just for you.
Natalie Jean
Not all the angels are bad.
Jackie Zabrowski
I know, but like, how do you not feel like all the angels are bad? I feel like anything that is. I'm talking about angels specifically and not Malachim. And I need to make like a very big distinction.
Natalie Jean
Well, archangels are different.
Jackie Zabrowski
Archangels are different. Yes. That like specifically in my brain, I think all angels are bad in the world.
Natalie Jean
Even Isaiah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Sucks. And he has to work his way out of it. In the same way that like a lot of people think that pit bulls are bad, but they're not. Not all pit bulls are bad, but sometimes it lives within them. And don't treat anyone poorly. Don't treat any dogs poorly. Don't treat any angels poorly.
Natalie Jean
People's fault around the angel, it's the people's fault. So he realizes this group of angels is not really here. The majority of them are not here to mock him or jeer, but to sort of almost honor him in a way as much as they are able to. Under the thumb of the asteri.
Jackie Zabrowski
They're going to sing him out and they're like, why this song? You could have like come up with.
Natalie Jean
Anything else, like maybe like Prince or something.
Jackie Zabrowski
Love potion number. My mom was in a barbershop quartet.
Natalie Jean
She's a girl. That's crazy.
Jackie Zabrowski
They're not allowed to do that. That's what. They sewed up her vagina. And I was like, don't. Not to my mom. She just wants to sing.
Natalie Jean
Everyone knows girls can only be in beauty shop quartets.
Jackie Zabrowski
Dreadful beauty shop quartets.
Natalie Jean
Dread fills him as he makes his way across the lobby floor towards the front door, towards his horrible fate. Wait. A cry is heard echoing through the lobby.
Jackie Zabrowski
No. No. She couldn't be here. He couldn't bear for her to see him like this, knees wobbling and a breath away from puking again. Because Pollux strode beside him and Sandriel prowled in front of him. Them. And they would destroy her.
Natalie Jean
So Bryce has appeared in front of all of these angels, which is again, bad planning, I think. But he can't stop what's occurring. And he watches in horror as she runs towards them, towards Sandriel. Gasping for air, she begs Sandriel not to take him. When Sandriel smirks and tells her he's already been paid for, you know, he said very muppety.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you.
Natalie Jean
Bryce pulls a check out of her pocket and offers her 97 million gold marks.
Jackie Zabrowski
Whoa. Maybe she's the Dr. Evil.
Natalie Jean
97 million gold.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you for saying it properly.
Natalie Jean
Timely joke.
Jackie Zabrowski
Like most of my jokes. Guys, I don't know if you've noticed after all these episodes, but, you know, I'm like in. I'm like an angel in every year, you know. The floor rocked beneath Hunt. People gasped. Pollux blinked, eyeing Bryce again.
Natalie Jean
Stop looking at her, Pollux. It's a check from Jesiba Roga. Bryce points out that it's 12.
Jackie Zabrowski
I can. I can hear your husband just screaming. Do you need me to scream more so you feel more comfortable? My belly.
Natalie Jean
Oh. Oh.
Jackie Zabrowski
I take my man nipples out because I can. Does that make you feel like you're home, you're working? Natalie just always thinks that like. Like Henry's always been the same. Henry. Because I remember him getting home from like high school. And he would walk in the house, before he would even reach the kitchen, he would take off his pants because he wanted to be in his boxer shorts. Good lord. And I imagine he still does this in your home to this day. Or does he make it to the bedroom?
Natalie Jean
He usually changes into soft pants.
Jackie Zabrowski
You gotta have soft pants in the house. No outside pants in the house.
Natalie Jean
Everyone knows that. So Bryce points out that it's 12 million more million gold marks than she. Than what Sandriel paid for him. Bryce pulls the amulet off her necklace. Bryce pulls the amulet off her neck and offers it as well, asserting that it alone is worth 3 million gold marks. Sandriel takes the necklace from her, but continues her snake smile. She muses to Hunt how the pictures in his phone must have been telling the truth of their love. Even Though she punishes Hunt for his love of Shahar, she seems to take offense to Hunt's burgeoning love for another female.
Jackie Zabrowski
She clenched her fist around the amulet. The Arkesian amulet melted into streams of gold on the floor. Something ruptured in Hunt's chest at the devastation that crumpled Bryce's face.
Natalie Jean
Damn cold hearted snake.
Jackie Zabrowski
She is a snake. It's like if you didn't want it, just say it. Why you gotta do that?
Natalie Jean
Because she's a bitch for life. Hunt dares to speak in this moment he's so devastated. He tells Bryce quietly to get out. Go away. She ignores him, directing her attention to Sandriel. She drops to her knees and offers herself and Hunts, wait.
Jackie Zabrowski
As if I would want something like you.
Natalie Jean
Horror rushes through Hunt. That was very good.
Jackie Zabrowski
Thank you.
Natalie Jean
He will not allow her to do this. Before Hunt can make a move, Rune's voice carries across the lobby. Don't you dare, Ruhn. With Declan and Flynn on either side of him, appear before the angels. Bryce also ignores Ruhn as she's ignoring Hunt and again begs Sandriel to take her in his place.
Jackie Zabrowski
Keep begging. Louder. Faster. More.
Natalie Jean
Sandriel, also ignoring the males, steps towards Bryce, amused and intrigued. She asks her again if she really would make this exchange under no coercion yet. Yes. Bryce says with no hesitation. Sandriel, please.
Jackie Zabrowski
Hunt begged, the air rippling from his throat, choked off his words.
Natalie Jean
Sandriel's put a wind wall against all of the males to keep them from stopping Bryce.
Jackie Zabrowski
Windwall. Windwall. Man, a wind wall would come in handy, dude. And be like fuck you wind wall. In the middle of an argument. Wind wall. Can't have it. Oh, I want a cookie. You want to stop me? Wind wall. Get through that wind wall, bitch.
Natalie Jean
Oh, it would be. You could blow him any about any way you'd want.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh, I want to be the hurricane.
Natalie Jean
Fun. Hunt feels ill as he watches Pollux's delight at the prospect, no doubt envisioning every sickening act he could take out on Bryce. Smiling, Cendril muses that most would think her a fool for making this exchange. A half breed nobody for releasing the most powerful warrior this side of the Istros.
Jackie Zabrowski
Pollux smiled again. Hunt bared his teeth at him as Sandriel stroked a hand over Bryce's cheek, wiping away her tears. But I know your secret, Bryce Quinlan, Sandriel whispered.
Natalie Jean
I know what a prize you are.
Jackie Zabrowski
Sandriel stroked Bryce's face again.
Natalie Jean
The only daughter of the Autumn King. Everyone. Everyone's shook.
Jackie Zabrowski
What?
Natalie Jean
Hunt almost collapses in Shock. Flynn and Declan didn't even know. Apparently by their reactions. Rue not cousin brother Rune, who has now decided to take on saying that.
Jackie Zabrowski
To themselves inside of.
Natalie Jean
That'S how I imagine Hunt is processing.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh yeah.
Natalie Jean
Rune, who has now decided to make an appearance of taking on heirs in order to end this. He kind of goes into his Fae royalty zone. He steps past the magic barrier Sandriel had set up and coldly demands she step away from Bryce that he lays claim on her.
Jackie Zabrowski
I mean, it's a cool move.
Natalie Jean
I mean coming out of Rune's mouth.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. Bobble, bobble.
Natalie Jean
Bryce gapes at Ruhn, furious for him stepping in and involving himself. But what did you think he was going to do? Just leave you there to go to get tortured forever?
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, somebody had to stop you. You crazy.
Natalie Jean
Again, not a good plan Bryce has come up with. He should be stepping in. Yeah, like in what world do you think that Sandriel wouldn't still find a way to get Hunt even after you sold yourself to her?
Jackie Zabrowski
That's the thing. She already got him back. Like you think that this all, this whole thing ain't gonna happen again.
Natalie Jean
This is Feyre under the Mountain all over again.
Jackie Zabrowski
It is. It really is. And I think that this is also a portion of why and it is difficult to say. Bryce, of the three Cs like series, big series, is my least favorite of the big female characters.
Natalie Jean
I think most people agree with you.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes.
Natalie Jean
I don't know who's mine.
Jackie Zabrowski
I don't know who your least favorite is. You don't know where your order is.
Natalie Jean
Yeah, I don't know. I, I. Because I like Bryce. I do. I know people hate her, but it's.
Jackie Zabrowski
Just that like I feel like in the way that like a. My hair. I know my hair has also been. Oh, the wig. Oh, the wig.
Natalie Jean
Oh, potions broken. Oh, everybody's gonna know my hair came out from under.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, we are bad angels, all right? We are not human beings, you bats.
Natalie Jean
Duds.
Jackie Zabrowski
Batstirs.
Natalie Jean
Batstirds. Nice.
Jackie Zabrowski
I forgot what I was saying because then I got so busy just thinking about bats.
Natalie Jean
Oh, why Bryce is your least favorite.
Jackie Zabrowski
Oh yeah. Right. And I think it's because so many of these things like it like in the other books, you see that like, oh, they've gotten themselves in this like weird situation. But like an Alin would have thought 17 steps ahead. And Bryce does do this sometimes. But every once in a while she is more of a like makes a rash decision in a way that I feel like Aylin was always so more calculated.
Natalie Jean
Sure. And it seems like maybe Bryce and Hunt are both falling in love and unable to think clearly.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah, you could put it that way.
Natalie Jean
But it's annoying.
Jackie Zabrowski
Also, a lot is going on and when your brain is underneath a lot of mental weight. I understand. I'm talking in real life. Yes, there's a lot of going on and of course they're gonna act weird in different ways. But like in the books, I'm like, yeah, I know it's like a lot going on.
Natalie Jean
But like, Bryce, for whatever reason, doesn't seem to understand that Run's doing this out of necessity, that he's disrespecting her because he is saving her freaking life. She lunges at Ruhn and shoves him. You are a fa female of my.
Jackie Zabrowski
Bloodline, Ruhn said coldly.
Natalie Jean
You are my property in our fathers until you marry.
Jackie Zabrowski
Which is like, I don't like that rule. But in this scenario, though, pretty great.
Natalie Jean
You know, he doesn't feel like that way. He's doing it because he's call. He's like, what's it? He's like using.
Jackie Zabrowski
What is it, Natalie? What is it? What's the word you're thinking of? Natalie, you're never gonna remember the word. This is not pick up each other pulling rank.
Natalie Jean
He's pulling rank. She looks to Flynn and Declan to appeal to them, but girl, are you serious? You think that they're gonna be like, nah, let it go. Come on, let it go in there.
Jackie Zabrowski
Especially like, even if, let's say she did like, if Sandriel did say, like, okay, I'll take you instead of him. Like you just said. You think that she's not going to get him. So think about this.
Natalie Jean
She just melted her necklace. Ch Bryce lashes out again at Run, telling him she'll never forgive him. Oh, for saving your life. What a day. So sorry, I guess no sunball game. He keeps his cold veneer as he tugs her away from Sandria. Hunt watches Bryce's face, tries to memorize it. She reaches for him, screaming that she'll find a way to free him. Pollux finds this amusing.
Jackie Zabrowski
Hunt stared at her outstretched fingers, the desperate hope in her eyes. No one had ever fought for him. No one had ever cared enough to do so.
Natalie Jean
Oh no, I know.
Jackie Zabrowski
But we're like so mad at him right now, Nat. Not. We can't. We have to be like, but you did this and you got yourself here, didn't you?
Natalie Jean
As she continues to cry out to Hunt and Run drags her away. Sandriel picks up her walk again towards the front, towards the awaiting motorcade.
Jackie Zabrowski
That is the one great thing about being a really mean angel is that you have a motorcade that takes you everywhere, shows up, and that would be pretty great. And be like, you have to choose which car am I going to get into.
Natalie Jean
I just like that you don't have to wait. You know, you feel like you don't have to go to a parking spot. You don't have to wait for like a valet or anything. Like it's car's just there.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. And in fact, if the car's not there, a bunch of people get murdered. Head to the road. I think I like it.
Natalie Jean
Well, it's the wig.
Jackie Zabrowski
Now I'm evil.
Natalie Jean
It's the highlights.
Jackie Zabrowski
The wig thinnered me. Whoa, I wish.
Natalie Jean
Hunt is in tow, of course, with Sandriel. She mockingly tells Ruhn he should have slit his sister's throat like she did. Hunt agonizes over Bryce's cries, but is forced into following Sanriel in the last desperate attempt to prevent Bryce from seeking him out for her own safety. Hunt says, filled with despair, that she means nothing to him, that she should never go looking for him, that they are done. He gets into the armored car. We cut to the same moment from Ruhn's pov. He feels relief flood him to watch the car recede into the horizon that contains Sandriel. But Bryce isn't feeling that way. She screams at him for interfering, but he's not having it. And I agree with him. Yeah, he's not supposed to watch you sell your body to a prison camp.
Jackie Zabrowski
Bryce, and you will forgive him someday.
Natalie Jean
Yeah. She looks as though she's about to start swinging on him, but then she just tells him to go himself and spits at his feet. I do understand that Bryce is watching what is potentially below for life, being carted off to torture town. But he's technically being a very good brother.
Jackie Zabrowski
He's like, are you really thinking about what they're gonna do to you if you really gave yourself over to Sandriel? Like, you remember, like, the darkness that haunted Hunt. Think about that. So. Or is it like, does it, like, flash through your brain of, like, well, at least I'm just a human, so I'll die maybe. But I know that they could probably. But they can heal her, I'm sure, like, no matter what. So that can really get extended. But I guess maybe there is a portion of that of, like, well, at the end of the day, at least I'm just a human and I will Succumb at some point.
Natalie Jean
Just, if you crucify me, I'll die in a couple days.
Jackie Zabrowski
Right?
Natalie Jean
She jumps on her bike and screeches out of there, leaving Ruhn with his stunned friends. Declan and Flynn are in disbelief that he would have kept Bryce being his sister a secret from that them. Secretly, Ruhn fears that if the world knows about her and she gets crowned princess, that his terrible oracle reading will indicate some awful fate for her. But he doesn't reveal that to his friends, only tells them that he was forbidden from speaking of it and he couldn't risk it. He shakes off their questions, telling them they need to find Bryce. Right now, he has something to say. Say we cut to Bryce's pov. She has taken her scooter to the shore opposite the bone quarter. Seemingly.
Jackie Zabrowski
Say it right. The bone quarter, bone corner. Thank you.
Natalie Jean
Seemingly out of alive people to talk to, her heart full of despair, she speaks quietly to Danika the way someone might talk to a gravestone. She tells her everything has gone wrong and she doesn't know what to do. She gets to her knees in a sort of prayer position, bows her head in silence, seemingly beyond words. After a time, she whispers to Danika that she wishes that she was here. The world seems to quiet down at the words.
Jackie Zabrowski
A chill crept toward her through her every sense, fae and human, went on alert. She scanned the men, mists, waiting, praying for a black boat. She was so busy looking that she didn't see the attack coming, didn't twist to see the Crystalos demon leaping from the shadows, jaws open before it tackled her into the eddying waters.
Natalie Jean
Now we have a Crystalos here.
Jackie Zabrowski
It's just like there's so much going.
Natalie Jean
On this right now, Chris. Low.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yes. And it's like we are having a moment and it's been a day. Can you just wait until tomorrow? Or at least if you're gonna attack me at this point, bring me a cocktail. I need a little bit of a cocktail. Because if you're talking to your dead friend that may have killed all your other friends.
Natalie Jean
Yeah.
Jackie Zabrowski
Have a drink. Yeah.
Natalie Jean
I guess she's still not believing that.
Jackie Zabrowski
That.
Natalie Jean
Because I feel like you wouldn't want to talk to them after that.
Jackie Zabrowski
Yeah. And I imagine again, we know that she hasn't had the opportunity to process any of this yet. So there's only so much. And I feel like when your brain is undergoing, like, a lot of change or a lot of, like, trying to. And you haven't processed all of it, I feel like only portions of it become fact in your brain. And I feel like she's still working with the. Like that. That can't be a fact. I'm. That's not. I need more from that before I believe that. Which is understandable. Because think of all the juking that has happened in this book thus far. How do you believe anything outright?
Natalie Jean
We don't know. We don't know what to believe.
Jackie Zabrowski
No, we don't. All we know is that our heart is broken and we will never recover.
Natalie Jean
Now we're getting eaten.
Jackie Zabrowski
Might be for the best. Yeah. Please read up until chapter 76. Hey, SiriusXM podcast listeners. You can now unlock seven day early access, exclusive bonus content and ad free listening to new episodes on some of your favorite podcasts. Subscribe to SiriusXM podcasts plus on Apple Podcasts or by visiting siriusxm.com podcastsplus today.
LPN Deep Dives: Crescent City – Episode 22: Angel Cruise to Torture Town
Hosts: Natalie Jean and Jackie Zebrowski
Release Date: March 18, 2025
In this episode of "LPN Deep Dives: Crescent City," hosts Natalie Jean and Jackie Zebrowski delve deep into the intricate world of Sarah J. Maas's popular adult science fiction series, Crescent City. Episode 22, titled "Angel Cruise to Torture Town," offers a comprehensive analysis of the plot developments, character arcs, and the overarching themes that make this series a fan favorite.
Timestamp: [00:00] – [01:04]
The episode kicks off with hosts Natalie and Jackie exchanging playful banter and briefly mentioning upcoming events related to the Crescent City series. They tease listeners about the "Dreamers and Readers Festival" scheduled for spring 2026, highlighting activities like Fae balls, fashion shows, and exclusive swag bags for participants.
Timestamp: [02:32] – [08:35]
Discussion Highlights:
Angelic Dilemmas: The hosts explore the portrayal of angels in the series, discussing the allure and the burdens of being angelic. Natalie muses, "I think a lot of these books have really put me off the idea of being angelic. I think it's bad." Jackie counters with a nuanced perspective, expressing conflicted feelings about heaven and angelic existence.
Hair Extensions and Identity: A humorous segment unfolds as Jackie and Natalie discuss the use of wigs and hair extensions, drawing parallels to character transformations in the books. Jackie shares her apprehensions about dyeing her hair, equating it to irreversible changes, much like the characters' evolving identities.
Dreams and Reality: Jackie delves into the concept of dream control, referencing techniques like flipping lights or snapping bracelets to discern dreams from reality. This segues into a philosophical discussion about memory, trauma, and coping mechanisms, with Jackie reflecting on her anxiety and dreams of being hunted, paralleling the protagonist Hunt's struggles.
Notable Quotes:
Timestamp: [11:03] – [26:09]
Discussion Highlights:
Hunt's Captivity: The hosts examine Hunt's grim situation in his holding cell, juxtaposing modern and medieval forms of torture. Natalie describes, "His prison cell is modern, and he's thinking about that because his captivity in Panjara was quite different. It was very much more medieval."
Character Dynamics: They dissect the strained relationships between characters, particularly focusing on Bryce's realization that her best friend Danika committed murders. Jackie emphasizes the emotional turmoil, stating, "I'm very mad at him."
Philosophical Underpinnings: The conversation touches on themes of guilt, redemption, and the cyclical nature of violence. Natalie criticizes Hunt's choices, pondering whether his desire for a peaceful life is genuine or a facade, leading to his moral complexities.
Notable Quotes:
Timestamp: [26:36] – [49:23]
Discussion Highlights:
Bryce’s Emotional State: The hosts delve into Bryce Quinlan's internal conflict as she grapples with Hunt's incarceration and the fallout from their relationship. Natalie portrays Bryce's struggle: "She's not exactly meeting Ruhn, more like crashing a hangout he's already having with Flynn."
Sandriel’s Manipulation: The sinister character Sandriel is analyzed for her manipulative tactics and emotional cruelty towards Hunt and Bryce. Jackie reveals her disdain for Sandriel's actions, highlighting the antagonist's role in perpetuating pain and control.
Love and Betrayal: Natalie and Jackie discuss the complex love dynamics, particularly the potential for Hunt to be an anti-hero despite his darker actions. They debate whether Hunt's love for Bryce can redeem his morally questionable choices.
Notable Quotes:
Timestamp: [49:23] – [73:48]
Discussion Highlights:
Sandriel's Aggression: The hosts analyze pivotal confrontations, including Sandriel's attack on Bryce and her incessant torment of Hunt. Natalie narrates the intensity of these moments, emphasizing the emotional and physical toll on the characters.
Rune’s Intervention: The arrival of Rune introduces new dynamics as he challenges Sandriel's authority and attempts to protect Bryce. Jackie admires Rune's heroic stance, noting, "I own him."
Bryce’s Desperation: Bryce's actions, driven by desperation to save Hunt, are scrutinized. Natalie reflects on Bryce's plea and the complexity of her feelings towards Hunt, adding depth to her character development.
Notable Quotes:
Timestamp: [73:48] – [86:09]
Discussion Highlights:
Emotional Aftermath: Post-confrontation, the hosts explore the aftermath of the pivotal scenes, focusing on Bryce's lingering emotions and Hunt's despair. Natalie captures the essence of Bryce's pain: "She's still angry with him and maybe they wouldn't ever recover their relationship."
Themes of Sacrifice and Love: The discussion underscores the sacrifices characters make for love and redemption, highlighting the series' exploration of deep emotional bonds and the costs associated with them.
Character Growth: Reflecting on the characters' journeys, Natalie and Jackie commend Bryce's growth from isolation to seeking connection, marking a significant evolution in her character arc.
Notable Quotes:
Throughout the episode, Natalie and Jackie interweave personal anecdotes and humorous remarks, providing listeners with a relatable and entertaining perspective on the series. Their chemistry shines as they navigate complex plot points, offering both critical analysis and lighthearted commentary.
Selected Quotes:
Timestamp: [85:59] – [86:09]
As the episode wraps up, the hosts reflect on the intense emotional landscape of Crescent City, emphasizing the depth of character development and the intricate plotting that has captivated fans. Natalie and Jackie encourage listeners to continue their journey through the series, anticipating future episodes that will delve even deeper into the saga's rich narrative.
Final Quote:
Summary:
In "Angel Cruise to Torture Town," Natalie Jean and Jackie Zebrowski provide an exhaustive and passionate examination of the latest developments in Crescent City. From dissecting complex character motivations to exploring the morally gray areas of love and power, the episode offers both fans and newcomers a thorough understanding of the series' intricacies. Through engaging dialogue, insightful analysis, and their signature humor, the hosts enhance the listening experience, making this episode a must-listen for enthusiasts eager to dive deep into the world Sarah J. Maas has crafted.