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The phrase is "we claim spiritual progress" I thought my life would be wonderful if I lost the weight. I did it a bunch of times and my life was never perfect. I was in a car accident where being fat saved me. The whole thing scared me. In my first meeting I heard that there is a solution for way I felt on the inside. Since memorial day weekend 1983 I have had an abstinence of 3 moderate meals and no sugar. I used to eat anytime I had a feeling. I had to learn an alternative way to handle them. I had no social skill when I came into OA. Everything was defensive. I learned in OA in OA how to communicate without being angry. I am only as sick as my secret. something that happened 30 minutes ago. I need to talk with others. I believe acceptance is the key and I still work at it.

I spent years trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I found that sugar took the edge off my stress. We were a sugar free household. I went to extreme measure to get my sugar. My mom put me on my first diet at 9 (SEGO) I was so busy trying to be what thought others wanted me to be that I had no idea who I actually was. After 20 years in therapy I was around 300 lbs. After 2 kids I got up to 400 I have been back in program 24 years with imperfect abstinence. I have an abusive relationship with certain foods. I doesn't cost me anything to bring joy to someone else. One of my tools is to bookend risky tasks by phone.

Graduated HS at 285, but will never get to 300, Then hit 407 and stopped using a scale At a couples event I met a guy who was over 400 but was not now. He got my attention. I have always thought I was just a fat kid. It was not the reality looking at pictures but I thought it was. My goto prayer is -"God, show me what I need to see." I always did well with fasting and/or Keto. The king of short term weight loss. Until it didn't work. Was on the plan and failed every day. It was the darkest I can imagine. and it got worse. I called a guy I had met - actually called, he called back and I got involved in OA. I I threw myself into following a sponsors I had the moment where I had a sudden crisis and my first thought was food, but niot my action.\ I used to eat to treat my spiritual malady. Not taday.

I come from generations of alcoholics and overeaters. I am one of eight and we all have 'issues' I thought we were a close knit family, I was a strong fixer. I later discovered I was a martyr and a victim putting my emotional well being onto my husband. In adolescence I felt 'large' but looking back l it was not the case. It was in marriage I progressed from plump to 280 lbs. I was scared into seeking 'life' one evening in the 90s It was in open AA meetings where I really learned about the 12 steps and all the human drama that work with the 12 steps. I keep my eyes on the prize - being joyous, happy and free.

Today I am maintaining about 90 LBS down from my top. I have been lower but was not sustainable. As a kid I was admitted to a hospital for being too thin. That quickly revered. I was extremely overweight by 3rd grade and embarrassed by the school nurse. By 11 I went to a doctor and counted calories. It gave me awareness or what was happening. I lost a lot and became a normal weight. From then on I was always dieting. I was told about bulemia. got excited about it but could not do it. Grateful for that. Diet pills made me crazy but I did loose weight. Graduated at normal weight, stop diet pills and the yoyo started. Tried Pay and Weighs about 15 times. Once I heard about OA I was so excited I ran right out 6 months later. It sounded great except for the God part. I reached my highest weight before I really surrendered to a higher Power.

Topped at 238. My mom said I was 'Big Boned' but the pain of the teasing was very real. I loved boys but they didn't love me. Big surprise. Been sober for 39 Years. First came to OA in 1990. but no sponsor, no Steps I actually did have a thyroid problem. Even sober I was just existing mishandling my food thinking I could control it only to fail repeatedly. I have been consistent in OA for about 7 years. Finally got a sponsor and became willing to work the steps and got honest. Today I have a tight food plan, daily inventory, meetings and service. I avoid the foods I used to crave and the craving stops. Even Diet Coke. I have incorporated exercise. eating less and less flour.

2011 at 365 I wanted to loose weight with a new years resolution. No action until Nov. then went to OA Bay think I would get the plan and leave and be fixed, Got sponsor and had to refrain from 5 alcoholic foods. I was proud of how much I can eat. Never full. Had a watermelon cake with fruit for my wedding. I have a daily ritual including prayers daily readings, my abstinence, regular meetings and sponsoring. I trust my sponsor to help me navigate my errors . I was in my 40s when I started growing up.

First time into OA - 1978 They were speaking my language around food. For three weeks I had to hibernate to stay away from sugar. I realized I could be moderate with anything without sugar. I lost weight down to 88 lbs. worked for 3 years For over 40 years I went up and down and kept clothes for every size. I could loose weight, for a minute and never had not worked the steps At 57 I was raising my 3 year old autistic grandson and coped by eating. for the last 15 yearas I have been wearing the same size clothes Today at an Easter dinner I stayed away from the dessert table. My food plan is boring and works for me.

Top weight pregnant 5'3" and 213. Started in OA in 1990. Lasted 5 years, stayed abstinent throguh second pregamancy. I got this... not - 7 rear relapse. I gave up sugar before I came back - It was my heroin, Came home from Paris after gaining 7 lbs in a week realizing I had a problem but didn't need a sponsor. Still wanted the diet. I surrendered VERY slowly. I was just fat. I have had one more slip. waas back quickly, had nowhre else to go. I have a Higher Power whom I don't always listen to. I have a daily ritual for my higher power, my program and my family. Weighing and measureing works for me when I am at home. (Most of the time). I don't hate myself anymore - or you.

Being a hundred pounder came with the shame that I let it get that bad. Now it is with acceptance of my recovery. Came in OA at 24 years old 375 lbs. Food was my solution for a dificult childhood. I kept that solution when that danger was no longer there. There were clues along the way which did not work. I wanted to win on my own ... Got gave me the tools, if I failed it was on me. I was excited to get to day 30. After that was day 31. As I approached the 100 lb mark I had the thought I was loosing part of who I am. I am the same weight I was at 13 but now I am safe and surrounded with people who love me, and I love me. Doing it on my terms did not work. I am no longer defined by my weight, good or bad. My current anxiety and drama is not longer because of my wheight. it is because I am human.