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On selected shorts this week. Interventions what happens when outside agents step into other people's lives? We find out in stories by Stephen King and Jamel Brinkley where a persuasive stranger and a neighborhood oddball turn out to be agents of change. I'm Meg Wolitzer. Let us intervene in your life for an hour. Intervention is a word that carries a bit of freight. There's some sense that it involves interference in a situation or a life, and that it's not always welcome. These days, one of the most common associations is with family and friends, concerned with a loved one's self destructive behavior. It's purposeful, but there's also the idea of chance, or even divine intervention. In Greek mythology and classical drama, intervention usually involved the presence, seen or unseen, of the gods. The results were sometimes devastatingly violent and sometimes covertly benign, or spectacularly, magically transforming. So yes, Helen, the Trojan War was a bummer. But only you got to be the most beautiful woman in the world. Our stories on this show explore different manifestations of intervention. In the first, the road to recovery takes a twist. In the second, a neighborhood oddball turns out to have hidden strengths. Our first story, the Fifth Step, is by Stephen King. King is, of course, the author of such horror classics as Carrie and the Shining, but also boasts a powerful portfolio of short fiction. The story is read by David Morse, an actor with an equally large range, from his early work on the hit television series St. Elsewhere to his award winning performance in the Broadway revival of Paula Vogel's How I Learned to Drive, and he has been in three King adaptations, including the Green Mile. Here he is with the author's the Fifth Step.
David Morse / Actor / Interviewee (3:18)
The Fifth Step Harold Jamison, once chief engineer of New York City's Sanitation Department, enjoyed retirement. He knew from his small circle of friends that some didn't, so he considered himself lucky. He had an acre of garden in upper Manhattan that he shared with several like minded horticulturalists. He had discovered Netflix, and he was making inroads in the books he'd always meant to read. He still missed his wife, a victim of breast cancer five years previous, but aside from that persistent ache, his life was quite full. Before rising every morning, he reminded himself to enjoy the day. At 68, he liked to think he had a fair amount of road left, but there was no denying it had begun to narrow. The best part of those days, assuming it wasn't raining, snowing or too cold, was the nine block walk to Central park after breakfast. Although he carried a cell phone and used an electronic tablet, had grown dependent on it. In fact, he still preferred the print version of Times in the Park. He would settle on his favorite bench and spend an hour with it, reading at the sections back to front, telling himself he was progressing from from the sublime to the ridiculous. Now, one morning in May, the weather coolish but perfectly adequate for bench sitting and newspaper reading, he was annoyed to look up from his paper to see a middle aged man sitting down at the other end of his bench. Although there were plenty of empty ones in the vicinity, this invader of Jameson's morning space looked to be, oh, in his mid to late 40s, neither handsome nor ugly. In fact, perfectly nondescript. The same was true of his attire. New Balance walking shoes, jeans, a Yankee cap, and a Yankee hoodie with a hood tossed back. Jameson gave him an impatient side glance, prepared to move to another bench. Don't go, the man said. Please. I sat down here because I need a favor. It's not. It's not a big one, but I'll pay. He reached into the kangaroo pouch of the hoodie and held out a $20 bill. I don't do favors for strange men, jameson said and got up. That's exactly the point. The two of us being strangers. Hear me out. If you say no, that's fine. But please hear me out. You could. He cleared his throat and Jamison realized the guy was nervous. Maybe more. Maybe scared. You could be saving my life. Jameson considered and then sat back down, but as far from the other man as he could while still keeping both butt cheeks on the bench. I'm gonna give you a minute, but if you sound crazy to me, I'm leaving. And put your money away. I don't need it. I don't want it. The man looked at the bill as if surprised to find it still in his hand and then put it back in the kangaroo pouch. He put his hands on his thighs and looked down at them instead of at Jamison. I'm an alcoholic. Four months sober. Four months and 12 days to be exact. Congratulations, jamison said. He guessed he meant it, but he was even more ready to get up to leave the park if necessary. The guy seemed sane, but Jameson was old enough to know that sometimes the woo woo didn't come out right away. I've tried three times before and once got almost a year. I think this might be my last chance to grab the brass ring. I'm in AA. I know what it is. What's your name, Mr. Four Months Sober? You can call me Jack. That's good enough. We don't use names in the program. Well, Jameson knew that too. Lots of people on the Netflix shows had alcohol problems. So what can I do for you, Jack? Well, the first three times I tried, I didn't get a sponsor in the program. You know, somebody who listens to you, answers your questions sometimes, tells you what to do. Well, this time I did. Met a guy at the Bowery Sundown meeting and I really liked the stuff he said. And you know how he carried himself. Twelve years sober, feet on the ground. Works in sales. Like me. He had turned to look at Jameson, but now he returned to gaze at his hands. I used to be. I was a hell of a salesman. For five years I headed the sales department of well, it doesn't matter, but it was a big deal. You'd know the company. And now I'm down to peddling greeting cards and energy drinks to bodegas in the five boroughs. Last rung on the ladder, man. Get to the point, jamison said, but not harshly. He had become a little interested in spite of himself. It was not every day that a stranger sat down on your bench and started spilling his shit. Especially not in New York. I was going to check on the Mets. They were off to a good start. Jack rubbed a palm across his mouth. Well, I like this guy I met at the Sundown. So I got up my courage after a meeting and asked him to be my sponsor in March. This was he looked me over and he said he'd take me on, but only on two conditions. That I do everything he said and call him if I felt like drinking. Well, then I'll be calling you every fucking night. And I said and he said so call me every fucking night and if I don't answer, talk to the machine. And then he asked if I worked the steps. Do you know what those are? Vaguely. Well, I said I hadn't gotten around to them. He said that if I wanted him to be my sponsor, I'd have to start. And he said the first three were both the hardest and the easiest. They boiled down to I can't stop on my own, but with God's help I can. So I'm going to let him help. Jamison grunted. Well, I said I didn't believe in God. And this guy, Randy, that's his name, he said he didn't give a shit. He told me to get down on my knees every morning and ask this God I didn't believe in to help me stay sober another day. And if I didn't drink, he said for me to get down on my knees before I turn in and thank God for my sober day. Now Randy asked if I was willing to do that and I said said I was because I'd lose him otherwise, you see. Oh sure, you were desperate. Yeah, exactly. The gift of desperation. That's what AAs call it. Randy said if I didn't do those prayers and said I was doing them, he'd know because he spent 30 years lying his ass off about everything. So you did it even though you didn't believe in God? I did. And it's been working. As for my belief that there's no God, the longer I stay sober, the more that wavers. Well, if you can ask me to pray with you, forget it. Jack smiled down at his hands. No, I still feel self conscious about the on my knees thing, even when I'm by myself. Last month, April, Randy told me to do the fourth step, and that's when you make a moral inventory, supposedly searching and fearless of your character. What did you. Yeah, yeah, Randy said I was supposed to put down the bad stuff, then turn the page and list the good stuff. Took me 10 minutes to the bad stuff, over an hour for the good stuff. At first I couldn't think of anything good, but finally I wrote, well, at least I got a sense of humor, which I do. And once I got that I was able to think of a few other things. When I told Randy I had trouble thinking of character strengths, he said, well, that's normal. You drank for almost 30 years, he said, and that puts a lot of scars and bruises on a man's self image. But if you stay sober, the bruises will heal. And then he told me to burn the lists. He said that would make me feel better. Did it? Well, strangely enough, it did. Anyway, that brings us to this month's request from Randy. More of a demand, I'm guessing, jamison said, smiling a little. He folded his newspaper and laid it aside. Jack also smiled. I think you're catching the sponsor or sponsee dynamic. Randy told me it was time to do my fifth step, which is admit it to God, to ourselves, and to another human being. The exact nature of our wrongs, jack said, making quote marks with his fingers, and I told him, okay, I make a list and read it to him. God could listen in. Two birds with one stone. Deal. I'm thinking. He said no. He said no. He told me to approach a complete stranger. His first suggestion was a priest or a minister. But I haven't set foot in church Since I was 12 and I have no urge to go back. So whatever I'm coming to believe, and I don't know yet what that is, I don't need to sit in a church pew to help it along. Jameson, no churchgoer himself, nodded. Well, randy said, just walk up to somebody in Grant Park, Washington Square park, or Central park and ask him to hear your list of wrongs. Offer a few bucks to sweeten the deal if that's what it takes, and just keep asking until someone agrees to listen. And he said the hard part would be the asking part. And he was right. Your first victim was a phrase that came to mind, but Jamison decided that wasn't exactly fair. Am I the first person you've approached? The second. I tried an off duty cab driver yesterday and he told me to get lost. Jameson thought of an old New York joke. Out of towner approaches a guy on Lexington Avenue and says, can you tell me how to get to City hall or should I just go fuck myself? He decided he wasn't gonna tell the guy in the Yankee gear to go fuck himself. No, he'd listen, and the next time he met his friend Alex, another retiree for lunch, he'd have something interesting to talk about. Okay, go for it. Well, Jack reached into the pouch of his hoodie, took out a piece of paper and unfolded it. When I was in fourth grade. No, this is going to be your life story. Maybe you better give me that 20 after all. Jack reached into his hoodie with the hand not holding his list of wrongdoings, but Jameson waved him off, a joke from joking. You sure? Yes. Yeah, well, let's not take too long. I've got an appointment at 8:30. This wasn't true, but Jameson reflected that it was good he didn't have the alcohol problem, because according to the TV Meetings he'd attended. Honesty was a big deal if you did. All right, keep it, speedy. Got it. Here goes. In fourth grade, I got into a fight with another kid. I gave him a bloody lip and nose. When we got to the office, I said it was because he called my mother a dirty name. He denied it, of course, but we both got sent home with a note for our parents. Or just my mom, in my case, because my dad left us when I was two. And the dirty name thing? A lie. I was having a bad day and I thought I'd feel better if I got into a fight with this kid I didn't like. I don't know why I didn't like him. I guess there was a reason, but I don't know. I don't remember what it was, only that it set a pattern of lying. I started drinking in junior high. My mother had a bottle of vodka that she kept in freezer, and I'd swig from it and then add water. And she finally caught me and the vodka disappeared from the freezer. I knew where she put it on a high shelf over the stove. But I left it alone after that. By then it was probably mostly water anyway. So I saved my allowance and chore money and got some old wino to buy me nips. He'd buy four and keep one. I enabled his drinking. That's what my sponsor would say. Jack shook his head. I don't know what happened to that guy. Ralph, his name was. Only I thought of him as Wretched Ralph. Kids can be cruel. For all I know, he's dead and I helped him. Don't get carried away, Jameson said. I'm sure you have stuff to feel guilty about with having to invent a bunch of might have beens. Jack looked up and grinned, and when he did, Jameson saw the man actually had tears in his eyes. Not falling, but brimming. Well, now. Now you sound like Randy. Is that a good thing? Well, I think so. I think I'm lucky I found you. Jamison discovered he actually felt lucky to have been found. Well, okay. What else you got on that list? Because time's passing. Well, I went to Brown and graduated cum laude, but mostly I lied and cheated my way through. I was good at it. And, oh, here's a big one. The student advisor I had my senior year was a Koch addict, and I won't go into how I found that out. Like you said, time's passing. But I did, and I made a deal with him. Good recommendations in exchange for a key of coke, plus of course he'd pay for the dope. Wasn't into charity. Key as in kilo? Jameson asked. His eyebrows went up most of the way to his hairline. Right. I brought it to the Canadian border, tucked into the spare tire of my old Ford, trying to look like any other college kid who spent his semester break having fun and getting laid in Toronto. But my heart was beating like crazy. And I bet my blood pressure was redlining because the car in front of me at the checkpoint got tossed completely. But I got waved right through after showing my driver's license. Of course. Things were much looser back then. He paused and then said I overcharged him for the key, too. Pocketed the difference. But you don't use any of the cocaine yourself? No, no, no. That was never my scene. No, I blew a little dope once in a while, but what I really wanted, and I still want, is grain alcohol. I lied to my bosses, but eventually that gave out. It wasn't like college. There was nobody to mule coke for. Not that I found anyway. Well, what'd you do exactly? Massaged my cell sheets. Made up appointments that didn't exist. Explained days when I was too hungover to come in. Jiggered expense sheets. That first job, oh, it was a good one. The sky was the limit and I blew it. And after he let me go, I decided what I really needed was a change of location. An AA that's called a Geographic Cure Never works. But I. I didn't know that. Seems simple enough now. You put an on a plane in Boston, an asshole gets off in LA or Denver or Des Moines. And I fucked up the second job. Not as good as the first one, but good. And I was in San Diego. And what I decided then was that I needed to get married and settle down. Now that would solve the problem. So I got married to a nice girl who deserved better than me. It lasted two years. Me lying right down the line about my drinking. Inventing non existent business appointments to explain why I was home late, inventing non existent flu symptoms to explain why I was going in late or not at all. I could have bought stock in one of those breath mint companies. Altoids, Breath Savers. Oh, but was she fooled? I'm guessing not. Jameson said. Listen, are we approaching the end here? Yeah. Oh, look. Come on. Yeah. Five more minutes. Promise. Okay. Well, there were arguments, and that just kept getting worse. Stuff got thrown occasionally, and not just by her. And there was a night when I came home around midnight stinking drunk and she started in on me, you know, all the usual jabber, and all of it was true. I felt like she was throwing poison darts at me and never missing. Jack was looking at his hands again. His mouth was turned down in the corner so severely that for a moment he looked at Jameson like Emmett Kelly, that famous sad faced clown. You know what came into my mind while she was yelling at me? Glenn Ferguson, that boy I beat up in fourth grade. How good it felt. I squeezed in the pus out of an infected boil. I thought it'd be good to beat her up. And for sure no one would send me home with a note from my mother because my mom died the year after I graduated from Brown. Whoa, Jameson said. Whoa. Feeling good about this uninvited confession took a hike. Unease replaced it. He wasn't sure he wanted to hear what came next. No, I left, jack said. But I was scared enough to know I had to do something about my drinking. And that was the first time that I tried AA out there in San Diego. I was sober when I came back to New York, but that didn't last. Tried again and that didn't last either. I neither did the third, but now I got Randy, and this time I might make it, partly thanks to you. And he held out his hand. Well, you're welcome, jamison said and took it. And there is one more thing, jack said. His grip was very strong. He was looking at Jameson's eyes and smiling. I did leave, but I cut that bitch's throat before I did. And I didn't stop drinking, but it made me feel better. And a way beating up Glenn Ferguson made me feel better. And that wino I told you about, kicking him around, that made me feel better too. I don't know if I killed him, but I sure did bust him up. Jameson tried to pull back, but the grip was too strong. The other hand was once more inside the pocket of the Yankee hoodie. I really. I really want to stop drinking, but I can't do a complete fifth step without admitting I seem to really enjoy what felt like a streak of hot white light slid between Jameson's ribs. When Jack pulled the dripping ice pick away once more, tucking it into the pocket of the hoodie, Jamison realized he couldn't breathe. Killing people, it's a character defect, I know. And probably the chief of my wrongs. He got to his feet. Thank you, sir. I don't know what your name is, but you helped me so much. He started away towards Central park west and then turned back to Jamison, who was grasping blindly for his times as if perhaps a quick scan of the Arts and Leisure section would put everything right, you'll be in my prayers, Jack said.
