A (10:54)
They want to be together. Yeah. It's not like you're forced or, like, have to because you got pregnant or you don't know what else to do. And so that, like, really shocked me. And so anyways, for me, you know, it's just like, it's been a long time coming and, like, yes, I'm still building my business, but my business, I mean, it really and truly at this point, really runs itself. I have a big team now. Like, it's not like back in the day when it was, like, just me. So it's like, yeah, I have, like, the success in my industry and the recognition and I'm financially stable, but, like, I feel like, you know, all of that just feels dull and not enough, like, when you're like, don't have your person. And this year, you know, something that really hit home for me and, like, I think really made me realize how unhappy I was was when Tyler moved to Dallas and then got a boyfriend. Because I used to, like, he was like, my emotional support husband. Like, you know, I was getting all of that constant, like, love and attention and, like, togetherness, like, going to my doctor's appointment, like, just ev. We did everything together. Like, we were literally, like, attached to the hip. And then when I lost that, like, then I was really just with my ex husband. And that's when I was, like, really figured out that I was really lonely and felt very, very, very isolated and very alone. And, like, I just didn't have anyone in my corner. And, like, when I came home, like, I just felt more stress. And it became to where, like, I felt more at peace and happier when I was at work. Even if it was like, the fucking worst day at work. Like, it was better than being home. And that's like, when I really, like, knew, like, okay, I need to, like, actually, like, address this and deal with it, because if I don't, there's never a good time to get divorced. There's never a good time to have children. There's never a good time to get married. There's never a good time to start. Like, you're always going to find an excuse. You're Always going to say, well, after this holiday or after this event or once I hit this milestone or, you know, after we go on this vacation or whatever it is, and you're just going to, like, end up 70 years old and be like, why the fuck did I never start a business? Why did I stay in a miserable marriage? Because when you're 70 and you've already done everything and, like, your life, you know, you get to, like, reap what you sowed, you know, and, like, enjoy your riches and just relax, and that's when you're going to actually be like, oh, now I have time to deal with this. But it's like. And it's never too late. I know a lot of people that get, you know, divorced or married in their 70s, not have kids, but divorced and married and start businesses. But, yeah, you just don't want to wait till that point because, like, the time is now. Like, I'm in my prime. I, you know, just had to make that choice. And, like, I do want other children. And that's like, the other big thing was, like, I didn't feel like it was right to bring another child in this world in a relationship that wasn't steady. And I wouldn't do that out of, like, my need for another child and my want and desire for another child so badly that I'd subject them to that. So, yeah, I'm definitely not rushing into anything, playing the field, seeing what's out there, terrified. But, like, you know, I think it. What comes. Comes when you're not looking for it. And hopefully it's at the fish store. But I do think it's a bit stressful. I was, like, talking to my mom, and I think just, men aren't men these days. Like, to be quite honest, and, like, just hearing this from my team and, like, clients for the past 10 years, like, I literally would be like, damn. Like, the grass does not seem greener. Like, I'd rather just stay in this relationship than, like, be with someone that's, you know, I don't know. I guess it's just like, you know, the devil you're dancing with. And so I think that's easier than, like, dancing with a devil. You don't know if that makes. Does that make sense? Like, I knew what I was involved in, and so. But, like, yeah. So anyways, yeah, no really scary out there. So basically, for me, my fear is, like, that I'm just gonna be, like, way too much for someone and not be, like. Because I'm not submissive. I am very bold I'm very fiery, I'm very who I am. And then I'm also don't need anyone financially. And like my mom was like, yeah, well at least for me, because my mom is like, if you think I have a strong personality, my mom's personality is like that times 10. Like she'll make you cry. Like my mom says what is on her mind.
