Loading summary
Transcript203 lines
- [00:06]
A
Hello, guys. Welcome back to another Monday with me and Tyler. He's actually looking for my camera in the car right now because I'm spiraling and crashing out because I don't know where it went. And that shit's expensive and hard to find. And I actually just bought one for Maria for just cause, because she's my girl and she's been wanting one forever, so. And also she takes a lot of my photos for me, like, on trips and stuff when we're working. So I was like, if she has one. It was, like, smart. It was. I should have honestly paid up with it on the business card because she can practice and get really good and. Yeah. So anyways, he's coming back. I have a feeling he found it. Nope, that's another man. That's a different man. That's not Tyler. Anyhow, let's get this episode started. I am excited to be back in office, seeing clients here shortly. We pushed our opening to the new year because it just was a cluster, to be honest. Like, we were supposed to be in this new space in July. And I'm sure you guys are, like, so sick of us talking about it, but it just sucks with the holidays and everything. Like, nobody's working, so it's hard to get, like, answers. And there's just so many little things and companies and businesses that, like, we're working with to get certain things for the. And it's hard to, like, get those things when everyone decides to take off from, like, December 10th to, like, January 15th. It's actually crazy. I can't believe it. How do people not work? That's a long break. I would freak out. Like, that's like an adult spring break. That's, like an adult summer. Anyway. So amazing for them. I'm glad they're getting their. Their rest before the new year and after. But it's kind of put us in a bind to where, like, a lot of things that need to be fixed at the spa, people are taking off, obviously, for the holidays, so they're not fixing the things that need to be fixed as fast as they need to. And there's just so many little things. Like, if you looked at the spa, like, and walked in, you'd be like, oh, my God, she's beautiful. But we've been taking, like, a couple clients, like, clients that have been with me forever, and also clients that, like, are traveling to come see me. So, like, they're flying in. I'm not going to cancel their appointment. Um, so we've been seeing those types of People. And while I'm in the rooms, like, doing treatments, I feel like an ADHD child because I'm, like, literally looking everywhere and finding things that need to get fixed. So that's kind of the phase we're at. And I just don't want to open and then have yellow tape everywhere. And we do well enough on our E commerce and, like, online sales that, like, everyone can get paid and, like, life can go on. Like, we're not. We're losing a lot of money actually working in clinic. Like, it hurts, but it'll all be worth it. And, you know, I'm at the end of the day. I want the quality to be amazing. I want everyone to have this new experience because we've talked so much about it and done so much to have this new experience in place that I'm not going to just, like, cut it short just because, like, we need to be making money in clinic. So with that being said. Did someone send me flowers? Oh, not a man, unfortunately. It was my sales associate from Bottega. She's the best. If you're ever in Vegas and need a good sales associate, Nikki is our queen. She's amazing. All the sales associates in Dallas, besides Marco at Hermes and Chris at Cartier, they suck. So all of my, like, people I have around the world because they're better anyway. So moving forward to that, I actually was really surprised that Tyler didn't want to wring my neck when I pushed her opening, like, a month out. We have been kicked out of our obviously old space. There's someone else that took over the lease, but they're really sweet. They gave us till, like, the end of November, and yet we're still not open. What else is new? My pufferfish Carlos is what I ended up naming him, but if you talk to Candice Moreno, the name is Candy Pop. She's gonna fight me on that. So it is Candy Pop for her dedicated Carlos, AKA Candy Pop. And he's a murderer. Honestly, he has killed pretty much everything in my tank. I'm really, actually pissed off at these fish people because I think it's a Ponzi scheme. I don't even know what a Ponzi scheme is, but I know it's a type of scheme, and I think it sounds interesting. So we're gonna call it a Ponzi scheme. I think it's some sort of fraud, which is what they're doing. I'm sorry, but they are. They're all on different pages. They all. One guy will come in and say, feed Them every day. The other guy will say, every other day. And then another guy's like, no. Like, you can skip two days. And the other guy's like, no, if you skip two days, he's gonna eat your fish. And then one guy's like, you shouldn't have these fish together. And then the other guy's like, no, you can. And I think they want my fish to die, so I have to keep buying fish. That's my thought process on this. Because they need to have a staff training. They all need to get on the same page. They are all, like, have their own ideas about fish keeping, and it's really conflicting, and it's really confusing. Second of all, the guy that is, like, our cleaner that comes every month or whatever to clean, I've never had a man not give me his cell phone number. This man would not give me his number. And I was like, I'm not trying to, like, hit on you. And he's like, I'm married. And I was like, you're, like, 60. I didn't say that. My head. I'm like, he's 60 years old. He's a fish man. And I'm like, I just want to text you about my fish. And he's like, no, you got to earn that. And so I hate him because I need round the clock care, especially when we're having this many fatalities. I need someone I can call. I need someone I can trust. I need someone I can talk to. And the guy that, like, sold me all the fish, I have his number, but I don't trust his judgment because he's getting all of my children murdered. So Carlos, AKA Candy Pop, the puffer fish that I, like, died for. Like, literally, I paid $10 a week to keep him at the fish store because, like, our tank had to cycle and it was, like, toxic. He ate. Tell me you found it. What purse did I bring? My tiny little one. Ask your boyfriend.
- [06:25]
B
I called him.
- [06:28]
A
That was it just that purse and my purse.
- [06:32]
B
What purse?
- [06:33]
A
My. That purse and then my tiny little one so it would not fit my tiny little one. Where was I at? Oh, my clownfish. Yeah, we lost Cosmo.
- [06:44]
B
Was there any other purse? There was no other purse, like, missing.
- [06:48]
A
Did you already tell them I'm crashing out. Call Lauren. Did her friend steal it? In the back of my car. Someone stole my camera.
- [06:56]
B
What. What purses did you have with you? Because I feel like you had. I feel like you had that one. You had the small one you brought to dinner, and then you probably had another one. That you brought to the office?
- [07:05]
A
No.
- [07:06]
B
Are you sure?
- [07:07]
A
That day? Let me think. That was the day. Let me look at my outfit, then I'll know. I'm gonna crash out. Was the dinner for we the night before? Yes. So we had it. So the last time I had this.
- [07:23]
B
Camera was Saturday night.
- [07:27]
A
Did we leave it at the photo shoot? Was that before? Was this before?
- [07:32]
B
Oh, the photo shoot.
- [07:34]
A
When was this? This was after. I wonder if it's at CLJ's or.
- [07:40]
B
If Maria has it.
- [07:42]
A
I don't know. One of the two. No, because then I got these photos. Maria must have it. Maria was the last one with it.
- [07:50]
B
We're getting to the bottom of the case.
- [07:54]
A
Yeah, because I did this thing and then after that.
- [07:57]
B
I'm FaceTiming Maria.
- [08:00]
A
After that I went to the spa.
- [08:03]
B
But did you have a photo shoot them? Did we have the party or.
- [08:06]
A
No, no, then I went.
- [08:07]
B
The party was Friday night.
- [08:08]
A
This was. Yeah, this was Saturday, so I had it Saturday morning. Okay.
- [08:15]
B
Okay, that makes sense. Okay, well.
- [08:17]
A
So it's not your boyfriend.
- [08:18]
B
My boyfriend is vindicated.
- [08:19]
A
He's vindicated. Anyways, okay, so Cosmo got 8, Cora got 8, Cleo is still alive. Carmen's dead. It's really sad. It's just a tragedy all over.
- [08:37]
B
I feel like now I can say that I have escaped blame, right?
- [08:46]
A
Yeah.
- [08:47]
B
Because I got blamed.
- [08:48]
A
And then, well, Clara was the first to go and she was kind of the cunt of the group. Honestly. She was an antagonizer. She was the bully of the entire tank. And so at first I was like, carlos is just weeding out the bad apple. You know, it's fine. Like, fuck Clara. Honestly, she was so mean. And so I wasn't upset about that. Then a couple days later, I look at Tyler and I'm like, Carlos is hungry. He's going to eat one of these fish. And he's like, no, no, no, he's fine. And then what happened? He ate not one, but two fish. No, this was just one. He ate Carmen. Then he ate Carmen, the small one. And I was like so mad. I was like, fuck you, your dad, to me. I told you this would happen. I knew what happened and. But it really, honestly, it wasn't his fault. I think that they need more hiding spots. I again think it's a Ponzi scheme. What is a Ponzi scheme? By way, is that where you Fraud insurance?
- [09:42]
B
A Ponzi scheme?
- [09:44]
A
Oh, my. That makes me feel better that you don't know. It just sounds fun. Like I want to commit a Ponzi scheme.
- [09:51]
B
Oh, a Ponzi scheme is where you get, like, investors, and then you use the money for yourself, and then you get more investors to pay back the original investors, and then it's just like a.
- [10:00]
A
So it's not really a Ponzi scheme.
- [10:02]
B
No, it's. It's a. It's. They basically. I feel like this place gives you fish in the wrong place. She said it was in her purse, but we think that this place just gives us fish that are not going to either survive in the tank in the first place and. Or survive with the other fish in the tank. And it's just. So you keep on buying more and more fish, because that's the only thing that makes sense at this point, because I don't know if y' all were here or if you heard about this the first time, but when we got the tank originally installed, they gave us. What kind of fish was Lucia? A blue tang. No. Did I make that up? What kind of fish was Lucia?
- [10:54]
A
She was some sort of tang.
- [10:56]
B
Yeah. And she was not meant to be in that tank at the beginning. She died fairly quickly, and it was really sad. And now they come and put a puffer fish in that absolutely murders our entire family of clownfish. So seems to just be a circle of death with this tank. But from what I've read, and, you know, you guys can blame us for not doing research, but, I mean, we had talked to many people at the aquarium store, made sure that everything was good. They had denied certain fish to us. So, like, you know what I mean? We're not the fish experts, but when we're building a tank and we say what kind of fish we want, they kind of guided us. So I feel like now doing research, it says that puffer fish. This may be super boring to some people, but puffer fish are, like, territorial. They're carnivorous, and they, like, are very gluttonous. They will keep on eating, and they never know when to stop. Like, and they'll beg for food. They're like dogs. They know who feeds them. They come. They, like, swim around. They beg. And so you have to be really strict with their feeding. But they will eat fish that are slower and smaller than them. And clownfish are both of those things. So apparently, you're. I mean, unless you have a huge tank, and it's very, like, complex, and there's, like, mazes and stuff to, like, keep the puffer fish entertained. From my understanding, you're not necessarily supposed to have clownfish.
- [12:26]
A
And let's see if we can see it on the camera in my office. That's the only other thing I can think of is leaving it in my office. Sorry, guys. I, like, I'm an anxious person. I don't like losing stuff. But, yeah, the pet for fish will just eat and eat and eat and eat. So we have to get it toys. I feel like it has to be in my office. Is that it? You see, I have better eyes than you.
- [12:57]
B
Um, well, I think the real solution is getting fish that are bigger and faster. Like, too big for him to eat.
- [13:04]
A
Why would someone steal my camera? You know, I don't understand the motive.
- [13:14]
B
She said the OG pink one I saw in her drawer when I went on Wednesday.
- [13:18]
A
No, I need the white one.
- [13:21]
B
Is the white one the office one?
- [13:23]
A
Does this look like this is it? I can't tell. Like, do we think it could be right here?
- [13:36]
B
I can't tell.
- [13:37]
A
I'm gonna cry anyway. It's fine. It's not. I'm stressed anyway, so. Yeah, that's what's happening at sba. I told them that we pushed our move.
- [13:52]
B
We did.
- [13:52]
A
Well, we're not. Remove our opening.
- [13:54]
B
I was gone for a long time. Dang. Yeah, you got through fish slaughter and pushing the move.
- [13:59]
A
I'm updating. We did fire someone. No fire quit hybrid.
- [14:05]
B
Stop saying that.
- [14:06]
A
Okay.
- [14:08]
B
Voluntarily left. So.
- [14:14]
A
Yeah, anyway. And that's really what's been happening.
- [14:23]
B
It's been a bit of chaotic. That's the word I'll use. I was gonna say shit show, but that's negative. It's been a little chaotic, but I feel like we have everything mostly under control now. Are you accusing her boy of stealing your camera?
- [14:41]
A
Yes. They were in the back of my car and you looked good. Like, under all them seats.
- [14:47]
B
Yeah.
- [14:48]
A
In the sides.
- [14:49]
B
Yeah. Unfortunately, I was ass up down in your car with my flashlight looking everywhere.
- [14:59]
A
I feel like it's at the office. Don't you?
- [15:03]
B
That's somewhere.
- [15:05]
A
Someone stealing my camera while I was in my car would be wild. I did valet at the. What if the valet is my cash in there?
- [15:13]
B
Yeah.
- [15:13]
A
They would take all my cash, right? Not some.
- [15:16]
B
Your wallet looks untouched.
- [15:18]
A
Okay. I hope it's not at this house.
- [15:25]
B
It wouldn't be. It wouldn't be. It's somewhere.
- [15:31]
A
I'm upset.
- [15:33]
B
Anyway. Anyway, what else is on the agenda?
- [15:37]
A
We're gonna do a Q and A Next episode. This is more of, like, a debrief of life. Dating has not gotten any better.
- [15:45]
B
Well. Well, I think it's gotten a little better for me. Yeah. No, I think so you're not, like, on the brink.
- [15:57]
A
What does that mean?
- [15:58]
B
Like, I feel like you were, like, I just, like, ready to turn lesbian.
- [16:03]
A
No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Ernie tried that for a short time.
- [16:09]
B
You know what I meant? I meant figuratively.
- [16:12]
A
Yeah. I mean, I think that I. It's like. It's crazy. It's like, either I like the avoidant person, and I'm, like, not really anxiously attached. I don't know. It depends on my mood. Like, some days I really care, and some days I really don't care at all. I don't know. I need to learn how to be a little bit more detached. I don't really like. Okay, this is my problem. Is it? I don't like people. I don't. People think I like people because of my job and being on social media. Like, I like people, but I don't like with a lot of people, if that makes sense. Like, I keep my circle really small. I actually. I saw a term for this the other day. I don't remember what it was called, but it's like, when you're extroverted, if you have to be, but your truest nature is introvert. There's, like, a new word that they came up with, and that's me. It's like, I can turn it on when I have to, but I get, like, drained socially. Really, really easily.
- [17:14]
B
Omniver.
- [17:15]
A
Yeah, an omnivert. That's me. And, yeah. Anyways, so if I like someone, it takes a lot for me to like a guy. Especially, like, it takes a lot for me to like people and like. Like, be like, okay, like, I'd hang out with you. Like, we can be friends. Like, that's a lot. Like, I have a lot of acquaintances, but there's not many people that I'd be like, I would spend my free time with you and, like, actually, like, enjoy it. There's people I can tolerate. There's people I can just, like, be around. But there's not many people that I'm, like, excited to hang out with and, like, genuinely want to invest time in them. And then on top of that, like, with guys, like, it's like, it takes so much for me to get to that point. And so what I do.
- [18:06]
B
There's no stopping that train. Yeah, it is. Fall esteem when you have.
- [18:11]
A
When Savannah Bota chooses you, you're fucked.
- [18:14]
B
Yeah.
- [18:16]
A
Can't escape me, bitch. No, but I'm very attentive, loving, and kind.
- [18:21]
B
That is true.
- [18:22]
A
Mm.
- [18:23]
B
And patient, impatient.
- [18:26]
A
You know, I know I'm a lot I have big personality. I'm very decisive.
- [18:35]
B
Stubborn.
- [18:36]
A
I am stubborn, but I can. But it's funny, because I feel like with guys, I'm, like, kind of a pushover, but I'm stubborn in any other aspect. Like, in my business and my, like. Well, you, because you're, like, my best friend, but I feel like acquaintances. I'm a pushover. Like, if I'm not, like, close to anyone.
- [18:56]
B
Can we roll back? What, do you want to start over?
- [18:59]
A
Why?
- [19:00]
B
Go back to acquaintances? No, go back to acquaintances. So you're no longer stubborn with me.
- [19:06]
A
You want to be my acquaintance. No, that's crazy. Yeah, but then if I, like, in a serious relationship with someone, it's like.
- [19:16]
B
There'S a whole new surprise coming.
- [19:17]
A
They're like, I thought she was chill. I'm not.
- [19:23]
B
I think they know you're not.
- [19:24]
A
No, I think they know I'm not. I'm not really that much of a pushover.
- [19:28]
B
No, you're not. I feel like you used to be. Yeah, but.
- [19:33]
A
Yeah, no, I have good boundaries. I'll give it back to them. If they try to give it to me, I'm gonna give it back.
- [19:39]
B
Mm.
- [19:41]
A
But, yeah, I mean, I haven't really been going on, like, dates, per se. I have.
- [19:44]
B
Like, you've been seeing people while you're out on the town?
- [19:48]
A
Yeah, like, casual. Very casual. Really chill. Real casual.
- [19:54]
B
A little text here on the side every now and then.
- [19:57]
A
A little what?
- [19:57]
B
A text. Like, some text exchange. But there's been no dates. There should be.
- [20:04]
A
I keep blowing people off.
- [20:06]
B
Yeah, you do be doing that. You're busy. Well, you've been busy.
- [20:10]
A
That's the issue is, like, I like to start, like, as friends with someone and then get there romantically, or, like, hang out with them in a setting and then be like, oh, like, I really fuck with you, but I fear. Yeah, I don't know. I don't want to talk about it.
- [20:26]
B
Okay. They may be listening, you know?
- [20:35]
A
They may. They may not. The world will never know. Yeah, but, I mean, it's cool, guys. It's really fun. I highly recommend it to everyone.
- [20:52]
B
What'd you say?
- [20:54]
A
I'm asking her if her man stole my camera. Oh, it was in my purse. Or, like, did it fall out? Did the valet guy steal it? But not my cash. He knows that that camera is valuable.
- [21:11]
B
It's somewhere.
- [21:15]
A
I'm gonna crash out. Honestly.
- [21:21]
B
I think that's all we have.
- [21:22]
A
For y' all now. I wanted to talk about. Yeah, actually, no, there's a little bit else I want to Talk about we're going into the year of the horse.
- [21:38]
B
Okay, tell me what that means.
- [21:39]
A
This is a one year, It's a cycle beginning, renewing. So cycle has ended and we're starting a new cycle. Last year was year nine, so we go in nine year phases. Okay. Um, last year, well, currently still actually is the year of the snake. We don't really get into the year of the horse until like February. So you basically guys, you have like eight to nine weeks to get your fucking shit together or you're going to be in another nine year cycle and the horse moves like it's not going to wait for you. So if you have any habits that you want to break, any life changes you want to make, career, friendships, relationships, personal growth, wounds from your childhood, from past relationships, or just being in an area of your life that you don't want to be right, now is the time to make that move or you're going to be repeating the same cycle and you'll reap the karma of it. I'm very religious, but I'm also very spiritual, which confuses a lot of people. And that's fine because you're not me and you don't have to understand me. And I get everything I want in this life because I truly embody like both of those practices. And I've talked about this before, but my truest beliefs is everything's through God. Like tarot crystals, all of these things. Like if you're not idolizing them and like putting them above God, but you're using them as vessels to hear his message. That's what I believe. Again, a lot of like super like black and white Christian people are not going to agree with that. I know that that's fine. We can agree to disagree. This is what I've struggled with, internal conflict because I felt so judged by Christians and have always been super intuitive, super spiritual and huge about manifestation. And prayers are manifestation. I mean it's truly speaking out what you want. And God listens, your angels listen. And so I have a lady I work with named Brenda who I love because she does everything through God. She prays over me, she prays over my son, but she also uses tarot as like a means to connect with my highest self and my angels. And she's predicted everything. It's actually crazy. She knows a lot and I try not to like rely on that too too much because I did for a little bit. I kind of went like where she told me everything, but I know everything already. She's just like validating A lot of the stuff. And just, like, really good at, like, character judgment. Because sometimes I try to give a lot of people, like, the benefit of the doubt. And there was a certain situation recently where I was trying to give someone the benefit of the doubt. And Tyler's the king of not trusting me, because my intuition, I knew what to do. And that's, like, one of my biggest beefs with you is that he's very, like, he may be gay, but he is the most male straight thinker. Which is one of the reasons I feel like we get along. Because I feel like Ryan has more of a feminine brain than you, but you definitely have a more masculine brain. Like, you're very, like, logic. Like, don't think too deep into stuff. Like, you're very black and white. You've gotten better, though.
- [24:43]
B
But I don't think it's that I've gotten better. It's that I just let you do what you want to do now.
- [24:49]
A
But I don't always try, because I'll be like, this person's a piece of shit. And he's like, no, no, no. Like, they're just. You know, they care about you a lot. And then what happens? We find out they're a piece of shit. And I'm like, I told you this.
- [25:00]
B
I mean, I still think it was part what I was saying and part what you. You know what I'm saying? I think it was somewhere in the middle. Like, I think that. I think that over me, but I think they were trying to pull one because of what I was saying.
- [25:11]
A
Yeah.
- [25:11]
B
You know what I mean? Like, I feel like it was somewhere in the middle. I just didn't. I. You are right that I didn't think it was to the level that it was. Yeah, it was kind of shocking. It was shocking, not gonna lie. But you knew.
- [25:23]
A
I knew. And I knew what those other two people, too. Remember?
- [25:27]
B
Now I know now our code is breaking. I don't know who we're talking about.
- [25:31]
A
You know what I'm talking about? The people that you like, defend. Like, it's your own mom.
- [25:36]
B
Oh, yeah.
- [25:39]
A
Yeah. Save me with that shit. Anyway, so. Yeah. Anyways, so basically, long story long is get your shit together or stay stuck and behind. It's time to release all of the horribleness.
- [25:58]
B
We also expanded our team. Have we talked about that?
- [26:04]
A
Yeah, kind of.
- [26:05]
B
It's been good. It wasn't good. And then now it's very good.
- [26:08]
A
Yeah. Everyone's, like, kikiing and getting along, so it's really. As a boss, amazing to See, I love to hear the laughter of my children in the hallways. And everyone's just getting along.
- [26:22]
B
And we are currently hiring for a retail associate and a client coordinator for Savannah herself. We are already doing interviews this week. This is coming out in, like, this is coming out next Monday. So if we don't find the person, the job will still be up. You can still apply. Please try to be local. It kind of scares us if people are relocating for us. But if you live in the Dallas area, you want to be a client coordinator or a retail associate to sell all of our amazing skincare at the spa, you can go on indeed and find her job postings. And this time, I'm not doing the hiring. Alyssa is, so she's probably nicer than I am, which is all I got for everyone.
- [27:12]
A
I'm a little bit concerned about this camera being missing because of the contents on that camera.
- [27:17]
B
Oh, it was the bedor shoot.
- [27:19]
A
Yeah. Because my maternity, a newborn photographer is trying to get into boudoir. I think that's how you say it. Photos. She's like, well, you model for me. Like, you just got titties and you're divorced. And I was like, you know what? That's out of my comfort zone. And I'm trying to push myself to do a lot of things out of my comfort zone since I've been the most vanilla, boring ass bitch for the past 10 years of my life. Like, literally never had fun like Tyler. I've been having a lot of fun.
- [27:47]
B
Lately, and I love to see it.
- [27:50]
A
I used to just think work was life. I literally would be like, why would I go?
- [27:54]
B
She'd be mad at me because I'd.
- [27:56]
A
Be, like, encouraging someone, let's go have dinner. And I'm like, no, I'm gonna stay home and work. And funny enough, I'm still making good money, not doing all the work that I was. But I also think I'm at a point where I can.
- [28:08]
B
I think, yeah.
- [28:11]
A
Yeah. But I need to lock in a little bit more. I've been a little bit out of it.
- [28:16]
B
Savannah loves extremes.
- [28:19]
A
Yeah. I've been having a good time. I have been living my 20s. I never got to do that. And so I need to get it out of me a little bit, I think. Remember when I said I hate the clubs?
- [28:30]
B
Mm.
- [28:31]
A
I think I kind of like them.
- [28:33]
B
Yeah, but you've been. You haven't been going to clubs.
- [28:36]
A
No, I've been going to, like, little. Little dive bars. I got really good at playing pool. Really good is crazy. I'm not bad.
- [28:45]
B
She can hit.
- [28:46]
A
I'm not good. I'm not bad. I'm. I can hit it. I'm trying to get better though. So that's been fun. And it's fun to just get attention. Like I feel like I never really, you know, it's nice. I will not talk to any of them. But I like the attention for now.
- [29:06]
B
They're all gross.
- [29:06]
A
They're all gross.
- [29:08]
B
Like, where the, where are the good looking ones at?
- [29:14]
A
So, yeah, it's been cool. It's been fun. Yeah. I met a couple fans out on the streets. It's been cool, it's been fun.
- [29:24]
B
Now I just need to get her to pick up her new house and move it over to Dallas.
- [29:30]
A
No, this phase will end soon. This is like a. This is just a phase.
- [29:37]
B
It's just a phase.
- [29:38]
A
It's just a phase, dad. It really is just a phase. I mean, I'm not gonna be fucking 30 going to bars on Friday nights. And I only go the weekends. I don't have my son.
- [29:48]
B
Yeah, but I think you may be.
- [29:49]
A
And it's cuz I'm sad. Like I don't want to be at my house alone without my child. Like it's fucking depressing. So I go to the bar.
- [29:56]
B
That's fair. But I feel like the more you like get into this phase of life, the more you're gonna maybe build connections with, who knows, other women, other stuff. And like having dinner.
- [30:06]
A
Yeah.
- [30:06]
B
And it's not like trashy.
- [30:07]
A
Like I don't even really drink. Like I just kind of walk around with a beer.
- [30:11]
B
Yeah.
- [30:11]
A
I vibe, I dance and I mingle and I kind of observe other people. And I feel like I get like, I get like the vibes of. Without particularly being in the vibes by watching their vibes.
- [30:26]
B
Yeah.
- [30:27]
A
And so it's like, I feel like I'm drunk. Yeah. For you. Like I. I'm just seeing it happen. And yeah, at first I really disliked it. But then I think I was a little bit, maybe a little pretentious, a little bit judgmental. And I just realized that, you know, sometimes girls just want to have fun.
- [30:45]
B
You were like, you know, like those stereotypical like in movies, like the nerdy girl who never wants to like go to the. Like, she's like all like in the corner and like doesn't socialize and then she becomes the. Well.
- [30:55]
A
Cause I feel like I was really out of my comfort zone. Was like really, really out of my comfort zone.
- [31:02]
B
You hadn't socialized in years.
- [31:04]
A
Yeah, like if I was socializing it was meeting fans. Like, I haven't met people that aren't fans, so it's kind of weird to meet people that are not fans.
- [31:11]
B
Yeah. And you have to make them like you.
- [31:13]
A
Yeah. That's hard. And then. Yeah. And then I also had this, like, thing where I was, like, stressed that, like, people knew who I was, and they're like, if I, like, did anything or, like, I don't know. I just got worried that someone would be like, oh, like, I saw Savannah Boda doing xyz. Yeah. Not that I was like, I'm doing, like, hard drugs or, like, anything crazy. Like, I'm not. I just, like, also, like to keep my personal life pretty private. And that was also, like, a thing because, like, remember New Year's when we tried to go out and, like, I could not even, like, enjoy myself because every second someone was like, oh, my God, is that Sabina? But, oh, my God. And I was like, I want to kill myself. I want to be like, a free bird. Like, I want to just vibe and not, like, how people know who I am.
- [32:00]
B
Yeah. Like, it feels like you can't let loose.
- [32:05]
A
No, it feels like I can't let.
- [32:06]
B
Loose because then those lies start where they're like, did you see how drunk and she was?
- [32:11]
A
Or, like, she was all over this guy, and it's like, that's not what happened. But thankfully, that hasn't happened yet, because I am not sloppy, nor am I all over men.
- [32:24]
B
Or. Are you having anything more than one beer?
- [32:27]
A
No. I am a good, good girl. I'm a mommy. But I do think that it's good to let loose a little bit sometimes and have a little bit of fun.
- [32:39]
B
I agree. Welcome.
- [32:41]
A
Yeah. Do I think it'll last much longer? No. But I do think, you know, I gave up my entire 20s for my business, and I think I gaslit myself into thinking fun was overrated and. And that work is life. And you guys gotta tell you, it's fun. I fear fun is fun. I never thought I would say that.
- [33:04]
B
Yeah.
- [33:04]
A
I mean, I was like, I don't want to use this man as. I don't know what's. What's a strong man? That's not Hitler. That won't get me canceled. I'm gonna just say it. I was like Hitler to myself when it came to work. I was so strict. I was just so. Deep into, like, work. Like, I literally hated fun. I was the hater of fun.
- [33:37]
B
She did. She was.
- [33:39]
A
I thought fun was, like, for children and. Yeah. But also, I was like, Drowning in my marriage and, like, severely depressed and masked Work as, like, everything's fine. I'm just working.
- [33:53]
B
Yeah.
- [33:54]
A
And also, too, it was like. I think I might have said this on the last podcast, but if not, my ex was, like, pretty controlling, which is crazy, because, like, he just was. And I feel like, can you pay attention to me? Can you hang up and hang out? Thank you. I feel like if I wasn't at work, he was, like, up my ass and around the corner. Like, where are you? Who are you with? What are you doing? Like, even if it was, like, a work dinner, you know, he'd be, like, psychotic about it and think that I was, like, fucking all of my reps that are old men that are married. And so I feel like work was, like, the one place that, like, if I was working, like, I wasn't being badgered or controlled. So.
- [34:45]
B
Yeah, no, you don't have to worry about that.
- [34:47]
A
Yeah, it was just, like, the anxiety and, like, the frustration of being called a million and 12 times and, like, questioned and.
- [34:53]
B
No, I'm excited for you. I'm, like, really happy for you. And even though this may be a phase, I think that, like, I think it'll be really good for you to be.
- [35:05]
A
Yeah, maybe I'm stressed about this Camera social.
- [35:10]
B
Is that all we have for them? Year of the horse, buckle up.
- [35:17]
A
Year of the horse, buckle up.
- [35:19]
B
Love you guys.
- [35:20]
A
We love you guys. Happy New Year.
- [35:22]
B
Happy Christmas. Yeah, it's. This is coming out right before New Year, so this is the last episode of 2025. Thank you, guys all for listening this entire year. And we're gonna have more Energy in 2026. This year has taken it out of us besties.
- [35:41]
A
Yeah, it really has.
- [35:43]
B
Bye, y'. All.
- [35:43]
A
Bye.