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Listen to the full 46 minute Between Friends episode. Go Directly to this Patreon Episode "Working Through My Memorial Regrets" https://www.patreon.com/posts/working-through-156666776

Picture this: a memorial service meant to honor someone you love… and instead, you're sitting there in your own head questioning every decision, every moment, every what-if. Chalene walks through the pressure, the chaos, and the internal spiral happening in real time. It's emotional, uncomfortable, and the kind of behind-the-scenes honesty you only hear on Patreon.

This story is part of The Saturday Spill series a little peek into the wild, unfiltered stuff that usually stays on Patreon. Some weeks it's hilarious, some weeks it's jaw-dropping, but it's always real life that doesn't quite fit on the regular show. If you're into a little chaos and behind-the-scenes tea, you're in the right place. If you love it, amazing…you can listen to the full, unedited version here http://Chalene.com/more