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Dispatch episodes are short and off the cuff, recorded while I'm doing horse chores. If sensory inputs like crunching hay, chewing animals, or occasionally laboured breathing and sniffles aggravate you, this episode may not be for you! Please see your podcast player for transcript options.

In this episode, I talk about the deeply rooted defaults of Eldest Daughter Syndrome and how being heard and truly seen utterly breaks me.

Referenced in this episode:

TNP301 Muted by Maximalism: A Study in Power Analysis

Not referenced, but related: TNP233 Understanding Moral Injury with Dr.Robyn Walser

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