On episode 4 of Season 8 of The Surviving Siblings Podcast®, host, Maya Roffler is joined by Michael Tobin, who shares the raw and unfiltered story of losing his older brother, Jimmy, to homicide in 1992. Over 30 years later, Michael reflects on how this traumatic event shaped his life, his family, and his ongoing mission to keep Jimmy's memory alive.

Michael recounts the joys of growing up in a big Irish-Catholic family in the Bronx, the tight-knit neighborhood where breakdancing, graffiti, and hip-hop shaped their youth, and the bond he shared with Jimmy—a wisecracking, creative, loyal soul who was beloved by all who knew him. But in April of 1992, that world was shattered when Jimmy was chased down and killed just 100 yards from their front door.

This episode explores not only the devastating loss of a sibling to violence, but also the long-term impact of unresolved cases, complicated grief, faith, family dynamics, and the lifelong journey of honoring someone gone too soon. Michael's story is one of heartbreak, healing, and finding strength through memory, community, and creative expression.

In This Episode:

(0:00:00) – Meet Michael and Remembering Jimmy

Michael shares about growing up in a big family in the Bronx in the 80s, surrounded by hip-hop, graffiti, and a strong sibling bond with Jimmy.

(0:03:00) – Jimmy: The Artist, Protector, and Big Brother

Jimmy's love for graffiti, music, and community come to life, along with heartfelt memories of his protectiveness and humor.

(0:06:00) – A Brush with Death: Jimmy's 1990 Car Accident

Michael recounts how Jimmy survived a devastating crash at 16, learning to walk again—a trauma that predated his murder.

(0:08:00) – April 3, 1992: The Night Everything Changed

Jimmy was ambushed just a block from home. Michael describes the events leading to the homicide and its immediate aftermath.

(0:14:00) – A Phone Call, A Car Ride, and A Life Shattered

Michael shares the harrowing moment he found out about his brother's death while staying in Long Island.

(0:17:00) – Delivering the News to Jimmy's Girlfriend

In one of the most emotional moments of the episode, Michael describes having to tell Jimmy's girlfriend about his death.

(0:18:00) – Wakes, Funeral, and Unimaginable Loss

Three days of public grieving culminate in Jimmy's funeral—a moment that changed Michael's life forever.

(0:22:00) – Reading the Eulogy: A 15-Year-Old's Defining Moment

Michael reflects on writing and reading a letter with his siblings to Jimmy—an act that would shape his voice and purpose for decades.

(0:26:00) – The Long Grief Journey: 30 Years of Remembering

Michael discusses the evolution of grief, the anger, the love, and the unshakable commitment to never letting Jimmy be forgotten.

(0:29:00) – Graffiti Memorials, Tagging, and Street Reminders

He shares stories of tribute murals, Taz tags, and how graffiti became a way of keeping Jimmy's spirit alive in the neighborhood.

(0:33:00) – The Case Still Unsolved

Michael speaks on the pain of unresolved homicide cases and the faith his mother held onto despite the lack of justice.

(0:35:00) – Faith, Anger, and Letting Go

He recalls his mother's unwavering faith and how he eventually turned a corner from hatred to honoring how Jimmy lived.

(0:38:00) – Closure Isn't Real, But Perspective Is

Maya and Michael discuss the myth of closure, and why time doesn't heal—but allows you to carry grief differently.

(0:42:00) – Friends, Support, and Found Family

Michael expresses gratitude for the friends and chosen family who carried him through the darkest years.

(0:44:00) – Coping Without Answers

They dive into the reality of unsolved cases, lingering pain, and how the pursuit of justice often looks nothing like TV.

(0:49:00) – Advice for Siblings Grieving Homicide Loss

Michael offers heartfelt advice for those stuck in anger, seeking justice, or waiting for closure that may never come.

(0:51:00) – Family Dynamics, Different Grief Journeys

He reflects on how each sibling grieved differently and how his mother's legacy of "stay together" held the family through decades.

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