David (59:21)
Well, I think that's all by design, right? It's like crush you with every aspect of life, your. Your. Your finances and your work life and your, you know, just everything. Societal pressures. It's. It's really well crafted, you know, that's what there's. People of the school have thought of coincidence, you know, which is where you definitely get that whole. We all came from a. Something the size of the head of a pin and it exploded into everything that will ever exist. And it was just a coincidence that all these elements lined up and created. Okay, fine, yeah, you can have that. But from where I'm standing, It doesn't make sense for it to be coincidence. And then you have to kind of tip your hat to the really. One, the elegant design of the universe. But then two, the elegant design of the deception is fucking bananas, dude. Like, it's so well crafted, it works better than any well oiled machine you're ever going to come across. You know, I say it oftentimes because I, I think like the, the, the conspiracy community is so fractured, we're all arguing, like, is it Flat Earth? Is it Hollow Earth? Is the lizard people real? Are the aliens aliens? Are they demons? And we all, like, fight amongst each other. And I, I'm like, man, we're all victims to the greatest propaganda machine that the world has ever known. And there's never been one so sophisticated. And we're all subjected to it. But you only have 10 minutes, so you want to go. So I gotta get this story in because this is like, go ahead. Yeah, me. This is, I, I call it like the, the one thing I can contribute, right, like, to the community is my own testimony. And this is where I turned a corner and I was like, oh, yeah, Christ is real. So me and my family, my wife and my son, we. We pack up everything into a Hyundai Elantra and we drive from New Jersey to Las Vegas. So we're gonna go hack out a life in Las Vegas. It's 42 hours and we get there and everything's real cool. I land with my cousin. It's good to see him. Haven't seen him with a long time in a long time. And, you know, get a job and everything's pretty cool, but it just doesn't feel like home. And, you know, my wife misses her side of the family and I'm missing like, my friends and everything from back home. And then we end up having an illness in the family and it brings us back to New Jersey. And even though we had enough reason, I couldn't help but feel like I, I took advantage of that reason when it showed itself. Like, I was glad to see it. You're like, whoo, finally a reason so I don't have to be a. I can just say, oh, we had to go back. You know, that's what I felt like. I felt like I was defeated and I saw an out and I took the out. And so when we get back to New Jersey, we land with the in laws, and the in laws are Jehovah Witnesses, and it's real hard to. I wasn't raised religious and they don't like swearing and the conversation is very sterile and I don't do that. I'm so bad with that. I like a real conversation. I can't do that sterilized kind of formalities thing. And but this is all excuses. What I should have done was I should have just rose to the occasion, been a good son in law, you know, landed there for a little bit, got up on our feet and then got out into an apartment and thanked these wonderful people for giving us a place to stay and you know, taking care of us while we were there. Instead, like a bum, I like, I became a recluse and I went inward and I, I stayed in the room all day. So I'd go to work and I'd come back home. I'd go to the one bedroom that all of us are in. There's two air mattresses, one for my son, one for me and my wife. And I'm just playing red Dead Redemption 2 all day. And you know, nighttime rolls around, I go to sleep, wake up in the morning, rinse and repeat. I'm not having conversations. My son and my wife are downstairs with the family laughing and talking. My wife is embarrassed because I'm not there by her side. Instead I'm reclusive. I'm up in this. So, you know, you start to have all these things seep into you, right? Like anxiety and anger and depression, resent and all this shit, you know. And I think that those emotions, that state of mind, that's energy for these things to feed off. Today's episode is brought to you by purge store.com. what if I told you that more people have died from parasites than have ever died from war? What if I told you that diseases like cancer, multiple sclerosis, acne, rosacea and rheumatoid arthritis can all be treated with parasite medication. Rid your body of these all too common parasites by using Purge Parasite Cleanse. Purge Parasite Cleanse is made with ingredients like zinc, carrot powder, garlic, black walnut. These are all natural ingredients that keep you safe while killing the parasite parasites. And while you're on purge store.com try out their digestives to promote healthy gut bacteria and aid in digestion. These as well as any other products on purge store.com can be purchased with a promo code. Nephil N E P H I L I m will save you 15 off of your entire purchase@purdstore.com so that's why what I attribute to what sort of what started happening to me. So it's kind of like takes place in this four night long nightmare and the first night, you know, I had done the rinse and repeat. I come back from work, I play Red Dead Redemption. My wife brings me a plate up to the room because I'm too much of a loser to go eat with her family. And, you know, and then I go to sleep that night and I start waking up to something what feels like a something banging on the door downstairs. Like, boom, boom, boom, boom, real hard. And I know there's a construction site outside, and I know it's still dark out, but maybe they're asking us to move a car or some shit. So I pop up and I look out the window. Nobody's there at all. Like, all right, I've been into this shit my whole life, right? So I didn't even get to escape that one incident without being like, was that knocking on me? You know what I mean? Like, was something knocking on me? Because it wasn't knocking on the door. Nobody else noticed it. My wife didn't budge. Nobody in the house got up to check the door. So I go back to sleep. As soon as I doze off, boom, boom, boom, boom. I get up, there's nothing there. I look out the window. Nobody else notices it. Now I'm really kind of reinforcing that. Like, is somebody knocking on me? And I fall asleep. Happens a third time. This time I just pop my eyes open. Like, I'm not even. I'm not gonna get up. I know it's not real. I know now that it's me, it's not the door. I don't know what that means, you know, doing a lot of speculating. And it's hard to get back to sleep. But it. It's scary. That morning comes and I don't talk about it. And I always kind of say, like in the horror movies, like, how come they never talk to each other? How come, you know, one character sees a ghost and he doesn't let the other character know? And I start to understand why that is, because nobody can do anything about it. And. And if you look at it, it's like you're giving it attention.
